The Truth About My Eating Disorder || 10 Biggest Lessons of Recovery

[@sterlingsimmons8309]

We're all rooting for you. Literally thousands of people that you have never met.

[@kecrn4132]

Could not agree with this comment more❤

[@mollyalexander8406]

absolutely agree 💜

[@staceyplaysthebassey]

I am nine years recovered from a 20+ year battle with an eating disorder. I thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your story and being so vulnerable and honest about your own recovery. It's so important that we're transparent about eating challenges, since it runs rampant (no pun intended) in our community. Thank you!!

[@ilariae346]

The one about what is "healthy" for others isn't necessarily healthy for someone recovering from an ED really spoke to me. Sometimes it's also really hard with so many people giving unsolicited advice all the time. Thanks for letting us in on some of your journey, you aren't alone !

[@wumbothewombat1280]

Don’t have an ED, but have struggled with similar behaviors due to diagnosed OCD, and holy crap-I never knew other people had the same food timing “rules” as me. I can literally get so anxious about not eating the “right” thing at the “right” time that I just get overwhelmed and skip. This is super helpful, thank you for sharing this video ❤

[@allie_ostrander]

I get that, 100%! It's tough, but we will both overcome ;)

[@mariaisanorris]

Raced with you back in HS, even when we were school competitors, I cheered you on. And I’m still cheering you on. 💛

[@markrimelspach7041]

Addiction recovery is brutal and people who are lucky enough to not have addiction issues do not understand what it takes to recover. Thank you for shedding light on all that goes into recovery. It is possible but not easy.

[@meherenow]

Eating disorders aren’t addictions

[@user-oq9no3ib5u]

In some form they are it is like an addiction and a phobia at the same time. You are addicted with your habbits and afraid of certain habbits which you avoid.

[@sophiasophia1576]

I've been in recovery for about two years now and am doing pretty good. your video still made me cry because sometimes it just gets hard to fight back those voices in my head in silence. you made me feel seen and less alone. Thanks.

[@sydneykaufman6663]

what a great reminder that food isn't the only way an ED can be spotted and weight gain isn't the only way (far from it) to measure recovery. Overexercising is a really easy way to seem like you're eating enough, but being honest with yourself and realizing all that training needs proper fueling to truly matter is so important. This is something I still have to be cognizant of, so thank you for the incredible reminder ❤

[@EverMeadow]

Vitamin deficiency diagnoses are the polite way doctors tell their patients about eating disorder.

[@nberkel]

The point about not feeling safe in your thoughts, even though they may be healthier, really spoke to me. I was never able to articulate that very well, this describes it perfectly 👍🏼

[@kittenmimi5326]

I feel like no matter what I do, it's "wrong"..... then feeling trapped. Not follow the ED? Wrong (according to the ED thoughts / voice) follow it? Also wrong (for your health and body)

[@GuitarTraveller]

Thanks for this, Allie. Speaking out about recovery is so valuable for the world to hear. I was especially touched by your comments about your family. For those with mental health challenges of all types, hearing accomplished and well spoken people like yourself talk directly about it busts the stigma surrounding mental health better than anything else. And that stigma is a horrible thing... it prevents people from seeking help, causes shame and isolation. It's a subject close to my heart - I'm an organizer locally in the King County area for NAMI, the National Alliance on Mental Illness. Much respect to you. Tim Lawler.

[@kellywitty9553]

this needs to be a PSA for sooo many people! Way to get the word out, Allie!!! ED recovery is SO HARD but soooo worth it.

[@marybabameto1195]

Allie, when you said your family gets that gratification, that hit for me. Sometimes it’s easier to work on yourself for others especially when our self esteem is damaged

[@anyawechsler1656]

Allie, you articulated this so well. I'm still battling my ED thoughts more than I would like after 15 years of working on recovery. I often ask why I'm still working on recovery when I "look" like everyone else and often eat more than those around me (I know,...comparison=no bueno :-). It's easy to minimize the torture of that "cognitive dissonance" (which I think you used that term perfectly btw) that is just as aweful as the physical detriments of an ED. Way to put in the toughest of work. Keep going!

