VLOG | Losing Motivation, Feeling Flat & Some Garden Time

[@sonjawick_]

Can I say I love the calmness of your vlogs. Not much music going on, just super natural and aesthetic. And thanks for showing yourself so vulnerable - that's brave and simply wonderful.

[@ameliagoldie2571]

You know it's funny.. as someone who also does instagram I have come across your account many times and thought "what a beautiful house, nice partner, nice clothes etc" and get into a comparison cycle. Then I get comments saying the same thing to me like "wish I had your clothes" or "wish I was you" which makes me feel sad because I realise we are never fully content with what we have and the cycle is totally real. You're feeling the comparison while i'm looking at you feeling the same and so on. It's almost nice to know we all do it, but also that we all have something we should be grateful for. Thanks Brittany, hope you're doing well x

[@cynthiatorres7520]

I can relate so much to this! As a student reaching the end of the semester, I have found it EXTREMELY difficult to truly focus and find a work flow to finish all my work. I am avoiding to write a paper now because I just don't want to do it or don't find the motivation to do so. I just hope that there are better time ahead X.

[@johannahagenmeyer3904]

so happy you are back to weekly vlogging! :))

[@BrittanyBathgate1]

Thank you! I'm glad you're enjoying them so far :)

[@reeseferguson2678]

Watching this months later at the end of December. Because the title resonated with me and helped me identify exactly how I am feeling this week. Thank you for expressing your feelings. I absolutely relate and you are so not in these feelings alone.

[@brookewilson5296]

"that didn't happen" story of my lockdown

[@Angela-hg5ss]

Thank you so much for such an honest and pure vlog, it's so amazing how by sharing truthfully low emotions and moments you're able to brighten up and give comfort to some of us. :) I have also been feeling low, unmotivated to complete anything these days, and unable to figure out exactly why... But it's a new week and I hope for the best. Hope you also have a brighter week. Thank you, really enjoy your vlogs xx

[@dominiquecodjia]

i'm a film major and was so excited to hear you talking about korean films! the host and train to busan are amazing

[@TheCarrybee]

Loveing it when you are talking about running 🏃‍♀️

[@the-invisiblethread]

Every week I look forward to your videos ever since you started your channel. I just wanted to thank you for sharing a little bit of you and please know that you’re not alone in this! I’m a sophomore fashion student in the US and this time has been really traumatizing in a lot of ways but at the same time I feel thankful for health and for being able to be home (I live in the dorms). So thank you so much 🤍🕊 hope to see many of your vlogs in the future!

[@persephonescurse]

This was a lovely surprise for my Monday morning. I feel like so much of what you shared is spot on to how I’ve been feeling, esp the stuff about getting too in your head and comparing yourself to others. That’s why I find these moments of honest reflection so heartening, I think feeling less alone in our experiences helps us to cope with them better. Hope you feel better this week (but it’s okay if you don’t too) x

[@jennny926]

Please do more videos Brittany. Your videos are so therapeutic. Love love love!

[@BrittanyBathgate1]

Thank you so much, I will try my best :)

[@jaidepoppy]

It’s such a hard battle that I also face with so many ups and downs. I totally agree and I also try to focus and concentrate on the small positives to get me through. Recently I’ve not been going outside enough and spending too much time on Instagram, which I’m hoping to change next week. Absolutely loving your vlogs 💖 sending you love and wishing you health xxx

[@mistlight9966]

I absolutely adored this vlog, not only it was very real and relatable, but It's just so good to see peoples daily life right now. I feel very similar feelings, ups and downs within a few hours and sometimes it's hard to accept them. lots of love

[@saramoosa]

This has been a flat week for me as well. I think collectively this is all taking a toll. Thanks for always being so authentic in your videos!

[@kirbyrose1299]

I just discovered you this morning:) I absolutely LOVE watching your videos. Love your style, your honesty, you & Dean and the girls meeting via video every week:) I’m in Los Angeles so your a breath of fresh air. Please don’t be so hard on yourself... your a delight in my time of lockdown haha stay safe & remember we’re all in this together💞

[@carmenwalters3029]

so glad to be having vlogs again!

[@anenby]

I really enjoy watching these, although not that full of action. Makes me feel like I’m hanging out with a likeminded friend while being in the same frustrated situation

[@BrittanyBathgate1]

Thank you, this is so lovely to hear!

[@kara914]

2 videos in a week? WE HAVE BEEN BLESSED.

