Turns out I have ADHD. Your observations changed my life 😭 VIDEO DIARY - ENTIRE JOURNEY

[@LailaElHafez-gg9qn]

The first 12 months of an adhd diagnosis is the definition of ✨realising things✨. The amount of self awareness and discovery in that first sprint is CRAZY. The grief is real. Proud of you sista. This experience is so validating

[@laurencurtis]

Absolutely!! Thank you so much 🥰

[@carisgoldsworthy1614]

This hurts my heart and heals a little piece of it at the same time. Hearing other women who are putting the pieces together in their 30s. Hurts because I know how bad the struggle is especially after having kids and everything you said hits home and healing to know its not just me who feels this. I've got a referral and made an appointment for 2025. Took me 3 months to actually make that appointment too 🙃

[@laurencurtis]

🩷 sending you lots of love. I hope your appointment goes well! Writing notes really helps so you don't forget anything when you're there 😂😉

[@carisgoldsworthy1614]

@laurencurtis thankyou so much that's a great idea!

[@kbfasian]

as the video goes on, it makes me so happy and proud to see you even talk more confidently. i love this for you!!

[@laurencurtis]

Thank you so much 😭

[@allyhind5527]

I’ve always felt like I could relate to you and your content for some reason - you are the only ‘original’ content creator that I still watch nowadays. I’ve suspected I had ADHD for while now (especially since becoming a Mum), but similar to you I run a successful business and never felt like I entirely fit the mould of typical ADHD. Very informative video and it has made my thoughts about myself much clearer!

[@shannonmama86]

This is the best and should be mandatory listen for diagnosing practitioners. I have nothing to add. You nailed every single point.

[@sherylpieface]

I recently got diagnosed as well and everything you went through at the beginning really resonated with me and I related so much! This is very insightful because I haven’t looked into going in the meds but seeing how positively it helps you encourages me to go for it. I was hesitant because I keep denying that my adhd isn’t so bad but it really is. You explained it really well and for someone who isn’t that great at articulating how I feel I can use parts of your explanation to explain it. It also sheds light on what adhd is because most people think adhd is hyperactivity. You’re doing amazing and I appreciate this content so much.

[@laurapotpie]

I was also diagnosed in my 30s and it is quite the shock and disbelief and then when you look into it, you're like oh my gosh, how did I not know?????

[@laurencurtis]

Yep! 😖

[@britt12345ist]

Thank you so much for documenting this. I would have never known that I have ADHD until I watched this. I’m having the same feelings that you had in the beginning of the video and I just want to Thank you For putting yourself out there and being so vulnerable ❤

[@ebonytaylormorgan]

I’ve watched you for so many years and I’ve always felt safe and comfortable watching you, and I noticed your behaviours over time and saw them in myself. I just understood everything and found satisfaction in everything you find satisfying… I also didn’t know this whole time that I have ADHD, I just thought people like you and I are different. I’m so happy for you and please make more content on ADHD tips and management as you learn and find yourself, I would so appreciate videos like that 🥺🥺🥺 we love you Loz! Xxx

[@laurencurtis]

I appreciate that so much, thank you 😭🩷🩷

[@S_F_Kingy]

Lauren, I’m only 10 mins in, I just want to give you a big hug. I feel like I have undiagnosed adhd. Definitely see a trait of being extremely hard on ourselves with a lot of people that have it. Everything you have said so far really resonates with me, all the frustrations, that constant feeling of “why am I like this!?!?!” Big hugs xx

[@Rileycatchlove]

The last week or so I've had an epiphany, exactly what you said, all of these puzzle pieces are falling into place, I'm 33 and I have a 17 month old son and since the day he was born I have struggled SO much and I thought it was just that I was weak, couldn't handle being a mum etc. because I cannot control my life anymore, I have no freedom and I can't be introverted anymore being a stay at home mum. I love my son more than anything in the world of course. But I feel like I've been backed into a corner and it's all blown wide open, all of the little "funny neurotic things" that I've always dealt with, I can no longer just ignore or brush off and they are actually making my life really hard now. I resinate with every single thing you have said. I have an appointment with a Dr today to get a referral, your video has been the extra push that I needed ❤❤

[@paolaflores6316]

Diagnosed in my 30s too. The fact you're self aware enough to know kids would not be a good decision for you is amazing. Becoming a mom amplified my symptoms and challenges, and it is the main reason I sought help. It's incredibly hard, the mental hurdles I have to jump on a daily basis burns me out constantly. Thank you for being so vulnerable. Been watching you from the start. ❤

[@aliciabond8077]

Thank you for being so raw and honest. You are helping so many people feel seen and heard from sharing your journey, including the feelings of self doubt. Currently on this journey myself and relate to all the emotions and traumas that arise during the journey. You should be so proud ❤❤❤

[@cutiipiy]

