My Mom Died of Brain Cancer, And It Was Awful

This is my long, long update on what happened between my last video and today. Thank you for listening to my story.
I forgot to edit any pictures in the video itself, which is fine. But I want everyone to see my mom, and how cool she is, so here are a few links to some pictures.
Summer of 2020, with Nova: imgur.com/8CNMQ2C
Summer of 2022, with Ranger: imgur.com/TFj52p0
August 2023, our last and only coffee outing during the week we were in the Michigan apartment: imgur.com/W92Q2hS
September 2023, just landed in Seattle: imgur.com/AugN5lk
Later that night, Gwendolyn as well: imgur.com/bc4jdlF

[@robinmaynard1640]

I am in this process with pancreatic cancer. I watched this to see what my kids will go through. I cannot express how very truly grateful I am that you were willing to be so open and vulnerable. This has helped me so much.

[@Lt.852]

What a beautiful gift in the face of having to saying goodbye.

[@gaetanodepaola2ndchannel179]

I'm so sorry... I wish you all the best...

[@letmework6254]

I wish you peace and grace in your journey with pancreatic cancer.

[@animationfludYT]

I am so very sorry. I lost my mother 30 years ago to pancreatic cancer. It was 5 weeks from diagnosis to death. Losing a mother is a very profound loss. May your grief be short and bearable, and may your memories bring you joy. Blessed Be. ❤

[@DanielPersson]

I'm sorry for your loss. I've been through something similar or been close to it. My whole family is left, and my wife has none of her family except for extended family. Last was her father who had lymphoma, and it was a multiple-month process. My wife is a specialist nurse so she knows way too much about what could or will happen. I spent multiple months taking care of the family and not speaking with my wife because she was so exhausted from talking with the extended family and explaining and handling their fears and feelings so she had no energy to talk to me. Sometimes, people need you to do stuff without asking or talking because handling others could be a burden.

[@abigailh7715]

You're such a lovely human just like your mom. She lives on within you forever ❤

[@lcgswolf]

I’m truly sorry for your loss, I also lost my mom 5 years ago, Leuchemia, it sucks, the impotence, the pain, but eventually you learn how to live with it

[@tammyorr721]

Y'all might want to think about getting palliative care even if you dont want to do hospice. It's symptom management along with fighting the cancer. So kind of a combination.

[@RustyShakleford1]

Wow same you said five years it's the same for me but made me realize it feels like yesterday or a year ago. Love and healing

[@sudobase1754]

Sorry for your loss. I have to admit not many weeks after watching this vid. I went through the experience of watching my Dad die over 24 days. The anticipatory grief and the stress of that is brutal. It has been one month and I feel like the shock is slowly starting to fade. But what I'd like to say is Thank you for sharing your experience. Trying to find those few silver linings was something to focus on and made some parts of an awful experience at least meaningful and special.

[@lucygonzalez6670]

Sorry for your loss❤ I lost my 34 year old son to cancer. It was extremely painful, we did have some special moments and a spiritual moment that was extremely special. I too was diagnosed with breast cancer 8 months after he passed. Cancer sucks!! Thank you for sharing your story I can truly relate.

[@TheSaltySiren]

I’m so sorry for your loss. The place your mother was at, sounds like my worst nightmare. I had worked in a nursing home, as part of my Psychiatric Technician training. After 3 months of working in this place, I vowed to never leave a family member in a place like this. I watched in horror as all the Nurses struggled with their patient loads. I understand that not everyone is built for nursing care, and it is so expensive to have care for our parents. It just breaks my heart at your poor Momma waiting an hour just to be toileted. I’m so glad you discharged her. What a disaster!

[@AlexanderLeister]

My mom died about 3 weeks ago from lung cancer at the age of 66. Dying is one thing, but dying from cancer is cruel. From diagnosis to her death she only had 2 and a half months left. The last day when she was conscious, I couldn't even have a coherent conversation with her because she was so confused. It's devastating. All that said, I feel for you and hope you are okay. A lot of your descriptions are similar to what I experienced. Cancer is shit and we should put everything we can into science and progress to beat it.

