THIS ISIN'T SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN TO ME ANYMORE... (I Need To Vent)

I hate when sudden and uncomfortable anxiety strikes me and completely disrupts my life. In this video I discuss what I think happened and how I am working through it.
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My Story
My name is Noah and on May 18 2011, I had a rare reaction to a medication called VIVITROL and consequently, spiraled into a suicidal depression with depersonalization and anxiety. I lost 25 lbs in 4 weeks and was in full panic or near panic for 8 weeks straight mixed with the darkest most painful depression I cold have ever imagined. I immediately could not work and had to move in with my parents who, along with many siblings and friends, had to watch me 24/7 as I was a danger to myself. Eventually I was hospitalized in the Psych Ward for a week. Getting through each day seemed truly unbearable and I knew I would surely die. I have been put on many many different doctor prescribed SSRI's SNRI's Tricyclics, mood stabilizers, anti-psychotics, holistic meds, acupuncture and even a form of shock therapy called RTMS. I barely saw any improvement in my condition for a full year. It was decided I had treatment resistant depression and I spent nearly every moment in tears. Weeks after starting my newest round of medications (Seroquel & Nortryptaline) as a last ditch effort, I had my blood drawn for possible hormone imbalances and my Testosterone levels came back 200 ng/Dl and 150 ng/Dl. The average 25 year old male has 750 ng/Dl. With this discovery I had an explanation as to why I was not getting better and why I might be so so sick. The symptoms of Low T are very similar to those of major depression. I started legally prescribed testosterone replacement therapy soon after and have been checking in with the world and documenting my experience with treatment as well as giving my insight and perspective on various topics of mental health. I am blessed to say that I have slowly, over the last 6 years, been improving and becoming more stable which I never thought to be possible. My low T manifested itself in the form of Major depression, anxiety, and depersonalization/ derealization for over a year. Treating my low testosterone has been 1 HUGE part of the puzzle but I have had to continue to work hard to hold on to my mental stability with many set backs. Gaining some mental stability back is nothing short of a miracle as I was near death for what felt like forever. I do not consider myself to be totally healed yet but I am closer now then ever before and aim to use what I have been through to help or at least offer support to others in need I was able to successfully come off my Seroquel and Pamelor.
I work out all the time as a part of my mental health recovery!!! Weight training and all kinds of cardio rule much of my free time and I also share this on my channel.
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[@BonnieVoyage]

Sober 2 days. I’m not giving up! At had 9 months at one point I know I can do it… just hard lately ❤️

[@colbylux-hale5561]

You got this! Keep after it!!

[@annemarie5851]

Hang in there!

[@johnCjr4671]

We are just Human and imperfect its more important that you continue to work on your issues than have a perfect record . I have 7 months and am going through one of the toughest times of my life . 😊

[@mightymouse1005]

2 days is great. Proud of you ❤❤🎉❤❤

[@menelbens2190]

I feel you. I can relate, currently going through a relapse. We got this.

[@christophergreen4367]

In my 30's i started to have health problems. I started to become a hypochondriac. I was constantly thinking i was going to die . In my insanity i was making my health worse with alcohol. Ironically at the end of my alcoholism i know longer wanted to live. I now have been sober 2.5 years. With AA and god i no longer fear my end. I accept it. God has chosen my path. It takes time brother. It took a year just for the obsession to be removed. Stay the course and keep talking. All in do time.

[@ivyleetaa1029]

my anxiety is scaring me so badly right now and your videos are the only thing that’s helping so i just want to say thank you

[@jaimereynolds258]

Been sober since 2011, and still have a day here and there where i want a drink. It will never stop. Just gotta push through and keep going. No slip ups

[@braulindisla-elburrodelaba5361]

That's owsome

[@Yohello99]

Only thing harder than being sober is not being sober- stay strong through the ebbs and flows, you got this

[@bignoknow]

Well said. Thank you

[@enlacocinaconkiki8499]

That’s me . People would never think I suffer from depression and anxiety. Always smiling and dying inside 😢

[@kerbyfab]

I hope you find help and get on the road to healing!

[@annemarie5851]

Alcohol is a carcinogen even in moderate amounts. Just another reason to stay sober.

[@passagetonow1229]

I saw a great position with a large company. Would my anxiety be a problem working with such motivated and powerful people? In the past, this type of work didn't feel like work. But people in these offices can give me anxiety. My third interview with the company is coming up and if I don't get the job, I'll be sorely disappointed. If I do get it, I might turn them down because I'm afraid of what my anxiety will do. I really hate this.

