Unwanted Thoughts: The Dangers Of 'Pure O'

[@leahmay1506]

Glad I'm not the only one but wish no one had to suffer like this.

[@potatomuffin4420]

It's horrible, but there is treatment. Get the book "Brain Lock". I have mostly Pure O, and other compulsions as well. But learning how to deal with it.

[@wakenbake3682]

It’s hell

[@rickybanman]

Rae Azanna hope youre feeling better these days

[@oncall21]

Same here.

[@gingerellacookie5641]

Leah May i had this it was really awful!

[@chiledawgg]

I have pure o and it really feels like a mental prison. This is an excellent video. Makes me feel less alienated

[@jacobwilfred6440]

same :)

[@Brider0207]

I always felt identified with the traditional OCD but I always felt that there was something missing, all documentaries of Traditional OCD didnt talk about the random unwanted thoughts so I was doubting myself if I really had OCD but now that I've found this Pure O OCD it all makes senses now

[@disc_priest]

roguebot I just found out I have Pure O. It's like a weight lifted of my shoulder. It still is hard but I think I'll get through it.

[@owenshipp3819]

yupp.. i used to listen to insane clown posse and i did it cause i decided i was going to start accepting my thoughts..because i this band was everything i saw in my mind i kinda felt like that band was my way out of my mental prison but eventually got to the point where my thoughts didn't bother me anymore, because i was entertaining them like.. as if it was a choice and i became a bit.. impulsive i would have been better off if i was more uncomfortable with the thoughts.

[@madeline9564]

I recently found out I had pure O, I knew something was terribly wrong but I was too scared that I'd find something that said I was a psychopath or I was crazy. I finally gave in and looked up my symptoms and I basically matched pure O perfectly. It's still absolutely terrifying to me but at least I know I'm not alone and I'm not crazy

[@liamgriffin9214]

The worst thing about it all is that it seems so real that It can simply feel like your own thoughts!

[@jupitermoons7270]

@@selfwill They feel like your wanted thoughts.

[@evilluniticboy]

@@selfwill That isn't the point. It's important to differentiate the compulsive thoughts created by your OCD and your own intentional thoughts and feelings and people kinda personify the OCD as if it's another person's thoughts being imposed into their mind. Which is probably a helpful way to deal with it.

[@walexander8378]

They're definitely our thoughts. I think we just don't know what to do with them. We're not creative enough or something. Also afraid of what people will think. For instance, think of all the over the top violent media out there. Where does it come from if not violent thoughts? But the people that made it have no anxiety about sharing such things.

[@user-qb6vv9qm1c]

@@walexander8378 intention is a huge thing standing in the way from a person with intrusive thoughts and a violent and cruel person

[@imongodsside9816]

But there not

[@laurencuellarmayoral675]

My OCD has literally driven me to wanna go away from it all and disappear. I'm trying to come down from a panic attack. I don't want this anymore. This is a mental prison!!

[@sammullett17]

Lauren Cuellar Mayoral mental prison is a great way to explain it

[@joseescobar6476]

I’ve battle this since 15. Though I went symptom free until 30. I’ve been battling for the last 6 years or so and it’s been really hard. Thoughts of suicude have crossed my mind so many times I’ve lost track. But.... I keep moving forward. It’s lost some of its power over simply with me knowing it’s not who I am merely a chemical imbalance in my brain. Even so it makes things hard for me to be happy it’s always there no matter how far I go or where I am in my life. The fear of it coming back is always there. But.... lol i keep moving forward. Godspeed stay strong.

[@rickybanman]

Lauren Cuellar Mayoral hope youre feeling better i feel your pain every day

[@caribaez5711]

Makes want to kill myself. 😔😭😭😭😭

[@susanemo9811]

@@caribaez5711 it's rotten but u can get better .

[@wakenbake3682]

It’s a living hell

[@sammullett17]

Wake N Bake it truly is

[@tinkukumarab2172]

when we try to differentiate the thoughts... it makes us believe that the worse thoughts are actually your own thoughts. But in reality we have no intention for that thought and it feels like the soul is being eaten.

[@mikarose9405]

Yes it is. I have suffered it for decades and literally believed I was the only one.

[@lauratoro7546]

I'm going through this now, I'm going to a psychologist and psychiatrist. Violent panic attacks, smacking my head to make it stoo, begging for it stop, crying literally every day/sometimes every few hours, it doesn't stop, dread, terrified, crying so hard I just fall asleep. It's terrible, I feel ashamed of my condition and I'm tired. I'm just so scared all the time and it physically hurts. It all just hurts

[@versatilehumanbeing6013]

Laura Toro Same here dear are u having erp theraphy

[@jonathankeen8836]

Definitley do ERP I also gotta remind myself of that too

[@denicetapper]

Try ltheanine supplements for your panic attacks...they work amazing

[@moji9336]

Laura Toro I experience sexual thoughts and I start crying but what makes it worse is it’s associated with boners which makes me sad and uncomfortable hopefully I get better and completely stop them once and for all

[@crazyassassinkill]

Yeah, ive been starting to self harm to try and stop it... but i t doesnt work, i will punch myself continuously to try and snap myself out of it. Got my good days, but they often dont last very long.