Girl i’m here with you on this exact discovery of ADHD and had the same reaction a couple months ago. After getting my self assessment back and finding out i’m highly likely to have it it honestly felt like a sign of relief and put all the pieces together. Honestly, it’s allowed me to forgive myself and move on going forward with compassionate and understanding of myself while working with the ADHD instead of against it. I’ve seen such improvement on a consistent basis since

[@BridgetKat]

I was diagnosed at 29, so I relate to this so much! A lot of women with inattentive ADHD find creative ways/habits to deal with some of the negative symptoms, so it can be harder for those around us (like teachers when we were little, parents, etc.) to notice the "red flags". That's why girls are diagnosed at such lower rates than boys. We are better at masking and have more social pressure to take care of things ourselves. I'm so happy to see this wave of women finally getting diagnosed as adults. It's so healing to finally know what was wrong the whole time and know that it's not a big deal and can be managed ❤️

[@emmaallen9420]

This really resonates with me - my husband has adhd diagnosed in his mid 20s - it's been such a journey! All your examples describe my husband exactly! Thanks for sharing your journey with us x

[@drag-ha]

EXCELLENT VIDEO!!! This is the type of content we need right now.

[@tazan144]

Hey Lauren ❤, First of all I want to say thank you for sharing this vulnerable side with us. I've been a subscriber since 2015. I got diagnosed with ADHD in August and I am 30 year old woman. My therapist said that it's hard to detect with females because we tend to carry more emotions more than males. I recognise everything you say,: - the two things at once. - the emotional side - the getting up straight away etc. I honestly there are a lot things about ADHD that are daunting and may seem negative. However there also so many positives we are creative, empathic and love a good chat. Once you get diagnosed and find a good rhythm with therapy it will get better. ❤

[@laurencurtis]

Thank you so much 🥹🩷🙏

[@laurmer]

Just diagnosed at 37 with hyperactive type (exactly how you explained the constant brain activity that you don't experience) and had been misdiagnosed with anxiety for 20 years. I know that relief of feeling like you finally understand. I've been nervous to try medication, but watching your video gave me hope ❤

[@MaddieLouiseRossetto]

Wow... To see someone who I have watched for nearly 10 years be so vulnerable is so refreshing. I feel the exact same way, high functioning but so much inability to just start the easiest of tasks. Before this video came out I received a diagnosis but have been SO scared to take my meds. I think this was the push I needed to go to the chemist and fill that script. Thank you Lauren

[@samanthajosnz]

As someone who wasn’t diagnosed till my 20s this is so heartbreaking. I thought I was dumb my whole life because I couldn’t focus in school and never had anyone who noticed my ADHD tendencies. I feel you Lauren ❤everything you’ve said I resonate with so much thank you ❤

[@lovepink04030]

53:10 Lauren, I want to start off by saying thank you so much for sharing such a vulnerable journey. I’ve been diagnosed with Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD) since age 8, and was retested again at 18 scoring very high for both ADD & ADHD. I know many struggle with these disorders, but often times it’s hard not to feel like you’re just being lazy or aren’t trying hard enough. Especially when someone tells you “you just need to try harder”. I know the feeling of being overwhelmed when those puzzle pieces start to fit and burst into tears. It feels so comforting how closely I relate to this video, though I don’t wish this on anyone. People have probably explained this elsewhere in the comments but the common issue with someone who has ADHD or ADD is that our brains don’t produce enough dopamine to get that sense of accomplishment feeling. Like how you’re saying here about that euphoria feeling most say they get working out. That goes for any task you try to complete. You don’t get that sense of accomplishment or motivation to chase that feeling. Like you, I had always told myself I’m just not working hard enough. I think you spell out the feeling and struggles most of us feel perfectly so hopefully some who fortunately don’t deal with this can get a general understanding of what it’s like. You are so incredibly strong and I’m so so happy you seemed to have found something that works for you!! I still have more of the video to watch but I wanted to tell you how much I appreciate your vulnerability and honesty in this process ♥️♥️♥️ Thank you💕

[@lovepink04030]

Also know, you’re still human. You will have times where it’s harder than others and experience burnout. Especially if you’re constantly going going going. Don’t get discouraged if you have a few bad days ♥️

[@jayr1288]

i never comment on youtube videos, but i had to say thank you for posting this. i never thought i had adhd until recently, before you released this video, but i feel EVERY symptom you explain that you had before starting your medication. i was almost brought to tears of how much i relate to what you said. I'm 26 and have struggled with the weight you described and even worried about feeling like someone chasing a diagnosis, so I never brought this up. this video has given me the courage to advocate for myself and seek a professional diagnosis and medication. thank you lauren! long time subsriber

[@nicole-uf9zg]

So happy that you finally got your diagnosis! I was thinking that someone crying so much about things that validate with them and they are just unsure about, doesn’t really happen unless it is true. Also, using foundation and minimal makeup that matches your natural complexion makes you look so stunning! It’s my favorite.

