this is what self destruction feels like (Official Lyric Video) - Marina Lin

[@MarinaLinMusic]

Thank you for all your wonderful comments! watch the official MV here 🎥: kzbin.info/www/bejne/hZOToamDm9CGbZY

[@melanieflannery5418]

Marina Lin I love you so much 🥺🥺🥺💕💕

[@lucydebruin1099]

Are you okay?

[@pezzle542]

Second of all are you okay?!

[@alizabishaq695]

Marina Lin hey I was thinking of covering this song and I wanna obviously give credits. Do u have maybe an insta acc which I can tag on my post. For credits :)

[@lingai7743]

Very beautiful 🥺

[@cooldawg273]

"Depression is like living in a body that tries to survive with a mind that tries to die"

[@elianna_ecc]

Hi, So Having a depressive disorder makes it harder than ever to see tthat you're a wonderful person So I won't push that on you But the fact that you're still alive, and fighting, makes you Resilient, Strong, Tough, Brave, and Gritty So let that be enough Until the darkest time passes. Hotlines for: An eating disorder: [phone] (NEDA) Depression: 877-870-4673 (Samaritans) Suicidal Thoughts: 1-800-273-8255 (National Suicide Prevention Lifeline) Anxiety Disorders: 1-800-950-6264 (NAMI ) LGBT+ Issues: 1-866-488-7386 (The Trevor Project)

[@elianna_ecc]

@Kayla Davis There might be a text online option on some websites. I'm not sure but if you scope them out you'd probably be able to find them.

[@welovememate9377]

I think soon my body Will agree with my mind

[@ameliebeute6345]

facts...😔

[@Winnethepoohe]

@@welovememate9377 hey if you need to talk, im here. ik its hard but please dont go...even though i dont know you, i would miss you...

[@shinkko8106]

The worst feeling is *forcing yourself to smile and think that your alright when your not*

[@ShakirahPlayz]

Soo relatable 😔✊

[@jas3839]

😭

[@slaaltparmak3318]

Oh...... that explains why I'm sad when I'm smiling ha! Fake a Smile until you make it don't worry it's just some depression it will go away like your feelings did

[@bigz3780]

Cherry_X3 Merryln you speak the truth my friend

[@ieatpancreas2005]

@@slaaltparmak3318 it's probably smiling depression?

[@gracejames5774]

I feel like a happy person, but only around my friends. When I get home, I just feel like numb to anything..

[@sujiestic]

Don't worry I understand how you feel..

[@ShofiUrbach99]

Can we be friend? I thought it's just me

[@derpydummy2430]

Same...

[@derpydummy2430]

Because *I've got secrets I cant confess..*

[@Walker-le5go]

Me too... but I’m to antisocial and scared to ask to hang out after school anymore.

[@crimsynheartticker3732]

Being self-aware and mentally ill is so exhausting cause not only do you know when you're being self-destructive, you watch yourself do it anyway

[@amandanedler8134]

This is me. Its seems almost worse. And makes me feel angry for not being brave enough to make the changes necessary to find peace.

[@lybula]

Yeah… it is. And I can’t tell you anything you don’t know, so I won’t but… well, you know… I’ll just silently share this feeling…

[@charel9399]

@@amandanedler8134 Is it that you really aren't brave enough, or is that your logic trying its best to work with your sense of accountability? Could it be that you're putting a hollow lie to yourself out there, partly because if it were true, then you would at least understand why you can't seem to actually provide the solution to the problems that you already had solved as they were happening, and part of you is starting to give in to the belief that it could be true, and you just don't know anymore? Could the other part of that be an attempt to stave off a little bit of the guilt that others, who have no idea what you're going through, would push you further down with (while genuinely thinking they were helping) for not "just getting over it" since "you don't have control over a situation, but you have control over how it affects you", and you let go of another little piece of yourself (What's one more at this point, right? At least this time it was given, instead of taken. *but you know that's wrong, and every scrap means more than any words could illustrate) I wish I could fix the things in your mind that are broken, but mine are broken, too. If what I said here rings true with you, then just know that you aren't the only one trying to figure out why keying in the right answers always gives back an error If this doesn't ring true with you, then please disregard it, and keep working on developing that anger. It's the most effective way to circumvent fear (that I am aware of), if all you'll need is to break out of it to get over it. Either way, if you're not an evil person, I genuinely hope you achieve an outcome that allows for you to be okay by your own standard, as soon as possible

[@Quiznackle]

Damn... someone finally gets it

[@chitrachaturvedi4144]

This is soo true and soo me. It feels frustrating and irritating and even if I want to I just can't........I just don't know how to explain but I have gotten so used to it that I want and not want this pain at the same time. I have got so used to it I feel numb and purposeless.

[@gwenmarie6983]

“But I’ve got secrets I can’t confess.” I got things to say, but hell, it hurts.

[@gwenmarie6983]

Purple Gravity thank you so much. You made my heart weigh less. Your simple message gave me hope. My friends knows that I am not okay and they’re doing their very best to cheer me up. It’s just that, there are empty spaces in me, that is waiting to be filled. Again, thank you so much! I am very grateful that you saw my comment and gave me hope. Iloveyou. 🥺❤️

[@andreaedwards7279]

Amen

[@Reenerdog5938]

I have so much to say, but no one to hear it.