[@bignoknow]

Rooting for you!

[@kerbyfab]

Go for it!!! You will never know how you will do, unless you go for it and try your best. You can always resign, if it’s too much for you, but it sounds like a great opportunity! We’re pulling for you.

[@bernadettemchugh6410]

Hey, have confidence in yourself. You need to like yourself!

[@KerryDSC]

been sober since I was 22 man I'm 45 now, you are not alone brother thank you for sharing your struggles, its authentic and real man. I lost my parents early so I too get triggered when it comes to health issues. I take very good care of my health and body because I don't want to live with chronic health issues like my family. So if I get a nagging ache or a lump or something totally harmless, It can suddenly in my head turn into worst case scenario and and it can cause me to panic or have anxiety. this comes from losing parents early so I have a fear of dying too soon like they did. We have to be careful because this type of thinking can over time actually have negative effects on your body and leed to health issues. Our emotional body is just as important as our physical and they are connected. honor your feelings when they pop up like this and just take a step back and "be the witness" to the thoughts both good and bad and let them pass . it gets easier with time. dude your doing the work you need to for yourself, keep up the good work it's progress not perfection. you take steps each day to control the things you can and thats enough, dont stress out about the things you cant control. remember this too shall pass:)

[@h3arty]

I'm a year into relapse. Trying my best to climb my way out this hole. It's so fucking HARD. Had so much loss and grief this year. I really hope you find your strength and peace. Let go, let God! ❤️

[@teresahunt5521]

Found two breast lumps last week. My mind is already trying to figure out if I can keep working while on chemo. I haven't even had a mammogram yet. I have a doctors appointment next Tuesday to get an order for a mammogram. Hopefully it's nothing but yeah...long term alcohol consumption is a risk factor so I'm really unhappy with myself right now. Eventually, we all fall off of the pink cloud of early sobriety.

[@mightymouse1005]

I am so sorry you're going through this. PLEASE take care of yourself.

[@susanlilley6918]

May God bless you 🙏

[@iamgodphotography]

All good now?

[@teresahunt5521]

@@iamgodphotography Yes. Everything was clear. Thank you for asking!

[@TRDTalk]

Give yourself some grace brother, you are doing great. Day by day, we are all rooting for you!

[@kylem2712]

Bro the fact that you came on here and told us about your anxiety, and how sobriety isn't peaches and cream and how you're feeling is awesome. How many times did you feel this before and decided to drink instead, because it numbs those feelings? I hope you feel proud, and I know damn well it's not easy. Good for you man

[@alexandrapetukat1038]

You found the right words !!!

[@javier4060]

Just For Today.

[@Melissa12175]

I get it. Mental health and addiction go hand in hand. I'm 48 and still growing up. Gotta keep pushing forward. I appreciate this video.

[@willbee8569]

Sober 4 years now, same things happen to me. Anxiety for years then disappears for months and you think it’s gone forever. It always gets better. Stay strong brother

[@iamthefiremanjj]

Noah you look so good! You have the body I dream about. What is your TRT protocol like? How is your lifestyle now? Any caffeine etc? Supplements? they can all effect that feeling of anxiety. Same with me I gotta stay sober off everything....... alchohol, benzos anything thats calming the effects of getting off are brutal.... it takes 90+ days to feel better.... that stability can feel like boring sometimes or pointless. I dunno

[@unblindswordzman96]

ALWAYS appreciate when u share bro, but PLEASE don't mess wit them benzos at all.

[@RobertSmith-jd6wb]

Benzos are kicking my ass killing me atm stay away

[@patrickmtz24]

Rebuke that feeling of anxiety in the name of Jesus

[@xjuhox]

You need to try NAC-supplement, it's great for OCD symptoms. Take it before bed with magnesium, D-vitatamin and fish oil. I have had my own fair share of neurotic thinking and OCD - and I can tell it can be hell! One of the most annoying symptom is the intense consentration on breathing reflex. When I felt really bad and took too much caffeine, I had panic attacks when I noticed even a small change in my conscious breathing pattern. Of course, I knew that breathing is due to the autonymous system, but it does not help when you are stressed and overly conscious about it 😵‍💫 Luckily I have mostly "forgotten" that OCD symptom.

