The Weirdest Post-Chemo Symptoms

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[@JordanKaynMark]

Hank realizing and explaining that he's still alive despite accidentally implying otherwise is the most Green brothers reaction I've ever seen

[@osmia]

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[@hazmatt8349]

I just imagine Hank tweeting (or whatever it is now) after the video is posted saying "I'm sorry if this is how you found out."

[@dragonflies6793]

reminds me of how john green had to change the title of his esther day video cause it was originally just "I love you, Hank" and that freaked people out

[@Robert_McGarry_Poems]

While editing this video, it has come to my attention that... I'm not dead. I know what it sounded like, but, I'm not. You are stuck with me.

[@pikapeww]

Why does Hank kinda look like Anthony Fantano??

[@pb_and_nutella]

Hank being O negative is just so funny, because the universe said "you are going to be the most giving person in the world from your blood to your socks to your coffee to your soap"

[@missybarbour6885]

From the windows... to the wall!

[@tbella5186]

The Universe knew.

[@vlogbrothers]

And finally the universe is like, "OK, you can have a break."

[@elainebelzDetroit]

@@vlogbrothers "a break" is a weird way to describe cancer, but you've earned the right.

[@tbella5186]

@@vlogbrothers You deserve it, whether you'll let yourself or not!

[@thethoughtemporium]

The re-rolling hair thing is *fascinating*. Like turning them on and off randomizes the initial state/balance the system struck when you were first growing hair. Also in my experience, anxiety is like gravity. It can only be additive. Health anxiety just makes work anxiety worse and vice versa. Glad you're feeling better and enjoying your new beard!

[@killingtimeitself]

I suppose now we should be expecting a video about 10 years from now about hair regrowth huh? Im not familiar enough with biology but i was thinking more along the lines of DNA mutation due to chemo somehow manifesting in hair in a non harmful way, though i could be totally wrong lol.

[@greg_land]

I expect you to come up with a cure to male pattern baldness in that lab of yours.....

[@Brown95P]

Honestly, anxiety feels much more exponential than additive; like a runaway feedback loop that only stops once you stop *_all_* of it.

[@giveemelle7862]

this is so real

[@LegendaryPatMan]

While I agree with the anxiety being like gravity theory... I'm also concerned that one of the world's few genuine, Mad Scientists has had a brainwave for the project after he's done making a fish out of fruit and making it play DOOM

[@5MadMovieMakers]

The sheer number of camera angles implies quite the workout from moving the tripod around

[@kaygallagher988]

"I've spent half my life rolling up this 30ft microphone cord, and the other half I've wasted." -The TB one

[@harsheh]

CJtheX moves their camera every new sentence. And the videos are usually an hour long

[@prestooooo12]

my guess is a few cameras set up static, and he edits em, seems the few backgrounds stay consistent, so hes just moving around a bunch i think

[@DrymarchonShaun]

I do love the unhinged effect it adds.

[@emberswords]

Hank just beginning to learn that anxiety is a stacking debuff is so funny to me considering John’s relationship with anxiety.

[@josiah42]

There are two anxious wolves inside of you.... Why are they there? What do you need with wolves?!

[@chelseashurmantine8153]

That’s what I was thinking!!!!!

[@SamDGrover]

What if the newfound intimacy with anxiety and the new hair combine and result in Hank getting poof levels of his own??

[@SmallAngryNerd]

@@josiah42 what's that sound? oh god, is that a third wolf?? OH GOD

[@barefootalien]

Heh yeah, stacking debuff is a good way of putting it. At that moment in the video, I was thinking in terms of interference. As in, Hank was expecting his sources of anxiety to destructively interfere and cancel each other out, only to learn, to his horror, that it interferes constructively instead! D:

[@BekaAv]

This reminds me of something that Terry Pratchett wrote, “No one is finally dead until the ripples they cause in the world die away, until the clock wound up winds down, until the wine she made has finished its ferment, until the crop they planted is harvested. The span of someone’s life is only the core of their actual existence.”

[@EagenVegham]

GNU Terry Pretchett

[@elainebelzDetroit]

Wow, that's beautiful.

[@emilysha418]

+1

[@loraleitourtillottwiehr2473]

In that case I doubt Terry, or Hank, will ever be fully gone. So many ripples!

[@gnarthdarkanen7464]

Well, if that's true, the poor bastards who discovered fire and invented the wheel ain't never gonna die! ;o)

[@melimsah]

Okay, both John and Hank doing these wandering-around hold-the-mic stream of consciousness what-4-minute-rule videos is giving me SO MUCH LIFE

[@eviesigler3390]

Long live The Format

[@woodfur00]

John's last video was 3:58 and I was sure Hank would follow his lead at least for the next video but Hank said yeah but what about no

[@brucedeborahd9820]

Thanks Hank for putting words out and being vulnerable before us...because you gave legitimacy to those of us who have felt those very same things as we have gone through the struggles of living and dying. Well done.

[@waffles3629]

Same, the format is just fantastic

[@amandaweires]

Long live the format!

[@patriciahamel5674]

I was just talking about this with one of the other patients at the cancer center I go to. My hair grew back in curly. She went through chemo twice. The first time her hair grew back in darker. The second time her hair grew back in red and curly. Another patient had never had freckles before and developed freckles after chemo. It’s crazy how much it affects every small part of your body.

[@xChiimerax]

Seriously though. My grandmother had chemo about a decade ago and her hair is now super curly.

[@IrisGlowingBlue]

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[@chloepainter4064]

Not a doctor of any sort, but I think chemo having this effect might be it slightly damaging your cells?? I know that we’ve got 2 copies of every gene, and sometimes they don’t match, and every cell is constantly dying and creating replacements, and mistakes accumulate in this process over time. That why hair goes grey as we age, the hair color making genes make too many mistakes and stop working. So maybe all the hair growing cells or genes or whatever being killed all at once increases the mistakes in the replacement cells? So if you had a recessive trait in your hair color the new hair shows it better or something. This is all just a guess though.

[@patriciahamel5674]

@@chloepainter4064 that's pretty much how my doctor explained it.

[@ophiuchusoversoul1785]

it's weird how it seems to almost reset your system. Maybe some day the scientists will discover that killing so many cells isn't just killing the cancer, but shoving our bodies into using different unexpressed parts of our DNA in order to survive the onslaught of poison pushing us to the edges of life to survive. I wonder if anyone has ever considered doing a little DNA check post and prior, just to see if being 'cured' is exclusively due to the poison, or if the body shifts to a different gene to keep it from reoccurring.

[@yuvalne]

I didn't realise "asking teen questions as a 43 year old" was something cancer patients and trans people had in common

[@fossilfighters101]

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[@jude.e.p]

I was thinking the same thing!

[@annabstraction]

relatable🏳️‍⚧️

[@tahaymvids1631]

lol fr

[@sandycoin]

yooooo true

[@sam-the-moomin]

Love that Hank’s dipping in again on The Format™️

[@vlogbrothers]

Everyone seems to forget that I INVENTED THE FORMAT!

[@sam-the-moomin]

@@vlogbrothersI FORGOT AND JOHN MADE A VIDEO CALLED “INTRODUCING THE FORMAT” IM SORRY 😭 /lh

[@skylerwitherspoon]

​@@vlogbrothersdon't worry hank you'll always be the format inventor

[@marcellastname6862]

​@@vlogbrothersyou also kinda invented the Anthropcene Reviewed but it's still very much John's thing 😂

[@GaviLazan]

​@@vlogbrothersJohn is the Apple of The Format™

[@thejesuschrist]

welcome to the full beard club. let it grow, let it grow.

