'I almost took my own life': Former K-pop girl band 9MUSES member

[@itsthefarrahmonster]

I've always really liked Sera ever since early Nine Muses days. She's such a gracious & kind hearted person. I hope she achieves all of her dreams despite the hard things she has been through.

[@itsthefarrahmonster]

@BTS Army Music wins didn't truly become a huge focus of kpop until around 3rd gen. During 2nd gen, a lot of groups were popular with the general public despite not having any music show wins. Nine Muses were one of those groups, very well known because several members were frequent regulars on variety shows. They were frequently brought up and praised on TV for being pretty, tall and having stable vocals (the latter of which comes back to Sera, who was one of the main singers in the group).

[@keumjo]

@BTS Army how is it Sera's fault for not getting the group a win? that's not how it works

[@jhm2732]

I'm really happy that Sera is doing better now, mental health is so overlooked in society but it's really dangerous not to take care of it

[@theunderrated86]

especially in third world countries where people don't even know what mental health is.

[@-vanishinthehaze-]

This is an industry where everyone is beautiful on the outside, like Sera, but can be vastly different on the inside, and at different stages of maturity. Sera expresses this dichotomy perfectly and supports others that are in the same position she was. I just adore this woman.

[@elektracity205]

Sera is one of the prettiest idols to me. I remember seeing her during 9muses wild era and I was stunned. She looked like a doll.

[@ayeshapilcherr]

Her eyes are so beautiful

[@mandanaasi9279]

I find it crazy how she feels ugly and insecure. Insecurity having such a pretty face is unfair.

[@cuckoophendula8211]

When I first saw the interview where she mentioned feeling very insecure about her looks compared to the other girls (after having watched the 9muses documentary), I was like....I thought she was the _prettiest_ out of all of them!

[@KayDuff1]

I just watched the making of Nine Muses again simply to remind myself just how much these girls go through. Sera, never ever stop singing you beautiful lady.

[@linkinparksmachine]

I really have so much respect from her. Even if I don't know her personally. She is incredibly strong. With all she has been through she is so outspoken and opened and soft. I hope nothing will ever hurt her like this time ever again. She deserves the world.

[@nana-sk1gl]

sera could easily pass as the visual of 9muses- i dont get why people say she's ugly? shes both tall , pretty and talented

[@SianaGearz]

I think there was just pressure tactic involved in part to get girls to make more plastic surgery in part due to pure mean spiritedness. While tall and model proportioned, she is shorter than her groupmates - you can always find something to pitch people against each other, something you can point to and say it's not as pretty as somoene else. It may be a remark meaningless to an external observer with eyes on them, but a person can easily doubt themselves, it is natural.

[@ccmeaston]

On one hand, you have the Korean culture that is very very conservative and very private. On the other hand, you have the KPop industry that pushes the sexy image because that's what gets views and sells the music for the agency. So once you become an idol, you will be fighting the battle between your cultural values and your dream job as a girl group member. Add to that the social media keyboard warriors and it's no surprise that idols struggle with their life.

[@IqramMianji]

Getting teary eyes watching this. Will continue supporting Sera, no matter what. We love you Sera.

[@diankusnaedi]

She's so pure yet strong. Love you Sera. We'll always support and love you.

[@JaySee5]

Miss Back wasn't a commercial success, but I think it helped a lot of people and it made me a fan of Sera.

[@adamborowski3437]

A really smart and cultured woman.

[@beatrizbenitezibarra4087]

💟💟 I loved her responses, its so real, doesnt sound like the typical speech that everyones says, bc her way to see life its unique that what makes it realize, she a true lady

[@robertalanfowler4287]

just so you know Sera, you are helping people around the world, not just the people in k-pop but in other walks of life and other countries. have learned to be stronger because you became stronger, I am learning Korean because you are teaching korean, I am learning k-pop(good and bad) because you are showing me k-pop, My life is better because you are in it(even only through KZbin) so please stay strong, stay healthy and always know that YOUR beauty shines in my life like a beacon of hope, because I hear you and know you, I was once at some pretty low times in my life (and often still am). So thank you for sharing your strenght, strenght you probably need for yourself but willing give to others PS. while you going through the "things" you are ..like Solo Artist, KZbinr, and Student .. you forgot . you are also a Blessing to others

[@danitydon6976]

I WISH LOVE COULD PAY MY RENT :((( sera is worth all the money in the world for her contribution to 9 muses.

