VLOG: Sharing Some Struggles + Fears, EXCITING Mail Time Unboxing, Fancy Events + Health Update

[@starbyheart]

There is a quote that goes “there is no such thing as being overdressed or overeducated” and I live by it ❤️

[@Chrisplainjane]

I would find another seamstress because minor alterations shouldn’t be $50-75. I have things adjusted all the time & it starts at $5 for buttons & goes up to $200 depending on what is being done. Always reasonable. Shop around for another seamstress.

[@stephieme]

This!! I live in a super expensive area, and minor alterations run $10-$20 per piece here, unless you're getting a lot of fabric added- that's more. But taking in the waist of a skirt should be under $20 for sure, probably cheaper in Texas.

[@jeanneewaseck6635]

Yeahhhh .... I thought this was OUTRAGEOUS! A simple Google search shows a boatload in the Austin area, so yeahhh ...

[@mrscade_435]

Yes! I was floored when she said that! That’s also why I learned to sew, most minor alterations can be done quickly at home with very basic skill!

[@MM-kx9ue]

So true is too much!

[@azilizc]

This. I recommend looking for a place owned by immigrants (don't @ me, I am also an immigrant). The owners/workers are usually friendly, the turnaround isn't as long as other alteration places, and the prices are usually reasonable.

[@elecops9825]

It's always better to be overdressed! If life doesn't give you an occasion to dress up, then you'll just have to make your own one 😁

[@surfchick4822]

When you said you were going to ask the therapist “Is this normal?” I wanted to reach into the screen and give you a hug! Don’t worry about “normal”. The real question should be “Am I processing these emotions in a way that is healthy and productive for me?”

[@RachelKay528]

A suggestion for Max when it's too hot for walks - treat puzzles are great mental stimulation (which can sometimes tire them out more than physical exercise) 😊

[@bregieirofernandes]

I had that same feeling about finally being happy and being afraid to lose it. My therapist helped by pointing out that I was thinking the worst case scenario would happen, when there’s plenty of other possibilities and also that I was completely unprepared to face whatever happened, which is also not true. She called this line of thinking catastrophization.

[@mikalabrown5206]

When it’s hot, or in my case since I live in Maine too cold, I give my dog brain puzzles. A few minutes of brain work is the equivalent of 30-60 minutes of physical exercise. You can use cups and hide treats under them or make a little indoor obstacle course, teach him a new trick or two or the plastic puzzle games that you hide treats in are great too. My favorite is actually putting training treats in a blanket by folding it in thirds and then you tie it loosely so they have to undo it with their paws and teeth. My dog loves it!

[@mt9142]

Yes I recognize the feeling of being scared to be happy again. So scared that I even unconsiously tried to sabotage it. It took a lot of time and self development. Thank you for being so transparant!

[@ericatenney3748]

I get anxiety starting my week or sometimes days and when I do I click your videos. You inspire and encourage me to tackle my day head on. Thank you for sharing your bad with your good, it helps me not to feel alone. Truly so grateful for finding you!

[@user-ajmt]

Dog mom here that used to live in AZ. It's not easy, but I hired a dog walker to walk my dog super early in the morning. I'm not a morning person(as early as you need to get up to easily the dog) & had to get ready for work. It was so worth it to get him a good walk before it burned his little paws!

[@rosilindbennet9543]

Max is small enough to where you can have him run around the apartment or your storage unit. I'm in NYC and live in a studio and I manage with my 80 pound rottie/ german shepherd mix. Someone's already suggested a Kong ball but also get puzzle feeder toys. Sometimes just walking your dog doesn't allow them to really get that energy out. Puzzle feeders,forage mats and the like get help with that extra energy. Max is a cutie.