[@ginnye2268]

Thank you for the profound gift of your story. It was familiar to me because my husband died over a year’s time from a glioblastoma brain tumor. Although he died decades ago, our experience paralleled yours. The frustration of the inadequate (& sometimes cruel) healthcare, the lack of information (also no google then), the way the disease escalated- making us lurch constantly from hope to despair. Virginia Eskridge, Pittsburgh, PA

[@dianaqueenofcats5333]

​@@ginnye2268I missed saying goodbye to both my parents. My mom died of a rare seizure disorder they could never correctly diagnose and she spent several years in a vegetative state. I was living in MA at the time, far away, and had no warning she was about to pass. My dad died in a nursing home, it was a surprise because we were expecting him to be discharged and he seemed upbeat when I saw him 2 days before. He died in his sleep, and while I was thankful he escaped a long, drawn out painful death, I wish I could have said goodbye.He had been through so much and was such a fighter, he went through a heart attack, a couple of strokes, some major surgeries only to unexpectedly die in his sleep when we thought we were bringing him home. He was 81 years old when he died, my mom was 73. I myself am now 54 and my health has severely declined over the past few years. Starting this past spring I started falling and not being able to get up. I've been in and out of the hospital with covid and cellulitis and injuries from falling. I'm mostly bedridden awaiting several surgical procedures, but I've lost so much muscle I fear I'll never walk again. I'm also afraid I have thyroid cancer, I'm awaiting a biopsy on a 4cm tumor. I'm in constant pain and I'm only living for my cats and dog at this point. If I do have cancer I don't have the strength left to fight it and no one to be by my side for the dying process. I was never able to have children due to my health issues, now I wish even more I had been able to. OP's mom was lucky to have her daughter by her side. By the way, I'm also from Pittsburgh PA.

[@balorprice]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Thank you for being brave enough to get in front of a camera and let us know. You're a lovely person. Take all the time you need, we'll be here when you're ready

[@balorprice]

Only just getting to the end of the video now and just have to say, your advice is absolutely spot on. Being able to offer specific things to people who are grieving, so they don't have to organise help, that's the best. And yes, taking time off from the 24/7 grieving so you can grind on Baldur's Gate, the GUILT you get if there isn't anyone to tell you that's okay.

[@melindamartin9765]

Thank you so much for your thoughts precious...my little sister has now entered her final hours (glioblastoma), just lost my Mumma 6 weeks ago (brain aneurysm from Warfarin), your soothing words and beautiful calming voice have been so soothing for me 💕 Blessed be 💜💕💜🙏

[@STT511]

How incredibly special that those were her last words to you❤ So sorry for your loss.

[@ElazarY]

The poignancy of this video is beautiful, you’ve created a work of art that touched my soul just by sharing your experience. Thank you, may your mother rest easy 💛

[@SirAU]

I didn't know that you had reappeared on the platform. When I did, I was presented with this news. I am sorry for your loss. May your mother rest in peace.

[@noiddiaspora]

Sincere condolences. I lost my mother earlier this month to cancer that spread to her spine. She had been in and out of the hospital for a few weeks and just kept getting worse. I saw it coming a mile away but it doesn't help. It feels so weird just looking back to September and remembering her being ambulatory and energetic, to October when she was bedridden and barely coherent. I remember her telling me she was ready to go when I was visiting one night, and she was gone three days later. This stuff happens way faster than you can possibly imagine. I'm sorry you also had to go through all this agony. I'm fortunate enough to have a lot of good people looking out for me, and they've made it so much more bearable. I hope I can provide some small comfort by sending good vibes over the internet.

