Three Years on Testosterone FTM Timeline

You might notice that my three year date was July 22nd... Yes, it did take me over two months to complete this video 🙈. These timeline videos are very special to me and I've been creating it piece-by-piece over the past handful of weekends. I feel so incredibly grateful and happy to have been able to transition and loved the process of making this video.
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[@bothandapparel]

"kept all my girl clothes in a bag in the closet." Such a lovely way to talk about making room to explore and not put yourself in a binary of needing to know. Congrats, really appreciate your honesty and bravery and confidence!

[@arthur_rockwell]

thank you!!

[@rat592]

I just wanna say that your channel really does give me so much hope. You articulate every fear that goes into this so well and unlike so many other channels that don’t talk about the doubt and denial. Seeing you living your life so happily and normally in spite of all of that really makes me believe it’s possible. Thank you so much for that

[@bothandapparel]

So important to make space to talk about the doubt and fears too. It's a part of the process and doesn't make it any less legitimate.

[@arthur_rockwell]

aww this comment means so much to me! this is exactly what i'm aiming for with my channel ❤️

[@bothandapparel]

You're slaying it! @@arthur_rockwell

[@derekb4977]

​@@arthur_rockwell you will always be a woman.

[@rat592]

@@derekb4977 and you will always be a virgin

[@MadMaz_0]

I cried watching this. Im 14, trans male, and this gives me hope that I can get there.

[@pablokult248]

the world is so big and beautiful, and you haven't even met a fraction of the people who will one day grow to love you. you can do it!

[@pablokult248]

@@Lulu-xl5cm repressing and ignoring your feelings won’t make them go away, it just poisons your emotional well-being and leaves you with regrets, furthermore, an adolescent can’t just forget about their gender identity issues, societally engrained gender expectations appear everywhere in daily live, it’s a constant reminder.

[@soupasaurusrex9631]

i was in your position a few years ago and was terrified of what my future would look like as a trans person. i'm 17 now (pre-medical anything but hoping it's in my near future!) and i can't speak for everyone but i guess i couldn't scroll past your comment without saying that even before you can access medical transition, it can and will get better, cause that's what i needed to hear when i was in your shoes. you will find people who accept and love you for who you are and that while it may not feel like it now and the people around you may tell you otherwise, being trans is beautiful and something you can be proud of and love about yourself, even if it's not easy now. know that you have a bright, happy, euphoric future ahead of you :)

[@JoelRC88]

This is exactly how I'm feeling too. Same demographic too.

[@DanielMac-q6e]

@@kutluica if you have nothing better to do than being ignorant , just play your whatever game that you're playing.

[@mahdisabbassi7638]

Arthur, this is one of the best transition timeline videos i've ever seen on youtube, and also you aged like FINE WINE :D

[@arthur_rockwell]

awww thank you

[@ddawg415]

I’m a straight guy and it was an interesting video. You were pretty as a girl and you still are good looking as a guy. I must be honest that I can never comprehend changing my gender because I have always been happy with my gender by birth. But I find these transitioning videos fascinating. I like your courage and I wish you have a great life ahead.

[@watermylove4530]

Well, being trans is indeed hard to comprehend for non trans people! I must thank you for not immediately rejecting us and being curious about us instead. For me, being trans has always been there. It's when you look in the mirror, but no matter what something feels off. Prepubescent me enjoyed having a flat chest for seemingly no reason. When I started growing up as a woman, when my breast developed, each week I felt more and more uncomfortable with my chest. It's as if an alien growth was growing on me, but surely every girl feels the same, right? I was surely just being a tomboy. Every woman wants her boobs to be as least noticeable as possible, desperately trying to hide them under thick layers of clothing and hunched posture, right? When my voice started to change I joked that my voice cracked like a boy's voice. I tried to be feminine and felt like I failed at being a "good" woman by not being feminine enough. When I looked at men I thought that "love/attraction" was when you felt unexplainable longing. But for what? Surely I am just straight. But do I want to kiss them or do anything with those men? Not really? Maybe? Then what is it? When I first started going with he/him pronouns around my friends It felt right. When I first got called by my chosen name it felt so comforting. Once I dressed in more masculine clothes I felt at peace. When I got my first binder I literally jumped from excitement and happiness for like an hour straight. I hope that helps at least a little bit with understanding what goes on for people like me or people who are questioning their identity!

