Therapist Reacts to Ren's 'Hi Ren' | Mental Health and Inner Struggles

In this deeply reflective reaction video, Atma Clinic's Integrative Therapist, David Lovely, gets into the powerful and raw lyrics of Ren's "Hi Ren," providing a therapeutic perspective on the song's exploration of internal battles, mental health, and the universal struggle between light and darkness. By closing his eyes and fully immersing himself in the experience, David offers genuine insights into the hero's journey and the wounded healer archetype, emphasizing the importance of mental well-being, self-reflection, and finding support during challenging times. His vulnerability and heartfelt reactions make this video a powerful connection point for viewers who seek more than just a typical reaction.
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[@patriciamatus4619]

Chalk Outlines, How To Be Me, Suicide, For Joe, Tale of Jenny and Screech, Troubles, and the list goes on and on.....

[@Leks3777]

Ditto!

[@Leks3777]

Definitely For Joe & Troubles!

[@WhatTheWHAT524]

Yes!! This!! How to be me is especially beautiful to me. As is Troubles. I listen to it almost every morning as I'm getting up and moving.

[@nada-8-4-2]

and Crutch

[@kellyt5341]

@@nada-8-4-2 💯

[@hilltigger]

My foundation was shook 2 1/2 years ago when my son passed away suddenly. It caused ripples in my reality that physically shook me to the point where my Apendix failed, we lost our house, shut down my business, my wife resigned. One of my children started experiencing suicidal ideations. Our PTSD symptoms hit so hard, my wife and I now struggle with Agoraphobia, Catstrophic thinking, and have basically had to start all over again. I am now seeing a PTSD specialist and a counselor, a grieving group, along with having to go through dietary adjustments due to lack of apetite.. I go in and out of feeling insane. The triggers, flashbacks, anxiety, memory loss, and physical ticks have become a regular experience for me. Ren's perspective gives me sanity, knowing others go through similar experiences, and give me hope. Not sure how it will take till I stabilize again, but I feel like I'm making progress.

[@papacarl2002]

Hang in there. All is not lost. I know those are cliches, but when I lost my dad early last year and found Ren, just seeing how he touched people’s lives helped me hold on and remember to value my life and how I’m connected to others, even when I’d forget and think i just couldn’t go on. Hang on to hope and my music that soothes your soul. I truly hope things get better for you. 🤘🏼🎧🤟🏼

[@seth1455]

best wishes man

[@workingit3055]

I think that's the true gift of his songs - and even him speaking on Instagram and stuff - that no matter where you are hope exists because just a little bit of research will show you just how tortured HE was and he made it on the other side. My sister has a way of saying things to me that finally make certain things click. I know the serenity prayer for a long time. "Accept the things we cannot change." Very hard for me to do that sometimes. The fact that Ren mentioned this as a dance instead of something I'll overcome just made it click. Plus the victim/student perspective though I know I'm a slow study at life. Hang in there. We know from Ren's experience that brighter days are ahead. One other thing that always stuck with me was that I had a teacher that used to tell us that suicide was a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I'm 53 years old and that was in Middle School and I never forgot it.

[@mattslade1633]

Sending love and prayers your way.

[@TheAtmaMD]

@@hilltigger I’m so sorry for your loss. Keep healing. You’ve got this.

[@Codex7777]

If you rewind a little, after pausing, you won't miss anything. :)

[@sharis9095]

I often wonder what the therapists and doctors who treated Ren think now, knowing that his illness was actually triggered by Lyme disease. So much of his medical story seems to be doctors building on previous diagnosis and and unfortunate lack of time. I went through a similar medical situation with a family member who was deemed "untreatable" by a doctor because she wouldn't follow his treatment protocol even though it was making her worse. Every doctor she saw afterwards, at some point referred to her "unwillingness" to follow treatment, even in first meetings. When she would get upset over it, they would blame her and say she was combative. I really enjoy watching therapists react to Ren because every one, seems to be heartfelt, and well intentioned. I only wish there were more.

[@iamlpinthe312]

I don’t think that a therapist would have any way of knowing that RENs illness was physiological if Ren didn’t know it himself. I have some kind of undiagnosed autoimmune shit that has my body feel like it is literally on fire and I have had 8+ pages of bloodwork, x rays, mri etc with nothing conclusive.

[@Mr.Ekshin]

It's like Ren was begging them to listen to him and most of them responded by grabbing a set of earplugs. They were like this guy... asked to react to a video, and closes his eyes through half of it.