[@caseyJ2807]

What a video!! I have watched you for literally years (since I was in secondary school I’m now 26) and recently diagnosed with autism and ADHD, I relate you EVERY SINGLE WORD you said here, thank you for documenting this and talking about your thoughts and feelings! I’m about to start meds (Elvanse - UK term) and this made me feel so much better about it x

[@Ralita]

thank you so much for sharing this! I remember watching you as a little girl and being in love with your makeup tutorials and so inspired by your content, I also struggle with the symptoms of ADHD and am currently in a waiting list for 1 year to get diagnosed. It makes me so comforted to know that one of my favourite beauty youtubers have experienced struggles in something similar to my own. This video is so important and helpful and I'm so glad you shared it in the way that you have with full information taking us along each step! Sending love

[@kristit9329]

Thank you for sharing the beginning of your journey!! Weird timing as you posted this video a day after I was thinking there’s a possibility of me having adhd. Really appreciate your vulnerability and insights!

[@patriciagodfrey3616]

5 mins in and literally been me for years felt seen I'm now 38 and waiting for diagnosis and only realise why I'm the way and why now I can keep the mask on wanted to hug you x

[@cecilyb.4235]

Thank you so very much for shedding light on this subject. Truly have the feeling i’m suffering from the same thing and have been in a bit of denial. I can relate to sooo much of this. Sending you so much love.

[@polishedperidot]

I’ve only just started this video - the way you’re feeling at the beginning is me now. I’d never even considered ADHD until 6 or so months ago - I thought my little issues were character flaws and part of my personality. I know now, it’s not and that all my little ‘things’ are not weaknesses - they’re ADHD traits. I know I need to get tested - I know this video will give me the confidence. Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing this with us Lauren - you’re helping a lot of people ❤

[@nikkikrantz3836]

So glad you are advocating for yourself and taking control of your life. Always loved your authenticity and your videos always bring such a sense of comfort ❤

[@Rosula1995]

Thanks so much for vlogging your journey and being brave enough to post it. I'm so glad you're on the up and that the medication is helping. I could relate to so much of this video, which was really validating in terms of my decision to book an ADHD Assessment despite my family all saying they don't think I have it. It's crazily underdiagnosed in women, but it's great to see people like you spreading more awareness! I can also 100% relate to the whole "imposter" thing... like, worrying people will think I'm just trying to get a cool label or an "excuse" for why I do certain things. But I'm trying to remind myself to trust my gut, and the more I'm researching ADHD and hearing other peoples' experiences (Reddit really is so great!), the more I'm feeling like exploring a diagnosis is a step in the right direction. Also, you hit the nail on the head regarding your reasons for not wanting kids - I feel exactly the same way. Anywho, all the best Lauren, and thanks again for posting this!

[@missymartin7461]

I went through all of these exact thoughts when being diagnosed last year at 21. After that, my mum got diagnosed at 46 after realising that we are the same. It’s such a difficult thing to come to realise that you aren’t broken, just not built for the way this world is set up. So proud of you for getting to this point xxx

As soon as you started talking about how you felt before your period, I was like I wonder if she has PMDD? I’m 30 and just became diagnosed with PMDD a couple of years ago. I’m glad your Dr mentioned that because it’s not something that is talked about often. This video also convinced me to go get tested for ADHD. I’ve suspected it for awhile but didn’t think it was bad enough to go to the Dr about but yours symptoms and what you struggle with is exactly how I feel from day to day. I think it’s time that I seek help for it. Thank you for making this ❤️

[@sarayoung339]

I’m so happy for you that you’re going through this journey and having gone through I myself I know how hard it can be at the start, but I promise it makes life so much easier and happier in the long run ❤ one thing I noticed when you were talking about getting your emails done is that you created a system to manage a problem you were having. And it’s such a characteristic of having ADHD and creating all these mini systems to function

[@sydneythornton9929]

Thank you SO much for documenting and sharing your journey with this!!! I have been feeling most of these things most of my life just like you but thought I was getting by okay until now! I’m 32 and recently quit a good job I had because of my inability to complete tasks. This resonated with me so much and I am going to look into getting help! Thank you thank you thank you ❤️❤️❤️

[@cecilyb.4235]

ugh yes. that feeling, and its debilitating, like it’s so hard to focus.. ugh, what did you do for income instead? :/ did you find another job before quitting?

[@JazCue90]

I was diagnosed at 33. You are not alone. The realization is sooo real. We’re here for you girly!

