"Did I do something brave to save my friends... or did I finally find a way to kill myself?" Will never not break me.
@rorymaton-feline204310 ай бұрын
This scene broke me. So well acted. Could feel it
@chaff52 ай бұрын
Probably the only show, the only scenario where it's beautiful.
@YuzuruA5 жыл бұрын
To me this was the most shocking part of the episode, when I realise they were really going to kill Q. So sad, I think the only character in TV ever to be a sympathetic representation of a person with major depression disorder
@dominikpozarko38795 жыл бұрын
Yuzuru A the only moment on tv that made me shed a tear for
@stephaniecollins60522 жыл бұрын
Yes, I have MDD and nothing helps, and... Quentin... 😭
@JetJockey872 жыл бұрын
Have a watch of Mr Robot. It's not the same but it is absolutely another good example along the same lines
@rorymaton-feline20433 жыл бұрын
Him crying whether he had killed himself or been brave broke me. Full circle to his beginnings and turmoil. Amazing
@mantra4ia5 жыл бұрын
Major props to the evolution of Penny and Q's friendship all the way to the end of the line.
@mikeb37173 жыл бұрын
Speaking of props, their cups are clearly empty LOL.
@reapersashpt81444 жыл бұрын
God I don't even know why I'm rewatching this. But this shit hit me so hard. I don't think Q could've have a happily ever after better than this though. Finally. At the end of it all. "Did I do something brave to save my friends? Or did I finally find a way to kill myself" That there was all his pain and suffering. Finally, when he saw his actions. The impact he had on people and their lives he could be more than his depression. More than his fucked up life. He was free from it all. Just being him. Doing something he wanted to do, not because of pain and suffering but because of love
@springsbreak8 ай бұрын
oh my god you get it, it’s still so sad that he had to leave the world to find happiness though.
@maisondelys60475 жыл бұрын
This was such a natural reaction normally when characters realize they’re dead it’s treated sadly but pretty calmly the way quentin reacted saying “what did I do” and “ it all happened so fast” it just seemed so real to me
@ashleyhawthorne46634 жыл бұрын
I love quintens acting it makes me so happy to know that Jason went to the same high school I did and graduated just a year before I got there which really kinda sucks I would’ve loved to have met him in real life 😍
@justindixon15865 жыл бұрын
Did I do something brave to save my friends or did I finally find a way to kill myself tgat line was just like the ultimate question to Quentin’s story of going from depression to finding happiness and how it’s shaped to the end 😭😭😭
@kakashi04294 жыл бұрын
I ask myself that all the time.
@aaronozuna63523 жыл бұрын
🥲
@stonathanjokes21423 жыл бұрын
I love that this moment of Qs journey was shared with Penny. Penny always thought Q was soft, but he never knew the background why. Now he does and it’s endearring
@malanahariss51634 жыл бұрын
I can see we are going to need the deluxe package
@Stingmon21 Жыл бұрын
God, this scene has me in tears Every time I watch it. And props to Penny. After having an antagonist relationship with him for years, there's no judgement, no malice. Just one person being there for another.
@nave75374 жыл бұрын
OH MY GOD I WAS REWATCHING SEASON 4 AND, IN THE END OF EPISODE 7, PENNY GETS PROMOTED TO SECRETS TAKEN TO THE GRAVE AND THE LAST WORDS HE SAID IN THE EPISODE WERE "Hey, been a while. Welcome to the Underworld." WHAT THE FUCK FORESHADOW FTW
@Saxonsredux2 жыл бұрын
Well...the point of that scene was to make the audience ask themselves who was going to die. Wasn't as much foreshadowing as it was an intent to alert the people watching that this season is going to end with one less cast member.
@RedShiftedAnthony2 жыл бұрын
As someone who has dealt with a lot of the same things that Q did, I found this scene to be so representative and easy to connect to. It was nuanced and messy and didn't try to put a big pink bow on the issue. So many people got upset with it, though.
@rutger50002 жыл бұрын
This show has so many golden lines.