[@winterlite3243]

⚡️Dear sweet lady. This video is the first of yours I have seen. I am very sorry for the loss of your mother. My youngest sibling has cancer and so does my brother-in-law. Sadly, illness and death come to us all - to some of us sooner than others. I am touched to my core and grateful to you beyond words for being so brave in the midst of your pain. Listening to you share the details of your experience will help everyone who is fortunate enough to watch this. Please know that you were an incredible daughter! (I am daughter and a mother of two grown men). There is no doubt in my mind that your mom’s transition was blessed as you said your blessings for her in you heart! I believe her soul felt fully free to cross over at that exact moment. May your higher power give you all the strength and courage you need in your journey ahead. God bless you and thank you ✨🙏🏽💖

[@SirArtanis7]

My condolences, sorry to hear you've gone through this

[@eg792]

So sorry for your loss. Lost my father this year due to cancer, diagnosed Sept, doing ok, then one week took a turn for the worse and passed away two weeks later. Such a shock as I was expecting surgery and recovery, such a heartbreak to sit by this side knowing there is nothing left to do, but to wait for the disease to take over. Loss of a parent hits so hard, and nothing seems to matter anymore since I will not be able to share it with my dad in the future, wishing both of us strength to get through the grief.

[@Spark_es]

10 years ago yesterday, I also lost my mother because leuchemia. She was 51 years old. Be strong and happy in your life, I'm sure that your mother would have wanted it that way.

[@michellefrench6617]

❤

[@MatthewBishop64]

I watched and listened to the end. I know I'm not there in the room in the room but I felt like I needed to be there for you to have someone to talk to.

[@mykelhedge7299]

I'm so sorry for your loss. My Gran had skin cancer earlier this year, though she underwent operations unfortunately it seems they were not enough as we recently found out it has spread to her brain. There is nothing to be done, but hopefully make her happy for the time she has left, in much the same way that you seem to have done with your mum.

[@ljd3]

So sorry for your loss. I remember meeting your mom a couple times in high school and thinking she was really cool. It's hard to believe she's gone - she always seemed so full of life. Also wow those pictures - she really didn't age for 10 years.

[@renatotiamzon9855]

My condolences. May your mom RIP

[@TammiBaker-v6d]

I’m so very sorry for your loss. I am imagining by the date you mentioned that you are at an anniversary about now. I’m sure that’s really hard. Thank you for being so vulnerable with your story and feelings. My mom was just diagnosed with an aggressive form of breast cancer. I’m just beginning to chart this unfamiliar and unwelcome territory. Your words were healing, informative and honest. What a blessing it must have been for your mom to have you by her side. I don’t live in the same state as my mom either and it’s so tricky! My husband and I used to live about an hour north west of Seattle, so it was fun to imagine all the beauty that you see each day and are surrounded by. Take a good look at that mountain on a clear day for me. Sending you a hug across the miles.❤ Thank you again.

[@tarek_maza]

I'm sorry for your loss, I hope your heart and soul will heal and the sun will shine again on your life, and may your mother rest in peace.

[@RandomBananaInk]

All my condolences. Coincidentally, you're posting, today, the day where I also lost my mother to breast cancer a decade ago. I was just 13 at the times. It felt unreal and unfair, I couldn't accept it. After two years of fighting, when the erratic talk came we knew it would be comming soon.. The last time I saw her, she couldn't formulate a single word. It was heartbreaking. I hope that you and your family stay close in this experience, and that you can talk about it with them, as it is liberating or as you have done by sharing it here. You're strong. Courage ❤️

[@enderdead7985]

I'm So Sorry for your Lost

[@Light1c3]

I'm so sorry for your loss, I can't imagine what you are going though! I can't speak for everyone, but I have a feeling I speak for a majority, but we are going to be here regardless. We will be here when you are ready, don't push yourself

[@joa6336]

I can understand what you are going through because my mother was diagnosed in April with anaplastic thyroid cancer and has a short time to live. It's been a horrible few months. Lots of encouragement, and a big hug.

[@ajwaddanwarr3409]

I am sorry for your loss, but as someone going through something similar, thank you for sharing. It really made me feel less alone in my ordeal. Thank you.

