My Toxic Realization with Bad Friendships | Storytime | Rant

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[@miss_mello_kitty]

When I first went into high school I thought that friend hierarchies were just natural until I got into a really close-knit group of friends online where no one was left out or treated like a “less desirable” part of the group. It was really refreshing.

[@Lacapi]

It took me 11 years to finally admit to myself my best friend wasn’t my friend. I was just the less talented art friend she needed to look better. My realization moment was when we part ways after hs for three years, she approached to me again to catch up because I went radio silent on her. I was already avoiding her actually, but couldn’t resist the temptation to see if she had changed. I went to her house and I kid you not. The same day she happened to invite me to her house, she had a dnd meeting somewhere else with her college friends, and she dared to put in on me to decide if I made her cancel on her friends or to go. Like, excuse me beatch? I wasn’t the one who messed up things here, she wanted me to decide to blame it on me if anything went wrong. Anyways, we went, the session was disaster because I was an outsider and her dnd friends treated me like shit, but she didn’t care cause she got her cake and ate it too, like always. Yep, cut ties with her completely after that.

[@lemonywater2979]

Some people are just assholes so they naturally attract other assholes. So sorry you had to be in that situation.

[@Howie_vibeMaster]

damn, no one ever really talks/warns about toxic friends but those relationship are just as important as romantic one thank you for talking about it ～ ♡

[@Twist3dDisast3r]

Ya which is why i wanted to talk about it.

[@LumaGooma]

I had a few friends who just put me down at every waking second they had an opportunity. I remember telling my fiancé and other best friend that I was done with them. 2020 I made it the year to drop people who all they did was make me feel bad. I’ve been doing so much better since. I feel this video so much:(

[@Elizabeth-mf3dn]

Good for you! There are PLENTY of people on earth you will find amazing friends :)

[@citrinerey4900]

I had to pause this a few times because it was getting me angry too. Not just for you, but for all of this reminding my of my father. I was privileged enough to move out when I was 18-19, and I lived only like, 5 minutes away from him. MAYBE 8 if traffic was stupid. But no, I always had to come over to see him. I always had to stop what I was doing to visit or hang out with him. I always had to do what he wanted to do. There was never any time to do what I wanted, or watch the movies I wanted to watch. Nothing I ever did was important to him. The only thing he ever cared about was if I would ever have children. It took me 28 years to finally realize that our relationship was toxic. So don't feel too bad; a bloom is still a beautiful flower even when it's late. Honestly I think it always takes a little bit to see it's a bad relationship when you're in the middle of it. And you have every right to be angry and bitter about all of this too. It obviously hurt you, and they were obviously assholes.

[@ookami305]

Honestly, you have every right to be bitter. I recently learn that we have every right to choose who to forgive or who not forgive. I had people telling me that they will "invite" next time to hangout with them, empty promises. Or people will tell me that we're "friends", but used me to vent. I rather have zero friends than fake friends.

[@decadentgamer3108]

The using for vent is especially gross. Like okay, it's nice to hear out problems and try to help and offer advice or at least an ear but when they refuse to do the same for you when you're going through a hard time, that just really shows how selfish they are.

[@shannonf101]

When you have the moments of realisations, of things that you just over look. It aches the worst. :(

[@hannahwhite7227]

It’s really nice knowing that people have gone through and understand these kinds of situations. I’ve had “friends” for years who I felt didn’t want me around since they wouldn’t put any effort into our friendship. For years I thought something was wrong with me because it felt like people would make excuses to avoid being around me and would leave me out of everything they did. This was a reoccurring problem, and because of it I lost all of my confidence and I felt that I wasn’t good enough. As of recently I’ve been doing a lot better, but sometimes I instinctively resort to distancing myself from others if they exhibit any of these behaviors from past experiences I’ve had

[@dillithius]

Preach-!

[@abigailmaturana741]

i find myself distancing myself too! it really messes you up :/

[@dillithius]

@@abigailmaturana741If you have toxic a relationships like this, it's for the best. It will hurt when you finally make the choice to end it, but if you stay you'll end up with more damage

[@abigailmaturana741]

@@dillithius truth

[@dillithius]

@@abigailmaturana741 You make me feel like a preacher, "Now I,now I say here! On this holy script it says *places hand on video* Yeets the toxic people in your life-!!!"

[@stormyz_old_channel]

I can hear Michie slowly going insane over her fake friends and I am here for it.

[@Twist3dDisast3r]

Happy you enjoy my descent xD

[@kasu-requiem]

This is probably the most relatable video you have ever made. I suffered with very similar toxic friendships for 10 years and it was only when an outsider asked " Are they always like this? " When my world was turned upside down. There was even an identical moment where these people would make the excuse of " Well we figured you wouldn't like ___ / were too poor to go to ____ so we didn't invite you " Meanwhile I'm tearing up standing on our family deck staring at my flip phone messages in anguish. You are an amazing person and I hope this message reaches those before they suffer for as long as we did with toxic friends before realizing it didn't need to be that way. Thanks Michie.

[@lemonberryconda]

Muncha cruncha, food for the algorithm! I love your work so much

[@midoriyaizuku9398]

Oh i heard that it was a potluck! I brought all this 🍱🥑🥓🥙🥘🍮🍥🍤🍚🍜🌯🥟🥢🥢

[@aplusj9864]

Why am I in love with this comment

[@ViroVeteruscy]

As someone who is extremely nerdy and has been since forever, slowly learning who your real friends are is practically an art at this point. Even having to explain how being self-employed with art had to be a challenge cause of the "it's not a real job" mentality people still have. Personally I prefer going to other's places just cause, for whatever reason, I usually felt that my place was too boring (likely cause I live here so I like the change in scenery). But yeah, people who keep making excuses to not hang due to distance but then make the same distance if not more around the same time just shows their true colors. Thankfully they're dumb enough to post on their social media so that we can rip this bandage off sooner than later >w> Also Cali-bros *_*fist bump*_* >w>

[@vivvy_0]

it’s just really hard when no one wants your real *you* so you end up creating a digestible *self* which only leads to fake connections and you lose your true self after a while and can’t connect to anyone truly and become apathetic to the people around and the world at large 😕

[@starcr0ww]

I had a friend similar to this. At the end, I tried for Literal Months to get her to set up a time to get coffee for even an hour. I said I’d pay. I said I’d pick her up and drive us. I said we could meet. I said tell me when you can hang out, even if it’s short notice, and I will be there. I will make my plans around YOU because I care about you. We never had that coffee. I made so much time in my life and in my heart for her. I valued her and our relationship, it was a priority for me. But I was nowhere on her radar. It’s sad and disappointing to look back on fond memories and realize that someone never even wanted you there. It’s unkind and harmful and I will be dealing with the mental health fallout from this for years. Sincerely, “friends” who don’t make you a priority in their life or don’t at the very least give a little back to you when you’re giving them everything are not worth it. To anyone reading, don’t let yourself be strung along. You’re more valuable than that.

