Therapist gets Down With The Sickness by Disturbed (FIRST TIME REACTION)

[@loddfafnir6111]

You picked the censored version. Best part of the song is cut out. Still glad you're discovering disturbed. Definitely one of my all time favorite bands.

[@HeartSupport]

We became aware of the uncensored verison after recording. The only video we could find of it was someone had made a video with Aphex Twin Come to Daddy music video. We wanted to stay true to the band. Taylor was also creeped out by the come to daddy video. So we as a group decided to stay with the censored. Maybe in the future we will have her go over it again with the uncensored version.

[@Andrew46_2]

No one ever respects the original version

[@YTsupportsZionaziGenocide]

people really need to specify to play the right version of this song, almost every reaction channel makes this mistake, censored versions are never better than the original.

[@matchu.j]

Don't hit me I'll be a good boy!

[@MorganFrankenstein]

@@YTsupportsZionaziGenocide I really wish there was an actual music video for it rather than the stolen aphex twin come to daddy music video.

[@baddog4176]

I have a world of respect for David Draiman and his support for suicide prevention. Very good reaction.

[@Challan666]

Please listen to the uncensored song, the end is essential!

[@nate2838]

Absolutely! This song is not the same at all without the ending.

[@h4d3z]

yeah totaly weird like this

[@thedonDunpeal]

Agreed there is a VITAL part missing in the video

[@Mr.Sidenote]

The spoken part in the breakdown would have been perfect for a therapist to analyze. How did we miss that? I know it's pretty obvious but I would've loved to see Taylor's reaction to it.

[@Richiepratt]

This girl is fkn amazing! Love her energy! Love her breakdowns on the lyrics. LOVE that she can just rock out and groove like nobody is watching! Imagine her as a concert buddy? Or even better, at a wedding?! She'd tear up a dance floor while making sure everyone in the room is having a blast with her! Such an amazing soul!

[@MrReilloc]

I'm an old dude, Marine, construction worker type etc. Never a big of therapists. The ones I was forced to deal with because of my step daughter all seemed like tree-huggers and out of touch. I just subscribed to your channel because you are the FIRST therapist that made sense to me through this song I love.

[@infernaloz6486]

Been there as weel. I don't want to bitch about my feelings, I want solutions, tools to deal with my issues.

[@psychotrixAVMC]

@@infernaloz6486 Ahahaha wow, I've been to therapy for 12 years, out 2 years ago and looking back, this phrase just about sums up what I was searching for. Got a lot of body work done at the start and that made progress but then the progress stalled when the sessions were shorted and "devolved" into just talking about feelings. I realize just kept looping waiting for the bodywork to come, which never did. Also, please, MEN, do not listen if a therapists says "more muscles or too much muscles and you lose contact with your feelings, you become too tough and rigid". I can't believe my lazy ass fell for this as an excuse to remain weak. Never again !!!

[@glendaly3344]

There is a longer version of this song, where David sings about a kid that is abused my his mom but then retaliates.

[@Treyvlog]

That is the version she needed to react to

[@KevinSPeace]

such a shame you landed on the edited version :( I was really looking forward to your commentary on the breakdown.

[@jc2004x]

The "mother" is actually a reference to society and not to a parent

[@bigdaddydiesel5520]

@@jc2004x How do you know this?

[@Templarofsteel88]

@@bigdaddydiesel5520 Since David has even stated it, google it if you don't believe me.

[@markchapman8076]

yes please go back and find the full version it so much more context

[@kaceylinne344]

so many amazing songs - stupify, fear, 10,000 fists, stricken, land of confusion, the night, perfect insanity, another way to die, the vengeful one, open your eyes, the light

[@doc145]

It’s sad and unfortunate that Chester is gone. Imagine Chester and David together on stage. Incredible.

[@Breaker197]

@heartsupport again, your video is exactly what i needed to hear. I just came from a productive therapy session this morning where in spite of the hurt, I opened up more then I had previously. Once again, please, never change.

[@MikeWright-o8i]

Therapist picks wrong version, misses a musical version of an emotional breakdown.

[@justinburhns328]

If I'm not mistaken, this song is about self medicating in response to trauma (mental illness), and feeling the grip of addiction (and subsequent spiraling into "sewer slidal" ideation) set in as a horrific reality of "the sickness". Draiman is an outstanding advocate for change.

