tiktoks for neurodivergent and/or mentally ill ppl - episode 9

[@tieflingcorpse9817]

shout out to people who interpret their emotions as data and can only fully understand other's emotions through analogy. "im like 80-90% happy right now" "im like 80-90% happy except this time that 20-10% is very loud" "these are the pros and cons of being friends with this person" "cultural appropriation is like if someone insulted your shirt, then stole that shirt and acted like their helping the whole time"

[@wispofthevalley]

My mood, is eh. That's the only thing I can ever use to describe my mood because I'm never 100% anything.

[@gmcnabb174]

yes this is sort of me i can only describe my emotions through metaphors and vague sounds

[@tieflingcorpse9817]

@@gmcnabb174 "how are you feeling today?" "EEEEEE"

[@gmcnabb174]

@@tieflingcorpse9817 ASGDHHDGF EXACTLY

[@wispofthevalley]

@@tieflingcorpse9817 Yaaaaa

[@Mickey_Moon507]

If I unalive myself no one will cuddle my dog when she's scared and she'll have to get used to being around the house without me to guide her (she's blind) so I'm gonna be here for a while 🙃

[@theothefaye01]

Dude, literally the only reason I haven’t unalived, is because no one would take care of my dog or cats and that can’t happen

[@jamesp.sullivan8928]

same tho tbh, and my brothers bc no one would be there to defend them from our grandmother if I died

[@xx_somescenecath0lic_xx888]

If you unalived urself I’d be sad, the world is crap w/out you

[@xx_somescenecath0lic_xx888]

@@theothefaye01 same for you

[@xx_somescenecath0lic_xx888]

@@jamesp.sullivan8928 and for you

[@literallywhy6162]

Bathrooms are a sacred place. I don’t know how to put into words how much safer I feel sitting on my bathroom floor with my back on the wall and the door locked

[@isabella2690]

I agree

[@Moetron_V2]

Mmm, it’s so nice and cool in there too Good place 10/10

[@softlikebambi]

Ikr? It’s like- so comforting..?

[@juliefarrell6688]

Sometimes, I take my snacks, phone, headphones and switch and just sit down in the bathroom clothing pile for a while. Is good time.

[@kjirstinawalker2711]

I would get in trouble for this ALL THE TIME! I personally love the bathtub though. Not even like for baths, just to lay in

[@nymthetyrant]

I just realized that when I slightly don’t like a food I literally won’t eat it. Like, it’s not me being picky, it’s like my mind physically won’t let me eat this food. And when I eat a certain food for like three or more days in a row I just tend to start hating it and then it starts to become something I just won’t ingest (except for my favorite food, rice). but like... I never thought it meant anything.

[@fureverX3]

oh man same

[@junoismad]

same here, I won’t touch chicken or tomatoes that are in any means hot (like in sauce, burger etc) even if I would be starving. just no, it’s gross

[@cursedalmondcookie5880]

Same, even if I knew that a food had bacon or anything I won't eat it, and if I didn't know the next day I would have stomach ache trying to vomit it back up. Now I'm okay since I can eat egg with no problem but I'm still sensitive to pork.

[@moiaussi7722]

So I'm not the only one who wants to eat certain foods all the time for a few days and then gets tired of them?

[@avshshhaba273]

wait is that a sign of something i thought this was normal

[@shashipackofulski9656]

Okay so I’m autistic and my special interest is movies and I just saw one called Un Chien Andalou and it was so amazing!!! Basically, it’s a French silent film from 1929. It doesn’t have much of a plot but it tackles themes of dreams and the more animalistic side of humans. Where people’s conscious and subconscious meet. Sort of like Eraserhead meets Charlie Chaplain. Directed by Luis Buñuel (who by the way is a genius). Which btw if you like movies like this you would LOVE “A Girl Walks Home Alone at Night” directed by: Ana Lily Amirpour (also a genius). Sorry I know this is random, I just wanted to say this and I though if there was a place where everyone would understand it would be in videos like this.

[@junoismad]

thank you for this!

[@felixcosm]

That sounds so cool, thanks for the recommendation!

[@shashipackofulski9656]

@@felixcosm Yay!

[@cyd3ria135]

Omg! Movies are my special interest as well...im going to be watching the movie you mentioned bc i love movies that are based on subconscious mind, surrealism and psychology. Have you heard of "The Perfect Blue"?

[@thatonenotmentallyillmf3199]

I've got a good reccomendation for a comfort movie of mine. It's called "raggedy Ann and andy's musical adventure" it's a really lovely movie with a great soundtrack.

[@-0m3rcy0-8]

8:20 My definition of yelling is slight anger in your voice and that anger being even remotely directed at me Edit: @ anyone reading, your definition of yelling and what makes you uncomfortable is valid. you are welcomed here and i hope you are safe and happy.

[@shroomd7657]

yes. yes. yes. any voice thats too loud (unless it doesnt sound angry or annoyed) can trigger anxiety and panic attacks for me. i think its the trauma 😅

[@itsmexoxurmom]

exactly lol, i expected that tiktok to go the other way where they interpret even slight raised or angry tone as yelling 💀 it’s like. that kind of tone is a precursor to getting screamed at yk so i always just assume it’s yelling lolll

[@334...4]

Same tbh, I can't handle people being even a bit angry at me

[@wispofthevalley]

I don't like that. Its not even the volume, it scares me when people start talking really calmly too.

