William Basinski - Disintegration Loops 6 (D|p 6)

[@bradleyhuffstetler4794]

Late at night, when your body is tired but you can't sleep, put on your shoes and go find a usually busy spot. Sit down and observe it while it's silent - this is that feeling.

[@neptune1411]

Youre on to someting and i tink you know it.

[@ImageNationProject]

Spot on

[@richardiritano1197]

You have quintessentially captured the essence of a normally busy spot during the few nightly hours that silence prevails; so brilliant of your great mind to envision what that must be like, Bradley Huffstetler. Thank you for connecting to my likeminded sentiments.

[@mikeryan2454]

Depending on where you choose it could also be breaking and entry.

[@szymonwnuk366]

&& a feeling of a wednesday morning ten days past acid before visiting the marea negra for a morning walk with your cat on a skinny white leash before anyone is awake…

[@sebhma]

this video is perfect. i have always had a soft spot for radio masts etc. blinking in the distance. its as if they give more life to the city than the city can itself, telling us that there is always more to a place than we can know at any given point. ok this is messy.

[@pun2961]

+sebhma I totally get it man. I agree. They're comforting in a way.

[@sebhma]

+Pun Pun they're like a guardian of sorts i guess, they give the city a lot of agency in a way?

[@jasonm911]

it is another language

[@logicalfallacy234]

Wow, someone said what I've been feeling for years. I love radio masts too.

[@sebhma]

they make me feel small but also powerful

[@precisiontime]

It is incredible how you can focus on listening to this and never get bored...

[@reflectionless]

“Ambient music must be able to accommodate many levels of listening attention without enforcing one in particular, it must be as ignorable as it is interesting.” -Eno

[@davidcopson5800]

@@reflectionless Yes, perfect response.

[@BushyHairedStranger]

Like a lovers heartbeat, the slow rhythmic pulse, or holding hands on a hot summer sidewalk, sweet smiles passing by behind rain soaked windows. We fold time with our souls that it may return to those we’ve never met yet always loved.

[@dixienormous6969]

@@BushyHairedStranger that's fckin beautiful

[@eepstein8001]

endlessly both awestruck and affirming

[@om3g4z3r0]

when you finish your life the credits roll and this music plays

[@richardiritano1197]

What brilliant poetry, TheHueisOver! Alas, if only everyone could speak with such meaning and softness...

[@marcdoutherd3424]

I don't think too many lives are this exciting.

[@corinnejordan5863]

Thank you for the laugh 😊 Not a bad way to exit.

[@fleaship6134]

My aunt died a few weeks ago so I'm here listening to William's beautiful loops to mourn and reminisce.

[@confidence9516]

respect to you. glad that such wise people do exist. hope you'll feel the connection with infinity. me too

[@mateocuilleron1116]

This music reminds me of an apartment a friend and I rented in Berlin, Germany a few years ago. We spent two months there, and our bed was right against the window on the 12th floor of the building. The view was breathtaking. I spent so many hours watching the days unfold: light changes, the sun going up and down, clouds moving, city lights and the Fernsehturm… On the last day my friend had left, I remember sitting in our bed and staring at the view one last time. It was such a powerful moment. I am grateful this kind of music is here to remind me of it.

[@mezykin]

Sounds exactly like the whole of last year when I moved to the 7th floor in a flat on Edgware Road in London. I could see the BT Tower in the background and The Shard a bit further away. And many times I'd just leave my phone by the big window to produce a timelapse of the day with the camera. Quite a few times I got to catch rainbows and even double rainbows. All while this piece of William Basinski played in the background.

[@sebbosebbo9794]

Bearcity greets from the ,,Telespargel"

[@BushyHairedStranger]

Heights & blinking lights,…our experience living as humans is to discover the unity of consciousness. That every moment is an opportunity to not only see, but be divine! Upon high I glimpse the fiery molten star of my heart!

[@Samuel-ve3wx]

This song reminds me of not being able to sleep for hours, tossing and turning, and then finally that feeling when you know you're falling asleep and the relief from it. It's like you worked hard for it and earned it

[@lowerpark4264]

i lived in Guadalajara for 3 years and recognized it in the photo. Good times.

[@demianortega1398]

was there 4 years, surreal experiences

[@transientsmile]

Ahh so that's where this is? I find it comforting because it reminds me of some of the views in San Diego.

[@himorichkel6676]

Sabía que era Guadalajara, por esto vine a ver los comentarios. Gracias.

[@djrai61]

@@himorichkel6676 Guadalajara, Mejico supongo. No Guadalajara España. Preciosa e hipnótica música. Gracias por la información.

[@PutredHedlund]

C E R R O D E L C U A T R O

[@louisrichards3160]

Back a year later. Christmas Eve laying in bed being transported to God knows where. Even if you’re spending Christmas alone, you are not alone🙏💐

[@henryafro]

Merry christmas !

[@CROWIntruder]

This aged well

[@om3g4z3r0]

Given that your body is like a planet to several different bacteries, viruses and cells, you literaly cannot ever be truly alone.

[@AloneDBY]

I kept this on loop while preparing for an important exam. The day I passed it, the father of my girlfriend died. Five years later, I keep coming back to this song as a completely different man, with that very same girl still at my side. Ultimately, what is life, if not an eternal loop? A longing for the past while moving forward?

