The Truth About Me

[@cutestcat3633]

“The reatardedness...” He looked at his pale hands which were shaking. He shut them in a tight grip, “...It took over my body”

[@Guts_Brando]

Eshora Ajpw New venom trailer lookin good

[@tekenertehee]

LMAO

[@FireSpartan1]

I love that Zazef is usually drinking something in most of his videos, it’s iconic

[@STANKYCHEEZEMAYNE]

he does it on purpose because of the video about him hugging a girl

[@nolives]

EpicTrek1.0 im sure we already know this.

[@avocadosaintnick8306]

It's always Pepsi why he switch to water

[@AutisticBrain]

@Outdahkut What about the part where he admits to not having autism and faking it?

[@captainpointlez]

Dude, is this gonna be Filthy Frank's successor

[@belowthestoneofficial1476]

Lukastra from the ashes of an old empire, a new Phoenix rises.

[@justinsanders8430]

No

[@thereddiablo5957]

Lukastra HE GOT ARRESTED

[@vitpro253]

brigsbeeboy Are you really😂😂

[@quiet5811]

@@goatpepperherbaltea7895 looking forward to it

[@travonaqw]

You got in too deep.

[@komentatorzadruge1950]

when ur into deep and tryin to keep up above

[@hamburger6668]

These special effects are killing me lmao

[@vanesslifeygo]

what killed me was the mention of Yugioh GX lol

[@boobshart9063]