[@suicideistheanswer369]

Holy shit!

[@snoozydoozy0]

HOLY BEARD GANG

[@LPTheGas]

"let it grow, let it grow." Don't shave it off anymore.

[@umblapag]

Omg you're here too!

[@hughcaldwell1034]

I agonised over joining that club. I went back and forth. I don't like my facial hair but also don't like shaving, and thought I might like it more if I let it get beyond stubble. Then I tried and it turns out it doesn't really grow long enough to be called a beard. I get a lot of it, all over my face and neck, but it just sprouts to the perfect worst balance between scratchily short and long enough to clog up my razor, and then stops. F-ck you, my hair.

[@jadewolf22]

This video truly felt like stepping into someone else’s brain for 7 minutes and 4 seconds and it was absolutely fascinating- I think the editing and camera shots really created quite the atmosphere to fit the rambling and contemplating. I enjoyed living in your brain for a bit Hank, even if it’s not always the most fun place for you to be it’s certainly relatable because my brain isn’t always fun either.

[@maclupusdonet]

Word

[@pisoprano]

I remember a lady growing up saying that she’d always wanted to have curly hair and after she got cancer it grew back curly, so for her it was like “Wish granted! But at what cost?”

[@ryuhitsuya21]

Monkeys Paw slowly curls 1 finger lmao

[@waynemartinmartin4128]

My hair was completely gray when I had chemo. When it grew back it cane in auburn.

[@TheoRae8289]

​@@ImperfectVoid8479one of my sisters started off with white-blonde hair and then became a brunette after puberty. Biology is weird.

[@MisterCynic18]

Turns out beauty is indeed pain

[@VeryNerdyPerson]

This is strangely wholesome.

[@MandJTV]

Beard tips if you decide to grow it out (which I recommend; if you grow a lot of facial hair, shaving your whole face is a nightmare): - use beard oil; softens the hairs and makes them look nicer - two fingers above your adam's apple is a good beard line - use specific beard wash and beard conditioner

[@ebola950]

Beard balm is GOOD if your beard is; you know "stiff/unbendable": Start with beard oil tho... eases you into the habit of oil first than wax. Best of luck and good recovery🙂

[@barefootalien]

Yes to all of the above! Except for the beard line. Once it gets long enough, you never have to shave again. ;)

[@lasergames1798]

VlogBrothers beard wash and conditioner, coming soon!

[@claytonharting9899]

And I’ve noticed with mine that if I keep it short enough (I use one of those buzzers with the plastic length-sector clips you see at hair dressers’) it doesn’t itch at all and overall feels more comfortable

[@YeeSoest]

Interesting advice! My dad never had a chance to teach me all that...he's fine, I just can't grow ANY facial hair. Dad had a porn stache, his brothers both do, my mom's brothers have beards, me and my 2 brothers have nothing! We save a lot of time and money but it IS weird!! So thanks for teaching me, maybe one day...😅

[@heidippleby]

This video is so unhinged and weird and honest and I love it. The cuts, the lighting, the ranting, the weird and vulnerable thoughts. Love it

[@annebaisden8717]

We're seeing a new blog/vlog genre start before our very eyes. I know every camera angle kinda says "f-it, let's try this, that's good enough", but it came together into a style that is just kind of raw and honest.

[@MusicFillsTheQuiet]

It's true. The cuts are razor sharp in this one. Maybe not 5-blade sharp, but definitely at least 3-blade sharp

[@rileyanneoh]

It reminds me of the girl on tiktok who goes for hikes and asks mildly unhinged interview questions at the camera. This is my favorite Hank video of all time.

[@atthebell4596]

lost my mom five years ago from cancer and it still hurts like hell, but watching you go into remission and have such an interesting perspective on it all has been really nice. yes, there's a lot of grief in these things, but there's also a lot of love, no matter if you lose someone or not, and i think that's really powerful.

[@clockworkkirlia7475]

My sincere condolences, and I'm glad that these videos have been nice for you.

[@victoriaz14]

sending love. it's been five months for me and it is the worst.

[@atthebell4596]

@@victoriaz14 im so sorry, wishing you and your loved ones all the time and space that you need. remember her with the love and the pain, and know there's nowhere to go but through. please take care of yourself.

[@FictionWriter95]

Condolences. My dad died in January 2022 (a week after my 24th birthday) after fighting treatment-resistant prostate cancer for more than 10 years. He was 2 months shy of turning 70.

[@samrodriguez4692]

The CHAOS. The FORMAT. THE HANK GREEN IN REMISSION?! I love it.

[@fwekker]

i was gonna say 'i'll have whatever he had' but then i realized that might not be such a good idea after all...

[@HeyitsLeaAnn]

Yes! A boss I had made it through cancer three times while we worked together, and her hair grew back different each time. It seemed scientifically impossible to me so thank you for validating that she was just rolling a different number each time. 😂

[@sarahprunierlaw9147]

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[@Kevin_the_Caveman]

Holy crap three times?!

[@paulasalazar2093]

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[@jortand]

3 TIMES?! WHAT?!

[@hanseinarfuglum8858]

I dont know if id keep working at a place where the boss man hit the tripple cancer.

[@kavic86]

You don't need to feel bad about surviving cancer bud, my mom died of it and I was genuinely excited and happy that you went into remission and wish you the best. I can't wait to see how your possible new beard comes along with all your new vids on science and D&D

[@placeholderdoe]

Sorry for your loss

[@AmaraJordanMusic]

Same. Everyone I’ve loved who has had cancer in the past has died from it. (Four people, four different cancers, two repeat cancer diagnoses.) My husband’s Nana is going through cancer again and just started treatment last week. I’m so happy to see Hank recover, and to hear him talk about it. Chemo being absolutely disastrous for my Mom, or really effective but eventually not enough for my mentor does not change Hank’s experience, emotions, or right to talk about them. And it doesn’t lessen my appreciation of him sharing his story and my relief that he is in remission.

[@YoonDragoon]

I agree with this. I lost my grandpa to cancer, and I don't hate anyone for being able to survive it, I in fact hope for it. I want more people to survive, than have more that are lost

[@placeholderdoe]

@@YoonDragoon so sorry for your loss, may your grandfather rest in peace

[@placeholderdoe]

@@AmaraJordanMusic sorry for your losses, sending my best wishes to your husband’s nana

[@Mcwollybob]

I relate a lot to the "I don’t have it bad enough to deserve help, compassion, attention" guilt. For me, it's extremely related to my OCD subtypes. You probably don’t have OCD, but health anxiety and severe guilt can easily become OCD. So please be careful and nip it in the bud if you start to develop OCD symptoms

[@jadedesigns6171]

Especially since John has OCD, Hank could be predisposed to it

[@GoldenSniper303]

For what its worth Hank. I was diagnosed with classical Hodgkins also in May and it was very convenient that an extremely knowledgeable person had the same variety of cancer at the same time. Your videos have helped my experience. I got 40 something more days until my last chemo when ill be joining you as a cancer survivor. (My oncologist is pretty confident that I'm going to make a full recovery if i follow through based on my labs. Im saying this with pretty good confidence with my own reasearch as well) Tldr: Hank you are remembering to be awesome!

