This was the hardest year of my life.

[@ValmeyjarWolf]

As a recently hatched transgirl, I want you to know your content played a major part in the egg cracking. I hope you have a long, fruitful vacation Alice.

[@LadyOfTheEdits]

Always nice to see a happy hatchling :3

[@Kaiserin_Emmeline]

I like your pfp. Welcome to the fold :>

[@VhenRaTheRaptor]

Hey Wolf. Haven't seen ye on discord much.

[@Blaczolt]

One thing I thought while I was an egg is “I’ve been being recommended a lot of transfem KZbinrs, haha, is this a sign or something?” It was.

[@sovietdoge.7369]

Same

[@QALibrary]

This must be bloody serious Alice is wearing her classes with lenses in!

[@xfucjygkvlkbjhgcvm]

I like classes too

[@aliceinwonder1and]

For real lol

[@xfucjygkvlkbjhgcvm]

@@aliceinwonder1and its dec 30 not dec 31st are you really that powerful that you live in the future?

[@Theartkidinthecorner]

Alice isn’t blind for once!!/hj

[@KelticKabukiGirl]

I think the slight glare looks cute actually

[@rinkuraku5251]

70 hour work weeks will absolutely destroy your health, and add in surgeries and not going as planned, you are absolutely an amazingly strong woman. We should all take you as an example to aspire to. Just maybe not on the 70 hours thing.

[@MannFace51]

Take care of yourself girl, burnout is very real. Nobody’s immune to it. Pushing yourself too hard usually yields diminishing returns regardless. Do things for yourself - take care of numero uno first. We’ll always be here 🤗

[@aki_toasteruwu]

From someone who had a burnout with 21, make sure you dont overdue anything for longer than a few weeks at a time. Take your time, take a break if you need to, dont worry too much about us leaving. I cant speak for everyone, but at least for me you arent replaceable. You arent just another gaming channel with a funny person saying funny things, i couldnt watch another youtuber and get the same sensation. And because of that, you wont be replaced if you leave and take a break, so dont worry. Take care, put yourself (health and happiness) first.

[@nerdjournal]

It has been a pretty rough year. I got sick at the end of last year. All I can say is. Live life while you still can. We really don't know what tomorrow holds, so... Don't wait for it.

[@Rileydaengineer]

You can take a break girl we won't mind

[@ArcticsVenom]

When I was 18-22 I worked 8 hour days with an hour commute, and I basically got home and crashed. I cannot fathom doing that and running a channel of this quality, that's nuts. Enjoy the time off!!

[@Ribeanie]

I love how you're like "I was trying to do 2 things at once" like no girl, you were doing a fulltime job, a video a week, merch management, advertising campaign all while dealing with untreated GORD. Enjoy your break, you deserve it :3

[@Dexter-we8oi]

Wait. That requeries at least a 72h work +week+ in a week of 168 hours. Did Alice just Broke Time Space Laws or something? 🤨🤔😱O_O. I would collapse after one week of that.

[@YoureSoBald]

Thank you for also saying Happy Hanukkah! Very few creators talk about anything but Christmas.

[@kevinnosx9]

Kwanzaa gets dissed again.

[@Lizard_Ri]

Happy Hanukka! Celebrating it too here c:

[@arloblackburn]

Take a break when ever you want. You are one of my favorite content creators. Love everything you do and happy new year.

[@KurtShell]

Captain Kurt here, commander of your Most High’s American Straight Ally company. I too suffered from acid reflux earlier in the year. My doctor prescribed Omeprazole for me. May I humbly suggest that your High and Mighty Majesty try that for your condition. I’m also happy to hear that your Extreme Majesty has quite her job to become a full time KZbinr. But don’t forget, KZbin doesn’t really exist. It is an illusion concocted by Daryl to cloud your mind. Great things are coming your way in the near future. That’s all I can say about that at this time. Maintain your great Majesty’s integrity throughout the coming year. Your Army needs you to set an example for your humble enlisted men and boys. Hail Alice.

[@BrianJ1962]

Omeprazole is the business!

[@Ribeanie]

And if omeprazole doesn't work as it didn't for me Lansoprazole may be a good alternative (as it was for me)

[@Evilwetness]

"Live the life you Love, Love the Life you Live!"