[@TheCrownedPotterhead]

@@Reenerdog5938that’s kinda how I feel

[@Upa_29]

​@@Reenerdog5938and no one will even when i tell them they will just say get over it or smile and say it gonna be fine just focus on studies like if you don't care don't ask

[@Nicholas339]

So. This dropped during my gym hour. Now my eyes are sweating too.

[@MarinaLinMusic]

Nicholas, I know you always watch my videos during your workout and just wanted to say ur freaking awesome for that

[@Nicholas339]

@@MarinaLinMusic you're the awesome one!!

[@tamara-bo5jg]

Aww

[@asciana6925]

🥺🥺

[@buster_attack2520]

@@MarinaLinMusic ok but this song is me rn

[@MarinaLinMusic]

Please do me a favour and give someone a hug today 💛 I'm extremely nervous and excited to release this song, It's extremely personal and means so much to me. I wouldn't have been able to do it without YOU! What was your favourite line from the song? 🌹

[@domilyrics2218]

All the lines in the song is my favorite

[@katiethefatone3470]

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️, your so good

[@katiethefatone3470]

I'm crying❤️❤️❤️💙💙💙

[@bearrraesthetic]

Marina Lin im getting tired im not a liar

[@lilly-lf9se]

- I can't help it I feel numb- I just can relate to this so much. But I love the whole song. You did great

[@howltae]

I don't believe in "believe" anymore I don't love "love" anymore.

[@dyanedj1144]

One of the saddest quotes 😢😢

[@dyanedj1144]

@@liloxo8689 who are you asking? XD

[@R.eVnoire]

There is a "lie" in believe dear. I also don't

[@R.eVnoire]

@@liloxo8689 Aaizjsmxjnsis8zmsksisms A ARMY?! I LOVE YOU💜 I Purple You💜

[@pezzle542]

v a ñ t a é b ö ó same!

[@yshannng]

Hugs to all those who are silently fighting their battles alone♡

[@alwaysbeayourself]

Thank you so much 💓

[@mathewwullems3528]

Thank you my friend

[@Percabeth12368]

Thx I needed that today I am so glad I came across this comment

[@Cbell801]

Thanks

[@Percabeth12368]

@@Cbell801 remember you are never alone

[@Megan-gn9sn]

When im at school, everyone tell me im so positive everytime they see me.. Little do they know I litterly cry myself to sleep every night.. This is my new favorite song..

[@blinkeutwinkeu4462]

Same situation here

[@-xnyctophilia27x-]

Same here

[@konikiispoka800]

Same😞

[@sharlenekhor2422]

Me too Megan :'( I completely know how you feel. I hope you are feeling better now. I am here for you!

[@polidon1577]

I show kindness and patience to thosr around me hoping I can one day show those to myself, so I know the feeling. Hang in there, I hope your situation has improved

[@Qunyx.]

"don't say you love me, cause I don't understand those words" - it‘s not like i don‘t understand, but my mind is telling me that the person is lying. which then makes me feel bad for feeling that they are lying.. Amazing piece of art once again Marina! Thank you for your all the relatable lyrics, the words that i can‘t word on my own 💝

[@Qunyx.]

Thank you for the like Marina! :)

[@ayisasirek7790]

Yes

[@gingerblue7774]

Well.yeah..for me he is lying...i said those word many times but he nvr once replied i love you too...its so hurt and so painful....i just love him and its one side love hurmmmmmmmm 💔😔

[@jenna5931]

I’m crying

[@biancas.5019]

@@id6224 same tho... 💔

[@pantreshaloon]

“It does the job but it doesn’t heal.” That hits me real time because I’ve just been trying to get myself busy and distracted.

[@keith2821]

yeah it doesn't heal at all

[@gaming_cookie_fox_6390]

Yep... And when it gets so bad so U can't even do Ur homeworks and needs to watch 24/24 so could run away from the reality... Then everything goes just great- 🤚😃

[@pantreshaloon]

@@gaming_cookie_fox_6390 man, I hope it gets better for you. Please, take care, hun!

[@pantreshaloon]

@@keith2821 I hope you heal too, from things you have never told anyone. I am still working on myself, but I am in a better place than the last two years. Please, take care.

[@Midnight-xk6hm]

“I’m not a liar, but I’ve got secrets I can’t confess” I feel this personally because I have secrets I can’t confess because I am afraid he will use it against me. It takes lot of time and courage to trust someone and trust them with your secrets. 🌸 Edits: Don’t wanna sound like a freak but thank you all who could relate to this and for the likes. I’ve never gotten this many in my YT life so I appreciate. I hope y’all stay strong in your emotional days. it will be over soon. Can’t guarantee when but soon. ❤️

[@anjanagupta1667]

I can relate with you too dear ! But you know what! You I and even everyone should expel our feelings out by gathering little bit of courage and guts

[@alainettt]

yeah for real i've had a best friend since 2nd grade and i still dont trust her :/

[@pezzle542]

I don’t have courage anymore

[@heleneschoning4635]

If you feel like someone is going to use something against you then maybe it is just that they are not the right person for you…

[@anjanagupta1667]

@@heleneschoning4635 but you know what ! the thing is even after realizing that a particular guy whom we love is not right for us .. we still cant get over him Like in my case .. I always use to make a perfect image of the man I love, like he is the best and concerned with me no matter how much he hurts me .. that is the problem 😓

[@selectivelysocial6448]

*" I'm getting tired of the same old feeling in my chest "*

[@selectivelysocial6448]

💗💗

[@selectivelysocial6448]

@@purplegravity4792 Awww you did make me smile today🤗, thank you ! I wish the best to you too. -xoxo💞

[@asadturtle05]

So I came back after 4 years and i was here and now I'm healed I just wanna let everyone know that you'll be fine ❤❤ be strong 🎉bless u all ❤

[@_Danry18_]

How you do it??

