TRANSGENDER SIGNS AS A KID

[@mercuryh3463]

something I look foreward to: being able to say in a deep, manly voice, "Back when I was a girl scout..."

[@sxptics]

same XD

[@gerardwayhavingapancakerub3233]

+Cory Sapienza Yeess same

[@jaybee710]

+Cory Sapienza same c: we'll get there one day

[@jaybee710]

+doge is my senpai +phanamore phamily

[@mercuryh3463]

is everyone in this stream in the phandom

[@srufrano1682]

I remember hating princesses but I loved Mulan?? I guess it makes a lot of sense now that I think about it

[@teddyberry8229]

YES IM NOT THE ONLY ONE

[@Jenna20111]

Yes.

[@skylife7430]

omg Mulan is the best

[@thundercat287]

+stephanie elric I liked Mulan and Tarzan. I guess that explains how non-binary male I am.

[@lucasgreenford5276]

Same

[@DoctorWhoisPENG]

THESE ARE ALL ME I also used to dream that I was a boy and on online games I had "girlfriends" like when u casually asked ppl out on games and they all thought i was a boy and it was great

[@josephsdimension]

+Newt Bryan SAME I HAD SO MANY GIRLFRIENDS OMG AND A WIFE

[@Tyzis]

This ^ 2 years a frking relationship xD with someone she had 1 'catfish' picture of Lolol

[@girlsdanceforever23]

Same I did all of these things

[@asherfranz8987]

I made a fake Instagram pretending that I was a boy and made up this entire back story! My friends still think he is a real dude and I feel bad but I mean oh well😂

[@DoctorWhoisPENG]

Esther franz oh my god😂 im crying goals honestly

[@clairemyers105]

i always used to 'like' boys. i thought that they were cute and such but i never really wanted to date them or anything. and they weren't like head over heels crushes, they were just 'oh i think that you are cute i must have a crush on you now' and then the feeling would fade away after a day. and about 14 years later, i now realize that i 'liked' boys because i felt as if i had to. i soon finally allowed myself to 'like' girls, and it has felt a lot more like a crush to me rather than a 'you're cute'.

[@lindsay4659]

@@sperez7527 I think she is saying that as a trans girl who felt more feminine when "liked" a boy, because obviously straight is perceived as the default orientation in society, hence why she "felt like she had to" - in order to validate her gender. But seems she was a lesbian all along (sorry OP if i got that totally wrong)

[@jlbeeen]

I remember liking guys because I wanted to be like them. And the same confusion. Now I realised I'm asexual and non-binary. It was weird growing up, especially where my parents put a lot of pressure on me to fit in. I'm dealing with a lot of expectations that I realize don't really matter.

[@quasi8180]

Literally same claire.

[@LaFemmFatal]

@@lindsay4659 Yeah this is actually a problem some trans girls face.

[@boyghcst]

1. At Halloween, I always wanted to dress up in a boy's costume 2. Wanted to wear boy's clothes but was too afraid of what my mum might say 3. Wanted to have boy's toys, again afraid of what my mum might say 4. Always said I wanted to be an actor and when corrected with actress, I got really upset 5. Created male avatars on games 6. During pretend play, I was always the boy character. It was a way for me to be myself I think, and when I stopped being in the male role everything felt so wrong again 7. Tried to pee standing up 8. During puberty talk I completely ignored the female half and paid attention to the male half because I thought "I'm going to be a man when I grow up anyway" 9. When getting changed for P.E. or being separated in P.E. I always wanted to be on the boys side 10. Wanted to take off my shirt 11. I always hated baths but I wasn't sure why 12. When in the swimming changing rooms I felt like I was meant to go to the boy's side and I got really upset whenever I had to dry myself 13. Wrapped a towel around my waist 14. When getting a school picture taken I always felt uncomfortable because I wanted to be at the back with the guys rather than the front 15. Pinnochio That's all I can think of haha

[@ninja-cr1kl]

I gotta say on point bro 👌👌👍. I would know becauseI used to do these things and I still do.

[@evvz7]

Caleb F I do all of those things 😂

[@daltontyler6948]

7 is sooo me

[@chuchusugie5323]

Dang. I did all of those things. I always role play on games with male characters... I might be trans 😬 I mean I love boy x boy and girl x girl relationships. Everytime I try to play as a girl I don’t feel as happy when I’m a boy. I want to be a boy. So who knows.

[@noahmills9663]

Caleb F omg same with me. I can relate to so many of these things 😂 ❤️

[@wil3481]

My mum would say if I kept peeing my pants I would have to wear boy pants So I was like Okay I want boy pants

[@kiwiexcat1021]

the McDonald's thing, I relate so much

[@kiwiexcat1021]

Btw i love your videos Benton, you're ond of my favorite youtubers

[@adviceneeded6195]

Me too >.

[@alicescelus6689]

Same here.. I always used to get so upset whenever I got a girl's toy.

[@matameporfavor791]

Omg yes I used to go to McDonalds all the time when I was little and would always ask if I could get a boy toy and if they gave me a girl toy I would be upset, and if the toy was a Barbie I would rip it’s head of 😆

[@i.d.c9414]

McDonald's boy toys have always been better. Lmao.

[@Jamie-zi2nf]

I did the same things lol! I was obsessed with Spider Man, my earliest memory is getting my hot wheels comforter, my mom told me the first pair of shoes she ever bought me, I had already run off to the boy's section and she got my twin sister a pair of light up princess shoes and she picked me out a pair and she said I picked out a navy blue pair with cars on them and when she said they were for boys, I started crying and she decided to get them for me lol. I was always sooo awkward in dresses omg. My grade 8 graduation was really stressful for me because I had to wear a dress and I cannot stand them. Never could. The first time my mom put me in a dress when I was old enough to kinda voice my feelings, I said "I don't want to wear a dress, I don't want a dress. I don't like dresses." I was yanking at it uncomfortably and felt awkward so my mom finally said for me to go change, so she said I put on a t-shirt, shorts and running shoes. There's also a picture of me from kindergarten with me in this red basketball jersey, basketball shorts and a Power Rangers helmet LOL. I also always played the brother, son, father or dog when I was a kid. And wolves. I played as a guy in every online game I ever played and for sports I hated being on girls' teams and the girls' change room made me really uncomfortable. My parents finally pieced it together and are understanding more even though I've been out for about 13 months now to everybody. I start T in a few months.. can't wait for my voice to drop omg my voice is already pretty damn low which is sweeeeet. SORRY FOR THE GIANT NOVEL but this was fun. I love watching your videos man, proud of you!