[@skreppeffedup]

@@watermylove4530 why we got the same origin story

[@GhostofTheUchiha22]

​@@watermylove4530 The puberty thing is so darn true. As a child I wanted to be a "tomboy" but my family forced me to dress girly until I got 12 years old and I got to choose my own clothes. When my breasts started to grow and I started to get periods I felt dysphoria. At 11 I just thought I was "ashamed to be a woman". I'd get jealous of other boys at my school because they got changes like deeper voices, taller heights, stronger bodies, etc, meanwhile I was stuck with a female body and lame changes. I discovered my identity on social media and I realized that all the dots were connected. I was nonbinary for 2 years after I discovered I was trans at 11 before officially deciding I am a transgender male and I mainly went by he/him. I'm 16 now and still closeted. I enjoy secretly packing, binding any way I can despite it not being safe, dressing masculine, and wearing hats and pretending my hair is short in secret. Hopefully one day I could actually transition. I struggle with being "attractive" and it makes my dysphoria worse.

[@yamayoes]

kinda gay

[@GhostofTheUchiha22]

@@yamayoes Yayy😉❤️

[@NerfHerder909]

I'm so glad to hear that I'm not the only one who coped with the ever-cracking egg by watching transition timeline videos and then turning around and watching detransition videos. Also, shout-out to the poor salesperson at Sephora that I approached years ago saying, more or less, "I need to learn how to put on makeup so I can be a True Professional Adult Woman™." Congrats on three years on T, and thank you, because your vlogs were actually what finally pushed me to get off the fence and get on T myself after years of vacillating, and I have no regrets about it at all except that I didn't do it sooner.

[@arthur_rockwell]

omg that's such a funny anecdote! and i'm so touched to hear that my videos had that kind of a positive influence for you

[@remaious]

today is my first day on T. wanted to share, ive wanted this since i was 11 and im 18 now. im so excited but my worry lies in the reactions of my family.. but this has made me so hopeful for the good things

[@TheOfficialNumber7]

CONGRATULATIONS!! OMG

[@Zoopie101]

It’s so reassuring to know that I’m not alone in the constant doubt and worry about transitioning that you have experienced before. You and your entire channel has given me so much hope, thank you so much Arthur for everything!

[@arthur_rockwell]

i really thought it would never end! and now it feels like a faint memory. i'm wishing you luck in getting through this doubt

[@Zoopie101]

I really appreciate that :) Also big congratulations on 3 years on T!!! 🎉🎉

[@Hhhhhhhhh186]

What you say about connection is so true. I'm only 5 months along, but I keep seeing the light in other people's eyes and it is blowing my mind. The fog of dysphoria was so thick. Now that it's gone, I can connect with people so much easier. It isn't a struggle anymore. After many lonely years, I'm feeling like I'm coming home. Thank you for this video. It is hard times for me right now, waiting for the changes. I know I'm going to make it and you give me hope.

[@_mels_hellscape_]

im so happy for you!! my second hrt appointment is tomorrow, meaning i'll be start estrogen extremely soon! i have a lot of the same thoughts you did, so thank you for letting me know i was not alone

[@arthur_rockwell]

Aww of course! Congratulations - what an exciting time :)

[@_mels_hellscape_]

@@arthur_rockwell ty! 2 months in and I feel so amazing! It feels so right

[@Stormnado_]

@@_mels_hellscape_ hope its still going well for you

[@allyberg2792]

This made tear up. As someone who’s just at the start of transition, it gives me so much hope just seeing your journey

[@causedolls4915]

As a trans person pre medical transition... This was so incredible to hear

[@CorinaChirilaArtist]

trans Man or trans woman?

[@AllyWhiteArtist]

With all of the horror stories floating around, it's nice to hear a happy story.

[@arthur_rockwell]

aw yes i'm happy to be one :)

[@ericcanion]

Thank you for sharing your journey. as a trans man who struggles to cry, i sobbed watching this because i was reminded of how i used to look so womanly and felt so awful. But now im 7 months on t and so much happier. You have reminded me of what really matters. Thank you.

[@Aquatendo]

Congrats on 3 years Arthur, I love your confidence and you look amazing! As someone nearly 3yrs into the opposite journey, transitioning has set me free in similar ways as well!