[@lv4519]

Same, the RSD really amplifies how loud and angry it is

[@BimdoeDoll]

That locking yourself in a bathroom one was wild. I never felt more seen

[@zanegarglezsehmen]

only if my bathroom locked 😎🔫

[@monsterfucker.]

SAME YDYFCYYG

[@user-tf2rx5kn8l]

my bathroom doesn’t have a lock but i do that nonetheless. i’m still anxious as fuck cause then my parents get mad at me for staying in the bathroom for hours at a time but.. idk.

[@Roseeter]

i’m happy my tiktok made you felt seen x

[@vg_aim1910]

that first one,,, the adhd part is absolutely true source: have ADD (it’s basically adhd but without the hyper)

[@dragonmage1175]

It's inattentive adhd, not add ^^ just letting you know

[@eggfroggowo]

yeah, the first one called me out on MANY levels :’)

[@vg_aim1910]

@@dragonmage1175 oh didn’t know my parents always just called it add

[@ExtraCrispyAthena]

I would just like to say that I love the baby king pfp

[@vg_aim1910]

@@ExtraCrispyAthena baby king supremacy

[@KatBambi]

3:14 holy shit yes thank you oh my god, I can’t stand people just taking his shit at face value. I wish people gave him the credit he deserves for making such absolute emotional masterpieces of art that has changed and will continue to change so many lives

[@itsmexoxurmom]

righttttt its incredible especially if you actually see into the meaning of it ive become obsessed w it lolll

[@evilgayrobot]

DOUBLE TROUBLE I AM BOTH MENTALLY ILL AND NEURODIVERGENT

[@chthoniceldritchdeitywithp4977]

DAMN DOUBLE HOMICIDE (This is a joke, saying this as a person who is also mentally ill and neurodivergent)

[@grog_]

YOOOOOO same

[@autisticrabi5296]

DEPRESSED AUTIST GANG

[@monsterfucker.]

YOOO SAME

[@anjelamowell4216]

SAME

[@junoismad]

ayyy stopped watching a cartoon that I’m obsessed with rn for this compilation, I was waiting for it!

[@chaples_]

Not to intrude but like (tw caps//////) *W H A T C A R T O O N*

[@ceilingfanenvy]

ooh drop the cartoon?

[@abbybugs694]

I'm curious what cartoon?

[@junoismad]

alr., not that interesting but I’m rewatching all ben10 series and it’s amazing

[@завали_уже]

K if you wanna really cool cartoon you'll become obsessed with it's "Lastman"

[@danniehopkins6650]

5:32 I do this alllll the tiiiiime!!! Bathrooms afford you more privacy than any bedroom could ever afford you. My mom took my door, and now I spend hours in the bathroom because that's the spot where I'm allowed to cry and not be judged for it, because everyone else assumes I'm still on the toilet, when in reality, I'm on the floor crying to 'When The World Caves In' for the 8th time due to my depression not letting me feel anything.

[@nyx..z]

bro when i listen to when the world caves in it’s literally like the only time i feel emotion 😩/hj

[@Roseeter]

i’m happy you found my tiktok helpful

[@basildoingthings819]

5:32 not me locking myself in the bathroom whenever I really need a break and there’s lots of people around or someone’s mad at me because they can’t get at me in there

[@haveagoodmourning]

i do that too

[@neoagent3]

i lock myself in the bathroom at school because 1. too many people talking/loud noises in general 2. breaks

[@grog_]

yes same

[@anjelamowell4216]

Same. That's how I get away from confrontation and talking to people

[@susanstephenson5474]

I'm so glad someone finally said the thing about the mental illness getting worse over quarantine not quarantine being the problem and how that's what insides about. Because oh my gosh yes

[@ursulaenjoyer5369]

0:21 nooo brainly literally carried me this year 😭

[@dramaticdog337]

I feel the girl who locks herself in the bathroom on a cosmic level. I have lived 23 years of my life with a toxic mother. Who completely disregarded my adhd which i was diagnosed with at a very young age and never even accepted to face the fact i might be autistic too, was jst not diagnosed because a lot of it was hidden by my adhd and brushed off as "just a little girl with adhd". I was never allowed to have my own space. Never had any privacy. And i was constantly being torn down when i expressed anything but neutral or happy. So yeah, i would never ever cry in my bedroom because she's just walk in, all the time, without knocking and then comment on whatever i was doing. Usually making me feel like shit about it.

[@gladysolvera6566]

are you away from her? no offense but your mom sounds frightening.

[@magnoliablossom4750]

7:46 oh. when I get excited, I get loud. I grew up with a brother on the autistic spectrum. He struggles with volume control too. And my dad yelled at us a lot when we were kids. That's why people think I'm angry. Different definitions. I hate loud noises tho. I only project when I'm around my family. My dad isn't perfect and I look up to him, even if he may have contributed to my anxiety disorders haha.

