A little background about this song... Amazarashi originally wrote and sang the song and gifted it to Nakashima Mika when she was going through a really rough time with her comeback after taking hiatus due to sickness. She had eustachian tube dysfunction which feels almost like when you are on a plane that's descending. The pressure build up in your ears causes all sound to seem very muffled. Her condition was so severe that she could barely hear her own voice while singing and had a really hard time hearing the accompanying music. She was treated in the US but ultimately could not be cured of the condition. She performed really poorly on her comeback live performances - bad singing volume, off tone, off rhythm. A lot of people and Japanese media bashed her while knowing nothing about her condition and said she just came back for the money and her singing is not good anymore. She said she cried really hard when she received this song and felt like it represents the voice from her heart. It was really touching to see her perform this live on stage, stomping her foot to the sound of the drums so she can keep the beat since she can't hear the accompanying music that well. There's a video of her performing this song live. It's not the best version of the song by any means - she goes off tune and her volume is all over the place. But you can truly feel how much passion she has and how she just wants to keep singing. kzbin.info/www/bejne/h32WhWWEr8ikmdU Original version by Amazarashi: kzbin.info/www/bejne/eJLPhZ-IbdCHetk
@BigSauce-s4e4 жыл бұрын
Damn......
@hilariusubaldiasarinarindr92554 жыл бұрын
I know nothing about this song, the singer. This just pop up at my home, But this comment about background if true is so touching and amazing.
@adiosbaby6124 жыл бұрын
K now I want to die
@NeoErwecker4 жыл бұрын
Yeah, it's true. But you got one thing wrong. Nakashima Mika isn't actually singing in this video but 芝麻Mochi. Look her up. She is also an amazing singer and has great covers.
@TactNightZ4 жыл бұрын
@@NeoErwecker Oop. I thought she sounded odd here. The description says "Cover By: Nakashima Mika" which trolled me :|
@sanzy23294 жыл бұрын
”The reason I can’t stop thinking about death, must be that I take living too seriously.” This line hit me really hard.
@kleozane27814 жыл бұрын
Exactly. Always put a smile on your face and dont give a shit about anything. Life's too short to worry
@adylenzomama21994 жыл бұрын
Same
@Samuel-qc7kg4 жыл бұрын
@@blu9856 Everything isn´t meaningless. There is meaning beyond life. And even if you don´t want to accept that then you should know that our actions can influence others into doing something great, or even do it ourselves.
@mariatamashii1983 жыл бұрын
Not just a few words is the reality
@Lily-gz3ip3 жыл бұрын
@@Samuel-qc7kg maybe the meaning is making memories
i've learned that it's not that i want to die, it's that i want to live. live a different life and escape from the current version of life that i have. and that reinventing yourself, making changes in your life, going to a place you've always wanted to go, doing something you've always wanted to do - signing up for singing classes, trying out to be an actor, entering a language academy to become fluent in japanese so you can work in japan and live like a local - doing reckless things like that, is infinitely better than ending the life you currently have. that's what's so beautiful about life. there are endless possibilities that you can follow. and if you're not happy in one path, go ahead and change your course. take another path. do that over and over again until you find happiness. my philosophy professor used to say: "happiness isn't something you look for. it's something you create."
@victoraranha33795 жыл бұрын
The truth is, I like to be alone... But I hate being lonely
@ZZUWAAP5 жыл бұрын
You are not alone. I'm here for you now. because i have same problem. I was always alone. wherever i went i was alone. But i had faith that someone will show up for me. No one did yet, but I know the feeling so I'm here for you now
@dontaelamar53415 жыл бұрын
Hey victor do you know how what the song he had label as a beautiful Japanese song by any chance?
@michaelreeser58335 жыл бұрын
Marry an Otaku. That way you can be alone together in each of your own Otaku world.
@zombiebrainlover62695 жыл бұрын
I feel you man, being alone is lonely
@Froakii5 жыл бұрын
Words!
@aelgindomingo4724 жыл бұрын
It sucks when you can't explain yourself.
@allensnea93354 жыл бұрын
@Aelgin Domingo, it’s like a feeling of pain that pain never be eased. It just keeps on throbbing on and on but no one helps caress them, it *Hurts* but it’s always been like that for me.
@deearr77874 жыл бұрын
Yeah, and many misinterpret
@verdantash4 жыл бұрын
But your comment catched my eyes.
@funandgames7144 жыл бұрын
Why are there so many random comments
@miragespl4 жыл бұрын
Too many feelings to put to words
@saraishaq2665 жыл бұрын
"The reason I can't stop thinking about death, must be that I take living too seriously." This entire song makes my heart hurt...
@flyercurse5 жыл бұрын
don't take life too seriously, you are not coming out alive of it one way or another, while you are here, why won't spend the time the best you can? who knows? perhaps you would end up liking it enough to share it with others
@jaaams71995 жыл бұрын
It should go away with time.. once you fall in the "hole" it's hard to get out
@saraishaq2665 жыл бұрын
Yes just don't want to end up dying without actually living.
@yzspring5 жыл бұрын
Such...sad song :(
@zarcsakaki87584 жыл бұрын
Well living can be a hassle sometimes, some people think their better of dead that continue living, i understand them since we are creatures born to die after all
The reason I wanted to die, is because I realised how empty my life is. Everyday I wake up and do the same routine again and again and again. I look in the mirror and tell myself today is going to be different, but its not. Everyday I find it harder to talk to people & to go out and to do things. I don't like going to places with too many people, as it reminds me of how alone I am. Sometimes I like to play mmorpgs just so I can feel like a different person, have a different life and not have to think about the real world. Sure, being alone is great because you can do anything you want whenever you want, but when you're breaking down and really need someone, that's when you realise how truly lonely you are. I'm sure deep down, every introvert just wants someone to hug them and tell them that everything is going to be okay
@Alex-zq3bj4 жыл бұрын
So painfully true, I can relate. But is it really the end of the world for you? Your life may be empty - but have you really lost everything? Loneliness hurts as hell, but most of you introverts still have a chance at finding that person to hug you and tell you that you're going to be ok. You just have to try a little harder instead of hiding back in your shell. I found that special one for me. My shield against the entire world. I could keep ignoring the hate in the world as long as I had her by my side. I could dream with her. We've had our share of issues, nothing is perfect, but we were there for each other. Yet I had to watch her go through hell on her own, watch her smile slowly fade away. I was by her side but I was helpless to do anything... I could not save her. I prayed to gods to be able to trade my life for hers and found out that no such things exists. She died scared and alone on a hospital bed. After fighting pain and suffering like a true hero her dreams and hopes were shattered. To not be able to save what's truly important to me... I am worse than trash. I would gladly die on the spot as long as she would get what was stolen from her. But we don't get to choose most of the time. So for you Kirayazu the introvert, and all other introverts out there, I ask you - is the world really over for you? I won't truly love anything again until I find my end, if it doesn't find me in my sleep. Hah... always thought that dying in your sleep is one of the lamest ways to go :) What's your excuse? Stop looking for it. Go out there, meet people, embarrass yourself to the max until you find someone to hug you. Whether you find your other half in an MMO, on the street, at a random place... no one will be able to find you when you hide in your home. So go forward. There is no god. Probably never was. But we are here, aren't we ? For now at least...
@vendicated4 жыл бұрын
I cried reading this because it's so relatable. Much love from one introvert to another ♥️
@onyyxu4 жыл бұрын
@@Alex-zq3bj wow that hit me hard... I'm so sorry to hear that. Stories like these make me hate how unfair the world is to people. She seemed like a really strong, lovely person, I definitely don't think I'd be strong enough to handle death like that. I can only hope to find someone as great as her. Also please don't think you're trash, I'm sure you did your very best to stay by her side and support her as much as you could possibly do. Thanks for your words though, I know that I should just go out there and meet people but I just find it hard for some reason. I always overthink things in social situations. But I really hope I can finally break out of my shell like you did, and possibly find the one. I know it's not too late but it had gotten to the point where I never even bothered to think of the future anymore. No matter what, I just couldn't think of a happy future for me. But now I have hope that soon, even I will be able to find my shield against the world. I'll take your advice to go out there and embarrass myself, and hopefully find someone that is equally as embarrassing 😂. 2020 will be different I hope. A new decade marks a new start after all
@kynsuoh58444 жыл бұрын
Lol! Story of my life also.. what game do you play?