[@asadturtle05]

​@@_Danry18_ 4 years it's so long idk where to begin it was so hard , it just one day I felt I was okay I was no longer sad I wasn't depressed anymore I was okay 😢 maybe I stepped out of my comfort zone I tried to be open it's worth it also I found people that loves me for me ❤❤ it healed me so much and I started loving my self ig that sums it up tc!

[@y-thienlam6032]

I didn't realize that a song can bring back such painful memories until I listened to this. I'm sure many people have/ are going through this. I know it's easier said than done, but I really do hope that there will be some point in the future where we are all better. This song is incredibly powerful. Thank you for sharing.

[@alexandraduquette3928]

Im so Proud of you ❤️

[@MarinaLinMusic]

ME LOVE YOU

[@melissalivingston6619]

@@MarinaLinMusic WE LOVE YOU!!

[@kaavyaradhakrishnan3429]

hi marina! thanks for being someone i can relate to, both as a person with mental health issues and a member of the lgbt community. i look up to u and wish to be in a happy relationship like urs one day :)

[@blnkdguccifce9450]

That moment when a song literally speaks for you-.. can’t even count the times I cried while listening to it-..

[@Moochi4]

I can't even cry anymore

[@stephanieunurieh2650]

"I'm not a liar but I've got secrets I can't confess", this hit me so hard. The lyrics of this song is extremely relatable. "Keeping busy, does the job but it doesn't heal", me all the damn time.

[@bobo_nim]

I cried, I get tears in my eyes and I relate to the song. I just want to say, you say all the words I want to tell my friends and families, but never find the right word or have the courage to tell them. Thank you for this beautiful song.❤ You are awesome and keep doing what you are doing, cause you help and inspire people everyday.❤

[@Sofia-qh7ik]

“But they don’t know how it feels to be broken” Truest thing ever

[@tera9959]

I hate it when people say "well your still alive so your doing good" because I'm not doing good and if this counts as being alive, then I don't want to

[@imagineyourlifeinsadness8825]

LISTEN HERE U BEAUTIFUL ANGEL YES YOU. THE ONE READING THIS. LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING! YOU’RE FU*KING BEAUTIFUL AND AWESOME please don’t give up I love you and others do to. I know how you feel because I’m also that sad seeing u heart broken. But hey let’s stick together and get through this. Once god takes our soul we will both fly high back home to where we truly feel at peace. I love you more than anything. Don’t give up you beautiful angel! ❤️

[@imagineyourlifeinsadness8825]

Ace James no worries. I feel like u needs to hear something beautiful

[@melissalivingston6619]

omg I started crying when I read this!!! It feels wonderful to know someone loves and cares about me!! Thank You!!

[@imagineyourlifeinsadness8825]

Melissa Livingston no worries! Anytime! ❤️❤️❤️

[@imagineyourlifeinsadness8825]

pink coconut nah no worries.

[@m0na58]

Thank you for this :)

[@lilziess]

i immideitly starting crying cause it’s so hard to describe how i feel..and this song touched my heart instantly

[@katieslife1958]

I want this song at my funeral saying it’s how my life was and nobody relized

[@YTdude562]

kzbin.info/www/bejne/eHeQn42wnrp2ebs

[@nutri-fixwithmillie]

I relate 💯 .. Nobody even notices these things it's like you're breaking on your own .. asking to be helped by someone without actually asking ...feels like your heart is being broken into Peaces very slowly but painfully "I am honest but there are secrets I can't confess " you just have to deal with it and just keep trying hard to forget but everytime you rem it ...it hurts like it's the first damn time ..the vulnerability of opening up to someone and just thinking that they'll one day use it against you and damage you more than you already are makes bearing it the best option ..and bearing it means it'll get tiring someday and you're gonn' give up, once you do it's gonn' be ugly ..and honey it's not okay I got no words to make you feel better 'cause I'm in that same position rn but I tell myself every single day that you know ... I'll get through it ..I don't know how but hopefully it's before I get tired 😥😓

[@Jadencfilms]

Anyone who is going through depression or anxiety or anything like that, just know that it gets better. It doesn’t have to stay like that forever. I say that from experience. But you can’t just keep doing the same things and hope for better results. Something has to change. I know it’s VERY hard but you have to try. The thing that helped the most for me was telling someone how I felt. Every single little detail I told. And even though they didn’t quite understand how it felt or know why I felt it, when I told them all I wanted was to stop having to cry alone, they were willing to try. Another thing that helped was to stop listening to things like this video. I stopped listening to sad songs and stopped reading quotes related to how I felt and all that sad stuff. It was hard at first because those types of things helped be relate and not feel as alone. But trust me they make things WORSE. It may give you a little satisfaction but in the end it would just deepen the wound. I forced myself to ignore those things and instead listen to happy songs or motivation videos and started ignoring the things that made me feel pain and started paying attention to the simple things that used to bring me joy. Remember that just the fact that you exist makes you amazing! Like what are the chances you exist?!? It’s truly remarkable once you think about it. The world and life is yours to explore. Every tear, smile, and breath. Enjoy it all. “Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it.” Confucius

[@rigzinbhutia7467]

Yup I also stopped hearing songs that would make me self destructive after healing I can hear songs like these again without a negatuve self destructuve mind.