[@doodlenaps8854]

They way they treated you made me so mad bc it hits home. Im about to rant for a bit. Anyone interested is welcomed to read beyond this point. Back in highschool I had my first group of friends 6-7. We were 3 very closed friends within that group. We were too the anime group at highschool. It was all well and dandy and a lot of fun until I had my first boyfriend. He was the bestfriend of one of my closest friends boyfriend. Actually, I met him that way (they lived in another town 30min by train). I was lucky enough to afford visiting my bf once a week, saturday always as we could spend the day together. It didnt clash with hanging out with my 2 closest friends bc we usually hung out on fridays and we saw each other at school everyday so it was perfect at the time. Fast forward a month into my relationship: my friend (lets call her A and my other closest friend B) broke up with her bf. It was a complicated time and I offeres as much support as I could. However, ever since friend A's breakup, she started insisting we should hang out on saturdays, knowing full well it was the only day I could be with my bf. Weeks past and suddenly there is no way we can spend time the three of us on fridays or sundays or whenever except saturdays. I was forced to meet with them less, I even be less with my bf on saturdays in order to meet my friends! I valued a lot those friendships and my bf was very supporting of me and it sucked for both but we werent able to figure another solution. But this wasnt enough for my friend A, it seems. She talked to me less, invited me to fewer plans. Friend A made friends with another group and dragged friend B with her. I was frustrated. I studied sciences whilst them studied letters(?) (sorry, english isnt my main language). In class they would make up new plans or stories and never tell me. The one day they would include me last minute or talk about those topics infront of me without me understanding a thing. It was horrible to feel I didnt belong anymore. That to understand and follow the conversation I had to make questions and make sure I was aware of everything on my own. I was to patient. I thought we were still friends. It was even worse as I had this huge friendship with friend B. But I was growing tired. I got back to spending saturdays with my bf and not being invited to nearly any plan. They even watched anime we had started all together, without me and the tell me spoilers with the stupid "oh, we thought you knew/were there". I was stupid enough to still do cosplay with them and to organise the trips to the nearest city con. And guess what? Even though I was tge one organising that trip and that my mother was the one taking us, every anime kid would tell friend A if they were joining and all that jazz. And conveniently friend A would forget to tell me until last min. So if we were going 5, that morning another 5-7 would join us. Aclaration: we were going on public transport but it is a long way anyways. You can imagine how stressed I was. My poor mother was perplexed but has such a good heart that she would supervise them anyway. Mind you, that specific con was a MESS. But that is another story for another time. This kind of "friendship" went on to next year, last one at highschool. A lot of stress and I hadnt seen neither friend A or friend B that summer bc they had "other plans" every damn time. I was desperate and miserable. I did everything I could to be good friends until I had enough of friends A bs. I started asking my other friends(all in common with friend A) for advise bc i didnt know what else to do. They all agreed friend A was doing nothing wrong and that I was overreacting. Ha. Even when friend A did nasty comments to me they would defend her like she was skme kind of little kid who didnt know better. "Oh, she forgot to tell you bc she is very forgetful" "oh, she didnt mean that" etc. It got to the point she would only tell me things or invite me to hang out just so she could rant about her problems or ask me favours (photoshoots, doing her entire cosplay, etc). Friend B stayed quiet even though I tried to reach out and to hang out with her any other time. You know when I drew the line? At my birthday party that year. It was a surprise kind of b-day party. My bf was invited as my bro and some friends (some of them werent my friends but friends of A i didnt know beforehand). We were in total 10 or so. I was having a good time even though I was a bit uncomfortable. At one point we were all chatting and I was sitting next to my bf when A walked to him and, I shit you not, started flirting with MY BF. RIGHT INFRONT OF ME. He was clueless until she started getting touchy (there was no alcohol so she was full well knowing what she was doing). At that point my bf runned from the situation as fast as he could. I was startled. First I thought I was imagining things,that I was a bad person for thinking she woukd do something like that. Everyone had spent months telling me i was making up stuff and wrong and paranoid. Now I know that they were doing me gaslightning. And if back then I would had a bit more confidence I would have snapped at her instantly (as i wishing but didnt dare ruin the mood). As we were going back home after the party, my bro confirmed she was indeed flirting and not subtly. After that day I just stopped caring. She wasnt my friend anymore. She continued acting like we were,idk why bc everyone knew at that point i was not going to keep that "friendship". I tried keeping my other friendships and I ended up devastated bc they all turned their backs on me in favour of A. Even my dearest friend B (im still hurt about it as she was friends with me before A and I miss her very much). The story doesnt end here. Oh no, I wished it did. We finished highschool and started uni. That summer in between I lost all my friendships from highschool definetely. Not one of them contacted me or anwered me for that matter. And so, at the beginning of my second semester of uni, I visited my highschool for an special event that takes part every year (pre spiky boi). I was having fun until I heard they were rumours about me being trans. I was indeed trans but I was at the very beginning of my transition, figuring things out. At that point only my close family and my friends (they dont live in my town) and my bf knew. There was NO way anyone in my town knew. Then, how was it that everyone was gossiping about me being trans? I till this day have no idea how A found out but she started the rumours. Telling everyone that we were so close I confessed (!!!) everything to her and that I was going to start testosterone and was going ti do this and that operation and that my name was x (not my name in the slightest but ok). And thats how I became the monster freak in my small town. Where till this day not one person waves hi at me if we cross each other on the street. Any acquantances I still had back then, vanished. It was a very overwhelming and traumatic experience. But I was SO angry that I confroted A through whatsapp (the only way I was capable of). She lied to me, told me that it was none of my business (!!!!!!!) and that I should be grateful for all she had done for me. I- have no words to this day. I ended up uninstalling whatsapp that same year bc I was getting threats and to many nasty messages. I dont use whatsapp anymore and this was years ago. So yeah, I'm still socially isolated where I live thanks to this mess but I cant afford moving away. And some part of me hates the idea of letting her kick me out like this. I have crossed paths with her some times since then and she never spoke to me, she just escaped the situation hiding or running to the other street or whatever. Coward behaviour. For all I know A and B are still close friends. Oh, I forgot to mention back at my last year of highschool I was replaced as close friend for another girl in their class. All 3 are stil a tight group. And yeah, I've never been part of any other friend group. So it sucks a lot. However I can say that now I have good friends, even if they live in other towns and we cant meet often [we dont ever since the spiky boi, i miss them :( ] For anyone who has reach this point, thanks for reading. I hope you have an awesome day