[@NovemberRain007]

What a lovely mama🥹… I wish I had known her; I adore the thumbnail! Your mom seems like such a precious lady, may she be resting peacefully 🤍🩵🕊️.

[@dashu4370]

So sorry for your loss. Best wishes to you.

[@Rusenshi]

i'm trully sorry for your loss. The last year i lost my grandfather on surgery and i understand the pain behind all your scenario. Maybe the hardest thing to do after this is learning how to keep moving forward. Takes time, but is possible, and i know you have the strength for made it (i been watching your videos during this year). I hope you feel better.(and srry for any error in redaction, english isn't my first language)

[@SilverAura]

I can't even imagine the pain and struggle... this is one of my nightmare scenarios and one that's played in my head several times over. My deepest... deepest condolences.

[@davidholender6855]

I'm so so sorry for your loss. I found your channel today via a reddit discussion on GOAP, and came across this video. It will be 3 years on Friday since my Mom (or Mum as we say down under) passed from cancer (including the brain). To date this has been the darkest time in my life and even now it is still quite raw at times, though it is getting better as each year passes. Eventually I will watch this video (on my own, because I know I will lose it), but for now I just wanted to say, with each passing year, it gets a little easier.

[@inthemoodforambience]

Hey Anne words cant describe the things that i want to express in sympathy. The strength for you to speak openly and holding onto every last memories you had is unbelievable, i was just randomly browsing about things that i wanna do as a career in my life cause im lost in life then suddenly i found your previous video then led me to this. Please take the time to fully heal yourself and go through all this experience. Sending hugs and a bunch of condolences! You had been a stronghold throughout this saddened story. Take care and be well

[@austino2832]

To be honest, I don’t even know what content you usually put up, but I must’ve liked it because I subscribed. I am about 40 minutes into your recollection and pretty much just weeping. Thank you so much for sharing this personal story I think it will help a lot of people ❤

[@AxOutdoors]

Sorry for your loss. Wishing nothing but the best for you

[@hotenigma01]

So sorry for your loss. The loss of a loved one is really heart renching and can be painful to bare. I lost my dear dad and my cousin to cancer and watching them gradually deteriorate from their original self to cancer ridden self is the most painful part for me. I miss them dearly..

[@thew00ted]

Hey. Always was a fan. Will pray for you and your family. Take care.

[@daverogan]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Please stay strong.

[@janetbuder6066]

I listened enraptured by your entire story. I felt your pain. You are such an incredibly compassionate, empathetic, caring human being and the most devoted and loving daughter. You and Rave did everything you could possibly do for your mother. You brought her to her happy place. The animals were around. I feel so sad that you were literally abandoned by so many in the medical field during this journey. Your mom knew she was where she felt safe and comfortable. I know you wish you had more time with her in Washington, but that life would have been suffering for her. It sounds like she hung on until you brought her there, and then your love gave her permission to go. What a daughter you are. You and your partner. The olive bread gesture, your ordering her take out meal hoping they made it well, ALL the little things you learned on the fly all by yourself made the quality of her last month SO much easier and more comfortable for her. I hope you both realize what gems you are. I know your mother realized it. As a physical therapist who works in a great rehab center, I felt so upset listening to how little help you received. I go out of my way to teach transfers, to just be there and go the extra mile. Whenever I do that in the future, I will think of you both and your mother. Thank you for sharing all these traumatic, challenging moments, as well as the pearls that were sprinkled in them, such as her squeezing your hand and saying "I love you, too." You and Rave deserve solid healing time. Take care of yourselves, and your animals, in her honor. Live a happy life for her. She would want you to be happy. She's always with you in your hearts. She's not suffering and she she's at peace now. That's out of your control, but what you can control is continuing to love her in your heart, to love yourself and to love each other and your beautiful caring animals. Your dog howling- omg how touching. Your cat sleeping beside her- omg. You're sleeping beside her in her bed-wow. Rave taking off time to be with you- so sweet. Get whatever support you need. I look forward to hearing about your healing journey. Grief is a rollercoaster but you will ride it with the positive memories you will always cherish❤️🌈

[@nerdmassa9086]

I've watched the video from start to end, cried a lot during some parts. I can relate to you on many levels, my father is also dying from cancer. I'm also a game developer and recently lost motivation to work due to the emotional and physical stress. I hope you continue to make videos.