[@rollinggstonee]

i hope you can share more vids of other areas in Texas, restaurants, shopping, coffee. aside from the touristy places, which you do already. my fave is when you find places mentioning how they’re “off the beaten path” away from the hustle and bustle. those are always the best places!! i love your state and hope to visit more often! i love all the coffee shops you share in every video! keep it coming!! 💛

[@MyCarnivoreKitchen]

Keep on being happy and enjoying life, Michel! It’s great seeing you genuinely happy. As for the hot days for doggies, definitely find a doggie daycare. Max will have fun with the other doggies and some places do grooming and daycare. My high energy Poochon loves his playtime. Congratulations on 150k!!!

[@MichelJanse]

Love this idea! Thank you 🥹🤍

[@shannonsouthard8553]

2 tips for finding a seamstress- ask at local dry cleaners to hem pants and skirts or if you have a friends mom or grandma that sews, ask them (that generation sewed all of their own clothes). Basic hems can pretty much be done by anyone, but reconstruction or major modification requires more time, which raises the cost.

[@natallietravers3371]

I definitely get what you’re talking about in the coffee chat. It’s scary to realize what we could loose if things go wrong. What I’ve found to help me is to not stop my thoughts at ‘so much could go wrong and I could fall so far rn’ but continue to add ‘but I know even if that does happen I could get myself back up. And it probably won’t happen bc I’m making better decisions for a better future for myself’. Never let a thought end on a negative note !

[@sandieneff1613]

You are an amazing Soul. I am full of admiration for you and how you so bravely navigate through life in such a rich and wholesome way. Bless you and all you love. Jordy is gorgeous and you are beautiful together. Wishing you the very best for your future. You deserve it! Love from Ireland x

[@tinad4182]

You’re hanging up on us for Jordy, I see how it is! 😂 Omg, how I love that so much!!! Michel, your happiness brings me so much joy 😉

[@artbyduck-darlenegillet1935]

I think that once a person goes through such a devastating hurt/loss when a marriage break up, that person becomes very warry of being hurt again. Once hurt, twice shy. Truthfully, it has been less then a year since the break-up so it is completely normal for you to be feeling just that way. Give yourself time, enjoy the good, talking will help.

[@ginistewart9636]

Max is wanting a lot of mommy-time! He's so cute! Love that dress and scrappy shoes!

[@mooremindfulmoments6599]

Yes would love to hear your experience with therapy! Not necessarily the details but maybe lessons your learning from your personality & behavior & habits! Also it’s very normal to be nervous about good things Brene brown calls it foreboding joy.

[@denalij.lathrop]

i support rapid fire unboxing things in vlogs. i started following you years ago because of subscription boxes, but i think rapid fire unboxing in vlogs is what's best for you now. or here's an idea for a video: intro/making coffee/breakfast, a lil chat, unboxing (whether it's like 3-5 subscription boxes or pr unboxing), and then taking us grocery shopping/to the farmer's market.

[@kaitlync.2628]

Hi Michel, I know exactly what you mean about being afraid to be happy. I felt that way for a long time. What helped me was to remind myself that most of the things we’re afraid of probably aren’t going to happen. And if/when some do, God will be with you. Nothing can happen bad enough that he won’t. Hope that helps! 😊

[@BrandiN323]

I am not a dog expert, but I've read that mentally exercising them by training them or working with them with tricks they already know can help them get energy out so that may be a good idea in addition to playing indoors! Loved the mail time!

[@morganadvantures]

Mental exercise is great! I also mentally exercise mine by giving them treat puzzle toys where they have to work to get the treats.

[@LashonDCampbell]

Good morning I just finished watching your video. Very nice. You did a great job. I loved every minute. You have a lovely channel.

[@hettiegrubbs]

As a fellow Texas dog mom I take my Oreo for a walk at 6am. Anything before 8am is still pretty cool and there is nothing that builds communication and trust quit like going for a walk together, for people and dogs. I also follow the dog trainer, Zach George, on KZbin and he has a lot of great simple tricks that challenge dogs mentally and again, build communication. Those are both free and a great pay option is daycare, which can be really awesome for a friendly, energetic dog. I have some friends who take their dog to daycare every Saturday and while they are out shopping and running errands they know that their little pooch is having the time of his life and when they all get home he is so happy and tired and content. Thanks for the great videos and good luck with little Max!