[@clQss]

hi Brittany I discovered your channel about 3 weeks ago and first watched your last uploaded vlogs. since I really liked the style of your vlogs, the content and you as a person I now started the vlogs from the beginning (started with "turning 30") and it's just giving me such calmness and also inspiration. just everything you own or do seems to tickle something in me. also, you are so well articulated and I am a sucker for all the nicely put words :D love all your vlogs, keep making them

[@jackiemaloney3263]

It’s great your so honest about things ♥️ hope you have a better week x

[@lujanealqaoud6525]

Been following you on instagram for a while and this is the first Ive seen of you on youtube and I have to say Im glad you decided to upload the vlog as is. Hearing you talk about wanting to get around to doing things and struggling is something that I feel like everyones going through right now and seeing that or rather more specifically, hearing u talk about it is so refreshing. It an honest depiction of what life looks like right now and I hope you keep uploading! hope this next week is better and easier for you💙💙

[@katemeyler7213]

Still love seeing your vlogs - have had a flat/less productive week this week too! Hope you have a better week next week xx

[@iamnotanacrobat]

I hope this week will be a better one for you! I think it is important to be gentle with yourself at the moment. Don't put too much pressure on yourself and just do the things you enjoy. Enjoyed the vlog as always! :)

[@fabjonahaliti6091]

I am so glad to see the notification for your upload!! xx

[@aeme5549]

I enjoyed this so much Brittany! The constant up and downs and the reality of it all. Fortunate to still have a job but similar to you by Wednesday it really feels like I'm dragging myself to make it through the week. Sending you some warmth and light! Love from Boston xx

[@BenjaminGreen]

I am loving your vlogs so much - always have but have been really looking forward to these lately! Please keep sharing!

[@belindabarbour382]

Battle Royale, the book, the movie...yes!

[@edelbutler8027]

Thank you for being so honest. I also work from home and have found the situation so similar, I just can't seem to motivate myself and focus and I also cannot read at the moment!

[@brigittekrause3944]

Honestly never comment, but thank you so much for sharing this video. I relate to so much you said, I have those daily ups and downs, struggle really with my mental health esp. the last 2 weeks and it all just sounds familiar. I also feel the pressure at the beginning of the week is there and then by the end of the week it´s just a struggle. so thank you for voicing it. xx

[@1000fm1]

Can you do a makeup and haircare and candle video? Basically, all of the lovely beauty stuff. Would love to see

[@BrittanyBathgate1]

Of course! :)

[@vd9015]

Thanks for sharing a super honest, ‘as is’ type of vlog. Having felt real slumps in motivation to actually do things I’ve set out for myself each week and day, I’ve been wondering if it’s just me...but it feels like a lot of us are feeling this way and it’s completely normal as we navigate through this weird bit of time! Sending positive thoughts your way!

[@jnws8380]

Always love your vlogs! And your Home - OMG. Gives me sooo much inspiration. I love your sense of art and style in general.

[@caitlinbell9575]

So enjoying watching your videos again, thank you for sharing with us !

[@annacrowley828]

the scenes with the horses made me so happy! totally feel you on the lack of motivation part. I hope you've been able to ease some of the pressure to be productive this week xo

[@BrittanyBathgate1]

Seeing the horses and other animals on my run is such a tonic! I'm glad you enjoyed. Fingers crossed we all have a better week this week. x

[@caterinasosso]

Happy to see you again! I’ve been through ups and downs too, especially with my social media... it’s refreshing to hear I’m not the only one. xx

[@ShakkIsLife]

i just came across your channel from your previous vlog and i have to say, they are incredibly relaxing to watch and definitely uplift my spirit :) i hope you're feeling better!!!

[@elissahum6022]

Always love your vlogs. It'd be really interesting if you incorporated a segment in your next vlog talking about your tattoos! Take care xx

[@sarahbrowne2532]

So pleasantly surprised to see another vlog up from you! They’re just so lovely and almost therapeutic to watch. Thank you for sharing your ups and downs with us x

[@vmceccato]

I’m really happy to see you vlogging again!

[@alysia.james.]

I've just discovered your channel and I really love it - these vlogs are super relatable and real and I appreciate it! 💛

[@martina-anne889]

thank you Brittany, this is so easy to relate! I always admire you for your style, would love to see more vlogs from you 🤍

[@BrittanyBathgate1]

Thank you :) I will try my best to keep vlogging. x

[@JessStep84]

Really captured my current mood in this vlog. Struggling so much with motivation as lockdown (necessary as it is) drags on.