[@RonnieStanley-tc6vi]

I saw these guys in 2000 at Ozzfest. They were second stage and i heard this playing. When i finally drifted over there and watched them, i knew they would be on the main stage very soon. The play hard as hell live. They deserve all of their success.

[@DarkAngel1985Mike]

Yes , I didn’t get better until I stopped therapy after high school, I had been in therapy since I was 5 , and they told me to deny it and what I was going through was just a phase and I had my first suicide attempt in the 3rd grade and many more through high school, I didn’t get better until I started dealing with it on my own and embracing my darkness and seeing it as a strength

[@Mach11976]

I wish the VA had therapists like you! Thanks Brian

[@35boondocksaint]

On the album Immortalized, the song The Light is an amazing song of hope talking about those struggling and having people there for you, and has an amazing line: Sometimes darkness can show you the light! Give it a listen!

[@adamopitz1343]

Watching your reactions to my favorite songs and explaining them watching you jam to them puts a smile on my face

[@scottclark3761]

Saw these guys in concert during their new tour with Falling In Reverse and Plush. FIR rocked, but Disturbed....dude....that was EPIC!!!! And this is the censored version. It's the Take Back Your Life tour...Disturbed is all about mental health. We are ALL Disturbed!

[@Stormsfury777]

Saw them in Greenville, SC last month and Plush, FIR, AND Disturbed knocked it out the park. Best overall concert I've been to.

[@scottclark3761]

@@Stormsfury777 Yeah. I was pretty impressed with FIR. They are way better than I anticipated. But Disturbed.....I mean...Dude. That was an insane set! I was in Peoria IL, so the first show. A few mess ups setting up, but a great show overall.

[@n0x1s]

Please, listen to Bad Omens songs. The Worst in Me, Careful What You Wish For, Exit Wounds, Nowhere To Go, The Death Of Piece Of Mind and many-many more.Totally worth it!

[@thelettertwelve5789]

Great vid! You should check out another one of their songs: “The Game”. Probably one of my favorite choruses ever!

[@Lumberjack-drummer]

My favorite reactor on youtube!!!! Taylor is greeeeeeaaattt!!!

[@PVMNZ]

This video is the edited version of the song there's another verse in the uncensored song

[@fairlylocal414]

Hi, I want to say i really apreciate the whole Heartsupport community, and I've been following you for some years now. It's always a pleasure to watch Taylor's videos and to hear some of the things I've probably missed in some songs. As we are all in the metal(core) scene, I'd suggested if you,please, may react one day to Imminence, Infectious, Alleviate, Chasing shadows, Erase(or any other song) Just as an extra note, they were inspired by August burns red, especially in their first album :)

[@SteveCoronado2]

Honestly this censored version is good but the uncensored version makes this an entirely different song. Please research the uncensored version I’d love to hear what you think about it 🤘🏻🔥💥🙏🏻💯

[@tommoconstantly]

'The Original BLEUGHHH!!' haha so right!

[@Wolf-fcg]

Wow this is new to you? Man there are so many bands you need to hear if you want I can recommend so many bands metal and punk male and female singers!!!

[@daisyvelez6920]

I remember my teen daughter went through suicide ideation it has changed her tremendously. I am so happy, though she made changes for the better.

[@WolfQuantum]

I commented on another of your videos about recognizing, owning, and accepting that dark side so that you control it, not it controlling you. Years back this was my secret theme song. It spoke to the underlying rage, the years of feeling like I'd been held back and denied outlets of my emotions. I was always the nice guy. Being taken advantage of, etc. Today, I've become good with myself. I'm good being me and I'm just fine as who I am. I make mistakes, and make dumb choices now and then. But, I can accept that they are my choices and I take responsibility for them. Being capable of being dangerous if needed, doesn't mean you have to be dangerous. It just means you have it within you to protect, not destroy. You come to realize there are precious things that need protecting, but they also need nurturing and encouragement. You want them to grow without necessarily getting your own selfish desires in the process. But grow and be authentic because it's the right and beautiful thing and that matters more than selfish desires.

[@magnumsolutions]

What a great explanation. Society teaches us that those dark feelings are bad and we must not acknowledge them. They are part of who we are and if we don’t acknowledge them and try to work through them they become the thoughts that control us. Thank you for putting things in perspective.