[@junoismad]

same here! I get excited - I get loud. my parents scream at me for this all the time, saying that is the reason my dog doesn’t like me and she’s afraid of me and stuff. I don’t control it, when I’m passionate about something I don’t think about controlling my voice level, I just forget about it

[@Dougiewoof]

I heard this is a good common ADHD thing but for me my body has a hard time recognizing things like hunger signals. So it could be like 3 hours since I ate and someone can ask me are you hungry and I'll be like no when in reality I probably am. So it's really gotten to the point where I can't be like am I hungry I have to be like how long has it been since I've ate.. Ah it's been like 3 hours I'm going to get myself a snack or a plate of food

[@Dougiewoof]

When I'm now realizing is that that doesn't just related things like food intake it also relates to things like remembering to drink water or getting to the bathroom on time.

[@Dougiewoof]

Not to mention that a lot of times there's ADHD your sense of time is just practically nonexistent.

[@hyperfocus1963]

Yep, interoception is the word for those body cues to the brain and dang are they hard for some of us to notice! I tend to just feel generally irritated for a while until I figure out the cause (usually needing to go to the bathroom, eat, or drink)

[@Dragonling07]

6:23 I thought everyone felt their emotions physically??? When my emotions are too strong i feel physical pain which frustrates me and makes it worse

[@rsmith6366]

Me, throwing up whenever I feel a strong emotion? Are you sure?

[@Dragonling07]

@@rsmith6366 That doesn't sound fun :(

[@kate.6262]

11:26 YO I SWEAR EVERY TIME I WATCH ONE OF THESE COMPILATIONS I FIND SOMETHING NEW THAT EXPLAINS ME Thank you so much for making these, they've helped me so much in figuring out myself-

[@cecilb8287]

0:27 as somebody with trauma who listens to the same song on repeat,,,, I’m gonna need somebody to explain that one because idk how those two are connected-

[@cecilb8287]

In the mean time- somebody please send help I’ve been listening to Florence’s “girl with one eye” for an hour now and my brain won’t let me stop

[@redangelofpreventingharm]

Now I feel you and do the exact same thing, but I'm no expert so here's one thing the internet (and Dr. Alice Honig) says- "Because music is so tied to our emotions, the song you're listening to might be getting you through a rough time, or even helping you get more in touch with what you're feeling."

[@thebananaowenslippedon7095]

no wonder ive been listening to the same song on repeat

[@Niniminns]

I think it's a way to cope and it gives you comfort. I do it too when I get triggered.

[@rsmith6366]

Generally you're transporting yourself to a good memory (real or imagined) to avoid having yourself transported to a bad memory. It's like an anchor to a good thing when you can feel the bad thing pulling at you. For some people they can still remain in the present at the same time, but for others they're 'out of It' regsurdless. But better in a good place than the bad.

[@tasha4519]

pretty sure i have a derealization disorder since nothing feels real anymore and all my memories feel like dreams but otherwise i'm chillin

[@fernbreeze723]

thats honestly the mood

[@xAcidRatx]

Wow, I was actually really surprised when I saw that other people feel their emotions physically. Like every time I’ve tried to explain it to people that don’t feel that, it’s so hard. Like when I’m crying or sad it hurts my chest and causes a sharp pain. When I’m frustrated I get an uncomfortable feeling throughout my whole body (specifically my ‘place,’ yes I know it’s weird don’t judge me), or when I’m excited I get really shaky and anxious. These are really the only thing I can remember cause those are the only emotions I feel regularly.

[@Grey.01-]

I thought it was just me who experienced that feel in your ‘place’ when frustrated I thought it was sumn wrong with me 😭

[@snailofkale]

The locked bathroom one hurts so much. I *BREAKDOWN BREAKDOWN* in the mornings a lot and sometimes I can’t handle my mom screaming at me and my own sluggishness and self loathing for being sluggish and all that jazz so I would hide in the bathroom to try to collect myself. My mom once tried to UNLOCK THE GODDAMN DOOR FROM OUTSIDE. Go to hell, mom. I’m not forgiving you for that.

[@cherryblossom5239]

The autistic young man who spoke of how we feel emotions is so on point and just made me feel a bit better. I am also on the spectrum and I feel the emotions through physical manifestations/reactions and thoughts. By analyzing myself, I can then pinpoint what emotion it might be by using logic.

[@silverlief]

Uh-oh plateau... yeah I feel that. I did great in school, but never did homework and never learned how to study. So when it came to final exams I just... dropped off? I couldn't do it. In class? sure. Coursework? yeah. But having to sit and recall in the middle of a stressful exam? My mind just went blank

[@kjirstinawalker2711]

I felt that on a deep level except for the testing bit. It was testing that got me through classes because I would do course work and homework but if it wasn't done, it wasn't turned in. I thought the idea of studying was silly because, you learn everything in class! Why would you need to review or relearn outside of class. So what I am saying is, no, college is not going well😅

[@redacted5078]

12:00. Holy shit. "Cluttering" the thing I've struggled with through all my damn life thinking i had a speech impediment

[@bleeding-heart-doves4634]

The hiding in the locked bathroom thing was painfully relatable

[@margicates553]

Yep. My parents broke down the bathroom door multiple times.

