Turning Things Around

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[@Billthesheepdog]

Your eyes are bright and beautiful. Your smile glows. I can tell you feel better dear. Keep it up. Thats all I want for you. Just be better. You are more than a video to a lot of us. Hugs.

[@NixiePixel]

That means a lot to hear.. in the mighty words of my favorite Monty Python movie: "I'm not dead yet!!" (tis but a flesh wound)

[@jennoscura2381]

+Raynor9899 I agree with the medical marijuana suggestion. It's legal for that use here in California so it's worth a shot. If I am not mistaken Nixie lives in San Francisco which has some excellent dispensaries. I highly recommend SPARC. MJ is pretty safe. So it probably won't harm anything. At worst it won't help much. One of the downsides to medical marijuana is having to try different strains to figure out what works best. Thankfully I have found some strains that work well for my autism, anxiety, and tourettes. Unfortunately the dispensary is out of my favorite strain. Another downside is the lack of high CBD strains at many dispensaries. Thankfully SPARC has a decent selection. However other dispensaries might only have one or two on the menu. If anyone is interested I have a video on this channel on Medical Marijuana and Autism.

[@sudros7594]

+Raynor9899 It does not cure anything... it makes symptoms manageable until they find a cure for whatever it is that is really bothering you. Whoever thinks it cures things should really look into it better. If it cured it, then why would you have to keep taking it? Think about it...

[@DonPedro6901]

+Billthesheepdog I'd like to say the same, nothing more nothing less ;-)

[@jimvalim1567]

I miss your videos. I hope you're doing ok. Thanks for all of your videos.

[@thebugsy7633]

same

[@brahimimohammed9418]

Same Here

[@ashton9079]

Jim Valid tbh I think she's dead

[@TNeulaender]

Woah, that would be awful Oo.

[@llothar68]

Somebody used her Steam gaming account last week. But she might be dead.

[@JeffSilvermanSeattle]

Nixie, You are a unique and special individual. We genuinely care about you.

[@sarahkerr6049]

How old are you?

[@DonCrowder]

Wishing you luck, love, health and happiness!

[@NathanSalapat]

Glad to hear you are doing better. I remember when I first came to Linux you're videos were super helpful in my figuring stuff out.

[@themarkedone715]

I initially subbed to you a while ago simply because I find you very attractive and love Linux. However, you seem like such a great person it's hard not to care about what's going on with you. I sincerely hope you get better soon!!

[@yanksguy23]

I wish you well Nixie, for this year and all to come. Thanks for all you do for all of us.

[@Redn2000]

Really glad you're feeling better, and I'm still glad you're one of the people that helped me try out so much with linux. I hope your motor control gets better.

[@MosquitoBite82]

Hi Nixie! I haven't visited your channel for so long. I've been busy reschooling myself from mediatech to software developer. But so today I thought about you and went in to check your great channel out and what did I hear? You are struggling hard with health issues. I'm not one of those who stuck around, but I'm definitely one of those who loves and loved your channel. I started following your channel when I only knew 'cd' and 'apt-get' and you where one of the few I went to for inspiration and help. I'm a developer by proffession now and it's alot thanks to burning hearts like you that I've found my dream job. So how ever you are doing now, (im not religious but I'll pray to all of them and many more that you are doing fine), you should know that you have done alot of great stuff for me and many more. You're on my personal penguin hall of fame. Do what you need to do to live a quality life. If one of them is getting back to youtube, I'll here be watching. If it's other things I'll be here cheering for you to have success in that. Cheers mate! :) Best wishes and gratitude, Johannes

[@aris21067]

I'm glad to hear your health issues are looking brighter. Many blessings to you Nixie. I hope good things keep coming your way.

[@AllenArt64]

Glad you feel better!! I dealt with Graves Disease (the opposite of your problem) for 10 years. 10 years of pure hell. Had the thyroid out, and now it's a little slow but I feel much better now. Good luck to you and hope you keep feeling great! :)

[@brianjaybush7671]

Excellent to hear you're feeling better - and the returning *snark* that comes with it. Missed your edginess during this time of strain!

[@williamfortenberry7282]

glad your getting in better health, your videos have helped me a ton and I'm really glad your back in better health. don't know what I could do help but im here for ya nixie. get well soon!!