[@doodlenaps8854]

ty for the support guys🥺

[@Akalim]

Bruh wtf. Some people just got nothing better to do with their lives jfc

[@grandmasterpax3248]

I went through a similar thing in october. I dropped 95% of my friend group because of the same reasons. They would never respond to my messages, they wouldn't commit to keeping the friend group alive even before spiky round boi. The thing that broke the camels back was when i had been telling them a movie night for *weeks* and no one came. No one even asked how it went. And just to prove the point when i left the group chat and left snapchat because my friends didn't talk to me, no one cared to ask why. So that debacle gave me a reason to commit to making new friends through discord. And it's been pretty great for the most part the people in one server are sweet and funny.

[@ambientlightofdarknesss4245]

jesus,that part at the end just made me choke up a bit. just pure unadalterated,unfiltered feelings.

[@jillian3627]

The genuine emotions you radiate, from anguish to rage to happiness, is moving. Thank you for touching me and others with this video, I'm so glad you found your friends

[@Twist3dDisast3r]

QuQ gosh thank you. Im always a bit worried to show more emotion than normal cause I know it turns some people away.

[@mackenziec2516]

The "you live too far" Thing only really applies if the friendship is long distance, but if you have a friend who lives in the same area and they ALWAYS make that excuse, they're probably not your friend

[@Lemonshy]

This is good video. It's very transparent. And I also agree this needs to be heard. I had to deal with a toxic friend/crush. And I'm not going to go into detail. But two (maybe three) similar things happen. They kept up with the same behavior and not taking advice. And not listening to my problems. So anytime I gave advice and my opinion. They listen, but never took it. They always complain how things where not getting better. But they never made the effort to make it better. And their problems were heavy shit. And they always made it a pity party. So I never felt I could talk about my problems or thoughts, and if I did. It was lukewarm replys. I had to deal with this for 2 years until I finally broke it off. I'm a lot better now. And I have one person who I can truly say she is my friend. And she means everything to me. I can talk to her. And I'll always listen and try to help where I can. Sorry that this was long but. Dont try to hold on people who dont make the effort to either be friends with you. Or to change for the better.

[@grimpaleta]

I had a similar scenario growing up not really having friends growing up, by high school I had a lot of “friends”, but I remember since late middle school I had a weird feeling about some of my “friends”. I did not know what it was at the time but I remember how some of them would talk shit about other friends or revealing things about each other that clearly was not meant to be told to others. My best friend and I felt uncomfortable and would tell them,”Hey, why would say something like that?” “I’m just being honest”, good lord did I hate hearing that excuse every time from them to the point that it is a bit triggering hearing that. However, the first time I really stopped being quiet and actually snapped at some of these “friends” was when one of my close friends was going through a really hard time with family, we were doing our best to comfort her. But one of these “friends” pretty much told her to get over her “boo hoo phase”.... I remember I screamed at this “friend” and cursed at them while also telling them to apologize. I’m not one for yelling or interrupting people but I did at that moment because they started saying the same broken record line,” I’m just being honest.” I ended telling them that they weren’t and if they were really our friend to apologize and think what they did, otherwise I didn’t want them as a friend anymore. I was 17 at this time, not much happened until I was out of high school did I see more of these “friends” just cut themselves out of my remaining friends and my life. I’m 26 now and look back and I can now see the clear signs of who were my real friends and those that weren’t...it is painful.

[@yourmourningstar]

Maaan, the rage this video caused me. Not at the video itself, just. Whoo, wow. My mom thinks I'm paranoid, or not trying hard enough. But when every one of my "friends" have hit me, said I was the worst at something, gone out of their way to say how I'm not part of the group, or a combination of all three? Yeah, I'm done with them. I'm glad it hasn't taken me turning 26 to figure it out, and I'm sorry you had to deal with that for so long. I would be pissed in your situation, like- screw those people. Wow. #feedthebot

[@miffybun2491]

20:20 i relate too hard with what you said,,, ive taken several people put of my life because they could not understand where to draw the line at being able draw lines,, my most recent break from a friend hurt the worst because i thought we genuinely had a breakthrough but alas she felt selfish enough to force us to have everything go her way ://

[@andrejakoprivnik9892]

Totally get it, had the same kind of "friends", but we lived in the same village, 3 minutes of walk away, practically neighbors. Didn't realize it until I moved an hour of drive away. I was 29. Now I have only 2 close friends, I hadn't spoken to them since I was 26.

[@KorgiMoonCosplay]

I felt this to my CORE. I understand these feelings. Even the visceral reaction to the screaming part. (I have ptsd from emotional/verbal abuse and this would've done me in.) But all of this with friends etc. In-person AND online. Groups-they clique together and you wonder if it is you against them. I was severely bullied as a kid, and I think it contributed to insecurities big time, even years later as an adult-- and on top of that ACTUALLY being undervalued in tandem with those insecurities just does a number on you. I can't imagine it like you, having that for YEARS. I absolutely FEEL this. I had this issue. Not as close to the same because I stopped being friends with folks who did this in my earlier-20s when I met my husband[then bf]. But I completely understand. Ommggggg, I hear your hurt.

[@deviantartest]

I live about a half hour out of town. I had a good number of friends but I hung around with them more at school outside the like 5 people I was closest with.

[@spectralgalaxii]

“You work so much I didn’t think you could go” I got told the same thing jfc. It’s only been like two months since I cut her off but the old red flags just keep coming up

[@StargazerSkyscraper]

When you said "I have closer bonds with people who live at the other end of the country than with people who live fifteen minutes away from me," I felt that in my soul. As far as I can tell, I stopped existing in this area code years ago.

[@sarahcicle8592]

I'm still in my teens, and I came to this realization late 2019, and it shattered my confidence that I never had friends put real effort in me, and it crushed any self confidence I had, but over 2020, I made a good group of online friends that, really put effort into getting to know me and spend time with me, one friend, despite doing full time college and holding a job, did her absolute best to video chat weekly for an hour and a half, along with our regular chats, and one of the others has been vid chatting for hours almost each night. and not only did it get me through the year, but, I feel a lot better after all this, than for the years before. And now as I pursue some IRL relationships, its so nice having a support net behind me if it falls through.