[@SpencerHelle3128]

All Fucked Up will definitely be your most hard hit/emotional and definitely most touching music video you will watch when you do 😜 it definitely saved my life and still to this day gets me through my darkest days and moments. I’m not one to show my emotions but the first time I heard the song I bawled like a baby. Bawled even more when I watched the music video.

[@nauseantrock532]

Disturbed rocks a bit 🔥🔥

[@nonamepresent881]

If i knew my therapist listened to stuff like this id fuckin love them

[@johnghiglione2641]

The first part where David Michael Draiman goes awahh in the song was added later on when they were recording the song. He did that when they were going through the song, and the other band members liked that, and it stuck to what it is today. Have you heard Disturbed's version of the Sound of Silance. The song was originally done by Simon and Garfunkel. Once Disturbed did their version, it was so good and powerful that Simon and Garfunkel passed the tourch to Disturbed on this song. You really need to listen to this song because it is epic.

[@tmakster]

You NEED to listen to the UNCENSORED version!!!

[@williamdavidjanda3552]

Great concert.

[@hirowinglessangel]

This song has been my personal favorite song of all time, from my personal fav band of all time, since I was 13. The only nob symphony concerts I've ever been to. All this without even thinking about any kind of meaning to it. At the time of this, I'm 4mnths into a post break up of a 1-year relationship. 3 months since I attempted unaliving myself, because of it. In March, her dad had been placed in hospice lung cancer 6 months to live. The night before, she left. She had talked about letting our lease end and moving back to her hometown to help. I had some issues about her hometown and freaked out a bit. She left the next day, no word, no notice. I only knew cause I came home to talk to her at lunch, and by then 4 hours and she was gone. Five days later, her dad died. She called to tell me, then the next day blocked and ghosted me on everything. Month later, of no contact, I had enough and drove down there to check up on her. We spent an hour talking, catching up. She was pulled away and distant. 2 was later we scheduled a meet-up, and I brought her mail. It felt like then, she was gone. The woman I loved wasn't this woman before me. She kept me away and didn't let me support her in her time of need. She was gone, checked out. Another 2 weeks later into may, and one week before my bday. I had started a new job, more money to take out an expensive apt without her support. My car broke down, and I was stranded. Scared of losing my job, car, apartment, and fear of having lost her. I tried to call, but that's when I learned I had been blocked, so I used *67 and a masking app, called gee least 6x and left some panicked emails. Then, 2 days later the I'm ending this and not coming back to email. I was so ashamed immediately the day I called and felt such guilt. I wanted to end my own life cause I went crazy for an instant. I have to live with that pain, shame and guilt of it all everyday. Distrubed has always been my sad go to, and comfort in knowing how they are serious about suicide prevention. I still can't accept what I did, or her being gone... let alone forgive myself for it all.

[@HeartSupport]

From KyleGouldOfficial: @hirowinglessangel Hi First, going through all of this sounds painful to hear and i heard this song since i was a teenager in high school but it also a song that helped during a rejected time where i was told no to a relationship which is honestly heartbreaking. But, even after all this we have to continue pressing on. I recently became a heartsupport volenteer and heartsupport is really a great atmosphere to be in and is always here to be a beacon where you can share your thoughts. Now, from your experiences with this that this person just decided to leave everything behind was really one sided for her and she was not likely deciding what would right choice in the relationships. But you definitely fought through a struggle of things and should be proud of what you did get through. Definitely don't feel like guilty for the situations that happened on here end nor do you have to be sorry for it. Sometimes relationships don't fit and it okay but don't beat up yourself to much for this you were just trying to figure out what was wrong and you did what you can in the end.

[@HeartSupport]

From ManekiNeko: @hirowinglessangel There are so many dynamics that come into losing a relationship. It’s not just a loss of love, it’s a loss of their presence, a loss of time spent together, a loss of the future, a loss of what was built between you. It’s painful and sometimes when dealing with loss of relationship and loss of family, it can drive people to isolation. It makes it hard when you want to be a support and want to stand by someone’s side when they are hurting. Having all this grief, the shock of it happening so suddenly, is something that many people would find such a hard thing to try to rationalise. Because how can we rationalise something that hasn’t been thought out and planned? Our minds are a blur, our thoughts are a blur and it makes sense that at the end of losing a relationship, feeling financially vulnerable and feeling like the world is caving, that these thoughts jump at you. I’m so glad you’re here to share your experience and your heart. Music is such a connecting and powerful tool. It’s like this realisation that somewhere in the world there are others who feel those same things and have come through the other side. Who stand by your side and journey through with you without even knowing. I hope that sharing here will bring you some comfort that there are those here who see you and hear you.