@สุภาวรรรณครีบภูบุตร4 жыл бұрын
("^o^")...???
@aaa_e3 жыл бұрын
*You don't want to disappear, you just wanted to be found.*
@urbae10793 жыл бұрын
💔
@aaa_e3 жыл бұрын
@@urbae1079 I didn't know our nicknames could match XD
@urbae10793 жыл бұрын
LOL I just realized that.
@zadrdz12663 жыл бұрын
Oh my
@RunesUnruined3 жыл бұрын
@@urbae1079 u guys are destenied to be found or is this 1 in a million chance
@yusufsalhi53514 жыл бұрын
it's sad when u realize that a random stranger in comment section can understand u more that ur family
@angeloreyrobinos47364 жыл бұрын
Ugh!!!!
@sonali85284 жыл бұрын
true.. and when home doesn't feel like home anymore it's extremely suffocating
@yusufsalhi53514 жыл бұрын
@@sonali8528 YES
@ashtontanner65534 жыл бұрын
It’s easier to love somebody that you dont know and interact with day in and day out
@likewtfbro_4 жыл бұрын
Hahahahahajajhahahahaha🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
@Jdaine12343 жыл бұрын
"If I'm just living like a dead, empty person then what's the point in living"
@theoneeyedowl41823 жыл бұрын
Everyday is the same, it's not fun waking up knowing that today will bet the same as yesterday and every other day.
@leepambid96583 жыл бұрын
@@theoneeyedowl4182 I went through the same thing as you and all I can say is, just stay strong because that feeling will pass eventually. And now when I feel a bit down I try to remember those days of feeling empty and depressed because everyday was repetetive and tell myself that I managed to get through that so I can get over my sadness a bit. Just hang in there, the clouds will pass eventually
@lupanama70065 жыл бұрын
"the reason I wanted to die" KZbin : recommended to you
@patricklai51085 жыл бұрын
LOL sorry I laughed
@momorin.05085 жыл бұрын
How a wonderful message to you, maybe u have one second thought about death, it comes to u.
I don't want to die, but I don't want to live like this
@justsomeonewhowantstoenjoy82224 жыл бұрын
I hope you'll find someone who'd make your life meaningful, dear 💖 You did a good job staying alive until now, I'm wishimg for your good future from the other side of the world 💖💖💖
@user-gr2qf1py8j4 жыл бұрын
That's the same feeling I get when I watch a good slice of life anime.
我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 在聽到海鷗哀鳴的時候 umineko ga sanbashi de naita kara 浮沉在浪花之間無邊無際地漂流 nami no manimani ukann de kieru 把我的過去也一倂銜起飛走吧 kako mo zubannde tonn deike 我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 因為出生的時候杏花綻放了 tannjyobi ni annzu no hana ga sai takara 若在那樹影間灑落的陽光下睡著 sono komorebi de utata neshi tara 是否會隨著昆蟲屍骸一起化為土壤呢 mushi no shigai to tsuchi ninareru kana 薄荷糖 漁港的燈塔 hakkame gyouko no toudai 生鏽的拱橋 丟棄的腳踏車 zabita achi kyou suteta jitennsha 在木造的車站暖爐前 mokuzo no eki no sutopu no mae de 想出發卻不知道往哪裡走 dokoni mo tabitate nai kokoro 今天彷彿還是昨天 kyou wa marude kinou mitai da 現在不改變就別想奢望以後 asu wo kaeru nara kyou wo kae nakya 這我都知道 我都知道 可是啊 waka tteru waka tteru keredo 我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 是因為被掏空的心已經無力承受 kokoro ga kara pponi natta kara 得不到滿足而哭泣 mita sare nai to nai teiru nowa 一定是因為期盼著能被填滿吧 kitto mita sare tai to negau kara 我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 是因為鞋帶鬆開了 kutsu himo ga hotoke takara 對於重新繫好不太擅長 musubi naosu nowa nigate nann da yo 與人之間的關係也是如此 hito to no tsunaga rimo mata shikari 我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 是因為少年注視著我 shounenn ga boku wo mitsume tei takara 在床上低頭下跪 betto no ue de dogesa shiteru yo 對著那一天的我說對不起 anohi no boku ni gomenn nasai to 電腦的微光 paso konn no usu akari 樓上房間的生活動靜 jyoukai no heya no sekatsu onn 對講機的鈴聲 innta fonn no chai mu no oto 捂住耳朵的鳥籠少年 mimi wo fusagu tori ka gono shounenn 與看不見的敵人戰鬥著 mie nai teki to tataka tteru 六塊塌塌米大的唐吉軻德 loku jyou hitoma no donn ki hote 反正終點只有醜陋 goru wa dou se minikui monosa 我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 是因為被說是個冷漠的人 tsume tai hito to iware takara 會為了渴望被愛而哭泣 ai sareta to taite iru nowa 是因為體驗到了來自人的溫暖 hito no mukumori wo shitte shima ttakara 我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 是因為你很美麗的笑著 anata ga kirei ni warau kara 會老是想著死亡這些事 shinu koto bakari kangae teshimau no wa 一定是因為對於活著太過認真了 kitto ikiru koto ni majime sugiru kara 我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 是因為還沒遇見你 mada anata ni deatta naka ttakara 因為有你這樣的人誕生 anata no youna hito ga umareta 讓我稍微喜歡上這個世界了 sekai wo sukoshi sukini nattayo 有像你這樣的人生活著 anata no youna hito ga iki teru 讓我對這個世界稍微有些期待了 sekai ni sukoshi kitai suru yo
@warmcobra68144 жыл бұрын
The lyrics didn't have many likes because the listeners couldn't pause to read such melody
@Haris-xq5wq4 жыл бұрын
@@warmcobra6814 then you do it
@jasonseno65054 жыл бұрын
But I do
@王莉-u6f4 жыл бұрын
一了百了?什麼東西
@Linyin-2008-4 жыл бұрын
王莉 死的意思
@mubbie4 жыл бұрын
Romaji Lyrics. Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa umineko ga sanbashi de naitakara Nami no manima ni ukande kieru kako mo tuibande tonde ike Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa tanjoubi ni anzu no hana ga saitakara Sono komorebi de utatane shitara mushi no shigai to tsuchi ni nareru ka na Hakkaame gyokou no toudai sabita āchi-kyou suteta jitensha Mokuzou no eki no sutoobu no mae de dokoni mo tabidatenai kokoro Kyou wa marude kinou mitaida ashita o kaerunara kyou o kaenakya Wakatteru wakatteru keredo Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa kokoro ga karappo ni nattakara Mitasarenai to naite iru no wa kitto mitasaretai to negaukara Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa kutsuhimo ga hodoketa kara Musubi naosu no wa nigatena nda yo hito to no tsunagari mo mata shikari Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa shounen ga boku o mitsumete itakara Beddo no ue de dogeza shi teru yo ano hi no boku ni gomen'nasai to Pasokon no usu akari joukai no heya no seikatsu-on Intāfon no chaimu no oto mimiwofusagu torikago no shounen Mienaiteki to tatakatteru rokujouhitoma no donkihoute Gouru wa douse hidoi mono sa Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa tsumetai hito to iwa retakara Aisaretai to naite iru no wa hito no nukumori o shitte shimattakara Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa anata ga kirei ni waraukara Shinu koto bakari kangaete shimau no wa kitto ikiru koto ni majime sugirukara Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa mada anata ni deattenakattakara Anata no youna hito ga umareta sekai o sukoshi suki ni natta yo Anata no youna hito ga iki teru sekai ni sukoshi kitai suru yo Credits: beautifulsonglyrics.blogspot.com/2013/08/mika-nakashima-boku-ga-shino-to-
@koalabit3 жыл бұрын
Thanks
@lalatrish24623 жыл бұрын
arigathanks!
@Pauloneh3 жыл бұрын
thanks
@文正-o6h3 жыл бұрын
I am trying to improve my language ability,so I want to make friend with you.