[@Solefear]

Excellent, finally some exposure of this crippling illness.

[@alohastar]

it's not illness

[@ziofrost28]

alohastar I have it and it's a mental illness lol

[@gabrielcox3167]

Yeah, i had for many years.

[@hollyfiddlebrainos9dw]

I wish one day these people were in my shoes for once.

[@musicandpoetry_8]

Do I want to do these things? That’s what is scary, maybe I am this bad person who wants to hurt people

[@TheMoonrise007]

Thank God people are becoming aware of this

[@PunkDogCreations]

Please refrain from blaspheming.

[@andreac647]

"It felt like I've killed someone and I had a body in the back garden"...omg this describes it so well how I felt when I was a teen and had intrusive thoughts. Makes me cry when I think back. Knowing what these actually are and that it's not our fault makes such a huge difference!

[@PunkDogCreations]

Please refrain from blaspheming

[@Stells-wg7te]

@@PunkDogCreationswhat if they aren’t religious?

[@Deerborn7]

Freaking scary. Prayers helps.

[@Deerborn7]

Try ice water it's helping me. The meds don't work cold water

[@Deerborn7]

Lord Jesus. Me too. Freaking crazy

[@Blakmagic88]

So happy I have found this! I really thought I was going crazy...

[@Icemanmemezilla]

K Slone me too

[@thetruth5084]

same here... was just about to go on a rampage and end it all

[@kuronblue]

me too

[@markymarkg7826]

RedGaming Studio really me too

[@sascha2689]

this video was well done & accurate, but was the title necessary? already having these thoughts makes us feel bad, but saying we're "dangerous" gets us down.

[@sammullett17]

Sascha G I had a professional say I was dangerous

[@caribaez5711]

It can get dangerous because sometimes we get obsessed to harm ourselves without thinking. We just feel so frustrated of these thoughts, we will kill ourselves. Ocd is the devil.

[@PasscodeAdvance]

i see it as meaning "how dangerous pure o is" but they should change it. Title is wrong, misleading and depressing (or melancholic)

[@CarmenMorales-xw1qe]

Exactly my thoughts

[@gutz1981]

I first realised something was wrong at age 7. And only now at age 35 after I have never had a girlfriend out of fear of getting her pregnant or getting married or catching a STI. And after giving up my job as a butcher as I am afraid of stabing myself or someone else and now being alone because I am afraid I will scream in front of a group of people and cannot travel publically, only now at age 35 after seeing how much it has taken away can I admit I have OCD. For years the thoughts destroyed me and the fear of talking kept me hidden in silence. I am now ready to take the steps I need to get back what little life I have left. I want to beat this thing.

[@laurap5712]

gutz1981 good luck 💜💜💜

[@potatomuffin4420]

I'm 33 and just started getting help. It's been such a blessing finally understanding what OCD is.

[@mariabaloyi9039]

Ask JESUS for help

[@AssasynCounterExtrem]

The mind is really evil.

[@fyordicas]

@@mariabaloyi9039 Amen!

[@Emmet-sx8fk]

this is my curse

[@aidacailar1126]

Its mine, too.

[@annacuizon9908]

Same here

[@KY-rr6wc]

Same I hate it.

[@jacquilinerapsang3754]

😨😭

[@JoshuaSwan]

I’ve got it too bud

[@Bekka_boo13]

My brother suffer's with Pure O...He really suffered for a while with it...He's alot better now...It really annoys me when people joke about OCD...x

[@BmW-so2zj]

booboobrinn how did he get better please tell me

[@rosestolo4558]

My 10 year old developed Pure O OCD about 1 year ago. He had such terrible anxiety and was terrified of being alone. He had self harm thoughts and thoughts of hurting others. He had a breakdown at school when I was out of town travelling for work. I finally found a therapist who specializes in OCD therapy. After 4 months of weekly therapy and another 2 months of bi weekly (cognitive and ERP combined) we saw MAJOR improvement. He will never be cured as OCD is lifelong but he has developed skills to cope and the thoughts have lessened to the point where he rarely has obessive scary thoughts now. He still has anxiety but just started taking NAC supplements and he is almost back to his normal self before OCD robbed him of a normal life. There is hope. As a mom it broke my heart to see my 9 year old at the time in a personal hell. I spent countless hours researching and my husband and I attended his weekly meetings and diligently did the homework his therapist assigned. Do not give up hope.

[@oheyniyle]

💔

[@ewfjow90uf27]

aww i feel so bad for him

[@carrington2949]

Could this condition if left untreated led to him being institutionalized? Could it have been mistaken for something else such as something akin to schizophrenia?

[@justylex]

@@carrington2949yes. My teen daughter was briefly put in a mental health ward after a rapid onset of OCD caused her to have mental breakdown. She was misdiagnosed as being in a psychosis at first. Luckily, we caught on very quickly what was going on because her older sibling has OCD, so we know what to look for.

[@daltonplaysdrums]

I have never felt more understood and relaxed than I have while watching this video... I guess I'm not alone.

[@thetruth5084]

I think the worst part is that I'm starting to obsess about liking what i'm obsessing about...