[@umiy6299]

This hits home really hard for me, I've felt that exact same exhaustion, working two jobs for almost 3 years in order to get out of poverty. I've been out of it for a while and it almost completely killed my creative drive. But it's nice to see that you're understanding the problem earlier than I did. I believe you'll get past this and thrive, you have a good mindset

[@Niki1A_]

Don't stress yourself out over a regular upload schedule. I've never even noticed you have a regular schedule. I just watch your videos, whenever they pop up for me.

[@li3bchen_]

Instead of a hundred thanks just let me say that you, Alice, are a legend :3

[@QALibrary]

Alice - have a huge hug - you are a wonderful person and an inspiration

[@Almamu]

9:00 I've been battling similar issues for 5/6 years already. That shit sucks balls, but with some time you'll learn how to mitigate it. Stress is the worst offender for me, I had to learn to take things slow, let my body rest, not push myself to the point of exhaustion and had to make some dietary changes. After all this time it's looking like I have a gluten intolerance that doesn't show on tests that might be the culprit of all this mess and I'm starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Be strong Alice (we know you are), you'll get this under control soon and will not bother you anymore. Much love, we're here for you!

[@Almamu]

16:00 Let's fucking goo!! That's going to give you some breathing room to help with that stress management I was talking about. Congratulations! Hope everything keeps going up!

[@BeckiLynn_N]

Alice, as an older woman, let me give you some advice. I have worked 70 hour weeks at jobs I've hated. What I invariably received was laid off and left out to dry. I now work 70 hours a week doing what I love and am enjoying it. In the end all you have are your memories. Do what you love, make memories. This is the only life we get. Make it one for the record books. I love how you inspire thousands of us. Love ya Kid.

[@jamiehaas54]

Happy Hanukkah to you as well, and thank you for saying that! So many people only say Christmas… especially with it actively BEING Hanukkah right now, and Christmas was several days ago. Take as much time as you need, and we’ll be glad to see you when you get back!

[@TheRealLanMisa]

Damn, girl, that sounds like burnout incoming - and your stomach issues may also be stress- and burnout- related. I totally feel you regarding all the stress - I am currently all of working, doing university, doing my transition and dealing with a family member having a life-threatening disease all at the same time. And I too noticed that my energy reserves get lower and lower and lower as a result. I know this is something you most likely won't heed but still is something I feel like you need to read: If you don't make sure to get yourself enough rest you will ultimately destroy yourself and this would be the worst possible outcome. You are far too important and amazing for the community, for us, for me, to go out like this. I'd rather have you at half productivity but for another 70 years rather than you burn out in two... I know that you left your job but still, don't try to fill up your time with KZbin completely or else you'll just exchange one type of heavy stress with another type of heavy stress... 🤗 Also yeah, I wish you the best of luck with your hobbies and friends and don't fall into the rabbit hole of also trying to monetize/KZbin all of these encounters (that is: don't jobify your free time or else you'll still be constantly stressed!)

[@SarahBringMeBack]

Sending so much love and support, your amazing Alice!!!

[@jacewilliamson4698]

the correlation between general illness and excessive work is definitely more then anecdotal. I am currently pursuing a gastroscopy for GERD symptoms as well, while also trying to get a prescription for spiro and estradiol as well. Please look after yourself work-wise Alice, we are all here for you, hopefully 2025 is a much more stable year for you

[@SeanVeira]

As a manager, I have had a number of employees ask/demand additional hours. In fact more than one person has wanted to work 12 hour days, 7 days a week. Had to tell them no. Too much more work and no social life or proper rest leads to disaster. I tell you this to impress about Alice the importance of a proper work/life balance. Take care of yourself.

[@iateitguy903]

About a month ago my managers started cutting my hours a bit because they noticed I was exhausted, and asked if they could bring them back up. They refused and explained what they saw in the situation, and it forced me to look at it as the break it was. The exhaustion is still there (and I'll look into professional help once everything else settles back into place), but it's much more manageable now so they're slowly working me back up to a normal schedule. The people you work with might not understand your decision at first, but I'm sure in the end they'll see you have their health in mind too.