[@gpauthor]

Finally something that makes me feel joy in these uncertain times. So happy for you Arthur :)

[@eumelyo]

Arthur somewhen around 6:50: "I couldn't believe how perfect it looked". DAMN BOY, ME NEITHER. YOU LOOK AMAZING!!! And I actually just saw your video on not-harmful binding techniques today so when I saw this video I was just SO HAPPY FOR YOU

[@CDTRACER]

i keep watching this video every time i start to feel dysphoric or depressed and just hating my situation or thinking “what if I’m wrong?” Then I see you and where you’re at in life, your challenges, and achievements, and i see how happy you are. Happy to see the results, to finally see it all pay off and then I know I’ll get to see my chance, I just have to work towards it and one day i’ll start to see it all happen. Thank you for showing me that!

[@allgotterer]

Thanks, Arthur, for such an articulate and well-illustrated story of all the mixed emotions around transitioning. I know there was a while there when you weren't sure, but the joy, confidence, and hotness of seeing you grow into your true body just shines through. I'm really happy for you!

[@fruit_salad]

this video gives me so much hope

[@arthur_rockwell]

I'm so happy to hear that ❤️

[@Optimistic_Nihilist_73]

It's so relatable how much you've questioned things. I'm very anxious about being trans. I'm scared my appearance will change in a way I won't like, even if I am a guy. I'm short, literally just 5'4", I feel like I won't be attractive as a guy. Does that make sense? I do want to be a guy but I still do want to be considered attractive. This video is so refreshing because it's so honest and open about everything. It feels warm. It reminds me of cranberry cake and milk on a Christmas eve. Honestly, most of the media I come across about being trans is so backlashed and the comments are horrible. I'm scared of calling myself trans. This video eases that worry so much. I've been pretty depressed lately, wondering about whether I'll be mistreated in college [I live in India, aiming for IIT], when I'll transition, if I'll be able to do it before I get a job because I don't want people I'm employed with to know, how I'll handle airport checks, whether someone at my gym thinks I'm not a guy, these little things. This video genuinely gives me so much hope. I think I can do it all in time. It's alright.

[@deymos4523]

Seeing your joy just makes me so happy. I am a 19 year old trans man and I have just recently come out to my family,I'm currently in university and I am just getting used to the idea of starting to transition now.Transitioning is something I have always wanted since I accepted myself as trans in 2019 but realizing now that I could do it now that I am a legal adult in my country (Brazil) made it scary. "What if I regret it?" "What if it makes me feel unhappy about how I look?" "What if people find my trans body unattractive?" as a gay trans man, these doubts kept poping up in my head everytime I thought about getting an appointment. But seeing your video made me realize that starting testosterone before everything is about me feeling comfortable in my own body!! I couldn't help but cry tears of joy when I heard you describe how you felt more comfortable and happier over the years,and realized that this is exactly what I want for myself,I want to feel happier as the time passes,because time will pass anyway. It truly is a leap of faith,but when I get my own financial income this year I have decided to start my transition process. Thank you so much for this amazing video I wish you the best in life!! ps: I'm sorry if I made any mistakes english isn't my first language but I felt so emotional watching I had to comment 😭😭

[@nickjones8596]

Oh gosh! Beautiful. Thanks for sharing. I just started almost 3 months ago now and it’s been nothing short of amazing so far. To finally feel myself is truly a gift.

[@starsstarsandstars]

this was so heartfelt! I'm on my own journey and the joy I feel watching videos like yours is inmense! Wish you all the best! and thank you for shinning a light for all of us!

[@ollygaetheirnandez]

did not expect this video to make tear up

[@ollygaetheirnandez]

@@Lulu-xl5cm get a life

[@MH-gd5uu]

Congrats Arthur, it's so great to see you thrive!

[@zayyduhkidd1]

This resonated so much for me, especially as my 2 years on T approaches and how similar our feelings seem to be. I love this for you and your happiness gives me hope. I can’t wait to further align with my community too

[@lazekozuya]

thank you for sharing this.. the way you talked about your transition gave me a reminder that my transition has made me happy and not take for granted what we decide for ourselves ♥

[@lennyface6828]

So glad you're doing so well bro! This video is really uplifting :D

[@xentharas5629]

I was really surprised how you could hear the voice changing, I love that you spoke the same sentence several times to make that clear. I really thought, that might take much longer. I know, that even this time feels like an eternity if you wait for it, but I thought, you might have to wait for years.