@mubbie3 жыл бұрын
@@文正-o6h Sure, but i just copy pasted the lyrics... I do understand hiragana and katakana tho. But not much for the kanji
@idky16724 жыл бұрын
The most wisest saddest yet supportive comment section you'll ever cross
@ginraiii4 жыл бұрын
Fr :( all these stories are inspiring tho
@ramtosantosa76614 жыл бұрын
MMonkeyDLuff yyy generic response
@hrf65484 жыл бұрын
True, I cried reading them
@TheKaurajuoma4 жыл бұрын
It's like a sanctuary from what a shithole internet usually is.
@idealicfool4 жыл бұрын
I have hope for it ywt but 🍿
@kynsuoh58443 жыл бұрын
24 yrs of existence in this world yet I havent heard someone said this words to me "I Love you", " I'm proud of you" and "I appreciate you". Even just once I really wanted to hear it before I die. Lucky are those who heard these words from their parents or from someone. 🖤
@name-jh6lf3 жыл бұрын
I love you. I'm proud of you. I appreciate you. Hug?
@mahmoudmajzoub96993 жыл бұрын
did you say these words to others??? always think for being the giver not the receiver.
@kynsuoh58443 жыл бұрын
@@mahmoudmajzoub9699 yes
@aisuruchan36503 жыл бұрын
Same my parents make me feel like I only need to study and clean and make money for them
@cthulu4233 жыл бұрын
Parents are worst.
@koharu_chiii45714 жыл бұрын
*The worst part of being strong is that no one ever ask if you’re okay.*
@helloimawasteofaspaced85594 жыл бұрын
Yep.. You're not wrong actually..
@wobbledu4 жыл бұрын
I hate it, that no one notices what I am actually doing. No one cares anymore for what I might be playing or watching or listening to. And I dont know about them. Whats the point then in doing anything. I could lay on the ground all day and no one will ever know
@soraruedits83894 жыл бұрын
Looking strong *
@soraruedits83894 жыл бұрын
you are not strong enough if you expect someones attention.
@yesno78894 жыл бұрын
Even if they did it’s not like we can tell the truth. I’d say that asking if I’m okay would just be awkward for all parties involved.
@benjaminli94753 жыл бұрын
I feel like dying, but I don't want to die. I want to escape my life, but I don't want to leave everything behind
@arioctober90973 жыл бұрын
You're not the only one...
@jjongjjongie39783 жыл бұрын
I feel the same.
@footballartistn74633 жыл бұрын
Guys stay strong. I promise things will get better if you don't give up on yourself. No one believes in you more than you do. This song is basically a reminder that maybe once you may have thought of ending it all, but were able to overcome it to be in the place you are or will be in the near future. You guys will do amazing!
@seulgi12113 жыл бұрын
Exactly how I feel.
@edelweiss.reads273 жыл бұрын
Same helppp....
@nightuchiha75664 жыл бұрын
The worst feeling in the world isn’t being lonely. It’s being surrounded by people who make you feel lonely
@sparkplug87634 жыл бұрын
@Buster head Find new friends through doing what you like and common interests.
@osquitis3 жыл бұрын
Deep
@drauxxz42443 жыл бұрын
Totally agree
@theresnothinghereatall3 жыл бұрын
No, being alone is worse is worse. There's a reason isolation is a punishment in prisons
@desuenak36713 жыл бұрын
@@theresnothinghereatall really? i enjoy being alone rather than being with ppl who make me feel alone... its better to just go with your daily life work do your own thing than be with someone who just waste your time
@gialusterio54092 жыл бұрын
This has been my comfort song way back 2020 when I was conducting field experiment for my undergrad thesis. It was on set of covid and there's not much people around. I remember crying with this music playing in my earphones, it was past 7pm and I'm still in the field watering my experimental plants. it was dark, i was alone with no one to help and no one in sight. I'm so glad for surviving all that. I've since graduated and planning to pursue graduate studies next year. I get bittersweet feelings whenever i listen to this song. i remembered how alone i felt, how hard it was, but then i get so proud of myself for making it this far. ❤️ This song will always hit home❤️
@kynsuoh58442 жыл бұрын
I'm proud of you! Good luck 🤞
@SoupySerenity Жыл бұрын
So you are also from the plant science background?
@gialusterio54098 ай бұрын
@@SoupySerenity yes and I am currently enrolled in a Master's Program for Master of Science in Plant Breeding. Time flies so fast💖
@grandmayun5 жыл бұрын
*來源自網路 *來源自網路 *來源自網路 我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 在聽到海鷗哀鳴的時候 umineko ga sanbashi de naita kara 浮沉在浪花之間無邊無際地漂流 nami no manimani ukann de kieru 把我的過去也一倂銜起飛走吧 kako mo zubannde tonn deike 我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 因為出生的時候杏花綻放了 tannjyobi ni annzu no hana ga sai takara 若在那樹影間灑落的陽光下睡著 sono komorebi de utata neshi tara 是否會隨著昆蟲屍骸一起化為土壤呢 mushi no shigai to tsuchi ninareru kana 薄荷糖 漁港的燈塔 hakkame gyouko no toudai 生鏽的拱橋 丟棄的腳踏車 zabita achi kyou suteta jitennsha 在木造的車站暖爐前 mokuzo no eki no sutopu no mae de 想出發卻不知道往哪裡走 dokoni mo tabitate nai kokoro 今天彷彿還是昨天 kyou wa marude kinou mitai da 現在不改變就別想奢望以後 asu wo kaeru nara kyou wo kae nakya 這我都知道 我都知道 可是啊 waka tteru waka tteru keredo 我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 是因為被掏空的心已經無力承受 kokoro ga kara pponi natta kara 得不到滿足而哭泣 mita sare nai to nai teiru nowa 一定是因為期盼著能被填滿吧 kitto mita sare tai to negau kara 我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 是因為鞋帶鬆開了 kutsu himo ga hotoke takara 對於重新繫好不太擅長 musubi naosu nowa nigate nann da yo 與人之間的關係也是如此 hito to no tsunaga rimo mata shikari 我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 是因為少年注視著我 shounenn ga boku wo mitsume tei takara 在床上低頭下跪 betto no ue de dogesa shiteru yo 對著那一天的我說對不起 anohi no boku ni gomenn nasai to 電腦的微光 paso konn no usu akari 樓上房間的生活動靜 jyoukai no heya no sekatsu onn 對講機的鈴聲 innta fonn no chai mu no oto 捂住耳朵的鳥籠少年 mimi wo fusagu tori ka gono shounenn 與看不見的敵人戰鬥著 mie nai teki to tataka tteru 六塊塌塌米大的唐吉軻德 loku jyou hitoma no donn ki hote 反正終點只有醜陋 goru wa dou se minikui monosa 我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 是因為被說是個冷漠的人 tsume tai hito to iware takara 會為了渴望被愛而哭泣 ai sareta to taite iru nowa 是因為體驗到了來自人的溫暖 hito no mukumori wo shitte shima ttakara 我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 是因為你很美麗的笑著 anata ga kirei ni warau kara 會老是想著死亡這些事 shinu koto bakari kangae teshimau no wa 一定是因為對於活著太過認真了 kitto ikiru koto ni majime sugiru kara 我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 是因為還沒遇見你 mada anata ni deatta naka ttakara 因為有你這樣的人誕生 anata no youna hito ga umareta 讓我稍微喜歡上這個世界了 sekai wo sukoshi sukini nattayo 有像你這樣的人生活著 anata no youna hito ga iki teru 讓我對這個世界稍微有些期待了 sekai ni sukoshi kitai suru yo *來源自網路 *來源自網路 *來源自網路 *來源自網路 *來源自網路
@zyrongaming9685 жыл бұрын
Wow
@idgf92014 жыл бұрын
Tnx
@syluxken89894 жыл бұрын
Thanks
@clairemoniquefraser86804 жыл бұрын
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@pimeydenmira66264 жыл бұрын
this is hanzi version, am I right?