[@thetruth5084]

But I really don't... its weird

[@chadfreshkidd5728]

SAME!!!!

[@neroli1069]

Ya I have the same problem.. Even when I just feel '' better'' about it and I want to get better feels better.. It feels like I enjoy the thoughts and Iam just giving up fighting. And in my head it's this voice that says it's ok let go. And this is so weird considering that if u fight it u will lose but if u don't u feel like u are enjoying it.. Omg

[@Atkreality]

I’ve read forums and blogs about people going thru this same w/myself. People even said they’ve been developing and deliberately thinking some thoughts cause of the fear and pressure. Man how much this has messed us up. We’ll get thru this always say it to yourself and believe it!

[@faithalways8537]

@@Atkreality The OCD makes me feel like it's not OCD though. I keep thinking I'm a psychopath or something... I've started shaking my head to make these thoughts go away.

[@kiirsttx]

I've had this ever since I was young, sexual, violent, religious, about death etc. Horrible, horrible thoughts.

[@goodguy-vl7jn]

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[@mecheng1498]

I have OCD for 10 Years now. Sometimes it totally freezes me. The anxiety is so hard to overcome. My head hurts so much sometimes. The thoughts just pop up until i am doubting myself. I start doubting facts which i would have never doubted without these thoughts. I hate it so much!!

[@chadthomas2998]

I have pure o, but was ignored by my parents as a "phase". I actually DID act on it once. That's the truly frightening thing for me. I pushed a skateboard in front of a friend's bike one time hurting him badly. I did it for no other reason other than that the thought just wouldn't go away until I acted upon it. I'd still haunts me that I did such a terrible thing for no reason. this disease must be taken seriously.

[@kathrynemyers7631]

I was misdiagnosed as schitzophernic because of this

[@kenkaneki2795]

I hurt my sister 1 time bc of these thoughts 😕

[@dfinest5564]

@@kenkaneki2795 thats quite bad

[@yeladyelad2692]

Chad, repli to this when u see it. cheers

[@yasminepeach2449]

So scary now I’m scared I’m gonna hurt my daughter just to eliminate the distress

[@pirateslifef0rme]

finally being diagnosed w OCD has made my life so much easier!!! I have pure O and my whole life have thought I'm a bad person for all the thoughts that pop up in my head. medication helps.

[@Rainagain1975]

Emilia Contreras It's a painful affliction. Take comfort that everyone has the weird thoughts, but our minds are more focused that thinking is akin to reality when in fact they are completely separated.

[@dapperblue1764]

Rainagain1975 Hi, I feel that if people knew that I was dealing with this issue, would they want to be friends with me?...

[@blakemyers7136]

What medications help the most for this

[@theaclouds2124]

I had a hunch that I had OCD but when I told people this they said that wasn't possible because I didn't have physical compulsions so I concluded that there was something wrong with me. For awhile I was afraid I was a psycopath and that part of my life was completely wasted in depression and intense anxiety. I was convinced I was the worst person walking this Earth. After about 10 years of having intrusive thoughts, I just recently came across a post describing Pure O and I instantly knew that was what I had. If only I had known sooner I would not have been so hard on myself. Thankfully in recent years I have somehow learned to tame it a bit and I am finally seeking out help so I can actually make something of my life and stop holding myself back from success and being content.

[@llamafacetv8079]

i dont even want to talk about my thoughts

[@ForHeShallSave]

people simply cant imagine how awful this is. sometimes. Even though im happily committed to my gf, sometimes the ocd pops images of homosexual things into my head and it racks me with guilt even though ive done nothing wrong. I hate it. I want it GONE. Gone forever.

[@rosserjake]

It's torture. Wish I could drop dead.

[@IK7.]

So-ocd has ruined my life

[@aaronlewis1664]

Don’t worry mate I’ve been suffering the same way as u

[@jpdontcare9000]

so ocd its real your not alone brother

[@carmencitaconte9881]

Same to me

[@izzyg.1933]

I really need to talk to a therapist more about this. I've had to remove myself from rooms out of fear of hurting another person, I've repeated stupid sayings to myself to try to combat these thoughts, I've thought I was the wort person ever and I still do most days. y'all, OCD isn't synonymous to organization. it's a terrible things. for forever I thought I was the only one who had these thoughts. this video is so important.

[@ophidian9652]

I have had unwanted thoughts about being a peodphile, transgender, it feels like utterly hell, it feels like my life is on pause, I can't do anything as happily as before

[@logat1847]

Ophidian there is never true happiness with this disease man. I probably won’t make it to my 20’s

[@jai4004]

I hate it so much, literally every time there's a happy moment for me it's like my OCD doesn't want that. I hate it so much I could cry so much.

[@yahwehskingdom4077]

Me too glad I'm not alone

[@kbonez3431]

Im just happy there is other people like me , I have been having very bad thoughts of killing , and raping people . I just can't seem to get these thoughts out of my head , I feel like I'm not gonna live much longer.

[@mysteriouschicken1169]

Let's be best friends honestly we go through the same thing

[@disc_priest]

Good thing I've only been suffering for like 3 months. Seeing all the comments I definitely am very lucky to find out what's wrong with me this early.