[@Ms.Delphine1204]

I’m scared. I’m terrified actually. My mom has Glioblastoma. She was doing well and suddenly she has started getting agitated and acting out of character. She has a new lesion that was seen on her most recent scan but just a couple of months ago it was looking good. She has an obtune that she needs to wear 18 hours a day and she’s not been wearing it as often and i recently moved closer to my job. She’s been getting bad headaches and I just lost my dad in January and my dog before that. I don’t know what to do. I am just rambling and sorry. I’m sorry for your loss and rambling. I’m sorry and scared

[@bobbieanncraigie4671]

My heart goes out to you and your family 💙 I’m so sorry for your loss; try to stay strong and try not to forget how she would want you to live a happy life. I’m 29 and my mother passed away when I was 23 after a 7 year battle with b-cell lymphoma brain cancer, she had gone into remission for some time before having a second growth and had passed soon after. My mom was my best friend; she loved animals and was always trying to be there for others. I try to do these things for others and other things in my life to keep her alive even though she is gone. No one deserves this and I’m sorry you’ve had to witness and endure such a tragedy. 💛⭐️💪

[@bobbieanncraigie4671]

Thankyou for sharing your story

[@orangereplyer]

I am very sorry for your loss. I've always enjoyed your videos. I hope the pain gets bearable when it can.

[@mariasheppard83]

I lost my 27 year old daughter to brain cancer, surgery, chemo and radiation bought her 2 years. As a mother it was a horrible thing to watch.

[@aymangigo]

Last time I watched your videos was years ago which was about Unity tutorials. I had a lot of appreciation towards your content so I subscribed. Now after all these years I see this video. I have been there 14 years ago. My mother died of thyroid cancer. It was also awful. Sorry for your loss and wishing you good luck for the rest of your journey

[@springbok4015]

I didn’t know you were uploading again, until I saw this. I’m truly, deeply sorry to hear this. That is awful and something I fear massively. I just want to say that you’re strong, funny, smart and a whole lot of other adjectives, and have been an inspiration to me over the years. Please take good care of yourself. I wish you all the best ❤️

[@cabezon667]

Following you from your first videos. I bring you my condolences to you.

[@matthewmelange]

I listened to the whole thing earlier this morning. My mother died in October on Friday the 13th. Your experience and mine are not the same because I was not nearly as close to my mother as you seemed to be from listening to your two hour story. It really just makes me fear for my dad for when his time comes. This may sound macabre but I thought it was really peaceful sounding how you got to see them take the last breath. I'm sure there was far more going on to make it not as serene as it sounds. I would just find it extremely relieving if I got to see my dad take his last breath because of how much he means to me and how I think the world will be a lesser place when he finally passes on.

[@ForbiddenSusp3ct]

I know it does not help and I am one of many to say this, but I am so deeply sorry for your loss. You didn't deserve to go through this. Your mum didn't deserve to go through this. She sounds like an absolutely amazing person

[@AxelWerner]

i feel you. i lost my girlfriend 10yrs ago and still struggle sometimes from it. experiences like this not always heal and sometimes not everything can be turned into something happy again, since you cannot turn back time. things changed and cannot be relived or redone ever again. loss is strange. we all should know it is our fate, however most of us just push it away their whole life not thinking about it. how is ignoring it "sane" . would'nt it be better to be a little more "prepared" instead? i wish you peace and comport! i hope you can find happiness, again.

[@camimons470]

I am glad I happened onto this video. I am also glad that you were able to get there with your mother during this time. I took care of both my parents when they were dying. I am grateful I was able to be there. Your mom was a great mother to you and it is shown by your tender care. I still miss my mom and she passed about 8 years ago. I still suddenly think I should call her and then I recall she is gone. I miss her. Take care.

