Tyler's scream is basically Arcane in a nutshell, heartbreaking and beautiful at the same time, it just gives you goosebumps.
@thatguy4310Күн бұрын
What you’re going through right now with your father is so similar to the inspiration Tyler had for this song. His grandma died and he saw her in her final moments. Every time i hear this song it feels like he wrote it from his grandmas perspective, talking to her loved ones.
@ReactionTherapyOfficialКүн бұрын
Appreciate you and these words🙏❤️
@lilangel307111 сағат бұрын
@@ReactionTherapyOfficial Love ur videos I gain knowledge everytime listening to u on how to continue with life nd look at things better I was wondering can u react to oh child by gremlin
@Jring-goofyКүн бұрын
We just buried my 100 year old grandmother today, so what you said hits hard. She said she didn’t think she would make it to my daughters graduation in 2018, but she did. Then she didn’t think she would make it to the birth of her first great-great-grandson in 2021…she did. She didn’t think she would make it to my daughters wedding this last April, but she did! With a little begging from us she came and we have some amazing family pictures that now we can look at with really wonderful memories. She was finally ready to go❤
@ReactionTherapyOfficialКүн бұрын
Beautiful story, thank you 🙏
@_terminalКүн бұрын
100 years old is crazy, what a fighter
@Jring-goofy23 сағат бұрын
@@_terminal and very stubborn 🥰
@ezra573712 сағат бұрын
yk sometimes, somehow, our bodies do not let us leave until we completed what we need to here. so i feel like subconsciously her body would not let her go until those things were over
@adrianaa276710 сағат бұрын
Sending you love. What a fantastic and loving experiences, never short of them I bet.
@Scentient07Күн бұрын
Its so touching seeing you talk about what it means to you and how it ties into your life. I teared up as well
@Scentient0710 сағат бұрын
Lost my heart by editing my spelling mistakes😔
@Beasty2023Күн бұрын
i kept seeing people compare tyler to chester cause of that scream and i honestly love it. chester love twenty one pilots, i feel like he'd love Clancy if he heard it. great reaction as always tom!
@Laae934Күн бұрын
Same feelings and I Loved Chester screaming and Tyler is doing great.im sad Chester is gone.
@sodathejunkerКүн бұрын
There’s a wonderful interview with Tyler how he discusses his Grandmother’s passing was actually still quite fresh when he was asked to work on Arcane. He was pensive at first at being able to make the right kind of sound. But they sent him the scenario and the animatic of the scene, and he immediately knew the emotion they wanted him to convey. He was in it deeply, and this song is a testament to that very feeling. And for us now, if you’ve ever watched a love one pass away, this song speaks so deeply to that feeling.
@KC_Eden14 сағат бұрын
I died and returned in 2014. I need you to know that the second someone crosses over to the 'other side' all pain dissappears instantly. There is no physical or emotional pain whatsoever. No anger, sadness, fear or regret. I saw a bright and warm place. The feeling I felt was like the feeling you have when you first have a crush on someone. New love is what I call it. Also, I believe that we cry because we are afraid that we will never again feel the happiness and love that our loved one brings/brought us. You will feel that love again, I promise. I hope this helps. Best wishes to you and yours, Sir.
@mloumarx3 сағат бұрын
Everything you said is so beautiful and meaningful. Thank you for sharing your experience. What I'm most afraid of is that there's nothing after the end. Is there still going to be a "you" or "me" as a conscious being to be able to feel that love?
@i.am.heatherКүн бұрын
This makes me want to get into Arcane. Thank you for being so incredibly vulnerable.
@TedSifuКүн бұрын
you should!! Its amazing!!
@JacksGameReviewsКүн бұрын
The show itself has vulnerability as the focus for the majority of it. It's incredible.
@Punkie83Күн бұрын
You definitely should watch it. It's incredible
@believeume122Күн бұрын
You should immediately!!
@maxTheTimeSlasherКүн бұрын
Get some tissues first
@isaw9969Күн бұрын
8:30 thank you for daring to share this story with us. my father is older, but not close to death yet, but something in me knows it will not last forever anymore. as a young child you just... dont think about these things. your parents are like immortals to you. they've been there your whole life, so imagining life without them feels like not only an impossible task, but also just an unimaginable fact in itself. i am glad that you and your dad have been able to have such open talks about it, and i hope and wish you the most and best of your time still together.