[@secretlab0716]

I’m so happy to hear Alice new plans, her channel has truly has been a gift to my life. After finding her channel during a really tough couple months I have love to see the channel grow. Hell she made it to 50k subscribers just to hit 60k subscribers almost immediately after. I’m telling y’all with the quality of her content and how much joy she brings, she will do amazing things with her new career. TBH I’m going to try a get a membership after the new year, it’s tough because college is expensive. But with how valuable her videos have been on my darkest day. She deserves all the support she can get. I would encourage everyone who can get a membership to get one. Great channels are rare these days. Let’s try and make her dream come true. Alice is you see this you have been so strong it will be tough but you are a bad ass you got this! I have faith that you have the humor, likability, and video quality to make it into the major leagues. You’re a star that burns bright and you are unstoppable.

[@Lauren.j.m]

It has been quite a year, you bring a lot of joy to those of us who are transitioning and considering it. Just for the record, Thank you.

[@nregames8447]

Damn, that feeling of just being soo tired I felt that deep within

[@TheChillOne15]

I honestly just want to say thank you for making this video. Watching it has been comforting because my anxiety over living in the u.s. has been getting worse, and hearing someone I look up to talk about their issues has made me feel.. not alone. So genuinely, thank you

[@RubySnipa]

The 40hr office job + 40hr focused on gaming content creation grind completely obliterated my social life & self-care. I don't regret my decision to step away from it entirely. In the US you can get a prescription for Omeprazole, not sure if NZ doctors will do that. I was prescribed it for GERD & take it daily. Congrats on getting to the point where your channel can support you completely.

[@MauiDown]

Your drive, resilience and stick-to-itiveness is inspiring. You should be proud of yourself! The effort you've put in here is very much noticed and appreciated, and even more impressive now hearing what you have been going through. You are one strong woman Alice!! I can't wait to see what you do next!

[@SleepyCatten]

**offers supportive hugs** It sounds like you were working so hard that you hit burnout. We experienced this ourselves in 2024, combined with depression, anxiety, and extreme executive dysfunction, and it very much brought us to the lowest point we'd ever been at. It forced us to address multiple issues that were important to us, and it seems like you've done the same 💖 We're proud of you for taking the actions you needed to reduce stress and improve your work-life balance, and glad that you're giving yourself a break 💗 Life is more important than grind or work ethic, even when you're driven and it feels like you need to do things to succeed. Health wise, our wife started experiencing a lot of acid reflux recently too. She found that switching to alkaline water (pH9) basically got it under control. She started off buying it bottled when she was having it occasionally, but once she started having it regularly, she switched to an eco-friendly water filter with refillable filters, rather than ones she'd need to replace. The one she uses is the Phox Wave 2.8L one, which fits perfectly in a fridge door. Highly recommend giving it a try to help with the acid reflux.

[@eiran_o_ddwywent]

Sometimes, even the things we love can be overwhelming, if a labour of love is unappreciated or becomes a chore to perform it can be soul-destroying. One of the most important things is knowing when it's time to take a step back and appreciate what you have done. A lot of what you're experiencing sounds like or has similarities to burn-out, finding a way to keep the fire stoked is what keeps us all sane. Hopefully with the extra time you have found by leaving your job you'll continue to do what you love in the new year and we'll be here to watch it :)

[@eiran_o_ddwywent]

Also, I feel like I should apologise for just giving words of support rather than something tangible like a membership, as a student, I'm not really in a position where I can, but I'll make sure I sit through every ad to at least try and help

[@jasger_]

Instantly clicked the join button! Thanks for all the videos, and please take a break if you need one! Have a very happy new year

[@fujiorsomething]

I always really appreciate a peek behind the curtain, so to speak, whenever content creators feel comfortable offering them. Maybe that’s because of some parasocial relationship, but, really, I think it’s because struggles like overworking, major life events, and obviously the mental strain that goes with it all are absolutely crucial to talk about. So many communities are still so reticent about any hardships, and that’s just not healthy, I don’t think. Even if you’ve moved forward past all the hard times from this year, I think it’s still worth saying that I’m sorry you had to go through it. One of my absolute biggest fears is going through some step of transitioning and being dissatisfied, still. I’m glad that you have made changes to make this next year less hellish while still pursuing the things that matter to you. However, please don’t be too afraid of-or feel too guilty about-taking breaks from KZbin if you need them. I know the algorithm is fickle and it can be hard to keep momentum going for a growing platform, but above all, prioritize yourself. Sometimes you just have to step back for a bit. We’ll still be here when you get back. The real community will, anyway-the ones worth keeping around.