[@kugelimgesicht88]

I'm really sorry for your loss and would love to help in any way... Well i guess a complete stranger from the internet can't help besides saying that i'm really sorry to hear that. I can't imagine how you and out family and friends feel :( Huge thankyou for telling and a lot of love for you and your whole family and friends

[@kugelimgesicht88]

The pictures made me cry. At least there are a loving and loved animals :3

[@danily11]

My father died of prostate cancer back in April. I remember subbing to this channel years ago when I thought I was going to make it as an independent game developer. I lost interest in that dream shortly after and completely forgot your videos until recently. I am sorry for your loss.

[@WarriorsForWalter]

Thank you for the advice about what to say to a grieving person... "tell them you will listen to any sad story they have" I have had a couple of hospital adventures with my brother and my son and basically learned to be a nurse assistant cuz they dont move fast enough or see the urgency when needed.... It is good to know about these type of facilities and their lack of care for end of life or critical care patients. Be Well too 🥰 and thank you for sharing...

[@Green_haze]

So, It took me a lot of time to completely watch and understand whole video. It had a really big feedback in my soul. Thank you for it. ( i started to watch it when it was just posted) You've been through a nightmare I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. But every nightmare sometimes ends. and you starting to look at this as nightmare, that left in other world, so i hope you will too. I think, that way is much easier to go through loss. Death is awful. For both, who dies and who losses. But would be our life so interesting if we live in world without it? The only thing, i can do, because i am on opposite site of earth, is just say, that i am really sorry about your loss. And i hope. No, i know, that your mother was a great human. Because only great human can grow up a daughter, that will be interested in so many things, that will help so many people (as somebody wrote in comments on some of your videos) by sharing her skills on youtube. but loss it is not a reason to stop. Its perfect time to slow down, renew your great memories, and go with new powers I really hope, that telling this story made you feel better. not long time ago I lost my grandfather... We were close, but not so. when he was in the mind, i was too young to get his exp, to understand his tips.... but last 2 years, when i grew up, he had a Dimentia. Dimentia is a very long goodbye.... even thought about his death can switch me from calm to confusing. I am really scared, what will be when i lost people who i communicate with like every day or every week.... (P.S. If anyone want to talk, and be heard, you can find my contact on my github. my github is in links in my profile head.) (P.P.S. Sorry for my english)

[@saidinesh5]

For what it's worth, bad times bring people that matter to us closer. And it helps to focus on that at times.Take Care Anne.

[@Lt.852]

🥀♥️😔⛅️ I am so sorry for the loss of your mother and for what you and she went through together. But you were there for her and you were together. Sending Love and Sympathy to you and also Happy Trails as you continue on your journey. 🐴☀️ I’m hoping your mother will still be with you in spirit as you get signs from her along the way. Happy Trails on your journey moving forward!

[@juaquiene7726]

Dear Hapicat Since I watched your video ony big screen TV. I found your video ony phone So I could send you my heartfelt condolences. What you went through taking care of your Mom. Her tragic final weeks. What I found so refreshing. Was how honest you were on everything you experienced. No powder puffing over what is graphic and so painful. In honor of your dear mother. She raised one tough, strong woman. Thank-you & your partner for being there for her. As a person with cancer. I've experienced how people can wirhdraw and abandon you. I get it! It:s scary as hell and people just. Want to run. Happi. by sharing your experience about your Mom. Your helping others supporting a loved one. What really touched me was your ( make do ) spiritual send off. How you described how your Moms spirit was poof just gone. You know shes in a better place now. No pain no cancer. Bless your heart dear! Being a lover of horses. I'll look for those with your spicey mare! ❤❤🙏🙏

[@ariyarivandi4859]

I just watched your video explaining rendering so I come to check on your channel to see your other videos and I see this. I feel sorry for your lost and hope you better days. You seem so nice and I think you are good and intelligence person. By the way I loved that you've played souls-like games :) I'm gonna check more on your channel to watch more of your videos and checking on you to see, you having good days and good fillings.