[@dudesnowman]

I haven't finished the video yet, but I know how emotional this journey of ADHD discovery is. I never considered it either, and thought it sounded so silly to say out loud for so long. As women we learn to hide it so well, we learn to make do. And because ADHD/autism are so hereditary, if our parents have these disorders and never knew, it's even more likely that we go undiagnosed our whole lives, because our parents don't pick up on the unusual traits because they have them too. This feeling of sadness and anger that comes with realising you've been struggling your whole life and comparing yourself to people who haven't had these debilitating struggles - it's hard. I am sending you so much love, you're not alone! So many of us have been through this, especially in recent years as more info has come out. It's time to be nice to yourself finally!!

[@laurencurtis]

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[@hayleyswensson4408]

Also, please tell me I’m not the only one who has a strange feeling of nervousness watching videos about people talking about their adhd… because it hits too close to home and everything is so relatable. But also find them very helpful in being able to find useful statements others say, to help get your own words out about your experience…? I’m undiagnosed, but have a strong feeling I am.

[@abbyburns3127]

As a woman in my early 30's it's becoming a running joke in my friend group because almost all of us and/or siblings were diagnosed with anxiety, ADHD, autism, or a combination, in our 20's or early 30's. Growing up, the adults in our lives just didn't know what they didn't know, and it wasn't until people started talking about it that we all started to recognize it. Thank you for sharing your journey!

[@carolinanelson8736]

I just want to say, it was helpful and it reached the right people. I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was 6, my mom didn’t want to medicate me. I was fine while I was a kid, but I’m no longer fine. I’ve been scared my whole life to use them, but after this video I’ll give them a try. The way you explained it and how medication helped you, there are no techniques, therapy or anything that can fix how your brain fails you and the way it makes you lose time and burn out constantly Thanks ❤

[@alexx7079]

Thank u for sharing your story Lauren ❤ I saw a therapist this year and through conversations I brought up how my ex used to think I have adhd but I never thought anything of it, then I realised people in the past have always told me i am so easily distracted and I fidget a lot and i sort of started to mask that behaviour so then she made me do this test online. The next time I went she told me yes, you’ve got ADHD but the inattentive type, I felt so validated at the time but I haven’t gone for a formal diagnosis yet! I don’t know what I am waiting for! This video has inspired me to actually go and see a psychiatrist ! Thank you thank you for sharing xxx

[@faithclemons7102]

This video really hit home for me. Thank you for making this and putting this out for all of us to see. This has given me the push to try and figure out if I have ADHD. Thank you so much

[@laurenelizabeth3163]

I'm still watching but have to stop and comment! Thank you for sharing your journey. You've given me a sense of validation to go and speak to a doctor! I have always thought all the things you're mentioning that I also do were just my personality traits, but your example of the clothes is exactly me! I have a bag of clothes that has been sitting for about 5 months that I havent got round to dealing with and we're now moving house and doing a bigger clear out and my fiance said take it all to the charity shop and my mind said that we cant because its too much and they wont want any of it! I've never known anyone else think like that and it's so hard to explain that thought process to someone else, I'm also a massive people pleaser! 💕

[@mmmmmkkkay]

Thank you for the super helpful video. I related to it deeply! Recently diagnosed ADHD 30 year old here also, waiting for my psychiatrist appointment in the new year for medication, and your video has given me so much hope hearing your experience. Thanks for sharing

[@vanaynaybaybay]

Thank you for sharing this journey. It’s so informative and validating for those of us out here who live with ADHD or who have lived with people who have it.

[@mwade29]

I found this so interesting and I really believe this will be helpful for lots of people

[@melikaf77]

I love you Lauren, don't cry. You're still amazing. Your ADHD doesn't change how wonderful you are. I have been following you since the early days you started this channel, and I think you are absolutely inspiring. Just find out what you can do to keep the ADHD under control, that's all. ❤

[@melikaf77]

FYI, I live in Canada, and I thought our health systems sucks only. Now that you mentioned that you have to wait so much, just see a doctor. It made me realize that the health system sucks over there, too!

[@luxe_ish]

So happy you got your diagnosis and thank you for sharing this journey with us! The more videos I see about other peoples' experiences, the more I realise how lucky I was to only have.a one-month wait and be diagnosed in one visit. That wait felt bad enough so I can't believe that people wait months or years... or the people who can't afford to go private. :(

[@ambushxo]

Lauren I am so happy for you! I relate to this so much! I had all the same feelings/behaviors as you and luckily got diagnosed in HS and medication changed my life. Thank you for sharing your journey !

[@shannonwilkinson2918]

Thank you so much for sharing your experience. I've only recently come to the realisation that I might have ADHD because my experiences growing up where so much like yours and my mums reaction was very similar to your mums, which has given me that imposter syndrome and caused me to be nervous to even start the diagnosis process incase they think I'm faking. Everything you mentioned is exactly how I feel on a daily basis and this has absolutely given me the push to start that process and not waste more time to get to my full potential

[@hefferwaldron]

I’ve just been diagnosed at 28. It’s scary but the most validating thing I’ve ever experienced. Everything makes sense now! You should be so proud of yourself x

[@jessva5591]

Thank you so much for sharing this with us. Almost everything you experience I really resonate with and struggle with. I'm going to investigate if I also have ADHD. The change you've experienced sounds absolutely wonderful and I'm so excited to see how it changes your life for you.