[@tefmiles]

ALSO ABOUT “ CLUTTERING “ here’s a thing I wrote about a specific experience that happens to me “ so this happens when I’m with people I don’t talk to often, so this dosent happen with like my parents or teachers who I interact with on the daily, but when I talk to people i find myself not having my little brain gremlin anymore? like my thoughts that normally help me decide what i’m going to say next are gone, and so I’m left to just force out the words without *really* taking the time to place them into a sentence. like [ friend ] came over and I was talking to her and when I did I found myself just pushing words out, hurriedly and a bit gingerly, hoping that they all came out. and when they didn’t come out right I would just sit there and try to get the words, which usually left a big chunk of silence. is this a normal thing?? is it just normal average person thing to just loose your ability to speak and say words in a flowing matter???? “ and like, do yall experience this too?? this also happens when i’m focusing on thinking about something, or just not wanting to speak too.

[@randomvideos3670]

I don't talk very much also and yesterday my coworker told me I talk too fast and blend my words together. There are other times where I just speak not even thinking just running my mouth off if I'm comfortable with someone. I had like little voices/"gremlins in my head telling me what to do kinda guiding me, now there gone and my head is just an empty space now 🙃. Sometimes when I try to speak all the words that I've learned ran out my head and I'm making incoherent sounds and sentences. I similarly go thru things like this but I'm not diagnosed but I prolly should be.

[@deactivated399]

@@randomvideos3670 i also feel like this!! talking too fast is something i see when im with ppl with adhd quite often i actually know English very well and can speak fluently but when im reading something my accent gets all screwed up and i combine words or pronounce them differently than what i imagined... even though i KNOW the right pronunciation... and sometimes my thoughts are too fast so i make mistakes while talking its so annoying lol the whole "saying things without thinking first" is something i also do bc people with adhd are more impulsive. and, since i believe i have psychosis, i often feel like people can read my thoughts so im afraid of thinking even harmless stuff in public, which increases the saying things randomly without thinking abt them

[@sadegg9646]

Everytime I watch compilations like these, I keep thinking I have adhd or autism. My brother was diagnosed with asp*ergers when he was little (which is just autism now, right?), and they think my sister has it too since she has the same symptoms. But I can't tell if I'm just putting myself on the struggle bus because my parents only ever mention my sister having it. Thanks for making these though :)

[@sulmascalelover2957]

It's very common for ADHD and autism to run in families. I think it's important to remember that the distinctions between different kinds of ADHD, or the line between being and not being autistic have changed a lot over time. We are probably wrong about what the line is right now, like we have been before, and people of the future will look back at us confused about how we could be so ignorant. I am the only diagnosed person in my family, yet I have gotten many of my neurodivergent traits from both of my parents. They don't think of themselves as neurodivergent because they think they don't have enough traits, or that they don't struggle enough, but neurodivergent people don't just relate to each other over stuff like that. I think we tend to find, live with, and relate to each other without really thinking about it, so maybe the important question isn't whether or not you strictly have it, but whether or not neurodivergent stories and ideas help you learn things about yourself, whether or not you have found "your people."

[@sadegg9646]

@@sulmascalelover2957 ohhhhh I think that makes sense. Sort of. Do you mean that I relate not only to the traits of neurodivergent people, but the way they describe their experiences? I'm sorry if I'm being repetitive, I'm just having a difficult time trying to pick out the basis of what you were saying. Nothing on your part :)

[@sulmascalelover2957]

@@sadegg9646 No need to apologize, I answered because I was hoping I could help! I think that even though a lot of neurodivergent people have discovered their identity by researching or being diagnosed for their traits, being neurodivergent is so much more than just meeting a laundry list of criteria or belonging to a specific category. Neurodivergent people can also find themselves and each other by relating to the experiences of other neurodivergent people. Being on a spectrum is not about being "severe" or "normal," it means that there are a billion different ways to be neurodivergent.

[@sadegg9646]

@@sulmascalelover2957 yes!!! Okay, I understand now, thank you. That's what's been happening to me. Yeah, I read through the symptoms and traits of neurodivergency when I first wondered about it, and it was all just so vague and seemed like a rigid outline of what I had to be, so I just chalk it up to me trying to have struggles. But seeing other people on the internet sharing their experiences and things that they do or think, I go so often "hey! I do that too! That... isn't normal?" You did help, thank you so much :)

[@itsmexoxurmom]

@@sulmascalelover2957 weird question but do you mean they tend to run together or separately? ik they go hand in hand so is that relation the same going through a family

[@audreyflood2388]

The eating disorder is so relevant to me because I'll get hungry for like a minute then be fine so some days I don't even eat until dinner because my mom makes it for the whole family. I just don't eat because I don't want to.

[@ItsMeFern2019]

5:31 I can't express how much it means to me to see that someone else experiences this. I'm 22 now and in my living situation I can't do this anymore but in highschool I just. Sat in the bathroom for so long that my mom started buying me prune juice, thinking I was constipated. In reality, sitting in an enclosed, comfortably lit space with the bathroom fan on was the most comfortable way for my autismo-ADHD-Depression-Anxiety brain to destress but I could never tell her that bc I didn't want her to think I was weird or worry about my mental health. :,)

[@archibaldthejester42069]

2:56 YESSSSS!!!!!! The song 'look whos inside again' perfectly sums up this point: the lyrics say hes found a reason to stay inside again, the quarantine wasnt the main problem it was another reason for retreating due to mental health problems i think i dont know i dont think i worded this right? Lowkey related to that song for other reasons because of the "when youre a kid and your stuck in your room" bit because my ma wouldnt let me play outside when i was little and that really uh oh whoopsied me a bit but thats beside the point.