Listen bud, i have grown up talking to my stuffed animals, studying wars and battles and playing war with my one good friend, gaming all day everyday, etc. being the definition of uncool. I found myself when i fell in love with skateboarding, i went in my driveway and skated by myself every day of my life (it all started because i got tony hawks pro skater for christmas) and learned how to ollie, 180, pop shuv it, kickflip, and then on, and had some pictures my sister took of me doing these tricks right in my drive way. The older kids in my school that skateboarded made fun of my pictures and called me a poser, loser, told me to kill myself, etc. But i believed in myself because i saw myself getting better and better all on my own and knew one day if i tried hard enough and kept it up, maybe theyd accept me, and I could be as confident and cool as all them. One day a few months down the road, one of the older kids in my school asked me to come skate. He practically had to beg me because i thought it was another attempt to make fun of me. He was like "cmon man i dont bite." I met up with him up at a parking lot on the corner of my street. He saw that i put genuine effort into skating and it was true, i spent all day every day trying to get better, and i wanted to be good enough to be accepted, because of my lack of social skills and how big of a loser i was before. We hung out for about an hour, he eventually calls the other older kids and they all came and met up with him and they left. During this period of time of me focusing on skateboarding, I hurt my real best friends feelings a lot by leaving him and all our old ways behind and focusing on myself and trying to become someone that would be accepted. Slowly but surely i got better and better. I started going to the skate park, seeing the older kids around town more often, until they were calling me from time to time to come skate with them. I had a little digital camera and had a couple kids my age i met that skated as well that would help me make videos and people could see my progress on myspace. In 7th grade, a year and a half into my newly developing confident self, i asked a girl to the school dance. I was still looked at as matt the weird loser/nerd but people knew i was changing. She said yes and i went to the dance with her and she kissed me on the cheek after we danced. I felt so amazing after that. It lit a fire in me (as corny as it is) and i kept pushing and pushing desiring more and more to be cooler and cooler. I tried harder and harder, jumped off of bigger stuff, learned new tricks, started dressing different, growing my hair out super duper long, stopped giving a shit about anything except for skating because i knew it made people like me. I eventually met people at the skatepark that were REALLY good and people that knew filmers, the guys that were sponsored by the local shops, and what not, and tried to tag along as much as possible. Desiring to be like these older, better, cooler guys gave me the motivation to try anything. To believe in myself so i could achieve something. I became amazingly good at skateboarding and having an extremely unique, smooth style and people loved to watch me skate. I got really expensive camera equipment and made full length skate videos, with parts with each of my friends and we formed an inseperable crew. The local skate shops new me well by this time and my favorite skate shop let me have a Video Premiere at the shop late at night, and over 200 people showed up to watch the video of me and my friends. It was a huge success and i sold so many copies, and i put all the money back into making more videos. I became very well known and loved by all, all because of my skateboarding, which i started for this exact reason but never did i think i would become as good or as known as i did. I won local contests, beat people in games of skate, and was looked at as someone to respect and not to question or mess with. On my birthday one year my favorite local skate shop asked to sponsor me. I sobbed. I could not believe what my life had become. But through all of this, i would always retreat home at night and sign into world of warcraft or whatev i was playing at the time and that would provide me a strong sense of comfort. It got to the point where i was no longer ashamed of being the nerdy kid inside i used to be because i felt so accepted. I went with that skate shop all over the country to skate contests, filming trips, parties etc. And i became a big partier and would smoke weed and drink and skate all day everyday. I had girlfriends that thought i was awesome, had tons of girls on my social media that were into me, but since i sort of created a mask of my true self i was never able to have that great of a connection with anyone, it always felt like there was a barrier. By this point i was about 20 years old. I had my first serious relationship and the fact that I had never taken the time to naturally develop my personality, and used skating as a mask, my relationship fell apart and i was never really able to give them the feeling that i could genuinely connect with them. It depressed me alot and made me go even deeper into my illusion of confidence. I spent another summer partying and sleeping around, when i met my current girlfriend. I realized very quickly, that i have never taken the time to learn how to WORK or be much of anything other than mr cool. I sold pot for money to buy boards and shoes. This girl loved my skating, she studied psychiatry however and quickly learned what an illusion i was. I could tell she knew i was fake, and couldnt connect with me, but loved me a lot a lot and wanted nothing more but to feel my real feelings. I stopped skating and felt like i was 12 years old in a world that i did not understand. I got my first real job, and without skating as a basis of conversation and being on my board to feel confident, i crumbled in front of everyone. I began sweating when confronted, acting like a baby, never knowing what to do or say, and i basically had to start life all over. Now i am 24, and i am still trying my hardest to be on the same level as everyone else who had gone through life naturally developing personaliies and real strong connections with others. I struggle to have relationships with friends and coworkers, but i am trying every day. I dont have my mask anymore. As hard as it is, i finally feel like myself again. I feel like the old me, before all i gave a shit about was peoples opinions. I am weird, i am different, im super nerdy and am insecure about it at times. I miss being little and leaving the only real friends i ever had behind to go try and be cool. I nearly ruined myself..i am so happy to have gotten out when i did and to begin living life without constant fear of being accepted. Now i am focused on becoming a man, and learning how to love myself without thinking my sweet tricks and long blonde hair flowing in the wind would get me somewhere in life other than a bunch fake attention and "friends". Moral of the story, be you, and be your genuine self, and be exactly who and what you want to be without ANY shame as young and as soon as you can. Dont let a fake persona rule your life. I have been so depressed because of what i did to myself and how long it lasted. 10 years of stroking my own ego and letting others build my ego as well. It ruined me and i lost valuable time. I have wonderful memories and met great people and saw great things in those 10 years, but never once connected with anyone on a real level. I played a character and got addicted to it. It feels amazing to let the real me come out. Sure, people dont respect me as much and arent as intimidated by me now instantly, but i am spending so much more time talking to people about the way i really am inside and how i feel, and listening to them do the same. It is a long process to find yourself but doing this can really hurt you forever and ever and ever. I will always have the memories, and thats enough for me. I dont want to be like this when im 30.

[@stephensoltis4652]

Boob Shart you really had me until I saw your name

[@quiet5811]

Nice one mayte..

[@TriadTR]

Beautiful story man, hope you're doing fine. Thanks for sharing.

[@kacalex5664]

The god has spoken

[@giacomotiznado9655]

Out of all your videos, I think this is my favorite one yet. I hope to see more videos like this where you show more of your actual self. I've had a similar past where I was a nerd and quiet, (I was homeschooled up until my senior year) and then started to fake being crazy to attract friends and it worked really well, but a lot of times I would break character and be quiet or shy because I wouldn't be in the mood sometimes. Eventually I got better at faking until I finally made it, and now I feel like I'm stuck with the image I've built for myself. I not only changed how other people see me but how I see myself. With this new persona I'm popular with people and I've gained confidence, but I don't know how to be genuine with people anymore because I'm afraid of trusting others /rant over. Just wanted to share that because I'm glad to see someone who's like me in that sense. Right now I'm fighting to "fake it till I make it" so I can become my ideal self one day. And to be a little more normal I know it sounds cheezy but keep fighting the good fight brother, one day we'll both reach our goals

[@tsuzurao7497]

So did you make it?