[@alexdarkly]

Thank you for this. I was recently approved for my prescription of Testosterone for gender-affirming care and I'm consuming a lot of this type of media while I anxiously and excitedly wait to pick it up at the pharmacy this upcoming Monday. Every video means a lot, but I could relate to this one the most and the scope of 3 years isn't that hard to digest. The thoughts and concerns and the fear you described, I know those. I have those. The awkwardness, not fitting in, not feeling like I can "have fun or be involved socially".. I KNOW those! I am so excited for my next couple of years. Consider me "back in time", and all of these thoughts and comparison photos make me incredibly full of hope for what is to come.

[@TheMissKittey]

Such a wonderful video! I loved the style of storytelling, it made me feel connected to you and your journey 💖 Seeing you thrive and really come into your own put a huge smile of my face ☺❣

[@lh42069]

Hey Arthur, I've been following your channel for a while now and remember watching your videos back when I kept trying to convince myself that transition was just a passing daydream for me. Not only do I resonate with a lot of aspects of your path to acceptance but it turns out I also recognize many of the places in your early photos (I currently go to school there). It is really strange - opening this video, I was not at all expecting to see a reflection of what I'm going through in the same places a few years before. Thank you for sharing these photos and for your channel as a whole. You give me hope :)

[@arthur_rockwell]

omg that's such a wild connection! i love what a small world it is. thanks for this lovely comment

[@AlreadyButtercup]

You did it! You did it! i wish you many many more years of happiness! ❤

[@bunnybal]

I'm so happy for you, thank you so much for sharing your story with us 🥰.

[@p0tat0s0up]

Arthur - this video hit me just as hard as your 2 year video. when i first watched that video (and found your channel), i was pre t and confused and not happy with where i was. now i’m almost 8 months on t and starting to resonate a lot more with what you’re saying :) thanks for the good vibes

[@arthur_rockwell]

hell yeah that's such an exciting change! congratulation on your transition -- hopefully my 4 year video will resonate even more :)

[@okayykalebb]

I love this. This helped me feel not alone. Thank you for showing me that there’s hope. I’m FtM, but pre t. I’m *hopefully* going to be starting testosterone soon! I’m so excited! Thank you for posting this video, it’s helped me and many other people a lot :) 💕

[@gr3nn]

Thank you for posting this and sharing your story in general, I’m still grappling with my own experience with gender and can strongly relate to the planning and contingency-planning, the uncertainty and the doubt that what I’m feeling is real and valid. I recently started therapy to talk about these issues, and have started to present in a way that feels more true to myself, also looking into the process of starting HRT and the options available to me. I can’t say I would’ve managed to get this far without your videos, big thank you and I’m happy for you man, cheers to 3 years and the acceptance of the joy you deserve.

[@arthur_rockwell]

That's all so exciting! Congrats on taking those steps. I love hearing how my videos played a role in people stepping into authenticity

[@axofbrevity]

You really put well into words the same kind of mental journey I've been on in my own transition, going from worrying I'm not really trans to worrying how to convince others to see me as male despite not really looking like it to now feeling more at ease with my presentation while also more concerned with how to broach the subject of my transness with those I am close with. I hope someday I'll be able to get top surgery so I can feel comfortable going back to the gym, right now I'm stuck with free weights in my bedroom

[@arthur_rockwell]

i'm hoping you get top surgery soon too! (and then you can be like me --- still doing free weights in the bedroom like half of the time but out of laziness not bc of my chest lol)

[@peter_steur]

dude what a cool and touching transition story. i also found it very painful realizing i was trans and now as i near two years on T i am happier than ever and blossoming into the man i'm supposed to be. thrilled for you to be at 3 yrs on T now and loving life! it also gives me even more hope for things to keep getting brighter. congratulations brother

[@arthur_rockwell]

yes it's such a scary but rewarding journey to be trans! congratulations on nearing two years on T!

[@markrussell3428]

@@arthur_rockwell Arthur you continue to be the role model that provides hope. Do you every regret your delay in letting people in and starting your transition earlier? You seem to have relied on a great deal of introspection and reflection - is that possible in your early teens or even younger?

[@mikeymike9616]

You look amazing Arthur! I’m so happy for you & proud of your courage.