[@DandreAllison]

love your content, love your honesty, I can only imagine it's stressful to have what you want and feel it's overwhelming you at the same time

[@QALibrary]

Thanks

[@lunathemoon]

Damn girl, you got some metaphorical balls of steel. You are so strong to have gone through through so much hardship and to still always pick yourself up and keep fighting. That's impressive and honestly quite inspiring as someone that's spent the past year just trying to pass by. But if course, take care of yourself. Even the strongest people need rest. Thank you for everything you've done, and please enjoy your well deserved break

[@sarahtooldtocare8561]

Alice please take it easy take a rest just tell us all having a week or away from KZbin and just chill out with your Music and watch a few films don't burn yourself out with stress has stress Leeds depression and it's a long road back out from depression. We all hope you the best wishes for next year. And will look forward to seeing you refreshed and back.xxx

[@Violet49x]

Congrats on taking that step to full-time content creation! I've enjoyed watching all of the content this year, and look forward to more to come. That break is well earned!

[@jurshur]

My egg broke earlier this year and I found your channel shortly after. You've taught me and helped me through so much already. I'm so happy that you're taking care of yourself and I'm excited to see what you have planned! :3

[@Lumixbunny]

Stress affects so much. Immune system, digestive system, circulation, recovery from wear and tear on muscles and joints. You need to schedule relaxation time. Meditation, Yoga, Qi gong. Those methods teach you to control your breathing and release tension. You need to balance all that Yang with som yin. Yin being relaxation in this context. I hope you get better balance in your life in the new year, I can barely hold down my 37 hours job and get chores done, what you do is impressive. Keep it up :). Happy new year.

[@AugustDoP]

Hey girl, former KZbinr here👋 I had a similar sized channel at my peak. I commend your dedication, I’m excited for you and your channels growth I feel like you got good things coming. I’ve been where you are, and I’ve experienced burnout. Just remember to take care of yourself and keep pursuing what you do but please, make sure it’s making you HAPPY. Please don’t forget that there’s much more to life than just KZbin, work, anything. I’ve realized reaching the top is incredibly lonely if you don’t have anyone to celebrate it with. I mostly stopped posting due to shifting focus on my career as a Cinematographer, and I’ve really put a relentless amount of work into my film career. A big the was my transition, I’ve actually haven’t made any updates or announcements about my transition. Been pretty scared of how it would be received, and it’s strange looking back on a version of myself that I’m just not anymore. I’m on the tail end of burnout again for a number of reasons (the film industry can be incredibly toxic at times). I’m in a phase of reevaluating my needs with my art and expression, and I may consider KZbin again. I was definitely happier making my own content, rather than just being a part of a cog in the system working on commercials for soulless brands. I miss creative agency. Honestly I forgot what I originally was trying to comment, but it’s maybe helping me process some things that have been stewing. It would be fun to come back to YT with a more healthy relationship post transition . All I know is that I support and wish you the best of luck on your journey, take care🫶🏻

[@ALaughingMan]

I relate to this so much. The lifelong and constant masking, feeling like you’re never fully yourself, no social life, and working entirely from home with no cocoworkers near by, it all takes a toll. My life is consumed solely by responsibilities. Caring for my wife, the love of my life, she has recently become disabled and requires my full time care, nurturing my four children mostly on my own, keeping up with house duties, finances, and budgeting a modest income, where rent takes the first 90%. Every day feels like it’s just about working to pay rent and bills, with no time left for hobbies, music, socalising or conversation, or even basic self care. There is no space for a ‘me’ in any of it. (Even saying that feels like some egotistical great sin or vanity. It carries guilt, to talk about myself like I am a person :/ ) Its a life of service. Some battles stay internal, but the weight of it all is starting to feel inescapable. A little relief somewhere has to be coming, surely.

