The Real Reason I Haven’t Been Making Videos

[@crazyrobotlady3391]

Wow! Thanks for being so vulnerable here. If making videos does not bring you joy, then pull an Elsa and let it go until you feel ready to come back. You have already given us a body of work and experiances we can all take inspiration from. Prayers from a batty blind woman struggling to bring robotics to the blind and visually impaired.

[@CaylawithaC]

Thank you. I love the Disney reference.

[@knownow486]

I hope everything goes well I'll be praying for you God bless

[@UnsightlyOpinions]

Hey Cayla! I appreciate you sharing something so real and personal. It’s a really tough thing to go through and I empathize deeply. As a fellow anxious type it takes a huge amount of courage to do what you are doing and it makes a huge difference to so many. Your content has been so incredibly informative and influential to my own journey and I couldn’t thank you enough for that. I hope that as you are able we get all of the content you mentioned. Sending my best wishes to you and your family.

[@_en_]

👏🏻❤️❤️

[@CaylawithaC]

Thanks so much ❤️

[@melanies.6139]

Great to see you, Cayla. Wishing you all the best with your fertility struggles. You’d be a wonderful mom. Hang in there. 💕

[@asecretcourtofcrowsandcloc4084]

It’s great to have another video from you, thank you for sharing your experiences and current life update. There’s no need to make videos if you don’t enjoy them or if you just don’t have time or energy. Make them if you feel like something that will make you have fun not another obligation

[@secquellaburkett3230]

Hi I know exactly what your going though I also explained that when me and my husband was trying to started a family. I also have a disability and when thorw a lot but I want to encourage you to keep trying.

[@rafaeltorovip]

Thanks Cayla for sharing so personal information. For us, your subscribers, your physical and emotional health should be the most important thing to consider. Putting out content is important but your wellbeing is more and should be always your priority. You Tube video creation should be seen as a hobby and just an fun opportunity to share information and entertainment. I hope you continue searching for your physical and emotional health. Happy new year to you and your family.

[@ramblingmillennial1560]

I'm really sorry to hear you've been struggling with fertility. I can only imagine how hard it is for you. I really hope in the end you can have a baby. I would definitely watch a series documenting your pregnancy and how you go about raising a child as a blind woman as it is something I worry about all the time as well.

[@jenelynsuyat608]

Great to see you Cayla 😊 I hope you'll continue making videos 🙏

[@tp06]

Hi Cayla, It's great to see you. Thank you for sharing such a personal matter. My heart goes out to you and your husband. As a VI person, I've been encouraged by your channel. I look forward to future videos, whatever they might be about.

[@BoysAreSmellyo]

Dear sister Cayla. I'm so happy for the update. Definitely missed you and the bright light you bring to the world. I'm sorry you're going through infertility. I remember you've mentioned a few times that you love the smell of babies so I can't imagine how hard the struggle is not being able to be a mother until now. I will read Quran for you, from the verses of Mary. May God grant you a baby when it is the best of times for you to bear a child. Casual videos would be appreciated. It would be great for me to see how blind people can live and enjoy normal lives without blindness being the centre of focus.

[@CaylawithaC]

Thank you so much for your thoughtful comment ❤️

[@kaitlinfarmer8159]

Sorry I’m just now seeing this. I don’t end up on YT super often. Thanks for sharing your heart. I’d love to know more about the specific challenges blind people face in infertility treatment, if that is something you have the emotional capacity to get into at some point. Thinking of and praying for you guys often!

[@CaylawithaC]

You don’t have to apologize. I appreciate your comment in your prayers ❤️

[@katharinahuang3941]

Missed you! 💚 Sorry to hear what you guys are going through. Hang in there!

[@kevindavis4709]

I’m glad you’re doing well I been wondering how things are going thanks for being an inspiration on KZbin.

[@BlindSquirrelCarpentryy]

Welcome back Mrs. Cayla. Just like everyone, I, thank you for sharing such a deep and personal matter. You ought to do what you think is best for you. I love the idea of random vlogs. I think it will work for you with your bubblely personality. I have faith that Father God will bless you and your husband with a little one. Much love from Texas.

[@peanutpablo9596]

Praying for you!

