''This Is Eternity. And All I promised you.''

19 October 2017. The day I had to let my best friend go. She saved me in so many ways I can’t even explain. I couldn't imagine my life without her. Even though I knew that this day would come I was never prepared for what this felt like. It was the worst thing I’ve ever experienced in my life. But the beautiful memories I shared with her. I could never have missed this. It has made me the person I am today. I am infinitely grateful, for all these irreplaceable, beautiful and unforgettable years with Felicia.
I know she is always with me in my heart.
It has also been 1 year ago that I uploaded my last video on KZbin. Even though times have changed. I still get a lot of support from my videos and your beautiful words. I am so grateful for that. I heard this audio and thought I should make a video on this. So meaningful. Oh and if you are curious how me and the horses are doing. I am active on my instagram Deeem100.

[@theshowjumpers2120]

I love this it has been over 3 years do worry he will always be missed I am crying stay strong😢😢😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭🥺🥺

[@theshowjumpers2120]

*she*😭😭

[@abbymc9]

This is so amazing, I am so sorry. She is always with you in your heart

[@piaroth7964]

So beautiful ❤🌠😭

[@emotionalequestrian23]

This brought tears to my eyes!

[@FatBlackHorse]

Forever and always one of my favorite pairs. I will never get tired of watching videos of the two of you

[@naequestrian33]

This is so beautiful and perfect, I can't believe it's been over 3 years

[@annelie3786]

This video is so emotional. I can imagine how hard it is for you. Stay strong! She will be always by your side. 🤍

[@amaliectvrteckova2063]

This is so beautiful

[@GreyWonderx]

these videos about felicia are the most beautiful things ive ever seen. hands down. ❤️

[@hkm5790]

Wow I love this edit so much

[@FancyBug123]

I've missed seeing your videos, but most of all I miss seeing you two together ❤ This is beautiful ❤

[@naomik01]

3 jaar...wat gaat de tijd snel. En de video, zo verdrietig, maar ook zo mooi!❤

[@Funkelchen97]

This video made me cry so hard.. You just got me right away.. It's simply amazing! I wish you all the best and much energy and hope that the pain is going to be less soon.

[@marinafernandes985]

I'm crying so hard right now. I can't imagine how much you miss her, but I'm sure she's in the most perfect place, looking down on you

[@kitixxedit7398]

i love this...this is so i cant even tell how beautiful and amazing this is 😭❤️❤️

[@smaria3365]

Ich verstehe Dich so gut. Bewundere Dich und Felicia. Mein Seelenpferd wurde mir genommen und Anouk fehlt mir jede Sekunde für den Rest meines Lebens. Nichts ist wie es vorher war, denn ein Teil von mir, ist mit Anouk gegangen. Für immer... Bleib stark und gesund.

[@MignonvanHeemst]

Mooi😍

[@Lewitzerphoenix]

Love this

[@XeemxLou]

Pfff wauw, wauw, wauw.. Begrijp zo erg hoe je je voelt, wat een leegte. Het zal nooit meer hetzelfde zijn. Gelukkig heb je al deze mooie herinneringen met haar. Deze quote ook, zo toepasselijk en mooi. Sterkte meis ♥

[@LeaH-wm5pc]

So ein emotionales Video. Woher hast du die Audio die ist wunderschön

[@Gebakjekoek]

Kippenvel Demi ! ❤️

[@majakolenc1087]

words fail me, so: ❤❤❤

[@KAbarrelracer17]

How did she pass