[@stellashepherd3229]

Here’s a thought from a dog mom and one time dog trainer. I had two Golden retrievers who’s father died of heat stroke so I had to be very careful. I could take them swimming, which may not work for Max, but I also did AGILITY with my dogs. Not formal or competitive, just fun. You might look to see if an air conditioned dog training facility offers something like that. Also mental stimulation is also good for dogs and helping them feel more fulfilled (less anxious) when physical exercise isn’t recommended or possible. Look into something called clicker training. This is great for teaching tricks and having a dog really focus and use their minds. Play is also good but combined with training it takes it to the next level as far as a happy fulfilled dog. Good luck! 🐶💗

[@andreas_adventures]

A tip for taking your dog out when it's hot: stores that allow dogs. My parents live in the midwest where it's super cold and in the winter they will occasionally walk their dog around Bass Pro.

[@pmclaughlin4111]

Oh! Love a video combining your nutrition degree, food love, and health/lifestyle

[@MichelJanse]

🥹🥰🥹🥰

[@Kaibigan39]

Stress depletes B12 too and Michel just came through an abusive relationship and divorce. It can take a toll on a body and may be a year or so before things are on the upswing. Keep taking care of yourself, hun!

[@meganlauver8698]

Would love to see you doing subscription box unboxings again I loved watching them but I understand needing to figure out if you want to do that! ❤️

[@valerielinares2068]

I'm a dog mom. Where I live, it gets SUPER hot. For the last few days, and for the next few days, it has been/will be 110+. My dogs are a little older, so they can take naps for most of the day. But. I do take them just outside in the closest shade for them to go potty. I even carry them to the shade if I have to. Do not feel bad as a dog mom to not take your dogs out. It's too hot for them. You're being a good dog mom to keep them inside when it's too hot out.

[@HockeyDudet]

Yay Michel!! Therapy has changed my life for the better and provided me with so many tools that I can use on my own, too. Just like sadness and anger and all the other emotions, happiness is also fleeting - I’m trying lately to strive for peace and contentment, while also appreciating the super happy moments. It’s SUCH a journey. 😊

[@Clovergirl7934]

I’m so happy you are staying close to God. Bible studies can bring you to revelations He needs you to hear. The lessons hit so close to home and end up being just what you need to encourage you.

[@LStottmann]

Michel, after my horrible break up, I allowed myself to stay in the “down” spot for too long because I was scared of being “on top” again too. I think there’s a healthy median. Even though it would hurt to fall down again and have bad things happen, the good thing you now know that you didn’t before is that you will get back up once again and that good things are around the corner again and again and again, no matter how many times bad things happen. Not allowing yourself to be fully present in the good season is a disservice to yourself and the girl that fought hard to get there (easier said than done) but don’t be fearful, good and bad things will always happen. Soak up this awesome season!! And also, I have a 10 year old beagle and I can only take him up the street in my 100 degree weather here. I take him morning and night. Maybe two 15 minute walks. Love the vlog!

[@elecops9825]

The black one shoulder top looks so pretty! I like the first chequered skirt too

[@MichelJanse]

Thank you, it’s so fun to play with new styles!

[@lisak603]

If I don’t remember to take my Seed probiotics, I notice a HUGE difference. My skin cleared up and my stomach felt so much better when I was regularly remembering. Best thing I’ve found this year! Thanks, Michel!

[@MichelJanse]

I notice the same things!!!! I hardly ever feel bloated anymore which is my FAVORITE improvement of them all!

[@elizabethhansen8598]

I am in the same boat with my dog! Do lots of enrichment and puzzles indoors. 10 minutes of mental enrichment can be the equivalent of 1 hour of physical play for pups.

[@tahliawaddle2631]

It’s such a sweet part of my day when you post. It always feels like catching up with a friend💕

[@atlanticmind]

When we can't get our pup outside enough, we use puzzles! We love the Nina Ottenson ones for him, and working his brain helps get some energy out.

[@lorah.5499]

“Okay, good night” 😄love love love that part😂❤️so happy to see you happy!!!