[@Sao_rotoni_n]

Thank you so much for your comments. YOU ARE SO STRONG. LOVE YOU TOO ❤️

[@Jadencfilms]

@@Sao_rotoni_n Aww, ur so sweet, thx

[@전아미-h6g]

fr. songs can have a great impact on us without us even noticing it. if you listen to sad songs, you tend to get more sad and depressed than you already are, but if you listen to happy and motivational songs, you'll eventually get better and will be more happy and contented. or atleast, thats what ive noticed with myself.

[@Jadencfilms]

@@전아미-h6g it’s been a year and I still agree. Sometimes my entire mood could feel off with just one sad edit or song. Ofcourse, that doesn’t mean you can’t listen to emotional songs at all. Every once in a while when you want is fine, just gotta learn to know when it’s ok for yourself to watch them, when you know it won’t effect u much.

[@demertiawayne]

When I'm at school, everyone tell me I'm so positive and bright, always laughing every time they see me.. Little do they know I literally cry myself to sleep somedays. I know they care and want to help but dont know what to do... and the line “But I’ve got secrets I can’t confess.” hits hard. and forcing myself to smile and think that I'm alright even when I'm not

[@christianpatriot75]

I'm the same way. People always say, you can talk to me about how you're feelings, but what they don't understand is that I can't. I get more alone and more broken by the day.

[@demertiawayne]

@@christianpatriot75 😔

[@bangtan_angel05]

"this isn't easy" "I don't know how and what to feel" this line hits harder ..

[@NachoAvarageCat]

" but they dont know how feels to be broken " hits hard because my parent's dont know how it feels to be depressed and they always blamed the phone or they say that im depressed because i like to sit in my room all day i sit in my room because i dont have any friends where i live i also stay inside because im scared of people im more afraid of men than women because i was sexualy touched by a man that was 5 or 6 times my age ever since then i stopped trusting men because im afraid that they might try to touch me like that guy did im tired of feeling the way that i do i learned the hard way that not everyone is trustworthy not even your family which is why i dont trust easily cause the times that i did i was hurt my heart was broken to the point of no return theres a lot of things that i have to deal with: 1. Im extremely sensitive to criticism 2. I dont trust anyone because im afraid of being hurt 3. I get emotionally attached to stuffed animals cause they wont criticize me or hurt me like people do 4. I have anxiety 5. I have insomnia i struggle to sleep 6. I cant handle loud music or else i get over stimulated 7. I cry when im alone cause i dont want anyone to see me 8. The house where i used to live didn't feel like home it felt like a prison where i was forced to deal with mental abuse and kept locked up ( when i lived with my grandma) 9. I never felt happy i always felt like a faliure and like no one was ever going to love me 10. The one thing that made me happy was taken away from me ( my cat pearl was taken from me and left at a ranch because she was pregnant) 11. I put one a fake smile every day everyone thinks im happy but in the inside I'm secretly hurting 12. Thought about going to therapy but its too expensive 13. I was made to feel like my depression didn't matter since when i brought it up and told my mom that why i didn't eat she got mad and said " FUCK YOUR DEPRESSION " it hurt so bad to hear those words so i never brought it and i kept it a secret

[@johnralphantonio5628]

"You need to take of yourself". Sometimes we struggle in life. Just been through this feeling. And if you are struggling too, Please smile and take care of yourself too.

[@alysasummer7873]

Tired of not being good enough. Overwhelming Thoughts. To Scared to sleep. Holding in tears the whole day. Every detail about you being picked apart. Lack of motivation. Changing everything about you just so you can fit in. Tired of faking a smile. Done with trying. Emotions flow out all at once. Hoping all the pain goes away.

[@sashamarie4783]

Depression + grieving the de@th of your favorite person is a hell I would only wish on my worst enemy. Having both makes it so so hard to do the things I need to do, even the simple act of getting out of bed. And the one person I'd talk freely about it is the one I'm grieving.

[@xarisgeorgopoulos9175]

I hope you feel better now 😢

[@j.cgohan4823]

this video brought me to tears..I usually drink my pain away, and while i was drinking i was on the phone with my mom and told her how much he(my toxic ex) ruined my life, ruined me and how it was all his fault..and minutes later i had a whole panick attack, barley breathing i told my mom i couldn't breathe..i was over at a friends house at that moment, outside their house..and all i can hear is my mom say someone call the ambulance..I ended up in the hospital, the way to the hospital was the worst i couldn't breathe so my body started cramping, and all i said was "ahh ouch" the lady stopped the ambulance to help me calm down a lil so i could breathe better..the next thing i know is my mom and sister walked into the room i was in and my sister started crying..i was fine after and went home with my mom..my friends later told me i was saying something about my ex..but i couldn't remember so my mom then told me that i repeatedly told her that my ex is hurting me, that he's abusive and that i can't let go of my past....to this day i call the people that picked me up in that ambulance my heroes!! I'm thankful for them!!