@ReactionTherapyOfficialКүн бұрын
Thank you so much for the support and kind words🙏❤️
@tarshnottrash1483Күн бұрын
He hadn’t written it already … he wrote it for the show…2yrs ago he tweeted ‘the Line’ just that. I’ve seen other artists that wrote for this season comment on knowing for 2 years that they were writing for the show also. He was sent storyboard scenes to know the scene & the characters & he is a fan of Arcane. In this time he lost his Nanna & that gave him inspiration for the song as well. The whole culmination has resulted in the most beautiful song that fits every thing perfectly. Also Royal & the serpent are just beautiful also ….that song destroys me everytime
@mplstechoneКүн бұрын
As I remember it, the day he tweeted "the line" was like the day of or the day before the first Icy show in Saint Paul, MN and it could have been in reference to the line outside xcel energy center.
@FreyjaFoxx.x23 сағат бұрын
He wrote this in three days.
@peeteerpaanКүн бұрын
Dosent matter how old we become. We will always be our parents babies. Tears me up listening to you talk about your father. Enjoy every second with eachother. Either way we all will meet on the other side one day
@ReactionTherapyOfficialКүн бұрын
Amen! Thank you🙏
@Jeff1VeronКүн бұрын
Don’t you dare cry!!! Now I’m crying!!!
@augustaskuprys6289Күн бұрын
I watched like 100 times, that part where Tyler screamed, its just so beautiful, so much passion.
@madmarrrКүн бұрын
Something I love about this song that I haven’t seen people talking about is the drumming. It’s sounds like someone going into battle. Marching towards the end.
@FreyjaFoxx.x23 сағат бұрын
It's a common theme to end a song with a sad vibe with that marching pattern like a sign of hope and pushing on. Mcr does it in black parade
@madmarrr21 сағат бұрын
@@FreyjaFoxx.x I know it’s really common (fan of MCR since 2002). I just thought it was interesting that no one else seems to be talking about it. It’s a great cinematic choice - perfect fit for the show. I think everyone is just distracted by Tyler’s scream. 😂
@SirSpuddingtonКүн бұрын
I watched the whole Game Awards stream live and this performance was definitely the highlight of the night for me. It's not in this specific video, but Geoff Keely, the host and creator of the Game Awards, had to transition to the next part of the show immediately after this and his voice was breaking slightly from emotion as he tried to deliver his lines. And then a little while later, when Rebecca Ford, the creative director for a game called Warframe, came on stage to talk about the game's next big expansion, she was still sniffling and her first words into the mic were "Thank God for waterproof mascara; some of the music tonight has wrecked me" :D
@GaryTheSnail987Күн бұрын
He must of written this around the time "Navigating" came out because he mentions in that song "...Feeling the reality that everybody leaves. My dad just lost his mom, i think that everybody leaves. And I'm trying to hold onto you 'cause everybody leaves..." and at the end of the original video for "The Line" the little message at the end says ""In loving memory of Nancy "Nana" Joseph"".
@LapseBlueRRКүн бұрын
I legit want this man to be my father/grandfather he is so chill and open minded
@1GMitzy22 сағат бұрын
I knew the song was about Tyler's grandma, that passed away, but never fully understood the meaning of the lyrics, and as soon as you mentioned that he may be talking from HER perspective, all of a sudden everything clicked, and the song gained so much more meaning!
@dilldragon195913 сағат бұрын
Honestly, ive listened to twenty pilots since i was really young and just by listening to the line, it reminds me of my grandma passing out from cancer. It does bring me thoughts on taking the time to spend time with my family more and pray on them while they are still alive. God Bless you and your family
@Savvy_FandomsКүн бұрын
My mom's not even 60 yet. Just found out she has breast cancer. Luckily pathology says it's caught early, and only in one lobe of her right lung. So removing it will be easy. But due to rheumatoid arthritis, there's a high chance it will KEEP coming back. It's been hard 😞 So thanks for sharing your story as well. And yes, after his grandmother's passing he was really struggling, and given the synopsis of the show and the characters he would be writing for, got him inspired and excited to write music again 🥹 Only took him like 3 days to turnaround a draft!!
@Neela-e1hКүн бұрын
I first watched Arcane the very week the first season came out, and I've been in love ever since 😭
@DRAGONSSCREAMКүн бұрын
My mother took her own life and I sometimes imagine this song from her perspective wanting me to carry on and enjoy my life without her and is worried she dissapointed us with her decision Especially the part about "Please dont let them see me" Also most like shes asking God to not let us be the ones to find her. Which we very nearly did. The only place we didnt look when she went missing is where she was, which was only a few feet away from the other place we looked.