[@grainneburrows]

Best explanation of ED recovery & its challenges I've ever seen. I can relate to all of it! I'm a couple of years further along the jouney than you Allie and I promise you that it gets better and easier with time. Stick at it - it's SO worth it 🎉!!

[@Second2LastPioneer]

Thank you for sharing. A family member is dealing with ED and it's been difficult to understand what to do and not to do. Please take care of yourself. You're an inspiration to so many, including myself. 🐌

[@ninacarson4725]

I'm so happy you are sharing all of this! I hope more high school and collegiate runners tune in and speak up or ask for help because the culture we all grew up in needs to change in running!

[@thomasphilyaw8593]

Very inspirational Allie, I hope girls and women of all ages hear your story and their lives change. ❤

[@wunderpets_20]

6:00 this!! i started recovery as a marathon runner because i want to be doing marathons for the rest of my life. i was disappointed when my body felt even worse after i started recovery but i had to remind myself of the long term goals. i’m at two years and three months currently and just ran my best marathon time a few weeks ago

[@schoukri]

Thank you for your continued honesty and the update on your recovery from ED. I'm really happy to hear that you're still prioritizing your health and recovery over your athletic goals. I can only imagine how hard that must be for a professional athlete but I'm glad you have the support system around you to remind you what's most important.

[@katytallon1]

Thank you for sharing the wisdom. OCD was extremely hard to overcome for me but I learnt so much about myself. It’s so hidden (much like when someone with an ED might look healthy) and so can feel lonely. Until recently, I had guilt around my family but you’ve made them so super proud. I realised the bond will be stronger for it all. All these illnesses are even harder when directly related to our career (running/my OCD was about work)….argh. The strength required is superhuman! Well done xxx

[@randylazer2894]

You are so amazingly honest and sharing of who you are, and of the challenges you have faced, and currently face. I know that you would be a wonderful speaker and maybe quite a great author on ED, for which you would really be able to connect with so many people; who are in dire need of structure and motivation from somebody who has had that shared experience....let alone with a lifetime of incredible athletic accomplishments. Your sister relayed some excellent and beautiful words. That no matter how fast you run, people have the highest admiration and respect for the truly wonderful, caring, honest, and amazingly strong person that you are; for which you have such great commitment for your well being, and the achievement of your goals. Allie....you have truly faced yourself and your challenges in a remarkably honest way, which has allowed you to have succeeded, and for which you will continue to succeed on your journey. Many people have some major issues in their lives to deal with, but unlike you, they don't have the courage to share with even their family, let alone the world on KZbin. You have such a high level of responsibility and accountability, so whether with running or almost anything else that you would desire to pursue in life, you will face your challenges, design the optimum strategy, and commit with your heart and strength of mind to do achieve the best possible outcome. As I had written once before.....if I had a daughter, and she couldn't break 30 minutes in a 5k, but she had just a portion of your great personality and character....I would be so proud of her, for which your family, and this sortof old runner is very proud of the person who you are. Not just the lady who can break 16 minutes in a 5k or run 16 miles up a mountain (seriously..Good Lord!), but of who the real Allie is. That was a very heartfelt and absolutely excellent video. The people who realize great success, are those who are just brutally honest about themselves, for which you are one of those very rare and special people. The only advice I could possibly give, is to.... just be you! Oh yes, and of course..don't eat tacos and burritos at 2:30 am, after drinking champagne and go for a run that morning! Allie O...you are tremendously strong of mind and body, and with your experiences and your great abilities of communication and connecting with people, you truly can touch a lot of lives in a great way on this topic....which might go far beyond any of your remarkable athletic accomplishments. Sending great wishes to you for all that you do.

[@allie_ostrander]

thank you, this is so kind :)

[@jjcabello1]

I love this so much! The subtleties of the thought processes you go through are so relatable. As a child, I participated in sports where low weight was prioritized and rewarded. I can remember being at camp with my team and literally being publicly weighed in everyday. I was twelve. As a trainer and coach, I am still embroiled in that world. I have worried about you around this injury, for the very reasons you so beautifully articulate. Dragging these thoughts into the light is surely the way to eventually defeat them. BUT, as you say, it is a process. Keep the faith! I read in the comments where someone described your openness and vulnerability as fierce. I couldn’t agree more. THIS is what makes you a champion.