[@xanthippikipou2531]

We had missed your serenity, your energy and ideas, we wish you the best supergirl , we appreciate every video you make but do not want you to feel stressed about videos, all my love and positive energy ✨🌻🌟

[@CaylawithaC]

Thank you so much ❤️

[@nikkiwunderlich3570]

Hey, I just wanted you to know that while you might be going through a rough time now it will get better. Things will get easier and things will get better and ask that other person stated you’re not obligated to make the videos if you don’t want to you don’t have to, it’s not like someone’s holding a gun to your head saying make these videos or else so what I would say is just take the time you need for you and do what you need to do for you and if you still have the drive to make videos for KZbin after you’ve done what you need to do for you and taking the time for you to either become pregnant or heal from it or what have you then you can consider coming back to it

[@AshleyMorgan8386]

Cayla, keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

[@sarahlovesdonuts9601]

Cayla, I can imagine that this feels really unfair. As a person with an extremely rare genetic disease, not having children has been quite difficult. We all have such unique experiences, but we are all human. I want you to know that I’d love to be of support to you and others. Hang in there, hugs

[@bryantbodnar]

Cayla, You did not have to share this news. I have no idea what you're going through, being a guyou. , I love you're videos, but I do not question when the people I subscribe to don’t post. I would love to see you document your journey when this struggle comes to an end. Praying for you.

[@md-md1748]

I was just diagnosed with RP and just watched your video about genetic testing. I watched this one right after and I realized how important it is to have kids for you because you had asked doctors repeatedly if you can pass on those genes to your kids. from all my heart I hope this works out and you get your way with this one in life. Your videos mean a lot. I was just diagnosed with RP and you inspire and reassure me. I’ve been saying to myself that I won’t be able to find the girl I want and who would want to marry me, and been saying that I won’t be able to work or enjoy life as vision loss progresses. It’s been a difficult month. I live in NYC, I’m an MD, and you and I are the same age. I am heartbroken because of this diagnosis, but I try to think positively. Thanks for making those videos, you’re helping myself and others

[@CaylawithaC]

Thank you so much. Hang in there. I know it’s hard but it’s absolutely possible to have a great relationship and career even with the vision loss

[@moharagrawal]

Hey cayla, so great to see you. Please do make the videos mentioned above as someone who has also thought about motherhood and what all I should consider while making the decision Side note : casual videos like covers, what I got for Christmas, vlogs would be great❤

[@CaylawithaC]

Thank you for saying that ❤️

[@Nurglewaffle]

Hope your fortunes improve with the fertility thing! If so, and you're comfortable, I would be interested in hearing about your journey as a blind mom! ...but you should make content the way you want, when you want, about what you want. :)

[@Ben0001]

I’m sending you my best wishes, Cayla.

[@DogfatherTim]

Cayla. Im visually impaired and your videos have been a great help. If you do some of those easier topics, thatd be fine with me. KZbin videos are great but you have to live your life. Hang in there!

[@myvisuallyimpairedlife5674]

Cayla , I had to leave a comment on this video. I can understand in so many ways what you're going through. I have been wanting to make videos for the last almost a year and a half. Even have some footage up in the PC ready to go but can't find myself to upload. But what I really wanted to comment on is the fact that you guys have been trying to have a baby for what seems like a while. Well I am going to tell you that is not long at all and keep trying. My wife and I have been together going on almost 20 years. Just before I started going blind we found out that we were having a baby girl. It took us 6 years to get that result. In fact, we had just given up and thought it was never going to happen. And then before you know it boom goes the dynamite!! Lol. Our daughter is now 6 years old. Going on seven and I have two teenage boys that are now men at 18 in almost 19 years old. And I am so grateful that I was able to have that little girl. I wanted so bad. And she is a 100% daddy's girl. Princess. So I have at least eight more years before my heart attack. When boys start knocking on my door. Lol. But I won't keep chatting you up. I just wanted to say do not and I repeat do not give up! It will happen. Don't listen to a doctor say even if they tell you like they told us it's just not going to happen. It will still happen. Just keep faith in God and every time you pray. Thank him for allowing you to get the gift of a child. If you believe it already happened it will happen. And just think of the best thing in the future for you and your husband. You will have a brand new face to bring to Disney world with you. There is nothing better than reliving our greatest moments in our lives through our children's lives. Seeing the joy in our kids brings back not only memories but new and improved ones for the future. God bless

[@CaylawithaC]

Thanks so much for your comment ❤️ we are definitely looking forward to taking that baby to Disney

[@myvisuallyimpairedlife5674]

@@CaylawithaC both my wife and I said that if we were 35 years old and did not get pregnant and we would give up. Just before I turn 35 that my daughter was born. I am so forever grateful for all my kids. And I am even more grateful that my wife and I had never decided to give up early. I hope your husband and you have a great Christmas and a happy new year. Looking forward to future videos.