[@jeff95050]

I think you are beautiful, inside and out. Thank you for recording and sharing your journey and your self. I have rarely enjoyed a video as much as yours in a long time. So happy to see you happy. It spreads!! THANK YOU!

[@Zed-b8h]

Thank you for creating this video and congratulations on your transition! This gives me a lot of hope for what’s next to come with my own transition. I’m starting HRT in a month.

[@blablablair1]

Congrats on your 3 years Arthur! It's been a delight to follow your channel. Wish you well

[@arthur_rockwell]

thank you!!

[@heckinghummus2863]

I just started T three days ago. I’m so excited to experience the kind of joy I know this experience will bring and has brought u

[@binji182]

im not crying you are bro i get so happy to see ppl who do hrt happy

[@arthur_rockwell]

aww

[@davidpeters2625]

I just would like to say, from the bottom of my heart, thank you so much for sharing your story. You have such an articulate way of describing your personal journey, and I very much admire the fact that you have embraced your transition. It really does give me the courage I need for my eventual transition, to grab my fears and doubts by the horns, and one day (hopefully VERY soon), begin Estrogen. Again, I just wanna say thank you so much for giving me hope...

[@audpicc]

The recommendation for sanitizing the injection site has changed! New research shows that sanitizing your skin makes you more prone to infection than the protection of your natural fauna. My endocrinologist 3 months ago told me to switch to only sanitizing the vial and not the skin.

[@jordynritchie3087]

I’m so happy for you Arthur. I relate to the feeling you had that everything would go wrong. I too am working through it. Your video is absolutely inspiring

[@alluneedislessthan3]

I’ve been coming out to myself lately and I’m planning on coming out to my best friend today. I’m sobbing at this. The beginning part is my story, and seeing the freedom and happiness you have makes me so happy and hopeful for the future. Thank you. ♥️

[@DuhAnimeProtagonist]

wow this is one of my new fav transition documentation. ugh... i cant wait to be able to start mine. i really hope when i get top surgery the scares clear up like yours but my boobahs are kinda big so i think they will be very visible forever :( it sounds like a dream to be able to be shirtless and be filled with joy rather than stress. i try to not let it bother me but seriously the boobahs get to me

[@brigaydes949]

i love this Labrador - type man and his smiles are contagious

[@daroom9854]

Im a gnc woman with dysphoria and i have a similar experience to you! I'm not going to transition, but expressing my masculinity has made me more comfortable with myself.

[@sarsoorGio]

no more loneliness?! What a gift!! Happy for you. Thx for sharing some of the hope...it's very much needed.

[@Eli-u5s8l]

This makes me really happy, thank you for sharing this man

[@arrowheaded]

I'm glad for how refreshing and encouraging it is to hear you be immensely happy/positive about your transition. I would love to see a workout routine/journey video :)

[@zalletu]

Oh I love the "I can’t stop taking selfies” era 😂

[@alligaythor6070]

this video makes me so incredibly happy

[@AspenTheAcademic]

I'm 14 1 year on T I hope to get to the part of my transition when I'm comfortable just telling people that I'm trans and being able to date people comfortably. This was really cool to watch bro.

[@AspenTheAcademic]

update: bi girlfriend that loves me update 2: that girl turned out to be an asshole update 3: girls like me for me now

[@Bloody_Corpses]

Congratulations!! I'm happy for you 🤗 I wish I was able to start T at your age

[@flynnus182]

holy shit i didn't know there were places where you could get T so young, happy for you man

[@Mothxcat]

You are so lucky congratulations

[@WYATTWHATWHY]

Never ever take what you have for granted. You are more lucky right now than you will ever possibly know.

[@thats3geese]

I'm nowhere close to where you are on T or with my transition, but this made me so unbelievably happy for you and - potentially - for me too!

[@GreysonCummings82]

Hi! Transman here, 6 months on T. And loving every step of the journey. I relate so much with what you share and just wanted to tell you I’m grateful for your sharing.

[@maxwolfvalerio]

Great video! Thank you for making it! Congrats on your beautiful (relatively) new life! And, in San Francisco, where I lived for many years!

[@robkenyon6949]

Many congrats on your successes and happiness!