[@HardKoRupTioN]

As someone suffering with MDD and lots of anxiety disorders, I also struggle with the pressure this situation is putting on our shoulders. I am a MA student and have lots and lots to do, but I find myself disappointed at the end of every week because I didn't do 1/10th of what I was supposed to do/decided to accomplish, and always come to the sad conclusion it's already been SO MANY WEEKS of me being unproductive and not being able to accomplish anything good (time has been flying really oddly for the last couple months if I might say...). Seeing this vlog, and reading through the comment section, has been really comforting for me, because I realized that it's just not me being 'not as productive as I want/need myself to be', but that it is more like a general state of mind considering the reality we're all living at the moment. So I felt quite relieved after seeing what a typical week for someone as important and influent as you on social medias looks like right now, and I will try from now on not to beat myself up so much when I don't feel like it, when I feel like it's a 'day without it' (un 'jour sans' as we say in French). Thank you very much for that, it helped me put a lot of things into perspective. PS : I sincerely LOVE your vlogs (as much as I love your aesthetics on instagram i.e.), you are so honest and true to yourself, and it's such a breath of fresh air to see someone like you out there, because your simplicity and your sincerity actually help me NOT comparing myself so much with other people on the internet. Thanks a lot for everything.

[@BrittanyBathgate1]

I really felt this comment! Everything you've said here I completely relate to. I also have a habit of looking back on time and getting overwhelmed by how much time has passed and how little I've done with that time, which then, in turn, makes me feel even worse. It's a tough cycle to break! I'm so glad to hear you have found some comfort in the comments, I was sat reading through some of them the other day after having quite a low one and had a little cry, not a bad cry, but a good cry I guess?! Because I felt so touched by all of these responses and how many of us are having the EXACT same feelings at the moment. Makes you feel less alone, right?! Sending you lots of love! xxx

[@xchristine8700]

It is a battle day to day for sure, I love how real you are in these vlogs. Keep your head up, I have similar feelings too. Much love xox

[@ZohraMaura]

Would love to hear more from you on running. It seems like loads more folk are getting into it during lockdown. Xx

[@wonderfab3440]

I understand you very well about running. I'm planning to start over again after two years of stop due to laziness basically. But, of all the sports I've tried, I find it being the only excercise that allow me to shut down my head and just go on with an empty mind. I'm waiting for my new shoes to arrive and then....I'll start. Really looking forward! And for these hard times....don't push yourself: I wanted to do a lot of stuff like reading, cooking, watching movies....I did nothing. And it's fine too. :) Lots of love!!!

[@akuaand]

I'm only at the beginning of this vlog, but I definitely recommend completely ignoring the news. I haven't looked at the news since lockdown began (and honestly I hardly look at the news anyway) because you absolutely get told anything important by friends and family anyway. I haven't missed out on anything necessary because *someone* always tells me. And it really saves my mental health to not see all the stressful notifications all day - highly recommend it

[@fatmaely1836]

you don'y have to worry....i think we all teary in situation like this... its normal.. i live in Manhattan.. so there were time that i cried almost every single night because the constant siren. this too shall pass..love your vlog as always. take care and stay safe. X From New York

[@matocv]

Yay for Japanese cinema 🤘🏻 and yes, that Uniqlo shirt is splendid. I have them in several colors 🧡

[@maxinerobson5336]

New subscriber here! I’ve felt the same in the lead up to Boris’ Downing St briefing, and for exactly the same reasons. You captured the mood in a nutshell, though; ebbs and flows. I’m finding a routine comforting and am boosted by being able to get out twice a day into nature. Time to count our blessings, I think. Sending warm wishes. x

[@MH-yu7gw]

Love Train to Busan. Also try The Handmaiden (2016). Really good. Thanks as always for the lovely vlog🌸🌷🌸

[@flyalicia]

Aaaaaaall the feels, girl!

[@benediktetryhou3286]

Just thank you for the vlog!!!

[@aasuncion]

May I ask where you got your transparent carafe/drinking glasses? I love it!

[@megcormack681]

Thank you for posting this ~

[@dAuriaVlogs]

Unsure if it doesn't matter what ripeness bananas are at, that make you feel ill... I was the same way about bananas until I started ripening them quiiiiiite a lot and peel and break them up into 1-inch pieces and keep a giant tub in the freezer which doubles in that they make smoothies ultra dreamy-creamy! The less ripe the higher likelihood of cramping for me.