[@cathywethington5913]

MrEkshin, this doctor explained why he closed his eyes. Did you not listen? I often close my eyes so I can listen better. I'm visually oriented and sometimes the visuals distract me so it helps to close my eyes or stare at something inanimate. This guy is probably the same way

[@sharis9095]

@@Mr.Ekshin I don't begrudge closing his eyes (although Ren's art is very visual) but for some it's just too much to take in all at once. I just like seeing a Doctor listen.

[@Mr.Ekshin]

@@cathywethington5913 - He was supposed to be reacting to a VIDEO performance, not an AUDIO track. There's superb acting and performance art going on and an atmosphere portrayed by the location, the lighting, etc. All of this conveys the message the artist wanted you to feel. Sure, you can react to an ice cream sundae by sitting on it, but you'd be missing a lot of the experience. You'd be able to talk about how cold, wet and squishy it is, but there's a lot more to it than that.

[@MikeNeilson-i4x]

I am a 57 year old man farmer from Kansas. Discovered Ren in April 2024 and quickly dove into his extensive catalog of musical content after hearing Hi Ren. To date I don’t believe that there is thing that he has posted on you tube that I haven’t seen and it is all remarkable,wonderful,enlightening, Insert adjective. As great his musical talents are he may be a better human soul. I strongly suggest you check out his chapters 1-8 this is him telling his life story you can find by going to his channel ren makes stuff or I just put in Ren chapters 1-8 and they popped up but that may be because he was already in my algorithm. In any case they are definitely worth checking out, not necessarily for reaction purposes in fact there was another therapist reactor that started to react to them and decided against it for reasons that will become evident to you but it will definitely give you context, he ends most of these chapters with a music video that you may not want to watch or be prepared to record a reaction video to it. Ren is an independent artist and relies heavily on us Renegades and the reaction community. Thank you great reaction!!!!

[@kellyt5341]

Nice...🤗

[@DedmanReactin]

I'ma paraplegic vet confined to a hospital bed and I live dead center, middle of nowhere Kansas! I found Ren after two year's confined to a single spot.. his music, and this song in particular makes ne emotional.. and I'm army.. we don't get emotional.. 😲

[@clarissathompson]

@@DedmanReactin I think that military people are ultimate feelers, actually. To feel a sense of obligation to provide an environment of safety, security and well being to your community and the world takes great sacrifice and love. I think PTSD is so prominent among those who serve for those very reasons. You feel deeply and you sacrifice and that makes you among the most selfless and loving people in the world. Military people don't want war, they want to make peace happen. What a beautiful and noble legacy. Thank you for being amazing and sacrificing so much to make the world a better place

[@TheAtmaMD]

@@MikeNeilson-i4x a fellow Kansan! Hello!

[@TheAtmaMD]

@@DedmanReactin Thank you for your service. Hello from a fellow Kansan! It’s okay to be emotional. We’re all human, remember?

[@Rachelorten]

A reaction to Ren's "Diazepam" would be great too!

[@TheAtmaMD]

@@Rachelorten we will put that one on the list!

[@sanoraray]

Yep. Seen the look in your eyes and know you will be falling down this Rabbithole. Ren is a special person because in my almost 50 years on this earth I have not seen an artist..any artist literally be a magnet to those in the dark. I have a theory that on one of Rens many trips through the halls of hell he stumbled on to the lock that opened the hearts of all the broken souls in the world. He put it in his pocket for safe keeping until the day he sat down and wrote this song. That was the day the RENagades were born. Have fun with all the people coming your way. You threw up the bat signal. Subbed for more. ❤

[@patriciaobrien6600]

Very nicely said!! ❤❤❤❤

[@agatopol]

❤

[@LetsGoEers2]

❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@sejbomb]

😊🤧👏🏻👏🏻

[@craigbombell6838]

Well said indeed

[@nathanwood8028]

Totally agree with the Hero's Journey comment. I believe that is one of the reasons why this resonates with so many people. Ren seems to drop bits of Jung and Joseph Campbell in his songs. Definitely check out the tale of Jenny and Screech (3 parts), he talks about generational trauma. Sick Boi, Troubles (personal health history), Money Game (3 parts) he covers societies sickness. Ultimately his whole catalog is excellent, Ren is an iconic artist, been waiting decades for an artist like him. It is like watching Bowie or Lennon (or the like) in real-time.

[@nathanwood8028]

also Chalk Outlines (the live version) is a classic

[@anthonywhiteside9369]

Ren has plenty of head working songs. very multi talented artist one I'm watching with great interest, I'm 50 now, and have gone down the Ren rabbit hole. Wow its awesome.

[@Prime_Mover2112]

That was fantastic, both your and Dr Sandal’s reactions were excellent. Enjoyed and greatly appreciated your insight. Would love to see you both check out more of Ren’s content. Very well done.