[@LettersofSky]

I'm so sorry you had to deal with such toxic people michie, you didn't deserve any of that >:V Cause you are a great person worth spending time around and if they couldn't see that then that's more fool them.

[@Twist3dDisast3r]

* smooches *

[@suicidalplaytoy]

They dont deserve u, your too good of a person to be treated like that and if i was your friend I'd tell them that because they shouldn't took you for granted.

[@Gilded_Skye]

when you were talking about your wedding and hurtful vs honest comments it made me realize that if your friend has something really important going on and you don't like something you might say something like "oh, its not my particular taste but its not for me I like it as long as you are happy." because that's the nice thing to do with your friend. just straight up saying you don't like something and not offering consultation is just mean. maybe its the people pleaser in me but consulting your friend after saying you don't like something is key to keeping that friendship.

[@mercy5004]

I think a lot of people kind of go through a similar awakening. For me, it didn't take years...but only because my eyes were *forced* open. Had a somewhat large friend group, all nerds (and all male, except me). I'm one of those people that I have to spend time with people before I develop real attraction to them, so naturally, this means everyone I date tends to go through a friend phase before anything happens. This is important. To TRY and keep it short, I ended up dating one friend, breaking up because neither of us was feeling the romance, and then dating another almost immediately after (he asked me out). A *different* friend starts a rumor that I cheated on the ex, and that's why I moved on so quickly. BOOM, all my friends turn their backs on me, and don't even tell me WHY (I only found out years later when one tried to reconnect and spilled the beans). Years of friendship GONE. However, one, just one friend didn't pay attention to the rumor and kept contact with me. We kept near daily contact even after Highschool, into college (4 hours travel distance between us). Eventually he ended up transferring to my college to get into my program. THAT'S when I decide to ask him out, and he didn't even realize I was interested in him let alone single lol. 6 lovely years later, and here we are, living together planning the next steps in our lives. It was rough, I'll admit. From between that event in Highschool to halfway through college, I had basically 1 friend, and a couple of old acquaintances from earlier in my life. After we started dating however, He has introduced me to so many friends that have proven themselves time and time again to be real friends. Hell, two are living with us currently, and the rest come to visit us at least once a week and often completely randomly lol. If we aren't spending time with these friends local to our new residence, our old friends from our hometown literally drive HOURS away to spend the night in our cramped apartment just because they can (about once or twice a year). Its because of him I can happily say that I know what its like to have a friend (who makes really good cash, doing what, I have no idea) suddenly call you and your boyfriend up to have a surprise 3 day vacation in Chicago in a luxury hotel, all expenses paid as a tax write off, where you and 6 others just get SMASHED and visit all kinds of events. My old friends from highschool? I was lucky if they even attempted to include me in their D&D sessions, and they always seemed to kind of "deal" with having me around. Once you get a chance at the taste of real friendship, it makes the fake shit that school frequently doles out seem like poison.

[@lazymayzie9050]

Honestly I'm so glad to see a video like this. A lot of stuff you went through with friends, sounds like the stuff I went through and I've always been insecure about what happened with me. So hearing it from someone I admire who's older than me makes me feel a lot better about it. The only reason I had a wake up call about my toxic friend group was when I moved to a different high school and realized what it was like to have a friend who was genuinely nice to me and cared about me. That's why I'm glad this is being talked about, I know something like this would've definitely helped me feel less alone when I was younger.

[@NekoEijiKikumaru]

I've had 'friends' like this. Even lived with some for a while. They were always going out to parties and telling us about it later, but would never invite us. And the excuse was, "Well you're an introvert and you don't like a lot of people, so we didn't think you'd want to go." It hurts, and it sucks. I'm glad you have good friends now who recognize your value and treat you the way you deserve to be treated. Hearing you tear up over how good it is now I just... The biggest of internet hugs to you. Thank you for sharing this storytime.

[@turtlemun]

I remember I had a 'friend' who was emotionally manipulative. They'd get angry when I didn't spend time with them and get pissy and whiney when people wouldn't spend time on them and when people didn't like them. I was their emotional dumping ground bc they took advantage of my desire to help and let people vent to me. It caused me to significantly close myself off to everyone and I'm still working on opening up and calling people friends more.

[@velvetfang1148]

I honestly thank you for making this video, I'm still currently dealing with this type of situation with one of my old friends. I don't consider her a friend anymore really because she ghosted me for a year then just dropped a bombshell on me trying to make me feel bad for her with all that happened to her. That happened with 3 other friends when I used to go to highschool but those 3 turned out to be terrible friends as well..now I'm left with only 1 friend left and I hope we don't grow apart after I move this summer. But this video helped me see the type of red flags that I probably could see later in life and I thank you for putting this out there. Not many genuine people make this type of video.

[@sunflowercherries7330]

I remember ending my first big friendship. We'd known each other 15 years. But when I told them my desires to transition and get top surgery, and my going to therapy. They would fall completely silent and never bring it up ever again. And yet I was expected to know everything they liked and be into it too. Made me realize that x amount of years doesn't equal better relationship or compatibility.

[@mariahs6]

Tears were at my eyes towards the end of the video... I feel everyone deserves friends that go to the ends of the earth for you, and stay by your side even if they don't always know what to say. Sometimes their presence and knowing that they care deeply about you is enough to get you through your most emotional days. I've had my closest group of friends since 2015 (in person and online, respectively), and we've never had arguments because we always talked things over and plans worked out. I wouldn't trade any of them for the world because all of them are my world. We're really looking forward to seeing each other in person again once it's safe, and we keep in touch on Discord almost weekly. If any of them end up reading this comment, I hope you'll always remember I love you all so much. If life's ice cream, then you're the chocolate syrup and sprinkles!!!! QWQ

[@toxicv972]

well this video hit me like a train on fire cuz i realize i only have one real friend.

[@bluon259]

I used to be that friend who would go to other people’s houses, but never invited them to do anything at all. Honestly, I’m ashamed of that now. I think I didn’t reciprocate their friendship because I was scared, or I felt like a bother. Hearing your story made me realize that I was being reserved for no reason, people should be appreciated. I was only 13-14 at the time to be fair. I’m 16 now with no friends because I moved, and of course, corona. I’ll keep this in mind for the future!