@dustinplatt68824 жыл бұрын
The one dislike on this video is from Everett.
@WardNightstone4 жыл бұрын
this part broke me worse than the song
@matts1392 Жыл бұрын
I've watched this clip a number of times. I always interpreted Q's question about whether he did something brave to save his friends or if he finally found a way to kill himself as him forgetting exactly what happened because it all happened so fast and he lost some of it during the transition (kind of like how people lose memory around head trauma) but he has narrowed it down to those two possibilities. I watched it today again out of the blue and it occurred to me that he does remember everything that happened but is uncertain how he felt at the time. Whether his mind was clear in that moment and he did what he did out of bravery and love for the people he cares for. Or whether the part of him that struggles with depression and suicidal ideation clouded his judgment and he succumbed to it. I can understand where that would make him question whether his life made any difference, whether he had failed to live up to his potential, and ultimately given in to his greatest weakness. So then the next sequence when he visits his friends for the last time, it shows him how much his life had made a difference for all of them, and also how much his life with them had meant to him. Penny was wise here. He could have told Q that he had died bravely but, as he said, it only means anything if Q reveals it to himself. So rather than telling Q, he takes him so that Q can see it for himself.
@deadpooldan98623 ай бұрын
The thing is tho, in the scene where Q dies, he has enough time to get out. He could have left with Alice and Penny, but he looks back, and the part of him that always struggled with depression and suicidal tendencies thought it could finally be the way he dies. It was only for a split second, because when he looks at Alice he realizes all the reasons he has to live, but that split second he looked back caused his fate to be sealed. So his question of “Did I do something brave to save my friends, or did I finally find a way to kill myself?” actually has both answers be correct. He did do something incredibly brave to save his friends, but he also finally managed to kill himself
@lucycarin5 жыл бұрын
I cant even watch this again....😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔💔
@xghostassassin11115 жыл бұрын
lol i paused it as soon as it started hahaha..
@WaffleOnWii3 жыл бұрын
“Did I do something brave to save my friends, or did I finally find a way to kill myself” -Quentin Coldwater
@spliffyrodgers42664 жыл бұрын
Ive never releted to a character more than q
@alannacarlson67154 жыл бұрын
Same
@angelbobo294 жыл бұрын
I wish I could find my Brakebills.
@ManpreetSingh-kd4jb4 жыл бұрын
never thought I would like anyone else so much after Jon snow character, but here is another honorable man his name is quentin.
@KLRCAT11 күн бұрын
There are a few hints in the show that kinda point to this being a different "Reality" or "Timeline" to the books, so that they could make changes such as this. S1E10 - Penny asks "Who are you" to Zelda and she Responds "You always ask the same questions" S1E10 - Zelda says "Penny, Alice, Eliot and Janet, you are all late", Margo responds "Actually, it's Margo", Zelda responds "This time". This is important as Margo is actually called "Janet" in the books. This episode was discussed with the author, and they approved this with Jason Ralph as he wanted to leave the show, and this was how they wanted the character to go out.
@MrWaterfire2794 жыл бұрын
Overall I think I disliked Q for the same reason that I can relate to him. Even though I hate losing main characters I love how they did this.
@natalieisfreezing4 жыл бұрын
the thing is, i believe he found a way to kill himself. yes he did heroically but he stops mid way, he just stops turns back to see and stays instead of just running and not looking back he stays.
@openasantiago3 жыл бұрын
The view from half way down
@stonathanjokes21423 жыл бұрын
I thought the “why didnt he run angle too” but the show foreshadowed through the whole season (and the previous one) that casting magic in the mirror world was a death sentence. So even if he ran, it would not have mattered. Therefore, I can’t use him not running as support that he wanted to commit suicide. I think he just made a sacrifice, but I don’t think he wanted to die or did anything to make it more likely.
@cugamer88626 ай бұрын
@@stonathanjokes2142 This is it exactly. He lived his entire life wishing he were dead. But then he found something worth living for, and he sacrificed himself to protect it. Quentin's final act wasn't one of surrender to his depression, it was one of defiance.