[@basildoingthings819]

Hey bestie I’m gonna be gone for 3 weeks but don’t worry when I get back I’m gonna binge all the videos you post if you do post

[@nobodyofconsequence6522]

12:54 "Mommy I don't like outside, I wanna go home" Whelp, there goes my heart of ice melting again

[@omegasmileyface]

god that last one... my dads side is almost entirely autistic and my mom is allistic but bpd and she kind of assumed i was like, doing things like that bc i was hurting emotionally until she saw my dad and i bonding over that shit and she was like "Ahh. We Are All Different"

[@ExtraCrispyAthena]

5:31 I do that all the time because 1. The cool tile is nice 2. It locks and 3. My parents dont allow me to shut my door unless I'm changing my clothes, there was one time where I closed and locked my door while I was crying, my parents took away my door for a month

[@gladysolvera6566]

that is a little 😬

[@ExtraCrispyAthena]

@@gladysolvera6566 ?wut

[@Cydianwood135]

8:32 Holy shit, I'll research some more but the symptoms/reasons are almost exactly the same as what I've been experiencing for the past maybe 8 years of my life. Thanks for these videos Insectoid, they're really amazing :)

[@avaturchan2771]

6:00. Yes. I hide in my bathroom too. Same circumstance as her. Bedroom door doesn't lock and mom doesn't know what privacy is. I get in trouble now for going into the bathroom haha

[@sweetestcyanide]

8:36 This is the closest I’ve ever gotten to having a name for what I went through. I looked it up, and it sounds EXACTLY like my symptoms from years ago. It’s always been frustrating because when I started to be selective with food and eventually stopped eating, it was chalked up to anorexia, even though it had nothing to do with how I wanted to look. It was because of my anxiety and trauma that things went as far as they did. I never knew that there was a proper term for it. It may be something small, but to me, knowing that it’s a thing that’s been seen before is extremely comforting. Thank you for this.♥️

[@trace2262]

ikr i kinda feel like they're exposing me 👀

[@RekkinguBoru]

I also have a weird relationship with food, never eating red meat (Ilike chicken nuggets, but only that) or even vegetables. Sometimes I rejected my foods and went to do my normal activities without eating and I felt really bad. It's horrible how much I prefer taking awful tasting vitamins and not to push myself to eat new things. The worst part for me, is that my mom is a medical professional that specializes in this area, so when I looked up the symptoms and agreed with them, I wished that I could say that I have it and not have to "explain it" anymore to my friends or someone new because it's hurtful to me. Fuck.

[@comeforthepizza]

I LAUGHED SO FUCKING HARD AT THE "ONE WITH OCD WHO CAN'T GRAB THEIR CUP" There are times where I can't touch or hold things because they have to be touched/held JUST RIGHT and honestly I don't know what the fuck "just right" is, it's just me continuously flicking a light or typing the same letter over and over again until the compulsion's eased. Sometimes I have to choose between not interacting with something at all or fixating on it for too damn long.

[@unktheunk1428]

I swear every other one of these I find a new thing to self diagnose

[@unktheunk1428]

A/FIRD and cluttering particularly

[@Blanch590]

I totally relate to feeling emotions physically. When I’m really sad, my heart will literally ache. Like it almost feels like a stomach ache but I’m my heart.

[@chilldogs5444]

You're telling me the signature doesn't HAVE TO BE PERFECT?!

[@rsmith6366]

Because there's no way to actually do it the same every time. Handwriting analysis isn't a definitive science. Generally your hand works on muscle memory, so they look quite similar, but if someone practiced they could get your style if all they has to do was a signature. Because people often do their signature with a flourish anyone trying to copy it would have to know those flourishes, not just write your name in their own style.

[@wispofthevalley]

Not me at 7yrs old practicing my signature all day:

[@chilldogs5444]

@@wispofthevalley ME TOO! Oh my goodness I am rgh I AM SO UPSET ABOUT THIS.

[@wispofthevalley]

@@chilldogs5444 yup

[@hyperfocus1963]

I am SHAKEN

[@EnPriBri]

I see insectoid I click

[@lillyhill6093]

same

[@karina_martinez420]

I see wrath I click but then they make a political post then I de click

[@Torblis]

8:10 yeah i freak out when people make loud noises cause my dad used yelled at me like that and then going "im not yelling"

[@nikolasslead6582]

6:23 WHAT DO YOU MEAN MOST PEOPLE THINK THEIR EMOTIONS.??!! the only way I can tell what I'm feeling is through the physical sensation.