[@Mystic0w0The23rd]

Outside: “I’m fine” “It’s just the cat” “Get out of my room” “Can I take a walk... alone” “I’m fine” Inside: “why can’t I feel this” “Why won’t this leave me” “What if I stop it-“ U know what I mean ;0; Edit: dude I totally forgot abt this- (It’s 1AM so the spelling is gonna be shit but yeah

[@autumnbigham2039]

Hey guys, i know how yall are feeling but just try to hang in there. I know its hard and people say that all the time, but dont give up. It may not seem like it right now, but life is worth living. Giving in wont help anything, it'll only pass your pain on the the people who love and care about you. Dont give up, keep fighting. There is help, you just have to want it♡

[@lym7138]

Mystic Makes i know what you mean . I have those in my hand. Many of them.

[@janedoedodo]

pretty accurate

[@gracie5563]

“It’s just the cat” 😭😭😭

[@nissy92913]

It's just the cat. Definitely.

[@nyra300]

This song captures all those intricate feelings that are hard to explain- That healing isn't always easy and that loving yourself is anything but easy. I think sometimes people forget this, and it's honestly so sad.

[@KMH10120603]

This song helped me get through a divorce and a complicated mess that lead me to depression and now I’ve overcome and I’m the happiest I’ve ever been. Thank you for this song!

[@xarisgeorgopoulos9175]

So nice! Ι wish i could too 😢😢

[@tenshi_senpai9854]

Comforting people because I dont want them to feel the pain I've been feeling. But afterwards they would just say to me "you don't understand cause you dont have a problem, youre so lucky" I always just smile at them when they say that☺️

[@yoongiboongicatman2893]

Self destruction is like a bomb that goes off by itself, anytime, anywhere destroying anyone.

[@nyx9168]

Exactly 😭

[@millenah2598]

[ Verse 1 ] This isn’t easy I don’t know how and what to feel Keeping busy It does the job but it doesn’t heal My mind is a fire And I’m burning love away It’s getting harder to feel And they all say [ Chorus ] You need to take care of yourself my darling But they don’t know how it feels to be broken I can’t help it I feel numb I’ll wait for the waves to leave and come I think I’m breaking I’m a mess in the making Mmm mmm A mess in the making Mmm mmm [ Verse 2 ] I’m getting tired Of the same old feeling in my chest I’m not a liar But I got secrets I can’t confess Don’t say you love me Cause I don’t understand those words It’s getting harder to feel And they all say [ Chorus ] You need to take care of your health my darling But they don’t know how it feels to be broken I can’t help it I feel numb I’ll wait for the waves to leave and come I think I’m breaking I’m a mess in the making Mmm mmm A mess in the making Mmm mmm [ Bridge ] I’m holding on a tightrope And know I’m not coming home Hurting, searching Your now I’m not coming home [ Final Verse ] This isn’t easy I don’t know how and what to feel Keeping busy It does the job but it doesn’t heal

[@ihaveneverbeenanaturalalli6565]

Thanks

[@victoriarosanes6066]

I knew id find lyrics here!

[@daisydsmr5748]

Thank you 🌸

[@samsketchezzz]

lol, but this is a lyric video

[@hibbananana5433]

@Sam Sketches it’s for people who like to read it beforehand.

[@edlynblanco2962]

“.... keeping busy, it does the job but it doesnt heal” 💔 wow😭 so relatable

[@the-gm7wn]

the siren sound at the beginning brought back millions of memory...

[@andreakent960]

My life is so hard right now. Going through depression so much. Anxiety high. Scare. Family issues

[@gilinego1790]

that first line hits so hard that my tear suddenly dropped. this song really hits different when you’re going through something. but we still believe that everything is going to be okay.

[@somalight8981]

This hits home so hard. "im not a liar but i got secrets I can't confess". I was told that I should not let my bipolar define me. I tried staying steady and going out and being exactly happy and normal. But i always slip to sadness. And every time i did, it felt harder and painful than it did before. Up until now i havent open it up in my workplace, but its really getting harder.

[@OMGItsDezy]

For anyone that sees this, please know for a split second you are loved, it sucks rn, and he'll it probably won't get better anytime soon, but you matter. You might not see it now, or within the next couple of months, but you'll see it soon enough. It hurts to love yourself. It hurts much more than it should. But you are perfect just the way you are. Don't you ever think any different.

[@lingai7743]

When people say your hurting them cause your always sad but your done pretending to be okay for someone else happiness

[@blurryfacedraws1149]

I like this song mainly because it somehow brings comfort to me. Feels like I’m understood in a way. I’ve started becoming super numb especially at work were I have to be happy and bubbly. Heck I’m numb and letting the thoughts do their thing right now. It’s like I’m trapped in my own mind

[@neoscencez]

Been there, so very much. How're you doing now?