[@TheAtmaMD]

@@Prime_Mover2112 Thanks for letting us know!

[@woodywoodman2319]

​@@TheAtmaMDhis Diazapam, Insomnia, Pentinence are some more Must Dos feom Ren for y'all to react to! As are most of his songs! Lol

[@shazza175]

Talk about going straight into the deep end of the world of reaction videos!!! Welcome new reactor and welcome to the Reniverse! Great first react! More Ren reacts please! 🥰🥰🥰

[@Mr.Ekshin]

Guy was asked to watch a video and react... and proceeds to close his eyes through half of it. That's like someone asking you what you think of the pizza they made, and rather than taking a bite, you squish it between your fingers and start commenting on the consistency.

[@shazza175]

@@Mr.Ekshin What is with the negs? He explained that he was listening deeply. If you want a perspective from a videographer there are plenty out there for you to enjoy.

[@Mr.Ekshin]

@@shazza175 - I was going to read your comment and respond, but it was kinda hard with my eyes closed. Kind of like reacting to a video with your eyes closed, right?

[@TheAtmaMD]

@@Mr.Ekshin This gave us a good giggle. Thank you 😎

[@donald1379]

Welcome to the Reniverse,Ren is our resident Goat so enjoy.....thanks great reaction👍

[@SandraP3796]

Welcome to the wonderful world of REN, our lyrical genius and beautiful soul. I’m sure other Renegades will fill you in on Ren’s story. He was misdiagnosed for years and given medication that caused chaos and he actually has Lyme disease. He just finished months of extra treatment in Canada for the brain damage from the Lyme disease. I myself live with chronic pain. Ren has made my life happier the last 18 months. Enjoyed your reaction and subbed for more. It would be great if you did The Tale of Jenny and Screech (3 parts)next.

[@WhatTheWHAT524]

I also have severe chronic pain and spent a little over a decade bed ridden I was drawn to Ren. Sending my best wishes to you and yours my fellow RENegade!! 💖🙏💖

[@jamesolsen7610]

Great reaction---what you had to say was valuable. If you would like a few tips on reacting to art pieces like this, Stop the video where you like, and speak as long as you want to. But please---rewind slightly before you go on. You actually jumped ahead a number of times and missed some of the lines. A click on the "10" to the left of the pause button will automatically take the video back 10 seconds, which would be helpful to both you and the audience viewing the video. If you would like to react to more of Ren's music as a therapist, you might like to react to 'Sick Boy' next. Another good choice would be 'Chalk Outlines (live)'. You, as a therapist, could find plenty to react to in those pieces, and there are many, many more. Great choice for your first music video reaction, and I'm sure that we would like to hear what you have to say about some of the other pieces. His KZbin channel is @RenMakesMusic, and there you will find over 200 of his pieces. One thing we all agree on is that Ren does not know how to write a bad song! Everything he does is excellent.

[@TheAtmaMD]

@@jamesolsen7610 thank you for the tips!

[@iamsquatty]

Welcome to the wonderful world of ren , where you can always expect the unexpected 😊 hope to see you react to more ren! Subbed! 🥹💜

[@Dave1507]

A good therapist never tells you too much, they do ask a lot of questions, so you can then find the answers yourself.

[@Wiley_Coyote]

He was misdiagnosed. So yeah. The line about being told he was "ill" is pretty accurate.

[@carlahelin5203]

Great insights and reaction! You are a natural at this. Ren will give you plenty to dissect! Dominos, Crutch, Chalk Outlines for starters. ❤

[@francesdoll4039]

Those are good first choices!

[@carlahelin5203]

@@francesdoll4039 thanks 😊

[@TheAtmaMD]

@@carlahelin5203 thank you!

[@helenjarvis7755]

It was encouraging to see your empathy and attentive listening to Hi Ren I think I would enjoy your thoughts on other tracks if you decide to react to them

[@TheAtmaMD]

@@helenjarvis7755 Thanks for being here!

[@ordinaryvalley]

I think youre the first person to mention “dark night of the soul” and i really appreciate it 😊 Its so real and many of us go through it alone and it doesnt have to be that way. Thank you for this heartfelt reaction, sending love ❤

[@angelluhman9006]

Just a suggestion, since you are new to reactions, everytime you pause, go back just a little so you don't miss any lyrics

[@KittyInTheGarden]

Some songs of Ren's that would be interesting for you to react to would be: Suicide/ For Joe (which is a live version of the end of the song suicide with some more added) Diazepam Depression Insomnia Seven sins Chalk outlines (live version) How to be me (live version) Dominoes Power The Tale of Jenny and Screech (3 songs in one 13 minute video)

[@Oitsugina93]

I am sure it will be easy for you to understand why there are so many of us obsessed with watching people react to Ren over and over. You hit the nail in the head about Ren's pain. He said he desperately needed a purpose for it and has found that in helping others with his music. Looking forward to more. ❤❤❤

[@mkool65]

Appreciate this reaction! I just shared this song with my own therapist, it is the reason that I’m still here. This message meant the world to me and I’m so glad to see how many others it has touched.