[@blkmoon33]

I know exactly what your going through. Of 30 years of marriage, 15 were taking care of her and only 2 kids. Add in her mother's health going down. It seems to never end. When she passed 5 years ago it nearly broke me honestly. Thinking of yourself as a person isn't a bad thing. I still take care of her mother. I'm to the point I want my own life back. Seems a little selfish, but for the last 20 years I've put everyone before myself. Things will improve eventually for you. Good Luck ❤

[@ALaughingMan]

@blkmoon33 Thank you for your words and sharing your lived experience with me. Also, I'm truly sorry for your loss :'(

[@lostkea6501]

I really felt the part about the need to be "productive" even when you do get downtime, and how that kinda just drains the color from things you'd otherwise enjoy. I've let my perfectionist streak and work ethic get the better of me several times in life, and it's never turned out well. I wouldn't trade the learning I've had from those experiences for anything, but I also wouldn't wish going through it on anyone else. Having nearly worked myself to collapse before has given me a sense of empathy I don't think I could have gotten any other way. When I was Alice's age, I wasn't nearly as put together, and I wouldn't have had a prayer of sustaining this kind of a pace in life. I know it can feel like cold comfort to say "take whatever time you need, we'll be here for you", but it's true. You're not letting anyone down by taking care of yourself or acknowledging when things get hard.

[@stellamarie32]

Its SO important to spend time out socializing as YOURSELF!!! BEST part of my first year transitioning so far :) Get out there girl!

[@alliesakat]

Your videos have helped me and others a lot this year. Take all the time you need and we'll be here when you get back ❤❤❤

[@ThePlodger]

That level of fatigue is no joke. I’ve been there a few times. You can’t keep doing it. The worst I had was from an Arctic expedition where I was doing 16 hour days 7 days a week for months in an extreme environment. It took literally months before I felt ok again. What you’re describing sounds very familiar. Look after yourself!

[@soupy_cat]

9:00 as someone with acid reflux, I totally understand. Mine is pretty minor as a complication of Crohn's, and mostly managed by daily Lansoprazole. But it used to be much worse. If you are not already medicated, definitely find a doc!

[@crafty_geek]

Happy New Year!

[@daveffs1935]

Stress and over working have a huge impact on your physical health, look after yourself and keep to the limits you set. Don't be afraid to do a Q&A video when you need a break, they're so easy to do, take less than a day to film and edit, people like to watch them because they like to see their question answered and it gives them a "behind the scenes" peak.

[@stellabckw2033]

yes! i get her so much, i also went from a full-time to a part-time so i can pursuit my hobbies more. (luckily it still pays enough not to be a problem) on a side note, i actually plan to delete everything and revive my old yt channel, i've always procrastinated that lol

[@rossdinius3303]

Until you made this video telling us I never guessed you are beat down. Your a goat girl and I love your channel. Keep the ass kicking up we're all still here to help the channel grow

[@TV_FilthyFrankREBORN]

Fr this year was my worst as well Moved out Got kicked out Had very self destructive thoughts Type shit But i somehow overcame it all

[@Britneygurl]

I hear ya. When I was younger I worked 70-80+ hour weeks. It does wear you down. Congratulations on finding yourself, there is life outside of work if we allow ourselves to have it. Love ya! Keep up the good work!

[@BrookieTheCookie_]

I know that me just saying this probably won’t mean that much to you, but I just wanted to let you know: I’m 17, autistic, trans and bi, and live in a really hateful area of the US. I’ve suffered with body image stuff my whole life due to both my weight and gender dysphoria, and it’s gotten significantly worse in high school, and I’ve been really burnt out for like 9 months due to me taking advanced classes and university classes at night and stuff like that. However, your lighthearted, silly, fun content has always put a smile on my face, and I dont think you realize just how much I and many others feel so much better on a daily basis because of the work you do. Also, you’re insanely beautiful, and I’d be happy with my transition if I looked half as pretty as you. You are genuinely inspiring to young queer people like me, you make us feel seen and safe, and you are transition goals :) ❤

[@lookherebuddy1]

Thanks!