[@elizasass2079]

Imagine acting like you purposely act a certain way so you can feel like you have control over you being socially isolated and unwanted and flipping it and turning it into something you're proud of or wanting

[@Joxxay]

I M N O T R A C I S T

[@LinucNerd]

Sooo, you just got really into your character :D

[@sharkatac9]

“And so, I started to act retarded” -genius

[@RejectDaleri]

Woah so you're not dumb?

[@sethisnotfound6834]

This video is like those long ass monologs that the villian in anime makes when they're dying 😂

[@liamfitzpatrick6358]

He's too deep... everything's a lie

[@yeezyweezynotsobreezyjeezy1671]

An inspiration for us all. But can't you try to act normal for a video? Give us a sample of what'd it be like?

[@timowthie]

Canadian who loves his GMC 2500 he doesnt really act weird in this video.

[@caramelgaming8]

damn no c h i l e it wouldn’t be entertaining

[@KBRASIL]

I like him, cuz he speaky very clearly, so even with my poor english I can understand. lmfao

[@huntertaylor910]

Try to act normal for awhile and u should be all good

[@민희-q8p]

We have the same name ...

[@trashcan6316]

hunter

[@민희-q8p]

Trash Can yes?

[@MultiColiflower]

i have diarrhea

[@austinrhoden3008]

coli ME TOO

[@MultiColiflower]

nice man same

[@blingblingboy5439]

Same

[@mitch65009]

I'm taking a dump right now, as I watch this

[@ramellowilliams2536]

I have bubble guts

[@zackcosgrove9298]

You’re a genius

[@neefyishere5319]

I don't understand how he hasn't got a girlfriend..... he's hella attractive and funny also I feel like he has a dank personality😂😂

[@bwc-chvd]

he's real asf too. Alex a real man on the inside. You can tell he's a thinker, probably a very good artist too.

[@bwc-chvd]

I remember I came over here back when I watched leafy lmao to make fun him and ended up staying and subscribing to za00002222 cause i find him fucking around so entertaining

[@wastefellow2569]

Neefy IsHere, nah, he freaks the girls out

[@Alex-qm5tq]

Yeah I agree. He should stop muttering and stuttering, stop with the bad pickup lines and Im sure af he could grab any girl he wanted. Sad that hes in jail now tho

[@raven2402]

@@Alex-qm5tq he really is in jail tho? Damn

[@serhatkaya8706]

Q&A : 1. Tell us more about your family 2. were girls in highschool harsh on you if yes tell us some sad and hard things from your life as a teen

[@toddthegod6790]

Hey where is the death audio

[@lookingfortruth1930]

report him

[@Dan-sd3wx]

"I'm, I'm not racist, I'm, I'm not!"

[@lpgod5928]

Alright to undo the voodoo magic start acting epicc

[@kingconan3115]

You look and act identically to a friend I had from denmark, cept he did alot of drugs

[@adelords]

King Conan :(

[@StillBillyD92]

"Hi, I'm pretty sure you already know this:"

[@Trolovinski]

Where is your accent from?

[@LoneStarWomanInACajunWorld]

I definitely notice the accent too.

[@bwc-chvd]

He's obviously ukranian

[@Pheer777]

he's from Ukraine, I even pmed him on his insta in Russian and he responded

[@zany527]

Yegor Lyubkin what's his account?

[@Martesjobim]

John Trolovinski y’all this nigga from cali 😂😂😂 if y’all hear him talk fr

[@huha3643]

I'm over here playing runescape you know... It's a tough life...

[@wastefellow2569]

hu ha, read as he said! #Odds?

[@robbwinter8564]

Damn bro.. Im a pretty insensitive person but this touched me. I'm sorry that your act to try to become popular in school took over you, and i don't want to be offensive in any way but i'm sorry you had to take that route. Kids are fucking monsters for judging you and pushing you to that point bro. I got your back man, and don't let anyone get to you. Don't worry about what other people think of you and just be yourself, not what took over you but i got faith in you man. Looking out for you Zazef, try to keep those good vibes up bro :)

[@toddthegod6790]

Still no death audio? Dude really?

[@Joxxay]

Have you managed to balance out your character and your real life so one doesn't take over the other completely ?