[@annemeyers2840]

in there with you, Allie. Timings are still rules that get me too, and I'm also going on two years of intentional work finding them and working through them. And I feel you when you say it feels like you can't win (you phrased it as saying "your mind isn't safe"), because the decisions that feel "good" for the ed are ones that you objectively know are not so good for your health, and vice versa. I just related to a lot of what you said in this video, which is such a cool and interesting feeling, when it feels like such a cerebral problem. Awesome to have the reminder that although this process is about thoughts, other people might be having those same thoughts too

[@jabc4748]

Thanks for sharing. I’ve been fighting this battle for years and think a treatment center may be the best way to beat this

[@katieh2552]

What an AWESOME video!! I related SO much to everything you said. As someone who had an ED for the better part of 13 years, with two stints in treatment and now being in solid recovery for three years, I relate to how vulnerable and honest this video is. Thank you for putting all of this out there!!

[@libbymorehouse4466]

So happy that you're talking about this experience. I know it is tough, but your honesty and reflection surely helps you, and definitely helps others going through it

[@KimSterton]

Allie…this was your best, most informative and selfless post ever. You are so amazing, so fierce, so caring, so real, so nurturing to those learning about training and running and also those suffering from eating disorders and also those youngsters coming up in the sport! Bravo Queen Bee!! Seriously….you are a leader in your sport but in more ways than many of your competitors and colleagues could ever or would ever bother to be. You. Are. Awesome. My hope and prayer for you is that you continue to spread your message from the your experience in the trenches and also to follow up on that path of success that YOU so richly deserve!! GO GIRL!!

[@madelinecalais3392]

Allie thank you so much for this. I’ve been in recovery for about three years and I understand every challenge you mentioned. Your channel brings so much joy and light, continue fighting!!!

[@sarahpaulwalker4248]

What a wise and articulate woman you are, Allie. Thanks for sharing.

[@leneheimdal7138]

Thank you Allie. This is a very important video for both people struggling, recovering or close friends/ family. I know the lessons is so true

[@monsieurfrancoise]

Whoa... you talking about the ED behaviors making you feel safe really made something click for me. I knew I had ED-type behaviors but I never realized how deep it went. Thank you for sharing your journey 💚

[@peachxblue]

Thank you so much for continuing to share your journey, Allie!! I’ve struggled w EDs too and recovery has been such a gift to my life. And, the work continues day by day but it gets sooo much better. Thanks to your videos, more people can experience recovery!!

[@danalawrence4473]

Well said. And that ninth point is critically important. People define themselves by their accomplishments and that is not who they are. It is about getting better, staying healthy and allowing your body to operate at its best, whether or not you win.

[@lenoose]

Thank you for your vulnerability and authenticity. Recovery isn't linear! Ecstatic that you're prioritizing your health and sharing your awareness. 💯🙌

[@iga10000]

37 years old here and fighting a relapse. But fighting in a positive sense of this word, because slowly but surely I'm making a progress. My ed also started because of sport, I trained in athletics and constantly compared my body to other girls. I have nothing to do with sports at the moment because my body is weak. I wish I could find enjoyment in being active again. Thank you for being a positive light in a sea of toxic content about eating disorders

[@emmaleerau8184]

Thank you so much for making this video. I am 2 years into recovery also and this video served as a great reminder to me as to why I started in the first place.

[@alexandrabikes]

Thanks for talking about this Allie! I don’t think we talk enough about ED in athletes. You mentioned always knowing how many calories are in something and never being able to forget it, and I think that is something a lot of people don’t realize if they’re not experiencing it. It isn’t something I can unlearn, so I really appreciate hearing your experience.

[@EverMeadow]

Lol E.D. sounds like erectile dysfunction.