[@JessBonomo]

I hate that you and Hank (and anyone) got cancer, but if you were to get it anyways, having someone to look to seems pretty cool. Good luck on the rest of chemo!

[@starsaur6664]

Great job peeing out all that cancer!!

[@Inthemains]

Best of luck!

[@Sunnylyndis]

Let us know how it goes! Wishing you the best.

[@chocfudgebrowni]

❤️❤️❤️

[@flowerwall]

Hanks existentialism scoping down from the insane scope of the universe to the intimate relationship we all have with mortality has been quite the change.

[@smiley3047]

And the intimate relationship we all have with facial hair

[@dragonmumles4054]

Yes! Hair changes were the most unexpected post chemo effect for me. After 43 years with stick straight hair, it grew back curly. Poodle curly. But as I was getting used to ringlets, my hair changed again, to slightly wavy with extra gray. Sigh. And I too enjoy the lack of blood donation guilt - although I'm AB+, so almost no one needs my blood. That was 20 years ago, btw. Chemo and surgery did their jobs, and I've been completely cancer free. Rooting for you!

[@sweetwizzle]

Glad to hear it, heck yeah!

[@eggycarrot]

They need your plasma!!!

[@rosalie.e.morgan]

AB+ is the universal plasma donor (without the blood cells), and it's an even rarer blood type then O-, so blood banks would absolutely want plasma donations from anyone with this blood type who is eligible and willing to donate.

[@fosteryates1261]

Love this style of filming. Perfectly reflects the feeling of having a scattered brain while rambling to myself. Much love, Hank. :)

[@LayneBenofsky]

oh, hell. THAT's why this video feels entirely natural to watch... :D

[@evastapaard2462]

chemo brain. I know how it feels.

[@csheldonhess]

"I thought the work anxiety would distract me from the health anxiety." Oh, Hank, you are the most relatable. Anxiety doesn't work like that for me, either.

[@Ray-zy7vb]

if it makes you feel less alone, me too! any anxiety triggers the health anxiety lol

[@Geo-Nemesis]

I feel the "Oh Hank" in my bones.

[@5Y2Y6Y]

I lost my little sister to cancer about a year and a half ago, and when I saw your videos, I initially felt like avoiding the hell out of them to avoid that trauma... But I've watched them anyways every time somehow, and I really think this is part of why. A lot of this is stuff I feel she would have expressed if she got the chance, and I do think that, in a small way, this helps to channel her voice. Don't feel guilty for surviving; survive for other cancer patients (and yourself) and be real about your experiences, because a lot of others didn't get the chance... And they're important experiences. You're so valid, and I deeply appreciate you talking about cancer. It's rough, and it feels almost taboo to bring it up because of the discomfort it causes.... But it's important, and life happens during cancer, after cancer, thoughts are born because of cancer... But they need to be shared, they need to be heard. Thank you

[@nesso6409]

I'm sorry for your loss. Your comment is so beautiful and touching.

[@beesbrownies]

I'm so sorry that your sister lost her life. I'm glad you're finding comfort. Don't YOU forget to keep living as well ❤

[@xingmei818]

I'm sorry for your loss, and I'm thankful you shared your thoughts. i lost my dad to cancer in 2021, and initially i also didn't want to be *in* too much on Hank's diagnosis and treatment. but you're right. those who survive cancer both the patient and those who supported the person who passed away because of cancer, should live and survive for those who didn't. i needed to read this, and it made me sob. thank you for sharing.

[@-Teague-]

Thank you for sharing this. Stay strong friend we're here for you

[@BethelHabte]

This is beautiful and I’m so sorry for your loss ❤️

[@magicoA]

As John has said, Hank really is on a journey of meaning.

[@rebeccamari]

This joke really got so much more real than anyone ever thought it would. Like, that Dear Hank and John episode when they knew about Hank's cancer but we didn't went so so deep I was like, huh, and when I found out about Hank's cancer and I was like ooohhh

[@henrymerritt]

Hi Hank, Hank here. I don't comment that often but your thoughts on survivor's guilt struck me. I truly hope that the survivor's guilt fades away for you. Your enthusiasm and consistency over the past few months dealing with this has been a rollercoaster for all of us. You're good people. I really wanna thank you both for your candor and love. THANK YOU

[@skylorandrews6608]

Honestly, the “teen boy questions” and checking out other dudes’ beards is sooo relatable as a trans guy in his 20s 😂

[@cm315]

I was just thinking the same thing! Haha

[@MyVanHaven]

Second puberty always hits different lol

[@tonycampbell1424]

Half the battle is believing in yourself (and beard). The other half is recognizing a losing fight so you may retreat and regroup. (So like, at first it'll be a whispy mess and you won't want to let it go but TRUST ME, just shave those baby hairs off and wait for the tensile-strength-of-copper-wire manly-man hairs to replace them. Have faith, stay the course, me and my monster beard believe in you brother)

[@skylorandrews6608]

@@tonycampbell1424 I appreciate the encouragement haha I'm like eight years on T and can nearly grow a full beard now, though. I really resonated with Hank's experience of asking those questions and checking out other dudes' facial hair, just the general insecurity and excitement, at an unusual age relative to our peers. It opens some interesting reflection about masculinity, aging, gender expression, rites of passage, genetics, and a whole host of tangents from there.

[@TodayIFoundOut]

That was delightfully random, hilarious and deep. I love this format. :-) -Daven

[@patriciatriplet3145]

I also enjoyed the introspection.

[@avery-u1w]

oh

[@jimk8520]

Ditto

[@Textile_Courtesan]

Oh heck! I didn't expect to see TIFO here! Love your content and amazing team of writers, editors and of course Fact Boy.

[@afroceltduck]

It's THE format (I guess this one had a much shorter mic cable)

[@Kojo2047]

As a beard-grower who also didn't start until well into adulthood, I empathize with the "I'm asking questions that a teenager would ask" feeling. I can pass on what I learned, and hopefully it helps anyone reading this: -first: folks with beards tend to be more open to talking about and complementing each other on their beards. I did not expect to receive compliments from strangers, but I opened up to it and learned a lot from other beard-havers that just wanted to share care tips. -once you know what texture your beard will have: look for someone with similar texture to get recommendations for care tips (see advice #1). Mine is medium-curly with relatively thin follicles, and my care techniques may not help someone with dense/thick curls, or light/straight hair. -for some beards: beard oil is NOT a luxury product. I didn't want this to be true for me, and my hubris led to lots of itching and painful tangles that weren't necessary. If find your new beard to be really itchy and easily tangled, try oiling it and combing it after a shower. Side tip: scent-preference is important. You will have to smell it all the time.

[@BinxyBrown]

Yup, another option is to not wash your beard with shampoo all the time, you can just wash it really well with just water and optionally add conditioner to keep it nicely oiled which protects it and keeps it from itching

[@adrianthoroughgood1191]

Yes, I was wondering if head hair conditioner would be good on a beard? @@BinxyBrown

[@XenonPrimeSBSV]

I find that nice oil scented soap bars play nicely with my beard, they seem to moisturise the hairs about as well as oil does and is an avenue into floral and fruity scents rather than the traditional wood scents you usually get. Obviously this is something to test as it seems every beard is different.