[@iamlpinthe312]

I’ve seen this hundreds of times and I still get choked up. Ren is a conduit for so many of us who feel unheard, unseen, not understood. Yes, Ren is unapologetically raw and vulnerable and 100% himself.

[@xxnik76]

Appreciate your reaction to our sick boi my friend! He is so special and his music will have such a positive impact and will save many lives.

[@celinel9750]

''For Joe'' is a magnificent piece about how to survive when you lost someone who gave up on life. A real tool IMO to share .

[@johndugger1028]

Ren is awesome on so many levels

[@kevinmclaughlin8975]

Nice reaction. To make sure you don’t miss anything you should rewind 10 seconds when you stop.

[@scramblesish]

I’m going through it right now and your linking the dark night of the soul with the heroes journey just gave me a lightbulb moment - thank you

[@TheAtmaMD]

@@scramblesish you’ve got this!

[@juliannemil6158]

Renegade here. One cannot close his/her eyes while watching Ren is performing. The lighting, setting, camera works, acting, on top of the instrumentation, lyrics and vocals are integral parts of his art.

[@RaveStationTV-zx4fp]

He gives everyone goosebumps, man woman, black white, hes 🔥, cnn tried to used part of this tune and say he was promoting suicide..suicide..

[@RaveStationTV-zx4fp]

You real need to do/ hear violets tale by him , wow

[@helenjarvis7755]

​@@RaveStationTV-zx4fpbut maybe after Jenny and Screechs Tales 🙂

[@michaelwalsh7359]

Ren Dominoes

[@samanthahadwin]

I connect to REN’s music I have bipolar and borderline personality disorder I spent about 30yrs self medicating I was singing and writing lyrics for the Rock band I was with!! I have been clean and sober!! I had to walk away from my friends and band mates!! I am compliant with my meds. I am also Epileptic with Fibromyalgia and Osteoarthritis!! My kids and granddaughter are my world now!!! I am truly happy now. When I start to feel down I listen to Ren it really helps sometimes!!!

[@RudyB-l8h]

NEXT, “The Tale OF Jenny & Screech” The all three videos in one reaction please. A great reaction from you here. Thanks.

[@juniorjr4815]

I have never been able to watch this video without tears streaming down my face, ever. Thank you for taking time to react to this. I always appreciate people's views on this particular video. I find it both educational. and in some cases therapeutic.

[@RaveStationTV-zx4fp]

Welcome to the Ren 🐰 🕳, hes a lyrical genius,, Wait till you hear his other work,,, like a modern Shakespeare and motzart combined. He can rap next level.

[@agape843]

You’re a very empathetic man. I find empathetic people are deeply touched by music,seems to come hand in hand. Beautiful reaction.

[@cathywethington5913]

Great reaction. It's obvious you really feel and understand this song. Thank you

[@steveknutson5617]

two old lamps from goodwill, a wheelchair from the dump, a can of spray paint, a guitar and a genius and together the make the most important video of our lifetime

[@anna9072]

I have watched this probably 100 or more times, I still can’t get through it without goosebumps.

[@Theogvineofthedead]

I really feel what you are saying. I'm 33 and have suffered for 14 years with depression, lack of confidince, weight gain and addiction. Thankfully I have always had good support around me. My family or friends that I've made throughout my life. I constantly moved around growing up so I was blessed with the ability to make friends easily ND I'm a guenely happy person most of the time. Also a deep thinker. I say all of this because I want to share my message and story to inspire as many people as possible that anything is possible. I'm starting school on Wednesday and I am going to become a medical doctor with a specialization in international medicine. And I say I am because I've learned in life that you have to say out loud to the world what it is you know you can do. It helps it really does. And it's never too late, you can make change and get to a place in life where you are stable. And I purposefully say stable because you will struggle that's the only way you are able to have those happy moments. As ren points out in this video, life whatever this beautiful thing is; is definitely a pendulum. And that means that in order to experience bliss you must experience suffering. And that sucks, but without suffering you would have nothing to compare bliss to. So be aware of that. And yes as mentioned so eloquently by Dr. David Lovely, please reach out and that can be to anyone who will listen. You are loved who you are know that I love you. And I mean it too, I love every human being on this planet even those who have really harmed others. Because we are all in this struggle together we really are and we need you here, thriving and balanced so that we all move towards the best possible future for all of humanity, nature and the universe. You got this. ❤❤❤