[@hibbananana5433]

*Mess in the making*- most of us think we are but there isn’t any mistake in art. One mistake just shows how pure it is and it just makes it better bc there is something called abstract art too and it also makes the the art yours and you. We are all together, each an individual piece of art. Some seeming meaningless until you know the real meaning by the one who made it or the painting itself if it can😅

[@jessica1042]

This is actually the most amazing thing and you just made me feel so much better I cant even explain...

[@hibbananana5433]

@Ok Boomer that painting is unique in its own way. Plain, simple yet beautiful. Just as I said, we are all a different type of painting but no matter what, we are still beautiful. If I would see someone selling that canvas, I would surely take it bc it sounds beautiful to me. You are unique, aesthetic, beautiful, amazing, and a gift for all of us and if someone doesn’t think of you as a gift, that’s their loss.

[@hibbananana5433]

@bvbblytae and maybe you made me feel even better by knowing that my random words made someone better. (And also, hello fellow army.)

[@raiivenwastaken]

WeIRdO PoTAtO That’s such a beautiful thing.

[@hibbananana5433]

@Ravenwing happy it hear it😊

[@Марги́Кои]

For everyone who's here and feels empty and numb.. Start with feeling the pain. I'm not saying go search for it. If something hurts don't numb it. Let it hurt.. spend the hours you need to spend on that bathroom floor, I did. If you are exhausted collapse on that floor n fall asleep. If you wake up feeling good feel good for however long it lasts. Repeat. Feel your feelings. It's it's ok to feel them. N if you are feeling numb feel it. For even that is a way if loving yourself. I hope this helps someone who is where I was some time back.

[@pennywiseloggingbusiness5663]

Thank you, I allowed my self to just cry while rreading this

[@Mike55690]

Depression is so subjective from person to person.. Going through a miserable time in life. You'd think Depression of 13 years is enough and couple this with loneliness, it's been absolutely volatile. My happiness always comes with a compromise, it's never "true" happiness, rather something always ends up bad. Having a compassionate heart only goes so far when the toxins and poison of Depression has been in my veins and mind at such a young age. I want to feel okay, but i know i'll never be. I want to heal but the mental scars open on their own. I want to feel some semblance of worth but to no avail. Whether it's not mattering to feeling so empty.. I just wish things were different, for many of us in the comments. It just hurts.. When is enough, enough? Been a fan for a long while Marina, thank you for sharing your music, your own personal experiences and being transparent about it all, it does help, despite the nature of this being something sad..

[@e.n.6079]

Hope you will feel better one day. God bless you.

[@haley210]

I'm already a mess and the sad part is everyone expects me to just sweep the pieces out and move on like nothing went wrong when everything did in fact go horribly wrong so wrong that I didn't want to be here anymore, I tried not to be here. "Everyone say take care of yourself darling"

[@raesacure8541]

I can relate to this Haley, people keep telling me these same things. I would tell them you need help doing these things. To live. To survive. We humans weren't meant to thrive alone. If you are having it rough right now. Tell someone. Call 911. Ask them for help. It doesnt hurt to do this. Im actually in a medical house as i write this. Cause i couldn't handle what was on my shoulders. And being away from the world is helping. For now. Prayers. I know how its like to be broken. Once youre broken. Youll always be broken. But you will have all the pieces. One baby step at a time. 💖

[@sannysunshine5182]

i feel your songs with every cell of my body, i have borderline and sometimes it feels like nobody understands me, then i hear your songs and feel understood. i am so proud of you that you have the courage to put all your pain in these lines, i sing and write songs but never had the courage to publish them. don't stop! keep going, you give so many people strength and one voice!

[@jennifernorton6000]

This song is a vocal manifestation of my most deepest, inner most feelings.....

[@ariv1813]

This is my new favorite song right when i needed it. Im getting a diagnosis tomorrow and im so scared. But the end of the video where she gets help, accepts it and smiles a little- it made me feel a bit better. So thank you Marina. You saved me yet again 😊

[@srushtikotangale2064]

What a soulful voice. You are the specially blessed one.

[@briellee1127]

"keeping busy, it does the job but it doesn't heal."

[@Squirrel_666]

I haven’t felt truly happy in over a decade. The last time I was truly happy in life and with myself was in 2nd grade. I’ve had moments of happiness but then the post happiness depression hits and I can enjoy what I just enjoyed. It’s the worst. Depression is a constant on going battle. Everyday you wake up and stay alive is another day you beat.

[@xarisgeorgopoulos9175]

I hope you feel better now 😢😢

[@andrhea2937]

The song and the animation combined together brought tears into my eyes😢

[@junexxmoon1985]

These lyrics and this video gave me both, tears and gosebumps. I could relate to every little word and scene. 😣😥

[@junexxmoon1985]

@Marie Cat That's so sweet. Thank you so much😭💖

[@kaza52492]

This hits harder then I realized. Lived with anxiety for a very long time. I manage, but everyone else can't manage to be around it. Depression came, realizing no one else really cared. Most everyone ran cuz of something I can't erase. I cope well, but it still seeps through sometimes. And that's supposed to be ok... but in reality, it's not. No one else can handle being around my anxiety. Around me.

[@xarisgeorgopoulos9175]

I hope you feel better now 😢

[@zairacresp01902]

😭😭😭it hurts but its comforting...