@儚夢想睡覺5 жыл бұрын
【歌詞】 我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 在聽到海鷗哀鳴的時候 umineko ga sanbashi de naita kara 浮沉在浪花之間無邊無際地漂流 nami no manimani ukann de kieru 把我的過去也一倂銜起飛走吧 kako mo zubannde tonn deike 我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 因為出生的時候杏花綻放了 tannjyobi ni annzu no hana ga sai takara 若在那樹影間灑落的陽光下睡著 sono komorebi de utata neshi tara 是否會隨著昆蟲屍骸一起化為土壤呢 mushi no shigai to tsuchi ninareru kana 薄荷糖 漁港的燈塔 hakkame gyouko no toudai 生鏽的拱橋 丟棄的腳踏車 zabita achi kyou suteta jitennsha 在木造的車站暖爐前 mokuzo no eki no sutopu no mae de 想出發卻不知道往哪裡走 dokoni mo tabitate nai kokoro 今天彷彿還是昨天 kyou wa marude kinou mitai da 現在不改變就別想奢望以後 asu wo kaeru nara kyou wo kae nakya 這我都知道 我都知道 可是啊 waka tteru waka tteru keredo 我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 是因為被掏空的心已經無力承受 kokoro ga kara pponi natta kara 得不到滿足而哭泣 mita sare nai to nai teiru nowa 一定是因為期盼著能被填滿吧 kitto mita sare tai to negau kara 我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 是因為鞋帶鬆開了 kutsu himo ga hotoke takara 對於重新繫好不太擅長 musubi naosu nowa nigate nann da yo 與人之間的關係也是如此 hito to no tsunaga rimo mata shikari 我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 是因為少年注視著我 shounenn ga boku wo mitsume tei takara 在床上低頭下跪 betto no ue de dogesa shiteru yo 對著那一天的我說對不起 anohi no boku ni gomenn nasai to 電腦的微光 paso konn no usu akari 樓上房間的生活動靜 jyoukai no heya no sekatsu onn 對講機的鈴聲 innta fonn no chai mu no oto 捂住耳朵的鳥籠少年 mimi wo fusagu tori ka gono shounenn 與看不見的敵人戰鬥著 mie nai teki to tataka tteru 六塊塌塌米大的唐吉軻德 loku jyou hitoma no donn ki hote 反正終點只有醜陋 goru wa dou se minikui monosa 我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 是因為被說是個冷漠的人 tsume tai hito to iware takara 會為了渴望被愛而哭泣 ai sareta to taite iru nowa 是因為體驗到了來自人的溫暖 hito no mukumori wo shitte shima ttakara 我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 是因為你很美麗的笑著 anata ga kirei ni warau kara 會老是想著死亡這些事 shinu koto bakari kangae teshimau no wa 一定是因為對於活著太過認真了 kitto ikiru koto ni majime sugiru kara 我曾經也想過一了百了 boku ga shinou to omotta no wa 是因為還沒遇見你 mada anata ni deatta naka ttakara 因為有你這樣的人誕生 anata no youna hito ga umareta 讓我稍微喜歡上這個世界了 sekai wo sukoshi sukini nattayo 有像你這樣的人生活著 anata no youna hito ga iki teru 讓我對這個世界稍微有些期待了 sekai ni sukoshi kitai suru yo
@Yuna_Kobayashi5 жыл бұрын
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@kuhaku37005 жыл бұрын
ありがとう6
@ronaldanson68945 жыл бұрын
I'm pretty sure you typed it one bye one. There's some romaji that you misheard
@BrendanishLeo5 жыл бұрын
@@ronaldanson6894 I'm not 100%, but I assume that that's Chinese, not Japanese. The video itself already has Japanese subtitles.
I am literally in tears, this song already sounds sad enough, but when you read the lyrics, it's all the more heartbreaking. I have never heard a song that I could resonate with more. This just gave a voice to all my unspoken fears and inner darkness. The line, "the reason I wanted to die is because I was called a cold-hearted person." is what really gets to me. But really, this song, as a whole would be what it sounds like if our hearts could put into words what burden it And it is very real and powerful. Such tragedy portrayed in a song, that it is truly beautiful and mesmerising.
LYRICS~ Romaji Boku ga shino u to omotta no wa umineko ga sanbashi de nai ta kara nami no zuii ni ukan de kieru kako mo daku ban de ton de ike boku ga shino u to omotta no wa tanjō bi ni anzu no hana ga sai ta kara sono komorebi de utatane shi tara mushi no shigai to do ni nareru ka na hakka ame gyokō no tōdai sabi ta āchi kyō sute ta jitensha mokuzō no eki no sutōbu no mae de doko ni mo tabidate nai kokoro kyō wa marude kinō mitai da ashita o kaeru nara kyō o kae nakya wakatteru wakatteru keredo boku ga shino u to omotta no wa kokoro ga karappo ni natta kara mitasare nai to nai te iru no wa kitto mitasare tai to negau kara boku ga shino u to omotta no wa kutsu himo ga toke ta kara musubinaosu no wa nigate na n da yo hito to no tsunagari mo mata shika ri boku ga shino u to omotta no wa shōnen ga boku o mitsume te i ta kara beddo no ue de dogeza shiteru yo ano hi no boku ni gomennasai to pasokon no usu akari ue kai no heya no seikatsu on intā fon no chaimu no oto mimi o fusagu torikago no shōnen mie nai teki to tatakatteru roku jō ikken no donkihōte gōru wa dōse minikui mono sa boku ga shino u to omotta no wa tsumetai hito to iware ta kara aisare tai to nai te iru no wa hito no nukumori o shitte shimatta kara boku ga shino u to omotta no wa anata ga kirei ni warau kara shinu koto bakari kangae te shimau no wa kitto ikiru koto ni majime sugiru kara boku ga shino u to omotta no wa mada anata ni deatte nakatta kara anata no yō na hito ga umare ta sekai o sukoshi suki ni natta yo anata no yō na hito ga ikiteru sekai ni sukoshi kitai suru yo Translation The reason why I thought I'd die is because black-tailed gulls chirped on a pier Appeared and disappeared drifting on the waves, flying away and picking my past as they go The reason why I thought I'd die is because apricot blossoms bloomed on my birthday Can I become the soil with dead bugs if I nap under the sunbeams filtering through foliage? Mint candy, lighthouse at a fishing port, rusty arch bridge, abandoned bicycle In front of a stove at a wooden station house, my heart can't set out anywhere Today looks like yesterday, if we wanna change tomorrow we should change today I know, I know... but... The reason why I thought I'd die is because my heart went blank The reason why I cry over being unsatisfied is surely because I wanna be satisfied The reason why I thought I'd die is because the shoelace got undone I'm not good at connecting things together, the same goes with human relationships The reason why I thought I'd die is because the boy was gazing at me I'm getting down on my knees on a bed to apologize to myself on that day Dim-light of a computer, sounds of life coming from upstairs Sounds of interphone chimes, boy covering his ears in a birdcage Don Quixote who's fighting with an invisible enemy in a six-mat room Goal must be ugly anyway The reason why I thought I'd die is because I was called a cold person The reason why I cry for being loved is because I've got to learn the warmth of others The reason why I thought I'd die is because of your gentle laugh The reason why I only consider dying is because I am way too serious to live on The reason why I thought I'd die is because I hadn't met you yet I fell in love with this world a little more where people like you were born I will place my hope in this world a little bit where people like you are alive. Kanji 僕が死のうと思ったのは ウミネコが桟橋で鳴いたから 波の随意に浮かんで消える 過去も啄ばんで飛んでいけ 僕が死のうと思ったのは 誕生日に杏の花が咲いたから その木漏れ日でうたた寝したら 虫の死骸と土になれるかな 薄荷飴 漁港の灯台 錆びたアーチ橋 捨てた自転車 木造の駅のストーブの前で どこにも旅立てない心 今日はまるで昨日みたいだ 明日を変えるなら今日を変えなきゃ 分かってる 分かってる けれど 僕が死のうと思ったのは 心が空っぽになったから 満たされないと泣いているのは きっと満たされたいと願うから 僕が死のうと思ったのは 靴紐が解けたから 結びなおすのは苦手なんだよ 人との繋がりもまた然り 僕が死のうと思ったのは 少年が僕を見つめていたから ベッドの上で土下座してるよ あの日の僕にごめんなさいと パソコンの薄明かり 上階の部屋の生活音 インターフォンのチャイムの音 耳を塞ぐ鳥かごの少年 見えない敵と戦ってる 六畳一間のドンキホーテ ゴールはどうせ醜いものさ 僕が死のうと思ったのは 冷たい人と言われたから 愛されたいと泣いているのは 人の温もりを知ってしまったから 僕が死のうと思ったのは あなたが綺麗に笑うから 死ぬことばかり考えてしまうのは きっと生きる事に真面目すぎるから 僕が死のうと思ったのは まだあなたに出会ってなかったから あなたのような人が生まれた 世界を少し好きになったよ あなたのような人が生きてる 世界に少し期待するよ
@nurulsyafiqah32276 жыл бұрын
Can I know the tittle please..?