@JoshDun6Күн бұрын
He was approach to make a song for Arcane and his nana died like day ago in a room where he was so he said it was perfect match to make a song for Arcane which he loves and as a message to nana...
@nullunit9 сағат бұрын
Tyler's performance is insanely affecting this is the first time I noticed the last chorus was "Don't let me go" and it makes so much better. It is also a bit of a relief because before I felt this song was way to funereal and I didn't notice that little glimmer at the end which 100% tracks with the tone of the scenes it is used in. I feel like some of the younger folks who have hopefully not had to experience big loss or trauma yet, when they rewatch this show later in life. The whole show will hit different. I know the show hits me totally different as a almost a 50 year old, who has had loss and trauma in equal measure. You can watch the show at a surface level and it is still a masterpiece but as an older dude, it is like cheap therapy.
@CatbagginsКүн бұрын
🤓I’ve been checking in daily for your reaction to Tyler’s scream from the live version of The Line. Much love to you, your Dad, and your family as you all navigate the transitions of this next chapter. Such a beautiful opportunity you’ve had to share these conversations and experiences with each other.
@tearfulplace5015Күн бұрын
My father passed when i was 8 years old almost nine its been almost 10 years and this song immediately took me back to that moment in my life im so sorry to hear about your fathers condition i wish you and your family the best
@MajorjabroniКүн бұрын
Tyler’s scream has been getting me through life, honestly.
@davidwebdev17 сағат бұрын
It's an insane coincidence, but my grandmother passed away on the very day this song was first released on Spotify, it was very sudden and painful. What surprised me was the fact that the lyrics were so relatable to what had just happened, it was surreal, but after seeing the music video a few days later and finding out that it was dedicated to Tyler's own grandmother, it made so much sense. I later found out my grandma refused to call me the day she fell ill because she didn't want me to be sad or worry about her. This segment specifically has such a deep meaning because of that: But I'd rather you not be here for what could be my final form, stay your pretty eyes on course". This is a beautiful song, and TOP is greatly underrated, they're so talented and unique!
@VxnityyyyyКүн бұрын
May your father be with you for the rest of your life even after giving you that energy family💫💫🤞🏼
@SlickONick22 сағат бұрын
Tyler's scream is why I love the live version by a mile
@dorians2138Күн бұрын
For your Arcane journey, I recommend watching the Enemy music video. It really ads to how the kids lived and what their relationships were before the events of Arcane
@SDRaygonКүн бұрын
His grandmother had just passed away when RIOT asked him to write the song,
@fairfarren23Күн бұрын
I so know how you feel, and my heart goes out to you and your amazing Dad. I have a super hard time listening to this song myself, because it makes me remember losing my own Grandma years ago. I have an infinite amount of respect for Tyler, for turning what must have undoubtedly been one of the more painful moments of his life, and turning into such a vulnerable and achingly beautiful work of art. Performing it live, just makes the love and heartache in the song all the more obvious, and I just know Tyler's Nana would be proud of him. I certainly am. 🥲
@skate23ism12 сағат бұрын
love the video, as well as the song. I hope more of this channels helping mental health are more recognized, it would help so much people that are afraid of reach out. Greetings from Mexico, keep up the good work.
@ioanenikabadze9349Күн бұрын
So glad to find this video , just was scrolling and found brilliant in gem's ... . 🙌🏻💚 Will keep in touch with upcomming videos and also previous ... ❤ .
@ReactionTherapyOfficialКүн бұрын
Awesome! Thank you!
@prodigalmarine5772Күн бұрын
Song of the year. Performance of the year. Most heart touching moment of the year.
@Kirishi-Күн бұрын
I'm so excited for your arcane reactions, this was beautiful 💜
@tetramyt41966 сағат бұрын
I’d heard this song before and it made me feel things but nothing like this time… You talking about what this song meant to you absolutely broke me and healed me at the same time. I cried man. Thank you for this. Great video.