[@jacquesjames6226]

It’s sad that she felt so insecure during 9muses because she was one of the most popular members. Everyone thought of her as the voice and face of the group and she was considered to be really pretty even in a group full of models.

[@vacaalbahaca5485]

I found 9muses a few months and now they’re one of my favourite bands ever now.. I’m always bittersweet about it because of how much star empire abused their idols, I wish Sera Ryu and all the best in life

[@fileenababy06]

Guess we are on the same page 🙃

[@jekentmenietje]

This woman is such a gem. I'm going through a hard time with stress and pressure in med school and what she said really resonated with me. You probably won't read this Sera, but you do give me hope with what you said ❤️

[@skywalkergreen9012]

Sera, your courage is so inspiring. Please know that your story helped me feel hope when hope was not something I felt very often. So much respect for your perseverance and your willingness to be open and honest about what you have been through. Thank you so much Sera ❤️

[@miroticfashion]

It's so sad how she used to see herself and deal with thoughts of suicide - she was the one reason I got into ninemuses because I thought she was (and still is) insanely beautiful and captivating, her eyes felt like they were staring into my soul in the best way haha, thank you for being so open and honest about many girls' struggles in the industry, wishing you the best for your bright future ahead

[@fxrnn]

She’s so beautiful.

[@sm4791]

Literally cried watching this. Hope she knows she is so loved

[@dengkeunlimited]

It was an honest and sweet interview ^^ Thank you Sera for sharing yourself. Thank you for also being a support to the young idols out there.

[@dlyon9673]

Very nice to hear from from Sera and that she is doing well. One has to worry about all the aspiring idols and everything they go through. I think it would be great if a support group was created with former idols and former aspiring idols to help all the young people deal with all the pressures of attempting to succeed in this industry. Further development of alternative music scenes helps people who love music to realize they do not need to fit into the narrow path of the idol industry to enjoy and share their love of music.

[@santoshsharma483]

Sera, you're easily the toughest, strongest human being I have ever watched and listened to. You have a kind good soul and I pray for your good health and hope you will have the success you deserve. Keep up the good fight.

[@slowlee8849]

I almost teared up in the end I really hope she's fine now she seems like a good person💕

[@aaaa9410]

so so so happy to see sera doing better, always supporting her and very proud of how far she's come since last year,,

[@deetee9920]

세라 오랫만.. 잘 살고 있구나 그래도.. 하루가 멀다고 주학이형한테 깨지고 쌍욕 먹고 할때마다 울던 네 모습에 나도 많이 슬펐다.. 나도 그 바닥 떠나서 지금은 외국에 살고있어.

[@skteam-z6n]

Stay strong Sera ❤️

[@arelysarelys2515]

I liked her visual a lot. Her makeup was something that I aspired to look like. She’s has no reason at all to feel insecure. She’s a visual and a wonderful source of uplifting energy.

[@ED-jy1de]

Sera is and always should be a strong person. It takes courage and strength to identify and admit to your own weaknesses as well as your strengths. Sera has the love , support and admiration of many people. Stay well !

[@lostnfoundbox4326]

One of the prettiest idols ever.

[@hamburgerhelperflick]

So brave, beautiful inside and out, and talented. She's speaking the truth for all to heal. Surprised how good her English is at the end.

[@RussianBoyish]

Sera, you're a beautiful soul! Thank you for sharing your story

[@정혜선-i3s]

가터벨트 하기 싫은데 싸보이기 싫은데 그런것 때문에 너무 힘들었다고 예전 방송에서 본적이 있어여 힘내시고 공황도 빨리 회복하길 바래요 그대는 너무 아름다운 사람이에여

[@mps2495]

As a Thai fan, since 2012 in my high school year, I really love NINE MUSES and Sera Unnie. ;) your music really made my day !!! Keep up support you!!! // As a journalist myself, so envy of the journalist of Korea Times who are able to meet you !

[@robertabrams8562]

Ever since I saw that documentary, I was always rooting for “Team Sera”! I’m so glad that she’s doing much better now, and has found her inner light & beauty! Kpop idols work so hard, and endure such demanding schedules, that it’s easy to lose oneself…I’m so glad the light at the end of her road, is now shining brightly 🤩❤️

[@earlybirddreamful]

i feel so proud for her, i'm happy to see that she is reclaiming her own identity and that she chooses love - it is so admirable when people support others like that, i love that she is saying no to being spiteful and mean about new idols. it makes her glow, may she live a peaceful stable life and recover well from past setbacks. may she be happy and inspire other idols to be critical with the industry but supportive with their peers

[@linkinparksmachine]

I'm so proud of you. You've been through so much - you've fought so much. For me you're so inspirational.