[@cjlaster7660]

Hang in there man. You didn’t come this far, just to come this far. You have been a great example for all men out there that have had the need of someone to somehow them it’s possible. David Goggins may be a bad ass in his own was, but so are you. Both of you have been through turmoil and at the end, you both came out relentlessly. Thank you for sharing and venting with us brother. It’s definitely not easy going through the emotional and physical challenges life throws at us, but all we can do is keep pushing forward and keep being there for those we love. Stay strong 💪🏼

[@mspazznone9688]

Dark room lay down. Tight pillow Cry it out. After that the same. Go be p orsitive.

[@marshallsaltzman9924]

Check your calories and nutrition. Could be undereating, or have nutrient deficiencies as much as you work out

[@CMoore8539]

You look good. I understand how you feel. Try different things until you can figure it out.❤

[@BarrettPlumbing]

I convinced myself I had esophageal cancer for years. I would have crippling health anxiety for what felt like an eternity. I’m passed that now and feel so much better.

[@Lucashsh]

Hey noah. I can see you are struggling more than ever. That feeling you are getting in your throat sounds like it's globus sensation, it's a feeling like when you're really upset and about to cry, kinda feels like youre having an allergic reaction and you throat is closing over. It's due to anxiety, yet caffeine, certain foods and sugar can cause it. You clearly have a highten sence of you bodily symptoms which can make your anxiety skyrocket, causing more symptoms, some of which you would never believe can be caused by anxiety, for example a tight chest, a sensation of weak legs , muscles, pins and needles. How many time have you thought today is your last, you're dying. Yet you're still here, making class videos. I'm sorry to hear you're feeling "s". Anxiety symptoms come and go, well they alternate. Lol The best but worst cure for them is alcohol.

[@j0eyravi0li2]

Just like how people's brains have good days and bad days emotionally, I'm sure the same thing happens to the brain from withdraw and getting sober. I'm sure it's just a temporary dip and you'll feel even better than you did when it subsides. Hang in there, man, and know that we're all here for you

[@johnpyles3575]

The throat thing sounds like uvula swelling (that drippy thing in the back of your throat is swollen--this gives the sensation of needing to cough or swallow extra hard to clear something out of your throat--it's your uvula touching your tongue). It normally goes away and usually isn't serious. At worst, sometimes they'll do an in-office procedure where they cut off part of your uvula (this is an easy procedure). This might all be from allergies which usually passes. As for your anxiety, maybe ease of the 12 steps a bit. You did the 12 steps so that you could have a life free of drugs/alcohol. I suspect you are feeling trapped. Maybe find something that isn't recovery-related and do that. Take up a new hobby or something. Also, I quit drinking over two years ago and not by AA. It was from listening to Craig Beck (The Stop Drinking Expert) on youtube...he showed me that alcohol is just dog shit (dog shit for EVERYONE) and not some forbidden fruit. Drinking now looks like a passtime that's slightly better than glue sniffing. To be fair, I've always been a cannabis guy and still am so I can't claim sober (only teetotaler), but for the longest time I couldn't even be a cannabis-only guy until I watched Craig Beck's stuff. Also Annie Grace and William Porter are good resources too. The point is that I would get anxiety and relapse in previous attempts to quit until I learned to reframe alcohol as the total shit that it is.

[@ChristinaUniverse-lq1ex]

Breathe Noah... embrace your wife's love, people care about you

[@martinsmith8946]

I don't understand what's wrong with your wife. How did your wife put so much garlic into the cutlets knowing that you have problems with mental stability and it can possibly trigger your anxiety? Damn even for an ordinary person garlicky-hot cutlets is an unpleasant experience. She should have asked you before putting so much garlic.

[@switchtricks3234]

You made a video similar to this years ago about having a dry mouth!! You’ll be fine

[@CMoore8539]

Try meditation and avoid social media. Try different things. What you are going through is normal for many of us.❤

[@vegask2]

I have severe anxiety currently. You should go get checked out by a doctor to help ease your worries. Also have you ever tried ketamine? I recently heard Elon Musk takes it.