[@thesingdance101]

Morallygayer I feel that. When my meltdown happened it was in one night snd I obsessively researched and stumbled across OCD forums

[@Totorohamster]

Before I found out about this, I thought I was some sort of psychopath. I would be doing a load of dishes and think "hey see this knife?? I should kill and dissect my beloved pet bunny with it" and then think "no! Why would I do that, I love her!" And like at school I would see someone walking down some stairs and think "push them!!" Thoughts about murder and weird sexual things would just pop into my head and it would deeply upset me. I'm going to be talking to my therapist about this now, because before today I thought I was some sort of serial killer in the making and I didn't want to tell anyone for fear of repercussions. So, thanks sky news, for bringing this to light!

[@sascha2689]

I want to die exactly the same for me. i actually thought i was a psychopath. but then i would feel bad. i’d break down and cry for having these thoughts. it’s horrible, but at least i know im not crazy.

[@Konrad_Wallenrod]

I've been tgere! I want to hug and cuddle cute animals, especially bunnies and kittens all the time, and I had a beautiful pet bunny whom I still miss- he died when I was 13 😢 - and I had a phase when I worried I'd choke them orsqueeze them! It made me feel so bad! Thankfully, I ve overcome those fears!

[@Nk7289]

@@Konrad_Wallenrod how?

[@smokyjoe321]

The thing I find slightly frustrating about suffering from 'Pure O' or OCD without outward compulsions., Is that I find we are kind of (in my experience) ostracized or seen as not 'too bad' in comparison to people with obvious physical compulsions. Despite everything being very similar but often internal rather than external. compulsions only exist because of the obsessive or intrusive thoughts to start with, and we all share those and how debilitating they can be.

[@smokyjoe321]

I watched a video a while ago that said, 'Pure O' is not OCD it is an anxiety disorder. They all are anxiety based disorders, Neurosis is at its core, anxiety. this was from what was supposedly a professional source as well. Very troubling. as David Mitchell said: 'I don't have OCD, I checked 3 or 4 hundred times and I definitely don't have it' just a joke I like

[@sammullett17]

Joe Butler well said

[@musicandpoetry_8]

I feel tortured in my mind all the time..like wtf, I have bipolar too and just regular panic and anxiety..the meds are never quite right

[@DocCroaker1453]

i felt my first intrusive thoughts as an incredibly young age. i feel so much less alone, and i feel like there’s hope for me and so many more out there. sky news has gained my respect on a whole new level.

[@Brunomax7]

Same I am glad I am not alone.

[@Theyab2]

@@Brunomax7yo . We suffer together

[@grayshus6706]

I was driven to the precipice of suicide every day for 3 years with this condition. Terrified that I was morphing into a murderer and had to kill myself as a moral obligation to protect others. The terror and distress is beyond description. I'd get sudden impulses to run straight out into traffic as a way of ensuring I could never be a danger to anyone else. Shaking uncontrollably and almost dissociating with fear whenever I visited my young daughter. Severe depression, repeated hospitalizations and ECT was nothing compared to this.

[@mattfarrelly6314]

I had went through the same thing. I feel your pain. Glad I’m not alone

[@yondergirl83]

Hey. I stopped drinking cofee, 0 alcohol. Do sports, go for walks, eat healthy and now I will try and meditate. But 0 coffeine helped me a lot.

[@ConfusedGirlButSmartDude]

honestly, with the first girl, I relate so much to her. it's amazing how there's finally a term for how im feeling. Although I haven't been officially diagnosed, my therapist does think I have it

[@Lillith9008]

IM SO HAPPY I FOUND THIS VIDEO OMG this literally has been me for so long. I have the most fucked up disturbing thoughts. I thought I was some sort of predator or like just horrible person... now I know!!!

[@abbiejones1430]

Right same

[@Polecat-qz5om]

Pray and the thoughts WILL go away. -a grateful recovering addict

[@dominicmadel788]

I've had sexual thoughts for years since I was maybe 10 or so, later came thoughts about suicide and then the violent thoughts came within the last year and now it's a mix of all three, even involving thoughts about necrophilia. I have an aversion towards odd numbers and certain things I have to do like I have a set of rules but I've never felt like I had really bad OCD if even at all as it hasn't taken over my life. (it only peaked when I worked in fast good for half a year.) It all makes me feel disgusted with myself and it makes it hard to be a teenager and have a social life. If feels like the possibility is so close and one day I'll loose it and do something.

[@avan732]

Dominic Madel I have the same fears and it sucks ik, I feel like I can't tell anyone, I would rather kill my self than hurt anyone and I'm just so lost.