[@HyperTensionJohnny]

I'm sorry 😔 I hope you've been healing these last few months.

[@devonhealy4553]

Those long-term/skilled nursing acilities can be the absolute worst! My grandmother died due to the most severe bed sores (to the bone) from lack of care at the last one she was in. She ended up being transferred to a hospice facility that cared for her until she passed due to their negligence and them causing her bed sores that the hospice people said was the worst case they had seen. It was just awful! I feel for you in your experience! They are just chronically understaffed, and its a tragedy when its someone in need of round the clock care! Im so sorry for your loss and the painful experience in her last few weeks! 💔

[@thenayancat8802]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Brain cancer is really horrible, and the signs aren't well known, and doctors have been known to downplay the possibility or ignore symptoms. Anybody who, or knows somebody who, suddenly starts getting chronic unexplained headaches, dizziness, eyesight issues, personality change - go and get a scan! The doctors may tell you it's probably nothing. That's fine. You're still getting the scan. Neurological symptoms like that are serious business, and whether it's a tumour or something else, it's important to get on it soon!

[@rstar111]

I am so very sorry for your loss.

[@theeternalgrind7290]

I’m sorry for your loss. I just found game engine video. I didn’t watch this video but will in the future. Thank you for your for helping me understand game engine a bit better and hope you’re doing well.

[@alirezajahanbakhsh7890]

My deepest condolences 🙏🏻🙏🏻 may she rest in peace.

[@riichobamin7612]

Hi, I just saw your video explaining game enghines and I came to your channel to check out your new videos. I am really for your loss. I hope you are doing better and healing. Take care.

[@Jon7763]

16 years ago I was home on leave it was late August and my Grandmother had a clean bill of health, had just stop smoking everything was looking good, by January she was ate up with cancer and was on so many painkillers she was basically in a coma. I was glad I was able to make it home to see her one last time but I wish I was stronger to have spent more time with her in those final days but it killed me to see her like that. But I was lucky, my Grandmother had a whole team of family members taking care of her, so none of her care fell on me. I'm glad that you could be there for your mother when she needed you the most. And take her last words and keep them in your heart because the one thing that doesn't die is a parent's love for their child.

[@LaCarteRouge]

I've heard similar hospital/senior home stories from my family, where the caretakers are borderline abusive because the patient physically cannot vocalize about how they are being treated. Broken ass system.

[@robertforster8984]

I am so, so sorry.

[@tanjasnodgrass1382]

I'm so sorry about your mom. I'm going through this as I'm watching yIur video. Dad has brain cancer glioblastoma. Sitting watching my dad slowly die is terrible. I watched my mom die of stage IV Lung Cancer. She live 4 years. Yes we had time together but I watched her slowly die. Ppl don't understand that saying atleast you had time with her isn't what I wanted to hear. Now I'm going through it with my dad but this cancer is a lot quicker. He was diagnosed around end of January or beginning of feb.. He is now in the nursing home and he can't walk. He barely wants to eat and at times refuses his meds. He hallucinates some days and some days he is somewhat a little like himself. It's a terrible disease. I believe he is getting close to the end. Prayers for you and your family and others going through this.

[@aaronperl]

I'm sorry for your loss. My dad and my mother-in-law both died from cancer recently. They both had forms of lymphoma, which appeared at around the same time in both of them, March 2021. They both had trouble getting in to be diagnosed because of the pandemic. My mother-in-law didn't respond well to the chemo, and passed in January 2022. My dad responded well and was in remission at the end of 2021, and was good for about a year, you wouldn't know he had been sick. Then in February 2023 he started getting sick again, finally went to see the doctor and the cancer had returned with a vengeance, and he died in March 2023. The pictures of your mom in bed remind me a lot of my dad at the end.