@antoniocanonico6003Күн бұрын
emotional video, you have great sensitivity man❤
@nexon796620 сағат бұрын
Lost my grandma last year who raised me due to some circumstances and was my mother this song reminds me of her last days. She talk to everyone on the hospital room that she was ready her time was coming and for us not to cry because she is ready and happy with what we have become, My perspective in life change i want to follow her example help others in life like she did to me so i have something to look fond of when my time comes so i can be ready like she was. I miss her wish she could be here to guide me but what she taught me i will carry on and hope to pass it on,
@believeume122Күн бұрын
Try to watch Arcane 3 episodes at a time. They were released that way in both seasons before a time jump each time.
@notAsterix19 сағат бұрын
talking about your dad hits hard for me, my dad which is only 54 years old has dementia and is tarting to forgot alot of who we are as a family, this song makes me cry everytime thinking about my little sisters not having a father to grow up with.
@staciemoisa4884Күн бұрын
Tyler spoke about the writing of this song. He wrote it for the show, and had recently lost his Nana, so he drew from that experience. kzbin.info/www/bejne/o5S2mIJ8p82Wp9ksi=DP8n5QqiK_9KDSyD
@lexxlegionКүн бұрын
He said that already
@alexiahinojosa5053Күн бұрын
@@lexxlegion No, he said he already had the song made years prior, and he himself said he wasn't 100% certain.
@adrianaa276710 сағат бұрын
I break down every time I hear The Line. My sister was m-red last year before xmas. I imagine her fighting back and realizing she wasn't gonna make it, feeling the light in her face. Just... beautiful song
@Lgnzzz22 сағат бұрын
Had to say goodbye to both of my grandparents this year, it’s tough but we live on and carry the torch of their legacies
@urszulakasprzyk9756Сағат бұрын
His Grandma passed recently. You can hear about it in the song Navigating "My dad just lost his mom, I think that everybody leaves" from Clancy album
@carolpilbasian547814 сағат бұрын
Sorry to hear your dad isn't well. Just wanted to drop a recommendation for the book Every Moment Holy vol 2. We just had a death in the family and the prayers were so helpful in processing things I didn't have words for.
@jcBentleyB3Күн бұрын
I'm sure lots of us share in your emotions of this performance. I believe this might be Tylers best performance ever. There is so much behind the song and what it impacts at that picture of the story. 😢❤
@carenecitter2435Күн бұрын
Thanks for sharing! 🙏🏼
@07jimmymitchellКүн бұрын
I'd be very careful watching any of the music videos or even listening to the songs because there's some big ol' spoilers
@believeume122Күн бұрын
He's too early in. He won't know or remember what any of it means right now. But he should wrap up watching a lot of the Arcane stuff soon because he's too far in.
@isguicho3429Күн бұрын
what a great video
@i3looi26 сағат бұрын
He made the song about the death moment (in regards to his grandmother). However in Arcane, the song is about Viktor passing the "line" of shedding all his humanity and transcending. Going over the hardline where he can still be saved and come back.
@dn9658Күн бұрын
Thank you. This is so powerful.
@keokiw235323 сағат бұрын
It took me a long time to be able to listen to this song without crying. Makes me think of my dad as well.. and how much I will miss him. Thankful he has a good relationship with God, and that I've had a good relationship with him. Such a beautiful song.
@renata.carone10 сағат бұрын
Arcane in its animation, feels more real than reality it self.
@themantsang20 сағат бұрын
The line was written for arcane. but he had his nan in mind
@luthert65717 сағат бұрын
I wish you lasting health and keep creating great content sir
@MrBholman906 сағат бұрын
Another amazing song about loss is “everything goes on” by Porter Robinson. It has a beautiful undertone of happiness mixed with some melancholy towards loss
@makeitwithalex448323 сағат бұрын
Doesn’t matter how many times I hear this song it tears me up EVERY time ❤️ |-/
@sawako6669Күн бұрын
Basically the song is about Victor experinece , the show i think is gonna introduce him in 2 episode but its also surely connected to Vander! You will see later what a ride is arcane !
