The Scariest Thing About Estrogen

[@aliceinwonder1and]

this is my favourite story! if it impacted you, please consider sharing it ;)

[@raphifou999]

@@aliceinwonder1and it impacted me…. I dont i know if its a good or a bad thing tho

[@Aplays996]

This touches he hard 😢

[@KrazzyKelsie]

@@aliceinwonder1and ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@fionasabre]

It did I'm 6 months into HRT now after 17 years(I'm 32 now) of internalized transphobia and can't even slightly describe how happy I feel now. Especially because literally everyone of my family and friends love and support me for who I am. I finally feel free and only over my dead body I will go back into the closet and anyone who will try to push me there, will have to fight me till death🏳️‍⚧️

[@Dragowolf_Rising]

My journey was very different, but your story is no less powerful because of that. I've known since I was 6 and was afraid anyone would find out. Especially my mother. I was 35 before I finally decided to stop fighting against myself and start fighting FOR myself.

[@michimatsch5862]

That "all boys wanna be girls secretely" thought is so real. When I understood I was trans and had accepted it for a week I asked a friend of mine about a thought I was having. "If I am trans, does that mean most men want to be men?"

[@adina-the-nerd]

To this day I'm still suprised boy don't want to be girls.

[@michimatsch5862]

@adina-the-nerd I understand that it is probably true on a rational level. On an emotional level I don't even comprehend the concept.

[@solsystem1342]

​@@michimatsch5862 I think meeting transmasc people was what really made it clear that I wasn't playing the right part in the first place😅

[@Aliyta7868]

It's even more real when it was something my dad told me. I'm so glad I did not follow in his footsteps and chose to listen to those feelings instead of surppress them.

[@donttalktomeplzimsad]

hey I have a question! why do you like being a girl? coming from a girl who never wanted to be one.

[@Big6C]

Transitioning is fucking scary and sometimes i wonder if its worth it but whenever i have doubts i come back to this community- this family and that helps. Thank you Alice

[@aliceinwonder1and]

You’re welcome xx im rooting for you

[@svens3722]

i remind you, you cant go back. and the most suicides to trans happens after the transition.

[@DoguDoge]

When I have second thoughts, I think of boobs, and all the bad thoughts disappear 🙏

[@Dragowolf_Rising]

Some battles are big and some go unnoticed by others, but it's always worth fighting to be yourself. I wish you luck, safety, happiness, and victory!

[@adrienstarfaer]

Yeah, it can be scary, absolutely. But it's absolutely worth it, and you're not alone.

[@TheRealWitchD]

ALICE HOW DARE KZbin HIDE THIS VIDEO FROM ME FOR… *checks notes* for 24 WHOLE MINUTES. Also on a more serious note your video “click this video to become a girl forever” cracked my egg. Cracked isn’t the right word more like threw it across the room and stomped on it. So thank yiuuuuz.

[@aliceinwonder1and]

You’re welcome haha

[@spohnarthur8347]

the black and white pre transition to color after it a great touch

[@AmbyreUwU]

This video really hit home for me and reminded me of my own experience on HRT. It’s been just over a year and two months on that pill for me. I still remember getting the call that my prescription was ready when I was walking to my car to head home from my first day of college. I drove to my pharmacy and picked up my Estrogen and Spironolactone and couldn’t believe it was finally time to start living as myself. I got home and immediately took my first dose. Though the effects certainly hadn’t taken hold yet I felt a warm fuzzy feeling all over my body and especially in my heart. I couldn’t help but begin to cry as I realized I would know this feeling for the rest of my life. I was overjoyed. And though the changes have been slower than I would like and coming out to people as my true self has been stressful, I am the happiest I’ve ever been in my life. Instead of waking up dreading the next day I look forward to each and everyday. Beginning HRT was the best decision I’ve made in my life and I can’t imagine my life if I didn’t.

[@aliceinwonder1and]

Awww that’s really sweet

[@notdancooper923]

Seeing boymode Alice is so uncanny, like it's almost believable but something isn’t quite right

[@aliceinwonder1and]

Hahahaha

[@blackveilwidow902]

I'm not crying ,you are😭

[@aliceinwonder1and]

hehehehe I am evil

[@siralexander8125]

​@@aliceinwonder1andAs always

[@Kittenfolk]

You’re right, I am 😭

[@rebeccasam3434]

@@Kittenfolk me too. I watched it again and showed my mom and cried the second time too It’s SO raw and close to home. It’s really, really rough for girls to have to be boys 😕

[@Kelly-tt9le]

Soo many of our stories overlap, for myself the timeline was stretched over 5 decades. The changes aren't as pronounced, but I am happy in my body, and my life.