@けんちゃん-i6p6 жыл бұрын
What's the song name
@nurulsyafiqah32276 жыл бұрын
@@けんちゃん-i6p THE REASON WHY I THOUGHT I'D DIE by Mika Nakashima Just knew about it
@dameossan22216 жыл бұрын
Boku ga Shinou Omatta no Wa - Amazarashi
@pakkarapolchomput10836 жыл бұрын
Thank you. Sir 😆😆
@selflove-l6b4 ай бұрын
The cover singer is 芝麻Mochi, not Nakashima Mika. It took me years to actually find this voice's owner
@RandomKun4 ай бұрын
Hey, thanks for commenting the artist's name. Can you link some of her songs?
@madarauchiha1162 күн бұрын
Thank you!
@taylarb77034 жыл бұрын
it isn't that I want to die, it's just that I don't like living. I'm tired
@Anti-Yeet4 жыл бұрын
same in here...am so done
@chloesham17484 жыл бұрын
I’m sad to hear that you’re tired and hurting 😞 I hope both of you guys have someone to talk to and will get the time to slowly heal.
@Lucky19ann4 жыл бұрын
Same, just want to sleep forever. I don't care if I get that covid19 and die.
@xe51014 жыл бұрын
@@Lucky19ann see you in heaven, bro
@Lucky19ann4 жыл бұрын
@@xe5101 don't die tho. I don't like seeing other people suffer. I dont mind if it's just me. Sending you hugs tho. I have no one to talk to so I just take it out on KZbin.
@aslambagus85724 жыл бұрын
我曾經也想過一了百了 (boku ga shinou to omotta no wa ) 在聽到海鷗哀鳴的時候 (umineko ga sanbashi de naita kara ) 浮沉在浪花之間無邊無際地漂流 (nami no manimani ukann de kieru ) 把我的過去也一倂銜起飛走吧 (kako mo zubannde tonn deike ) 我曾經也想過一了百了 (boku ga shinou to omotta no wa) ) 因為出生的時候杏花綻放了(tannjyobi ni annzu no hana ga sai takara) ) 若在那樹影間灑落的陽光下睡著 (sono komorebi de utata neshi tara ) 是否會隨著昆蟲屍骸一起化為土壤呢 (mushi no shigai to tsuchi ninareru kana) ) 薄荷糖 漁港的燈塔 (hakkame gyouko no toudai ) 生鏽的拱橋 丟棄的腳踏車 (zabita achi kyou suteta jitennsha) ) 在木造的車站暖爐前 (mokuzo no eki no sutopu no mae de) ) 想出發卻不知道往哪裡走 (dokoni mo tabitate nai kokoro ) 今天彷彿還是昨天 (kyou wa marude kinou mitai da ) 現在不改變就別想奢望以後 (asu wo kaeru nara kyou wo kae nakya) ) 這我都知道 我都知道 可是啊 (waka tteru waka tteru keredo ) 我曾經也想過一了百了 (boku ga shinou to omotta no wa) ) 是因為被掏空的心已經無力承受 (kokoro ga kara pponi natta kara ) 得不到滿足而哭泣 (mita sare nai to nai teiru nowa ) 一定是因為期盼著能被填滿吧 (kitto mita sare tai to negau kara) ) 我曾經也想過一了百了 (boku ga shinou to omotta no wa ) 是因為鞋帶鬆開了 (kutsu himo ga hotoke takara ) 對於重新繫好不太擅長 (musubi naosu nowa nigate nann da yo) ) 與人之間的關係也是如此 (hito to no tsunaga rimo mata shikari ) 我曾經也想過一了百了 (boku ga shinou to omotta no wa ) 是因為少年注視著我 (shounenn ga boku wo mitsume tei takara) ) 在床上低頭下跪 (betto no ue de dogesa shiteru yo) ) 對著那一天的我說對不起 (anohi no boku ni gomenn nasai to) ) 電腦的微光 (paso konn no usu akari ) 樓上房間的生活動靜 (jyoukai no heya no sekatsu onn) ) 對講機的鈴聲 (innta fonn no chai mu no oto ) 捂住耳朵的鳥籠少年 (mimi wo fusagu tori ka gono shounenn) ) 與看不見的敵人戰鬥著 (mie nai teki to tataka tteru ) 六塊塌塌米大的唐吉軻德 (loku jyou hitoma no donn ki hote) ) 反正終點只有醜陋 (goru wa dou se minikui monosa ) 我曾經也想過一了百了 (boku ga shinou to omotta no wa ) 是因為被說是個冷漠的人 (tsume tai hito to iware takara) ) 會為了渴望被愛而哭泣 (ai sareta to taite iru nowa ) 是因為體驗到了來自人的溫暖 (hito no mukumori wo shitte shima ttakara) ) 我曾經也想過一了百了 (boku ga shinou to omotta no wa) ) 是因為你很美麗的笑著 (anata ga kirei ni warau kara ) 會老是想著死亡這些事 (shinu koto bakari kangae teshimau no wa) ) 一定是因為對於活著太過認真了 (kitto ikiru koto ni majime sugiru kara) ) 我曾經也想過一了百了 (boku ga shinou to omotta no wa ) 是因為還沒遇見你 (mada anata ni deatta naka ttakara) ) 因為有你這樣的人誕生 (anata no youna hito ga umareta ) 讓我稍微喜歡上這個世界了 (sekai wo sukoshi sukini nattayo) ) 有像你這樣的人生活著 (anata no youna hito ga iki teru ) 讓我對這個世界稍微有些期待了 (sekai ni sukoshi kitai suru yo)
I remember my friend telling me her family problems, anxiety and depression. I didn't know how to comfort her since I couldn't relate. I just stayed by her side and silently cried behind her while she keeps telling her stories. I hated myself for being unable to comfort her properly. I hope that listening to her and staying by her side help her a bit. When I started college, I finally understood what she meant. I entered the world she were facing that time. "Depression" I always had anxiety and i find it normal but this time, depression is unfamiliar. People around me use to admire, praise, and had high expectations to me. Second year college when i fall under severe depression. The eyes that use look at me with expectations turns to "disappointment". I feel like i made a wrong decision and were not happy with my course. Instead of supporting me, they tease me like I won't succeed. I started to feel so lonely even though i have a lot of people surrounding me. Then i got failed grade, it was my first time. Just like i expected, they were disappointed but pretended it was okay. I plan to k*ll myself in our first family vacation with my relatives. I take a lot of pictures to left something behind. When I got a chance to get near at the cliff, i take a step back and plan to jump. I will make it look like an accident but i got scared. Not because of dy*ng but the consequences of surviving. What if i became a crippled instead? How should i answer all their questions? That is when i discovered this song and people who had similar experience who are currently listening to this song. I were not alone, they are strong and still fighting. I started picking up things i gave up. Arts and writing stories. I'm still not good at it but I'm much happier now. But since i failed a subject and had to take other pre requisite subject, i couldn't graduate this year. My relatives keeps asking me why i won't graduate this year? You are going to graduate this Year, isn't it? Why? If you don't want your course then be police instead. Then they would laugh. I felt embarrassed and couldn't draw for a long time. My friends and classmates are graduating this year while I'm held back a year. I pretend to be okay but I'm really not. I'm scared of the future but right now, i want to live at the present. But recently, i heard that my little sister who was raised by my grandma were suffering from depressions. I got scared, i wonder if I'm one of the reasons that she were in that state. We had some small conflict but I'm pretty sure it is mostly because of her course. I didn't know how to comfort her. Instead of asking her, i just kept conversing with her and make her smile as much as possible. I'm afraid of failing and losing her. She is not strong like me. I had things that hold me. Arts, writing, movie, novel, manga, musics and pets. But i don't think she has that much. Be strong, your wrist is never a canvas for you to draw at.