[@diego-dias]

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[@raewood4515]

"The things we make aren't really about us." Wow, this video hit me hard. A dear relative of mine lost his battle with mental illness just two weeks ago now, and he was a prolific maker of videos and music that he shared via TikTok, KZbin, and other places. I keep going back to watch and listen to his creations because it's a part of him that I can take with me into the future. I see others who enjoyed what he created doing the same. It's become very clear to me that what we put out into the world matters, even when we're no longer here. Thank you, Hank, for continuing to share this process with us. Wishing you continued good health news and for an exciting new chapter of facial hair growth :)

[@JarodM]

Hi, what was his channel? I would like to check out some of his creations as well, thanks~

[@cebo494]

A past colleague once told a story about their hair after cancer. They got cancer in school around the start of winter break and had it pretty easy all things considered, they were done with treatment and their hair was growing back by the time they were back in school. Some girl he knew noticed his hair was different and touched it and found that it was incredibly soft. She asked him what he put in his hair to make it so soft and he had the privilege of getting to see her face when he told her "oh, just a little bit of cancer". He had a good laugh about it.

[@MKPiatkowski]

My hair came back so soft I couldn't stop touching it. I'm still using baby shampoo on it. It's cool.

[@Desca2001]

Yeah, that can happen. I had a more distant friend, that did not know about my treatment and met him at a birthday party. When we talked he asked me how I manage to cut my hair that smooth, without any stubbles visible. He was quite shocked and most likely embarrassed he had asked afterwards ^^

[@IanGrams]

I think I need to spend some time offline because after reading that story and having a chuckle I immediately thought of one of those clickbait ads with "Hairstylists HATE this one WEIRD trick!"

[@karibarker9749]

My mother got her hair back with no gray hair. At 73 she had less gray hair than I did at 50.

[@Shayron1989]

Hank being a universal donor is the most on-brand thing I’ve ever seen 😂❤

[@dreamfaller6372]

And feeling guilty for not donating enough🥹 Hank, you're already doing wayyyyyyyy more than the average person to decrease world suck. Be kind to yourself!

[@zavierburst5637]

Anxiety doesn't usually block out other anxiety. It usually stacks. You may have a primary anxiety, but the secondary (tertiary, etc) is always there, lurking.

[@mariesndergaard5893]

Was going to say just that. There seems to be 2 explanations that I've heard a lot. One is that the body recognize the feeling of anxiety, which triggers anxious thoughs (as that is the usual cycle, either thoughts - >body or the other way around, according to cognitive psychology). The other explanation seems to be that the amygdala is working way too hard and just basically overactive. Doing stuff that calms the amygdala down does seem to work for a lot of people. Hence the 'you should go for a run when you have anxiety or depression' advise. Less can do it, like yoga, laughing, or doing any kind of exercise.

[@razelm]

Hank is low key turning into Heisenberg

[@logansaborsky6522]

God I love The Format. So laid back, comfortable, but full of serious and complex thoughts and questions! Who would have thought a video of Hank trying something new in a hotel would become the best new thing?

[@paperheartzz]

The Format* in this particular video is stellar: Giant paint cans, the artistic use of the mannequin... The visual representation of "many of my thoughts are irrational these days...and we're just, working through them". 🎉

[@thatoneguy8512]

I had the opposite reaction about finding out I couldn't donate blood. I started donating when my dad had a cancer where he regularly needed transfusions, so hearing that I had to be cancer-free for 5 years was a huge blow. "I think that we all kinda get to keep posting after we're gone." Now there's a line that make me wonder which Green brother I'm hearing from. Thanks for clarifying that you're not dead.

[@naturesfinest2408]

I think he was sarcastic when he said it. That he doesn't actually think it's good.

[@Hassan-zw9tb]

​@@naturesfinest2408yeah he wants to but he feels less bad that he isn't doing it consistently because he actually had a reason now

[@tinybadastronaut]

ISTFG Hank is the most wholesome human. This incredibly genuine public display of emotional processing after an incredibly difficult situation is something we all need more of.

[@RedstonerD]

I see this face grow? I shit through flubby goobers? In society time favours Greens?

[@fclp67]

I thought it's DFTBA Hank

[@kalaninalak]

I'm 7 years out from chemo ending and this was still really helpful for me to hear. The road ahead might be bumpy, and you may get blindsided by things you didn't expect; for me it was PTSD around major life changes because I was diagnosed in the summer after high school graduation and before college, but I digress. Please keep narrating your journey through this and keep on posting (even after you're dead) 😊

[@StuperUser]

My Dad died on this day. One thing I learnt in his absence is that I can reach out to him in the form of the influence he has had in how he has lived and how he has raised me and my siblings. His headstone has the inscription "To live in hearts we leave behind is not to die." You share so much, in so many ways, so generously that you are in very many hearts and will continue to be so. All the best for your recovery and remission and thank you for everything you do ❤

[@eliscanfield3913]

*hugs*

[@rudetuesday]

My brother and I lost Mom to cancer. She was a really sweet person you would have liked--everyone who met her liked her a lot--and she'd have wanted you to live and not feel guilty about it. I'm glad you're here.

[@barefootalien]

Condolences.

[@rudetuesday]

Thank you very much. Have a nice day. @@barefootalien

[@Svince54]

Lots of us get it. I lost my dad the first week of July. Everybody loved him, too. And I know he loved us. Remember that about your mom, rudetuesday. As a teacher, I love your work and your joy, Hank. Feel joy as often as you can. We all deserve to do that.

[@Dreaming_of_Adventures]

I'm so sorry for your loss. That's so hard and I hope you can relive so many good memories with her *sending support*

[@SomeGuyNamedTex]

I'm so sorry for your loss. She was obviously a great Mom though, Because you are a beautiful person. ❤ to you and your brother.

[@winslow8779]

"I know it's irrational, but so are a lot of my thoughts these days, so we're just working through them," is the thing I needed to hear someone else say so I could say it myself, you know, using the thoughts and words of the people we don't know who influence us. Thank you for posting, as always.

[@Makreads]

we need these words when we least expect to ever hear or need then

[@oreokitty333]

I remember having a teacher who had multiple rounds of chemo across several different experiences with cancer. Each time she lost her hair, it grew back thicker and darker. It was so strange to watch it happen over time. She taught multiple grades, so I was her student from the age of about 10 until I was 18. She also had children during this time, so I remember her very clearly as this super petite, thin blonde haired soroity-looking woman when I was a child to a dark brunette with coarse hair and a filled-out body when I was an adult myself. It was surreal to experience that transformative period in my life along with *her* incredibly transformative period of her life.

[@Selenerrrr89]

It’s like her character got replaced with a different actor haha.

[@oreokitty333]

@@Selenerrrr89 oh yeah. She got married during this time too so her name even changed. It was like they full on swapped out the wife in a sitcom and pretended like it never happened

[@gelfling]

Even without cancer, it's surprising how much our bodies continue to change over time. As a kid I thought you grew up, and then once grown up you were done with all that. But rerolling hair style is wild. I wonder if they can trigger that without the chemo.

[@oreokitty333]

@@gelfling Yeah, I'm friends with her on Facebook and she loves to share her memories on her TL because of how radically different she looks. If you focus on the face, it's the same lady with a few extra wrinkles but she doesn't even look like she's *related* to her old self. Edited to add: She does look a lot happier now, a lot less anxious and she's been going strong with over 5 years in remission! Just checked her page and figured it was worth mentioning.