[@eyarberman-roth7868]

I'm so happy you're happy, Alice! Transitioning did wonders for me too! Much love

[@aliceinwonder1and]

I’m happy for you xx

[@eyarberman-roth7868]

@@aliceinwonder1and Thank you, I deeply appreciate that! Also, love your videos--you rock! xx

[@KensaiProductions]

I guess I'm stubborn, it took me 58 years to come to that conclusion.

[@aliceinwonder1and]

I’m proud of you anyway

[@kellyloganme]

You and me both, love. I don't think it was just stubbornness though. The eighties were not kind to the gender queer.

[@Lauren.j.m]

56 and I fought it since I was 20. I'm really happy for you. Keep going.

[@comic_mistakes]

Omg this is so well written. "She couldnt believe she was a girl but any alternative would be impossible." That line hits so hard

[@IllusiveChristie]

Sweetie i pray it was that easy for you. I lived with a racist cheating bigot. Conversion therapy. And ended up giving up when i was told i wouldnt see my 40th birthday. I shut everyone out, unfriend everyone, and went to my favorite place, where they wouldnt find me. That was going to be my 4th time. My daughter stopped me to talk to me. She now they told me about how they have been feeling. We cried and never left. people online helped me to get her help being nb/bi. I started my therapist because i didnt want to go anymore. They just celebrated their 2year anniversary 3 days ago And myself 18 months. For once in my, life if you can call it that, because until recently i dont think i was alive. I felt completely worthless, ashamed, and unloved. When people say hate to me it doesnt even phase me. Its the complements and being treated like an actual human that really make me break down. Be yourself.. whatever you may be.❤

[@WandaThePanda]

The cis urge to gather as much information as possible about estrogen

[@OliverParker-r4d]

3:19 I can feel yukko's presence. Like the duolingo owl. But with voice training!

[@Toaster-of_random]

You my sir made me remember my duolingo at 11:21pm thank you

[@OliverParker-r4d]

​@@Toaster-of_randomYou're welcome🫡

[@PatchyTheP]

Alice has mysterious origins…

[@aliceinwonder1and]

they shall remain that way

[@Endtherinbetween]

OMG ITS THE PLANT LADY IN GOOD PIZZA GREAT PIZZA, NICE PFP

[@aBeerFromHere42]

Yes, she suddenly appeared

[@PatchyTheP]

@Endtherinbetween hello fellow good pizza great pizza enjoyer

[@PatchyTheP]

@aBeerFromHere7994 it's almost like she's always been here…

[@KelseyinWonder1and]

Holy shit Alice, I may use this video when I come out to my dad over Christmas, scary yes but I think this'll help tremendously, to think a 5 minute video is this informative. Love you girl. :)

[@aliceinwonder1and]

Awww im so glad i could help

[@midgegc]

Don’t be scared about coming out. You got this! I believe in you! Hope it all goes well

[@drunkshinx]

same

[@lupham8296]

I believe in you! (･v･)b

[@D-LuLusional]

This was actually so moving. I started socially transitioning a year ago, and I still haven't gotten my estrogen yet. I was having second thoughts, but this video affirmed me and the direction I was taking. Thank you Alice.

[@Tr0lliPop]

I like how subtle the reveal of the transition was. It's literally just one pronoun in one sentence, a different pronoun in the next

[@sonoramurphree6538]

wow sounds like my transition except my journey was suppressed until my 40s

[@iHunterrrr]

I took 3 things from this: 1.: this video was absolutely beautiful, and everytime i see something like this i´m feeling a bit better and a bit more confident 2.: holy moly, she´s crazy good at the guitar 3.: POP-UP HEADLIGHTS ON THE CAR! DOWNHILL DRIFTING GO WROOM!

[@caleborg5688]

alice attempting to present masculinely and still looking more feminine than me is a mood

[@janeplayz1420]

HRT has made me so much more emotional. Pre I would just think "yeah I can relate" to this, but now I'm full on crying. I love estrogen.