@kynsuoh58442 жыл бұрын
Hi! I feel you. It's okay if it will take you time to graduate, we all have our own different timeline and pace. Everything happens for a reason 😊 TC always, take good care of your sister.
Can i know what u working on now? Im having similar situation like yours
@J-Leuckos2 жыл бұрын
U 've done ur best , and u still do ur best to live ur life , not everyone see that but i'm sure that some people Saw , see your effort and courage even if they didn't, don't tell u about that. But in the secret u have inspire some people by the way u fight for yourself, i'm sure of it . We're all an inspiration for someone. Please keep fightin' , i know that it's not easy but please don't let the World win over you. But overcome it , u're not alone even if u think u are. God loves you , so much that He gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life.(John 3:16). Trust him , if u didn't before try and see U have nothing to lose.
@musubi4563 Жыл бұрын
The expectations crush you from inside I feel the same way my parents don't have have anyone instead of me to take care for them thus I push myself everyday and hope that one day I will proudly hug my parents and will fullfill their dreams
everyone at the thumbnail: *violet evergarden!* blind me: *saber!*
@iseuls4 жыл бұрын
Actually...same
@ahmadj99734 жыл бұрын
+ KEKW
@loclactien4 жыл бұрын
Not gonna lie I also thought Saber.. until I saw the bow ribbon tie on her hair..
@gesttina4 жыл бұрын
i only see saber ok
@tiwitiwi62024 жыл бұрын
if it was fate she'd be berserker class lmao, too op
@yangbenjamin1210 ай бұрын
聽了五年了,到現在還是很感動😢😢😢
@georgeljq38605 жыл бұрын
Being alone isn’t a bad thing, it’s different from feeling lonely, but it start to hurt at some point as loneliness slides in, no one to open up to, no one who understands you, being quiet throughout the day huh ignoring what people says about you, communication, interaction with others start to be difficult, it hurts real bad to be the “odd one out” among your group of “friends” that you blend in with, but life continues, I know how you people out there feel, screaming inside everyday, self reflection, thoughts and unstable emotions, wanting to say everything out but to think there's no one who is willing to listen and care, only to listen to sad emo songs and cry alone at night having the same old conversation everyday, from an outgoing extrovert who loves to speak begins to speak lesser unknowingly turning into an introvert, But I know a fact, it's NOT that there's NO ONE out there who cares, but it's just the matter of time for that specific person or group of people to appear in your life, this may be a long journey but I will get through it, to you guys out there stay strong, don’t give up yet, continue to stay positive, It’s fine to smaller your circle, it’s totally normal, as quality over quantity, Appreciate the people, your real friends, that sat with you in the dark, don't ever let them down and cherish them like a family member of yours, show your care to them, trust them, understand them and love them :)
@溺死-l3k5 жыл бұрын
You think so? I enjoy that kind of loneliness. I'd rather hurt myself than let someone else hurt me again.
@jon-jonno70365 жыл бұрын
@@w花b and yet here i am. Failing and failing and failing at it..
@julieng44125 жыл бұрын
loneliness that slowly consumed me and it's peaceful at first then it hurts deep down later
@dioplomacy5 жыл бұрын
just never thought that I will be the one to go down this path...
@aidanadams52345 жыл бұрын
Wow, tears welled up in my eyes, I am left speechless and humbled by your comment. Thank you for sharing this
@ryanparina13804 жыл бұрын
This hit me deep, i've realized that introverts like to act that they have it together and can function alone but deep down they want someone to be with them most of the time, someone who will make the effort to be with them.
@soniagutierrezquiroz55964 жыл бұрын
I 100% agree with you. I am a introvert too. I enjoy being lonely. Being lonely is a awesome luxury because I get to watch more things and discover more things that a lot of people do not know. However, the negative side of being lonely is going through the loneliness. Because what's the point of watching KZbin videos like these and playing amazing video games when you have no one to share it with?
"The reason I cry that I long to be loved" We can all relate to this statement one way or another
@edwardowibowo53715 жыл бұрын
i never been loved crying in the bed wish someone will loved me one day but i long to be loved
@spirit_of_enen5 жыл бұрын
Daijobu
@kynsuoh58445 жыл бұрын
Yes this is true!! Story of my life. Idk what love is.. i hope someone will teach me someday.
@jasephdeocampo17045 жыл бұрын
Hey don't lose hope there still time left it's not the end of it...I mean if you're still hoping just hold on to it..
@ripperlp1425 жыл бұрын
Thats true I know how you feel
@katie48594 жыл бұрын
The lyrics always hit me when she mentions why she thought about it "The reason I wanted to die was because the seagulls squawked at the end of the pier." "Because the plum blossoms bloomed on my birthday." "Because my shoelaces had come undone." "Because some kid wouldn’t stop staring at me." I've felt this too many times. They seem like such little things but sometimes the littlest things have the biggest impact.
"The reason I wanted to die, is that you smile so beautifully" "The reason I wanted to die, is that I hadn't met you yet"
@tharlinshwe34034 жыл бұрын
The reason I wanted to die,is that I had met you
@helium4454 жыл бұрын
lol
@isohot95534 жыл бұрын
as a kpop stan i can relate sadly, she is across the other side of the world and no matter what i do, i probably never get to meet her
@3ia22loisyoungren93 жыл бұрын
It's hard to live with a body that wants to survive, with a mind that wants to die, and a heart that is already dead
@gabiohno3 жыл бұрын
Your body is in one hell of a condition
@yoshibutkagekira78993 жыл бұрын
English teachers: This is some shakespeare shit
@alexandraelenaradoi42473 жыл бұрын
Same
@kissshot40533 жыл бұрын
r/im14andthisisdeep
@america7953 жыл бұрын
This some deep zhit bruh 😎
@itsmatsukiiАй бұрын
holy crap this song showed up in my recommend again. i remember this song being one of (if not) my favourite songs 5 years ago. back then, i didnt rly even have a reason i wanted to die, i just didnt like the hardships i had at the time. right now? i still dont want to die, but i have lived through wanting to die, and this song just gave me a huge flash of all of those emotions and memories. its hard to explain, but its like very reassuring/comforting ironically. its gives me the warm fuzzies, that i made it through those movements, that im still here, and living happily. thank you for bringing those memories of the past back, its so nice reflecting back on them now that im much better off.