[@HeartSupport]

From satty22: @hirowinglessangel That sounds so rough. I feel for you. Sending you some love. You really seem to be aware of how chaotic your life was. Hopefully now things have calmed down a bit add both you and your ex can get some peace. Maybe after some healing you can offer again to reconnect. For now, keep your head up and be gentle with yourself. Reaching out for help and posting here is a good healthy step. Thank you for that. Satty

[@HeartSupport]

From ebcoile: @hirowinglessangel Thank you so much for reaching out and being completely open and honest about this particular situation and all that has led up to this moment. We are all human and with that comes emotional reactions to things that we are dealing with. I can't count the number of times that I reacted wrongly and felt guilty about it. What im hearing is that you realized that you could have reacted differently and thats important to note. When we ise those moments to take a look at ourselves and vow to become better, that shows what a truly caring person you are. It sucks when the timing of life turns out to not be in our favor, but understand that people grow and sometimes they grow apart. It sucks, but dont let that get you down. Use every opportunity to grow. Who knows, there may be a time that you two have an opportunity to speak again and you can show that you realize you could have said things or reacted differently and that growth and honesty can be seen. Dont give up on yourself, you are a good person and I know that by your admitting that you learned something from this time apart. With love Eric

[@HeartSupport]

From twixremix: @hirowinglessangel hey friend, thank you so much for being here and trusting this community with what weighs heavy on your heart. i’m so glad you are here today to share your story and for fighting hard to make it to this moment. it’s understandable how a large move to a hometown you have issues with could have been jarring for you and caused that reaction. the timing with her dad’s hospice transition and sudden passing must have been so difficult so all around, it was a stressful time for everyone. that pain, shame, and guilt you hold on your shoulders is no doubt overwhelming. i believe in your healing journey to know that you can grow and fight for a brighter tomorrow. you deserve all good things this world has to offer and nothing could make that untrue. you were stuck in such a chilling moment with fears of great loss and when we find ourselves in that spot, we do things we wouldn’t normally do. her decision to block was in her control but you have the control and power to learn, grow, and thrive. i believe in you fully and unconditionally. wishing you all the best in your journey, my friend. you got this. love, twix

[@RaiderNationJo]

I got to see them back in July with Breaking Benjamin & Jinjer. They were amazing and this song live was awesome. Definitely recommend seeing them if they're ever near you.

[@danielman4057]

I literally grew up on this genre... Very amazing musicians. I do kind of wonder how it influenced me as an adult... Self titled Korn album being my go to bed CD at 13 years old

[@ryantitley4727]

Learning all about DBT to reframe things. There are some workbooks that walk you through some skills. If you Google DBT workbooks, you're bound to find some. Learning things like how anxiety can paralyze us but can also be there to warn us of things we need to be aware of. It isn't completely bad or good; it can be two things. Anyway, I never saw this song in this manner. Appreciate the framing.

[@LouisCarvel-b6g]

Me I have generalized anxiety disorder and if my anxiety gets bad enough I suffer from panic attacks. I’ve had to accept the reality of that. I just don’t like how many anxiety makes me feel. But I’m also an empathic individual. Meaning I have empathy that’s not on a normal level it’s above the normal level. But on a psychic level. So my empathy just adds to my anxiety. Sometimes it’s hard to tell if it’s just straight up my anxiety or my empathy or both? But also according to the mayor Briggs test I am INFP too.

[@bscarborough2306]

Listen to the uncensored version..it will answer a lot of questions. That’s what I want to hear you analyze.

[@erblinaislami5112]

i was so confused on where the last part went but now i know you just listened to another version 😭😭

[@glennfrith2804]

I love disturbed.

[@NealFreed-z8q]

Love your videos! This is the radio version of the song, there is a large middle section cut out that is VERY important to the theme, give it a listen!