[@mudkipjuice]

I remember writing boys' names on my lunch bags in elementary school. When I started writing, all the pov charaters were boys, even if it was supposed to be something that really happened. I also remember hitting puberty when i was 8 and waiting for my voice to deepen not realising it was only male puberty that does that.

[@MissFlameKitty]

I used to always dress up as a boy for halloween as a kid

[@jayberg6641]

Same! 👌🏼

[@starylize]

I did that last Halloween, and it makes so much sense now...

[@Bonesy]

I dressed up non-binary so that was weird xD (im a Tran's boy btw)

[@chanceking8991]

+eli Same, except I went as a tiger one year.

[@carsonlps9171]

I was: Pokemon (bulbasaur), ninja turtle, spongebob, ninja hahaha

[@Itsmebaileyc]

One of my earliest memories is when I was about 4. I was in nursery school, and I had just come back after being sick. I was still not fully better, and on the playground two of my friends (both girls) asked why I had missed the past few days. I told them I had been sick and I still wasn't fully better. I didn't know how to say, "I'm not contagious anymore" back then, and they turned and ran from me, fearing they'd get sick too. Me, just wanting to play with them, I chased them all over. At one point, I stopped to catch my breath, and I muttered, "Girls..." in such a way of like, "All girls are like this" type of tone. And then I chased them again. Recently that memory came to me for some reason, and even though no one witnessed it, it was still a clear, early sign that I didn't see myself as a girl.

[@thewhy7403]

Hm. That's really cool, because even though for a while I called myself a girl, I was still kinda seperatong myself from them when I was in school (seventh and eighth grade because I was homeschooled before that). Thanks for sharing

[@sperez7527]

How do u get that from THAT? I'm a girl...not a girly girl, but a girl nonetheless, and when other females piss me off, I say "girls" in the same way and shake my head. Dont have girl friends..most my friends are boys. But I still wouldnt say "oh that means I dont identify as a girl". That dont even make sense. You're not a TYPICAL girl, but ur still a girl!

[@milfshanks]

S Perez and how do you know this? Are you that person?

[@VictoriaWiggins]

whenever I played Mario Kart I would always pick Peach 😂😂😂

[@Erica-iy2bq]

+Nikki Wiggins So did I!! I have always played as girl characters in every game. And I played a lot of games... it was my escape from reality and I loved games where I would consistently get new armor because I loved finding new outfits to dress up in. When I finally realized what transgender was I realized that I really only liked playing most of the games I played because I got to be a girl in them and I cared more about what my character looked like most of the time than I did about the actual game play.

[@anxietybox7799]

Victoria Wiggins All avatars I ever created were boys or a girl avatar but looked like a boy.

[@subscriberswithnovideos-ql3cc]

Yoshi was my guy

[@blackrainbow254]

Same

[@sansskeleton2456]

Jay Lynn same I always choose boy, and costume myself in boy for halloween

[@cjmerrell3653]

dude I did all this stuff. and I also had this recurring dream where I dreamt that I turned into a boy, and I always wanted to get back to it. and every Halloween I wanted to be robin hood or Peter pan or something like that, NEVER a princess or anything.

[@lexiisdrowning4566]

S Perez You’re right, but these are signs because of those feelings.

[@SagaOchMi]

I have been wearing "boy cloths" my whole life, but I stopped wearing male undewear a while back. Since getting my hair cut a couple of years ago everyone started calling me a boy. It's so weird I'm not even sure I'm trans but I keep catching my self wishing that people will see me as a guy and everyone keeps calling me a guy and my friends and family correct them. What would happen if everyone stopped correcting? This might sound crazy but I don't know what to do els. I don't feel like I want male genitalia but I don't want my boobs to show. I keep thinking of walking with no shirt on and having a flat chest and that I envy so hard. I like girls and before I used to think about guys like " Oh, he is quite good looking" but now I think it's that I envy them. This all came up again I though it had past but it doesn't, it's always lingering in the back of my head.

[@aestheticallyghorror9982]

i feel the same way

[@SagaOchMi]

+Wolfiee Elia Thank you ❤️

[@sperez7527]

How do u know you're trans? You're probably just gay. You probably just really like females and you want to present as a man in order to attract more females. Just find a girl that's attracted to you as YOURSELF.

[@lazygirl2069]

@@sperez7527 S Perez can you stop assume it as if it was easy to know? He/her already said "he wasn't sure"! And I'm sure that what you wrote is something he/she thought before... But I'm not in his/her head, neither are you! I'm know you're saying this because you want to help him/her. I know what I said could be totally wrong with your purpose to have post this, but this isn't something easy to figure it out! And we can't say "just do this" and it's gonna be alright... As I said, I know you have good intention of saying what you said, maybe I'm totally wrong to said that because who knows if what you said could be the truth for this person.. so I'm sorry if I'm wrong and harsh! I just want to make sure that you don't think it's that simple to know the truth... I know I can be wrong, I'm really sorry!! I'm not here to start a war...

[@jamesontoast69]

S Perez i don’t think that’s for you to decide. Telling them they’re “just gay” isn’t going to help them. They can decide for themselves and you saying that is probably really unhelpful and possibly damaging

[@thestarryskai]

The mcdonalds and the rpg thing, I totally relate. Haha

[@katgamingyt7000]

i didn't go to McDonald till i was 10 and i was never asked if i wanted a toy :( but if i was i would DEFINITELY get a "boy toy"

[@devineacosta6910]

I often wonder if I am transgender (before you say anything just hear me out). When I was three I apparently cut my hair and my excuse was "i wanted it like brothers". I have a gender neutral name so I never felt anxiety about it. I wore all my brothers hand-me-downs and it did not bother me one bit. I actually perfected the male clothing to my actual female wardrobe. I had my hair short becuase "i hated long hair". I was always being misgendered but I liked it. I was always so mad when I had to do something pretty with my hair and I wasn't aloud to wear dresses but it didn't bother me because i hated dresses or anything frilly for that matter. I always thought i was just a tomboy but it wasnt until my teens when i started feeling really uncomfortable with my body.... So transgender? maybe... i still dont dress or act like a girl and i have a pixie cut.