[@goatcheeseomlette]

Just found your channel today. I'm 51 came out as bi when I was 49 and 2 weeks ago I admitted that I am trans. My loving partner of 25 years could not have been more supprtive. She gave me a dress to try on the day that I told her and she has taken me out shopping for clothes and underwear, helped me pick some nail polish and even brought me a nightie to sleep in. I told our oldest children and they have been fantastic. I'm still not "out" so I try to look more nonbinary and wear womens jeans with a t-shirt, but now I am on the path. Thanks so much for that video.

[@SashaEstradiol]

the black and white filter pre transition to everything being in color after the transition is so relatable and such a nice touch because it's so relatable and so fitting. before finding out who you truly are, life just feels dim, mundane, and it just feels like you're living the same day everyday, and nothing changes or makes you feel happy. Then, after transitioning, it feels like everyday is a new adventure, life has meaning, it feels like you can finally breathe, and most importantly, you're much *MUCH* happier. thank you alice, what an amazing story

[@Therenegaderoses]

The scariest thing about estrogen is how hard it is to get it :(

[@kazeryu17]

That was very relatable, especially the part about looking at a beautiful woman and feeling envy rather than lust. The first thought to cross my mind was always, i wish i was able to look like that. Unfortunately, i was a tough egg to crack, so i wasted 30 years of my life lying to myself until one day, my brain was like "by the way, your transgender". Unfortunately, i think i waited too long, and it sucks because when i look back at myself in college, i would have had such an easy transition as i already had long hair. Now. I am cursed with male pattern baldness, and i live in the US, so just getting my hands on one of those pills would be a daunting challenge that would probably take me years, if not a decade. To add insult to injury, apparently, HRT potential could have stopped me from loosing my hair. As of right now, im just angry. Im angry at society for filling my head with the bullsh!t that kept me from accepting myself for who i am, and im angry at myself for not seeing the truth and dragging myself into the hole i currently reside in today. I always had this feeling that the universe owed me something, and now i know what it is, and i doubt that I will ever get it. I just hope that some day, no one has to feel what im feeling.

[@funcat3560]

The scariest thing about estrogen is probably the taste if you don't swallow it quickly.

[@Aspen-ut1sd]

This just reminds me so much of my own story. I worked on cars, I was in STEM classes, I was into traditionally masculine sports and activities. But Something had never been right. Occassionally thoughts of "being a boy sucks" and "I wanna be a girl" slipped by, but I never thought much of it, until one day it caused me to cry nonstop, before I figured out I was trans I'm about 2 years into my transition, and I've had several people tell me that I seem happier now than I ever have the entire time they've known me, and that is something that is so special to me. It has helped my mental health so immeasurably that other people who have known me for a long time, saw the sudden change of a lifetime. Alice, you're an icon

[@p.tibbs0545]

Alice, as someone who has struggled with this for almost 4 years, this touched me. I'm currently trying to live as a normal guy. I'm telling myself I'm okay with being a guy, knowing I'll never get smiled back at, knowing my fantasies are not reality. I'm a boy. I'm a boy... but God I wish I wasn't. I always have. And I always will. Maybe one day, I too will take the pill. If this feeling of emptiness or dread continues, I shall try it. I'm looking for something. I know what I want. But is it truly achievable? Or will I lose everything at the cost of a "maybe." Is it a risk I'm willing to take? For now, the answer is no. I'm a boy. But I wish I wasn't.

[@oldenandgolden]

"an entire universe in his head" is a crazy line i never thought of

[@freakishuproar1168]

Thank you making this Alice. Despite knowing you and where you are in your life, I was watching this story with my heart in my throat. All too often I hear stories about trans people that don't have happy endings, and despite being a cisgender man the harsh reality that so many trans people have to contend with distresses me to no end. Transitioning seems like it's hard enough without also having to tread on eggshells around the sensibilities of wilfully ignorant people who have no intention of learning anything or accepting anyone who's different. I've become all too aware how easy it is for cishet people (cishet men like me in particular) to simply ignore the plight of any other group of people, I don't want to be like that, I want the deliberate and hateful apathy towards other people's right to stop.

[@CameronLeeTheFourth]

As a half-closeted half-out cis man/trans whatever this made me cry for the first time in months. Thank you.