[@j0eyravi0li2]

PS: To answer your question at the end, yes, my brain has been prone to be up in down in terms of feeling well emotionally, anxiety depression etc after I had a big breakdown 7 years ago. It also has it's ups and downs cognitively, like some days it's reaction time is better and is more efficient when I'm playing competitive video games. We have similar brains, I've always been prone to anxiety, and my crazy, unrealistic worries have always been what causes my depression when it gets too bad and for too long. Also, the hyperfixation on your breaths haha, I've had that since I was a kid, and same thing with blinking lol. It's annoying when you become hyperaware of those things, but, just like how those things subside, I know this anxiety in you will subside, as well

[@TheDailyDoseofMentalHealth101]

You’ve got this man. Keep your head up

[@vincesza8464]

I don’t believe we’re ever 100% cured but we learn way more strategies to minimize the struggle and work toward a decent balance. The only thing that helps me in a bad anxious state is getting the heart rate up with high intensity in the gym. Idk why but that helps me a lot.

[@DonnaCipollone-qz9xg]

Don't judge yourself. You are OK it's just anxiety it will go away. I hope to get to your level. My life as been he'll. I have experience everything you went through.... .

[@deniserouthierledoux8133]

Just found you--I have wicked high anxiety, have had off and on for past 6 years. My anxiety has been really high and it’s gotten me down (depressed) or some signs of it. Hard to motivate to do things and I know it’s important to have things to do , everyday tasks. Dealing with a sick husband as well. Your earlier videos on things to do mornings, and I do them, I even take a cold shower. Oh-and I need to add--alcohol may have induced all of your physical symptoms-and remember that going off any drug or alcohol will induce anxiety. You’ll be fine-because you have so many tools in your toolbox-your throat is fine, you will be fine.

[@johnnixon1437]

So relatable, somehow health anxiety and alcoholism go hand in hand. Now that I'm sober, I try and remind myself of all the times I convinced myself that I had a serious illness and been wrong in the past.

[@kevinmccourt6546]

Hi Noah, I just want to say that it’s ok to feel anxious. Yes it sucks but the best thing to do is to practice living your life with this anxiety. Take it along for the ride and it will pass eventually Several years back I was in a similar situation that you describe in this video and I resorted back to old habits to try and rid myself of these feelings and I made my mental health a million times worse in doing so Give yourself compassion, try not to make things worse, let people around you know that you’re going through a tough time and need an extra bit of support and take it one day at a time. We are all here for you. Much love

[@edb75001]

Man, anxiety can come on quick and take awhile to subside. I think those of use predisposed of it also have some form of Hypochondriasis. I think that feeds it, and puts us in a cycle. The one thing I know works is to continue on as much and normal as possible, and you'll eventually break your cycle. It takes days to weeks sometimes (rarely, even longer). You got this... hang in there.

[@lucidicallos5706]

thank you for making these videos. I relate to your thoughts and experiences. I have been following you for maybe little over a year. I spiralled out of control with alcohol over few years and slowly got into accepting it, which became a dangerous self destructive mindset. For me physical pain from alcohol, instead of causing bad health anxiety, it fueled it more. My liver started to send a lot of symptoms and I hit a low after going on a bender after being sober for a month. Since I have been able to get my shit together, try to work on my self image and ability to love myself more. It's getting better day by day and music helps, as well as the summer arriving. All the best to you Noah, proud of ya for being sober!

[@mattpahl1281]

I've been drinking for 25 years somewhere between 12 and 30 beers every day. Did you go to rehab or did you quit on your own. I'm curious as to whether I might die from quitting cold turkey or should I just go for it. I struggle with depression and anxiety as well as some social anxiety. I just feel that I won't be around much longer if I don't quit soon.

[@bignoknow]

I appreciate your honesty. I would encourage you to check yourself in for a medically supervised detox. Alcohol withdrawal can be fatal and I don’t see a reason to chance it. I went to detox and rehab myself.

[@davidbooher5559]

This too shall pass. And you didn’t relapse. Thanks for sharing your experience.

[@WiseWordsofWill]

Stay strong, man. You're going to get through this ♥

[@braulindisla-elburrodelaba5361]

Am 16 months sober, but am struggling with other things

[@cathyoddie5885]

Oh God Yes,been sober n clean 27 months 🙏 Thank God🙏 I've suffered depression and anxiety since 17 n Ìm now 57,recently got diagnosed with chronic sinusitis and have catastrophised this spacey feeling and dizziness vertigo so recently anxiety been high,to the point where I need to take diazepam 5mg at Night to calm me. It Doesn't trigger drinking coz that shit scares the life outa me never going through that hell again 😮😮🙏 Get yourself checked ✔ Why not love just for peace of mind 🙂👍 I Did ,health anxiety no fun, Godbless you 🙏 Love from Manchester England 🇬🇧 ❤