[@vincentalexander5242]

being a tomboy is often a symptom, but it's not the answer in it's entirety. It's not about the clothes you wear. Or what toys you played with. It's not about your hair. It's about how you identify yourself. Inside, are you a boy, or are you a girl? For some people, coming to understand the answer to that question takes weeks, or months, or even years. But it's not something someone can answer for you on the comment section of a KZbin video. There is no list of checkpoints you got to meet in order to be transgender. It's you. Deep, deep down, you are the only one who knows. Explore your gender expression. Experiment with male pronouns. Ask your friends to call you by an exclusively male name. If you are comfortable with the results, then you are heading in the right direction.

[@AlyssiaDanielle]

+Vincent T. Well I actually talked on an online forum and that's how I figured myself out. Don't doubt the comment section lol.

[@sc00f]

Deep inside I'm a zebra

[@97ktlee]

When I was a kid I liked dresses, but I sometimes I was jealous that my younger brothers got to wear suits. And I wanted to be the gentleman that held the door open for everyone.

[@aestheticallyghorror9982]

me too

[@asherkeller1294]

God I can't tell you how many times I got in trouble for "being in the wrong line, group, bathroom, etc." as a toddler and small kid. It was actually hilarious looking back on it now because as I got older, before I had come out, I tried really hard to make myself seem as feminine as I could so people wouldn't make me feel bad for "not being normal" so I would wear skirts and blouses and pout about doing shit with my hair. I hated so much of it. But there was this one time I walked into the men's restroom and for legitamitely five minutes I was convinced I was in the women's (even though there was a dad and his son there). There were no urinals, but I felt like I was in the right one. A weird glance and words exchanged later I walked out and saw the sign said Men's. Even though I laughed about it, I still felt horrible walking back to the women's. Which leads me to today: still afriad of going in either restroom because I'm either too masculine or too feminine. But hey, if people don't want me in their restroom I'll just shit on the floor. No biggie.

[@escapefr0mslender]

#transpeopleshouldjustpissonthefloorasgodintended

[@ghostlyhero3]

every birthday wish was "i wish i was a boy". it took me this long to realize i AM a boy.

[@witchywendigo5466]

i always refused to wear skirts and dresses and to do my hair all pretty (im a transboy btw)

[@imaginaryShark]

The avatar thing is what I did whenever I was able to use the internet as a kid! I always used a male avatar/figure and felt such relief to have people on the internet refer to me as he/him. I've actually have had the instance of meeting an internet friend in person after many many years and it was pretty flipping awesome to have this person who's never seen my face just be so accepting without hesitation. I think your own self-founded confidence speaks volumes.

[@Doglover-gh9ut]

when i was younger i loved stuffed animals and ok this sounds weird but i would show how i was feeling through my stuffed animals by saying my bear felt that way and all my stuffed animals were boys

[@hecker3268]

So what's up now?

[@cherryfizzer4076]

Omg mee, every one of my bears was a boy

[@emilyannette1678]

You hit 50k!! I've been waiting haha

[@WestCoastElements]

+Emily Annette haha oh believe me, I've been waiting too :)

[@vanillefawn]

I always rp'd as a boy, all the time, and I tried to flirt with girls ;) When me and my friends were playing I'd always make myself a boy/man and would also probably have a girlfriend When I was a little girl I heard a man talk about the reasons why he loved his girlfriend and I just memorised it for the future in case anyone asked me. If family got me barbies or girl toys me and my brother would mutilate them XD I didn't mind wearing like leggings and animal tops, but I out rite refused to wear pink and refused to wear boots, always trainers for me! I never imagined me as a women, when I was younger I always imagined my adult self as a man, before I even knew what transgender was. I also hated the idea of growing breasts, and looking like a women. I rejected girly things entirely, in my group of friends being girly was like a crime.

[@user-hn2vl4hq7q]

Okami Kitsune lol i used to cry at night because I didn't want boobs

[@katgamingyt7000]

same but no legit tears because i don't cry so would just scream on the inside

[@chris-if3kv]

same

[@chris-if3kv]

i wish i can be a boy

[@jasmine8481]

I was changing my top today And i started to cry I got the scissors and now i have a scar

[@rickylback]

when I was little I'd always pretend to be a boy character when I was playing (mainly Harry Potter) and my first cosplay when I was 11 was a boy character and I was always so happy when people at conventions called me his name

[@SiddyE]

Why i think i should be Boy I like baggy clothes I hate boobs im always jeauous of the hot boys because i want to look like them In kindergarden my teacher called up girls abd boys seperately and i decuded to go with the boys and the teacher yeled at me WARNING TMI INCOMING i sleep shirtless TMI IS OVER I am a big sports fan And i want my hair cut like boys hair

[@SiddyE]

Sorry about spelling i typed it so fast

[@nathen_4822]

omggg was in the McDonald's line and my mom said "She wants a boy toy please" and the worker gave me THE STRANGEST LOOOOKK

[@visibleghost1]

i used to wish i could wear boy clothes because they were boy clothes. i understood that i wasn't supposed to wear boy clothes though so i kept quiet avout it... i never made the connection that i could be a boy until i was like 14 which... weLL was reaaally late considering how long i had been thinking "hey i wish i was a boy" or "hmm i'm not a girl" or stuff like that.

[@justinjr8394]

I just came out in January to my family i always dressed as a boy i would be mistaken as aboy i loved it but my mom or dad would say shes a girl i was looking at old pictures of us i was in dresses and all up until after my 3 birthday party ny Halloween costume was a ninja turtle on my 4th birthday i had a undertaker cake and we had a pool party with the little plastic blue pools i had on swim trunks and a shirt i remember taking it off cause everyone else had theirs off my mom said "put ur shirt on ur a girl" i started crying than my aunt said "let her leave it off" so mom did now it all makes since

[@chrisaffambi127]

*sense

[@adviceneeded6195]

I ran around the house with my shirt off and slept with it off. I pretty much had it off whenever I could hah. Unfortunately if I had to do that right now in public is end up killing myself before they could make me... :(

[@SiddyE]

When I was in kindergarten my teacher called up girls I stayed seated then she started to call boys and she came over to me and said why are you still sitting and I said I'm a boy (btw I am a girl and I was born a girl) also, I like wearing baggy clothes instead of tight unlike most girls.