[@bibby42]

Hope you get better and stay positive! Being hit by that tidal wave definitely sucks, but you gotta keep getting up on that board!

[@kenrq63]

It is pleasing to hear that there is positive progress in your journey back to health again. I look forward to your next update.

[@ahmedal-modaifea4457]

No matter how long we wait, your health comes first and actually I am glad you vlog about this because it comforts me to know you are getting better and more hope. it is one more step to get back to you healthy self and it is a big one!

[@autohmae]

So incredibly glad you are feeling better ! I really, really hope you are on the right track now. Sounds like you are.

[@dreamingthelife]

yayyyy another video, took me long enough to notice it's existence, I find a lot of my health issues seem to relate to my emotional state, I find as I let go of hurt feelings and pick apart my ego piece by piece it seems to help hymmphhh I dunno super sleepy wishing you well

[@wulfist]

I'm glad you are feeling better and finding out the cause of your pain. I miss you popping up on my youtube feed giving me some opensource and misc info! Here is to Nixie's year of goodness!

[@steinper1]

I'm so happy that you're getting better, awesome news. Wishing you a speedy recovery and that you'll get this issue with your hands resolved. Keeping my fingers crossed ;-) I can't wait to see your upcoming videos.

[@PranRaj94]

Get well soon Nixie! you really are one of a kind and we don't wanna miss you and your incredible contribution. hope the doctors figure out a way to cure the issue with your fine motor skills. God bless dear :)

[@kevinbrock2046]

I wish you all the best, Nixie. I've been a "silent watcher" of your work for years (since 2011). Your work helped guide me from the Windows darkness to the Linux light. There were some video's you did (cough Grub) that has even saved my cyber bacon repeatedly. I have been fairly busy with marriage, career, and life in the last 2 years but I wanted to send you my wishes of support (for your personal medical struggles) & my thanks (for all that you have done in years past). I heard that you are in the Washington area (so am l). Hopefully we have a awesome Spring...and with the blooming weather I hope your Thyroid & finite coordination issues improve.

[@hogisan12]

Welcome aboard to the Thyroid Club. I was diagnosed about 4 years ago. Glad you are feeling better! Keep up the great work.

[@richardchantlerrico]

Glad to hear your feeling better! Keep us updated and looking forward to seeing you back to your old self :-)

[@sortaisle]

Oh wow...I have been a touch out of the loop! Make your small victories count! Let them pile up that way when you do have a setback, you have a fluffy soft pile of victory to fall on. Best of wishes!

[@ElderSnake90]

Get well soon Nixie! The most important thing is your health and being able to do everything how you would like. No pressure on the rest!

[@emmess7780]

Nicole, I'm so happy to hear you're starting to get to the bottom of this and get yourself better. I know what you're going through because I'm going through the same thing, unexplained heath issues are horrible. I hope your hand and whatever else is bothering you gets figured out and fixed in short order. Best of luck.

[@PeterParise]

It's good to hear from you Nixie! I think taking it "one day at a time" is really important now rather than feel obligated to make a lot of videos. We support you no matter what you do. Happy New Year and please take care.

[@johnathanrollings109]

So glad you're doing better. Hope you have a quick road to recovery. Love your videos!

[@srsheepdog2671]

What a great video to watch! Been so long since we heard from you, and like many of us, I was starting to worry about you. Looking forward to a 100% healthy Nixie....and hopefully soon!

[@mclang5932]

Thanks for the update! It's good to hear that you are feeling better. Just keep fighting!

[@caleb8703]

every once in awhile I check around to see if there's anything that suggests your still alive but nothing yet, hope you get well real soon

[@danmorgan3685]

Well, I'm very happy to hear you're feeling better. I can say from experience that it sucks when their is something wrong but the tests keep coming back negative.

[@carltaylor4942]

Best of luck Nixie - love your videos and I've just had a 15 month course of treatment. Patience, stick with it. Stay off the junk food, too as it's full of chemicals. All the best to you.

[@varunvk64]

Good to hear that ur feeling better.....my prayers and wishes for a speedy recovery

[@liquididentity101]

I'll still be here when and if you come back at any level. Your videos have been informative, fun, and most importantly relate-able. I don't often see many of 'my people' in life, but you are one of them, and that's awesome. So best of luck to you and we'll all see you soon, back in action doing what you love!