[@MisterCynic18]

"I am growing stronger everyday"

[@captbarnes]

Papillary thyroid cancer gal here! I really appreciate your cancer content because it helps me not feel so alone. Thank you Hank ❤

[@rocar8664]

Agreed. I found out about my DLBL just before Hank found out about his cancer, so I feel like we went through it together!

[@silverbluelily]

Yep, I was diagnosed in Jan and then seeing Hank's diagnosis and others like me showing up in the comments has really helped.

[@mcmosfet2856]

I dont want to speak for anyone else, but as someone who's lost a loved one to cancer, I need to see and hear stories like yours, Hank. I don't know how to share or explain it properly, but after it was all "done", I felt like I'd lost all ability to hope, and I was filled with so much cynicism and bitterness at times. This is why I wish with all my heart for your survivor's guilt to pass. You shared your story, and I was able to see someone winning the fight, sharing their fears and hope and even just intellectual curiosity. Your fight with cancer reminded me that we *can* win, and that every "soldier" in this war on cancer saves more lives down the line. So let me say it one more time. Thank you, Hank Green. Thank you for sharing your fight. Thank you for sharing your fear and anxiety. And most of all, thank you for being Hank.

[@andieluke1366]

Thank you for this. As a cancer "survivor" for going on eight years now, I still struggle with survivor's guilt and impostor syndrome of being a survivor (to the point that I feel like I don't deserve the term and use quotation marks when talking to people). Others have had cancers far worse than mine, and despite going through mastectomy, chemo, radiation, and long term medication, it felt like I had the cheat code as my cancer mutation was of a low grade, and thus, not as aggressive. I've shared my experience with others going through chemo/radiation/surgery because I remembered how much I *didn't know* going into treatment, and how much learning from someone else's journey helped me. And yet I could not shake the feeling that I'm an impostor for sharing my experience, as if I don't deserve to share it. You have no idea how much I needed to hear your perspective. It was healing. Thank you.

[@thrivearia3470]

THIS!!! A milllion times this! I need to know someone else can survive and thrive having cancer. Partly because I feel like another person with cancer is an extension of my loved one and in some weird way they get to live on in another way. The other part is to remind me that a person can heal from this. I feel like I'm allowed to hope and pray for others. This isn't to pressure survivors. It's just really nice for those that have lost someone to see that you're here.

[@carong.3072]

I loved dropping the guilt from not donating all the time. I am also O- and an added guilt bonus from having "baby blood". Since I never had a specific virus that is dangerous for babies and immuno compromised, they would always call me for a donation in emergency situations. I always did my best and am so relieved to no longer feel that guilt.

[@matthewjanzen4837]

I relate to the note about survivor's guilt as someone who had non-life-threatening cancer as a kid. Even though it had a huge impact on my life at the time and I know survivor's guilt is irrational, I sometimes feel a little unqualified to speak on cancer. Btw if anyone's wondering, it has never come back in 15 years, and these days I'm doing great health-wise!

[@ninetailskwami]

wishing you many more years of health matthew.

[@just.8797]

But, but isn't all cancer life threatening

[@Hassan-zw9tb]

​@@just.8797some are more than others, funny to see him down play his cancer though

[@jamieblackhurst]

i feel this so hard right now. I’m just about to finish treatment for my seemingly very chilled and harmless thyroid cancer and I feel so much survivors guilt when i’m in my wards with others having a much worse time of life :(

[@matthewjanzen4837]

@@just.8797 I'm sure mine would have been if I never ever had treatment, but it was Stage 1 so it wasn't very concerning in that way

[@Dani1165]

When my sister "rerolled" she got the a full head of her natural color, no grays. Mid to late 30s (did chemo late 20s) and not a single gray, when gray comes early in our family. All the rest of us siblings started graying in our early to mid 20s. She also had some grays before the chemo made it fall out.

[@modern_eel]

I just found out my cancer is back for the second time, and it's most likely i will need chemo. For someone who has inspired my whole career journey, it's been a huge aide to be able to hear your experiences and know there's a way & a hope.

[@silverbluelily]

Good luck with chemo. Rest as much as you need and don't feel guilty about it. I've slept for 12 hrs after chemo cause I was really tired. Oh and if you get constipated, take a laxative loke restoralax before bed so you can have a bowel movement.

[@marsmurderer9868]

When you say your cancer is back for the second time do you mean you’ve been in remission twice? If so I can’t imagine that, my feelings would be so constantly mixed up. Either way, I hope you go into remission again and it doesn’t come back this time!

[@rakshanaaaa]

thats terrible knowing its come back, but i know you can beat the shit out of cancer a second time bro hang in there

[@Uhohlisa]

You’ve got this.

[@shilohstore6086]

Hope all goes well.... its nice when someone we idolize has a shared experience

[@macbuff81]

Both my parents passed due to cancer when I was in my mid 20s. Since then, I've been battling PTSD. Cancer not only affects the patient him of herself, but all of the folks who love you. I'm glad the treatment has been successful in your case. The new look suits you

[@Corvus_albus]

I DID think "Hank looks like a nerdier Jason Statham" from the thumbnail! 😂 Literally the first reaction.

[@vlogbrothers]

I'm done. I did it!

[@skylerwitherspoon]

I knew someone would!! Love that

[@eddiehayes1523]

I'm glad you're alive. I grew a beard after starting on testosterone. Took ages to come in but it's kind of wild and woolly now. My brother, on the other hand, had always found it hard to grow a beard. Turned out he has Klinefelter syndrome - the mosaic XY/XXY form. Now he's on testosterone injections too. He came to me with all sorts of questions. It's been so fascinating! Me, a transguy, answering questions from my cisgender brother about testosterone therapy. How weird and kind of cool is that?

[@emily-tg8wk]

this is so cool! :]

[@Me3stR]

This is the kind of story that more people need to know. Gender Affirming care, Of Any Kind, is Human Care. Thank you for sharing this!

[@GiantPetRat]

@@Me3stRNot only that, but as this poster demonstrates, it's care that can treat cis folks as well as trans folks.

[@Sunnylyndis]

Im glad you have a healthy relationship with your brother.

[@SarahWatchesStuff]

​@@GiantPetRatIt's true. As a post-menopausal cis woman, my natural testosterone levels started rising so now I take spironolactone to make it have less effect on me. As I understand it, this is the same med given to many trans women. Gender affirming care is for everyone.

[@Montgomerygolfgator]

You and your brother have made *A lot* of content. Content that has been and will continue to be archived. A fault in our stars will be sitting on the shelf of a library collection for generations to come, and scishow is not only useful as a science education aid today, but also a yardstick for future science educators to come. I am extremely certain, decades after we're all gone, someone will load some media into a machine and from it's speakers will say "Good morning John!"

[@climatechangeisrealyoubast3231]

that is really amazing to think about actually. just imagine us being some of the ones that were alive to experience the vlog brothers when they were still alive. something some people in the future might yearn for. I often get this feeling with bands that I like which arent around anymore, like imagine being in the crowd in one of the beatles concerts, it's just mind blowing to think that we are part of something similar, all the time without realizing how special it might be in the future for future people

[@Skjoldborg8]

The complete filterless honesty is nothing less than wonderful! I didn’t knew the thing about hair types and colors able to change after chemo, but it makes sense with the gene-reset. I know you turned all existential in the end of the video, but as another John (Mayer) learned me in a song “the heart of life is good”. And you guys do so much good in so many ways. So yeah, as always thank you guys so much for all the inspiration! 🙏✨ Stay weird and nerdy please! 🫶

[@ButyoucancallmeKat]

The hair thing happened to my cousin! It curled into these beautiful tendrils and was so glossy and healthy! It’s been a few years and it’s pretty much returned to normal. Might be the same for you! Enjoy having different hair for a while!