[@Dragonfruithefish]

Alice you are so strong and you inspire me remember you have made it through 100% of your worst days and I’ll be here for you for 100% more

[@kylewagoner]

I have also had the most challenging, most productive, most rewarding, most exhausting, most important year of my life this year. And I just started HRT like two days ago, so that was barely even part of the equation! Very glad to hear you'll likely have a huge piece of the overwhelming schedule handled. You were a piece in helping me escape the egg, so I will forever be grateful! And I absolutely understand the feeling of not being able to unwind--I legit couldn't even turn on Netflix or touch a video game console for the first 8 or 9 months of the year because I knew there was just so much that still needed to be done. But you've made it, whether you realize it yet or not. You can take some solace in that and reward yourself with some recovery. Recovery is very important in reaching your long-term goals, just remember that!

[@esteriistiel331]

I can definitely relate to not being able to enjoy food. It's ruff not really being able to go out to eat, seeing all the food in the grocery aisles I can't eat, and having to pack my own food everywhere I go. I really hope we can both get back to enjoying food again one day ❤‍🩹

[@Javaman21011]

Same! At the end of March I lost a good job (right before a rather disappointing vacation). Then being unemployed for 3 months lead me down to the worst depression I've experienced. I dunno how I came out of that but I have my wife and friends to thank for it. Found a temp job after that and an amazing one in August. Came out the next month and began HRT at the end of Oct.. only to be sent right back down the depression spiral when that orange turd got elected (US politics is a shitshow). I'm hesitant about 2025 and just hoping all of us in the US can get through it. I hope you're getting all the hugs because you deserve it! And if you haven't already try and look into a drug called dupixent. It was a game changer for my wife who was suffering from an esophageal problem.

[@EmmiLovely]

I feel the burnout in my own way too, and it sucks. I feel like a Zombie a lot of the time. I keep going because I gotta, with my own things crushing and choking me, making it hard to feel like tomorrow will be better, but even if I can't feel it, I know tomorrow will get better for me, as I'm confident it will get better for you. You put your all into this community, and everyone can feel the energy you give, and they enjoy it. You inspire me all the time, from talking openly about your struggles and giving a level headed, non romanticized look into how bottom surgery has affected your life, both positive and negative, to your over the top comedy, to all of the good you do through your community and platform. I can count on one hand how many creators I watch every video of, and you're on that list. I'm rooting for you! I hope that going full time on YT is one of many healthy changes that help balance work and self to make this year the worst and hardest year for you moving forward. I wish you growth, peace, and the ability to be content. Love your vids, and looking forward to what 2025 brings for you!

[@maximumrobespierrexvii4155]

This sounds a lot like what I was doing my first year of grad school. I had a lot of issues with stress and not being able to do anything outside of work and school. The best advice I got which helped me come out the other side all the better was this; rest is productive because you need to rest to be present and the best you can be. You have to set aside time for it like any other obligation. Take care of yourself, I'm excited to see where you go in the new year!

[@kaseyquickshot532]

I'm transmasc and can't seem to get on the waiting list for surgery and it's made this a really rough year for me too, but hearing you talk about how proud you are of making it made me feel proud also, thanks for being open and vulnerable.

[@friendofmara9362]

Please take care of yourself, you make my days brighter and I know from experience that burnout is one hell of a thing

[@KittiesOfUlthar]

I'm rooting for you Alice! You're awesome

[@aimlesscorsair6502]

While you should definitely be proud of all you've managed to achieve this year it's also important to take care of yourself. Your worth is not your productivity, you deserve to take a break once and a while. I hope you enjoy your well earned break and I'm super excited to see what you can achieve in the coming year. Take care of yourself and happy new year.

[@RodrigoBarbosaBR]

As someone who literally ended in a hospital due to overworking, has been diagnosed with burnout twice, so many things you said were like I was looking at myself in a mirror (obviously, not looking as good as you). The feeling that is you are not working, you are wasting time. The guilt of not being productive. It can get out of control very easily. I'm so happy that you managed to get out of that cycle. Good luck, and thank you.

[@GarnetMidnightSummerSelene]

I hope you enjoy your much needed vacation and I was happy to be here to see your channel grow!