[@tedday3553]

I'd like to see your reaction to the official live version of A Reason to Fight by Disturbed

[@MRDave-fi7vz]

LIVE FOR THIS BY HATEBREED

[@CrazyDee279]

During the invasion (OIF-1), was pretty harsh on me. In my second tour, (OIF-3) we would blare this song leaving the wire jammin in my gun mount. Last tour OIF-5 was just long as hell-16 month. Been in therapy ever since, sometimes inpatient as needed. CrazyDee heehee

[@henryrhodes1121]

Your definitely been living under rock. Sticking with Disturbed there cover of Sound of Silence (have to here Simon & Garfunkel original first)

[@audiob2027]

Good Luck Analizing The Creatives...Both the Weakest and Strongest Of Us At The Exact Same Time.

[@goatvoicestwin1859]

Listen to the uncensored version...

[@Fastbikes-coldbeer01]

Can you possibly do the whole album Indescribable i am sure everyone wants that covered. And i am sure the disturbed ones want liberate covered.

[@cottonysensation3723]

aw damn, she’s gotta do the uncensored version

[@matthewbartley1935]

I love her face when he whispers “Can you fell that”

[@LouisCarvel-b6g]

The funny thing is I like to listen to this song when I am sick. Just to be ironic in a funny way. My coping mechanisms to have a sense of humor. 😂

[@joshuaisleib6116]

please also do the official music video of The Light by Disturbed as well. very heavy content there as well.

[@Blazfemur]

I have to say, i was curious if thiswas the actual song. When i didnt hear "no, daddy, ill be a good boy," my heart sank, coming from a therapist reaction. Dude this song couldve been a match made in the hell it was intended for.

[@OverlordFluffy97]

Do Inside the Fire next, it's a very personal song to the frontman, it's literally about his experience with a girl who they both got hooked on drugs, he was blamed and forced away from her, she eventually died and the song is about how he felt she was taken from him and her death was the result.

[@driv3n758]

Should've reacted to the uncensored version. Huge chunk taken out of this version. Also, this song was huuuge and I refuse to believe you've never hear it before

[@HeartSupport]

This is the video editor- We meet every week with the executive director of HeartSupport and we throw songs at Taylor... you have no idea how many songs we have shown her and she doesn't have a clue what it is. She is new to the metal scene and growing.

[@michaelbyrd6762]

Find the unedited version and do a new reaction please

[@epicmobdog90]

@HeartSupport You NEED to check out disturbed the sound of silence live on conan version it's such a powerful song so amazing, his voice in this song is truly something to behold and especially since for this performance he was sick but still smashed it and i think it sounds better than the recorded version.

[@lbjohnnyjohn]

There is a funny version of this song done in a lounge singer style. It was done for the "Dawn of the Dead " remake. Its wicked ly good.

[@ModeloLoveMeLongTime]

The censored version of this song is not why I watched this video , the only reason why I decided to watch this video was to see how she was going to react and what she was going to say about the part cut out from this censored version.

[@Wolf-fcg]

First should be tsunami bomb - Dawn on the funeral day. Female singer very different and most I talk to have never heard them

[@keithagee8972]

READ THIS BEAUTIFUL STORY!!! I been living in a motel for 4 years. Lebanon, TN... When l first started living here, a family of four was staying here. A man, women, brother, & sister. The daughter was named Daisy... nickname Daze. Starting out... I'd walk out of my room. Just randomly see what's going on. There were allot of children when I got here. I live in a middle room. So, there was allot of children outside of my room. I'd open my door, stand in my doorway. Daze would be near & become intimidated. 6'... 200lbs... stranger danger looking mofo! Starting out... Daze would see me, & start walking back to her mother. It was the cutest thing. Index finger pointed up... as she walked away... walking forward... arm at 90 degrees... I literally acknowledged... "Okay." ...& stayed in my doorway. There is a difference between special needs & learning disabilities. I have ADD & ADHD. I decided to develop our rapport. I went with the ...wah ah ah ...ah ah at the beginning of this song. This is how I would greet Daze. ...after the ah ah ...one ah baccochew then... ah ah ah baccochew(as a close). We talking a 4 & 5 year old; who couldn't talk yet. She was a slow learner/talker. I developed a rapport with Daze. A few times, later in our rapport... she would randomly reply... "ah!" ...like a hello, to me. Here is the beautiful part... one day, she tried to talk to me; without knowing how. It was like she thought talking just happens. "wuh uh wuh uh wuhuh" ...was her attempt at talk. It looked like "The Rock" making fun of the "The Big Show". kzbin.infoxBy-c_Hmygk?si=ZS_tJaJPPLH3dGr5 She kinda shook her a little... & looked down... like talking worked like that. A day or two later... I'm walking by & she randomly says... "ah" I looked back & she replied with a... "grrr". "ah ah ah baccochew" Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson is an ENFP Champion temperament. keirsey.com/temperament/idealist-champion/