[@Ebthoes]

Dominic Madel I have very bad depression along with ocd and numbers are a thing with me two but I’m twos. Example I used to lick my lips now it’s I tap my right tooth I must tap my left one

[@teolupu5504]

When i was 10 i started having sexual intrusive thoughts and i felt awful ,i thought i was gonna go to hell .i didn't know it was ocd then.It took a whole summer and i had a few setbacks but it went away. Now it's starting again after 5 years ,this time i know how to properly deal with it but i'm afraid it's gonna stick with me forever

[@victoriaadegbesan4624]

@@teolupu5504 I think we all never knew we had it.and I also think quarantine rlly triggered it

[@Solar_Corpus]

Sometimes when I would engage in “activities” with my boyfriend, this intrusive thought of picturing his lifeless body underneath me would come out of nowhere, immediately I’d want to shut that out of my head and I’d begin to cry and feel horrible. I would never ever want that to happen to him, but I’m disgusted with myself for seeing him that way. Especially when we were having sex. Like why then? Why now??? Why??? Is that who I really am??? Am I necrophiliac??? But I still have sex with him anyway….Honestly I have noticed that these symptoms are only heightened when I smoke marijuana, so I’ve cut back on it.

[@WayTooLiteral]

ocd is ruining my life i really wish it would go away

[@dramuah4891]

The worst mental illness... I worry everyday about hurting someone ...I even got latched up on the idea of a dead man being inside my brain and trying to control me.

[@goodguy-vl7jn]

It’s craaazy

[@jeffmichaelson866]

The suffering is unbearable

[@jennicablack]

It truly is

[@stevesalt2921]

I live with this. It's very debilitating!

[@ElizabethGonzalez-jt7ns]

steve salt ... pure o is soo hard. Ugh. It’s a struggle. I do believe that it’s very similar to ptsd.

[@anonamoose2229]

Since having my daughter I have horrific intrusive thoughts, I'm tormented almost every hour.

[@sammullett17]

Anonamoose I have the same with my son

[@MASKEDMAN712]

I suffer with Pure O as well. Meditation, exercise & vitamins like B12, St. John’s Wort & Omega 3-6-9 help.

[@chloerr3365]

I literally want to go up to a police officer and tell him to arrest me for being a criminal. I feel like I’ve done something really bad because of my thoughts. It’s literal hell.

[@caitlin141]

Just hearing people talk about this so openly gives me a since of relief. My thoughts started out violent and then switched to sexual as I got older. I tried to talk about it when it was first happening and the people around me took it as some sort of secret desire or something hidden in my subconscious that was trying to come out. Something I didn’t have control over and that made me dangerous. I did everything I could to isolate myself in fear of hurting someone. It’s been 10yrs and after failed attempts with medication, both prescribed (anti-depressants) and self medication (alcohol), I feel my OCD is manageable and I have my sense of self back. I feel like me again. Finding proper help can be challenging, one of my biggest mistakes was listening to people that weren’t health care professionals at all. But now I’m happy that I have my peace of mind back and I can move past this.

[@punitjayadev8043]

Meditation helps a lot , it will literally cure your o.c.d

[@debrajackson8700]

I've suffered with OCD for over fifty years now since I was eleven years old .It started with the death of my grandmother and I prayed constantly to God to not let my parents or siblings die on me then it went worse over the years .I know I have Pure O I have had private counselling some years ago but I still have to make thing right in my head if I think of a person so nothing will happen to them because I've thought it would .I know it's Pure O but I still do it even though I know it's illogical ,it is a constant in my life Of which I am constantly trying to over come on a daily basis and I truley believe that something will just click in my mind one day and I will stop it ..much love to anyone suffering this terrible illness ❤️

[@ellu...]

I have these kinds of thoughts, I hate it..

[@wyatt8073]

Ellu H I know me too

[@stuartbreeze7488]

Yup me 2

[@stuartbreeze7488]

Well only violent thoughts

[@johnalfredo5000]

Everyone has them. The problem is that people with OCD can't get rid of them

[@Gopala-ev4dy]

Even I have such thoughts I cried inside and I questioned myself what I am thinking

[@seanuspaulus]

A living hell. It's like a race to the bottom in my head. I'm finding it so hard to accept that I'm not a bad/evil person. There might be good in me. It's a form of torture, invisible to strangers but very real inside.

[@calvinjames7032]

I’m glad to know I’m not alone but also, I wish no one had to suffer with this.

[@christianpasion7351]

as someone who has experienced this, I never wish this horrible pain upon any person.

[@JackCantwell-eg5yt]

I suffer with it, it's demonic, I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.

[@Deerborn7]

I agree think it's demonic also. Mentally distressed Everytime put the prayers it's stops

[@jennicablack]

Amen, it's hell

[@laylawraight6290]

I hate myself sometimes..

[@bellad6825]

FINALLY A VIDEO THAT PUTS LIGHT ON THE SIDE OF OCD THAT NOBODY TALKS ABOUT

[@heidimacdougall6441]

I’ve noticed that my bouts of (what I think and hope) is POCD have gotten worse at points in my life where morality and right and wrong were of big concern. Sexual and violent deviance are most frowned upon in society (for good reason), and it seems POCD is often about this subject matter. One notable time occurred when I was 13, and I experienced obsessions about being a lesbian. My parents were strictly against homosexuality, and I latched on to this with so much fear and constantly felt compelled to “check” if I was a lesbian. Over the years, other themes have invaded my mind, and they always surround morality and human indecency.