[@justinjr8394]

+SuperBowGirlyGirl2003 Rainbow i always wear baggy stuff too and in school i always hated when they called up boys or girls i whould be uncomfortable with the girls and get called out by then but if i gone with the boys the teacher would tell me to go with the girls. i was never a stand up child and didnt find out about being transgender and everything till later in life.

[@kineretberlin6311]

facial hair!!!!! and you've become such an handsome man!!!!!

[@westleyblack5862]

I hated wearing shirts and threw tantrums when my mom made me wear one when my brothers didn't. and I cut off all my barbies hair and turned them into GI joes. go Diego go was my favorite as a kid and I always felt weird and hated wearing girl clothes. I'd only settle for boys or gender neutral. I also got super happy when they cast me as a soldier in a play. in fact, watching your videos helped me realize I was trans and that what I had been feeling ,others had too. you're so amazing and your videos help me so much. I'm 14 now and out as a boy. thank you

[@lanternheart]

I think I did a ton of this stuff here. I remember I got a Barbie doll as a kid one year, but since I plainly hated "Swan Lake Barbie", my mom got me Mulan in her army disguise. That one I could settle with.

[@Aeronaut281]

Just thought I would leave you a comment because today, I found and watched your video, "FTM Transgender: Best Friend Interview". I seriously loved both you and Lindsay's personalities, so I watched a few more...A few more lead to watching all of the videos you have posted to date... I really enjoyed learning about everything you explained, taught, showed in all of your videos! Thanks for sharing and I will happily continue watching your videos as you post them!

[@zsre-ej5dz]

im a transboy and it is almost identical for me. especially the mcdonalds part. except for when i was little and some one would ask me who i was i would tell them i was the king. (this always looked stupid because it would come from a little *girl with long blonde curly hair pink cheeks long black eye lashes and all sorts of girls feature wearing clothes that made me look like "i just walked out of a trailor park" according to my mom)

[@indigogo5925]

i made a fantage account and my character was a boy named awesomeman441 xD i also had a similar situation with girl and boy toys missed out on so many cool hot wheel cars ;-;

[@areyouz2570]

+Indigo Lemon I did that too.. I was such a player when I was 12/13 :')

[@Rannatiscursed]

I play this game called roblox and I didn't notice since a few weeks ago that I was basically saying to people that I'm transgender without really saying it. Like I would wear boy clothes and all that and I would have a name that both boys and girls could have and all that and I loved it. They saw me as a guy. I can't wait to come out as a guy.

[@indigogo5925]

XtreMe Sundah goodluck! I hope it's safe for you

[@thewomanwithnohead]

I wish that people stop telling me WHY do I dress "like that" saying "you're 26 now, you have to be a woman, and not look like a little 10 y/o boy, because that's how ugly you look." I feel terrible inside.

[@ChrisLow06]

Exactly. I feel good when i dress how i want aka boy's clothes, but it seems that everyone thinks you're ugly for wearing that although i think i look awesome.

[@thewomanwithnohead]

+Christie Low Oh yeah, you're totally right :-) ! And then, when a "real" boy wear those clothes, he's labelled as "awesome looking dude" by the exact same persons ... Damn that logic ...

[@anar6203]

+Nishe ink Listen man, you do you, dress however you please and don't give a crap about what anyone tells you. It's going to be hard at the begginning but once you get used to it, it's going to be the best damn thing that happened to you, don't care about what others think of you, care about what YOU think of YOU.

[@thewomanwithnohead]

+Ana Patricia Thank you, I will try to do my best at it !

[@Tawny136]

I ADORED httyd as a kid and every Christmas/B-Day I wanted a new figure to play with. My parents were always rlly cool with it but I remember my Aunt refusing to get me one as a present because it was “ugly” and a “boy’s toy”. I also used to rush to the boys sections of Toys R Us every single time lol (Pointless info but the dragon I wanted from my Aunt was the Alpha Bewilderbeast from httyd 2 and I will be be buying for myself as an adult now. :)

[@alicescelus6689]

I remember my first Halloween at school (kindergarten) I came dressed up as Spider-Man. I was OBSESSED with Spider-Man, and was very proud of my costume. But when I arrived at class with my dad, a few students said "Hey, isn't that Alice's dad?" "Yeah that's Alice!" "Why are you dressed as Spider-Man? Spider-Man is for boys.. he's a boy" Then everyone in the class started chanting "ALICE IS A BOY! ALICE IS A BOY!!!" The fact that I was wearing a mask didn't at all help with the embarrassment, though it did hide my tears. Obviously, I went straight home after that. Easily the worst day of my life in elementary school. But now I do suppose it all adds up.

[@StomachAcid]

That's terrible :(

[@flicksabean9060]

1. As a kid I thought my gender was a boy but I knew my body was a girl. 2. I made my mum argue with a man in McDonald’s to give me the Hotwheels because I hated girl toys 3. I’ve always felt a weird distance between myself and my body like I could just ignore it and even though it’s beautiful, it doesn’t feel right. My sex doesn’t feel right. 4. I always wanted to have that male hormonal smell and deeply desired to be a boy and wished constantly to be born a boy. 5. For years I’ve tried to convince myself why it’s okay to be a girl and why I should be happy and just learn to be one and stop being anxious, well it’s not worked because I am a boy and I think I suppressed these feelings for years and now when I see myself presented male I’m happy but also anxious because I’m not fully used to it 5. I loved boys clothes and toys and video games as a kid. 6. I thought I couldn’t be trans because I like pink and horses and fill some typical female gender roles, including having a child and I was happy about that 7. I thought I couldn’t be trans because I like men 8. I don’t want to age as a woman and know I would regret not at least trying testosterone in my life even if it did turn out to be wrong. Not getting to do it would be a major regret 9. I don’t particularly want a beard and I’m scared to transition in case I’m not really trans and don’t like it

[@samspencer2914]

I used to write "no girls allowed" on my door when i was little haha

[@Yusei797]

Lol

[@cowlix]

I remember I use to be one of most girly-girl type of people. Mostly thanks to my grandmother, I loved everything pink, frilly, and just generally related to a girl. I think what peaked my interest in being a boy rather than a girl, was when I hit first grade. I started liking the color red and I considered myself a tomboy. I often switched between red and pink (which I now don't understand why). Basically, I've been a tomboy nearly my entire life. I've recently realized who I wanted to be, and looking back on it, I think it was that that had sparked that thought.