[@Motherbound]

wooooah I've just recently found out im a trans woman, and your story was SCARILY similar to mine. I literally felt the words "wTF ME TOO!!" words conquer my stomach. Especially the thoughts of "yeah all dudes wish they were a woman, we just never talk about it", along with other things I've screamed to the god i previously dedicated my existence to. I've been watching your videos b4 coming out, and you've been a big inspiration to me. Keep it up!

[@sardethgames4394]

got this minutes after voting, my fyp knew i needed a pick-me-up

[@Plucque]

Thank you for your videos, I find you inspiring. I’m 44 years old, and less than a month ago, I finally decided to become the woman I’ve always wanted to be. I’ve just shared the news with my entire family and my employer. I’m so happy! For the first time, I can recognize myself when I look in the mirror. On December 20th, the man I used to be will give way to the woman I aspire to become. Hugs and prosperity.

[@ChristesII]

I'm literally starting HRT on this Halloween. The jokes write themselves.

[@HansLemurson]

I was not quite prepared for how scary this would be, currently going through a lot of turmoil about gender. Scared of where the changes are taking me and my identity, and both hungering for and frightened of anything that stirs up the desires to be a woman. 6 months on hormones and it's all becoming joyfully and terrifyingly real.

[@Tachii31]

Absolutely loved it. The "all boys want to be girls" hit home. In hindsight, it's really weird that I needed that spelled out for me.

[@hhhhhhhhhhhhhnhhhhhhh]

I want you to know how much this swooped in at the right time, I was seriously feeling guilty for how even so far I've affected my family and with HRT "2-3 weeks away" level of approaching too fast for the guilty part of me to be ready I'm glad to see someone can do this just for themself. There is no "you are trans" designation you are made aware of at birth and regardless you just have to take that brave first step when you know it's right for you. Thank you, really.

[@aliceinwonder1and]

That’s absolutely right. Good luck, girl im rooting for you

[@Grimfang999]

Im starting this journey. And have been plagued with doubts on 9f this was right, on if I should no do this, if this is just me trying to find an answer beneath all my mental health. This video made me want to cry so hard. It put everything into perspectives and encapsulated my hopes and dreams. Thank you. You have brought me ever closer to certainty in this decision I am very soon to make ❤

[@echo4418]

Beautiful vid Alice. Thank you 🙏. I came out in 2017 and joined the waiting list in January 2018 and began my hormone treatment summer ‘21. It’s not easy, in fact if I’m being honest it’s definitely the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life. But I had to do it, I had no choice. I spent 35 lying to myself and everyone else in my life because of fear. Now I am free, those demons have been defeated and my strength and my love holds my world together. I love you all so very, very much. And your own truth loves you all too. Be your own truth, not other’s lies. Claire (Scotland) xx

[@secretlab0716]

Damn this was a powerful story, it’s important to make sure all are safe and get the help they need. Remember to be a stalwart ally and to help protect the right to medical care, transitions/gender affirming care, and to live free. Now more than ever, stay strong y’all got this!

[@aliceinwonder1and]

[@Eleon_Alosty]

I know I'm not the only one who felt seen in this video. You described how I've felt for so many years and through your content and many others I built up the courage to start my own transition, having those difficult discussions with my self and those around me. Starting on estrogen scared of what the future will be like. Waking up each day feeling more comfortable in my own self and body. Simple and beautiful. I hope this message reaches all of our dear community those who are visible, those who are hidden, and those who are still seeking the answers. You are beautiful and you deserve to be happy with your self and do not let anyone around you tell you otherwise.

[@aliceinwonder1and]

Thank you, that’s really sweet and I’m glad I’ve been able to help you feel seen xx

[@jimjones7912]

Wonderful story! I just had 6 month visit with my Endocrinologist, HRT is going well! I'm 80, I told the doctor that I didn't want to sound too dramatic but that he was helping to save my life! All these many years of depression and anxiety were un necessary, if Disphoria had been a word avaliable long ago! This little movie made me weepy, thanks Alice!❤

[@lilyflair]

I started E almost 2 years ago to the day (November 16th :D). For the first year, I was so scared to be open with it that I didn't take the blood tests to know I was messing up and had basically no changes in my levels. I got managed to get the courage to talk to my doctor and we fixed it soon after so I've had the normal first year changes finally happen. My family isn't the greatest in regards to support so i've mostly been winging it, guessing what clothes I like, trying the minimal makeup and hair changes I am confident enough to do. In the last week or so, I've been constantly thinking "I'm never gonna be pretty enough" "I'll never be seen as a real girl". I was having thoughts like those as I saw this and now I'm crying. Not because of the usual doubts but because you've given me some hope that my goals will happen some day. Maybe not soon, but eventually. Thank you Alice.