[@carissadallke1345]

Same!

[@lanyebarnick8410]

My hubby heard you talking and asked me how your staff infection is on your nose and told him its all cleared up. When he hears you talking he always says in a Texan twang "I FRIENDS HOW ARE YA" its super cute! He said to me today you should like your a lot happier and we are both proud of you for hitting 150k keep on keeping on girlfriend!

[@victoriaharrington3639]

Catching up on your videos today, and just watched your coffee chat….. I have never felt more seen in that moment. Literally went through hell back in early 2019, and then a year later had my life change (for the better), and ever since have struggled with similar thoughts as you….. I’m like… scared to be happy because I was so used to terrible things happening and me just making bad choices in my life, but because of that was afraid to accept that good could happen. And if good things happened (which they did, and are), I was just gonna lose it all….. it’s better now, but I still struggle with those thoughts. Not sure how to fully heal from them/if it’s even possible to do so, but yeah. Totally relate to you. Thank you for sharing and providing a safe space to share. ♥️ Also side note, I LOVE TORCHYS - I’m in Oklahoma and we have a couple locations. So good 🔥

[@tammyjones6779]

Hi michel. Congratulations on the new 150k. Go on your walks with Max's in early morning..... before it gets to hot. I am very proud of you. Keep up great work.

[@sarenag3679]

We taught our dog to walk on the treadmill. It worked really well! We had the opposite problem-lots of snowy cold months so to protect her feet, we used the treadmill. ♥️

[@jessibalestrieri8751]

The treadmill will psychologically stimulate him, which is just as important, if not more important, than that physical stimulation he needs that you’re seeking to fulfill! He will have to focus and use his brain much more than on a regular walk. My mom is a dog trainer, and she gave me this advice. Hope it helps! Love you Michel!

[@Meekavintage]

You're DOING GREAT GIRLIE is so COMMON to self sabotage..scary to let yourself be happy.after being hurt especially and it actually takes work .YOU going OUT & BEING AROUND GOOD PEOPLE DOING GOOD THINGS is such a great way to fight off those negative thoughts & energy.it.makes you make yourself be accountable so YOU ARE WORKING ON IT EVERYDAY...you will want to complete your tasks and goals because people will ask how you are doing on them.. being miserable and complaining and blaming others is a lot easier and comfortable lets you sink in to your laziness and you tend to either isolate or hang with other miserable people so you dont feel judged.

[@outoftheklosset]

With trauma it's typical to brace for the worst. For me, I've found that gentle self talk helps with this and maybe it'll help you.🥰

[@daniellejosephine]

First of all, I totally understand the whole feeling of it feeling safer to have nothing to lose! But the sunny side is: you have lost it all and come back and found something good. For the dog mom question: Yes, I experience that whole bad weather but needing to get your dog out. Dog play dates (luckily mine has a litter sister in the fam!) and dog friendly stores etc. It keeps her happy to get some energy out and explore new places. Also... yes... bully sticks. I know how you've talked about them before and I feel the same way! :D

[@melissanava8840]

I enjoy watching your blog I have been going though depression due to some situations in my life and I am trying to find ways to heal. You are an inspiration to thank you for sharing your journey max is adorable he was so cute while you were recording.

[@mariannedressler6784]

The green dress and new shoes look stunning and not over dressed. Just well put together. Go get ‘em girl!

[@lynny397]

Girl- I feel like that all the time, when things are going well...I just let the Holy Spirit help me during those times of doubt- God runs supreme. He's in control. Fear is a liar. "... God has not given us a spirit of fearfulness, but one of power, love, and sound judgment." Hugs! So happy for your blessings!

[@elecops9825]

Congratulations on 150k! 🎉 On the road to 200k!!

[@MichelJanse]

Eeeeep! Thank you Ele! 🥹

[@tiamel5930]

One dog mom to another - puzzle toys! Keeping my pups brain busy helps her wear out and get her busies out on indoor-only days. That and a dog stroller for when it’s too warm for her walks but cool enough for me to walk.