@stonathanjokes21426 ай бұрын
@@cugamer8862 beautifully said.
@clairebenike5371 Жыл бұрын
I can never think of "Did I do something brave to save my friends... or did I finally find a way to kill myself?" without just crying my eyes out.
@karlvonjettmar69624 жыл бұрын
Sucks, really connected with q. Felt like someone stabbed me in the heart every time I hear” did I do something brave?” line. I think it’s something everyone has thought at one time or another. That maybe some people in your life might gain something from your absence. Don’t get me wrong it’s the epitome of narcissism, to think your life could carry that much meaning either positive or negative, but still.
@mero77313 жыл бұрын
How’s it the epitome of narcissism
@hanaomer44193 жыл бұрын
It’s narcissistic to think that your life or death could impact others? When I die if my family doesn’t experience at least a _year_ of depression and mourning I swear I’m haunting every single one of them.
@TO5TADA Жыл бұрын
Fucking hell I knew already going into this video I was going to be bawling my eyes out but Dear god the vulnerability Quentin shows in this scene 😭😭😭
@domina29Ай бұрын
I hated him at the beginning. and then he and his life journey turn my life upside down. I still morn for him HEAVILY
@ste7en777 Жыл бұрын
he is the main charaacter and everything
@alannacarlson67154 жыл бұрын
I'm not even finishing season 5. Quentin was the character that made this show for me.
@stonathanjokes21423 жыл бұрын
I said the same thing but it was worth the watch. I may not watch 5 on the rewatch. Aaaah who am I kidding I will
@Y9Power5 жыл бұрын
DAMMIT SYFY!! Don't erase Quentin's existence!!! Could he at least come back as a Damn Special Guest Star?!?!?
@caffeinatedperfectionist4844 жыл бұрын
This reminds me of when Hope Mikaelson from Legacies erased her existence, but this, is WAY MORE PAINFUL AND MEANINGFUL AND I AM LITERALLY CRYING RIGHT NOW!😭😭💔
@WardNightstone4 жыл бұрын
they have said he might come back for flashbacks or if they go to the afterlife but he's NEVER getting resurrected and honestly i'm good w that too many fantasy shows treat death as incontinent rather then the end
@snowdemon94524 жыл бұрын
@@caffeinatedperfectionist484 i get this on a spiritual level.
@likeicareusewe4 жыл бұрын
They didn't erase him. Season 5 was all about him despite him being dead. Everything the team did was because of Quentin
@williamwinder5011Ай бұрын
He died saving the world
@snowdemon94524 жыл бұрын
I can relate to the line from 2:14 to 2:22
@mr.bleach5843 жыл бұрын
Omgggg did you die 🤭
@snowdemon94523 жыл бұрын
@@mr.bleach584 yea. Painful and long enduring.
@treasuresquad3 жыл бұрын
I cried man
@majormoku3 жыл бұрын
Resonates.
@dyteriaswinson83705 жыл бұрын
I'm pissed and sad
@chahrazed97644 жыл бұрын
what's the music at 2:26
@ItsAshleyTeresa Жыл бұрын
Fuck this scene always gets me so bad. Along with his death 😩
@XanderGarrow4 ай бұрын
Fresh Cut Grass, C3 E91
@anime76766 ай бұрын
I would never kill myself, but why does that line hurt so mucj
@christophermyers63723 жыл бұрын
Damn Props to the writers on this scene.
@simeongeorge-davion385 Жыл бұрын
Is It's been awhile a callback to episode 7
@beckstarrxx4 жыл бұрын
I’m still so triggered by this 🥺
@harwwy3 ай бұрын
1:28
@ste7en777 Жыл бұрын
fine he can come back
@Eric-dw8dd8 ай бұрын
Quinton is me
@bakers213 жыл бұрын
I dont understand the part where penny says that Q´s whole live got revealed and it only means something when Q is true to himself. Can somebody please explain that to me. Thank u so much
@stonathanjokes21423 жыл бұрын
I would add that you get to know “where you’re going” after leaving the secrets to the grave room. I imagine whether you’re honest with yourself about your life has some impact on where you go.