[@2Btoobee]

I used to have those "best friends". In college every time that we have a group project, it's always me who do not get a partner and be one of those "left-overs" so I have to find other people in class (even though one of my "friends" can just leave their group with me so we'll be a group or 2 and 3 but noooo they have to be a group of 4 which is the max no.). And now that we're all adult, they always want to do a reunion that's just 30 mins away from their home and 3-4 HOURS from mine depending on the traffic. I'm like "can't we instead go to this mall which kinda in the middle so it would lessen my commute hours?" They don't like it and would guilt trip me if they would ever agree, after a few times of this happened, I just stop going altogether and directly tell them "nope, I can't use 6-7 hours of my day commuting to hang-out with you guys for just few hours, not to mention I always get home too late".

[@doodlepoodle8062]

I realized that my friend group was toxic about a year ago. I was a freshman in high school, and we started to drift apart, which is normal, but whenever I tried to talk to them I either got ghosted or told that my opinions and feelings were childish. It took all eight of them blocking me over a disagreement for me to realize that I didn't need them, and now I'm in a much better place with a friend group who cares about me. Anyone who's gone through this, please remember that you are not alone.

[@avrilcuttecrap]

This whole situation sucks so bad, it made me really sad hearing your voice crack when you got emotional I wish I could give you a hug. I'm relieved to hear that now you have actual and valuable friends. Stay strong and awesome!

[@RedLaserFoursChannel]

I don't have any serious friends in real life right now but I'm working on it. Most of my relationships have developed on the internet as I've spent most of my life on the computer. I have been in a friend group for a few years and I decided to come out as gay because I trusted them. It went well until I was used as a joke for every gay thing brought up, even when I was not active on Discord. The people I trusted used me for laughs and can't even have a serious conversation with me. I am trying to improve myself and explain my life situations but they won't even give me the chance without insulting me in some way. It really helped me see that it was not the right group for me so I left. I was learning really negative behavior like profanity, racism, and sexism. I put up with it for years but I need a positive environment and I deserve better. Out of the few I thought I had a strong connection with only 1 or 2 of them did not openly attack me. I have separated myself from toxicity and gained mental sanity and clarity because of it. The people you affiliate with can have a negative or positive impact and I have broken free. Live your best life even if it takes longer to find the right people to be around

[@decadentgamer3108]

That was freaking brutal. The worst thing that's really messed up about this experience is that you actually tried to help your friends out to come see you from pitching in for gas (or trips), offering them to stay over the night, and you know, just making the TIME to hang out. That's what really made me angry listening to this because you went above and beyond to try to be a good friend and all they did was trample over it and it just really pisses me off. If I had a friend who was willing to do all that for me just so we could spin time together, you bet your ass I would be so thankful and make the time because that just means the person truly values your time and friendship and in this day and age, finding people like that who actually value friendship is getting rarer it seems. I didn't have any friends in high school because I was so introverted and shy and when I had to move states in the middle of high school leaving behind the two sorta friends I had back in my home state (southern California funny enough), I just never could make friends so to hear stories of people like this who just abuse those who want to spend time with them while there are people like me who would've loved to have a friendship out of genuine likeness for hanging out together and making the time to see each other just really saddens me to hear. The last story was especially frustrating. There you actually have a place of your own where you won't have to worry about parents and actually have the place to yourselves which would've been the perfect place to hang and in your case, play D&D and those asses still had the gall to make that piss poor excuse about why they'd rather go 60 minutes further to a house when you were closer. Who the hell cares if it was a house, what's the difference? Oh they can screw right off with that noise. I'm glad that you actually found people who truly do appreciate you and you finally get to experience a genuine friendship that isn't rooted in toxicity.

[@honeykoiya]

I had a friend who would say things like "we should hang out together!" or "I miss you! We should meet up!"... a day or so after hanging out with our other friends 5 minutes away from my house. She would always ghost me whenever she's in town, and only message me when I stop trying to reach out to her. I would only know she was in town, be it for hanging out with our other friends or going to the fair [which is also not far from my house], because I followed her social media. But, if you ask her, we're best friends and I'm not allowed to have other best friends.

[@CrescentCaribou]

There's a quote from Bojack Horseman that I think fits pretty well "When you look at a situation through rose-colored glasses, all the red flags just look like flags."

[@Ashesinferno28]

It’s a brilliant quote

[@ElfPoles]

I experienced a similar thing in my life! I wasn't really close with folks at my high school, but i did know a few people and made an effort now and then. And there was a group of like 10 of my high school "friends" (and a couple folks i didnt know) that apparently had "Friendsgiving" every Thanksgiving. And I didn't even know about it until my (real) friend was like... wait, no one's ever invited you??? So he invited me and that felt amazing ! But it was also kind of embarrassing because I knew nobody else really thought of me as their friend, even though I cared about them... Now I have a new group of friends and I'm treated much better (and i treat them much better). We all live and learn!

[@omoriboi]

Man, this one hit home for me. I was lucky it was the other way around. I had friends make time for me previously, but there was a good long period of my life where people never made the time for me, and that HURT. Now I have internet friends that I literally wanna live with now because we’re so close and loving to each other.

[@thatdaisygrrl]

This is probably the only video that's made me cry. I relate to this so much. It took me my birthday to realize my highschool "best friend" forgot my birthday 6 years in a row. Whenever I asked to hangout they said they're busy among shady moments I overlooked. They got new friends but those friends dumped them. I know my worth now and I appreciate my friends so much and those who know they're a damn good friend too. Loved the video.

[@Kruhee]

Toxic friendships suck. We as humans place trust in our friends to be the group we spend the most time with. Because of that them telling you something comes as stronger than something a stranger would say. So when that feedback we get from our groups is negative it hits HARD. But here's the thing... it's not NORMAL for someone to be responsible for another person's happiness, it's not NORMAL to spend all your time wondering if you have offended a 'friend' or trying to figure out how you can 'smooth things over' with words or lords forbid GIFTS. It's NOT NORMAL for one person to put in all the work. It's just not. I appreciate the message of this video, I think it's helpful for a lot of people because I've been in that situation in my own way of being the one who gives and gives and gives. It's taken me a total of 27+ years (because I'm STILL working on this) to come to terms that being a good friend is not the same as being a doormat or a servant. It hit me one day this year when I sent a friend a gift because they told me they wanted it only to have them tear it down and not even say thank you, then I APPOLAGIZED for doing something nice they said they wanted because "I put them in an awkward position by getting them a gift." I realized how much that destroyed my self worth and how much I was putting into hoping they would like it and that made me just as toxic as them, I was an enabler of entitled behavior... Things are different now, but friendships are complicated, if something doesn't seem healthy it's time for a change, even if that means losing the friendship because our mental health is far more important. I hope this video helps people who are in this same situation to seek what they really deserve, which is bonds with others which are not conditional on one person doing 100% of the work. Thanks for sharing, I'm glad that you have the friends you deserve now, and who deserve a wonderful person like you. ❤

[@SirAnimosity]

That's why I only have like two friends because they actually care. I cut everyone else out because they were only there for the good times but never wanted to help me when I was in a dark place. Know who the true homies are!