[@florivia2419]

Seeing she felt loved because of her fans makes me happy, I will never regret falling for Sera ♥️

[@Amylaemia]

She is so beautiful on the inside ❤ we need people like her more!

[@daphnetree7368]

7:40 - 7:57 I started crying, she is so real. You can look up to her and say she is human, if that makes sense. I want to hug her, she really gave me hope and belief in her, myself, and everyone who has been through and is going through stuff. We don't have to be okay all the time, just make it through the day or even the next 5minutes and it'll eventually be okay than it was before

[@Hee.J]

I'm so happy to hear she's doing better now, she's so strong. ❤ Thank you for the video!

[@yukuolee3740]

Ever since I learned about Sera from her music reaction videos, I've always been struck by the aura of graciousness and honesty, yet intrigued by her hesitation and vulnerability at the same time. Not until watching her on "Miss Back" did I realize the struggle she experienced as a professional and individual. I truly believe in her sincerity and wish her the best. Please stay on the path to recovery and let happiness touch you along the way.

[@jellicup]

So sad to know what shes been through ive always loved her. Glad shes here with us

[@SmithCaro]

I ❤ 9 Muses. It was them and GG that brought me into K-pop many years ago. Sera was my bias as well ... 😊

[@dualitylovesynonymsarethed3155]

Aww sera, you are so brave to talk abour the other side of the coin of such industry, you deserve to achieve your goals, God bless you Sera

[@pnandi]

I'm not a fan of nine 9muses. I never knew such a band existed or who she is. I got this video recommended on a reddit post. But this was beautiful in every way. I love how she was so real through it all and never gave an outright negative opinion and showed that she still respects who want to continue the idol life despite the hardships. Mad respect to her. I hope she receives all the happiness she deserves

[@Osterochse]

jesus, what is media doing to young women? In which universe is it possible that this woman thought at any point of her life that she is not good looking? Every picture, every video I have seen of her she looks absolutely amazing in every dress and every style. Who is supposedly better looking than her? And that is just her outer beauty. I have seen documentaries and her own channel. She is even much more beautiful on the inside than on the outside.

[@ayeshapilcherr]

She’s so precious :,) just came here after rewatching the documentary. So happy to see she’s doing well

[@kamalarai3172]

its so touchy

[@xhstan]

u are the first comment

[@mauricaribon9819]

I love her

[@Kitana2020]

We love you Sera!

[@betsytrigueroscuellar3037]

I watched a documentary on 9MUSES, their early days and wow! A lot happens. I hope Sera the best, and im so glad she is still with us.

[@igot7heroes]

Sera immediately became one of my favorites idols and I wish her the best for her life

[@Warette54541]

We love you Sera ♥♥ i am very happy to see you again and see that you are doing better ♥You are big motivation thank you for being here for us

[@rockforever7268]

Sera thank you for letting us know you are feeling better and that we can be loved .

[@jdj10078]

Sera my fav of the Nine Muses...they were a great group !!!!!!!!!!!!!

[@be_luna]

I started tearing up towards the end she’s such a strong person. Please don’t feel pressured! Keep doing you 🤍🤍

[@PK-jo1hv]

Thank you for this. You gave me hope. ♥️

[@psphd]

Te amamos Sera !! Eres todo un brillo e inspiración para muchos . Mucho éxitos vienen para ti !! 🤩🤩🤩💯

[@glitterdrip19]

what is it about these girls that is so lovable? she seems like a sweet smart girl and I just wanna hug her 💗

[@LuvTipzzy]

Honestly when I first got to see Sera, I thought she was the most beautiful person I ever saw. So I was surprised when she complained about her looks to her mom.

[@donmonteiro6830]

[@popular12345-p]

She is really pretty! And very kind… i wish her all the best

[@peonypink7943]

This was so lovely. Thank you, Sera.

[@disturbed250]

Are you kidding me?? I'm subscribed to her channel and hadn't a clue she was part of any let alone one of the groups I first heard when getting into kpop! Shes awesome! I'm so glad she's came through things. I'm stunned at randomly coming across the video.