@hiroshixdr13 сағат бұрын
he didnt write it "a long ago" but it was just a little bit after his grandma died and they basically, asked for a song at the perfect moment (but they could have asked years ago)
@devinedragoonКүн бұрын
the song was related to his grandmother but wasn't a long time ago it as more recently
@kimii.i17 сағат бұрын
This song (especially this live version, oh my) is hitting me so hard this time. My grandparents (who just turned 90 and 91) are starting to really...become old. My granddad (91) has recently been diagnosed with Alzheimer's and dementia. He is still in the stage where he does remember us, luckily. But sometimes when I call he has no idea who I am. It's so hard to see, and to know that at some point he will not remember at all. He cares about his family deeply, and I hate to know that he will not remember us some day. My grandma is a bit better, also diagnosed with dementia but she can still be pretty sharp, and vigilant. It's mainly her short-term memory that's affected. But my granddad falls a lot (he cant walk properly anymore) and has been in the hostpital a couple of times this past year. He has declined so fast. Last year he was still pretty.. good. Old, but good. Now I have this horrible feeling that it will be his last christmas and i am so not ready to lose him yet. I am 21 and I have experienced death of my other grandparents before, on my dad's side. But I was 3 and 8. Now I fully know what's happening, and realise the value of grandparents. This is going to hit me so hard when it happens. I keep pushing these emotions away because thinking about it will send me in a spiral but this song just... hits me so hard. I'm sorry to hear about your dad. I'm glad he told you he found peace with the idea of leaving. That really helps with a peace of mind. Still it's tough, of course. I wish you and your dad all the love.
@ZanewhiteV3 сағат бұрын
Man i couldn't stop crying
@Alice30MARS17 сағат бұрын
oh man, I need that shirt 😄 My grandmother starts to forget things, but she is aware of that and she recently told that she don't wanna die. I was shocked and nearly crying, because she's a strong God believer, but I realized she still wants to discover life and don't want to leave us 🥺
@starsr6r610 сағат бұрын
love u tom praying for u and ur dad
@vivianailic-flores8942Күн бұрын
PLEASE react to “I Like America, America Likes Me” by the 1975 Live on The LATE SHOW… the message is entirely deep and his emotion brings so much awareness to the depression just by the worlds chaos. I suggest this version because His live performances are worthwhile, the message carries so much more expression than the studio version. He performs the song differently in different tours, the recent performances are beautifully melodic Love your reaction videos!!! God Bless !
@李休班13 сағат бұрын
Great video, I really enjoyed the live performance by Twenty One Pilots.
@lianacharlton20 сағат бұрын
With it being dedicated to his grandmother there’s obviously truth in him writing it when she passed away. I wonder about how long ago that was, as it must have coincided with him writing Oldies Station, where he references her passing ‘my dad just lost his mom’.
@xavierrox5789Күн бұрын
IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS REACTION!! AND IM THE FIRST COMMENT!!
@xavierrox5789Күн бұрын
I’ll be back with both of our thoughts after I finish this video ❤
@ReactionTherapyOfficialКүн бұрын
Thank you for being here first!🙏❤️
@ActuallyDKMКүн бұрын
13:30 Oh buddy… Go watch the show!
@thontor10 сағат бұрын
You should definitely check out The Warning's new music from their latest album "Keep Me Fed"-it’s been over a year since your last reaction, and this one is worth diving into! The band has said that this album is their most personal yet, drawing heavily from their own experiences, which makes it perfect for your channel’s focus on music and mental health. The themes they explore here are really powerful and relatable: songs like "Escapism" tackle unhealthy coping mechanisms and the struggle to confront reality, while "S!CK" captures the desperate fear of missing out on life and the drive to experience everything, even at a cost. "Hell You Call a Dream" dives into the mental toll of chasing perfection and living under constant pressure. Each track is packed with emotion and depth, and I think you'd find a lot to explore in the lyrics and their meaning. It would be awesome to hear your insights on how these themes connect to mental health, and I’m sure your perspective would resonate with fans and new listeners alike!
@DayaMF_2812 сағат бұрын
Impossível não se emocinar 😢. Faz alguns anos...eu estava junto com meu pai dentro de um hospital....eu vi ele partir e não pude fazer nada. Penso nele todos os dias, muita saudade ❤️ meu pai amado , se eu tivesse poderes traria você de volta a vida com toda a certeza. Infelizmente eu não pude travar tua partida e isso dói demais 😢🥺💔, ....Tyler descreve exatamente como é...
@kjqueen258212 сағат бұрын
This guy can make us so emotional is crazy, I'll go to their concert in January and I can't seem to hear their songs
@aggressiveorca5911Күн бұрын
Thx for KZbin recommendations
@maxwelmatosacosta7181Күн бұрын
If I am not mistaken that is the JHIN walking He did when stand up , Masterpiece 4
@julsjuly755240 минут бұрын
I’ve binge watched this video of theirs.