[@Skylikesavation]

4:03 the recording glasses appear in this emotional scene

[@ShannonMcKinnion-q9k]

This is exactly how I feel, 18 months into my journey.

[@otepfan8562]

"OOooOOoo and then they realized they were... TRANSGENDER!!" *all the republicans in the crowd scream 3 faint and 2 look at their hands realizing the start of the story was relatable to them.* Thank you for putting this experience into words.

[@anonimes4005]

Holy shit! The storytelling, the cinematography, colour grading, editing. This is just amazing!

[@RogerVenn]

I love this so much! A couple of my friends are currently transitioning. Their transformation has been nothing short of amazing! I hope someday they’ll feel just as beautiful and gorgeous as you do. Liking in support 💙

[@BlahajE]

this hits close to home, transitioning is one of the scariest things i ever started in live but also one of the most important and fulfilling journeys i ever embarked on

[@yunyaa-]

I'm finally starting HRT next week and I started crying. I almost can't believe these changes will also happen to me 😭

[@doratheshade]

Goddamn, that transition was so fucking beautiful! Not me here crying like the baby I am, lol

[@SeanVeira]

What an amazing video. Great production values. Alice’s best works to date. Also congradulations on become who you are meant to be.

[@aliceinwonder1and]

[@Omti9]

Thanks for making this video, you've really hit the eggxperience well and what transition does for you. Far more serious than your usual fare, but very appropriate. I wish videos like this had been around when I was 20. Ah well, better late than never.

[@pearspeedruns]

I’m 24, and videos like this finally cracked my egg last month. I’m so grateful for all the trans content creators making beauty on KZbin. ❤

[@catgirl_3rica]

I was honestly having some trouble and self doubt about my transitioning, and watching this video reminded me why I'm doing it... thank you Alice. really thank you

[@ArtemisV94]

This video made me feel so validated, and tickled me how it mirrored my experiences so much. Thanks for putting this video out. It's a fantastic representation of how it feels to wait to finally see your real self staring back in the mirror. Edit: this video also reminded me to take my pill again lol thanks for reminding me

[@reindeerdashie]

I'm 38 years old and 16 months on HRT. I spent the first two decades of my adult life thinking it was completely normal to not feel emotions. HRT saved my life. I wouldn't be alive today if it wasn't for estrogen. ❤

[@emergingbutterfly76]

I have to say that this resonated so damn much with me. It took me 45 years to understand who I am and always should have been. I am slowly working towards that goal to finally see MYSELF. I am on the verge of losing a wonderful 19 year marriage and my adult son who doesn't understand. But I have quit drinking, quit trying to numb myself. I mentally feel better and I have real emotions now. I absolutely love this video and will watch many more times as I battle a never ending battle to now be ME.

[@TgPepper]

That intrusive inclusive line was a bar

[@dr_roomba]

This gives me hope. One day, my friends... one day.

[@prestonbruchmiller497]

Watching this video made me remember that it was time to take my hormones but then I was crying and had to rewatch it another 5 times reading through all of the comments and now as I’m typing this comment my estradiol is dissolving under my tongue and my tears are starting to dry on my cheek. Good luck everybody

[@celdaemon]

I wish I had the courage to do anything related to transitioning, but I'm really happy things like these are possible ^w^

[@cineblazer]