[@marissah3125]

Omgosh!!!!! I love the green dress! So cute!!

[@marccolomayt82094]

Congratulations on being 150k YT subscribers and I love your nice vlog as well! ❤️

[@MichelJanse]

Thank you, friend!!!

[@jackiedecoma4637]

Call different alteration places. The one I use only charges $10 an item this is in California though. I am sure Texas would have something comparable. That's crazy expensive!

[@meliarvizu1793]

Hi Michel! I am a pet sitter, dog walker, and dog mom of 4 and heat resistant dog booties will save your life! I am from Yuma, Az which is the sunniest place on earth and often have triple digits even 110+ degrees and a collapsible water bowl will also be your best friend 😊

[@corinneburque]

I still have a hard time with the fear over losing what I have now. I went through 10 years of hard events layered with unthinkable trauma. Today, my life is good and I am so afraid of anything bad happening. I also trust in the lord as he does not want us to fear. Life is hard and equally beautiful. Take it all one day at a time-the good and hard… you got this. much love to you.

[@smf0427]

Mental activity is equally important as physical activity. Treat puzzles, lickimat, snuffle mats, and other games that challenge him to use his brain are all wonderful!!

[@kelleysigler9759]

I think you look great! I ways over dress and love it! Makes me feel so good.

[@karmakauffman7445]

I thought I’d respond to your question about Max getting exercise when it’s so hot. Is Max ok with other dogs? I’m sure there are doggie daycare options in Austin and hopefully some have air conditioned indoor spaces for dogs to play. My dogs have always done well with doggie daycare and the socialization is so good for them! It has the side benefit of tuckering them out. 😄 Another option might be to find an indoor space to walk Max. It may seem weird, but Lowes stores have been allowing dogs in stores where I live and it might be a place to walk Max. They aren’t the coolest stores, but they’re probably better than being out in the sun. And finally, there are some things you could train Max to do for exercise. You could teach him to run back and forth between the couch and the bed. So, you’d tell him to Go to Bed, reward, then Go to the Couch, and reward. Make a game of it. Jumping up and down from the furniture should be somewhat tiring. Indoor stairs in the building would be a work out too. Maybe put Max on a long lead for that and send him down and call him back up. There are pieces of equipment for dogs in agility that you have dogs stand on that are a bit wobbly. The dog has to use their muscles to balance on them. Oooo! I wonder if there would be someplace to take Max swimming? It’d be great if there was an indoor space created just for dogs to swim for exercise! I wonder if Austin has something like that? Or maybe a doggie daycare would have that option. Those are just a few ideas. Maybe your vet would have more ideas? Good luck! I’m sure other dog owners in Texas would have ideas too. ❤️🐾❤️

[@Shop-Girl]

Max is being such a love today during the flog!! So dang cute!! I love the green floral dress from Abercrombie. So adorbs.

[@kennaharrison603]

The dress is beautiful!! Love seeing Max!

[@tanzimasimran4539]

That coffee chat hit so close to home.

[@teresamcisaac6196]

I love that Max is so involved 😍. The dress and shoes are absolutely beautiful on you 😍 ❤ ✨

[@MichelJanse]

It’s really just ‘The Max Show’😂🤍

[@meganhenry5795]

Hey Michel! Yes, I know the feeling when things are going well and you have self sabotaging thoughts. Here's what helped me: meditation, therapy, cannabis, hiking. Also, allow yourself to be happy. Our thoughts can make it break us.

[@michelleaguilar6266]

If it's consistently too hot, raining, snowing and I can't take my dog out for multiple, consecutive days, I usually take my dog to Pooch Play at Petco. It's an indoor dog park. I drop him off, run some errands, and he knocks out in the car. Maybe they have something similar around your area.

[@lisawalter8609]

Wow I LOVE your clothing style! So many stunning pieces 😍

[@lisebelanger1692]

Ohhhh I absolutely love the new dress, so pretty, love the color and it suits you perfectly, plus those shoes are to die for, love, love, love. Poor Max, I think he's been missing his mommy 🙂. I've been divorced for 12 years and I still have those moments, but yes, you definitely deserve the happiness, and do what makes your heart sing.

