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19.10.2017. Even if you know you had to let her go one day, you can never prepare yourself for how it feels. My worst nightmare had to become reality. After I uploaded my last video, felicia had a colic attack again.The vet returned, given painkillers again, wondering how she would come through the night. This time I had faith in it, this time i thought stay positive, for her. But this time just this time everything i was always afraid of, has happened. Everything was wrong, she did not want to drink or eat anymore. She had so much pain. The vet said the only thing we could do for her is to release her from this pain. My heart broke into pieces, I saw it happening but I did not want to believe it. I was still hoping for the best, but the best thing in this situation was to let her go. She sleeped away so peacefull free from pain, in my arms. It was heartbreaking and i still cant explain what i had to go through but somehow, I knew it had to happen. Regardless of how much pain it does to me and how much I love her. I would rather enure this endless pain than to never have seen or never have known her. Because she gave me so much. The fact that she is no longer here will always cause me pain, but I never would have missed it, I never would have erased what we had together. because she made me to the person I am today. I'll forever be grateful for that. It does change my life forever and its not something I can 'get over'. The loss will become part of who I am but so will she. She will always stay with me in my heart. My miracle, given everything, you will always stay with me wherever you are.
I want to thankyou all for the endless support we have had, when she had to be operated, the recovery, when she had once again colic attacks, but also the beautiful times, you have believed in us till the last day. Thanks for everything