[@minnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn]

Yes! My mom's hair changed from brown and curly to black and straight - was odd! Also returned to normal after a few years.

[@ShaynaButler]

Mine was curly when it grew back until it got past my shoulders

[@der_noa]

​@@ShaynaButlerthat's fascinating. So, your hair has to have been partially curly and also straight at one point, right? Like curly at the end and straight at the root?

[@skylerwitherspoon]

ngl when I told my husband about your chemo beard, he knew this was a bad reaction and would never do it, but his first thought was that he wanted to try.....as someone who has always struggled with facial hair haha. sooo your fears are not unfounded 😬

[@Avendesora]

I'm a trans man and I had the same reaction lmao. My hair is still changing from the hormones so I don't know where I'm gonna end up when it's all said and done, but right now I'd kill for some of this neckbeard to start creeping higher up my chin 😂

[@kaymarx9677]

@@Avendesora Welcome to the beard club, new guy. Nothing wrong with being a work in progress.

[@GuidingOlive]

Man, I'm in the same boat. Not quite on a first name basis with my facial hair (except tom on my left cheek and jerry on my right) but as a Mexican male the inability to grow a goatee hurts a lot.

[@smitleystacey]

I recently heard about a kind of chemo that essentially makes your blood toxic and, as a side effect, instantly kills mosquitos, and my immediate thought was "ooh, I gotta get some of THAT". (Obviously, I wouldn't try to get on chemo just to wipe out the local mosquito population, but it's been a very buggy summer and I'm not surprised that my mind went there.)

[@MommyGojo69]

​@@Avendesora When I first started getting facial hair I had the same problem, but I don't take HRT so hopefully that doesn't make much of a difference. Love ya, and stay strong.

[@mrbfros454]

I love that you can be so real and genuine with your thoughts and feelings and insecurities. Saying those things out loud will help a ton of people realize that their own fears and insecurities are nothing to be ashamed of or weirded out by. Being real like that leaves you very vulnerable and I’m so grateful that you are brave enough to do that.

[@fictionalhuman]

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[@coolbabbit639]

Hanks videos these past few months have helped me so much because of this. Thank you for putting it into words

[@spidermeadows]

I think this is gonna be one of the ones I come back to often. Hank just processing, in what appears a very honest manner, for like 7min and then just such a wonderful ending. Thank you for sharing what you have of your journey through cancer with us. I know that we don't have any right to know all of it and I'm grateful to have learned as much as I have through your process.

[@amberbydreamsart5467]

My grandma recently got cancer that she, as an 86 year old widow, decided to not do anything to treat and let it gracefully be her cause of death whenever it comes to that. It's been helpful to see your journey and get a sense of that.. breadth of experience with this disease and also fully understand why she's choosing to not try to beat it back. I think it is the best decision for her and now there's nothing to do but enjoy the time. In the end it's just a slightly faster clock than we thought.

[@rayaqueen9657]

Enjoy this beautiful time together 🧡

[@adventurousmagpie4598]

" a slightly faster clock than we thought" is such a beautiful way of conceptualizing it. I wish you and your grandmother joy

[@nightingalebard]

My mom was a redhead before chemo and ended up having the same auburn brown hair that I do once she entered remission. It also went from straight to wavy. She loved her red hair, so it was incredibly difficult for her to process, but we also all found it super interesting. She's been in remission since 2006, and it's still auburn and wavy to this day! But she's also in her 60s, so at this point, we're more in awe that she still hasn't had a grey hair yet. Genetics, a weird side effect, or both? Time will tell!

[@maddymartin2240]

My dad is the same way w the late greying! It’s almost like when his hair grew back it was baby hair again and the timer restarted

[@Sovereignty3]

As some one that got grey hairs in my early 20's late teens, that is so cool.

[@ellie-oaks]

I don't know exactly how gray hair work, my mom and 2 of her sisters have gray hair, and one of her sister, the third one, can count her gray hair, and all of them are 70+ years old

[@kezia8027]

I had three strokes in the last 12 months, and you sharing your feelings around survivors guilt made me realise I'm feeling this way too. I feel like I need to be grateful for how well I survived, and that because I can walk and talk I don't have a right to complain... Even though my life is dramatically different, I'm "not that bad" so I feel like complaining or being upset isn't fair to those who are vegetative, who can't walk or talk or feed themselves. I truly wish the best for you, and hope you can continue to be kind to yourself while you heal

[@barefootalien]

I've lived with severe health issues my whole life, starting with being born with a tumor in my spinal cord. Like you, I can walk (ish) and not wear a diaper, so I've often felt like I'm supposed to feel grateful for that, instead of horrified at what I go through every day. One truth I've learned through that is this: Everybody's problems suck for them. Everybody's pain hurts for them. There's absolutely no use in comparing or in judging someone else by how they deal with their own pain and problems. Everybody has the right to complain about their suffering, and everyone deserves to have those complaints validated and sympathized with. It's a fundamental human right to seek that kind of catharsis. I used to compare myself to Steven Hawking... how much he did with his life, with much worse health problems and more pervasive disabilities than mine... and how little I've done with mine. But I've come to accept (most of the time, anyway; it's still a struggle some days) that that's just not a healthy mentality, or a valid comparison. I'm sure it was horrifying to be him, to have his body take away more and more capability... but that pushed him into his mind, with nowhere else to go. Would he have done all he did if instead his most harrowing symptom was _pain?_ Which comes with relentless wave after wave of sternly reinforced depression and emotional and spiritual exhaustion... I dunno. Maybe he would've. Maybe not. Does it matter? Nope. He had his issues, and dealt with them how he dealt with them, and I have mine, and... everybody but me seems really impressed with how I've faced mine throughout my life, so I can only conclude that there's just no point in comparing. Feel how you feel, and don't judge yourself for it. Sit with your feelings and be at peace, brother/sister.

[@JHaven-lg7lj]

@@barefootalien What a wonderful way to frame the issue - we all need to remember that our struggles are valid, and not negated by someone else’s successes.

[@elizaalmabuena]

complain complain complain! complaining is a useful de-stressor..... just be reasonably mindful of others. Mention it is a general rant (something you want to voice out), if they say it is too much for them don't involve them in the rants, and note down any stuff that could be good to go over with a professional (make sure you are willing to talk to said professional before you seek one out).

[@hollyl5702]

Also there is no such thing as not getting hurt enough by cancer. Having known people who died and are dying of it, I am so grateful you are here with us and so sorry for the pain and anxiety you went through.

[@Billywashere89]

The new office WORKS for the format

[@coryleaver31]

Jesse, we have to make a Vlogbrothers video

[@GreenEyedGuardian_]

I was waiting for this

[@FiXato]

MAGNETS!

[@Dootdodeet]

Walter Green

[@catfein9827]

Yes this was my first thought!!!!