[@Theogvineofthedead]

And I'm excited for composition class, because I have bad punctuation issues. To be fair to myself I didn't edit that comment at all before posting it hahaha 😅

[@MikeNeilson-i4x]

Keep thinking deeply and positively the systems in which we live are set to program us with negativity to keep us down but finding ones higher consciousness or higher self and learning to 1 love and trust in it then project that outward that when things become truly special

[@TheAtmaMD]

@@Theogvineofthedead beautifully said!

[@Theogvineofthedead]

@@TheAtmaMD thanks 😊

[@Theogvineofthedead]

@@MikeNeilson-i4x agreed, we'll put.

[@indianahoneybee8852]

Rens catalog will blow you back. The man is a genius. I wish I would have had someone like you when I was walking through the depths of hell. The first therapist I found really began to help me...then he left me. For someone struggling with abandonment issues, it crushed me. I never did find another therapist that could help me so I had to do the work myself. There are not very many people who understand the depths of CPTSD. It's extremely complex. Hence the term complex ptsd. There are so many layers and so many symptoms that come with living in pure terror since birth. I'm getting through it, though. I finally see the light at the end of the tunnel and I'm reaching for it. It's not easy and it's misunderstood. But that's okay. I've learned to be my own best friend. I began encouraging myself. Notice the word courage in the word encouraging. It's a tremendous task but I figure I must be built for it or it wouldn't be my own task.

[@LetsGoEers2]

I loved that your closed your eyes! Especially when it was obvious you were overwhelmed by this experience, that’s REN! JUST WAIT! There is way more to be had!! Congratulations! Your life will never be the same! His lyrics, all of them, there is meaning behind. As good a lyricist that has ever existed.

[@Entellegence]

Try watching the video. It is worth it.

[@roymundy4122]

ren a phenomenal performer. Found him and will always support him as I too had a similar experience. Finally found a great therapist. For anyone out there don’t ever give up, if you still have breath in your lungs. It means there is still a chance to recover. I wish there were doctors out there with your approach to therapy. Too many non attached people in the industry that look at you as just a number.

[@billspivey6919]

Song - I Forgot How To Be Me

[@angelluhman9006]

How to be me. With Chinchilla live!!

[@gatormama75]

“He turns his pain into his medicine “ WOW🔥🔥❤️

[@alexrodriquez6574]

Enjoy this Rollercoaster of a ride that is Ren. He is a artist like no other.

[@alrounder8025]

I consistently see a lot of people say something along the lines of, "reach out if you're depressed and want to end it". I feel like saying something like this does very little for people that are actually depressed who likely have looked for something or someone to reach out to so they can crawl out of the darkness. Another one is saying, "I care" even though x person saying this doesn't even sometimes know the person they are saying they care about. I wish the messaging was instead more along the lines of, "it sucks for whoever is suicidal or find themselves to be in hopeless situation. I hope whoever is in this situation doesn't end it and doesn't give up hope, but it's understandable if you do give up hope" (this is the sentiment that would be good to put forward, doesn't have to be in these exact words at all). There must be empathy and undersanding for people that are suicidal, instead of people fearfully saying don't do it don't do it I care, reach out!!!

[@justindunkley7165]

I really wish you got to watch this for the first time with your eyes open. This is the most beautiful piece of art ever created, it’s not just the music. When he stands, how he dances without caring visualising acceptance etc. That being said, good analysis. I’m 39 and have been “stiffly” fighting this battle since I was 5. Plenty of therapists later, this song has been my greatest teacher (and I only first saw it a week ago).

[@stacey37m]

My first contact with Ren was just over a year ago with this Tune, it has helped unmeasurably to get the help I needed . Ren is a special sort of Guy.

[@lethasatterfield9615]

It helped me when the team at UCLA assessed me and informed me of a diagnosis that actually made sense. I didn't mind finding out I will ill...I was relieved it wasn't ALL my fault. And, it helped guide treatment that got me to a stable point that stays pretty consistent. As to Ren, he is so talented! He can sing, play instruments, rap, perform, etc. He is a force, and, yes, authentic. He's also very insightful. They did this is several camera angles, but, it's my understanding that this was done it one take. That, in itself, is impressive as hell.

[@Shelleyc1972]

Did you notice it's live? He created this stripped down and live (he's wearing a lavalier mic. The flashing lights on his darker parts is genius. This is an ode and an absolute piece of art. I love your input on mental health because it's not just music but lyrics.