[@BlankJebus]

Always glad to have a new video from you. Glad you're feeling but better and more invigorated! Hope to get more videos from you when you're feeling 100%

[@ElPasoJoe1]

Good to see you are on the green side of the grass and somewhat vertical. At least you were 11 months ago. Hope you are better and making progress with health issues. Look forward to more videos...

[@arturoguillen]

Get better Nixie, I'm sure I can speak for everyone when I say that we all love you and wish you all the best.

[@coldstealer]

wishing you all the health , happiness , we missed you sooooo much you'v been the person who make me love linux , take care

[@myjobisjustdandy2909]

My kuz's wife had a thyroid issue too, she had a lot of jacked up symptoms as well. Glad your feeling better, hope your on your way back to a full, yet slightly medicated (in a good way) recovery.

[@Baseshocks]

I have not seen any of our videos in a while Nixie, you got me hooked on Linux. I love how honest and natural you come across. I checked out your social media links in the description and did not see any updates. I have been through really rough patches in my life as well, I still have my bad days. If you decide to come back to youtube and decide to make more videos or not all the best to you.

[@thunderdog512]

Yay! Happy to hear you're feeling better. One small step at a time. Keep up the good work.

[@JerryMarbas]

Always glad to see you in a video. I'm sorry you are going through these problems but good to hear you are feeling better. Wishing you the best this year. Take care.

[@pingusthedin6953]

its nice to see all these new comments on the channel, there is still a flame of hope.

[@Imbacore01]

She posts this and then radio silence for two months. What's alarming is that even her Twitter account has no new posts. :( I hope you're safe Nixie. Stay strong.

[@Imbacore01]

***** Not familiar w the platform. Can non-subscribers still watch?

[@Imbacore01]

***** As a person with a syndrome myself (I don't have a Patreon account mind you), I can understand that it may be a very real scenario that she's telling the truth. I spent 2013 and 2014 going back and forth to the hospitals. Trips to the nearest emergency room was almost a weekly occurrence. There were days I couldn't even report to the office. My finances were in shambles. I still get symptoms these days but it has gotten to the point where I've gotten sick and tired of it all; I now just ignore them. KZbinrs are human too; we can get afflicted with diseases like any other joe. Of course it's a very real possibility too that what you've painted is true too. But to run away with the money would be stupid of her. I don't think Patreon donations are that much compared to the steady trickle she would have gotten if she didn't damage her reputation. So this possibility is even more remote than the first one.

[@redcoat4348]

shes still around

[@DavidUrbansky]

Good to hear there is an improvement, however small. We'll wait, because you're one of the few content producers worth waiting for; ain't nobody going anywhere!

[@RickvanEs]

Good to hear life is coming around, I hope your future will continue to brighten! All my best and stay awesome like you are.

[@Sullifly]

Thyroid problems run in my family, too - took years to diagnose for my dad. So glad you figured it out! You're not alone out there :)

[@TrollarmyGaming69Swag]

Nixie, glad your doing so much better. I love your videos, keep it up :)

[@thedisabledalien]

All the best for the new near Nixie! Hope everything get back to normal or better than it is :)

[@MrSkyl1ne]

Good to hear you are starting to feel better. What you have sounds an awful lot like Lyme disease, this can also affect the thyroid and cause nerve problems. I know multiple people that have had this exact same problem. Good luck with your recovery!

[@kilonaliosI]

As always I wish you speedy recover, cant begin to imagine what you have to face against but you definitely look better :)

[@LestonDr]

Rock it Girl, patience... endocrine system adjustments are slow, 6-months at a time... Stay safe.

[@NixiePixel]

Slow and steady wins the race... right? :-)

[@phatwcinfrcr]

+Nixie Pixel Concur. Known several people with endo issues. Did the give an exact diagnosis? Not only will it take awhile to adjust, you will have bad times an great times and swing back and forth. Also, read up on diets for endo issues and some food are bad for it.

[@mkarhade]

+Nixie Pixel true; but there is a lot more to @LestonDr comment. It literally takes quite a lot of time for any adjustment to kick in and then show sustained effects when it comes to endocrine system. Hoping for the best buddy. Wishing you the best.