[@Quazex]

Damn you guys are understanding and correctly interpreting the physical sensations????? Couldn't be me😎😎😎😎😎😎😎😎

[@corvcrawler]

0:22 I have PTSD and the one about listening to the same song over and over is a total mood lol

[@oversizedkai14]

Duuude the Uh Oh Plateau, I really relate to thissss! I did really well in primary school but as soon as high school hit. God I went downhill a lot :(

[@samsam-jt3om]

5:31 i used to do that all the time when my parents would fight and i’m not necessarily sure that’s the same thing as what they were talking about but it makes me extremely uncomfortable to be in my bedroom. i literally don’t feel safe and i feel like if i’m in there for any amount of time i’m not doing something right or something jancjsjdj i cant explain it really well. but in my bathroom i would always sit in the bathtub until my parents would stop fighting and i’m 16 now and i still do it when i hear someone yelling or hear loud sounds for long periods of time 🌝

[@saharahowell6486]

7:05 this but I’m experience happiness this way

[@khushik3899]

5:31 absolutely!! i'm not allowed to close my bedroom door unless i'm changing or the ac's on, and we live in a pretty small apartment, so the bathroom is the only place where i can cry (silently of course lmfao)

[@d4sh1wash1]

5:13 for me it was this year and me and my guardian went to therapy together yesterday and ended up talking about it and they were like “well it only happened this year so your just being lazy” and no matter how many times I talked other about it they wouldn’t let me get diagnosed with adhd cus they thought I didn’t have it. After putting me in therapy I got diagnosed with adhd :/

[@chloesibilla8199]

me, a home schooled kid with crippling anxiety : I haven't left my house for months and ive BEEN out of brain chemicals for months now , i didnt think it could keep getting lower after you hit rock bottom. bitches: omg yeah like this quarantine is the WORST right!

[@chloesibilla8199]

the joke is that its not the quarantine that was the problem, literally nothing changed for me , i was already home schooled and never left the house and had mental illness. The only difference now is that when i try to open up about my problems people accredit it to quarantine and pretend they understand.

[@chloesibilla8199]

if anything, my personal social life got better during quarantine. Ive always wanted to cover my face and hide in public . now i can and i'm encouraged to feed that habbit! more people have talked to me during quarantine than they ever did before and people seem more sympathetic now that they know what cabin fever feels like first hand. however i hate when people pretend that our experiences were the same and they know everything about what im going throng now. or when they give the credit for my mental illness to something else . excuse me ? i made all this anxiety myself thank you! hand crafted!

[@fernbreeze723]

@@chloesibilla8199 oh my god you put it into words. i remember earlier on in quarantine i wrote a thingy about like that feeling i get from being stuck at home too long, like idk how to explain it, like stifling and almost shaky but at the same time wanting to tear free and rip things up, and my teacher/helper read it and was like 'oh yeah i think we're all feeling a little stuck/other similar word rn' and just

[@fernbreeze723]

for context where i live makes it essentially impossible to go anywhere, so any time i'm not at school i'm at home

[@chloesibilla8199]

@@fernbreeze723 can we be friends?

[@abbienormals1669]

16:00 This is why neither my brother or I was diagnosed. Except it was my mom that thought it was normal.

[@LunarWind99]

14:34 can I just say how happy it made me to see the different outfits for each era lol, Connor nailed it 👍

[@freaking_out]

11:54 I THOUGHT I WAS JUST BAD A SPEECH. I cannot speak very well and I’ve been told I talk way to fast. It’s a big insecurity of mine

[@redangelofpreventingharm]

2:32 personal stamp because I adore the audio (I know it's Welcome to the Internet, but this part is just- *chefs kiss*)

[@itsmexoxurmom]

finally a mention of it in the comments lollll every song is pure crack but especially this edit of it it makes my brain,, do donuts ? like cars do yk yk

[@that_jester_el]

15:25 do most people not talk to themselves? because when I'm alone and I'm trying to figure something out I'll say things like "what if I do this... ugh no you idiot that won't work"

[@nobxya]

me too

[@lostfroggs]

3:53 I read somewhere once that the second type of person is often a result of having depression or depression-like symptoms/mentalities from a very young age. Your brain is just starting to properly form and so many of your experiences are entirely new when you’re a little kid, and so the neurological connections that cause depression or depressed “mindsets” can be formed much easier than when you’re a teenager or adult. Therefore, your brain pretty much builds itself around those connections, and once you’re older and actually aware of it, being depressed is just basically the norm for you. It’s not a “oh I’ve been depressed my whole life, I’ve never known anything different”, it’s more just “this is how my brain formed itself and it’s definitely majorly fucked up, but it doesn’t really impact me in the “normal” ways”. Take all that with a grain of salt because I think I read it on a tumblr post at 2am, but I thought it was pretty interesting

[@d3ada5tronaut]

7:19 this is why it's so hard for me to explain the symptoms of my mental illness to Literal Professionals because all I can give are somatic experiences. I'm bipolar (type 2? idk my diagnosis hasn't been strictly speaking formalized) and it took me so long to explain my hypomania in a way that would make sense to a neurotypical person. All I could say is 'my heart is beating so fast and im drenched in sweat and my body's shaking, but it's not anxiety. I feel like my brain is buzzing and my chest feels like the moment when you just start falling from the top of a roller coaster all the time without stop and I cant explain why but it feels like im high on drugs' and all they could reply with is "tell me which DSM5 criteria you fill at a time where I didn't even know what those criteria really meant. I eventually did figure it out but like... it took a while

[@coollittlegremlin7243]

6:05 Like YEAH I straight up lived in the same room with my parents cause we're poor (im still doing that, cant really work cause disability) and the only place that had privacy and a goddamn lock was the bathroom (or its like. I didnt even have to lock it because its a bathroom even my parents wouldnt just barge in there like that) And now whenever i am not at home i feel much more safer in a bathroom even if i have a different place to go to.