[@drcatboy9278]

I'll also say this. Even if videos don't keep getting posted after you die, your presence, your videos, your art, your...you, your EVERYTHING is still here. I just lost one of my longest online friends to cancer. We were tumblr mutuals for over 10 years. She wrote fanfic, we played d&d together, and she has a couple popular posts. And it is both a blessing a great source of heartache when I see one of her fics or posts get passed around and ends up on my dash again. It shocks me -- like I could just message her right now and still get a response. That she's still here, I still love her, and what she wrote about mattered. Our little time online mattered, and a great part of her that she chose to share with us is still here. So it doesn't even need to be pre-planned...I think the internet has made the world's most interesting archive of ourselves, and a blessing of records for those we lost.

[@Katkit91108]

That is beautiful ❤

[@batintheattic7293]

Isn't it wonderful, though. A hundred years ago we had to be published writers or actors or artists or something to leave the kind of legacy you're talking about. Your friend, in a way, may be 'around' for as long as civilisation endures. Her musings could well survive our species.

[@vigilantcosmicpenguin8721]

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[@briansmobile1]

That's a tall empty bottle of existential crisis in your hand there Hank. You may have had a bit too much to think. ; D Great to see you! I'm glad you're still alive. Thanks for sharing your honest thoughts and experiences. Love you man!

[@m.c24601]

4:48, you don't have to suffer and\or die in order to share your journey with others. Every journey is different and worthy of being listened to. I feel like I have to say it to myself as well

[@mirnder]

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[@finchthebird]

The creeping conclusion of the content that Hank makes isn't about him, but about us, brought a tear to my eye. So wholesome and pure and Good. Thanks for being a person for us to look up to, thanks for all the laughs and learning, thanks for all the hard work you've put in over the years, and thank you for fighting and staying healthy and stickin around. I look forward to a GREAT BIG BUSHY BEARD

[@Sammy-t7x]

It was so nice of Hank to reassure us during the last 15 seconds. This amazing man. Always thinking of others regardless of what he is going through. One day I hope to be as awesome as that.

[@Darpeh]

Missed opportunity for a new conspiracy theory.

[@mandarinadreux9572]

i love everything about this video. it was so raw, so unhinged, so weird and yet so vulnerable and real. i'm so glad you beat the cancer hank. i've been feeling a lot of anxiety these days and your words just legit helped lighten my mood. thank you

[@annaeeee7516]

This was the most delightful, random, and existential video I've watched. Thank you for sharing with us Hank!

[@EmmaAnimalWelfare]

Couldn't agree more, perfect description :)

[@akashayi]

Empathized when you talked about work+health anxieties not cancelling each other out. My therapist had a useful set of analogies and explanations for anxiety and in my case severe ptsd that maybe folks here might find useful... but there's the wave form of stresses and anxiety producing events and a window of tolerance which can be made smaller over time by trauma and other stress and also the waves of anxiety or repeated trauma are additive and will become bigger waves that may surpass the window of tolerance threshold - the work is both how to increase that window and also be mindful of where the waves are at. Personally took great comfort in how logical that is/was

[@batintheattic7293]

I like that. It's a good analogy. Did your therapist say anything about whether the waveforms could be made shallower again? Big window and gentle waves - that's got to be the sweet spot. Have you made any progress? Have you (because I can't see how it is possible) managed to map out where the waves are coming in from and when they will arrive at the aperture? Is there a rhythm to the waves (there isn't to mine - I don't think) or can a rhythm be imposed on them? I wonder why it's possible to shrink the aperture in the first place. It must serve some evolutionary purpose. Is it for when we are experiencing prolonged periods of threat (we close it up and then the crashing waves create more life saving fight/flight/freeze hormones)?

[@tinadixon6605]

I have lupus, and the "treatment ", is chemo. My hair didn't fall out, but grew in curly. The curly 80's hair, I always wanted, I suddenly have. I mean it is falling out in clumps, but it is still that lovely curly hair.

[@elainebelzDetroit]

How often do you have to get chemo, and is this a long-term thing? Sounds so awful, but so does lupus. ❤

[@Goblin1986p]

My wife has lupus and had to get chemo when she was in college....gatta kill that immune system thats killin her I guess? One thing though is that she still is able to donate blood, is that just specific state by state?

[@Goblin1986p]

@@elainebelzDetroit if its anything like my wife, its only when the lupus flares up so bad that its a danger to you and your organs. Its a mitigation game as much as possible until you HAVE to act.

[@okayyish]

​@@Goblin1986pthe blood thing is because of the cancer, not the chemo so that's probably why she can still donate blood

[@an_birb]

​@@Goblin1986pI would assume the blood donation issue is because Hank had lymphoma, which affects the person's blood cells, not because of the chemo. Most cancer patients are allowed to give blood a year after treatment ends

[@p1nkeye01]

I first became aware of your content through school, watching it in class with my old friends. My mum died of cancer early this april. Take advantage of your life and I wish you the absolute best in your recovery hank! You've influenced far more lives than you can ever know

[@lyricholmes1827]

I discovered Claire Wineland through vlogbrothers and Mental Floss (thank you Hank & John!) and it was quite bizarre to see videos posted to Claire’s channel by her family & friends after her passing - but it was also a little beautiful too. Any unfinished content or old clips Claire never got round to posting to her new channel still got the chance to touch & impact people after her death because of her loved ones and I often re-watch her content. Her video ‘what it feels like to die’ is an absolute banger - and helped me a lot when coming to terms with my own mortality lol & made me think about what it means to be alive. It was also nice to see her family sit down and chat about Claire - in an effort to keep her memory alive. Especially since I often watch back videos of my late sister and talk about her a lot with family in an effort to do the same thing. Sometimes I feel a little bit of survivor’s guilt because I’m here and my sister’s not but my being alive doesn’t take away anything from anyone else. I deserve to live. Ask A Mortician who I also discovered through vlogbrothers (thank you again Hank & John!!) was also a big help in healing my relationship with death and having a much more healthy outlook on life.

[@MacMcNurgle]

Cancer free one year. Aide affects still hitting. Thank you sir. Listening to your journey is helping me on mine.

[@crazybiogeek]

Yeah, it's weird cause I only have discovered this summer, months after being done with treatments, that I can't tolerate heat like I used to. I feel like I'm weak, wanting to rest when it's hot out rather than my husband who seems to run around unaffected no matter what the weather is.

[@thecloneguyz]

I was shocked to find out that there's nobody studying how people got it and looking for the common denominator amongst all these people who catch it or have it

[@morningstarkid07]

I love the way The Format™ makes us all feel closer to you guys. I know it usually pops up because of sadness, anxiety, stress, etc., but hearing you guys talk through stuff is a major source of hope and positivity for me.

[@rebeccashuford348]

I am loving The Format era.

[@AdaCrowley]

This video is an entire vibe really and I love it. As someone who has lived a life surrounded by and inadvertently experiencing a variety of disabilities and illnesses, I think it's really valuable to hear these kind of experiences from others who are newly working through these things because like, heck, we all experience a lot of similar things and just hearing other people process it makes you feel a lot less alone.

[@BSwitchGTG]

I need SO many more of this Hank-of-consciousness content. It's fantastic. Glad you're doing better, if not still feeling weirdly different, Hank.

[@HeisenbergFam]

Hank has entered Disney villain arc and im all here for it

[@julesc1989]

Your profile pic is giving Hank

[@ilyarepin9490]

HEISENHANK

[@petridishproductions]

I think hank could accomplish world domination if he really wanted to. Especially with nerdfighteria on his side... lol

[@RamenNoodle1985]

It cracks me up that I see you on almost all the same channels I watch! DFTBA fam!