@bluetang73175 жыл бұрын
I like the comments here. So supporting and healing. Thank you for the cheering words! Hope you all feel better. :)
@ledanhlamvip125 жыл бұрын
i am surprised that so many Korean like Japanese culture
@pongo2865 жыл бұрын
@@ledanhlamvip12 Chinese*
@haillobster71545 жыл бұрын
Why, thank you very much, Youngju! Hope you're doing well too? 👍😄
@weicheng06176 жыл бұрын
僕が死のうと思ったのは ウミネコが桟橋で鳴いたから Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa umineko ga sanbashi de naita kara 波の随意に浮かんで消える 過去も啄ばんで飛んでいけ nami no manimani ukann de kieru kako mo zubannde tonn deike 僕が死のうと思ったのは 誕生日に杏の花が咲いたから boku ga shinou to omotta no wa tannjyobi ni annzu no hana ga sai takara その木漏れ日でうたた寝したら 虫の死骸と土になれるかな sono komorebi de utata neshi tara mushi no shigai to tsuchi ni nareru kana 薄荷飴 漁港の灯台 錆びたアーチ橋 捨てた自転車 hakkame gyouko no toudai zabita achi kyou suteta jitennsha 木造の駅のストーブの前で どこにも旅立てない心 mokuzo no eki no sutopu no mae de dokoni mo tabitate nai kokoro 今日はまるで昨日みたいだ 明日を変えるなら今日を変えなきゃ kyou wa marude kinou mitai da asu wo kaeru nara kyou wo kae nakya 分かってる 分かってる けれど waka tteru waka tteru keredo 僕が死のうと思ったのは 心が空っぽになったから boku ga shinou to omotta no wa kokoro ga kara pponi natta kara 満たされないと泣いているのは きっと満たされたいと願うから mita sare nai to nai teiru nowa kitto mita sare tai to negau kara 僕が死のうと思ったのは 靴紐が解けたから boku ga shinou to omotta no wa kutsu himo ga hotoke takara 結びなおすのは苦手なんだよ 人との繋がりもまた然り musubi naosu nowa nigate nann da yo hito to no tsunaga rimo mata shikari 僕が死のうと思ったのは 少年が僕を見つめていたから boku ga shinou to omotta no wa shounenn ga boku wo mitsume tei takara ベッドの上で土下座してるよ あの日の僕にごめんなさいと betto no ue de dogesa shiteru yo anohi no boku ni gomenn nasai to パソコンの薄明かり 上階の部屋の生活音 paso konn no usu akari jyoukai no heya no sekatsu onn インターフォンのチャイムの音 耳を塞ぐ鳥かごの少年 innta fonn no chai mu no oto mimi wo fusagu tori ka gono shounenn 見えない敵と戦ってる 六畳一間のドンキホーテ mie nai teki to tataka tteru loku jyou hitoma no donn ki hote ゴールはどうせ醜いものさ goru wa dou se minikui monosa 僕が死のうと思ったのは 冷たい人と言われたから boku ga shinou to omotta no wa tsume tai hito to iware takara 愛されたいと泣いているのは 人の温もりを知ってしまったから ai sareta to taite iru nowa hito no mukumori wo shitte shima ttakara 僕が死のうと思ったのは あなたが綺麗に笑うから boku ga shinou to omotta no wa anata ga kirei ni warau kara 死ぬことばかり考えてしまうのは きっと生きる事に真面目すぎるから shinu koto bakari kangae teshimau no wa kitto ikiru koto ni majime sugiru kara 僕が死のうと思ったのは まだあなたに出会ってなかったから boku ga shinou to omotta no wa mada anata ni deatta naka ttakara あなたのような人が生まれた 世界を少し好きになったよ anata no youna hito ga umareta sekai wo sukoshi sukini nattayo あなたのような人が生きてる 世界に少し期待するよ anata no youna hito ga iki teru sekai ni sukoshi kitai suru yo
@RNSi-bk4ip6 жыл бұрын
愛你
@honeygentleloupequit99196 жыл бұрын
阿丞 Thank you!
@zeth53386 жыл бұрын
gracias parce :'D
@zacklambo73416 жыл бұрын
Thank you help me alot😊
@Uzisoi6 жыл бұрын
What title of music?
@faunasimp63124 жыл бұрын
The worst type of loneliness is when the people close to you slowly distancing themseleves
@robson_roch4 жыл бұрын
the few people who were by my side moved on and I feel like I've been stuck in the same place for 5 years
@tornadoostaff3 жыл бұрын
this currently happened to me those people who gave me happiness, understanding, validation, and wanted are now slowly moving away from me then i realized getting attached to someone is the worst mistake i ever make
@tornadoostaff3 жыл бұрын
@Buster head no its all my fault i grow up as a loner since i was a kid, and people always come and go in life only a very few stay friends usually stay for 3-5 years until they moved on from you, and that's a pretty normal cycle in life what i'm currently experiencing is this, my group of friends is already 3 years old and we start to move on with our lives now the problem is, this is my very first circle of friends where i meet people who understand me and give me the feeling of worth, things i have never experienced in my entire life this is why i feel hurt knowing themselves start to distance away from me, at the same time if i tried too hard to keep our relations, they might find me annoying and want to end our friendship faster. they might see me as some good friends, but they will never experience what i feel about them this is why its my fault, i should never develop any kind of attachment just like i always do before this. i don't want to feel this way ever again. sorry if i just vent to you
@randommfk3 жыл бұрын
This is so true...
@Neurose_03 жыл бұрын
@@tornadoostaff I'm going through the exact same thing. If I was allowed to forget them all, even the good memories, even the feelings, I would. Because I don't think the prize is worth the pain. I were always a small-group person, I made the mistake of getting attached to my few friends, and now they just don't talk to me anymore.
The saddest part is, if you are feeling down, the person that going to cheer you up is from the internet To be honest... I feel like the only reason i'm feeling better is because everyone here sharing their own stories. And that makes me realize that there's some people who have been trough even more depression than me. Not only that, there's also some people trying to cheer you up even though they don't know who you are. Internet is a blessing but also a curse, depend on the way you see it in your own eyes. BUT PLEASE THINK POSITIVE, I KNOW AND YOU KNOW DEEP DOWN IN YOUR HEART THERE'S SOMEONE YOU WANT TO MEET. SOMEONE THAT WILL BRINGS YOU JOY. SOMEONE THAT WILL SAVE YOU. SOMEONE THAT WILL BE WITH YOU FOREVER. I'M NOT GIVING YOU HOPE I'M TELLING YOU THE TRUTH. SO, PLEASE STAY A LITTLE BIT LONGER, PLEASE! IF IT END BADLY, THERE'S 1 THING YOU CAN DO. START OVER. NEVER GIVE UP. WHATEVER IT TAKES, DON'T GIVE UP!!! And remember this: Everything has a happy ending. If it's not happy. IT'S NOT THE END!! .
@29.shesandrasabrinahafid414 жыл бұрын
Raja Anaya cool men!
@manhtoan36134 жыл бұрын
everything will be better tomorrow..
@saloni228154 жыл бұрын
Same here but honestly it sucks so many are suffering
@beatrizornellas75034 жыл бұрын
It feels so relaxing. Hearing your words in the sun light while... feeling confuly empty...
@davetr_mv23114 жыл бұрын
Goosebumps goosebumps ...⚡
@imtryingtobebetter16754 жыл бұрын
"we useless people are born to make talented people realize that they are lucky" I want to sleep, forever. Edit : august 26, 2021 I just want to tell to you all that I'm slowly getting okay, not because of myself but because of God. I know there's so many people here are depressed I just want to tell to you that you are wonderful, Worth it, and especially Loved. I know it takes a lot of courage to let go of things, if you can't make a move then let God to take that step for you, allow him to handle your situation and you will never Regret it. I'm just like the same of you I suffered on my dark past, depression. I know that it's like a chain to you that will never let go of you, but God broke that chain to me And God can do the same for you. Matthew 11:28 Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Just try to pray release all your anxiety to him, all your insecurities, all your regrets, all your dark past, and all your problems and GOD will give you rest.
@AdityaSinha-s6m4 жыл бұрын
True indeed but no one can be useless at everything, maybe not the best but you can't be useless......
@karlsoriso23044 жыл бұрын
@@AdityaSinha-s6m I absolutely agree
@imtryingtobebetter16754 жыл бұрын
@@AdityaSinha-s6m that's for you, but I'm a useless a don't have any talent, I'm not smart I'm not athletic, I'm nothing
@imtryingtobebetter16754 жыл бұрын
@@AdityaSinha-s6m I have so many regrets in my life, I'm a failure, I'm a worthless, I'm a talentless, I wish I can donate my life to someone.