[@eandersson4628]

Right there with you. I have had about 5-6 years with out crippling health anxiety/anxiety attacks. Boom, 27 of april 2024, palpitation and the heart skipping beats, I just felt like "ok, it's the stress from everything that has happened the last 6 -12 months, nothing strange. Breath. Just pull the breaks. HA - yeah...no. Anxiety says no... I am here to party for a while! 😒 For the last month it has been doing the cha-cha in me on and off. I take Sertraline 100 mg every day since 2018 which has been fantastic for me in combination with therapy etc. Until this set back. The anxiety freaking roared over me with no warning and no amout of breath-work in the moment made it calm. I had to leave work. After the attacks I feel more pissed of than anything. However, I'm more mad at myself because I know that I am the contributing factor by not doing the excersies, meditation, working out, eating healty, keept the tension in the body at a good level. Or listning to my body properly. So, here I am, home from work, waiting for a callback from my doctor to look over my treatment, maybe do some bloodwork to rule out hormonal imbalance (because female, 41, and maybe in perimenopause) etc.

[@Rabid_Turtle]

Not sure where you live but weather changes always ramp up my mental health issues. I’ve been dealing with the cold/warm day cycle here a couple weeks. Once it warms up for good I’m good.

[@hongchonginternational6348]

Somatic exercises, psoas trauma release exercises diaphragm messages don't trip so hard on relapsing it happens just keep it going.

[@anntaylor6736]

I used to have most horrible anxiety you can imagine coupling with panic attacks, brain fog and stomach pains. I tried medications, my diet is implacable but nothing helped. The turning point was the head standing. I started with only 30 seconds because that’s all I could do, but I felt decrease in anxiety almost instantly. It’s been 2 months since I am doing the head stand and I can honestly say it saved me in so many ways. My interpretation of it is that something was wrong with my blood vassals in my neck and after the headstands more blood got into the brain and that’s where the magic came from. Just be supper careful with the headstand and learn how to do it correctly by a wall first. Don’t injure yourself. I hope it helps you as much as it helped me. Sending you healing vibes ✨✨✨✨✨✨✨🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶✨✨✨✨✨✨✨

[@mission1-2-1]

Some interventions that have assisted my mental & physical health f.w.i.i.w Carnivore diet. Intermittent fasting plus cut all refined sugar, seed oils & anything processed. Allow up to 6 months for toxic waste to work through. Lastly, take a look at the work of Dr. John Sarno and T.M.S. (Tension Myositis Syndrome). Takes a little mental gymnastics but has saved me from much pain & health anxiety. All the best.

[@kristen82391]

My goodness! I go through literally the exact (as far in depth as you explained anyway) reaction before to my throat, but in social situations instead of medical aspects. I feel like people will wonder why I’m coughing or clearing my throat, and then I just do it more, then I’m totally in my head and have no idea what’s going on with the people around me, and I just have a miserable time. I get that air hungry feeling as well, which causes anxiety, and it gets worse….it all snowballs very fast. Sometimes this leads into a panic attack, and that just reinforces my social anxiety. It’s a big big loop that I’ve been working to get out of for about a few years. Much love to you, and I do hope you get peace back as soon as possible. Stay strong, one day at a time.

[@bignoknow]

I really appreciate this share. You’re awesome. Thank you.

[@wtpwtp]

I have been brushing my teeth for the past couple weeks with organic unrefined coconut oil mixed with my toothpaste. I was doing so, because I thought it may help my enamel feel better, stronger & more conditioned, which it did. My teeth had been feeling rougher & weaker after drinking a lot of apple cider vinegar a few months back to help with a throat & phlegm centered cold that I had several months back. I felt the ACV made my enamel weaker because I was drinking it at night to try to soothe my throat, which it only marginally did, & then falling asleep without brushing my teeth again. My cold went away in a week or so, but I was strangely left with an annoying persistent phlegm issue, which I didn't like, but could deal with. But, what I didn't like more was how my voice was chronically sounding a bit scratchy when I spoke. This hadn't gone away in months, & I never had anything like that before. For months I've tried drinking a variety of herbal teas, & nothing has really helped. To my unexpected pleasant surprise, when I started to brush my teeth with the coconut oil/toothpaste mix, & I gargled with it 1 or two times in the beginning, my persistent phlegm & scratchy voice finally went away, & has not returned.🙂 Perhaps you should give brushing & gargling with organic unrefined coconut oil a try & see if you have similar results.🙂 Coconut oil has anti-bacterial & anti-fungal properties. I don't consume it though, because a new study says it can be bad for your heart because of the high saturated fat content. Hope this helps!