[@itsh3099]

I went online to check about all those disgusting thoughts I was having and found out about ocd and all its themes. I was like do I also have that? And I convinced my self I was not. Then after some weeks something triggered another OCD theme and it’s like a never-ending loop that’s making me doubt everything. I miss being surrounded by positivity and love. All of a sudden everything changed. I think quarantine triggered my ocd. I remember when I was young I used to tap my fingers equal times with the left and right hand so I would be at peace or make the same amount of steps with the right and left leg or else I would feel like something bad would happen. I most definitely have had OCD all this time and now it affects everyone and everything I love including my pets, boyfriend and family. I feel like an idiot I wish I could just snap out of it and know that it’s not who I am. It’s like I can’t enjoy anything and my mind makes up the worst case scenarios. I am like what if I’m a serial killer? What if I am a psycho? And then there’s hours of crying when I look at my loved ones i feel ashamed, I can’t handle this. At least I’m not alone. I wish it could be cured for good and hearing that it’s chronic makes me so nervous because I can’t live like this. I just want my life back

[@sammullett17]

Glad this is been talked about, I've had this for years. It's so painful

[@goodguy-vl7jn]

😭😭

[@ap-um5el]

I have pure OCD and I have been living with it for last 18 years. I think the best cure to this is awareness and acknowledgement that one has OCD.

[@mindovermatter4297]

i have doctor wont listen keep fighting my thoughts cant stop please help how do i stop

[@Lololol878]

Currently suffering from Pure O thoughts after a few months of feeling okay. I want to get them out of my mind so much that sometimes suicide or antidepressant pills seem like the only answer. I suffer in silence, I am ashamed of my thoughts and don't want them to be true. I hope we all get better 🙏 Glad I am not alone in this.

[@nonoiseatthebayou]

This is the video that I always show everyone to explain my condition . I’m so glad there’s a community where we can talk about this awful internal struggle . If any of u need help lmk iv been struggling w this for a while now.

[@maxa1934]

id love to talk

[@hanshotfirst1138]

Damn, I had no idea there was a clinical name for this. I think I developed it out of the blue fairly recently. I hope I'm misdiagnosing myself.

[@alme2951]

hanshotfirst1138 same here

[@michaelchristopher1989]

stay strong. this happened to me 8 years ago. it happens overnight but it will fade with time. the thing that did it for me was lowering my living expenses and traveling!

[@korissasilver4381]

Same with me it came out of nowhere one day

[@broojie8191]

it can start from nowhere sadly. I've had it my whole life so i can't relate.

[@robertintensity4689]

this is so me it has changed and become intrusive where i constantly think im schizophrenic yet have no symptoms little noises make me think "omg this must be a voice i heard" or "i must wait for phsychosis to come" yet never comes lol its stupid but its just something my mind constantly feeds me because its a big fear

[@shannonkramer1840]

I have the same problem. it's terrifying

[@robertintensity4689]

+Shannon Kramer yes i know lol intrusive thoughts suck huh

[@shannonkramer1840]

yes, its ruined my life for a long time. ive just recently been challenging myself trying to overcome it

[@wooww91619]

fashionista1zombie Yes, oh my gosh that is so me. I've realized lately that I'm literally *always* observing my thoughts and scanning them for problems as I'm thinking them :( I get really scared of disorganized schizophrenia mostly, not being able to organize my thoughts... Thinking about it 24/7, I'm so preoccupied and constantly doubting what I'm saying that I genuinely start struggling to explain things, even sometimes speak at all, which obviously then makes my anxiety 10x worse But I'll also have intrusive delusional thoughts... thoughts about things that I know are ridiculous/make no sense, things that sound like the farthest thing from reality to me. It's like I keep thinking these things just because I know they will bother me. I used to have very textbook OCD, not pure O, yet my anxiety is now more severe than ever and it's almost all pure O, all mental problems and rituals. Finally starting to get a little better though maybe since I've learned that this is a similar experience that other people with OCD have though loll

[@DEATHisgood4u]

That is exactly me every day mate

[@lolololololutrythcfy]

the poor teacher... the fact the outcome of his intrusive distressing thoughts had almost materialised in real life consequences is the biggest fear to any OCD sufferer :(

[@saltmeiner8910]

When I was a teenager I confused these for my own fantasies but there was no pleasure; only disgust, anxiety and physical fear. In public they are filled with images and sounds of embarassment and humiliation. Not all of them are sexual. Most of mine are violent filled with intense anger and regret after the (imagined) fact. Such thoughts and images or impulses last seconds but feel so vivid. One feels them as if it were actually done. Often accompanied with intense feelings of shame and self hatred.

[@sibeliusan]

I'm not suicidal, but any time I see a vehicle I start thinking about jumping in front of them. I'll be thinking about it for hours and I can't make it stop.

[@saabirchaudhry2545]

Im suffering with OCD since I was 12 with OCD I can't enjoy my life I can't go outside and enjoy with friends it's a living hell.hope one i will cured.

[@goodguy-vl7jn]

We’re all in this together . May Allah help us and grant us cure!