[@azispratama92]

+Nixie Pixel Stay strong Nixie ^ ^ Big support here from Indonesia

[@ramirogonzalez8216]

+LestonDr RIP Nixie, We miss you. Such a nice person, many people where assholes in facebook. We miss you Nixie. RIP

[@Furiousme]

God ! I'm so happy to hear you are feeling better! Missed you! Stay STRONG! :)

[@BobSouer]

It is very good to see and hear you sounding so much more like yourself (if I can use that phrase), Nixie!

[@MusicFan7737]

Hey Nixie! Hope life has been improving and that your health is improving. I hope you know you still have people who love and appreciate all your work that you've done so far. You are such a wonderful person with a great personality. You are amazing, don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Thanks for being you, and I wish you the best with your health. Your so awesome. I love your personality. Be strong, keep fighting, and continue being you. Best wishes and love - Jordan

[@normandean2081]

holy crap, I had no idea it was that bad, glad you're feeling better!

[@ianrickey208]

Llama loves you Nixie!!!!!!!!! I have been gone from your channel for over a year (unemployed, no money, no internet) and I am so very sorry for you! Let us all know what we can do to help!!!!!!!

[@kfalconspb]

I'm glad you're feeling better Nixie. Have a great week!

[@lethargogpeterson4083]

I'm glad you found something out, and I hope it continues to work really well. Take care, Nixie.

[@alanwattman9775]

So glad to see your getting better and things are looking up for you. I can't imagine what you have been going through, sounds awful though. Take care and keep doing what your doing, from a Big Fan :) xx

[@JarrenCrist]

Good to see you back on your feet. Hope things keep heading in better directions for you as well!

[@ZaidRM1]

So Happy to have you back. Glad you're feeling better! Pace yourself homie ;)

[@fuckoff9911]

Glad you are feeling better. All the hugs and best wishes.

[@IgnoreMyChan]

Nixie, I just wanted to say that I love you (as a person, nothing freaky) and that I miss your videos, because of your awesome content but ESPECIALLY because I want to see how you're doing! Hope you do well! Lots of love! Wish you all the very best!

[@Hannibalism]

thank you so much for an update video! i was worried. So glad to hear they are starting to figure it out!

[@narkcurse]

Glad to hear your finally feeling better, come back when you feel its right and don't think you need to rush back to keep everyone happy and put your health at further risk. take care :)

[@FreedomBird666]

Hope is the single most important attribute to any form of recovery, and I will say this at the top of my lungs: keep on hoping, for there is always hope. We'll all be there for you :)

[@ico65able]

Nice to see that you are on the up curve on one of life's sin waves which hits us all at times. You are looking better and your energy levels seem to be going in the right direction. We are all thinking of you here in the UK . Take it easy NP.

[@LestonDr]

Thank you for the update! Your face is radiant, eyes clear... It is working for you. Reminder for patience, endocrine changes are slow...

[@LestonDr]

Health Care: Affordable Care Act (ACA) is there for people like you. Prior conditions are not a problem. Go to "healthcare.gov" and take a look. If you are loosing your current insurance, that qualifies as a "qualifying event" there are time restrictions after you loose your current provider. This is a government web site.

[@mrmactknife]

The twinkle is back in your eyes ;) Keep doing what you're doing Nixie, it's great to see you back x

[@Maleblade]

I am so glad your problems are being resolved Nicole. It is really a nightmare to be in pain and not know what is wrong. Hug to you. HUGS :)

[@rayg1369]

I'm so glad you are feeling better. I hope it continues.

[@theDMofL]

I'm happy to hear that you are getting better. :) You had me worried for a while. Keep up the fight and see you on the live show.

[@craigseptember4029]

Hey Nixie, hope your doing okay. Thanks for the great vids, your tuts were my bread and butter while learning the ropes with linux. Miss the vids, hope we all at least hear that you are alive and kicking:-)

[@anthonyedwardcooper8820]

Very glad to hear things are improving for you. I hope they get you back to tip top condition soon. Hang in there and good luck. Our thoughts are with you :-).

[@Wabbit0789]

With M.E. the hardest thing for me to do , was letting go of things I couldn't do any more (even had a little cry). It's hard to put into words, I really want to say "get better soon" but I think it would be better to say "think positive". All I can say is, thank you for keeping us subscribers up to date :) THINK POISTITVE !