[@gdavisdvm]

I can relate to every single word in this, thank you for putting it into words so eloquently. Also, Your sense of humor is brilliant, your sit and reach segment had me rollin’

[@allie_ostrander]

haha thank you! The sit and reach was so tough lol

[@NINA-dj6cg]

oh girl where have you been all my life. such a relatable video. thank you for doing this and wish you the best

[@trainwellracewell]

You’re headed in the right direction. It takes awhile to turn the ship in a new direction but it’s worth the work. One thing I want to encourage you to keep doing is making sure you don’t skimp on protein. This goes a long way toward building an injury proof body that has ample resources to rebuild with. Keep up the great work!

[@abbygraves2573]

The 8th reason about family hits so hard 💔 I feel you Allie, it’s so hard and it affects your family more than we could ever realize. So proud of you ❤

[@katewiser8865]

Really good video Allie! Thank you for sharing, especially number 8. Hope your doing well.❤

[@allie_ostrander]

number 8 is my favorite :)

[@taylajane368]

i am so glad I found your channel. You are doing amazing, and I can not wait to watch your journey. Thank you for being so open and honest. You have a beautiful soul!!

[@sylpascale7673]

Allie, great stuff, you are helping many others with your advice and honesty .........best regards

[@ARTWV]

Hi Allie, I Pray for your long term recovery and success. God Bless

[@Gary_sub3marathoner]

Excellent video. Honest, informative and emotional. I truly believe that with the support of your friends and family, you will end up stronger both mentally and physically.

[@debrascott8775]

Thank you for sharing your recovery journey. This is hard. It will get better. Such a helpful, real, message.

[@emegvf]

I’m autistic and I have a sensory based ED. It’s painful to eat certain foods because of texture and taste. I also don’t want to try new foods because of the fear of the texture. It’s something I’ll have to live with but like you said you have to be aware of the destructive thoughts to be able to rationalise them. I know for me some days mentally I can’t handle eating some foods so I go to my safe foods. And other days I have to tell myself that the vegetables and fruit make me feel so much better so I have to push through. Some days I can try new foods and be totally fine with taste and texture. Just realising not everyday will be the same and just to do the best you can is enough ❤️ thank you for being so open about your experience

[@anitajarosz5767]

Its worth it. So proud of you ❤

[@camilarosa6351]

What a powerful video, Allie. Thanks for that. And keep going, you are doing great.

[@shangrila73eldorado]

I always park far from the supermarket to avoid other cars and dents. It feels wonderful to be far from the jackasses of the world...Just remember not to be too hard on yourself. To err is human. Life is immensely various. You seem like a moral person, so in the final tally you will be a net positive and St. Peter will let you through the pearly gates, so to speak. It took me about ten years to quit smoking. I had to unlearn that habit. Sometimes I still bring my hand to my lips as if I am about to take a drag. Did you know even the great Jesse Owens had a smoking habit? Good luck on your goals. People love you. Feel blessed.

[@ellaronci2703]

So proud of you. sending you all the best, thank you for sharing

[@meherenow]

“Damage takes a long time to repair”..it’s important to say people with severe Ed’s do damage that is irreparable…there is no time frame that undoes some damage

[@grantkoehnen2114]

So proud of you allie! You’ve really inspired me!

[@zaneclone]

From outside looking in, you've done so wonderfully well the last couple of years- with the professional help you sought out, your own professional approach- and great family and friends around you. For sure, it will have been difficult- and no doubt will continue to be at times in the future, but I've no doubt you will succeed in putting your ED to bed- AND satisfying your athletic itches... Wishing you all the luck in the world moving forward- not that I think you'll need it. Team Allie has it covered ;)

[@allie_ostrander]

thank you! I hope you're right :)

[@RebeccaChinn]

Thank you so much for posting this 🫂💗

[@natkahlusi4955]

Allie, you're so inspirational. Cheering on you!

[@jenniferstenberg]

Thank you so much for sharing your experiences. You are truly appreciated.

[@oliviadoane5758]

This video hit soooo close to home. Thank you for sharing Allie, you’re so awesome.