[@SusansCozyKitchen]

When it’s THIS HOT in TX, I walk my dogs in the early morning - well, early for me - around 7. The sidewalks and roads have had the night to cool down and where I take my pups there is a lot of grass they can walk on beside the pavement. Hope that helps! Hoping the pieces you took for alterations are everything you hope for. I was shocked at the price too. Ouch!

[@foryeye]

I think you do THE BEST sponsored videos. All of the sponsorships are incorporated seamlessly, you illustrate clearly how the product fits into your life, and you always seem genuinely passionate about the product. If I were a brand/product, I would want to sponsor you too LOL! Also, hair loss can happen as a result of weight loss, even if it wasn't super drastic. Hair loss is frustrating because it is so hard to pinpoint a specific cause 😩

[@Selena1010]

Are there any indoor dog-friendly places like a mall or something where you could walk Max but there would be AC?

[@MichelJanse]

Oooh THATS a great idea! I wonder if any of the malls here are dog friendly. But sometimes max gets confused in new indoor places and poops HAHAHA poor guy 😂

[@arirosetomas2738]

The self sabotaging thoughts will stop. After some negative times, this can be considered as normal. I had this happen to me after a devastating end to a previous relationship I was in. With timer, prayer and meditation it can come to an end. Continue todtsy blessed.

[@phylissbrassey8431]

Seed is The Best and finally no constipation. Probably TMI but thought I would share since so many people have the problem!

[@thejoneslounge]

Have you looked into any indoor dog parks? I’m in Canada and we have extreme hot and extreme cold. Indoor dog parks are amazing!

[@craft_yplanning1012]

Always enjoy your videos. I actually found you by your subscription box openings, but stayed for the rest.

[@TonyaS]

That feeling your feeling is called foreboding joy. Brene Brown talks about it a lot in her books and might be worth checking out! ETA Torchy's was one of my favorite places when I was in Austin for a month. The brisket tacos....OMG so good!

[@carissadallke1345]

Each time you show a layered with lace box they are always so cute!

[@elecops9825]

You looked amazing in the green dress! 💚

[@mariedurand383]

I recommend using dog brain games the outbound ones are great my dog loves them, get him tired not just physically but mentally.

[@helenwaugh2940]

I think once your brain has processed any big things (your marriage not working out, moving state, getting a divorce and all of the attendant feelings) it finds room to process less immediate feelings like self-sabotaging and nuking your own life because it will hurt less than if someone else blows it up. The main thing to realise is in life there is balance, so no love without pain, dark without light, happiness without sadness. Once you recognise and name the feeling, then you can work on what to do about it. Much love x

[@rysa.tarts07]

We reach similar temperatures here in AZ, so I usually try to walk my dog early in the morning 6-7am. But sometimes, if I don’t wake up early, I’ll do short 10min walks in the evening but I put on booties on my fur companion, so he does burn his paws ☺️🐾

[@SimplySteph99]

I agree it's always better to be overdressed than underdressed. ❤️ Love the looks! The shoes are soooo cute!!! I get the fears you're having as I have similar fears and it does make sense. So glad you're doing better and healing both physical, mentally and emotionally. ❤️ Continuous prayers.

[@jessibee15]

I feel like I understand what you mean when you talk about waiting for something bad to happen again and being afraid of letting go of that subconscious feeling. I went through a similar feeling a couple years ago when I went through a season of trauma after trauma. There’s no prescribed way to feel when you’re going through something like this! What helped me quite a bit was realizing, wait God was here for me through all the tough stuff and I’m here and okay now. What do I have to lose if I have Him supporting me when things go bad? He’ll hold me and take care of me and of course that goes for everyone. Definitely that was a thought process I had to learn over time and still need to constantly remind myself of. Just want you to know that what you’re feeling is totally natural and I appreciate you sharing❤️ I’ll continue to pray for you sweet lady!