[@keithagee8972]

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[@chadlee8987]

You should react to their song inside the fire

[@lukebond9543]

It would be interesting to see you react too "Overburdened" or "Pain redefined" from Disturbed's Ten Thousand Fists album..

[@mrfixitishere]

To me the song has always been about how people stop your growth for personal gain,or the quiet man no longer taking the abuse almost a " you wanted to see what i hid now your going to get it"

[@lukastaerk3933]

You really need to listen to the uncensored version!!!!

[@jeffsauceda]

You're so cool. Much love

[@ianmorgan5388]

Listen to the full version it will completely change your perception of this track.

[@karlbecker8775]

Really good analysis, even if you didn't here the whole song. You are pretty spot on.

[@tinmanpickle7212]

You might enjoy breaking down HI Ren by Ren,he's out of the UK,

[@johnwruddick5902]

maybe you should have watched the unedited version of this song and scene who he was talking about an abusive parent

[@RickCouceiro]

You have to check out a band called Paradise Lost. It’s an open sea to sail in these themes

[@joenewman6494]

Wow excellent reaction just found you had to sub look forward to see more later beautiful.❤️😎🇺🇸

[@steflevieuxcriss]

Good job Miss Therapist :) We have a few bands in common ;)

[@ericgaudet5488]

This Therapist did the radio version of DOWN WITH THE SICKNESS FROM DISTURBED if she would have done this live version of the song she thoughts would be much different.

[@toddfranke48]

NOT MANY GET IT BUT YOU DO

[@holding8525]

I hit the ROCK!

[@jaredmaciej7315]

Boo need the uncensored version

[@willwhitman7534]

I hear your words, I understand what you are saying but, oh, I have a story for you. Depending on the personality, not the character, of a person, the way in which it must be addressed can be a very fine line.

[@jdsnaps3167]

You should give a listen to Draiman's version of "Sound of Silence", not his/their song, but it's something else... ;)

[@anthonyt1971]

now that you"ve had a taste you should check out Indestructible and the sound of silence.

[@baronvoncuda]

I cant been that you haven't reacted to Hi Ren by Ren yet ! Most of his stuff deals with his mental health journey. ❤

[@shankiser]

Hey i havent read comments. Just now saw the video. Wanted to tell you its "will you give IN to me. Not it to me. Big difference

[@claudialarcher8492]

Listen the longer Version

[@lawrenwimberly7311]

This was an anthem to a lot of us in the military... I needed this to cage the Demon in me...

[@princessparrots]

You should do “unstoppable”, “the light” and “inside the fire”

[@heather9857]

Darn! I thought this was the full version.

[@BlackBeard-kv4kx]

Inside the fire check it out

[@turtlehermit6047]

Please do .. Daddy..by korn.. But make sure you are ready for trauma first. Thanks.👍

[@williamduck7171]

You must hear the unedited version

[@markbranson3723]

They cut the whole bridge out The most powerful part of the song. Love your analysis

[@corkythurston]

you rock.........

[@MichaelMeherg-pq7mh]

I dont know if you will see this. Yelawolf has a song called disappear that you should check out. Please. Thanks.

[@martinbaker1701]

I would love to see you react to For You by Staind. I think it would be really interesting lyrically and from a therapy point of view, and it's from the same era as this song, system of a down etc

[@JamesPennington-w9f]

He’s talking about his upbringing and the way his mother treated him

[@MICHAEL-tz9ni]

this song is about child abuse, and abused children who grow up to be abusers, and trying to break that cycle. It's rigth in the lyrics, there is a whole chorous about the abuse he suffers at the hands of his mother that has been edited out of this version

[@robertlowther6979]

Have you taken the time to research this song? Because the sickness that he's talking about is what's being poured into him by an abusive mother beating him. You absolutely need to hear the uncensored version to fully understand this song

[@tombez3638]

This girl is definitely addicted to metal ❤ .