[@denhouse1]

So glad to hear that you are making a comeback....your special and you are needed in the nerd community. Thanks so much for sharing your very personal info, it brought me closer to you and where you have been and what's been going on. I cannot wait for you to get back to yourself!! Take Care!!

[@MrCardeso]

I really hope that your improvement continues and you are at 100% soon!!

[@Monttukani]

I'm so so so so so so so happy to see you are getting better. love you, take care!

[@AlphaZeroOmega]

So glad to hear that your health is getting sorted out finally and you're beginning to feel better. I hope that you continue to improve. =)

[@AlexTux18]

I'm really happy to hear these new good news! I send to you a mega-hug from Italy!

[@wyyrdojim]

So happy you're feeling better! 2016 looks brighter!

[@ethanfredsti5803]

Nixie, glad to hear you are doing better. keep soldiering on.

[@Stuka87]

Happy to hear you finally found out what the main issue was! Hope you continue to feel better!

[@ExaltedDuck]

hey, for the shoelace issue, check out the ian knot. Not sure if it'll help, but it might take a little less fine motor coordination that the usual loop-wrap-thread-tug way we all learn. And if it does help, well it's amazing how much of a psyche boost can come from even small things like tying shoes when it comes to restoring normalcy. Good luck. :)

[@summer20105707]

Sorry to hear about your health issues Nixie. But I'm glad you're getting a little better.

[@todddembsky8321]

Nixie -- it was SOOOOOO good to see a video about you, I have been very worried and praying for you. Your face had much more color and you looked much healthier. Please keep us informed of your progress, and please, please, please let us know if you need any thing -- what else is family for :-) We love you, continue getting better -- warm thoughts to you every day.

[@Yggdrasil42]

Hi Nixie, I hope you're okay. Just thought of you and wanted to wish you all the best. You deserve nothing less.

[@charliepotatoes001]

Good to hear your making progress on the health department. I'm surprised your thyriod diagnosis was not found sooner. Happens to a lot of young women (mid twenties) in my area.

[@azraelrising78]

EMG's suck. Had one recently myself. Glad you're doing better! Take it one day at a time and you'll get there.

[@Seofthwa]

As a sufferer of hypothyroidism myself, I understand some of the thing you had to go through and the fact that knowing what the problem is helps getting treatment. One thing you may want to consider is to monitor and adjust medication levels that best suit your needs. I know that I had to fight like hell with mine to get my meds adjusted and strong arm my way to see a specialist just to get someone who would be open minded about issues. Good luck and keep up the great work you do.

[@ash2357577]

Happy new years! Glad to hear that you're doing better. Power through it, things will get better :)

[@mwilliams1220]

Thanks for the update Nixie! as you know, your fans have been worried about you. We will keep sending you positive energy. In 2010 I had my own bout with a serious illness that left me paralyzed and also found speech to text a useful thing. I know you probably have a million projects that you want to work on and get out the door, but I would love to hear about how you used technology to adapt to your conditions.

[@NixiePixel]

It's amazing how quickly life can change, we really can't take any moment for granted.. and then we adapt

[@mwilliams1220]

+Nixie Pixel Interestingly enough, because my illness left me disabled, I was able to qualify for WIA grants that allowed me to go back to school and get dual AAS in computer and networking support!

[@vincemontgomery5481]

Nixie, great to see you and so happy you are feeling better. You have been a huge help to me over the years (Did the linux switch in 2009. You helped so much, and still do) So even though you have no idea who I am :-) I will never abandon you and will continue to contribute to your patreon for as long as you need. Keep kicking ass

[@NixiePixel]

That absolutely means the world to me, thanks so much

[@bazzabru]

Good to see you are getting better 😁. Your health should always be number 1 priority but some people don't see that, sometimes till its to late.

[@1118Brett]

I've been gone a while. I'm glad you're on the med. My thoughts and prayers go out to.

[@attackbeast51]

Hey Nicole, just saw your video and you look and sound great. I'm glad the pills are helping you and I hope you get everything figured out. You got alot of friends and support out here. I'm glad you are doing better.

[@ijimkoz]

I really dig your channel and you are in my prayers. Keep the positive vibes and faith.