[@yaB0i_Hawkx]

In my early high school years, I was very introverted and shy, because of my lack of confidence. I was warped in a friendship where I felt like not really belonging in it. My sense of belonging was twisted and I felt and probably was an outcast. It grew so normal to me that when I got real friends I started to notice how fucked up I was back then, how it probably made me the loneliest lifetime I've ever had. Even now it feels like it's still holding me back to embrace this newfound friendship, even though we are best friends now I can't tell them about my real feelings and how I'm really are, I feel like I'm being constantly judged and indebted to show my real self that it made me became a bad person around other people, even around friends. I would sometimes have thoughts of me just not fitting in this friend group, that no one really cared about me and that every positivity is a lie, it made me paranoid and shutting myself up to prove to myself that others don't care about me. It develops a misunderstanding that they think I wanted to be left alone, but in reality, I really just needed a confirmation that they do care, in the way of doing something. And one time when I hit a limit, thinking that I'm not valued (being ignored for hours) and life is getting shitty, I had my first mental breakdown, alone. It really fucks with me, especially after that my trust towards them went downwards again and I struggle becoming myself again. I'm doing just fine alone, but it's not a way to stay happy. I want our friendship to stay, but it's hard if you always tell yourself that they're better off without you and they probably don't care about you. And I often misunderstand actions and situations so when it comes down to this I'd only think the worst possible scenario and try to distance myself as far as possible to avoid further pain. I can realize my own problems, but when it comes to facing it again I get blinded by myself again. Sorry for venting here, but after hearing your story I felt like telling anyone since no one probably know me.

[@nova7938]

I had a toxic friend once, well more like a toxic friend group. It was grade the start of grade 6 and I was lonely as my one friend moved to a different school halfway through the school year the year before. Then I met a group of friends who I thought cared for me, there was three of them. I was dumb and never realised that the hurtful comments about the way i dressed, what I ate, how I acted and what I liked was more than "just a joke" or "we were just teasing you". In grade 7 two of these "friends" left the school and I was left with one "friend". She isolated me from any potential friendships I could make (not allowing me to anything but spend time with her alone) , hurt me and put down my worth as a person. When I informed her over text I was moving schools at the end of term 3, she lost her shit at me. Sent me nothing but hateful messages for weeks. Telling me I betrayed her and that she would never forgive me, as well as other stuff. When it was brought up to the school, she said it was all "just a joke". Spoiler it wasn't. I have problems with the school to, namely how they handled bullying, but that's not the point. I am glad I got away from her and I relate to what you said so much and it hurts to know someone you trusted never truly respected you. I just want to say thankyou for warning others that this is not normal friend behaviour and although some will not listen there are others who will and perhaps someone will realise that their friends are not truly their friends.

[@NotKittyCat]

This kinda break me a little, cause I felt that feeling before and maybe now. Due to people not wanting to hang out with me, I later shut myself from everyone up until the 9th grade. When the Pandemic hit, I noticed some friends cut contacts with eat other, and telling me how this person is awful, this person is said this. I don’t really like conflict among friends and want to try to help repair it. Seeing the video made me think more if they’re really my friends. Yet I realized that I do have people who do care ever since they found out my dad passed away, and I was the one resisting the friendship thinking I’ll be tossed away again. I plan on talking to some of the friends on the conflict on different sides to see who’s really telling the truth. I’ll keep this in mind when I start opening up.

[@saltyspitt00n]

This is kinda offtopic regarding the video subject itself but I absolutely ADORE your art, and I love listening to you talk while I draw. Your videos always put me in a great mood for art

[@Twist3dDisast3r]

Wow, thank you!

[@Parziivale]

Man this hit hard. I'm so sorry that you went through this but I'm thankful you spoke out about it.

[@Broeckchen]

God I especially hate the "I'm just being honest" excuse... I try to be very honest, but I think you can be honest AND kind!

[@shannonf101]

Oh dang I'm getting dajavue, haha kind of ralate way too much. Had the realisation I had maybe 1 friend soon as I left school, I legit blocked everyone on social media that summer! (happened at college too). Years later they suddenly tried trickled back in my life, you know soon as I was doing a lot better mentaly, fked with me majourly. I go 2 good frinds now, but I hope I can make more real good friends in the future. dude I really wana give you a hug, I hope you are doing ok!

[@Freakz0id]

I’m glad you made this video, and you should have pride that you stood up to those adult-baby deadbeats. Thank you, for your time to give people like me a warning to avoid toxic people. 💖

[@neatguy5442]

YOU ARE SO STRONG! I really appreciate you for sharing this... thank you so much i really needed to hear this

[@yippycat5303]

Thank you for this video, glad you have better friends 💕 even after so long.

[@irisnora1525]

Listening to you talk about your current friends is so sweet I'm so happy for you!

[@suicidalplaytoy]

Friends dont take each other for granted

[@TheCoconutStar]

Thank you Michie for this video. It really hit close to home for me. Been dealing with this for all my life and still learning how to make actual friendships. It’s harder since I just tuned 20, and I realistically have only a small handful of friends. But it hurts my heart still, thinking about my past self. And how much I adored these people who I thought were my “friends”. Especially since I always went out my way for them, but none ever tried for me. I was dirt poor, but I would do my best to hang with my friends or have fun with them. But they took every chance to avoid seeing me outside of school. Im sorry for venting. I have a lot to say but I honesty can’t.

[@mercurielle7693]

What a great thing to spread the word on. Very relatable too because uh... wow, your old "friends" sound a heck of a lot like my old "friends". I'm glad that you were able to cut that stress out of your life and that your current friends treat you right!

[@GhostGirlBlues]

Had a similar experience quite some time ago now. My so-called friends were a fountain of excuses and could find time for anything but me. I've had to start over, but my life is so much better now.

[@Shrlmp]

Commenting for the algorithm! Love ur stuff and I love listening to ur experiences!

[@raekhyaheart7800]

I had friends like that before I feel your pain with this pain we grow stronger . the end of the vedeo almost made me cry. ;A;

[@Chiffawndue]

I resonated with this whole video.. I’m so sorry that you had to go through that.