[@valentia1752]

This made me cry, this gave me hope. Thank you so much 😭

[@commandershepard5421]

Hopefully, I'm starting testosterone soon and this video gives me so much hope! Thank you for this

[@snubnosedmonke]

this touched my heart i nearly cried, what a wholesome video!

[@ronan-outoftime]

purely by coincidence i'm watching this just after your 4th T anniversary!! congrats arthur 🎉

[@augustr4wberry]

You look so happy in the photos after starting to transition!! Good for you man

[@Someperson103]

I just wanna say - thank you so much for not only including the positive sides to transitioning, but also the worries that maybe you were faking it. I am a young trans guy who cannot even begin to transition for years to come, yet I still worry that maybe I’m faking it. Your honesty throughout the video gives me hope for the future, and for that I thank you

[@pinkandblueUmbrella]

This is really encouraging and gives me hope for my future, thank you!

[@ralapeit0]

My 3rd year anniversary was on July 25th, pretty close to yours! And I also had top surgery almost two months ago now. I am very glad to say that we share a lot of the same feelings of bliss and happiness that I never thought was even possible. Even if I'm bummed out, sad sometimes, it's never heavier than the happiness of finally living and being comfortable with my body and in peace in my mind. Although I never thought I would regret it, my biggest fear was always the outside reaction. I knew I was trans since I was 13, only came out at 18, after graduating highschool because of the fear of whatever the response could be. If only I knew how easy it would be!!! I'm happy to live my truth and so happy that so many of us can share this feeling

[@arthur_rockwell]

I sooo agree! It's just wild how much lighter the sadness is now that I'm happy with myself and my body.

[@thewitt55]

Good for you!!! So proud of my younger chosen family!

[@frostflake_heron]

Arthur you may not see this but seeing how happy you are makes me happy and comfortable. I’m not like you but also kind of since I’m non binary. But seeing people around you accept you for your transition gives me hope that if I wear a binder some day people won’t judge me, just for being myself. Thank you. I hope you and your partner are living your best lives ❤❤

[@태이씨]

You look SOOOO handsome and happy on your latest photos!🎉

[@eljay_sys]

Just thank you so much. I'm pre T and the same age you started testosterone and this video almost made me cry and fills me with hope 😢

[@arthur_rockwell]

aww 🥰

[@mkra7769]

I wish estrogen was as powerful for me as testosterone was for you Congrats on your transition dude! You definitely look a lot happier now

[@sidekickghost]

Congrats man, you look great :) I’m starting T soon and I am excited for the future

[@timstein8045]

This gives me hope that I can find happiness also. Thanks so much for sharing ❤

[@al45-v5b]

Currently debating transitioning at a similar point in life and this video means a lot to me. Thank you so much for your open articulation of doubts and fears, and how everything shifted over time.

[@4lex_r4yne]

man, you got me tearing up. i’m so proud of you. as a 16 year old transgender man this really hits close. i had some worried about starting t but i think i might wanna step forward and do it. im so happy for you, happy pride month! 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️

[@officialneverfar]

brainwashed by the westren media. thank god i am normal and i am a serb

[@sammrap-nl1sp]

​@@officialneverfar mf can't even spell western, also there are eastern european trans people bro

[@sammrap-nl1sp]

@r4yiscool good luck man

[@4lex_r4yne]

@@sammrap-nl1sp thank you so much ❤️

[@finchiezwrld..]

this video gave me so much hope! thank you for sharing this. i cannot wait to start my transition in hopefully a few months (also, your T anniversary is on my birthday!)

[@LtJDangle]

I’m so thankful I found your channel a few months ago. After 30 years of waffling about it, I finally cut my hair a week ago (thanks immensely for that video you made! I was very prepared, thanks to you!). I’m truly inspired by you. I’ve just hit 40, and I’ve finally reached that breaking point where I can’t just keep up the facade anymore. I’ve spent an inordinate amount of time fearing that there’s no point in transitioning this late in life, but then I found your channel. When I watch your videos, and see how you light up the world around you makes me feel like every day that I go on not embracing who I know I am is another day where I can instead be working toward an authentic life, no matter what that looks like or how long it takes. I decided that it’s not about “how many years left do I have, and is the effort even worth it?” It’s about being on my journey, one day at a time. A masculine haircut? Check! Made an appointment with a gender counselor? Check! I’m on my journey, and with my new haircut, I feel like a whole new person. I’m just so grateful that you’re sharing your journey with us. And from the bottom of my heart, I’m grateful for finding you when I did. 💛

[@arthur_rockwell]

wow, this comment really touched me! i am so honored that i've played (however small) a part in your journey towards authenticity. it truly is amazing how much life blossoms in front of you when you start taking steps towards being your full self. congratulations on your haircut and your appointment with the gender counselor!