[@JenniferStahel-bw2nv]

Sounds like acid reflux which garlic can absolutely trigger. Did you try taking something for that? I get the same feeling in my throat which I definitely make worse because of anxiety. Acid reducers help. Side note, are you in Portland?

[@bingboompow8861]

Its nice that you just want to hear from us and vice versa , i understand you 100 percent and i relate to soooo many of your points. 3 days sober right now... And Noah .. the air hunger .. tell me about. I have it , and I HATE IT . I'm so happy I finnaly have a word for it , and it makes me feel so much better someone else is going through it . Wow

[@missa1019]

Hello there. Are we the same person? I feel seen. Sober for 5 years and 6 months. I also have health anxiety/OCD. This is a scary story to listen to because I have fortunately been in a good place with the health anxiety lately. It's been very manageable. Listening to you reminds me that it can rear its ugly head at any moment. This too shall pass. Trying to surrender and accept uncertainty is what I am working on. I try and focus on synchronicities from the universe. It sounds silly but it helps me feel a little safer, and protected. ❤

[@andreacollalvarez6947]

you must try wheatgrass fresh juice in morning with empty stomach. because Its helps with addictiin and infrard sauna It helps with anxiaty.

[@iamgodphotography]

I don’t know what came first, but I resorted to smoking crack, cocaine, and that’s what I like the best and also meth. I have been clean now for several months, but I can’t find any type of pleasure no matter what I do- scared to relapse.

[@marthahench9885]

I tried to commiting the s word twice . Thankfully i haven't wished for that in a long time. Prayers for you 🙏🙏🙏

[@fautil]

Thanks for sharing. I have a lot to say, so if you have any questions, I tweeted you, because this platform censors. If you think you're victim of your brain, may I suggest you take a look at your worldview : which one do you subscribe to ? the religious one, the scientific one, or the spiritual one ? This has a lot to do with your potential full healing, believe it ... or not.

[@FailuretoFitness]

If my life was a nail the last three weeks you hit it on the head!!!! God bless brother. We have seen it and know like yiu said it means we can get it back. Easier said than done but I needed this brother. Thank you! God bless

[@jesserodriguez5792]

Bro i LEGIT went through every exact thing you went/going through!!!

[@kerbyfab]

I hope you find your path of healing! You look really familiar for some reason. Do you have any other KZbin channels, past or present?

[@StuartL-s3l]

Perhaps your estrogen levels are high? On a completely holistic view, I highly recommend you check out the method for meditation that has helped me immensely... it's online too ... if your lucky there are a few national centers that do one on one meditation sessions and counseling too ... literally a life changer for me .... I love your trt story and watched all your videos - and am rooting for you brother !!!

[@ChaYsuh]

Day zero starts tomorrow after 3 days. I'm not even disappointed in myself because I was shocked I did 3 days. But I'm drinking water... watching videos like yours and I got this! I'm just gonna relax watch movies clear my head and I'll be fine.

[@georgietavera323]

Noah, been following you for years. Just want to say you got this bother 💪 and there is nothing wrong with going to Urgent Care to give you some peace of mind. We are here for you bother because you have always been here for us 🫶

[@Dark0ne2099]

Depression will mold your thought processes and hormonal pathways, with lasting effects. It's not your fault, it's like a mental scar that will hurt from time to time. Do not despair, as you're not going crazy, and you can prevent relapse keeping a level head (as it looks like you are). I've had bouts of momentary anxiety which got worse during covid, I'd get shortness of breath, hot flashes, cold sweats/shivers, "my father died with cancer is it finally my time too?". Luckily for me they go away easy but they do still happen without warning. Mostly I'll be sitting watching a tv show, eating dinner, even dinner in my honeymoon, I'll just start feeling impending doom etc etc the whole nine yards. Until now a clinical thought process of grounding myself and asserting my surroundings has worked. This has been going on for years without any complications... But each person is an individual. Consulting a psychologist has made it much better for me, she helped me understand and "dominate" my brain, without medications. It's still an ongoing fight. From where you came from to where you are now, you're doing great. Some people never escape the dark pit... You have! It just leaves it's marks.