[@MythicSights]

This hit me really hard, realizing I've been living in my current town for like 5 years and mainly my SO's friends visit. I don't even get messages anymore.

[@CreativaArtly]

Thanks for this. I needed this today. One of my friends she and I have grown apart through no fault of our own. She’s a sweetheart, she really is. We just grew apart. I just hate it so. I was absolutely in tears yesterday and even some this morning from it. I’m still upset. I am. I thought we were close. She was supportive of me through so much. I just hate to see our friendship fade away. I really and truly do.

[@SmallHoot]

Holy heck was that a RELATABLE rant. Im so sorry you had to live through that. I understand your pain. Its good to hear that you've found some good friends now. ♡

[@ErintheLostBeanbag]

I'm so glad my current friends are actual my friends...

[@IdiotArts]

i want to thank you for this. i'm sorry you had to go for it as long as you went through it. i'm haven't nearly gone through this as long as you have but, for a long time i had friends like this. and only a few months ago had i realized what was going on and left the situation i was in. to this day i thought maybe i was still wrong somehow, as i'd grown up completely alone and had zero clue how people who actually care about you act. this really helped me come to terms with, the fact my new friends though, online, care for me more than most the ones i knew before did. and i probably didn't get my train of thought across, but thank you. the way your videos are so natural and genuine, the way you ramble on about whatever you feel important, made this important to me. you did help me. thank you.

[@Soda.Pop01]

Honestly, this also happens with family members as well. I've seen it happen with my cousin, in-laws, and even friends as well. It stings, tbh. But right now, I'm living my best life online with friends who live out of state. We don't even have to drive. We can call, chat, and all that fun stuff. It's heartbreaking sometimes when it comes to money or who's doing what or this or planning events because of how entitled some people can be.

[@madameklowny2654]

I always watch your videos and I rarely comment but, I needed this video, I don't feel so alone. I can totally relate to having friends miles and miles away that will move mountains to come to see me and I'd do the same for them while close by "friends" wouldn't waste a moment. OMG thank you for making this video. You may not know me but I'm sending you a billion tons of love and cuddles! Bless you!

[@genshindinthewrongimpact9846]

Here's something I wanna point out, having a toxic friend ship has 2 sides, the one that hides itself from appearing toxic, and the one that's openly toxic. I have a friend which is the type of friend to hide themself from being toxic, "Well why don't you just leave them be? Why don't you break from their grasp?" the thing is, I don't know how. I've bought their stuff and I've allied and supported their group and grown obsessively attached to them, it's extremely hard for me to let go and I have no idea why. However openly toxic friends are people who are (sometimes) easy to get rid of, they immediately show their true colors.

[@Silvitrine]

the whole "you live too far away" thing is such BS. My best friend/cowriter and I are 2 hours apart and every other week we try to either meet up somewhere in the middle to hang out, or I'll make the whole 2 hour trip to see him and stay the night. (he has no issues making the 2 hour trip to see me either, but I don't personally invite him over cause my new unit is fairly small and I only have Netflix and a Switch with very minimal games to entertain, whereas he has pretty much all the fun stuff we like to do together. And even then he's offered to bring whole consoles all the way to my place before to hang out) I'm glad you have friends as special as the ones you have now, I just wish it didn't have to take as long as it did because you deserve them so much

[@Twist3dDisast3r]

God This is so true. I remember when I had the first friend who was SURPRISED I was surprised. She didn't mind coming out here. LIke We were going to meet half way cause we also live a bit away. And she just asked "Well could I come over? " and I was like. " ooh I mean if yuou want but im a bit far and... i hear the parking is bad. " and she was like. Its no problem. Then when she showed up she said the parking wasn't that bad at all. And I was so surprised that it wasnt an issue. Cause I was always the one who would go places. QuQ

[@Silvitrine]

@@Twist3dDisast3r those are the kinds of people you never let go honestly. In high school 20 minutes was "too far" for people, but pretty much everyone I met at uni was willing to make up to 4 hour trips just to see their friends every other week. I remember being surprised that people would come that far to see me, and even tho it's become the norm to travel so far to see everyone, not a day goes by that I don't appreciate them for things like that. I have a friend travelling almost 7 hours from the countryside tomorrow, just to come have dinner with us and spend time with some of his other friends for the weekend.

[@truei1864]

This had me tearing up, I know these feelings too well. And when you mentioned the adult yelling, I knew exactly what you meant. I am so sorry you've gone through this, you deserve so much better and I'm happy for you that you have a new, loving circle of friends. Also!! So much respect for you speaking up to them. That is def something to be proud of

[@Twist3dDisast3r]

Ahhh thank you so much qwq

[@aquadiamond5499]

Ive had friends like this, hearing this brought back the memories of on my 21 birthday me and some friends had been planning to go out drinking, since i was of legal age and i was excited. I made it to the bar and waited for about half an hour and i messaged them, now i had paid for the bar for the night since it was me and about 14 people and not one showed up, i ended up leaving an hour after i messaged them. The next day i got a message from one of my "Friends" saying that they couldnt make it since the bar i picked wasnt good enough. take it that there was going to be free beer for them so they didnt have to pay, and it hurt me so much and one of many reasons why i have trouble making/keeping friends. Note that all of us had lived in the same town/gone to the same school

[@ThePMRadio]

God, i wish i saw this sooner. Me and my friends just left a very toxic friendship with someone and it was constant gaslighting, manipulation, hitting, yelling, fake meltdowns, etc. This really helped me feel more validated of what just happened and even though i was only friends with them for about 3 years now, it's horrible. I'm glad i can come back to an artist i loved when i was younger and feel the same comfort and inspiration as i did when i found them

[@runeskiamorph]

As a kid, I lived 30 minutes out of town in the middle of now where so I wasn't too offended when people said they couldn't come over. I went to other people's houses for an overnighter more times than other people came to my house. So imagine my surprise and joy when friends said "yeah, I'll come over." only for them to push me around, steal stuff, and lock us out of the house "as a game" (true story). I learn very quickly to just not ask people over and just hang out at school because apparently, the people I knew at school weren't the same people at home. it also reminded my parents that they got a good deal with us because we were well behaved no matter where we were :3

[@DarkDranzer88]

Your so-called friends remind me of the quote 'Birds of a feather flock together, until the cat comes'. It's the dangers of 'fair-weather friends' where they'll only stick with you when it's convenient to them but not for you and honestly? They're the friends you can do without. On a side note I really love that parallel drawing feature you have on your art program. It would come in useful for me because I struggle with keeping things even and 'in proportion'

[@kestendavis8753]

Thank you for this❤️. All the heat was warranted...and then some IMO

[@gunmoony8663]

If I had to I would drive 4 hours just to see my friends. Hell. I’m just happy being able to even discord call my friends. If you are really friends you will try and make it work (within reason and budget) I would even be willing to give my friends gas money to see me because I really love the dorks I know. I’m glad I only had good friends

[@exboyfriend524]

I look up to you. I genuinely want to be like you when I grow up, that is not a lie. You’re amazing at art and you’re SO talented! Thank you for still being here.