[@nym5qu17]

i love seeing the progression of happiness as he grows more comfortable in his own skin

[@trashcanman9357]

Those first few minutes are like hearing my own story told back to me. Here’s to finding the rest of it in the near future 🍻

[@CupcakesAreYummy667]

I'm three months on testosterone and this video really inspired me for my future. It's been hard, feeling like I have to wait for everything and that I can't truly live my life until I pass as male, but seeing you and hearing your story really inspires me and makes me think that I can have a future like that some day too

[@hugomarquez3189]

Beautiful story, I’m so glad you found your way, I hope it only gets better, and you do look great shirtless 😉

[@jimmie9]

Good for you young man. Happy for you.

[@atlas-pk5em]

ur transition was amazing. im thinking of how to convince my parents rn to let me start hrt mtf before my voice can drop any lower. although i havent even reached halfway through adolescence, i feel like what choice im making is probably more for the better. even tho i have a chance of regretting it, i think ill be happier. ive started putting on really small amounts of makeup and i really liked how i looked with it on. i remember when i was little i would put on my moms heels and a large sweater and pretend to be a model, catwalking down the runway. i hope my decision is a change for the better.

[@MrWordcat]

Arthur, i love this journey for you!!!

[@elliottcoleman8225]

That part about the fear is so real. That is what kept me back for so long. I was afraid of that masculinity. I seldom hear people talk about that. Every step of the way you're trying to convince yourself that you don't want it. You're discussing how it's going to go wrong. You're terrified that you're just misguided and that you're going to regret this. The dam finally broke for me when I began to tackle my fear of masculinity, and I saw a particular video of a trans woman, smiling. Something about her smile was like nothing I'd seen from her before. I had followed her for a while and never saw her smile like that until she was around a year into her transition. It broke me. I craved that happiness so much. Only recently have I even been able to think I deserve that. I'm a week on testosterone right now and I can't wait to start the rest of my life.

[@cthulhuswaistcoat2739]

This video made me choke up. I’m like 1.5 months on T and loving the small changes so far but also trying not to be impatient about it. I just have to give myself time. It’ll be okay.

[@mikuenjoyerXD]

Update???

[@cthulhuswaistcoat2739]

Very random timing, I was just thinking about this video again for some reason. I’m 8 months on testosterone. I have a much deeper voice now! I love that so much. A lot of other changes are just what’s on the tin. One thing I didn’t expect but should have is being constantly overheated. I’ve gotten some funny stories out of it such as friends’ transphobic parents suddenly thinking I’m a cis guy. Most of the time I feel absolutely normal. I don’t think about it unless I forget to take my hrt. Worth the months where it feels like nothing is happening 1000 times over.

[@atheriault888]

We have such a similar upbringing! As a child and as a teenager. I feel you with wearing boxers under a dress. Your words are so affirming and relatable. I am 3 weeks on T and it’s the best choice I finally got to commit too. It’s definitely scary but so rewarding. Thank you for your story🙏🏼

[@HaraldSeiwert]

What a journey! All the best for you on your way further.

[@cmlmao20k8]

Loved hearing about your story! Its soo funny seeing pictures of philips exeter in the background..lmaooo

[@Beyondthebinarybrain]

I’m transitioning in the next few months, and I’m so scared but I am so excited. Thank you for your video! It’s so helpful, and I am so proud of you

[@user-iz8rr1kt5w]

This was beautiful. I’m on the waitlist now for my intake appointment for a diagnosis of dysphoria (required in my country for HRT) and I am so excited!!

[@arthur_rockwell]

congrats!!

[@vh1830]

Holy shit T worked magic on your voice that's amazing.

[@braidenblainebarrow2842]

Thank you so much for sharing this is a beautiful video I'm so happy for you and proud of you you're an inspiration congratulations King 🏳️‍⚧️👑💪🏼❤️

[@Hellohello...729]

I'm so happy for u ❤

[@flurmp1238]

The gains myst have been crazy!!