[@MatthewNewTV]

The experts aren't far off its normal to have bad thoughts from time to time however it's when it's constant and repetitive thoughts that's when it becomes a problem... I've explained to people - some who get me and others think I'm doing it because I'm bored and simply seeking attention and I'm merely inventing them myself. I do agree we need to raise awareness of OCD because people need to understand how deeply upsetting and frustrating it is... Right now... My biggest wish in my life is to live without these stupid thoughts or if that's not possible learn ways to live while accepting the thoughts or making it less uncomfortable

[@sammullett17]

Matthew NewTV well said 👏

[@matilde9014]

I have ocd but with C too but O is worst | putting your hand in the blender still haunts me

[@kathrynemyers7631]

omg ya or punching your tongue with a hole puncher

[@TylerGibsonMusic]

I have this... Nobody will ever understand what it’s like unless they have experienced it. All day, the same thoughts repeating over and over like a cycle. It is truly horrifying... I see my loved ones dying in a car accident everyday. Not just a thought, but like a video playing in my head of the graphic images that would occur. I have had about enough of this.

[@naciomartinez6009]

Whst is this

[@jennicablack]

Yes its never ending

[@alexisjohnperez]

I'm experiencing the same thing for almost 6yrs now. I really do hope there's a quick escape for this.

[@D21-k8v]

This video is good and a good understanding..but the title has now gone throw my mind as im dangours because i have pure ocd..now i feel like throwing up and my stomach is in knots..why such a horrible heading for this video..i now think im dangours and the thoughts in my head now saying im dangours only because i seen the heading to this video..:(

[@booya4024]

First video I've found that's spot on for me at least.

[@gaunterodimmmastermirrors72]

Idk about this, all I know is I have these thoughts of me hurting my siblings and other family members. It's been going on for years and I kept it to myself mostly. But each thought feels so real and it starts to just feel as if I'm actually doing these really bad acts. Hope no one else feels this way, because it feels like a relentless hell zone

[@monsterberger7728]

My mind would make a mind reader tramuatized

[@Theyab2]

Haha i can relate

[@Deerborn7]

Lol. 😂

[@Deerborn7]

​@@Theyab2 i can relate

[@Blodreina45]

My mind would make the most innocent among us lose all hope in humanity in a matter of seconds.

[@KingEnforcer]

Has anyone overcome this? I have this fear that I'll never overcome this giant problem thats taking over my life

[@logat1847]

I’m a family man and I’m so scared that I could never have a family, or that if I do I’d have to abandon them out of fear

[@izaakeligardnereli]

Yes nothing is forever

[@gowrishetty5030]

yes

[@joseescobar6476]

The doubting disease. I suffer from Pure OCD it’s been debilitating to say the least.

[@broojie8191]

My pure O is around my relationship with my boyfriend. I have thoughts around one of us cheating, losing spark or interest, breaking up in general. I have thoughts that I'll dump him every time I talk to him, so I can't talk to my own boyfriend without that thought coming in. It's so hard.

[@sammullett17]

X.BrookeNoel.X i have a similar story

[@broojie8191]

how has yours been ?

[@sarah-hy8xy]

Oh my god I definitely have this, I was thinking what if I block him like no I don’t want that all, it’s like self sabotaging thoughts

[@cosmicdream17]

This video is really accurate about the symptoms of Pure-O. I just realised recently that I have had this disorder since I was 13, and its extremely intrusive and disturbing. Sometimes they would go away and I used to think that I don't have it anymore, but they would return a few hours later. They're mostly related to doubts about religion (I'm Muslim) and sexuality. I have to reassure myself mentally several times every day to remind myself that I'm Muslim and straight.

[@goodguy-vl7jn]

I’m Muslim too and I have pure O

[@adaintydream8759]

Having pure o feels pathetic but religious ocd blasphemy scrupulousity is like living with GUILT from the moment i get up to the moment i fall asleep. I beat myself everyday 😭 cant write...getting these awful dreadful thoughts right now.

[@jesse7747]

sorry

[@blinkinbadger6164]

Fantastic, informative , caring insight into our suffering

[@adamm2091]

Brilliant work, Alex.

[@DeidreL9]

Yep. Got it. Had it for 51 years. Comfort hugs for everyone else who has this.

[@itsalltooeasy2329]

These thoughts come and go . At one point I'm like what am I even thinking? This is bullshit i have better things to think . But other times i feel like i have an illness and it will never go away . Does anyone else feel the same ? My mind gets new intrusive thoughts again and again . Like after one thought goes away , it searches for another .... It's like there's someone in my mind just forcing myself to find something that can cause me stress

[@sandspider53964]

I feel so bad for people who have this.

[@bosnianwarchild2970]

No one should have this 😢

[@paulodecarvalho5712]

Such a huge relief to know that I'm not the only one. I don't even need a doctor to diagnose me. The tremendous distress and suffering that I've been experiencing speak for themselves. Sometimes I just want to breathe and turn my mind off. I've had so many crises because of that, it feels like my brain is fried. I just hope to recover one day. Meanwhile, other people's stories help me to go through this.

[@brandojungcruz1686]

I never knew this was a thing ... glad I’m not the only one

[@yowhattupitzbigchungus4971]

It’s like having the mind of the worst serial killer on earth, but not being a serial killer at all. Just a witness to the unwanted thoughts

[@maureenseel118]

It's horrible. It's imagining the worst case scenario all the time. It results in "I'm bad" and "I'm/you're (if I am hearing my critical voice) going to hell". The intrusive thoughts were proof of how bad I was.