[@MadAliceInWonderland]

You know how when you write stories, you always have to make a character that you can relate to? Well I always use boy main characters. And when I tried using girl mains, the story became crap. So after I realized I was a boy, that kind of clicked for me.

[@non-corporealentity67]

You wanna know a funny story about when I was 4? (ftm person here, btw) So, it was Halloween, and I was invited to a party (all-girls). I wanted to dress up as a male superhero, so my parents let me (it was either hulk or spider man, i don't remember). I show up, as the only kid not dressed as a princess. And I was happy, besides the fact that they made fun of me for it. Also, the exception to the girls-only rule was one girl's brother. I spent the entire night hanging out with him. Now, this all makes sense (there were other things, this was just a story I wanted to share)

[@apryor324]

I insisted on peeing standing up My mom had to clean up a lot of messes back then😂

[@evanl6819]

I can relate to this WAY too much. I used to call myself "Steve", I would always ask for the "boy toy" at McDonald's and my Club penguin avatar was a male penguin

[@nicholaszimmerman373]

I literally did everything. When I was 8, I think I also tried to make an stp

[@thewhy7403]

Me and my siblings would always play make believe, and I would ALWAYS play boys. And I would play the kind of boy that I see myself as. Me and my sister played a game where I was a pirates son, and she was a princess. We were in love and, since I was like 7, that meant that I would show her all of the fun stuff in the river in our backyard and we were basically just best friends. I also always found it unfair that boys were the only ones that got to run around without shirts on. Especially since I didn't have boobs or anything yet. So once I came downstairs without a shirt on and made my case, and everybody left me alone but they were all so uncomfortable I never did that again.

[@KyleSchultziscoolaf]

I used to tell people I wanted to be a boy. I'd stick all my hair up in a hat so people would think I was a boy. I did a lot of the things you said. Yet my parents were still shocked when I came out lol, but I don't see how. I've never been feminine in any way.

[@brandidavis4425]

My first job was a McDonald's cashier. I virtually always asked if they wanted a "Power Ranger" or a "Barbie" (or whatever the toy selection was). I remember one of my buddies saying, "Just say 'boy' or 'girl!' So much easier!" Shortly after that a child with their parent came in, and the kid--presumably AFAB and presenting femininely--asked for a Power Ranger. I enjoyed giving my co-workers the side eye while I put that toy in the box.

[@SatellitePlane]

I HATED wearing jewellery! Wearing rings or necklaces or earrings was like UGh im going to puke

[@ChrisLow06]

Ikr. Every single Christmas, i get an accessory from my auny. Idk how to tell her pls dont waste money on getting them cause i wont wear them..

[@bablebobbel]

+Christie Low I feel so guilty when my mum is like "look how much money I spent on all the dresses you don't wear" Like... I already said I don't wanna wear them. So I totally understand how you feel

[@memetit3585]

I remember very clearly in kindergarten (at a Catholic school, no less) I would tell people that I was "half boy" because I liked playing video games and with "boy toys". Then, for the longest time, it was kind of engraved in me that not following typical female gender roles was "bad" and it took me eight years to even be able to question myself and then it took another three years after that for me to start presenting as male. Still not out to my family, yet, but I'm hoping to change that in the new year.

[@drudaley9278]

when i was like 8 i played dragon age origins for the first time (yeah i know my parents should be sued but that's not the point) and i would always play as a boy character. also in like first grade i broke down crying on my best friend because i was "just a boy in a dress" and my teacher got really mad at me lol. also whenever my brother had friends over i was really eager to be included in whatever they were doing because i wanted to be accepted as one of the boys.

[@lukeblue7700]

I had never thought about the boy or girl toys at McDonalds. I would always want a boys toy and would be really upset when I got a girls toy. I also when I was a kid introduced myself as "Steve."

[@amelieleroux5333]

WAW now that you say it... I always played boy toys, I never wore dresses, I always played guys in games, I also pretented I was a guy on games online, I wrote stories where I always was a guy... But somehow I don't really know why, maybe I got brainwashed but I really didn't like to go through female puberty, I think this transgender thing stopped at about 14-15 years old and now I don't identify as anything at all, I like to wear boyish stuff, I like to wear dresses and makeup too. I identify as lesbian but am I really if I don't really identify as anything?

[@kaitlin3102]

You don't have to put a label on yourself if you don't want to. You are who you are and there's nothing wrong with you.

[@amelieleroux5333]

Ali May yeah I think people see me as a cis woman though but yeah let's not label my gender since I don't know what it is

[@parachuteshrimp3516]

+Amélie Le Roux Yeah it's the same with me. :) I think I am what you call "genderfluid" or so. I never was really into dresses and makeup when I was younger, but somehow that changed when I tried it and thought it wasn't too bad - I even had a Japanese Lolita fashion phase... ehehe. But most of the time I wear rather boyish, practical stuff. Because - yeah, it's practical and comfy. ;) Sometimes men tell me that I come over like a man (and actually compliment me on it). It's a bit weird! (My lesbian friend gets this, too all the time.) And then I realized I'm not trans, because it actually kinda upsets me? I don't want to be a man, nor a woman - maybe something in between, I don't know! gaahhh!

[@coolchick7197]

Boys toy at mcdonalds or burger king ALWAYS as i thought they were cooler, trackie bottoms with tshirts, always wearing baseball caps. Only thing is im a tomboy so i do have my girl perks but mainly im more into the boys stuff. Even tshirts have to be boyish, wallet over a purse. Main one now is Short hair over long

[@bymontanarose]

I was literally trying to get the boy or girl toy from McDonald's and I asked my dad once "wet isnt there a neutral toy?" I should've known I was genderfluid. But TBH the boy toys were way better. Why get a Arnie when you could get hot wheels? Lol 😂

[@dog6128]

im gonna spill out a lot because i hope someone can give me advice: im currently 12 years old, 13 pretty soon. i've been thinking i could be trans, like it makes me feel stupid but when i saw the tik toks of someone saying: now lot at this boy.. do you like him.. or wanna BE him? i dont know if its because the boy was pretty.. but it felt like i would be also happy being HIM. it's also the tomboy thing for me; i dont wanna sound quirky or something, but i enjoy hanging out with boys and i feel uncomfortable with my girl friends. sometimes i feel this is just a random teenager thought that will stop someday and then just snap out someday, in every social media i enter i always prefer to be a boy, any type of roleplay or videogame i always name myself Felix. but if i got the chance to be a boy i think i would take the chance, it feels strange to me.. please some advice?