[@xeracia]

I love having you at my side as I go through the chemo journey. 'Rerolling my hair' has been such a fascinating experience to go through. I'm kinda excited to see what my new hair looks like. Hope your 'second hair' is fabulous!

[@Xonikz]

Hank, you'll never know the impact you've had on my life; but thank you. I'm glad you're a survivor.

[@agerardi125]

I'm very glad Hank mentioned he was still alive at the end of this video. My brain would not calm down until that happened.

[@spnkrr]

Selfishly, I'm so glad you're recovering. More Hank content makes a lot of people happy.

[@GaviLazan]

The major 7 days, but no one ever talks about the 6 minor ones.

[@caitlindonovanwest9192]

my favorite is captain Picard day..... "it's for the children"

[@CzechNeight]

The sharps and flats of the week.

[@muchdoge8351]

Leap day is a minor one probably

[@quain5063]

And it goes like this, the fourth, the fifth, the minor falls and the major lifts

[@IcyMidnight]

Tuesnesday

[@Cartercaramel]

I just started treatment (not chemo or radiation) for my brain cancer, so I'm going back and watching some of these videos. It brings me a lot of hope. Thanks, Hank.

[@ThisIsMarta]

You probably won’t see this, but I’m a Hodgkin’s Lymphoma stage 4B survivor. I only very recently went into remission, and while I’m relieved I don’t have to do chemo anymore (it was really bad for me, the cancer wasn’t responding with the standard ABVD) the post-chemo journey is certainly something that can be hard. It feels like a different kind of battle. I know it’s different for everyone, but I really appreciate you sharing your thoughts, even when things got difficult. It helped me and I’m sure it will help many others in similar situations. I relate to a lot of what you’ve said in this video, I’m sure I’m not alone in that. Sending much love in this new phase of your life!

[@Inthemains]

Congrats on the remission! 😊

[@galaxychar]

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[@katherinetopping7267]

I am a 2 time cancer "survivor". I use the term survivor loosely because I like you have survivor guild. I came through relatively unscathed from both experiences having to have only surgery for one and then a very short course of radiation for the other. Both times within less than 2 months I was considering remission. I see what other people have to go through and I feel like what I went through shouldn't even count as cancer because it wasn't that hard, even in the moments where it was scary.

[@ccreel64]

Thank you for saying what so many of us go through post cancer and chemo and don’t feel comfortable enough to say. It’s definitely a roller coaster. 🤗

[@dylanh8163]

In a weird universal coincidence: I reignited my interest in this channel and scishow stuff right around when Hank announced that he had cancer, maybe a few weeks before. I had seen interactions on twitter with d20 and all of that, and I was a fan in high school but it had been a minute for sure. So to come back right around a really difficult time was one thing, but then also for it to coincide with Mentopolis, which has rapidly become my favorite side quest of all of d20? I'm not sure, I know that things are random and there isn't always a meaning but I can still be thankful that Hank is doing better, that I have found a source of wholesome positivity in a complex time of my own, and that I have things that I can enjoy and that feel like they're adding more positivity to the world.

[@entercreativename]

Long time lurker and a little younger than you. I had to start hemodialysis last November due to an autoimmune disorder. The more of these videos I've listened to from you about chemo, the more similarities it seems we have. From hair loss to nausea to not being able to donate blood to so many psychological things and deep philosophies about the status of our bodies, and so many medications. I just got a new one today for migraines, which I think puts me at 32 prescriptions, OTC meds, and supplements, all recommended by doctors. And the anxiety is so so real, same with the brain fog, and fatigue. Naps are very good! So are your vids! I am so glad you are doing better and starting to grow that awesome beard!

[@_maxgray]

Really enjoying seeing new tiny bits of the newish office while Hank muses!

[@annp322]

What lovely stream of consciousness post. Now imagine me, as a woman, getting post chemo facial hair that I never had before. That was fun. Fortunately, it was also short lived. Now six months post chemo, my hair is back to it normal color, but it’s hella thick, thicker than my normally thick hair, and curly. At the moment, I walk past a mirror and think I’m looking at Lyle Lovett. What a journey this has all been. Keep posting, alive or dead.

[@hantana7861]

I really relate to the oh things can still work ok without me. I feel like I have to help and be there and do the stuff and sometimes I’m so so stressed and I don’t wanna be there but there I am. And recently I’ve finally got to step back a bit and life is still stressful but I’m not at my job as much and wouldn’t you know, the place is still functioning. There are some me specific things I caught up on but the place isn’t falling apart cuz I’m clocking less hours. Makes me feel like I set things up alright to succeed and also like I mean nothing when I feel very essential lol. I’m glad you’re on the other side of cancer Hank. I’ve lost too many people this year and I’m really glad you’re still here to share these thoughts and feelings with us. ❤

[@Dreaming_of_Adventures]

Yeeeaaah... The anxieties just pile on don't they 🙃 also understand the survivor's guilt. I downplay my cancer journey all the time because I didn't go through chemo and it wasn't life threatening. I'm so glad you're talking about this Hank . Also glad you're alive haha but also seriously ❤ I will never forget the impact you make on my life. You've inspired me to record my experiences and share them. Thank you thank you thank you

[@ledgekindred]

Hey, fellow "survivor" here. I have the same "survivor guilt" that you and Hank mention. I went through radiation and surgery for my prostate cancer, and they killed the **** out of it. But it felt so ... effortless compared to some of the other people I saw at the radio-therapy office. It really shames me to call myself a "cancer survivor" for that reason. There are many of us, so don't feel alone out there, and as for survivor guilt? I wish I had an answer.

[@Dreaming_of_Adventures]

@@ledgekindred Hello! Thank you so much for sharing your story. I'm glad you made it to the other side. I don't have an answer either but like you said it's comforting to know we're not alone. I do try to remind myself that it's not a comparison game you know? We all go through our journeys. And no one's journey is less or more than anyone else's right? Like we all just have to be as kind and supportive of each other as we can be. That includes giving ourselves some of that kindness and support. I'm sure your experience had its difficulties even you've come out relatively unscathed. Also I don't know if you felt this but hearing the word cancer when they tell you felt both so unreal and also like a death sentence. Which is an emotional battle in and of itself. Hope you are doing well in your life 😊

[@alleycaaat]

I think this was the best version of The Format yet, the lighting is so calming and your voice was so soothing.

[@azurexeruza]

Hey Hank, I see your frenetic video canter and branching conversation. It really speaks to the bursting branching adhd "I realized a thing that has shifted my perspective on so many other things!". I'm both glad for your epiphany and acutely aware of how shaky this sort of thing has made me in the past and hope you've got the support to help you through it all. Much love, dude.

[@Zoly633]

Im so thankful for you posting your journey. My mom had cancer 5 times and she is still kicking. Im currently going through my first cancer scare, go in later this week for an ultrasound and mentally I’m all over the place…but seeing your videos is so calming. Thank you for being awesome

[@da1stamericus]

Hope you got a positive outcome zoly.

[@JamesPray58]

You are by far my favorite scientist alive today. In a comedic sense you’re time on Dimension 20 was one of my favorites, the facts were amazing. You’re medical videos were my actual favorites and lead me to great success in my LMT schooling. Definitely the reason I still know what a Sarcomere is. Positive thoughts going your way. You got this. ❤