[@littlerunner4505]

❤ the honesty, Allie! I hope it also helps you to talk about it as much as it helps other people listening :)

[@reneebrody5877]

I love your videos and they are encouraging. I cant have breakfast until i weigh and if i weigh more than i want to dont eat breakfast. I hate when someone says i look healthy. I do hear im fat.

[@ilanasmits6148]

You are such an amazing person , I feel so safe and heard because of you , I hope you are okay because u deserve the world girl ❤

[@milanh1349]

Thank you for this. I needed to watch this.

[@raquelbrown1759]

When I was at my lightest and fastest I was weighing myself probably 10-15 times a day. I didn't realize it was an issue until I mentioned it to a friend in passing and she was like "You know thats kind of crazy right?" I grew up with a mother who was a body builder and has such bad mentality about body image and food and its taken me almost 30 years to finally figure out the issues and what work I need to do to work with these problems. Thank you for sharing your story with us. As someone who enjoys running so much and has been watching women like you and so many other athletes and comparing myself to you guys its been really eye opening to see all of these women coming out and talking about thir struggles with ED and its been sad to hear the struggles you all have gone through but it also helps me feel a little less alone and not good enough. So thank you so much. Its a lifelong journey of learning. Don't put a timeline on recovery or at least thats what I tell myself and what works for me. Being healthy is #1 for now and being happy.

[@allie_ostrander]

I'm sorry that you have had such a rocky road with your relationship with food, but thank you for sharing that. I think it's so valuable to be open about these things because it really can help the community not only feel connected, but also push each other toward healing.

[@Sunnydaypicnic]

Addiction is not a the problem but the symptom of a problem. I wonder what and why you have felt the need to control/obsess about diet/exercise. For me I fell into these patterns as a coping mechanism when challenging things out my control were taking place. I found when I finally stepped into my power and actualized a long withstanding goal, the ED behavior fell away naturally. It still rears it’s head when challenges arise but it doesn’t seem to have the power any more. Blessings on your beautiful journey 💕

[@karolinau9119]

Thank you for sharing your ed journey. I am also a distance runner, amateur, dealing with ed for more than 8 years and it's really difficult for me. I have amenorrhea, osteopenia and constant injuries but still accepting weight gain is so difficult for me😫. Losing weight was my main goal for years and I have no idea how I could just give it up now😪

[@zachc8706]

Thank you for posting this video. I have a million ED thoughts at any given time. Somehow you were able to verbalise how I’m feeling.

[@allie_ostrander]

Glad it was helpful!

[@ashleytalkington4474]

The next time you do a Q&A or even have time in a vlog to mention - could you talk about binging in recovery and if you experienced it? I struggled with it when I was in anorexia recovery a couple years ago and I remember it being a struggle for me when I allowed myself to start eating. Recently school ended for me, and I've realized I've been severely under-fueling and overtraining, so the past couple of days I've been working on eating more, but at night I just want to binge. And the whole day I feel bloated but also starving at the same time and it's taking my motivation to run and do anything but obsess about food & exercise.

[@kevinmshea58]

Love the message you are bringing Allie. This is not an issue I have but I know your videos help many people and even though I am sure they are tough to film they are appreciated.

[@allie_ostrander]

tough to film, but I'm hoping that these types of videos can help people!

[@DavidHuston]

Great post Allie, I've admired you since you were in high school and even more now. Have a great year!!!

[@amymarie1655]

Thank you for sharing. I’m currently recovering from a relapse in ED, training for a 100miler, and it’s a very slippery slope while being an athlete.

[@jenc1276]

You are such a badass! I have ocd and my therapy for it meant often times not doing the thing that brings instant gratification bc it was long-run bad for me. It was so hard. I loved acknowledging how hard it was bc it helped me realize my strength. So impressed by you 🙌⭐️

[@jennaberkel7101]

These were great tips! Thank you for sharing your story. It’s helpful.

[@alexischapdelaine9476]

I think the video is very helpful 😀😀. I think its great you have such a great support system within your family and friends. Have you thought of being a motivational speaker for athletes in school sports about eating disorders and doing guest speaking . I think you would be fabulous at sharing your story with others, I'm sure you have helped so many people already. I am so happy I stumbled across your channel a year ago you have my full support.