[@CytusXO]

here is a question do u play minecraft

[@coolguy5466]

Delorean I have a better question if you were a mine craft block which one would you be the moist boys really want an answer

[@rihasanatrofolo2472]

Hi, I'm pretty sure you already know this but do you play minecraft?

[@BongRat69]

@@rihasanatrofolo2472 let's play!!!

[@AlKhafajiOne]

_I'm just trying to make it in this world_ I'm crying 😭

[@RejectDaleri]

DO YOU ACTUALLY SAY IM PRETTY SURE YOU ALREADY KNOW THIS

[@toddthegod6790]

Zazef wants us to spam death audio its the new zazef meme he loves it haha

[@toddthegod6790]

Hey this isnt death audio....

[@caitlin4128]

tis my dream to watch psp unboxing videos with a man such as zazef ,,

[@intentionallyleftblank7039]

Zazef can you please start IRL streaming? You said before you couldn't afford it but I am sure people will donate to support you.

[@moos3beatz221]

Mantis Toboggan, MD I would definitely donate

[@legendarygamingchannel805]

Mantis Toboggan, MD I’d give him 500 dollars

[@cxrlos817]

He aabout to start!!!!

[@Jdaminbf4]

C- dee97 no he’s in jail now

[@2001theandrei]

Zazef, if you want to change yourself, then change is within your inner person. Always search and find the roots of your problems, and then solve them! (you've already found them, now you're able to solve them).

[@toddthegod6790]

Dude cmon death audio

[@toddthegod6790]

Dude what is your deal why no death audio

[@meemeeow]

Rare side of zazef

[@toddthegod6790]

Wow still no death audio is he serious

[@toddthegod6790]

This aint death audio wtf

[@shadowdragonproductions8025]

I mean, he's good-looking and he seems to be a pretty genuine guy. I'd date him.

[@doskipanda7466]

gay

[@shadowdragonproductions8025]

@@doskipanda7466 lol apparently he's a predator

[@doskipanda7466]

@@shadowdragonproductions8025 do you mean Zazeaf?

[@shadowdragonproductions8025]

@@doskipanda7466 yes

[@doskipanda7466]

@@shadowdragonproductions8025 Evidence?

[@toddthegod6790]

Still no death audio wtf

[@kingaspie]

What's up how you been

[@toddthegod6790]

Where is death audio

[@potatooperator6747]

I don't whether to laugh or be sad. Lol

[@martincuevas9021]

For some reason I can't find your old KZbin page

[@Gimbergp]

Man this is deep

[@pancake_5703]

Just be yourself man don't be afraid of doing I like you as yourself you seem like a really cool adn funny guy I understand exactly what kinda position your in right now I do the exact same thing and it's pretty hard to break the habit of faking yourself...but just be yourself dude and don't let anyone put you down or anything I hope you become yourself again

[@pscxlt]

How old are you?

[@grace-wg3ni]

He’s 25

[@toddthegod6790]

Goddam just release the death audio already

[@rawrdario2469]

Todd The God What is that death audio everyone is talking about?

[@prumkinpie8439]

tell me where i can get those glasses

[@W00dland_90]

the autism is real though, right?

[@kushouchiha]

Name Display that’s what I’m trying to figure out

[@StillBillyD92]

It definitely is. My little brother has it, and this guy's mannerisms are very similar to my little brother's. Very smart people just not able to socialize. Very honest and emotional people though.

[@lIlIllIlIllIlllIllIIIIIIIIIlII]

Bruh Usuck maybe slightly autistic tbh. Like 5%

[@wastefellow2569]

Name Display, it’s an act, though

[@adelords]

He was being goofy but that doesn't make it any less real, he said it was fake but also real at the same time

[@averagekeklaslovakian1289]

You know what... This dude's pretty cool

[@SelfBet]

Damn bro im learning something new thanks!

[@pootiss4040]

Damn dude you are pretty brave and can you do a video how you edited your videos

[@mrbinCS]

What the heck

[@quiet5811]

Is that asian kid vanoos gaming?

[@falsebanneduser9428]

2:53 song?