[@voutoo7899]

The worst thing about OCD is that it evolves, changes, has different themes, there is just no ending to this nightmare...

[@Theyab2]

Yeah fk that

[@musicandpoetry_8]

I mean intrusive harm

[@wot9980]

​@@musicandpoetry_8what happened now

[@JayJay-mr7ds]

I have self diagnosed myself with OCD . Ever since I was younger I always had this fascination with being organized, making everything neat and tidy, doing everything perfectly, always having clean hands, always looking fresh and clean cut, now I'm having these unwanted thoughts about family members all the time and I cant control it, and its getting to the point of happening with every single person I meet. I just feel like putting a bullet in my head

[@jameswilson8800]

This video is exactly what I am suffering with. So thankful to know I am not alone

[@lillhogge6369]

Me too man.

[@nuutella6564]

My intrusive thoughts terrify me and they interrupt my daily life… I get the urge to stab my eye with anything sharp, knives, pencils even sharp edges and corners. I get the urge to put my face in frying oil. I get the urge to swerve my car into a fourteen wheeler, or just incoming traffic. I can’t somedays…

[@agustinasanchez5755]

I started having pure OCD when i was 13, im 18 now. Almost 6 years! And only at 17 knew this was a form of OCD

[@golden.fire.princess9653]

Wow about the same with me I was 14 and I just found out when I was 17 as well

[@ZTS-93]

I have Pure O and I wouldn't wish it on my own enemies.

[@TheRoarWithin]

Never Alone.

[@5whiteice]

God help me please to get over that it destroy my life and work.

[@lisasisneros8200]

I’ve never heard of this side of OCD and it explains so much of what a family member has/is going through. We had no idea this sort of condition exists and didn’t understand what was happening. It’s a relief to know this is a known condition and that there is help. It sounds so terrible to go through and is heartbreaking to know someone I love suffers like this.

[@hueso5071]

It’s terrible. 😢

[@lilprpmami1]

i had this for most of my life. I'd have episodes throughout my childhood and teens but they would go away on their own. at 21 I had a particular bad episode so bad it led me to a nervous breakdown. I was so bad I could barely put one foot in front of another I was so weak, drained and tired from these thoughts. I'd I was suicidal and self harming as I had no clue what was wrong with me. I wouldn't tell anyone in case people thought I was mad and I'd be put away in an institution. my pure o was often to do with paranormal themes or being possessed. I still can't figure out why I had these particular thoughts or what their significance was. I knew I wasnt possessed and didn't believe in possession I knew they were ridiculous which is another reason I knew I wasn't psychotic which made things worse in a way cause I couldn't understand why these thoughts wouldn't go away. honestly it was the most horrible distressed time in my life. thankfully now I know about my condition I've learned to manage it better but I still go through it the themes often different ATM its an obsession I might have a terminal illness even though there's no evidence I do. pure o is so hard to explain unless u have it but damn wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy :(

[@bigdec1]

I have pure o. It's hell

[@nataliek878]

I have pure O, I only really tell people close to me but I tell them I have OCD and intrusive thoughts and not that they are sexual. I fear getting help because if I do they will talk to my mom about it all and I don't want her to find out that I have these thoughts because I have had habits in the past that were sexual based and I don't want her to find out because I have been working really hard for the past year to change it all. and it's just one big nightmare. I don't know how I am going to get secret help and I often feel caged I just really want help but when I tell people I can't get it and I don't explain why, they think I'm faking that I have a problem and it makes me so sad. Does anyone know how I can get help from a professional without everyone knowing? :(

[@nataliek878]

It seems easy but I can't get help unless I want my parents to think I'm a bad person. I don't want help it's not ruining my life that bad but I just want these thoughts to go away and I don't want drugs for it!

[@joseescobar6476]

I’ve been seeing a therapist for about 4 years. It helps. He knows everything thing about me. Every thought every insecurity, it helps knowing I have somebody who knows of the distress I go through and the security of knowing he can’t tell anybody about it.

[@aidacailar1126]

I feel the same. My thoughts are sexual too.

[@Muhammad-pz1bp]

Watch ali greymond on youtube

[@Catturtlelover3000]

I tried to explain these OCD symptoms to a healthcare provider today and explained how misunderstood it is. She immediately said “that’s not OCD that’s more of a trauma response 🤦‍♀️🙄” I’ve literally been diagnosed by 2 different psychiatrists and my therapists recognize my OCD tendencies.. it’s so sad. Literally hell. OCD is so misunderstood.

[@ibinkyz]

Couldn't it be a trauma response being ocd?

[@metime9260]

I lost 30 years of my life for this...

[@shannane5171]

No one should have to suffer like this. Its never ending

[@jennicablack]

Amen

[@lilithofthenight1991]

THE PUBLIC NEEDS LOTS OF EDUCATION ON MENTAL HEALTH 🧠🧠🧠🌿 90s generation have PTSD OR COMPLEX PTSD LIKE MYSELF 💁🏻‍♀️. I GET ANXIOUS REALLY EASILY AND THAT EVERYONE WANT TO INVADE MY LIFE ... 2000s generation have OCD ..