[@allie_ostrander]

I haven't really thought about it, but that is probably something I would enjoy! I like public speaking.

[@Marymooau]

You are a warrior and such an inspiration. Take care of you and know you are doing the right thing. ❤❤❤❤

[@edwardleecaliforniausa]

Hi allie happy Thursday afternoon and I hope you having amazing day today and I loved your vlogs and you are amazing Supporter and I'm proud of you

[@TheBeingReal]

How can one best ‘compliment’ a person on their recovery process? I’ve been guilty of telling a few (prob a comment to you too) the “you look healthy” thinking I was sending good vibes. 😅 Stay strong there! 💪🏻

[@allie_ostrander]

Honestly, it's hard to make any compliments about food or body without being triggering. I would suggest sticking to compliments about personality such as "wow, you are so thoughtful" or "I love how present you are in conversation"...stuff like that.

[@BoopSnootAndTroubleshoot]

I just took a turn for the worse. Imma just take it as it comes, cause I have been prioritising three meals a day instead of two miniscule meals. Now, I have also increased my daily intake by... well, a little. It's a start. It's a start...

[@laurenbailey5462]

thank you SO MUCH for sharing! this is so encouraging

[@Wiiliam_Robinson]

I experienced mental health issues as a result of depression, yet receiving medical care has helped me to figure out the root causes of my eating behavior. So I went to Sovereign Health, where I discovered how genetics, personality, and life events all play a part in the onset of my eating disorder. I could make sense of my own experiences. Thanks to this Sovereign health, I have created better coping strategies. Mental illness is something that we can defeat! Let's keep going forward together.

[@allie_ostrander]

I'm so glad that you were able to get the help you needed and create healthy coping mechanisms!

[@bcrruns1085]

Well said. Thanks for sharing what you have learned so far.

[@hannahtansosch4663]

Recommending betterhelp for ED recovery is so counterintuitive. That platform is primarily just a bunch of fraudulent ‘therapists’ who don’t care at all about someone’s mental health. Please consider getting a different sponsor.

[@hannahtansosch4663]

I really do not want to diminish the message of this video - I’m so proud of you and I think this video is so inspirational so many people. And I understand ads help you monetarily, but better help is notorious for fraud.

[@snooples]

the sit and reach was defo the sleeper hidden boss of those fitness tests it always snuck up on u love the eighth lesson and how much ur fam value that you be the best version of urself just as much as you want to be the best version of urself for them

[@allie_ostrander]

the sit and reach was the bane of my existence. Still have nightmares about that...

[@rachelthompson1804]

Hi Allie, it's got to be frustrating to feel like you're putting in all the work and doing everything right with fueling and training cautiously, only to continue suffering with bone issues - fortunately you are wise and understand that it takes a while for your body to catch up from long-term underfueling. It can be so hard to be patient, especially if you have big athletic goals! I know everyone's path is different, but are you familiar with Amelia Boone? She's an example of an elite athlete who continued to struggle with repeated bone injuries early in her recovery, but now a few years later her body is stronger than ever and able to withstand competing at a high level again. Anyway, best of luck to you and thanks for spreading your message!

[@allie_ostrander]

I do follow Amelia, and she has been a huge inspiration! She's someone who has really kept me going through this.

[@johnnelson5929]

Congrats on 2 years!! Keep getting after it!

[@johnnelson5929]

Also, that dang Sit-and-Reach! Always the worst!

[@paddycunningham6834]

Hope you are doing well from all in dublin👍 we all love your videos, good job

[@beedee22]

Thank you for this, really needed to hear all of it ❤

[@mandylowther]

Keep going you queen! Legit with you every step (or non step😉 ) of the way❤

[@yokately4652]

Hi Allie! Big fan of you and your content! Please reconsider your partnership with BetterHelp. They have done some pretty sketchy things. If anyone in the US is looking for affordable therapy online (with or without insurance), I would encourage you to find a licensed provider in your state who offers telehealth.

[@CoolInOlympia]

This was great! Thank you! I am sure it will help a lot of people!