[@even___]

I am the same age, and I feel the same way as well, but I’m born male. When I play video games or sign up to sites I use Sandra and She/Her pronouns, and it makes me feel good. I don’t really like my masculine pronouns, but I wouldn’t freak out if anyone used them. I’m still unsure.

[@xapxap9900]

I did all of these as a child but I am not trans. At least I don't think so...

[@evin4574]

ah i did so many things lmao. the big thing i did was also with the online accounts. always was a guy. i also always played pretend as a guy, up until like fifth grade when i stopped. i was always a Conner or a Tyler or something. i once asked my mom when i was little, "does my voice sound like a boy's?" i wanted to be named Jack. (i'm thinking of my middle name being Jackson because of this.) I played on the boys team in Boys Vs Girls in first grade, and had pretty much only guy friends growing up. from day one, wearing dresses and skirts made me feel terrible. i never played dolls or anything. ever. i always played trucks with my brother, from day one. and i genuinely thought i was a boy, which i guess isn't wrong. i also tried peeing standing up once, haha

[@Olivia-dq9rt]

This is so sexist it’s insane 😂 “I didn’t like girls toys or dresses and chose male avatars when playing video games” bro 😂😑 same with me and every one of my female family members lmfao. You’re not special for rejecting patriarchally imposed femininity 😂😐 the way you’re promoting gender dysphoria like this is beyond sexist and harmful to young girls

[@svenskkatt2890]

ty

[@charlieogden5833]

I remember being dash for halloween and everyone was like omg you violet thats so cute and would like yell at them and say no im dash what are you talking about im not a girl

[@pushista9322]

These signs are so stereotypical. It's completely normal for a girl not to want to wear a dress or play with dolls. It doesn't mean she is a boy. It means our society is morbid, telling children their personality depends on their genitalia.

[@sammykablammy]

Yeah that is true but it can also mean something else. Gender is on a spectrum and both stereotypical genders that people most identify with can have some traits of the opposite. It's another thing that makes you just you

[@pushista9322]

***** how is gender a spectrum when gender division was created for discrimination, in the first place? You can't discriminate someone if you don't know for sure your position and the position of your possible victim. I mean, the whole gender system is damaging

[@sammykablammy]

That's the thing, the two main genders are what most people are comfortable with and that's why no one has even thought of the possibility that there is a spectrum. Honestly I believe someone should choose what they identify with than just label themselves with either male or female. I believe in the idea of a scale with masculine on one side feminine on the other and neutral in the middle. The reason discrimination came about based on gender roles is mainly due to the physical traits of the stereotypical person of whatever sex you are judging and not the personality traits of that person. And gender relates more to personality and brain process more than say physical sex characteristics.

[@asherfranz8987]

Yeah but it's more normal for a boy not wanting to wear girls clothes. He is just stating the facts and if a boy wants to wear girls stuff then have at it but he isn't doing anything wrong. He just is pointing out the signs that led him into thinking that he should of known like he SAID in his video

[@pushista9322]

Esther franz you still operate in terms of gender stereotypes

[@felixxcantfixit]

hmmm.... are these early signs im curious 😂 ● In video games my game character would always be a boy ● I would refuse to put on a dress or skirt ect.. ● My mom was dressing me when i was little and when my shirt was off i ran around yelling "ima boy" ● When my mom put on princess movies i would just go "ew" and walk away 😂 ● I had a fit over my room because it was princess themed and made my mom change it. ● My bro took off his shirt and i wanted to also but my mom wouldn't let me and i got super mad at her ● I had boy toys There are so many more but those are the main ones so let me know 😂

[@euphratesleap6008]

I can kind of relate a lot of these and the comments, plus I just remembered the gem that was when back in 6th grade my closest friend (a dude) was assigned to dance with me for a "play" kinda deal for the school and it HAD to be boy/girl and when we were given our routines per say I jumped on taking the boy's routine as it was just the obvious descion for me and left him appalled that he got the girl routine. Leading in a dance with him was fantastic and the good-natured stormy look on his face was hilarious.

[@juderomines2474]

yeah same on the roleplaying... video games too - i remember my cousin getting confused when we traded pokemon because my avatar was always the boy.

[@a.brucemcdonald9038]

Even better... I'm about 10 years old and there was a school holiday show. All the kids in grades K - 10 are in this auditorium. Most are sitting on the floor while each class / group gets on stage to go over what we are going to do in the show and rehearse. I am wearing a blue turtle neck sweater. My class is on the stage and we are lined up along the edge of the stage. One of the teachers in the back who doesn't know all out to "the little girl in the blue" pointing in my general direction. She says it again "you. The little girl in the blue?" The hall is silent. The girl standing next to me responds "who? Me?". The teacher says "no... Her... The girl next to you" pointing right at me now. There are some giggles now. "I'm not a girl" I say ... (I didn't say "but I want to be one". No... I say "I'm a boy". I had to repeat "I'm not a girl I'm a boy". The entire school broke out in a bedlam of hilarity. From that day on I was called "fem" by 1/2 kids in school for 2 years.

[@ryr1974]

Totally relate to all that. These are common developmental experiences common to gay lesbian and bisexual kids.

[@TransPrincePeyton]

When I was younger, I would throw a fit when my sister tried to put makeup on me, and I would always walk around the house without a shirt on, and when I was four, I went as the Incredible Hulk for Halloween. But the thing that makes so much sense to me now, in hindsight, is this. When I was in grade 1, we had a movie party thing after school one day. Everything was going great, and then I had to go to the bathroom, and since it was elementary, we had bathrooms in our classroom. I told the parent that had volunteered as part of the PTO program, and she directed me to the bathroom. It was dark and the lights were off because the movie was playing, and she ended up sending me into the boys' bathroom. I saw a urinal on the wall, and I thought it would be super cool to use. Turns out, I was wrong. Long story short, I ended up with piss-stained pants, and if someone asked why they were wet, I told them I had fallen in a pile of snow (it was the middle of winter).