[@thenorthstars2210]

9 Muses will live forever!

[@Andy-pb4jg]

Incredible courage to be so open n honest. Wish u all the very best Sera u are a lovely person. Even a golden heart needs care 💛

[@ringoisacandyapple]

No sera no I used to watch you omg I’m so sorry 😩

[@serectas]

I don't know about Korean beauty standards. But I think on almost any cultural standard Sera is way far prettier than most women. Heck even remove her makeup and she'll show off and stand out as well if not better! Those who think Sera isn't beautiful are either blind or crazy... Add to that talent, wits, resilience and determination, and she's a full person as she is. I hope she really keeps up and thus fly high! 😎😊 (Hi Sera, I look forward you're reading this... 😍🤗)

[@Umeshukitsune]

I thought she was the visual. Honestly Korean standards are ridiculous and I find people who don't meet the standards prettier than those who do. I think she's universally more beautiful than people who meet the standards.

[@eeelizabethh95]

You are so strong ❤ you did and are doing great.

[@eyalshay496]

I’m in love with her! Her heart is just beautiful! Thanks for being a beacon of light! ❤

[@noeliamaggio4317]

i really love and admire her a lot

[@Victor-lr2xr]

Successful entertainers deliver what their audiences desire. How a performer deals with this is a challenge with no single path. Each of us must make our choice. Bless you and find joy and peace. Deus vult.

[@peanuts9638]

Sera darling we love you!!

[@Darkstarr-ud2go]

So sweet….

[@Djungelurban]

My peak interest in Kpop was 2010-2012 but never knew much about 9Muses at the time. Heard the songs of course, but never paid any attention to who the members were or anything. So this is practically my first exposure to Sera. And she seems like a thoughtful, levelheaded and lovely person so I'm sure that if I had had an opportunity to learn about her at the time I would have appreciated her. And I'm glad she's doing well these days. In fact the inherent evil of the k-pop business is what drove me away at the time. So while I have no actual first hand experience of it obviously, I totally sympathize the pressures and mental abuse they had to go through. And if I as a mere observer found it hard to stomach, I can only imagine how she felt about it.

[@89소피]

Let's be honest, she's lovely.

[@deluxis4991]

Sera you are Beautiful, Talented and Precious. Please never again thing about yourself less.

[@Lunaxoxo55]

you are such a beautiful soul Sera

[@thibio_x]

1:52 she had a video in her channel, reacting to No PlayBoy music video. and said something about their youngest members being freshly 18-19 and have not even processed to perform this mature yet. she teared up in her video as she said they were very concerned about their maknae line back at that time 😔

[@Pamcuup]

I love you unnie , you are so kind. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@A_k_h_i_l__1995]

Stay strong noona. ❤️ From India

[@kocengineering769]

Hello Mam I know out there are many girls who are trapped and brain washed to work in such dance groups But I really appreciate your decision and admire that you chose to be true you So kindly plz 🙏 don't loose hope out there Do good and be good to self is the biggest test of our life Keep it up mam sera ryu

[@jdj10078]

i love you Sera !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[@fabiant.2485]

Sera, you are an inspiration.

[@jdj10078]

i always thought you were pretty Sera and still do.

[@psykonautt]

i’m crying 💔

[@deathberry15]

i love you sera so much.

[@mccpz]

The truth is, the kpop industry doesn't care about the mental health or the body shaming of their idols. It's either conform or get out! I think leaving the group was probably the best thing that could have happened for her.

[@dasomtrujillo1544]

Nine muses mean a lot to me Sera was my bias... i love her more now after this words...🤍👏👏👏✊️🥰

[@MikeMiasuki-vy3xx]

It is too bad no one is watching over these folks. Really destroys my interest in KPOP. I wonder how messed up mentally the KPOP people who become actors are. Very bad.

[@NikyPinkie]

I love you Sera. Thank you

[@xuzydesk2275]

But girl, you are one of the prettiest one in term of appearance, if you want me to point it out. Plus your music talent and passion about music are respectful. Love you ❤

[@ProjectElf]

wow didnt realise her english was so good!

[@zairanazareth1994]

She deserves the best in her life

[@Shakedownsss]

I used to watch her reaction videos I never knew she was a idol. That’s cray

[@xhstan]

guys u should look at the documentary

[@ailenriva9644]

We love u sera💗