[@djenne514]

Thnx, Allie! 🙏🏽 It's super helpfull❤

[@Jess-Rabbit]

Thank you for this video and for sharing your experience! I also had an ED for almost 15 years and I still struggle mentally quite badly. I relate to much of what you said but particularly the one about how whats ok for the general pop may not be okay for us. I get so incredibly triggered when "average" people talk about diets and food and weight like its nothing. It was so bad at my previous job where I worked in an office that whenever I heard people talking about weight loss or dieting I'd just have to get up and leave. The worst for me is that I've been suspicious that I have a thyroid problem for a while and no one believes me because of my past ED history. I want to see a natropath but if I really have Hashimotos then they recommend a very specific diet that I feel like would just set me off (ie never eat bread or rice again....like what?...)

[@allie_ostrander]

Yes, I relate to this so much. Especially being around runners, I feel like food, weight, diets are discussed all the time, and restricting foods and eating differently around races is glorified. However, like you said, I know that doing any of that would set me off immediately. As far as the naturopathic doctor, maybe be open about your history and explain that changing your diet isn't healthy for you? Either that or go to a standard western doctor and see if they could do tests and maybe give you prescription?

[@Jess-Rabbit]

@@allie_ostrander Thanks for your reply girl! Yes it can be so triggering in athletics especially. I do crossfit as well and everyone is always talking about one anothers bodies and its normal to be asked to lift X amount of your body weight. And then there's me who hasn't weighed themselves in at least 8 years because knowing that number would set me into a downward spiral ha! And then every time someone tries to get me to do a weightlifting competition I have to explain that I can't do it because I can't be put into a "weight class" for the event and if anyone dares try to guess my weight class I'll freak out just the same That really sucks that a lot of people in running would feel compelled to cut fuel before a comp. Thats when you need it the most!

[@EverMeadow]

I stopped drinking water off and on for a year, during college. On a 2 day fast I felt like I was going to go to sleep and not wake up again, so I stopped and never fasted again.

[@isadoraadlersidi9052]

Tks for sharing your Journey ❤

[@lesliebattle6151]

yeah ...I hear this... been dieting do or nationals hard... didn't lose a pound...friend said triggering stuff... fell off wagon... remembering one normal meal isn't going to help you not feel like shit.... hate cooking... where is the end to any of this? tightrope

[@jg9980]

I think a point should be the bloating / food intolerances for me. Yeah there’s mental things but the painful physical changes can’t be overlooked.

[@allie_ostrander]

bloating was definitely a big problem for me, but I mentioned that in a past video, so I wanted to bring up new points in this one!

[@aliciafenner3098]

WOW Allie I absolutely loved this video :) I loved how you went through each lesson of recovery and talked about how hard it is because so many people ALWAYS assume that if you eat you will feel better and everything will be better and unfortunately it doesn't work that way it takes constant fixing! You are so inspiring and I really admire you so much

[@allie_ostrander]

I'm so glad this was helpful :) definitely a tough subject to discuss, but it can be so valuable.

[@aliciafenner3098]

@@allie_ostrander Yeah very much helpful :) Yeah I agree a tough subject but very much valuable and inspiring

[@restlesssouls1149]

Very thorough and helpful. Recovery is most definitely hard and trying...I think #11 would be to have fun no matter what like you did with your beautiful family two weeks ago. Love your doo kinda looks like an upside down ice cream cone...

[@allie_ostrander]

"have fun" would be a difficult goal to reach all throughout recovery lol, but definitely something to shoot for!

[@restlesssouls1149]

Understood. When I was in sales, marketing and business management every morning and throughout my day I would repeat this mantra..."Everyday's a Holiday and every night is a Saturday night" I still live with that. Stay upbeat

[@prins424]

This sounds crazy and counterintuitive but ketogenic diet can help with anorexia. It seems to change the brain somehow, improving relationship with food and other mental issues. Worth looking into and maybe try for anyone who is struggling.

[@sheeniebeanie2597]

The sit and reach was my jam. My teachers would be like 👁️👄👁️ Oh and the one where you grab your hands behind your back.

[@allie_ostrander]

couldn't be me.