[@rockyy1740]

5:31 so that’s,,,, so that’s not what everyone does

[@Roseeter]

hello, i’m the creator of the 5:30 one thanks for giving me credit in the caption :) i’m happy people find what i talk about helpful x

[@Daisythepage]

12:14 I have both adhd and autism and this is a trait I didn’t know about yet! Ty fir the info this happens to me a lot lol

[@Homesicktraveler]

2:50- YEAHHHHH bo burnham was my fixation last year so this makes me happy

[@purrfurr4803]

Ooh, I've been waiting for another one of these! Yes! :D

[@-0m3rcy0-8]

8:30 So I may or may not have found another disorder that makes my behaviour make more sense if I had it

[@abigailmaturana741]

5:33 THIS, it ended up getting to the point my parents took out the bathroom door knob (my bedroom didnt have a door) oof, that last one 😂

[@grumblefalls4618]

honestly i did something similar for my signature. i had my “real” signature and my “fake” signature that i would use for different things depending on how much i trusted the document i had to sign but was always super secret about it because i was convinced i could get into actual trouble.

[@jojoxd4342]

Hello, thank you for posting these videos. But there is something I wanted to express a lot of times. It is cool that there is being so much awareness raised about neurodivergency and mental illness but something that strikes me everytime, is that there is little to no information about giftedness being spread, when it is just as important to raise awareness about it the same amount as neurodivergency. So here is a point I noticed: Giftedness does count as neurodivergency and can often appear similar to ADHD and Autism on the outside. Gifted people can have special interests as well and it is related to intellectual over excitability. There are five types of over excitability and gifted people tend to show most or all of them in different intensities. Over excitability is a spectrum and depending on how the types show in an individual, it can lead to them getting misdiagnosed with Autism or ADHD. So yes, many people with these neurodivergencies get undiagnosed for years, but gifted people get misdiagnosed, which is just as dangerous. I just wanted to share this because it really bothers me, that there is not enough information and awareness about giftedness. Whatever, I really like the compilations you post, so thank you for doing so.

[@yeetlol3537]

What is giftedness?

[@-toastrat-1446]

Does anyone else just start crying when people start talking to u angrily cause I do that every time and this vid made me think of that

[@catlovingnerd21]

I just ordered the loop earplugs bc they sound like they'd help life so so much

[@IAmTerrestrial]

6:05 I usually go upstairs in my old room that i can't sleep in cause the power's out cause our house is shitty, that or ill just silently cry when people are out of the room and stop when they come back, as far as my mom knows i haven't cried for like two years

[@ananthajhithakrishnamoorth4762]

Yessss, the bathroom. Where you sit until you no longer are able to make an excuse for. I spend soooo much time in the bathroom

[@ananthajhithakrishnamoorth4762]

This is not sarcasm

[@atallglassoffrog5594]

12:09 this + my speech impediment/lisp = my inability and/or reluctance to speak in front of crowds

[@PeachFiend]

2:32 I didn't read the text at first and didn't realize it was a challenge (I have adhd- by the way) but I've also practiced this kind of thing a LOT (theatre) I was I just- kinda vibing along to it and it worked but when I actually tried to sing it going into one out mode is so much better aaaa

[@conspiracypanda1200]

2:51 Thank god someone else understood that like I thought they would. I watched Inside with my Mum, although she's an exhausted teacher and fell asleep multiple times. I cried during it and had to basically explain to her why, because I knew even before the moment that he admitted something was wrong with him...the exact same thing had always been wrong with me. And it fluctuates. Badly. Mostly in reaction to things you can't control like politics, world events, local events, expectations of yourself _by_ yourself and also by others-- all these things being subjects Bo wrote/spoke/sang about, of course. I haven't had a bad dip in a while and quarantine didn't pick me apart like so many others because I'm extremely happy in solitude, but I sure as hell could recognise a despairing low in someone else. My chest still aches with empathy when I think about it.

[@salomedaniere3618]

The uh-oh plateau was very real to me and I lost 3 years being utterly lost and depressed at university (and failing) until I quit and came back to a undergrad school with a "high school type" system and i did great again. And now i'm a month away from being a master's graduate.