[@alexkarns4301]

Thank you for sharing this. You are making so many women and girls feel seen :) sending so much love and care

[@samanthaconroy4600]

Hey beautiful I have watched you since the early days and as a 34 woman who has had to deal with ADHD my whole life I relate to everything your saying I was diagnosed at 10 and as iv gotten older and now having children of my own I try to embrace my ADHD as much as I can we are fun quirky little love bugs your a brave woman for speaking about it so publicly you go girl 🥰🥰🥰

[@madalynpsimmons]

Wonderful video again Lauren! I’ve followed you since around 12 years old and now I’m a woman. It’s been wonderful seeing you grow with me throughout the years. I’m so glad you’ve been so candid and honest about every thought regarding medication and the diagnosis. I relate to this heavily and I never knew exactly what the problem was. See you advocate for yourself is inspiring! Don’t ever doubt yourself you’re amazing and always have been!

[@PennyLane6]

Im 34, finally coming to terms with potentially having ADHD as well. Im still scared to make the appt with the GP to even get started but this video gives me hope.

[@XxrainingxlemonsxX]

Oh man, I feel this so much. I am also recently diagnosed ADHD. I've always been high functioning, but felt like I was never good enough, struggling to keep up, and felt awful that I can't do things as easily as others. Once I started medication I literally cried. It's sad to know that I could have struggled less in the past, but I am so grateful that my future will be so much smoother.

[@marimacgregor971]

I just got diagnosed yesterday, at 34. I have primarily inattentive type and I am high performing, high masking. The psychiatrist told me that my compliance (the social conditioning of women) throughout life is the reason it took me so long to get diagnosed. I also have 2 degrees. And for anyone who says that the disorder is “over diagnosed” in order to be diagnosed the symptoms have to be present before age 12.

[@Zurri]

I was diagnosed this year with ADHD combined type. I'm 33. All of my immediate family members have either ADHD, Autism, or both, yet for some reason I seemed to have slipped through the cracks, I think because I was a passionate overachiever as the first child (my mom kept me VERY busy). 2022 I finally burned out where anxiety just wasn't able to fuel me anymore, one of the only things that could motivate me, it was like hitting a wall, like you mentioned. I completely broke down, I had to quit my job, I couldn't get out of bed. When I left, one of my coworkers wrote on my goodbye card "stop being so emotional lol" (he meant it in a cheeky way). Yes I struggle with emotional regulation. I was gaslit by my GP here in Australia when I first mentioned ADHD. I mentioned how my tendency (more like impulsion) to interrupt others and talk over them was quite literally ruining my personal relationships. My GPs response? "Maybe you're just rude". I felt so ashamed and embarrassed that I decided I wasn't going to mention it again and it wasn't worth the effort. Fast forward 2024, I went back to the US to visit my family (also to get Wellbutrin, as I couldn't get it here in Australia when I asked for it). My very first appointment with my prescriber in the US after psychiatric screening: I was diagnosed (I was not even seeking it, funny that). Both of my younger brothers were diagnosed at a young age, and it makes me sad that it had taken me this long, essentially on my own, to figure it out. Yet when I was diagnosed, literally nobody that knew me was surprised! I now look back on so many situations in my life (including my impulsive decision to move to another country) and it makes me sad, angry, how different could my life had been if I'd had the proper assistance growing up or even in my early 20s? In a weird way I feel like I'm starting over. I'm very inspired watching you in general and your experience with stimulants & I'm thinking maybe I do need them after all (I've been trying to get through on just Bupropion). Thank you for sharing this journey xx sorry this was long lol, hopefully someone finds this comforting or can relate.

[@laurencurtis]

Oh gosh I just want to hug you. You were let down by multiple people who should have helped you 😢 I’m so glad you were able to finally be diagnosed though! 🩷🩷

[@zeblonde31]

so acurate and relatable! and the interrupting! I found it harder to manage now as I started a new job and my boss mentioned it a few times. but she said "the fact that you interrupt people so much shows how much you lack self confidence" and I was like !!!!! those invisible disabilities are so so hard to live with, but eventually, we find our people!