[@jessibee15]

I also want to say that I started dating my husband of 2 years literal weeks after ending things with my emotionally ab*sive ex and that was not at all the timeline I had planned for myself. God knew what was up though and I have the best, sweetest and most thoughtful husband in the world now. There is not “right” timeline, only His and He knows it haha😂☺️

[@edwardleecaliforniausa]

Michel I'm proud of you and I loved your vlogs and you are amazing Supporter

[@thematthewsfam5925]

Coffee chat comments- I know how it feels to feel afraid to lose something because things are going so well. Almost waiting for “the other shoe to drop”. I live in Oklahoma- it’s been super hot and our Aussie hates the heat too. We throw the ball a lot. 😅

[@Idk-pf9rh]

Good to see you again

[@leslieadams6702]

YESSS GO BIG OR GO HOME MAKE A STATEMENT MICHEL AND HAVE FUN!❤️

[@hannahpayne3162]

Michel! Girl, I had to pause your video halfway through to comment on the self-sabotaging thoughts you mentioned in your coffee chat. I have been feeling the EXACT same way recently, and hearing someone else voice it has me feeling shook. On the one hand, it feels great to actually be doing well. But on the other hand? I find I'm often getting worried that the other shoe is about to drop, and it sucks to be worried about something that I have zero reason to expect to happen!

[@lizp8696]

While I wasn’t totally aware of it at the time, fear was a predominate feeling in my marriage. Like you, there was a fair amount of emotional neglect, cheating, and abuse (my word - not sure if you name it that). I’m not dating yet as I need more time to heal. But what you said resonates a lot with me. The vulnerability a relationship (or even other goals) requires is a lot to take on for people who have experienced loss and trauma in the way we did. While trusting a romantic partner again is hard to imagine, I’ve realized my journey is really much more about trusting myself. I fear “failing” in all the ways that a lot of women fear failing. But I think it’s so much deeper than that. I fear that I will not choose myself over the person I love again. And my current, healing self knows that I can’t ever lose myself again. That’s my core fear now and I fear intimacy will push me to self-betray again. But we have to trust ourselves. Our gut feelings were right. We just needed to trust ourselves and surrender to what we saw happening even if we didn’t want it to be true. Ps. The hair loss could also be from the divorce. I lost a ton of hair. It’s finally growing back. I have fly aways like postpartum women. 🤣

[@carmenzermeno7707]

I love both pair of shoes especially the loafers, they are awesome 😄👍❤️

[@sallyniemzyk6964]

OMG! I love the green and white dress! Wow! A modern day "Gone With The Wind" type of dress. Statement: “Never pass up new experiences [Scarlett], They enrich the mind." - Rhett Butler”

[@shelleyjacobs2563]

Those alterations sound High I would shop around for another seamstress. I took in a beaded dress for my son's wedding and it only cost $75 for the alterations.

[@audrey822]

Maybe for the alterations, you could take up sewing classes? Then you could do somw quick fixes yourself or even flip some thrifted clothes, that might also be a fun video

[@hannahjibola6544]

I used to have anxiety and soft music helped me alot. Once you have a coping mechanism, you’ll be fine

[@RavenStorm1031]

you are not alone michel in ur feelings. i am at that point right now due to how my ex treated me and my kids. my current partner is everything ive ever wanted in mine and my childrens lives. one thing i need to do, which you said you would be doing as well, is that i need to go see someone to talk to, i havent seen a therapist at all during everything going on and i know i should. much love hon!

[@corik1065]

That excitement of a new (possible) love 💕 enjoy this feeling

[@kimberlyrudolphcap1789]

Max is being so super sweet!

[@charlenesmith209]

Oooh cute shoes! The loafer will look good with the top you have on now! I'm a chunky heal girl! The bralettes are cute! Max thinks so too!! I love My our place pan!!

[@pattibrooks6363]

We have a Torchey’s in Raleigh, NC. BEST queso ever!!

[@kafrin516]

i don't know why everytime i watch your recent videos i always end up tearing up at the end. lmao luv u girly