@NamekanaКүн бұрын
nice shirt there
@cyndizebra6119Күн бұрын
I had shirts made like yours!!!!
@kyratries10 сағат бұрын
Thank you for your vulnerability. ❤
@jaro200879Күн бұрын
I suggest you listen to the whole Arcane (seasons 1 and 2) Soundtrack. All Songs in season 1 were written for the Show, not 100% sure if it's the same for all season 2 (I have the feeling there might be one or two exceptions). While watching the series, you should really try to listen to the songs; they make the specific scene hit much harder.
@sethhodson70569 сағат бұрын
Arcane gonna hit this man like a semi
@RedRiot914Күн бұрын
First time ie watched you. But gotta say, i can honestly only trust YT verified licensed professionals
@ReactionTherapyOfficialКүн бұрын
Didn’t know there was such a thing?😳 I wouldn’t want KZbin to be the verifier of a therapist🫣
@markmorales9402Күн бұрын
listen to I can't hear it now from Freya Ridings...(also from Arcane)
@redsnowtk1678Күн бұрын
Im not sure if in Arcane there is truely a villain..😅 characters are very complex.
@biodorkus23 сағат бұрын
Who's cutting onions in here? 😭
@ズダイナソー-m6bКүн бұрын
You should read berserk
@SherryBanditoКүн бұрын
❤🌻
@leah_lia30Күн бұрын
oh jeez ur REALLY at the very beginning
@ezra573712 сағат бұрын
i would appreciate the analysis without the religious aspect. because often as we die its said we are likely to see a bright light or familiar faces. they did a study on this. thats why he uses that line there. that and also “the light at the end of the tunnel” is a common saying. like its the end.
@NedandTrashКүн бұрын
Please react to Staring at the Ceiling by Playing with Fire
@revotalizer7504Күн бұрын
when you start talkin about you dad,,, i just start pouring out... im a 27 year old and my dad is all well and healthy... but.. i will not be able to take it,,, i know
@ReactionTherapyOfficialКүн бұрын
Appreciate you🙏
@bhanesidheКүн бұрын
Binge watching Arcane is indeed not good for anyone's mental health.
@leah_lia30Күн бұрын
bro wait’ll u find out who’s trying to remember
@KixMusaid3 сағат бұрын
just wow
@dorians2138Күн бұрын
I don't like how they did something different with the Remember me instrumental, it feels wrong, and for me doesn't sound nearly as good as the original version
@Mezziuu21Күн бұрын
Damn ):
@isaw9969Күн бұрын
would really appreciate if you also included the other artists in the title? it feels rude to them and their craft, contribution and talent to add them in the video, but npt in the title, no?
@ReactionTherapyOfficialКүн бұрын
Makes sense, thank you🙏
@jupiter744823 сағат бұрын
i teared up with you man. youve lived like x3 of my life, went through my own 'adventures' on my life and with my parents. my parents weren't there for me throughout my years, yet I've always sought for their approvement. always hoped that there would be someone who could 'show me how', leading to learning everything myself, teaching my siblings what I've taught myself, incidentally becoming their person who would 'show them how', their 'parental figure', show/encourage them to be autonomous, let them enjoy what they have without the fear of being judged, share them the confidence and lit that self-worth inside them that I never really had myself, show them the feeling of being themselves and a lot more, for decade, parents believed Ive been 'challenging' their authority since I told the kids [and the parents heard] 'dont listen to dad, mom or me, anybody else on what YOU should choose for yourself/whats good for you because at the end of the day, its your life, your future. always choose the one the at makes you happy, you're the one living with this choice for 8 years, you should be chasing something worthwhile-' so they kicked me out. recently had 'that' talk, i was dead scared during this 'confrontation' but i was finally able to let them know everything. how they've failed as a parent with me, and how i feared that my siblings should never experience that so I've doing it for them for a decade, fearing that Ive taught them so they wouldn't have to experience the figures in their life yell at them, call them names and make them feel like they never belonged anywhere. how i wished i had someone to look up to but all i got was myself. we all just broke down and reconciled with our past. songs like these resonates with me that, even with all these trauma, i can still forgive those who hurt me but i will never forget those moments, especially where they were at their best. my siblings should never experience what I've been through, my story with my parents ended long ago, they are still a part of my life, but im no longer a child. left giving them my last advice from 'child to parent', "don't fail them." those kids matter the most to the three of us.