[@debbieporter6581]

I so understand. Thank u so much for.this video. If only I had someone like you to talk with in my really bad times. My anxiety goes thru the roof. I have treatment resistant depression. I've suffered for 28 yrs with no relief. Hea ring you talk about what your going thru helps me not feel so very alone. Please take care of yourself Noah.

[@debbieporter6581]

Thank u for the little heart Noah. It helps to know there's someone out there who listens and cares.

[@frankjr3931]

You are a great man , an inspiration. Congratulations on your sobriety Noah You are perfectly imperfect , we all are!

[@jimd.2683]

Noah have you looked into Ketamine? I deal with anxiety on a regular and have been looking into the possibility of this treatment.

[@bernadettemchugh6410]

You need real peace of mind, spiritual healing. Talk to God.

[@TheSuccessfulHuman]

Love. FUTURE SELF, my man!! ❤🙏❤️

[@ddstanfield9259]

Why do you want to drink? Simple question. Answer that specific question and I will follow yp

[@czeke7513]

In my opinion you should get your estrogen, progesterone, and DHEA levels checked while you're feeling this way. If they're out of whack, it could be the root cause of your anxiety and state of mind. Also, using ashwagandha alongside your TRT protocol can cause hormonal imbalances and mood swings. Hope you get it sorted out

[@Ronan773]

Praying for you man. May Jesus help you find the peace beyond all understanding that only he offers.

[@AntonioGoldmanOficial]

I've heard "by the grace of God", so I'd like to suggest that you should be part of an spiritual retreat my friend! It's usually 3 days but being far away from what the world offers you and be able to have 3 days with Jesus will help you tremendously, keep striving my friend, you are a great man!

[@bernadettemchugh6410]

Go to MEDJUGORIE, Croatia. You will never look back. This place is where many addicts and others are cured. Their life is forever changed.

[@jodijodi8322]

It’s scary how you just read me to a T. I’m 28 and I’ve been drinking for about a year but within the last 6 months it was getting bad like 7-8 shots a day. One day I had an (what I think was just trapped gas which was like an air bubble in my stomach) and i automatically went to my stomach lining is messed up because I drank on a empty stomach. I literally had this conversation with my mom today and she said “ it must be exhausting being you because you need to know why to everything.” Now what I’m trying to do starting today is think just because my back hurts could just mean I slept wrong it doesn’t have to do with lungs or if I’m dying. I realized man it’s literally my anxiety. And my brother told me something that I try to stick with he said do you feel any physical pain…… and I’m like I’m not sure but it might happen and he said yeah but it might not. So I realize being 28 if I keep this up unless something physically happens like a car crash…. Ima waste my life when I get to 37 thinking I wasn’t going to make it to 37

[@jodijodi8322]

I think we are just hypersensitive to our body more than everyone else. Like as I’m writing this my head tingles but it doesn’t mean I’m having a stroke …. I think we can just feel when our body lets out the chemicals which might sound confusing. But I drink to try to annoy the hypersensitivity but then I think whenever I feel something everything is catching up. But like me and my brother said maybe it is but maybe it’s not and unless you feel something like the room is spinning and you’re about to faint, then most likely it’s not.

[@ebo7310]

Anxiety has really whooped my ass over the past 3 years. With Covid lockdown and fear of Covid is what started it. Then re-entering the workplace being around everyone. My health has taken a beating. I swear over the last few days, I assumed I have ALS. I cant shake the thought all because I watched another KZbinr and listening to his symptoms. It's been debilitating 😢 I'm sure I don't have it but the thought is unshakeable. Anxiety really creeped into my life out of nowhere I was doing fine, and now here I am. I had surgery 3 month's ago on my neck and now I'm still recovering. I'm also relocating to Europe this week for work and Anxiety peaked. Working from home I can hide it at times but going back into the office is scary. I never imagined at 41 that I'll be dealing withmental health issues/anxiety. I reached out for therapy this week and will start medication soon which Ive dreaded but I can't keep going on like this. Praying my way through it, I need God's help and mercy on me.😢

[@tracystandish3420]

I've read your comment on this channel. I'm curious how your doing with your anxiety and did you go on meds?? I'm so scared to go on them.

[@Unibot47]

Just found your channel. Glad to hear you haven't relapsed. The woman I thought I'd marry passed away August 2023 due to alcohol-related cirrhosis/liver failure. Hate to see anyone go through that. Never been a drinker myself but God I hate alcohol and what it does to people. .