@AdityaSinha-s6m3 жыл бұрын
@@imtryingtobebetter1675 I will just say be careful what you wish for ....... [I am assuming you aren't specially abled ] You only get one life and donating it ...... not the best thing to do I guess
here if u want sing along with me ~~ Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa umineko ga sanbashi de naita kara Nami no manima ni ukande kieru kako mo tsuibande tondeyuke Boku ga shinou to omotto no wa tanjoubi ni anzu no hana ga saita kara Sono komorebi de utatane shitara mushi no shigai to tsuchi ni nareru kana Hakka-ame gyokou no toudai sabita AACHI kyou suteta jitensha Mokuzou no eki no SUTOOPU no mae de doko ni mo tabidatenai kokoro Kyou wa marude kinou mitai da asu wo kaeru nara kyou wo kaenakya Wakatteru wakatteru keredo Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa kokoro ga karappo ni natta kara Mitasarenai to naiteiru no wa kitto mitasaretai to negau kara Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa kutsuhimo ga hodoketa kara Musubinaosu no wa nigate nanda yo hito to no tsunagari mo mata shikari Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa shounen ga boku wo mitsumeteita kara BEEDO no ue de dogeza shiteru yo ano hi no boku ni gomennasai to PASOKON no usuakari joukai no heya no seikatsu on INTAAFON no CHAIMU no oto mimi wo fusagu torikago no shounen Mienai teki to tatakatteru rokujou hitoma no DONKI HOOTE GOORU wa dousei minikui mono sa Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa tsumetai hito to iwareta kara Aisaretai to naiteiru no wa hito no nukumori wo shitte shimatta kara Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa anata ga kirei ni warau kara Shinu koto bakari kangaete shimau no wa kitto ikiru koto ni majimesugiru kara Boku ga shinou to omotta no wa mada anata ni deattenakatta kara Anata no you na hito ga umareta sekai wo sukoshi suki ni natta yo Anata no you na hito ga ikiteru sekai ni sukoshi kitai suru yo
@Nepo.Potshangbam4 жыл бұрын
Naa they are pretty squiggly. It's like trying to pick up a messed egg yolk from the floor by hands only. You dumbass bitch 🙄
I really love how the song starts with irrelevant things that don't usually bother people but for some people like us they do and as we go deeper into the song we realize that there is so much more than what meets the eye
@sailorlemon79205 жыл бұрын
@Amber Nielsen yup :')
@unoki994 жыл бұрын
The beginning is supposed to reflect how depression works. How depression makes one unable to see the beauty in something despite being right in front of ones eyes :)
@sailorlemon79204 жыл бұрын
@@unoki99 yup that's so true, you probably explained it better than me ☺
@michelepiocurci79244 жыл бұрын
@@unoki99 thanks for the info
@傅永威-o4d4 жыл бұрын
Quick fact: the writer of this song is 秋田ひろむ(Hiromu Akita)
@tashiataslim4 жыл бұрын
"The reason I wanted to die Was that my shoelace had come untied I was never really that good at re-tying them My relationship with others are the same way, too" This hits me hard. I'm suck at mantaining social relationship. I'm bad at being the first person to start the conversation. I can't even be an open person to my friends. They ended up making a new friend who can give more insteresting conversations. Deep inside I cared for them, but I couldn't brave enough to tell them. I always listened to their stories, but I couldn't even share mine. I was afraid that I might burden them. Maybe they thought I couldn't trust them, and that's why they left. I'm alone, and I think it's fine until I found this song. Deep inside, I'm not really fine...
@user-tl6lo9fl7w4 жыл бұрын
I think I found my twin :o
@user-tl6lo9fl7w4 жыл бұрын
😭
@nwull4394 жыл бұрын
I feel you 🥺
@ilivetoeat96174 жыл бұрын
I feel the same way 😭😭😭 when they move on with other friends, I convinced myself I'm fine on my own.
@jakel9394 жыл бұрын
uhm whenever people complain at not being able to stay in touch with friends i just laugh , sorry but i can’t feel sorry for you for being a douchebag 😂
When I look up the lyric, I try to connect each situation after she sing , "The reason I wanted to die." and I can't find any correlation at all. Then I realize it's not about someone's sadness or depression. It is about everyone's. Sometimes, people wanted to die because they faced failure, losed someone dear to them or simply because they are live too seriously. Rather than judging and saying, " I have harder problems than you.". This song tries to embrace everyone's worry and said it's okay not to be okay. Such a beautiful and comforting song...
@sberryundcig29673 жыл бұрын
thank you
@nottsoserious3 жыл бұрын
Sometimes you have no fucking idea why you're sad. You ask yourself "what went wrong?" and the only person you can blame is yourself. You can't explain yourself to anyone. You try to search for reasons. "Maybe it's because X or Y" but deep down, you know that those things can be fixed, and those things might not matter in the long run. The real reason is because you don't like yourself and you don't wanna be yourself. I think that's what this song represents. A depression coming from self-blame that people try to find reasons for, but can't.
@JCAllen-xx5yj3 жыл бұрын
Just like the anime, which makes total sense. The best storyline I've watched so far.
@yohaneswilly16974 жыл бұрын
This is not a song of depression or whatsoever I think this is a song of hope! A certain hope that somehow everything will fall in place We all living through the same time and space We are fighting to make a relationship works Although the future seems bleak, yet at the very least... I want to acknowledge that I am still living today... kind of achievement I must be proud of
@ferrusol19954 жыл бұрын
No wait, he got a good point
@demoncloud61474 жыл бұрын
Total Otaku Hikikomori life song ! Yah that's me but I don't want to die. As long as you are alive good things will eventually happen (along with bad and hopeless things, of course ! )
@kennyc0024 жыл бұрын
This is a song about the past. It is in past tense, after all. Then again it never really goes away.
@mercyxenpai48774 жыл бұрын
I kept waiting, for someone that doesn't exist
@Brace-y1o4 жыл бұрын
same here😭😭😭😭
@sasichakarnjanaumpol6624 жыл бұрын
Other people: the person I love doesn’t even know I exist Me: the person I love doesn’t even exist
@xe51014 жыл бұрын
That Never Exist*
@alexandraivanova39054 жыл бұрын
Xe wut..
@ななみとうこ-b3x4 жыл бұрын
maybe your someone is waiting for you. hope you find each other.
I feel like I’m about to cry as I listen to this song and see everyone’s comments and there stories. I feel so grateful and I wish life for everyone gets better.
@saberatoriafate71364 жыл бұрын
Same the comments are there the ones that got to my heart and I felt the emotion
@lumi50563 жыл бұрын
4 phases of growing up 1st: being a carefree kid 2nd: wanting to be awarded for what u did 3rd: puberty hits and u dont want anyone to control what u want and dont want to do 4th: tired of living alr and just want to sleep forever
@widyakim92245 жыл бұрын
"The reason I want to die, is that I hadn't met you yet ! If the world has people like you in it, then I have a little more hope for the world" Yeh...true
@user-liaoann5 жыл бұрын
PrayForKyoani 京阿尼加油
@johnwinchester85376 жыл бұрын
Japanese Name: Boku ga Shinou to Omotta no Wa (僕が死のうと思ったのは) English Name: The Reason Why I Thought I'd Die / AKA: The Reason I Wanted To Die Here's the English Lyrics: ~Enjoy~ -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The reason why I thought I'd die is because black-tailed gulls chirped on a pier Appeared and disappeared drifting on the waves, flying away and picking my past as they go The reason why I thought I'd die is because apricot blossoms bloomed on my birthday Can I become the soil with dead bugs if I nap under the sunbeams filtering through foliage? Mint candy, lighthouse at a fishing port, rusty arch bridge, abandoned bicycle In front of a stove at a wooden station house, my heart can't set out anywhere Today looks like yesterday, if we wanna change tomorrow we should change today I know, I know... but... The reason why I thought I'd die is because my heart went blank The reason why I cry over being unsatisfied is surely because I wanna be satisfied The reason why I thought I'd die is because the shoelace got undone I'm not good at connecting things together, the same goes with human relationships The reason why I thought I'd die is because the boy was gazing at me I'm getting down on my knees on a bed to apologize to myself on that day Dim-light of a computer, sounds of life coming from upstairs Sounds of interphone chimes, boy covering his ears in a birdcage Don Quixote who's fighting with an invisible enemy in a six-mat room Goal must be ugly anyway The reason why I thought I'd die is because I was called a cold person The reason why I cry for being loved is because I've got to learn the warmth of others The reason why I thought I'd die is because of your gentle laugh The reason why I only consider dying is because I am way too serious to live on The reason why I thought I'd die is because I hadn't met you yet I fell in love with this world a little more where people like you were born I will place my hope in this world a little bit where people like you are alive.
@MarcosBarbosa315 жыл бұрын
Isn't this song from Amazarashi? Or am I mistaken?