[@KrazzyKelsie]

Stay strong out there, take care of yourself. I won’t go anywhere. I’ll stay a member till I can’t afford it no more

[@GruulAnarch]

I'm so happy for you that you get to do this full-time. It sounds like doing both jobs was really rough, so I'm sure that whatever happens will be great. You inspire me to pursue my transition (and amass a nerf arsenal). I'm a loyal member of the queer army and ready for whatever orders lie ahead! Good luck in the coming year

[@RedPaganNetwork]

New Year's Eve in your part of the world. It's still the 30th where I'm at! xD Happy New Year!

[@reinderp5967]

I got laid off right before Christmas, so I'm now crashing and burning. But I'm welcoming the change, applying also gives me a bit of excitement. Also started E a few weeks ago, so things are looking up. I always loved your videos, whenever I needed escapism or just wanted to have a good laugh

[@Robin-lq7oz]

i’m glad you spoke out about your struggles, i personally will always send my support because since i found your channel, i realized myself and am now almost 6 months on HRT. i really hope things go well, and no worries if you have to take a break:) you have my support Alice!

[@Tumi1990]

Incredibly proud of you for realizing you were overworking yourself and making the hard decision to reduce the workload. Also very happy that this means full-time content creation because i genuinely believe you have what it takes ❤

[@Goobergal8705]

People like you kept me going through the darkest part of my life so far. Now, I have a job, I'm saving money, and I'll be able to get an apartment, and hopefully get started on getting HRT. You deserve a rest after working so hard. Thank you for what you've done for us all! 💖

[@Eldaquen]

Alice, thank you for all your videos over 2024. I am so sorry your surgery had complications. Hope you heal soon.

[@Coffee5547]

40hours on top of a youtube channel this size?!? QUEEN, don't forget you and your health are more important to us than you can even realize, please don't forget to take care of yourself. Stress is real and it needs to be taken seriously, take time to unwind. We are here for you because you've been here for us. Take care Alice, and thanks for your 2024 it meant a lot to me and tons of others.

[@paulwnuk8323]

You're amazing Alice! Have a great new year!

[@DoctorGenzo]

I hope things go well miss 1 and, things will probably all get better if you keep your head up and look for solutions. don't give up!

[@ValerieMae377]

I came out this year and recently started HRT and your videos were some of the first videos I found afterwards. I appreciate everything you’ve done so thank you

[@dtfxthrone_patriot0115]

You are a major part in me gaining the courage to tell my family that I want to start hrt and transition to the female that has always been deep within me I have an appointment in January to bring everything up with my doctor I have been repressed for years and a decent amount of my family accepts me the other half will find out one day I just hope I have no issues due to the state I live in and the politics of the U.S You are as strong as you put your mind too and can accomplish any challenge, I believe in you and will always be, you give this community hope that life will get better

[@ellielikesmath]

nobody is lazy. work is impossible to quantify anyway. your content is evergreen. you could take a long break and your dream could still happen.

[@nimbusspacewagon]

Thanks for all you great work, Alice! Coming at you from Los Angeles, and I can say your work is well appreciated over here- You humor has kept me giggling through tough times, and your truth has kept me inspired too. I am sorry to here that the revision is still not what you were looking for. It is pretty common sadly, but you are not alone in that. You are still a gorgeous and brilliant woman, and super talented to boot. But I am sure it will work out. Your sheer 'Force of Will', will make it happen. You are truly a force of nature in many ways. :) Thanks again for all your hard work. I often think to myself when watching your videos, 'Wow, there are really high production values in this video... That is so many cuts, that must have taken forever to edit.' You really are becoming quite the strong filmmaker. Enjoy the time off and we will see you in 2025. Happy New Year!

[@RaphaPortoRP]

Do what is better for you! We're going to support you whatever you wanna do. Follow your dreams. And, please, take care of your body and mind. Happy New Year, Alice!

[@infinitivez]

I am so damn excited for, and proud of you! I'm sure 80min of saved commute and however long every morning getting ready will be a huge weight off your shoulders. Take it easy, and ease into it. If this is your first time working from home as your own boss, it can be hard finding and setting that routine schedule/balance.

[@MrsRebe_]

Stress and anxiety are no joke. Hope you have a happy new year and more time to relax.