[@Zurri]

@@zeblonde31 those comments are so hurtful and unfortunately they stick with us so easily. Those kinds of shaming comments are burned so strongly into my memory, especially when I didn't know why I act the way I do. I agree we find our tribe, I don't think it's a coincidence that the people we start to surround ourselves with (and KZbinrs we watch!) turn out to be neurodivergent as well! Sending love ❤

[@zeblonde31]

@@Zurri absolutely! and before recently I didnt know the interrupting was part of that diagnosis. And I saw myself doing it so so much at that job that I lasted 6 months in and basically, that was not an environment for me! and with those kind of comments, its even clearer. Anyway. And yes it's like we vibe with one another and when we find out it's like ahhh you too! ahah! that's great! Even learning more from each other about ourselves! loved the part about the fluoxetine. Anyway, I could share for hours, that's also what happens when we feel safe and understood! thanks for chatting! Sending love too ♥

[@mauranoonan8951]

There’s nothing wrong with showing your emotions. I’m glad you have a diagnosis and can understand what makes you who you are. That’s a good thing ❤

[@amberallen8921]

Wow Lauren, it has been in my thoughts for a couple of years that I may have adhd and this video has confirmed so much for me. I feel like I am very very similar to you in the same symptoms. What an eye opener. I’m going to rewatch with my husband and see his thoughts as he also thinks I have it.. hoping the process in Nz isn’t as drawn out…

[@helenhorsman510]

I don't have ADHD but I have a chronic illness & what you were saying about confidently advocating for yourself rings so true to me. It's the exact same conclusion I came to after years of dealing with medical consultants and always talking about my health with disclaimers, caveats etc. I feel it so deeply when you shared how that's been for you. Thank you for taking the time to document your journey. You and I are faced with different challenges but so many parts of this are so universal and relatable

[@laurencurtis]

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[@alywiens26]

Aweee my heart 😢❤ my internal monologue is the exact same… the pressure we put on ourselves is exhausting. Give yourself a hug 🥰🥰 for real it really helps. There’s so much grieving that comes with the diagnosis.. I always wondered who/where I would be if I had the support I needed all along

[@laureng3830]

you were body doubling without realizing it (being on the phone while doing laundry)! We often implement these systems for ourselves without realizing it. totally relate to how overstimulating the idea of kids is as well. We also have on or off mode- adhd isnt as much a deficit of attention, it's difficulty regulating our attention (doing something intensely one week then burning out or losing interest, or only being able to work on things we find interesting). A big help has been learning what things are motivating to the adhd brain because they are NOT the same as what motivates a neurotypical person! (interest, novelty, challenge, urgency, and passion.

[@KristaEdgerton]

Lauren… this might be life changing for me. I’m turning 35 and I’ve been a follower of yours since literally 2012, we have grown together girl whether you’ve known it or not hahaha I’ve been suspecting adhd lately. Seeing you take control of your mental health is motivating me to make the appointment. Thank you for sharing your journey. This is so important.

[@laurencurtis]

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[@krose20]

I have never related to so many things. I also have been looking into seeing if I have adhd myself because I’m at the point where I feel like I’m hindering my life and not living to my potential and who I truly want to be. So incredible that you took this step and maybe are able to understand yourself more. You’re definitely not alone in your feelings. Hugs all around

[@mraz95]

This was so incredible to watch and i feel so proud of and happy for you!

[@Mehlia626]

Thank you so much. I needed this push. After years of wondering, I finally talked my doctor about adhd and she referred me. In the last yr I was diagnosed with PMDD (ironically I take what you take 😂) but I finally tackled that and now I feel ready to figure out these adhd symptoms. I cried today. Tears of validation and relief for finally taking that next step. Which I'm sure you can relate, it's so hard sometimes to just get going. So thank you so much. Who knows how much longer I would have waited.

[@laurencurtis]

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[@melinasoy]

I follow you since the beginning and I am practically growing with you, and I'm so happy to see you thriving like this. ❤️ I'm 28 and 2 years ago did a course about registering my cycle, and I was blown away that I have had my period for 18 years and I was SO uneducated about everything that is going on in the body. Anyway, besides your ADHD exacerbating your pms, I recommend cheking out doctors like Lara Briden. There is a lot we can do in our daily habits that can improve our PMS. And also, we are basically different women in each part of our cycle and we shouldn't battle it (of course, if it's preventing you from doing basic life is concerning), we should honor it and flow with it. There is a moment to push our self, and moments to take it easy ❤️ sending you LOTS OF LOVE!

[@susanneradlmayr2124]

Thank you so much for this video, Lauren! ❤ Thanks for putting it all into words.

[@abbeylogan-r1n]

I just got diagnosed a month ago at 26 with adhd.. just like you I’m highly successful and have excelled in my field and I felt like such an imposter going into my appt as well bc I thought they would think “well you’ve got this far” but walking out with a diagnosis and medication has changed my life. I have a toddler and I didn’t realise how overstimulated and on edge I was at all times, the medication has allowed me to think clearly and I don’t end every day exhausted anymore. I cried the first day I took my meds bc I thought “is this what it’s meant to feel like? Is this how my partner feels everyday?”