[@myaafterhourss]

You just smile to please the people around you, while you’re dying inside and like you’re a ghost. Nobody cares about your feelings but you can’t stop caring about others feelings.

[@MNV825]

Can you make a song about feeling empty, not being able to tell anyone how you feel bc that will have consequences and no one will understand ? ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@xuehuapiaopiaobeifengxiaox5005]

Mood

[@kweechloe7590]

I agree please make one

[@pwttycore1105]

My mood everyday. It’s like you pretend to feel something for everyone around you but deep down you feel nothing at all

[@duncandonuts651]

God I need a song like that - tbh I have a hard time with expressing my emotions and always have and songs are such a great enturpreter for me

[@trishamaeparas4491]

yes.

[@PinkiePie-gh3mq]

This song hits me right in the feels because sometimes..it's just so hard to breathe and everyone always tells me I'm in control, and I can just make it go away..but that's not how this works..I can be fine for a moment then the next a wave hits me like an ocean and I break right there, shaking..hyperventilating..crying, wanting to scream..and there's no one but myself that can help pull myself up..but how can I help myself when my own family rather watch me drown then give me some light, give me a hand..ANYTHING to show they care so how can I care about myself when no one else will?.. How can I love myself when all I ever get from the ones I love is hate and shame..over the years I learned how to hide these feelings so they'll accept me, I created voices that I call my friends to help comfort me when no one else will..I never had many friends growing up and so the only friend I had was myself and all I ever did..was hate. Thank you for this..it just is so beautiful in every way and helps someone like me feel like maybe I'm not so alone and things will be okay ❤ Thank you..

[@patty3769]

As I was listening to the song I remember someone I used to care about. I hope she’s okay right now. Marina your music touches our hearts. You were like the other side of our souls. Thank you for being you ☺️💕

[@xll3adl3unnylx74]

What gets to me mostly is when I always seem to over think things I can only think the worst of every situation as if my mind plays tricks on me telling me lies until I start to believe them worst part is I dont have someone to talk to it about so they get their way

[@kashaecampbell7610]

I literally can’t remember the last time I was truly happy. 😔

[@Crystal-cg1gp]

This isn't easy I don't know how and what to feel Keeping busy It does the job but it doesn't heal My mind is a fire And I'm burning love away It's getting harder to feel And they all say You need to take care of yourself, my darling But they don't know how it feels to be broken I can't help it, I feel numb I'll wait for the waves to leave and come I think I'm breaking I'm a mess in the making, hmm A mess in the making, hmm I'm getting tired Of the same old feeling in my chest I'm not a liar But I've got secrets I can't confess Don't say you love me 'Cause I don't understand those words It's getting harder to feel And they all say You need to take care of your health, my darling But they don't know how it feels to be broken I can't help it, I feel numb I'll wait for the waves to leave and come I think I'm breaking I'm a mess in the making, hmm A mess in the making, hmm I'm holding on a tightrope And know I'm not coming home Hurting, searching You know I'm not coming home This isn't easy I don't know how and what to feel Keeping busy It does the job but it doesn't heal

[@mariageorgieva5418]

I've been feeling this way for half of my life and I got so good at hiding it. It's getting worse but I don't want help I want to be left alone to do what I want to and take a break from things

[@xarisgeorgopoulos9175]

I hope it makes you feel better. I cant do this. I think i'm breaking

[@mariageorgieva5418]

@@xarisgeorgopoulos9175 everything will be okay keep fighting I believe in you

[@xarisgeorgopoulos9175]

@@mariageorgieva5418 i dont think i can. I feel so broken and empty. My loneliness is killing me 😪

[@wanderer9115]

I come here when I'm sad. This song don't know how and what it is doing, help me feel at e ase after a few listens

[@alishapradhan7975]

Literally I m crying rn ...it expresses my feelings n situation

[@yaguchitk8825]

Dude I'm so numb I can'tt even cry while listening to this.

[@christinemaeagustin6937]

They thought it's easy but they don't know how hard it is to be in this situation where sometimes you think you can't make it. Proud to myself and to all of you because we are still fighting our battles despite of how pain we feel.

[@daphnekallinteri9964]

This is truly beautiful, through your songs you portray the way thousands of people feel You are truly talented Marina

[@mademisee]

“Im getting tired. Of the same old feeling in my chest” Demm, that’s hit me..

[@rayamay9265]

Depression is smiling and pretending to be happy while planning your own demise. Saying "it doesn't matter I won't live that long" when people confront you about the reality of drugs and alcoholism .It isn't just being sad one day it's almost every day its self harming and getting drunk or high just to feel something its being broken with no idea how to fill in your cracks

[@Mimzy_Rose]

"Keeping busy, it does the job but it doesn't heal". I'm sobbing that's so relatable. Keeping busy is what I try to do to keep my mind in the clouds and my heart distracted from all the pain and loneliness I feel. The truth is I'm all alone and I'm tired of the pain that won't go away. This song hits me hard. I don't even take care of myself because I don't care if I die.

[@laurenashill8759]

Wow.. these lyrics. I wish I had this song to help me through my teenage years. Such an incredible song!!