[@Leks3777]

More Ren! Duets & More! The song Sick Boi! You would be completely interested in that one forsure!

[@instigatorartworks]

I just saw your Hi Ren reaction, and put this journal entry of Ren's as my comment to that reaction. jAN 01, 2023 rEN~ Up until I was 9 years old, I would intermittently hear a voice in my head that was not my own. The voice was distinctly different to mine, and always negative. It would self criticize or urge me to do things I knew to be morally wrong. The most peculiar thing about the voice was that it took no effort on my behalf to produce. My own thoughts always felt like there was a process that required effort to bring them to the forefront of my mind, this voice appeared as though it was spoken by another. The sentences felt predetermined like they had already been constructed. I remember very vividly at 9 years old, becoming very frustrated with the voice. I stood in my back yard, internally screaming at the voice to be silent again and again, and it did. In a flash there was silence, to the point where my head felt like an empty room. I wasn't used to the quiet and that voice never returned. It almost felt lonely in my head. When I got older I had intermittent bouts with auditory hallucinations where I would hear perfect symphonies, usually at night when drifting off to sleep. They were so clear that they sounded like they were emanating from a radio in the corner of my room. I knew they weren't there, but for some reason they never came with the feeling of fear. I also recall sitting on a bus at the age of 15, and hearing the sound of a crowded room, with about 100 voices chattering away, I was the only person apart from the driver on the bus. These experiences were always very brief, and few and far between. My last hallucination was during an intense bout of psychosis in 2015, and was my first visual hallucination. I was walking down a pavement after jumping out my mums car in a crossroads in a moment of frustration and distress with my condition. I was trying to run from myself. What appeared to be a homeless man with a dark complexion approached me, and asked me what was wrong. I explained that I had been sick most my life, and I wasn't sure I had the strength to continue. He looked at me, and smiled and told me 'everything is going to be okay in the end Ren.' I had not told him my name. There was something so overpoweringly sincere about this very simple message, which brought with it an overwhelming feeling of inner peace, and in a flash, he vanished. My rational brain always linked these experiences to what the doctors have told me, that there are parts of my brain compromised by the autoimmunity in my body. That the myelin sheaths surrounding the complex electrical system that conduct my thoughts were damaged and compromised, causing these lucid experiences that I knew did not exist inside the physical world. The part of me that edges away from logical and rational thought always attributed these thoughts to some kind of otherworldly intervention, that made my thoughts the battleground of some spiritual tug of war. For a long time I never really acknowledged this part of myself, for with it brought the danger and stigma of sounding like a crazy person. I decided with my latest release, to the best of my ability, to capture and express this chess match of thought. Hi Ren comes out in just over 24 hours. I can't wait for you all to hear it.

[@TheAtmaMD]

@@instigatorartworks Wow. Powerful. Thank you for sharing.

[@Leks3777]

He rode his way to #1 UK Album by an Idenpendant artist debut! The power of the REN! ❤ him so much! This video helped me know I wasn't crazy! Chronic pain is real! Rick Astley sent a message out Congratulations to him for a successful debut Ablum! It awesome! Rick is a standup guy!

[@TheAtmaMD]

@@Leks3777 I can see why!

[@The_newyork_savage]

this song helps a ton... life can be so beautifully cruel

[@Rolo-ol3mx]

This song is my medicine. I've traveled my road for over 60 years, Mostly alone. The majority of the days and nights being a fight to retain my sanity. Sometimes the fiight itself leaves you Ill in a different way. Looking at Ren's struggle means I'm not looking at mine and I'm able to think.

[@nannyogtha]

My light’s so dim a strong wind may blow it out. Thanks for your reaction. 💜🥔

[@yasha.hartberg]

Welcome to the Ren-aissance!

[@wandavillaverde6671]

I don't know how I came across this video...but the artist described what's been going on in my mind perfectly. Thank you for sharing this!

[@TheAtmaMD]

@@wandavillaverde6671 we hope you’ll subscribe for more! We have other reactions to Ren as well on our playlist. He’s a very talented artist.

[@GallifreyGinger]

I've listened to this song a million times. And I'm crying.

[@Louise-ms4qt]

Nice to see a therapists take on this song / performance 👏 Beautiful reaction thankyou

[@Jinxy44]

I don’t have any relate ability to ill health but even so Ren’s songs are more meaningful than many artists I’ve enjoyed over the years. Great reaction and subbed for your journey down the Ren rabbit hole. Thanks ❤

[@Irmelinis]

Great reaction! You're doing wonderful. Welcome to the world of Ren, there is so much to dive into and you won't regret it. Please react to more Ren :)

[@Azkikn6972]

This strikes me. I live with CPTSD, DID...this masterpiece, made me feel less alone. I was misdiagnosed and over medicated for a decade at least. I feel ren x deeply

[@lynette.]