7 months ago, my best friend came out as trans. We have a *lot* in common, and we'd talked a lot about gender, but somehow it still blindsided me when she told me. I was also surprised to find that her coming out had triggered a massive wave of questioning for *me!* I hadn't ever seriously considered the prospect that I might be trans before, but she "made sense" to me more than any other AMAB person I'd ever hung out with. So I figured I needed to do some investigation of my own. Unfortunately, that investigation started off a bit rocky, because I was in love with them at the time (in fact, they were also the reason I figured out I'm bi lol), which caused some... _conflicts of interest._ Eventually my feelings (and the associated conflicts) faded, but intriguingly, the desire to be a girl didn't. It's a bit more subdued and reasonable now, since it's no longer partially fueled by romantic obsession, but it's definitely still there. So now I face the fascinating prospect that I... might want to actually *do something* about this. I might *actually* want to transition and live as a woman. I've set myself a "decision embargo" of one year. I don't want to rush into this. I won't necessarily make the decision to start HRT the instant March 2025 rolls around, but I won't allow myself to make it any *earlier* than that. I want to be *sure* this is what I want for myself. I'm a bit scared, but ultimately I trust myself to make the right choice. I'm increasingly sick of being a man, and I long for a life where I can complement a woman's outfit without her fearing that I'm a creep, where I can dress myself up and look pretty without worrying about people thinking I'm bizarre, where my desire to have emotionally deep connections with people won't be seen as unusual, where I can look at my reflection in the mirror and think "yeah, that's really me!" After a lifetime of thinking I'm just a "sensitive boy," I'm finally exploring alternative ways to live, and it's a bit nervewracking. I'm taking a few lower-impact steps right away-laser facial hair removal, growing out my hair and taking finasteride to halt my early-stage male-pattern baldness, and crossdressing in my free time to learn a bit more about myself and how I want to be perceived. I don't know if all of this will actually lead to transition, but I'm okay with that uncertainty-what matters is that I'm listening to myself here and now and I'm open to multiple possible futures. Transition is a big choice to make. I want to be extra double-plus sure that it's the right one before I commit to it. But god, it feels nice when I see my reflection in the mirror from just the right angle and momentarily classify myself as "girl" instead of "boy". I understand this feeling is not exactly typical for cis people :P Thanks for this video and all your other videos, Alice. You rock!

[@Analog_Bot]

Today was my first day on HRT. There have been a couple of times today where I started to question what the hell am I'm doing. But there's really only one way forward... I needed this today, thank you.

[@Keira-k3n]

It's crazy that you uploaded this about 15 mins after I found out I'll be able to go ahead with a medical transition. This was incredible, thank you so much for making this :3

[@BradyT-gg5]

I cannot express you in words how accurate the presentation is here. You seriously nailed it to a T. I really related so much to this as fellow trans fem. Thank you so much for making this! And happy Halloween!🎃

[@Feralki_]

Incredibly well told, holy shit. Also the strangest way to see someone also enjoys hat films..

[@vanessaleblanc2583]

First off, I think you’re amazingly creative. The story cuts to the core because it’s so relatable. Thanks and stay amazing, Alice!

[@JoelTheParrot]

the difficulties with accessing it? aww that's a great video, great job

[@Swampy0]

Damnit Alice, stop being so relatable, my egg of queerness is more cracked, I don’t want it to break… I would need to change my gAccount name!

[@StephinaDenton]

I am 100% balling.... This is something I really needed to hear. Thank you so much Alice for sharing thing, I know you didn't have too

[@BetterThanEmber]

This is artistically magnificent, emotionally powerful, concise yet compelling, and absolutely nails the point. This may be your best work yet

[@Hufi2.]

*days when by* "WHERE TIDDIES?"

[@DoSLG]

Genuinely almost had me in tears 🥹

[@griffincrump5077]

I’m still in the “nebulously living as a boy” phase, hopefully that will end sooner rather than later

[@TsukikoAiuchi]

This is one of my favorite videos ever and honestly gives me so much hope. I've barely noticed any changes and i've been on estrogen for a lil over a year now.

[@ayanjoemusic]

Thanks for this Alice. Started my social transition a month ago. Not hiding myself anymore. Moving to HRT soon. This helps.

[@ajpiemin]

Stop telling my story! Seriously though, too relatable. Thanks for making this. 🖤🏳️‍⚧️🖤

[@lexidarling]

This October marks my 20th anniversary of beginning transition. What an incredible video to celebrate that with.

[@lostkea6501]

The bit starting at 4:39, about turning away from what you had been to a bright but scary future...it slipped through the cracks and touched my soul. That's one of the sticking points right now for me, the sense that I can't just give up on all these years. Nor, on the other hand, can I go back to the way things were before I found community with others here. I just have to focus on the fact that everything he went through, all his life experiences are things I can draw on rather than mourn. On the plus side, I've found a lovely FB group through my LGBTQ+ housemate, and I hope to be able to get the ball rolling on finding a therapist this week to help me unpack things from a professional angle. It's all part of the adventure.