[@tiadizzy1671]

I've done all of those things as a kid. When I was younger I wanted to be a bit, but my parents thought it was a tomboy phase. But I used to tell people to call me Johnny, or Tyler. I would wear my brothers clothes to school, everyone was fine with it, all my guy friends treated me like a guy, so I felt like one. Now I'm 15 and I still want to be one, but I'm really confused about it. Please help me Benton, or anyone that sees this comment.

[@plug322]

If thats how u feel in your heart go for it. Always live for u and no one else

[@lunap9157]

Love the video! And your hair looks amazing, tbh. Love you

[@cerisegacha4854]

1. I wear girls clothes 2. I like my avatars as Girls in games 3. I have most friends that are girls 4. I'm too weak so I slap 5. I sit like a girl 6. I scream like a girl 7. I'm also on Social Media 8. I don't like sports

[@bogmonster1309]

xD I love your hand movements when you were just "apparently I'd flip a table"

[@livingcorpse349]

Over 13 female OC’s I chose female characters in games I portrayed myself in role play as a girl named Jessica I get along with girls better than boys plus I complain about girl problems specifically heels and how they hurt and I never wore a pair

[@stefanbontekoe9123]

I have two older brothers, who would grow too tall for their clothes and I always wore them, until I was about 12 years old and had to go to the next school. Up until two years ago I kept on wearing my oldest brother's shorts and this year I am planning on wearing them again. Thank you so much for your videos, they've really helped me understanding who I am and who I want to become!

[@freddyluna7453]

I can TOTALLY relate to the McD's toy thing! :O Also: -never worn makeup -hate to wear dresses (this is why I dislike going to weddings; I too, compromise with capreeze...but still...YUCK!) -burned the head of a Barbie off with a magnifying glass [pyro, I know, haha] -played the 'male' character in plays, or when I had playdates with my family/friends -play as the 'boy' protagonist in Pokemon/ male penguin in Club Penguin ...and finally...my mom made me join Girl Scouts as an 8 year old. -___-

[@Ezra-gx2oq]

this is interesting. i actually did the whole name thing too. i'd call myself "seth" or "brandon" i used to create my own characters, and while they were still "female" ones, with females names - i'd make them super masculine. whenever i played pokemon i preferred picking the boy character. clothes... were a bit more obvious for me tbh. i would feel anxiety and get angry and throw tantrums if i was put into a dress. i would "deal with it" but i wouldn't like it. i always wanted to have a gender neutral look/plain look. i rlly liked wearing sweaters that were plain or had something more neutral on them like winnie the pooh. as well as, baggy pants. when i got into puberty, i tried to be a girl, and while i wasn't extremely uncomfortable, i was uncomfortable. my mum had to argue with me to wear makeup and look like a girl. i tried to look "pretty" but always felt "ugly" cuz i didn't feel like i was being myself. i knew that i was always more masculine or atleast gender neutral. during puberty, i'd pick out band tees and flannel shirts cuz they look more masculine in my eyes. i avoided "sparkly" or very colourful, girly shirts and jeans. i wore skinny jeans and got into the whole "looking like an emo boy" or "androgynous" teenager. as for the mcdonalds toy situation, i def' preferred the boy toys. as for friends... i had more guy friends when i was in elementary school, but i got into middle school and was friends with boy genders. however, i was more interested in being with girls OR boys that were bi, gay, tomboyish, ect. there was always a fascination with wanting to be ppl who were lgbt and not "cis" or "straight." in 9th grade, i took a child development class (it was required), and i remember failing cuz i felt so awkward and uncomfortable being stuck in a class full of girls, and a class that was def' geared towards being a mother/femininity. the girls had to wear a pregnant suit, and i NEVER did it or had any interest. honestly, i remember wanting to just take an F cuz i didn't want to wear that. i was so uncomfortable, and felt disgusted by it. we also had to take a baby doll home and pretend to be the parent. i failed. i didn't want to be a "mother" it just felt rlly gross and wrong for me. :/

[@mappesqueira3505]

When I was a kid during Christmas time I used to ask Santa to make me into a guy and one day I'd wake up as the person I'd rather be.

[@dirtybrowniemix5925]

When I played Minecraft online a while ago, when people would ask me if I was a boy or girl I would always say boy. I never thought much of it really

[@goatision2895]

i had an obsession with mustaches when I was a kid, and I would always draw them on my face XD

[@Horrorangell]

Im both feminine and masculine but leaning on feminine more. I want to be a male tho. So these didnt occur to me until ten or eight months ago.

[@Himbotical]

Tbh when I was a kid, I would ask people if I sounded like a boy and whenever they would tell me no, I'd get mad and try to lower my voice. Idek if that means anything but I did it all the time in elementary school.

[@deoccultist]

Well, I have this vague memory of telling my dad and his friends about "when I was a little girl" as if I was remembering a past life. I would secretly cross dress and put on my mom's makeup in the bathroom, but I only did that a few times in my childhood. I didn't start wearing "women's clothing" until I started my transition. I did like a lot of typical boy stuff like Ninja Turtles and HotWheels, but so did my best friend at the time who was a cis girl (and still is). I absolutely hated sports, and I wrote a lot of poetry (and still do), and I never liked rough play or getting into fights. I was VERY emotionally sensitive, and always gravitated towards girls as friends. My grandmother had a dog named Ginger who was very anxious around men, but she loved me (because, duh, I wasn't a boy). I always hated wearing suits for things like weddings or funerals, and especially hated being called "handsome" or when my grandpa would say I "looked sharp". I knew these were masculine terms, so they made me cringe. As I got older it really bugged me to refer to myself as "he" or "his" more than it did to hear it from someone else, and I hated saying my name. I even had crushes on boys as a kid, but eventually became more attracted to women. I'm sure there are other things, but that's all I can think of on lack of sleep. I know these things don't necessarily signify being trans, but they just make sense considering that I am.

[@michaelgambrell3049]

A few things I remember doing is being obsessed with harbors & doll houses, going on any games with the "create your character" feature & always choose female (I relate), and I would ALWAYS obsess over dresses & makeup. LOL!!!

[@mayiashyouaquestion]

i was also ridiculously feminine, like i was totally into skirts and sparkles and all sorts of traditional feminine stuff, but what i remember from being a kid that really sticks out now is being in elementary school and wanting to be a tomboy. like i'd be over here wearing my frilly dress and i would be totally fine with that, but at the same time i totally connected with the feeling of wanting to dress like the boys and hang out with the boys and be treated like i was just one of the boys. i think back on that now and i just kind of wish that i'd known what to do with those feelings sooner.