[@Pkpdotcom]

Soooo many things you mentioned are ME. And when you said you felt it more since being in your 30's and having "more on your plate" I almost burst into tears. Since starting to study 4 years ago and becoming a mum 2 years ago I have just felt so much in survival mode and so much to do and organise and think of ahhhhh "my brain is at its capacity" this hits home! Thank you for putting it out there and sharing your thoughts. I've been following you for 10+ years and I keep feeling more "connected" to you haha parasocial relationships are odd!!!

[@laurencurtis]

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[@MimiShazmiraMSaid]

I love you, always have & always will.

[@baileyann546]

I just recently (last month) got diagnosed with ADHD at the age of 26 and it simultaneously blew my mind and made everything in my life/personality make sense for the first time ever! I felt so so validated by your video 🩷 this is almost exactly how I felt when getting diagnosed - like so seen but also so annoyed because how did this get missed my whole life! Just wanted to say thank you for making this video, it made me feel so accepted 🥲

[@RachelKay528]

Omg I relate so much. I was just diagnosed with combination inattentive/hyperactive ADHD a few months ago at 34 years old. It just explains so much about my childhood, my motivation issues, why I get stressed SO easily, my road rage, why I lose my phone all the time, everything. I absolutely know I could not handle having kids because I just get overwhelmed and stressed so so easily. After work I am so mentally drained I NEED the rest of the night to unwind. It's a little sad to think about how much I could've achieved in school though. I did really well grades-wise, but I had to work SO hard for those grades. I was constantly stressed and crying at the amount of homework/reading I had because it just took me so much longer to complete everything than it did for everyone else. If I had been on medication, maybe I could've taken honor classes. Right now, I'm not taking medication because I've been going through other health issues and don't want to add any more medications into the mix, but I'm hoping at some point in the future I'll be able to. I just want to know what it's like to have a neurotypical brain/life lol So glad you got the diagnosis/help you need! Thank you for sharing!

[@marimacgregor971]

Wow I’m 34 as well and just got diagnosed. Everything you said is literally me

[@RachelKay528]

@marimacgregor971 glad I'm not alone! Lol

[@mariamdaudi]

This made me cry because in the last two weeks I’ve realized I probably have ADHD. I am not hyperactive and I don’t have a busy mind. People always comment on how calm I am. But my life is a mess because I CANT GET THINGS DONE. I have EVERY other symptom except for hyperactivity. It has been devastating. I too thought something was just wrong with me. The shame of not being able to complete simple daily tasks is overwhelming. I’m only three minutes in, but I’m going to watch the whole video. ❤ I’m due to see a professional this week for an official diagnosis.

[@laurencurtis]

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[@citrine376]

I’m so, so incredibly happy for you and the clarity you’ve been able to find and future full of hope you now have to look forward to 💖 I resonated with everything you brought up, I was diagnosed 3 years ago after spending years stuck under chronic depression, and my “wait a second…” moment came from realizing I was relating to way too many adhd tiktoks 😂 I was struggling and feeling helpless because antidepressants and sessions with my lovely psychologist just felt like a bandaid. It always felt like there was this invisible plateau where I felt better to a certain point, but no matter what I couldn’t break through to the next step in healing my depression. It literally took me a year after I was diagnosed & began adhd meds to realize that every aspect of my depression had been a direct symptom of my undiagnosed adhd. It had all just vaporized as soon as I began actually treating the root cause and feeling like I was somewhat in control of my life, funny how that works 🙃 Thank you for being brave to document your journey, it’s going to help and empower people to begin to understand themselves and to advocate for themselves in order to get a diagnosis and begin their own healing journeys ❤️❤️❤️

[@laurencurtis]

I've been hearing that a lot actually! It sounds like a lot of women with ADHD suffer from anxiety and depression due to masking undiagnosed ADHD in their earlier years :( xx

[@Twinotwisters]

Hey Lauren i completely understand your concerns and empathise with you. As someone who works in the field of mental health and has seen ADHD first hand I recommend a few things; - you become a product of your environment. If you are constantly trying to be busy, constantly on social media or technology and not lettinf your mind rest or relax off course you are going to feel overstimulated and chaotic. - i experience a lot of the same things that you do like being disorganised etc but at the end of the day thats just a personality trait and it could be a marker of ADHD but it also could be a product of the work that I do!

[@laurencurtis]

I've been formally diagnosed by a psychiatrist so I'm not unsure about whether or not I have it, but thanks anyway!

[@vamosahacerloorganizaciony345]

I've been diagnosed at 40. I think the amount of responsibility and being a mum and starting to study a master's made me realise my coping mechanisms were not working anymore, or maybe I was just burnout after trying for so long

[@ZebraStripe87]

So relatable! I got diagnosed in my first term of my masters degree, 24yrs old with a 4 year old daughter. You can only mask for so long 💜

[@MakeupLvr33]

Wow, I think you have described "me" to a T! I think I need to have a talk with my doctor! I'm over 40, and i feel like it's gotten much worse. Thank you for this video! It's an eye-opener!