[@Twist3dDisast3r]

Wow, thank you!

[@exboyfriend524]

@@Twist3dDisast3r of course, I love you!

[@gakbedz4612]

This is so unbelievably relatable.

[@dreamwanderer9769]

Literally cried while watching because of how much I can relate 😥

[@kristinat62]

I happened to find this on a day where I just cut off a friend who was super toxic and didn't have any respect for me. This kind of story is comfortinf

[@blink180-shoe]

i literally just discovered your channel and i love u already

[@Twist3dDisast3r]

Oh gosh >u< ehehe thank you!

[@JLaGPro]

Thank you for making this video

[@Twist3dDisast3r]

* hugs*

[@thelaststarr7747]

used to have two groups of friends that I've known all since middle school, my 1st group of friends would actually hang out with me but they were so godamn toxic and we shared zero interests. They would annoy the shit out of me and emotionally drain Everytime we hung out, like holy shit they would always fight with each other and make me fix it. so I cut them all out of my life because they were just so stressful to hang around so I blocked all of them because I was just so tired. Then my second group of friends I actually enjoyed being around them we shared a whole bunch of interests and I thought they were the coolest people in the world to hang out with, like we were all weebs and artists and I would literally do anything for them, anything. But here's the problem I grew distant from them because I would have zero time to hang out with them, I didn't share lunch with them because I had a stupid special ed class and so many extra curricular activities, my mom would forbid them hanging out with me after school, I had a toxic partner who didn't even want me to have friends at all. and on top of that I had those other horrible friends who would force me to go to church with them until I was fed up and blocked them all. And I feel horrible because they would always make plans without me, they would always hang out with each other after school and go to each other's house without me and I could never go. because I was always busy and my life was never mine. I always struggled with friendships because people always ostrisized me for being weird and too socially awkward, and It would always be toxic people who come into my life to use me. I never known what it felt like to have a real friend group. They would always go to cosplay cons with each other and I could never afford it because it's so expensive to me. But one day I gathered the money to go from commissions and managed to finally buy a costume and a ticket and I couldn't go because it got cancelled because of corona. Now I can't be around anyone because I'm so high risk and I can't see any of my friends at all anymore and all I'm doing is beating myself up about it. Like I'm so fricking lonely that now I have mental breakdowns all the time and I'm just so afraid to vent my feelings out to anyone because I think they'll judge me. It literally took a little con that got cancelled to really ruin my life and now I'm paranoid that everyone hates me. I literally don't even want to be in a relationship anymore because my mental health has gotten so bad, literally all I want now is to hang out with a group of friends and joke and laugh and actually feel included for once. I'm so physically and socially isolated that it's driving me insane and nothing feels real to me anymore

[@WlfToboe]

I guess I got lucky, my 'best friend' in high school stopped talking to me like a week before graduation because I sat at a lunch table where her ex happened to be sitting. I was sitting with my at the time boyfriend who was friends with her ex. She thought I was flirting and ditched me. This was after I went through 2 consecutive years of bullying and stalking/death threats and the deepest depression I had ever gone through. That really showed me who my 'real friends' were cause no one wanted to talk to me while I was having panic attacks during class or be there with me during my darkest times. All the people I saw as friends stopped associating with me by the time graduation came around and it took me 2 years to cultivate that kind of trust with people again. Now I have a smol community of friends and its 11 years later.

[@gunmoony8663]

I hit the end and you made me cry 😭

[@Twist3dDisast3r]

Sorry that I made you cry moony quq

[@thehowlingsoul2382]

Watching this A YEAR LATER and I KNEW I WASNT CRAZY I had a group of friends who would constantly put me down and made me feel like nothing. We would play games online and I would come back to them TALKING ABOUT ME. they excluded me from events and even told me to shut up multiple times and I was so vulnerable but I kept trying to leave then someone would invite me back then I would be like they care. Finally I just left. I thought I was crazy that I was the problem Had another friend I absolutely adored as a person and starting off it was fine until I invited them to sit by me and they said it was too far. Or whenever I was expecting them THEIR ROOMMATE (amazing person btw) would go get them even though they already knew I was waiting for them. Or I would sit and try to talk to them and THEYD JUST IGNORE ME acted like I didn't even exist. Hasn't texted or called since the summer started and I thought I was crazy so when we got back into school I was planning on apologizing. The whole "you live too far" hit close to home because it was basically "You SIT too far"

[@Twist3dDisast3r]

haha doesnt matter if its a year late if the video helped you! * hugs *

[@blackandredteddybear2584]

I feel so bad about your friendships. That least you found better friends to be with. When I realized that me and my former best friend were toxic to each other is when I have last sent her a text. It feels amazing. No more toxicity on both sides. 🥰

[@gh0ulbunni817]

Geez this reminds me of two childhood friends. I grew up being a 2nd caretaker for my dad and very rarely had play dates as a kid so I only had two friends, B and A. B is autistic and raised by her grandmother and is *incredibly* spoiled. She had the latest toys, kids movies, her own tv at 9 years old, and pretty much had no routine or schedule and her grandma would allow her to go a month without showering or brushing her teeth. The breaking point was her refusing to play with my barn toys and wanting to play Just Dance, all while rubbing in my face and bragging about *my uncle gave me this, I got to do that, I got to do this, I got that, I got this* and it broke me because I didn't have really much and never got to go do fancy things or fun things... Haven't seen her since that day. We always had to do what SHE wanted, never anything I wanted to do. A was very lazy while I was an hyperactive child who wanted to play outdoors and used my imagination while she only wanted to play video games and would play them and ignore me, leading for me to go hang out with A's mother who was also a caretaker for the elderly and I got to talk with elders and that was pretty cool as a little kid.

[@jmbstudios6579]

I’m sorry you went through that. I think a lot of people go through something like it. Mine lasted about 3 years