[@ScottyGrayskull]

I'm so sorry that you have been going through this, but it's awesome that you realized it before you got completely burnt out. I've certainly heard this story a lot, especially with growing content creators, of micro-analyzing their productivity. Any time off is money lost. It's a horrible spiral to fall into, and I'm happy you're recognizing that. Good luck and have a kickass 2025! 💜

[@katan28kerkhof]

Hi from a transgirl in the Netherlands. I respect (or should I say "respict" because NZ ;) ) your hard work, your sense of humour and your bravery for your societal outreach on behalf of our community! Your videos on your SRS were wonderfully informative. I wish you a better year and that all the good things in the world may come to you. Lots of love!

[@ViiKing_]

The pride and confidence in this video is absolutely amazing, I wish I had even a fraction of this (one that isn't a limit of the denominator approaching infinity)

[@rashkariazharael2597]

Girl you're killing it! I wish you the best that your KZbin career is gonna keep growing as it has. Enjoy your break and hopefully you can find time and space to recharge next year

[@Hairspray555]

Thank you for this video. Being this honest to such a big crowd is another level of bravery. All the love and hugs from Denmark ❤

[@AylaMead]

A lot of the experiences you've had throughout the year is so relatable (in terms of what they challenge, not the specific things themselves obv). Thank you so much for sharing your experience, hearing you be hopeful about the future makes it easier for me to do the same. To keep going. Thank you for what you do. I hope you enjoy and find value in your break

[@homeopathicfossil-fuels4789]

Stress impacts wound healing, recovery from disease, etc. I fully support you taking a break, actually I will unsubscribe if you make any more videos before end of January! Big internet hug from another Alice from across the world! Please remember to take breaks, take care of yourself, you might feel proud now, I remember when I felt that way, when I was the strongest person I knew. Now I am the most ruined person I know. There comes a point where you stop getting stronger and you start deteriorating, get weaker, where you do not recover fully from rest. Please avoid that point, you are irreplaceable. I was dumped on the streets by my partner of 3 years without warning and had to struggle to find a place to live for 6 months of this year. There are nobody around me, I am going to be sobbing alone on NYE. I guess this was the year of the suffering queer Alice's because I know another Alice that also suffered hard in this year. I fear what the next year will bring, I can't really be optimistic, I have no friends, I only got some vague possible contracts. I am losing my mind, I am losing my hope, I don't know if I will get up from this, but no matter what happens with me I am cheering for every other queer Alice out there, especially you, and strongly supporting your decision to take a break. Happy new year to you too!

[@erilgaz]

That sounds incredibly difficult :(( I spent 2 months looking for a place to live before moving to a new country and was incredibly fortunate to find a place 3 months before the move and even that was an incredible amount of pressure. IDK how I would handle 6 months of constant housing anxiety. (Actually I know, I'd handle it not well at all.) I'm sure i made an unentertaining amount of half-serious jokes about living under the bridge over that period. The last four months were a period of utter confusion and lostless, but also of strength and newfound security in my identity. I think one thing I learned is that everyone has both have incredible strength and also incredible weakness within, it's never one or the other. We never completely win nor are we ever ruined beyond repair. If you need an ear, here's an internet stranger offering theirs.

[@Falconwing_01]

As the old saying goes. "With great risks, come great rewards" you got this Alice!

[@tylerbailey9329]

I had a panic attack for the first time in my life this year, horrible experience. It's important to take care of yourself to avoid it coming to that. Happy New Year Alice! 🎉

[@charlesryan9]

I've had a similar year where while I've had some good moments but the highest level of stress I have ever had. I find you very inspiring, and good job getting through it. I hope next year is better for all of us.

[@Bossman-mu6qe]

You make great quality videos but never let that take a toll on you. a video once a month or two months shouldn't hurt your subscriber amounts and I'm sure the stress will lessen. Mental health should always be priority number 1. Best wishes for the new year.

[@STR202]

Hey Alice!! I remember first seeing you float around reddit and thats how i found your channel. Im super proud of you for going head first to take that leap into full-time youtube. You put the time in and fought tooth and nail to get this far. Take as long as you need, we’ll be right here when youre ready to come back ❤

[@givemetodeke]

Thank you for being there for all of us, Alice

[@padmasa]

Just feeding rhe algorithm gods with a quick comment. Happy new year y'all!