[@elizabethficarelli2126]

You are absolutely beautiful inside and out. Your mother loves you so very much. My sincere condolences 💐

[@aleksandarstanisic1848]

I'm so sorry 😞 for your lost....

[@ralfschmelcher9673]

Thank you for sharing your story

[@joannalloyd3076]

I used to volunteer for hospice in Maryland. I understand that magical, spiritual process of dying. She honored you by passing through to the other side with you by her side.❤

[@Gary-qw8kz]

Lost my mom to lung cancer which spread to brain and pelvic adrenal gland. 42 days from diagnosis to passing away. It's been 8 months. It's devastating to say the least

[@StarContract]

I feel your pain, my father died of leukemia in May of this year. You slowly grow out of the sadness.

[@innermoonlights]

It is the worst feeling that anyone can experiences, it lets people to wallow in despair but always remember, you can do whatever you want to grieve but please, just come back whenever you are ready. My condolences to you.

[@8thcelisabeth]

Thank you for sharing your story. You are lovely. You are a blessing to your mom, the help you gave to ensure a more peaceful passing.

[@giacomo0605]

My condolences. Best wishes to you.

[@SolutionBuffet]

I'm so sorry for your loss. 😢

[@bambi--5]

My mother had brain cancer too. Originally, it was lung cancer from smoking which had metastasized into her spinal cord up into her brain. She was only 47 years old. I was at her bed side for weeks until the day she succumbed. She took her last breath with her head on my lap while I gently stroked her face. The experience was brutal, but what came from the ordeal was my becoming an artist. It has now been thirty years since that time, and I have many works of art spanning photography, sculpture, painting and art videos. I pray you too will have a positive outcome from your mother's death. I pray God blesses you and your family.

[@Doping1234]

I'm so sorry for your loss

[@TR-nv3if]

So sorry for the loss of your mother. I have a very close relative who had a glioblastoma gr 4 removed last august. His MRIs have been clear. He had radiation and chemo 1st then is now on chemo Temodar main. It’s a wait n see. He starts getting dizzy and shaky and we immediately worry that his tumors is growing back.. You just have to do what you need to do the best you can do. I hope you are doing ok now.

[@Nicana68]

It's like you're telling my story, except it lasted on and off through multiple hosptial visits over 6 years. This culminated in her passing away just a month ago after 5 full days and nights of me trying to help her as she lay dying in pain and fear.

[@michellemcgowan1030]

Your a beautiful daughter I’m glad you where the one that was your moms guardian angel God bless you as you heal🤍

[@RustyShakleford1]

My mom died of brain cancer too. I looked after her for 10 months. Love an healing

[@simonthiesen8146]

Thank you so much for your perspective.

[@kittyfarkas]

So sorry for your loss. This is a scarry video. I have lymphoma and lately getting more swollen lymphs. What type of lymphoma did she have ? Surprised scans didn't pick it up.

[@debbieking3442]

Sending you hugs and strength sorry for your lost.

[@aquilliusranger2137]

Forgive me if I’m new here, while I might not understand the entire situation, the bond you share between her must’ve been really strong if you made this video. For a stranger, I shouldn’t know any better, and that’s okay, but the love between people’s bonds should also be respected as well. So for that, from one stranger to another, I’m sure they’ll be proud of you. No matter who they are, as long as you care, it’ll show. 😊

[@LpMitKm]

Well we can all say we're sorry and everything else, but it won't change anything. Anyway, we're (at least me) here for you and support you anytime. Would like the cat to be happy again.

[@EruenGameplays]

I'm sorry for your loss :(

[@varungupta2045]

I am very sorry for your loss.

[@ZoidbergForPresident]

I'm really sorry this is terrible, my mom died of cancer too some years ago. Hang in there!

[@emporertorvus4475]

I'm so sorry for your loss happie

[@isaiaslafon9329]

Hi, sad to hear, some days ago my father died of terminal cancer, what he was having wasn't a good life in the end, so know he is in peace. Even tho I sad is for the better