[@elterrifico9522]

Love your videos You are the best!

[@adamguymon7096]

I'm sure that being blind that there are doctors out there that may not think that you can take care of a baby and I know I have heard that there have been other blind and disabled people who have had problems especially when they were trying to leave the hospital. I'm not sure if you have had any of these fears but I know that it must be a very hard struggle to get pregnant but I'm sure that you had to go through a lot of thinking when it came to having or wanting to have kids. Not every blind person will pass their blindness down but there are many different things that people need to think about and many questions and missions people have to ask themselves and doctors when thinking about having a child. You could always make a cooking video or a video doing something else where you are showing us how you do something like a blind person.

[@CaylawithaC]

I have heard many of those kinds of stories as well and it is something I am concerned about, but fortunately I haven’t encountered anything like that yet

[@alookinsideablindlife5143]

Thank you for sharing I know it took a lot! ❤ I feel as if no male even have feelings for me.. because I am blind and or I can’t see their social causes. I would love a video on that ! Also if you can’t have a baby their are other options you could adopt ! ❤

[@kamikasanchez-garcia4199]

I wishing you well in growing your family. You would be a great mom. Hang in there.

[@CaylawithaC]

Thank you so much! I really appreciate that

[@BlindManWalking]

As a soon to be blind father of a newborn, I wish you and Ethan, the best of luck!

[@CaylawithaC]

Thank you so much and congratulations to you

[@sweetypie442]

I would like to see all the video ideas you mentioned in this video.

[@keithe2150]

Being blind, offers a lot of challenges to people who are blind, that the same people cannot even begin to understand. I don’t understand the pregnancy part :-) but I understand being anxious and wanting to be perfect. I will clean my house for three hours and then have somebody come in and find a fork on the floor and ask me if I really want to fork in the middle of the living room :-) I go to doctors appointments and they seem to know I am blind when I walk in the door but then they try to show me stuff or they don’t explain it very well. I understand your challenges and do look forward to your videos and I would wish that God would hold you and your husband who I believe is name is Ethan, save in the palm of his hand, and bring you through this to a happy baby. Take care of yourself, send this iMessage when you can and when you feel about it but it does not have to be 100% perfect. We all understand better to have it not 100% perfect and see you or hear you tend to expect perfection all the time take care of yourself you’re still the best. Thanks for your enlightening video :-) you’re a big buddy Keith.

[@CaylawithaC]

Thanks so much for your comment ❤️ I can also relate to people knowing I’m blind and yet still trying to show me things

[@keithe2150]

@@CaylawithaC I find it’s always over there if I would just know where there is, I would be happier :-) as they say now that I moved to Tennessee, bless their heart :-)

[@aliceocsalevpwd3454]

Its ok cayla, me too o dont have a kids, its hard but GOD knows best, just pray

[@aliceocsalevpwd3454]

Thanks for the heart cayla 🤍🙏

[@uncommonpurestbeauty]

Thank you for your vulnerability. Blind parenting and pregnancy would be very helpful in my opinion but don't stress yourself. Huggles. Year end review would be cool.

[@LeyeShprintse]

BS’D Being vulnerable is not a weakness but a strength. It just shows that you are human. Battling infertility is a crisis and impacts your whole life. I am blind while my husband is sighted and we are going through Halachical (religious) infertility and it is heartbreaking. Boruch Hashem (thanks G-D), we are newlyweds, so, we still have a strong hope that we will hold our precious baby in our arms soon, be’ezras Hashem (with G-d’s help)! Hugs! And all your content ideas are great! I love your videos! ❤️❤️❤️

[@CaylawithaC]

Thank you for sharing and good luck to you

[@elfascisto6549]

You're not really obligated to do these videos, don't force yourself to make them. If you really want to give an update to everyone you can always just write a community post.

[@karenjarvis5862]

I'm very sorry. I have infertility too, and it is very overwhelming and stressful.

[@CaylawithaC]

I’m sorry you’re going through that too. Best wishes to you

[@MaxAngor]

It took my mom 8 years to have me and 3 more to have my brother. I know you'll be able to knock it out eventually. Don't worry about youtube. I had to retire too because the fibro keeps getting worse and Chip is a needy dog. Life happens. It is what it is.

[@richardsfe]

Hello Cayla

[@laurietrayers]

❤

[@tomhocutt2013]

Curious to know what dogs have told you about the possibility of passing LCA onto a child? Yes I’m interested in whatever you have to offe us

[@CaylawithaC]

My husband and I have both done genetic testing and my odds of passing it on are essentially 0%