[@Wildchildinc]

Zazef's characters are from the other side of the omniverse! Papa Franku's spirit has chosen Zazef

[@quiet5811]

Bro i can relate to what you were saying😔..my life is somewhat like yours. I faked my personality so people would like me...by becoming quiet person.girls always used to like me for how quiet i was ..and i took that personality..and now it has became my life..i have no friends(the ones i had since school .forgot me.just like every other person) .you know old, useless and boring people get replaced by better ones..i became what my teacher in 12th grade predicted.an invicible person..slowly being forgotten. I remember what my relatives told to my grandfather when i was admitted in hospital"how is he gonna make it into this world..he dont even know anyone"

[@BulkBogan]

Quiet lol sounds like your life sucked

[@quiet5811]

Yea man, it sucked😑

[@llllIIIlllIIllllII]

Now my life is slowly becoming that

[@professional.commentator]

Same thing happened to me but I think it started in elementary school. Although I think I became an extremely quiet kid because of my teachers and not to become friends with girls. Like the teachers would always praise the quiet kids and basically tell the loud kids to shut up. But the loud kids were always rebellious as hell so they never did and it was a never ending cycle.

[@AutisticBrain]

@@professional.commentator what about Zazef faking autism?

[@toddthegod6790]

We need the death audio

[@KitKat78000]

So many questions... - How old are you? - Where are you from? - Why are you so cute? - Please could we see you out of character more? - I really want to meet you???

[@BaboHyunjin]

"The retardedness took over my body" rotfl 😂

[@pifas8605]

Start acting normal again

[@katielambert1007]

Killpop _001 like actually

[@a_for_alfredo1861]

He can't because the retardednes took over his personality. He said it in the video

[@Guts_Brando]

Killpop _001 Do you even know the lore boi? His retarded form took him over....

[@Altoids101]

this creates more questions than answers

[@incelgaming1592]

No joke he’s pretty handsome

[@toddthegod6790]

DEATH AUDIOOOOO

[@toddthegod6790]

Zazef told me in private that his true fans spam death audio

[@ttoobbarya4005]

What about Grean Goblin. He was in an older video make another video about him. If you still know him

[@ETWCBf3CLAN]

The hug heard around the world...

[@theshape8856]

FUCKING BADASS I want to chill with this guy

[@LoneStarWomanInACajunWorld]

Ok I have a question for u. Have u ever tried dating apps or sites where you can find local singles in ur area? U could try that. I hear Tinder is a real big one.

[@iamhdh401]

Try to take a break from KZbin and video games. Read, write, excersize and think. Hopefully if u try to act and remeber the way u were before u can always change

[@ok-cr3yd]

I can't find za0000222. Was it taken down?

[@Zazef]

yes. link is in the description to the channel

[@ok-cr3yd]

Zazef I tried clicking the link and it said "No Results Found" :/

[@moos3beatz221]

Do you have a discord? You should make one to help you grow your community

[@Mohsen_abdullah0]

I like your videos keep going 👏🏻

[@soldierforchrist6036]

"Became the autism"

[@sadtitles1859]

I don't know why i watch his videos but i like it

[@NYtomb]

What is your ancestral background?

[@josueguzmanflores4267]

Zazef, I know you can act normal again!!!! You have everything to pick a girl!!! Come on, dont give up!!!

[@thrashakilla]

Dude you got WWE 2K18 on PS4?

[@toddthegod6790]

Death audio Death audio Death audio

[@neonsloth]

oh man, I really hope this works out for you

[@samueljordan7098]

Problem is you only have one lobe gauged Chief.

[@AwesomeGuy772]

Zazef do you have an Instagram?

[@zazefiscol5630]

Hey man, big fan, man. Why'd you get banned on twitch fam

[@baransenyuz9382]

I really like watching this for some reason

[@aw46907]

Literally me but being shy to be cute and harmless and not seem like a menance

[@kingmoww2019]

i want the song " Fake it till you make it "

[@luketempleman1349]

Dude , this video was actually pretty great so yeah i hope as a subscriber and a fan that you can start picking up in life and get a girlfrend because,,, it seems like youve been through a shit ton in the last few years and deserve better shit to start happening.... because bro you are fucking cool !!

[@toddthegod6790]

Give death audio

[@toddthegod6790]

Death audio spam

[@fazeroch8711]

Making videos for 9 Years !

[@toddthegod6790]

Death audio

[@Creepy-Kay]

Omfg sweetheart MY HEARTTTTT

[@geneishere8089]

That big ol diamond earring tho