[@roxaneg2768]

This makes me wish I could afford a private diagnosis. Things in the UK are so slow in the public sector. Maybe one day. So happy for you❤ gives me hope.

[@laurencurtis]

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[@danielabernabei528]

I am completley relate to you as this! ❤ Being diagnosed at 36 was pretth hard! And being a parent is bloody hard too! Emotional regulation is something we (adhd ppl) atruggle with ❤ you got this Loz! ❤

[@joannebarnes3237]

Watching this in starting to think maybe I have it too. I’m 46 but I can be unmotivated, I am a procrastinator, I can start something but then not want to finish it and can look at it and know I need to finish it but can’t be bothered, I can start good habits for a month or so but then stop and have no desire to keep at it. My brain is always busy and I feel I overthink things a lot. I get good ideas but don’t know how to put them into practice. I like peace and quiet and am happy being on my own.

[@blairfalk]

Amazing video ❤! During me listening to u I decided that's finally time fore me to se if I have adhd to I recognize so much that u sade in my self! I've thought about it many many times. Excellent video so so happy fore u❤❤❤

[@kdlee3316]

Thanks for this video. I was diagnosed at 19 but now in my 40s I’m going to meet w other a psychiatrist to finally start medication

[@danaturtles]

Oh my gosh. I’ve recently become aware of the fact I may have this type of adhd. Everything you are saying is me to the T! I really want to get tested as I’m newly a mum and I’m struggling! Meal making and being organised for my son is super hard because of how I’ve always struggled with starting and finishing things etc.

[@claire_jay_]

Lots of love to you 💛 So many brighter days ahead for you! ☀️

[@Juleskay11]

Diagnosed this year at the age of 26!! It’s so validating to get a diagnosis. Everything makes sense now.

[@ZebraStripe87]

Much love ♥️♥️ I was recently diagnosed in my mid 20s and it changed my life xx I can relate so much!

[@gorjess98]

I was diagnosed with combined ADHD on 28/09 and I've been waiting for my permit for medication and I finally got it last week. However, I have been apprehensive all week and your experience has eased my worries. I felt that imposter syndrome where I kept gaslighting myself and feeling like I don't suffer from ADHD because it's just my depression. Every task feels like a mountain that I have no mental energy to climb and that has hindered my life immensely . Thank you for sharing the pros and cons of the medication and I'm going to start vyvanse tomorrow. I hope it helps me with that "weight" so I can get my life back on track.

[@laurencurtis]

I'm so excited for you - I absolutely believe it will! X

[@marianadominguez8262]

❤❤❤ Don’t put negativity thoughts in your head or you’ll believe it your mind is powerful, if you tell your mind your sick you will feel sick. People in the internet are no professionals they can’t Diagnose someone they see on screen for a few minutes.

[@sineadmcvey131]

I feel like it wouldn’t affect you day to day as you don’t have kids, you can mask it and have all the time in the world to do things at your pace. I haven’t been diagnosed but know I do. Only from social media and since having kids. I’m glad you’re getting the answers you deserve ! It sucks we have only just noticed as we get older. It’s so interesting that it gets harder to ! Xx

[@hayleyswensson4408]

I wish I could explain to someone all the ways I feel like adhd affects me (undiagnosed) but I truly believe I have it. I start to think about it but then my brain quickly starts hopping between the different points, before I can even actually think about the details of each point and then becomes a scrambled mess. So the thought of even trying to talk about it to someone is too overwhelming so I just don’t want to even try. Like how am I ever going to get help when just the thought of trying to gather my thoughts to do it is too much 😢 😔

[@Zoe.TheBody360]

I’m an nutritional endocrine therapist Lauren. Has anyone tested you’ve got adequate progesterone in the luteul phase. Progesterone is what makes us feel relaxed. It’s typically diminishes by high cortisol and stress. Many women in the luteul phase are sensitive to the drop in estrogen and progesterone affecting serotonin levels - the micro dose of anti depressant can help some women Hope you feel better - I’m sure Reece”s health is having a worsening effect on baseline levels so give yourself lots of grace and time

[@victoriasaintknight]

love don't cry for being who you are. ahdh or not it doesn't define your worth.

[@laurapotpie]

Funny, I commented on a video of you talking about like going to the gym and stuff and I said do you have ADHD? That was the one and only video of yours that I saw and this is the second one. As an ADHD we can spot y'all a mile away.

[@laurencurtis]

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[@janinweinkauf5900]

Thank you for your vulnerability . ❤

[@AmyCatalano]

Loved this video, super informative and so happy that this has worked out for you ❤❤

[@daniellepucci1988]

I also just got diagnosed with ADHD a month ago and I’m 31. ❤