@stephaniecollins60522 жыл бұрын
I still wonder if he was killed in the books
@touhoumanty9131 Жыл бұрын
He was not. He was only killed in the show because Jason wanted to leave
@OneEyedCloud0110 ай бұрын
He becomes a God of fillory.
@4Tom4lepus4 Жыл бұрын
They really ruined the show for me in the last episodes of season 4. It really breaks my heart, I keep thinking of the show, but wow, I cannot get myself to continue after the choices they made in these last episodes of the season. Between reviving the Alice x Quentin ship (after the Quentin x Elliot teasing that was just very clearly bait) and then having Quentin die on top of that? I live with depression, and having him essentially kill himself was a no-no for me.
@giovannyandrescortesrodrig2846 Жыл бұрын
I don't watch the show, nevertheless i want to know why this man can SEE Quentin Even after he died, i'm confused.
@Wednesdaywoe1975 Жыл бұрын
He's dead, too.
@giovannyandrescortesrodrig2846 Жыл бұрын
@@Wednesdaywoe1975 does he have any powers related to dead people?
@KLRCAT11 күн бұрын
@@giovannyandrescortesrodrig2846 Not sure if you've watched the show yet, but Penny was a "Traveler" which was basically a being who can teleport anywhere they want, (in the second season) Penny made a deal with an organisation called "The Library" which manages all knowledge (including everyones "stories"). Long Story short Penny signed a contract for 1000 years, so even after he dies he still has to work for the Library in the "Underworld Branch", he works there for a while until he gets an "executive position" from Hades (spoiler) called "Secrets Taken to the grave" and that is why he is talking to Quentin after he died.
@giovannyandrescortesrodrig284611 күн бұрын
@@KLRCAT thanks a Lot, this answer Is wholesome on its own even for me who hasn't seen the show.... Yet .
@WanderMage104 жыл бұрын
This doesn't happen in the books so let's not consider this as canon.... cause this was super shitty and sent the wrong message to those struggling with suicide..... This was a horrible end and their explanation that "Not even the white male main is safe" was stupid. I'm a black man and I connected with Quinton in the books and the show. I was rooting for him. Thank god the books ending didn't turn out this way.
@Goaheadandstaymad213323 жыл бұрын
As someone who struggled with suicide, no this did not send the wrong message. Not even close. Quentin is a character who had internal struggle and contradictions. He kept fighting because he wanted to find a purpose in life, which is why he sought help at the institute in the first episode. Slowly over the course of the show, he begins finding a new reason to keep living. He meets individuals who became family to him. He even fights for a world against gods and demons. In the end he sacrifices himself for those same people he found and the same world he loved. When he questions himself in this scene it's because suicide is something he's always struggled with. He's worried that he died for nothing. What happens next? He goes to his funeral. He see's the people he loves gathered around mourning and honoring him. That's when it hits him that his death wasn't for nothing. That he did selflessly sacrifice himself so that those he loves can keep living. That's what the message is here. Acceptance. We struggle but we have the power to decide what our life means. It's realistic. The book ending for him is good if you want a nice fantasy happy ending, but that's all it is. A fantasy happy ending. This is a realistic ending for his character and it resonated with me deeply. The writer of the novels even loved this and pitched ideas himself for Quentin's end.
@dakiesalamander52214 жыл бұрын
Well when they decided to destroy their own show why not. Goodbye Magicians you was good...
@thehotspotgamer84964 жыл бұрын
Ya pretty much television suicide here
@timmorris14324 жыл бұрын
This is where the show should have ended.
@jimzimmer20484 жыл бұрын
@Jakub Maly i will accept s6 if they bring q back
@sirprofessorx90883 жыл бұрын
Late to replying to this but I liked season 5. After I got over the fact that he wasn't coming back that is. I think it ended well and would love to see a season 6.