[@bignoknow]

Im so very sorry. Thats a scary fate.

[@thehealthwelnessreport]

Did you heal from DPDR?

[@bignoknow]

I sure did.

[@thehealthwelnessreport]

That's Awesome! What are your tips to do heal?

[@sarahsageluna]

Super random and a bit woo woo but hopefully right after you vented about how you felt maybe the throat issue cleared up? it could’ve been a blocked throat chakra. When I have had deep feelings in life that I have stuffed down and or felt I had no control or say over things, my throat literally starts closing up and giving me issues. The body does funny things sometimes with emotions, especially trapped emotions. Anyways I appreciate hearing your human experience and although I’ve never had issues with alcoholism I’m beginning to see the health effects of it in my life and I’ve been considering quitting it completely. I’ve easily curated my life to life without it before so it’s just a matter of deciding if it’s for good or for now. 🤔

[@bignoknow]

I indeed started feeling better shortly after this video. I’m thankful and I appreciate your share.

[@carolkopp7642]

Carnivore diet, it is so worth a try.

[@chiefcharlesmolina7933]

WOW ! U entered into my soul , I have been doing great up to today, we felt the same thing ! U just may have saved my life right now ! ❤❤❤🎉🎉🎉🎉

[@bernadettemchugh6410]

Whatever Will Be, Will Be.

[@JoshuaKhosa]

Avoid the benzos brother

[@Analoguebubblebath89]

You are going to be ok Noah. The things in life that we often believe are our biggest weaknesses, become are greatest strengths. This is all part of your life arc. You’re gonna be ok brother. Take care, keep making the right choices and I will see you at the finish line

[@The21bravo]

Dude, I have had an eye twitch that lasted for 3 days that sent me into anxiety for weeks. My thoughts went to stroke, als, or whatever negative things I could imagine. I understand you, and you're not alone. I felt stupid later after it cleared lol

[@TrulyPatriotic]

If you’re not doing public speaking engagements you need to be. Ain’t nothing wrong with a good rant. Happy to listen.

[@MrMcGuck]

Struggle is a part of the journey, strange to say but be thankful for the struggle. There would have been a time when you wouldn’t have struggled because you didn’t care and just fulfilled the desire. ❤

[@bernadettemchugh6410]

You need a good massage!

[@50centpb7]

This types of disproportionate responses sound all too familiar to me. Back in October I had been Almost anxiety-free for over two years. All it took was some particularly bad stomach pain and next thing I knew my heart was beating a mile a minute for no rational reason. It escalated into a full blown panic attack and left me bed ridden in a state of severe anxiety for weeks. I hope this hiccup passes for you soon.

[@BR-hr1kx]

Thank you so much for sharing this. I found your channel as I began my TRT journey last week, after progressively worsening crippling fatigue, depersonalization, and anxiety. Your progression is encouraging and helps to keep me going and looking forward to having my life back again. Thank you for sharing so much of your journey.

[@nicholasr1977]

Noah get ahold of me.

[@Tunners26]

Hang in there Noah. You have been of great support to me since finding you on KZbin during a year of clinical depression and anxiety. I've watched many of your videos and feel lucky that although I drink every night, I've always been able to stop at two beers, albeit large ones. I too can be triggered into anxiety spells lasting weeks, having been pretty good just days before. I think my brain feels comfortable in this mood and it's an easy mode to slip into!

[@W8320T]

Jesus Christ is king

[@arjitsingh5989]

You think too much.

[@ElmerBaez-f5m]

It's all in your mind. Your not drinking anymore!!! So, what's up??? You look so healthy and beautiful. Maybe, your not doing something more for you. You are blessed. Forget about being sober..BECAUSE YOU ARE SOBER!!! Trim your beard so we can see your precious face. Your a great example. I get it. You help me out. I'm no longer a drunk bottom .......However, My life is changing. Your an inspiration to all of us. Thank you!!

[@kassiep]

Soo relatable! The other day my new Philippines neibours came and gave me some of their traditional sweets , I thought it was amazing and ate them right away and enjoyed them with the neibours...the suddenly "what if I'm allergic to these" "I don't even know what's in them" "why doji feel sooo hot right now!! *Panics*.

[@Marlaina.]

Feeling the same way. Recovering from surgery, so I've been off of work for about 3 months now (finally about to go back) and I've had way too much free time to overthink and got myself into a hole, but I'm slowly crawling out! We got it! 😊