[@meYogii_]

Wow, are you trans!?? That was a surprise, i would never thought of that if you didn't say.😍 When I was a kid I used to play with my younger brother and his friends, there's 6 years between us. When I got older the mother of his friend said that I should leave them alone, that it was a bit awkward. I didn't enjoy wearing dresses and skirts, my clothes hadn't a princess or anything "girly" around it. I have been really depressed since I was a kid and I recently started to understand why.

[@auroramcbride1688]

When I was like 14 years old I was sitting across the table from my girlfriend in study hall and she decided that was prime time to paint my nails. I was going through my rebellion phase at that time and I knew it would make my homophobic parents mad so I went along with it (they're better about their prejudices nowadays). I was kinda just staring off in the middle distance focusing on staying still because I have Tourette's syndrome and I didn't want to tic and mess up her work so I didn't see what they looked like until she was all done. When I looked down at this glossy red veneer that covered my nails I felt elated, like I had a rush of energy go through me that made me want to jump up and down I was so happy and I had no idea why. I loved them. I started painting my nails from that point on, I had no idea at the time but that was my first encounter with gender euphoria. Too bad it took me 15 more years to finally put all the pieces together 🤷‍♀️ oh well, you live and learn I guess lol.

[@SpaceCerberus]

same as a child I used to hope for them to ask for a girl or boy toy, along with the male avatars for games and such

[@thatweirdhuman705]

When my family went camping I used/still do, drive a quad, dirt bike, side by side, trike, everywhere, I had a camouflage helmet, and I would wear my favorite button up shirt(I never wore anything else when camping), when I came back I was so covered in mud I needed a shower. I caught snakes, bugs, frogs, and generally behaved like a typical boy, I'd help with booze runs, getting propane, and was so proud when I cut my hair and people said, "My what a handsome young man," at counters. Like, how was my family so blind, and me.

[@phoenixgamer4889]

yeah I felt the same as a kid I would always ask my mom for boy toys for my birthday or Christmas. I also like a lot of boy stuff never really any girly things. I happy that you are so brave n so open n honest about everything. I hope you continue on being who u are.

[@viincent101]

I want to tell my mom that I think that I should have been born as a boy but I know my moms side is not against it but idk about my dads side so I keep myself closeted I’m literally crying I love my dad and grandpa and grandma but I want to be happy I continue to make my oc girls so no one knows what should I do? I’m so confused:(

[@spooktspeek]

i'm a tomboy and have a lot of reasons as to why i wanna be a guy but at the same time i always have these mental things like "but you're already comfy in this body" "what about your family and friends" "its so expensive...... how will you afford it.." "what if you realize you're not trans after" but like i have so many other reasons to do it like "people will stop assuming you're girly because you're not a girl" "you get to vibe with guys more often cause you're not a girl" "you can voice act the characters you want to voice act" (i kinda wanna be a voice actor someday) "you can do what you're already doing to your full extent and nobody will judge you", etc kinda still working on figuring that all out

[@SandraBergstrom]

I'm FtM, and i remember hating dresses and skirts when i was a kid, and i would always want to be the father or son when we played family in kindergarden. When i was about 3-4 years old my mom cut my hair, i demanded to be called Lucas and wear boy's clothes. At family weekends me and my older cousins would perform little shows, and i would always be a boy, my older cousins were also the first ones to know, and they had suspected me being trans before i told them, and they are so damn supportive, i love them, they are like my brothers. Benton, how did you tell your relatives that you're trans? :)

[@freyugh]

I just watched a lot of Bob the Builder and Lazy Town. I also had a Sportacus costume...

[@bone_apple_teeth457]

Being a Southern little girl I was forced to wear really lacey, frilly gross dresses with panty house, frilly socks and Mary Jane shoes. I would actually cry when I had to wear one, thinking back that’s making me question some things 😂

[@ellasanders3693]

I never did any of these things...mostly because my parents were always there watching me and my mom always made my internet accounts when I was younger and stuff

[@myrkflinn4331]

All i think that helped that actually could differentiate me from other (tomboy girls) was: manspreading, doing stuntwork to impress my crush and like jumping over obstacles so she could see it, I fought with guys for a little, always was a male character, always. I did like some girly stuff like littles pet shop (those bubble head animals had a collection, but that was the one thing I stuck at for a few years). But never liked dresses, make up, hated it, I was always rolling in the dirt, my skirt was always ripped my hair a mess cos I couldnt take care of it at all.

[@autistic-tenno]

I always have and still do use male avatars and stuff online and play as male characters. I don't think I've ever played as a female character on my own decision. Even when I was younger and forced to play house. I can relate to using online as an escape to be who I want to be and who I really feel I am. I was so afraid of posting with my mainly used KZbin account. I never wanted anyone to know I am trans, but now that I think about it, why should I care?! But for some odd reason I kind of do... I just don't want to be treated like crap and denied or misgendered like I ALWAYS get from everyone but my girlfriend. Thanks for sharing the video.

[@Sibtronica]

1. I always said i was a prince or king and denied being a princess or queen 2. I only wore "boys" clothes like shorts and a t shirt 3. I sometimes wore a hat to cover my hair to make it look short 4. I would also if i had to make a character i'd always make a boy character or a girl character who acted like a boy or who wanted to be seen as a boy

[@smp4733]

"my character would always be a boy" this us 100% true for me even my character on RDO is a boy

[@catojames9771]

When I was younger I would only go to the bathroom like a boy. I would stand up and pee. It would get everywhere but it didn't even matter, I felt so uncomfortable going like a girl, and whenever I was a alone I would alone pretend I had a penis, as weird as that sounds, but I would and I never thought anything of it because I was 5 years old, how the hell was I supposed to know what that is? And sometimes my mom would ask me if I wanted to be a boy (the first time I was 6), and I am a really self conscious person and so I would always so no and I feel so shitty now because the younger you are is the best time to start transitioning. Just wanted to share my thoughts with you.

[@mfellows9223]

I used to walk around without a top on when i was a child and my mom used to tell me to put a shirt on because of my brothers (they had their shirts off) and i remember being so confused as to why they could have theirs off but i couldnt