[@monstrousmoss]

5:31 same but I do have a lock on my door, it’s just that my mom has a little metal thingy made specifically to unlock any internal door in the house

[@trlwah9353]

3:53 personally I find that the first time turns into the second type, I was the first kind for years and a mix of being used to it, accepting that you never are going to be a tv perfect person, and a lot of learning how to help function/ doing small things where you can is alot of getting to that point, its not an im good, but its alot better then the first part

[@kiwidragon4950]

4:13 i thought their rabbit was some sort of fucked up cat

[@Bingo-Bungo]

On cluttered speech: I have a reeeaaallly hard time with cluttering but I believe I developed it because I grew up with adults that didn't let me talk, interrupted me constantly, relentlessly bullied me for saying a new word wrong so I was pretty stunted from being able to develop my speaking skills like other kids. I'd say I'm a pretty smart person but I don't come across that way when I have to speak to someone because my mouth just doesn't want to work with me. I've sort of come to terms with it a bit more over the years because of amazingly supportive friends that don't think any less of me for my funky speech. Just thought I'd share my experience idk

[@YurgenLeitnerNotInThisEconomy]

5:35 yeah i do that ! there are no locks anywhere in my house, but when I go to the toilet/bathroom I can sit on the toilet and hold the door closed with my left foot. I can't really do this anymore cuz I have a lot of siblings so I get yelled at if I stay here too long, but I almost always go to the toilet when I'm anywhere and feel like I may have a panic attack or something like that (also the other day I was in my room and my mom tried to enter even tho i was right behind the door, crying on the floor. she asked why she couldn't enter and when I said i just didn't feel like it she got so mad... hard to find a safe space at home anymore ._.)

[@alien-gutz]

We have entered the 9th layer of neurodivergency

[@jaxisvoid3070]

4:28 I think I hit my uh-oh plateau when I started taking AP Bio at the beginning of last year.... I failed that class.... It makes so much sense now....

[@piniatafullofblood]

3:41 EXACTLY!!! EXACTLY.

[@roseszalay2869]

5:42 FRIEND WHY DO YOU KNOW THIS ABOUT ME??!!!

[@heibi55620]

I just finished watching howls moving castle and I’m upset at the fact that we could’ve had turnip head x Sophie, I fucking hate howl with every fiber of my being. /lh

[@yaboiandy7307]

You're so right !!!!!

[@novembers_GH0ST]

so true!! turnip head my beloved...

[@heibi55620]

FINALLY I HAVE FOUND MY PEOPLE!!

[@leifsiessss6640]

true, but consider: I m in love with turnip head- /hj

[@heibi55620]

@@leifsiessss6640 no no, you’ve got a point

[@Bee-fu9uz]

bestie i was just looking to see if you posted 👀👄👀💅

[@sammiisdead8965]

yes that anger think that kristof mentioned it feels like thunder or an avalanche or a big ass wave…it slowly creeps in and then it becomes more noticeable & consumes me and my adrenaline kicks in

[@demi_demon]

8:10 yes exactly‽ (is that how ‽ works i've never used it before) like. That isn't a yell that's a scream, just, like yelling doesn't even have to be loud but it's A NG R Y

[@olliepala]

you should do a qna! it would be fun to see what you are like trig!

[@chthoniceldritchdeitywithp4977]

Okay but the first one called me out on multiple personal levels because I have multiple of the things listed there I feel personally attacked

[@RowanBich]

So 4:25... I've always wondered what's wrong with me, cause the moment I started University, I had a lot of problems with remembering the material. Now I've learned how to learn, but it was/is a though ride... So Thank you for the explanation!!!

[@namenotfound0]

watching all these videos has finally made me realize the struggle my siblings and dad went through as being neurodivergent :( and me being a mean little kid didn’t understand and being mean towards them and ruining relationships

[@heathersonsteng9505]

7:10 Okay, so I'm not diagnosed with ASD or anything, but I've been really suspicious for a number of months now, and this is kind of one thing I've always been confused by, because I also have to recognize my feelings through how my body reacts. I have a very similar showing for anger where my chest gets super tight and I can't breathe, and it feels kinda like a stress ball, just of the verge of popping but not quite there yet. But I've always been confused when people say they feel their feelings in their head. I recently wrote about it in my journal, because I realized my thoughts of recognizing what I was feeling wasn't what others were referring to when they said feelings and so I was desperately trying to figure out what "feelings" were, and how they were "supposed" to be experienced. But this clip kinda helped explain it for me. I'm still trynna figure out how to just feel your feelings without first identifying them when they cropp up tho, because everyone keeps saying that you need to just feel emotions but I tend to struggle knowing how to handle them if I don't identify them first. If someone could help explain for me I would greatly appreciate. Also sorry for any messiness, I'm writing this at 12:00 AM and am moderately sleep deprived.

[@toothfairy10133]

15:12 this is how i imagine the conversation between my mum and dad went where she was like "do you... do you think our child who never leaves their room, hates speaking, has zero general knowledge, scrunches up their eyes when they're outside, didn't even know eye contact was actually a thing until they were 12, flinches when anyone speaks, doesn't use or understand tone of voice, takes everything too seriously, won't eat food they "don't like" even when they claim to be starving, read fluently when they were three, and wouldn't stop spinning around and organizing their toys as a kid might be autistic?" and he was like "nah"

[@Memmyrabilia]

I struggle with cluttering I’m glad it was mentioned here because I couldn’t find any or much info on it at first because I didn’t know how to describe it

[@wrenclark4907]

god i love watching these tiktoks cuz it makes me feel less alone but even mentioning this stuff can trigger my tics ahhhh