[@kingcobragaming8551]

My trans gf is actually how i found ur channel to begin with while im not trans im bi gender the story definitely impacted me im glad that ur happy thats always the most important part and that u have a very welcoming community as well here's to many more amazing vids alice!

[@DaBaSoftware]

I'm sitting here with my messy hair and spotty stubble, and I am loving every second of this 💜💜

[@PigeonTheTransGirl]

"in the blink of an eye she was holeding a pill" omg that got me in tears

[@robynrox]

In these trying times, thank you for putting out your uplifting message. My story does not start the same way as yours, but it ends pretty much the same. So far. The scariest thing about oestrogen for me is if it goes away. I'll say no more about that here though!

[@aliceinwonder1and]

[@alpaga4820]

Well, I'm pretty far from bringing my own "fantasies" into real life but I'm working on it, and I'm making some slow but steady progress. Thank you for this video, and godspeed to all of us o7

[@StaffyLee]

I clicked on here expecting to get the usual hilarity, but instead I ended up bawling my eyes out. Way to tell a story Alice! But you are right, the scariest thing is that someone might actually be complete with HRT. I'm patiently awaiting my GP appointment in 7 days time to get my first HRT prescription, and the scariest thing about that is the possibility the appointment might be postponed, or that the GP decides there's something in my blood test he wants to check out first.

[@Theasaurus2]

First, thank you so much for making this video, you've put a lot of really hard-to-explain things into some very succinct words, and I feel SO seen. I'm so happy to have this video now to share with friends and use as a conversational launching point to talk about these things. Just passing the 6-month mark, I've been saying that estrogen has felt like when your head finally starts to clear after an all-consuming flu or cold or bout of food poisoning, when you go "oh my god that's right, THIS is what I'm supposed to feel like, I can actually think now, I didn't realize how much of a weight that was!" Also had to rewind the video because I got entirely too distracted by seeing a 5150 and a guitar with suspiciously heavy-looking strings (and a sticker I couldn't identify lol) never stop the shred 🤘

[@aliceinwonder1and]

14-68s in drop A babyyy

[@Theasaurus2]

@ good lord I have 10-65’s on my 7-string right now and THOSE feel annoyingly heavy lmao

[@quinn_tessa]

Feeling so called out / recognized right now. The only regret is that one did not start sooner.

[@TheStealthyOne6]

aye, good job, sis. i'm glad you were able to make it here. cheers, to a future without overbearing limits on others, where people can just be people.

[@justa8]

Amazing video, I have to wait 5 years to even attempt to start the process of getting medical help ( as I am 13 years old and out to 4 people) so it is going to be a long wait but when the day comes it will be the best I ever lived. Amazing video. :3

[@aliceinwonder1and]

:( im sorry for that

[@stdesy]

Eat lots of licorice, soy, mint and flaxseed oil in the meantime

[@Nele_the_egg]

Ok my heart is pumping and I cried a little. I can’t wait to finally get my first dose

[@DangerAngelous]

The villain origin story, and redemption arc in one 💚💚💚

[@alliekittenzx]

Came here from the memes video call out. did not expect to get stuck in the feels and nearly cry 😭😭🥺🥺

[@JigmeDatse]

I've been sitting here like 2 minutes trying to figure out what to say to this. It's beautiful. I think it's the best video of yours that I've seen. I saw it in my recommends, and was needing "something silly," which absolutely this is not. I'd been watching other trans content (starting from stuff that felt like it wasn't great takes by Trans people on a different trans creator, but then very much transphobic bullshit). This wasn't silly, but I think this was better than if it had been one of your silly videos. Powerful.

[@GruulAnarch]

Really wholesome, but I kept waiting for the punchline about being bi

[@jenaf4208]

3 months HRT and its amazing. It just feels right. Waking up feeling comfortable in my skin is new and amazing. Too bad i still cant cry yet, but that will come. The main thing that makes transition scary is other people and comming out of that convenient, yet suffocating shell I had used for decades to survive.

[@bardicmagic5784]

I haven't actually cried in a really long time. Fuck/Thank you Alice.

[@iseylif98]

I’ve been on E for 6 months now. It really is like a whole new world has been opened for me. I constantly find myself smiling over the smallest things, laughing more, and just overall being way happier than I ever thought was possible. All thanks to some tiny blue pills.