[@edahphiri9742]

The animation made it even cooler😏 Love it❤️

[@andrhea2937]

Can't wait for the album to be released💚 support all the way, through ups and downs

[@konikiispoka800]

"People cry not because they're week, it's because they've been strong for too long" ~ Johny Deep 💔😭

[@anneflibbitgacha9204]

It make me feel the way my sister must feel. I really don't know she is gone.

[@tomav7873]

Will this song be on Spotify? I loved the words: "they don't know what it feel to be broken" And 'I'm a mess in the making" Love the song, it's so close to my heart cause I feel like that sometimes and it's awesome that you can express it in a song and it's just there not going anywhere and will always be there for u, love it💖so beautiful

[@MarinaLinMusic]

Yes! It's going to be on my debut album on Feb 7th!

[@evieuwu5506]

It’s on Spotify now oop

[@justfly22123]

Everything is so relatable except "don’t say you love me I don’t understand these words". It’s not that I don’t believe them. I just don’t understand why they love me. They shouldn’t. I don’t know how they do that. And if they didn’t it would be easier, I wouldn’t feel guilty wanting to leave

[@rubymars7604]

More than anything I actually understand this , I really do

[@ivykong3309]

I can relate to this so hard and even though it might not be the best advice, why don’t you ask them? I know u don’t feel like u deserve the love, I don’t either. But what I do know is despite not understanding, asking people why they love you and not allowing urself to simply refute every word they say really helps. I hope this helps ❤️

[@localcryptid8825]

Thats the point. You're related to that lyrics.

[@rememberme12]

the worst feeling is when you are already broken but you have already learn to smile and make yourself believe you are alright

[@ceciliamoltzer7248]

I've listened to this song everyday for months long and everyday it becomes more relatable

[@guywiththelongcirl]

When people say " try getting some sleep" "find a hobby" or "it's not that bad other people are worse of. Be glad you're breathing".....or worse I had a "friend " tell me " no one wants to constantly hear you complain. People wont want to talk to you if you always act sad".

[@caitrionabrauders22]

This has to go viral! More people need to hear this so they don't feel alone. Thank you so much for writing this! 💕

[@dyanedj1144]

You know it has gone bad when we can't feel anything. It comes and goes like waves. "Broken parts that leaves me harder to feel" My tears may have been draining out my emotions.

[@zionzenell9807]

⁠Stay strong to anyone reading thisI listened to this song a 2 years ago when I was depressed but now I have gotten so much better I did not use the word happy because I still feel like h to things should/will be better and I’m still somewhat healing me self ❤❤❤❤

[@Killingjoke2]

I feel this so much...they don't know how it feels to be broken

[@loafiniec248]

idk why i feel this song so much everytime i hear it

[@mandela-manny5022]

I didn’t realize until this video that I was hurting my own sanity… I looked around at my room and it’s trashed, I’ve been ignoring texts cause it hurts to talk to people even over phone. I haven’t been outside for days… I’ve been staring and my phone for so long, it feels like I haven’t blinked for days, I’m realizing how miserable I am…

[@XxGachaPoppetxX]

Sometimes you’re reminded that everyone around you is toxic and just don’t care, I’m tired of trying to explain why I feel the way I feel. But they don’t make it better, they make it so much worse. my parents will never listen to me because I don’t have any “real problems” And I tell myself “yea suicidal thoughts are fine” my friends have ago at me make it about them and call me a bad friend for not explaining how I feel to them they make me feel guilty about feeling self hatred and feeling like I will never be able to do anything right because they make me feel that way they hurt me and they’re making me the bad guy they say to me “you’ll never understand how much this hurts” “This is the worst feeling ever” believe me I know I feel it everyday of my life but they don’t understand me no one does. They just think I’m using my “dark humour” They don’t see underneath the surface. They say “it’s so hard to tell how you feel you can hide it so well” if they cared they’d ask, they’d reassure me everything by will be ok but until they understand I just have to keep on helping them with their issues. (Sorry I needed a rant 😅)

[@spookyel]

ill hope you'll get through it bro, i feel the same way too

[@satan8350]

Thanks for explaining your situation It's actually this is what happens to me almost every day but I can't explained very much but I'm glad that you still alive,still fighting life and I hope you can maintain good life styles

[@winterlipscomb6763]

bro why did every word you say make me think about myself my parents will never understand

[@samridhiarya2124]

Totally agree.. at the end of the day I just have myself and the worst part is it doesn't feels enough

[@vikaskhatri8893]

there's no need to be sorry,you'll be okay, nd no one can help u come out of it,u can only count on yourself!

[@pinkylady]

I'm used to supress my feelings, keep my mouth shut and show the best smile I have to people around me. I'm afraid to reach out as I'm pretty fck up inside. I always wonder that if I'm too messed up to be loved.

[@renenonhlanhla6278]

I can somehow relate

[@aakash8649]

your never too messed up to be loved

[@lazyart4456]

Looking at all these comments, it gives me a greater reason to pick myself up and start to help others than be the one who needs help. Theres already so many suffering, I cant sit and cry now. I dont want others feel the same way that I do.

[@rkive05]

Found this amazing song this morning ..tbh I started my day today with tears again ... It fits so well with my current life rn

[@esmegonz636]

I feel like breaking isn't the worst part... it's living a life where you know deep down inside you that you'll never live whole again...