He has given voice to many.

[@Leks3777]

Ren has a special type of therapy! My Will may be done!

[@juliannemil6158]

Yes very interesting to see the table turned around. Therapists listening to Ren talking about his mental issues. From a perspective of one who actually live and go through it. Instead of the usual way around. So many doctors along the way have lost their humanity and treat patients as mere data.

[@TheAtmaMD]

@@juliannemil6158 a gut wrenching truth. We just have to keep being an important part of spreading these messages! Dr. Sandal did a reaction to Hi Ren as well and discusses that.

[@highlightspotent127]

What a great reaction. Heartfelt and compassionate. 💛 Since stumbling upon his music some four or five months ago , I’ve been captivated and have not been able to stop listening. Ren is a genius that has connected with millions who can relate . The renegades will fill you in with all you need to know. He can do everything and fits into no one genre. It’s going to blow your mind. Watching reactors like you gives us a chance to relive the moment of hearing these songs for the very first time. Cheers 🍻🙂🇨🇦

[@patriciaobrien6600]

Yay, you got goosebumps ❤ So connected 😊 Loved your reaction. I agree with the song suggestions as you can't go wrong with any of them. I would like to see u react to Ren's Thank you toOne Million KZbin subscribers and his definition of success 🙌

[@jujugar9442]

Keep going. Love your perspective. You reminded me that it’s never too late to begin healing ❤️‍🩹

[@LetsGoEers2]

Great reaction! Awesome to have another RENegade! Always is! Had a great time listening to your take on it! Most of us have watched hundreds of REN reactions and you are still absolutely amazing! Thank you for your take. I loved when you spoke of holding someone’s hand, and listen to this with them.

[@lulumeto]

Awesome reaction. You touched on some things that Ren talks about on his 1 million subscribers video. It's a must watch for you along with the Tales of Jenny and Screech full version with Violet's Tale. ❤

[@Tinkerbell9332]

Thank you so much for reacting to this! Ren is my absolute favorite! This song is just a tiny portion of my reasons why! He is incredible!

[@TheAtmaMD]

@@Tinkerbell9332 Thank you for watching!

[@TheAtmaMD]

@@Tinkerbell9332 thanks for watching!

[@heathercallahan5886]

You’re adorable, keep up the reactions!

[@Rasperdan]

I love reactions... thanks for showing me your end reaction, it saved me watching.

[@agatopol]

OMG, mate, just let him finish the phrase before you stop, please 😒

[@EarthyBlendPOV]

Enjoyed! You’ve got a wild ride ahead if you’re hoppin’ on this train my friend.

[@DedmanReactin]

I'ma paraplegic vet confined to a hospital bed and this song is one of very few that gets me emotional.. I'm army, we don't get emotional. I'd recommend monster's! It's the only other song that gets me.. and it's because i am a single father, and soon I'll be leaving this world.. very soon, and i worry for my son after I'm gone.. I'm all he has!

[@WordsMeanThings_]

Thanks for this reaction. I really appreciate your heart.

[@randomvieweryt]

Important take. 3:29 You can only assist, not instruct. Love Ren and this message, but therapy can only do so much without participation.

[@roeloftooms]

Many see this performance in several ways, I have not seen a reactor talking about a possession. Flickering lights can also be associated with a paranormal activity. When the bad Ren is explaining he is a kind of demon the lights are very active like the demon is becoming angry. Also the stage like an old abandoned place is like abandoned hospitals which are favorite places for ghost hunters because the bad energy in the atmosphere.

[@RingwelskiJacek]

So many great mental and health related music from Ren. Sick Boy - deals with therapy Chaulk Outlines - deals with phsyc drugs Suic!de - take a guess what that's about. Troubles - ren journey dealing with misdiagnosed lime disease.

[@Rachelorten]

And "Patience" for the documentary Unrest before Ren is diagnosed

[@Jivansings]

I first heard this walking to work on Venice Blvd, and I had to pause it afraid some stranger would see how much it moved me. In every moment he is so abundant, so spontaneous, and so daring in his passion. REN writes from within life itself, never above it, and perhaps that’s why we give him our love.

[@serendipitish]

You might be interested in reacting to (or watching for yourself) Ren's "ONE MILLION SUBSCRIBERS - Defining success" video. It's about five minutes long, and he very much echoes what you said here about using his pain to become a healer for others. It's very inspiring and I think you will identify with him even more!