[@alexandran2173]

Apparently frozen zucchini is a really good replacement for bananas in smoothies! It makes them thicker/creamier

[@aglaiagarcia]

Love your vlogs so much. 💙🙌🏽

[@marpacar]

I love winding down to your videos! Really inspiring and soothing! I am trying to find the smoothie recipe as it sounded amazing! Would you mind linking it for me please? Thank you so much! Xx

[@_giraffed]

loved this vlog, i also feel the same as you! i bought the uniqlo U white t shirt in S and I liked the thickness even though the glosy finish kinda bothered me.. first time i washed it at 30 degrees as I do all my clothes it shrank.... which is crazy as it's 100% cotton and this has never happened to any of my other clothes

[@aasuncion]

Okay, I love films! Train to Busan and Parasite are two of the best! I’ll suggest for you to watch Gonjiam, korean horror. I love it as well!

[@Juliasagirova]

so happy you uploaded this vlog

[@alexandra6864]

I honestly find the news fear mongering here in the US so I just completely tune out of it. Not worth it I think to have extra stress and anxiety because of it. Praying that positive change is coming soon🤞🏼

[@0ona]

damn that pony really has some boots with the fur

[@fru_si]

💗💗💗💗💗💕💕💕💕💕💕💕 please never stop vlogging 🥰

[@francesbrian2999]

Lovely video as always. The Row sandals have become more comfortable? I just ordered a pair but had seen you and others had said they were pretty miserable comfort wise. Would love to know how long that all took and if you think they are worth the hefty price tag??? Thank you! Have a great week!

[@hannahgodlewski3074]

Where a the cream denim shorts from?! Look like the perfect pair I've been trying to hunt down

[@maryn9167]

You have amazing lashes 😍 do you use anything special to keep them long and healthy?

[@aliaelborai]

Hi :) Is it possible to know where the off white shorts are from? Such a perfect fit xx

[@lyndseynorman9366]

Good tip, subscribe to the government updates. That way you get an email when there's something you need to know, and you can avoid the news. Avoid the news at all costs!!

[@Heptunee]

oooo im happy that you liked korean films :)

[@markdavidchapman2866]

Goodness me, such a coincidence! I have it on good authority that Ken Dodd used to reside at your address in the early eighties. I know the area well, Brittany!

[@taylorjean1163]

Watch Okja!!!! It’s by bong joon ho, and it’s amazing! it’s more light hearted.

[@pinotcolada6453]

31:30 both films you mentioned are korean films ! You can find more director bong's film on Netflix ❤️

[@psb4799]

What are your thoughts on California so far? Worth reading?

[@Yayaataa]

Watch Shoplifters by Kore-eda. It's one of my favourite movies

[@natural91LC]

what blush did you use at the beginning? :-)

[@goldenhair1981]

Don't read the newspapers/news Brittany. Just follow the science, the real science

[@Amanda-fo2js]

But where is that nice white top around 22:17 from? :)

[@giginacho6896]

Love your hair colour you are so lucky. Is that your natural colour ?

[@BrittanyBathgate1]

Thank you! The top half is yes, the bottom half is left over bleach.

[@sofyaCOLOUR]

I know one really great nutritionist in instagram, she is against bananas and makes different kind of menus with smoothies in it. The problem is that she makes all of them in russian, but she was studying in Oxford, so I guess it won't be hard for her make recipes in english. Her name in instagram is 'avocadosasha', hope it will help you to vary your smoothie life :)

[@BrittanyBathgate1]

ooh thank you for this! I will check her out :)

[@charlottetummillo9198]

use mango instead of banana or avocado as your smoothie base

[@baov187]

is there an australia part three?

[@BrittanyBathgate1]

Yes! I'm going to work on it this week.

[@baov187]

@@BrittanyBathgate1 yes!! can't wait!!

[@SarahEllenTreacher]

The news freaks me out too! I've decided to just ignore and stop watching it. I know that makes me more unaware and oblivious to numbers and facts of the current situation. It's just more beneficial to me and my mental health. The majority of the news is fake news anyway and it's scaremongering. Hope you're feeling better xxx

[@arthurphilip743]

Has anyone ever said that you look like Lady Edith Crawley ?

[@bukonla]

I gave up on the news. It's so repetitive. Maybe you could work on your website? Lock down might be a good to for it.

[@dace8828]

gosh you have great legs