[@antiqueinsider]

Ren's problems started with misdiagnosis of the original condition which turned out to be Lyme disease, but it took ten years of wrong medication and consequently unsuccessful treatments before he found the right path. After the right diagnosis he got stem cell treatment in US and Canada and is now starting to recover. However he spent 10 years with 'Troubles' afraid that he might die at any moment and tempted to self terminate.

[@hidinginmycaropeningpokemo9006]

You cannot force someone - who was brought up to suppress their emotions - to tap into said emotions, however, a song like this may well inspire them to

[@rascalh]

Like you, I’m just learning about Ren. Appreciate your reaction. Tale of Jenny & Screech (3 parts) is my new arena obsession.

[@audivawalsh2983]

I was a young woman in my early 30s with a job that I loved and a career that was taking off very quickly when I was a passenger in a stationary car that was hit from behind. The airbags failed and I suffered a very nasty whiplash. 3 months after the accident I still had crippling pain that no one could explain. I bounced from specialist to specialist and no one had an answer - it was decided that I was "just after the insurance payout". It took a year and about 15 doctors for me to find a specialist who ordered a very unusual scan of the area and the results lit up like a christmas tree, very clearly delineating what was going on. I lost my career as I'm permanently disabled now. Being a woman without children who was unable to return to work, several pain management doctors decided to experiment on me without my knowledge or permission, making my already nasty injury much worse. So I can relate to maybe 5% of what Ren has been through with mis-diagnosis. But the fact that the drugs he was fed was the worst possible thing for Lyme disease and did insane amounts of damage to his already sick body is just appalling. The world is so very lucky that he survived to share his wisdom.

[@TheAtmaMD]

I am so sorry you've gone through that.

[@serendipitish]

Excellent reaction, I love your compassion and eloquence. One suggestion, if you do the song "Sick Boi" -- early in the song he starts talking about symptoms and side effects, and this always seems to throw medical/therapist reactors into "diagnostic/professional" mode, trying to explain to the audience what these terms mean. We don't need the explanations; many of us have lived our own versions of these discussions. Watching this "Hi Ren" reaction and your discussion afterwards, I don't foresee you'll have the same issue, but what we as reaction viewers hope for is some empathy for what happens on the OTHER side of the desk; we want to see doctors put themselves in the patient's shoes, really LISTEN to an excellent lyricist describe his fear and frustration with the medical system. Discuss whatever you want to discuss, but remember that you're talking to an audience that clicked on your video because they identify with what Ren went through. Also, Ren is telling his individual story, in which his symptoms really did have an underlying physical cause, and he kept asking them to look for one, but he was told over and over by both medical and mental health professionals that it was depression or BPD or a trauma response. He's not against mental health care at all, in a general sense, but he is condemning the lack of listening, lack of curiosity/initiative, and repeated assumptions/ jumping to conclusions that he encountered within the system, even as his body went eight years eroding itself from within.

[@upnorth7366]

❤❤❤

[@WhatTheWHAT524]

Definitely recommend Troubles, How To Be Me and sooo many more. Ren is a true gift to this crzy world we are livng in.

[@Michelle-by9vl]

Loved your reaction to Ren ❤ I subscribed

[@TheAtmaMD]

@@Michelle-by9vl Thanks for being here!

[@TheAtmaMD]

@@Michelle-by9vl thank you for being here!

[@Turntablist_Mk2]

Welcome to "After Ren", the cat doesn't go back in the bag now lol.

[@brendabromley5528]

Great reaction! Be ready for all us Renegades to descend upon your journey! There is no better community than the Renegades. We jokingly say we are NOT a cult and Ren is not our Cult leader but...?! lol Ren is an incredible man and genius. Welcome & Enjoy the Rabbit Hole!!!🐰🕳❤

[@TheAtmaMD]

@@brendabromley5528 You all really show up! We appreciate you!

[@markryder8488]

oh just a couple of Ren songs lol. We will see you here for the next year doing his videos and reactions. Fred Again mash up is great. His colabs with Chincilla are also brilliant

[@asabovesobelow-369-8]

Great reaction. I think you'd like a lot of his songs...genesis, heretic, do you believe...to name a few 🎉

[@Tricknologyinc]

Thanks! I always enjoy people sharing healing art and this one in particular. If you're going to do reaction videos, most of us reaction fans can attest that pauses can really break important parts. The reactors that minimize the number of pauses & back up a bit to splice back the continuity, of really key phrases and ideas, enjoy the video more and give us a better sense that you're really listening, and not just looking for opportunities to say something. We're all interested in your thoughts, but we're also interested in seeing your reaction. That is why they're called reaction videos. Thanks again!