[@foreverfuturebound]

This is unrelated, but I love your profile picture, Daft Punk are my favorite musicians of all time :)

[@VisualDrone12]

_A longing for the past while moving forward._ Jesus, man.

[@intricaterayspace4353]

So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past…

[@om3g4z3r0]

A spiral.

[@TVBehemoth]

I heard DLP 1 first. A friend insisted that I listen to it and when she played it for me I couldn't believe it. The range of emotions and feeling within that one piece of music floored me. But when I finally heard this piece (DLP 6) I was absolutely transported. It took me back to a feeling that I'd had all my life, or at least as long as I can remember. It was simultaneously tranquil and reassuring, but also filled with melancholy and a tired wisdom. It is the feeling of life right here in a single song. It is so special to me and a real treat when I sit down to listen to it. It feels so personal, but it's really great to see that so many people share an appreciation for it. I love this vid, and come back to it now and again. Thanks for sharing.

[@anirudhwodeyar8782]

"It was simultaneously tranquil and reassuring, but also filled with melancholy and a tired wisdom." - what a wonderful way to express how this music feels. I've struggled to express just that for a long time.

[@M.as.e]

This loop honestly changed my life. Such a reflective and peaceful song for me and the footage chosen is honestly breathtaking. I sound very pretentious right now but I love this to death thank you for uploading it

[@jasondean9767]

Not pretentious at all... I know exactly what you mean... Sublime...

[@davidcopson5800]

@@jasondean9767 I was going to say just that.

[@allietarasova3560]

Meh we are all pretentious here anyway. Same tho

[@ghostninja5035]

The Disintegration Loops are often described as depressing, but I find this one to be really calming.

[@tommygarbage237]

@kjikj_x thats exactly it!!

[@VisualDrone12]

I find it almost unbearable, especially with this video. As if a heavily concentrated dose of pure, unaltered melancholy was injected into my heart. All poetry ever written shouted out in a single, unintelligible, primal word.

[@KeyBrute]

@@VisualDrone12bruh

[@KeyBrute]

@user-xs4zk7yk6k yeah that’s women in the west

[@ponponpatapon9670]

@@KeyBrute KeyIncel

[@sellout87]

Life is strange.

[@MountainJohn]

Strange means compared to something normal. If life is strange, what would normal life look like?

[@sellout87]

@@MountainJohn Marmalade

[@MountainJohn]

@@sellout87 indeed

[@richjones7313]

yes it is

[@pollen113]

​@@MountainJohn death

[@pepemonjess]

08:04 Fireworks!

[@polycass]

I wish I could see each person in the comments, look them in the eyes and give them a silent hug without words. You are the best!

[@om3g4z3r0]

if you see me you run.

[@fucsiajunio5488]

I feel the same.

[@POLARTTYRTM]

I always liked to look to the distance, it makes me so calm and relaxed. I keep imagining what is going on there, what are these lights, the story of the life of the people that live there, how it looks so peaceful and beautiful, the external world, and its problems seem to fade away for some time, it is a feeling I can't find words to describe, it is so astonishing. This video makes me travel in time, in space, in emotion, distant dreams and memories, there's no word for the feeling I get from this, this is pure magic.

[@hardcore_w00dland_creature18]

I've never seen such a sense of clarity in a comments section. My open eyes seek your open eyes. Bismillah.

[@antoinedevldn]

Now I don't do anxiety anymore, but when I was in college this was my way to handle a panic attack. Thanks a lot the help of your awesome music.

[@MatheusMPL]

may the eternity beyond death be accompanied by this kind of music

[@BushyHairedStranger]

Note the blinking communication tower lights in the distance,...I’m there now waving to you all. All is Loved

[@redwolfe7049]

Me looking at the tower waving back to you 👋🏾👋🏾👋🏾

[@gjnelsondotcom]

Thank you.

[@gheuk984]

The disintegration loops never gets old. I've listened to this Basinski piece for years. As humans we age, keep moving along in life and people come and go in life. Then something like this piece comes along and stays with you forever. When you are alone and put this going on a good pair of headphones and sit back and think about everyone/everything that has come and gone in life...it's hard to explain the feelings and thoughts I have. Not bad ones, just a unique feeling/state of mind comes around. Also, what city is this in this video...

[@gardenboydon]

Reading the comments for this song was a real pleasure.. shows the power of ambient music. I love it

[@Polemicahead-c5s]

what was before the chicken or the egg? id bet that many people who discover ambient music and like it is because they had solitary experiences in quiet places, like in this video, looking at a landscape on your own, without music

[@jlg0351]

haunting and beautiful. like waking from a dream

[@pablosmith5473]

If I had one single piece of music to pick for listening at the end of my life and played for eternity while I float forever, that would be it.

[@simeonstylites5800]

It has something cosmogonic . It seems to contain within itself the secret of existence in its infinite reverberation. One of my favorite pieces with Caprice - Celer; Transience - Andrea Calligaris; All this has Passed Forever - Abul Mogard

[@DanHarrisonKing]

It's like you're waiting for the snare drum of 'West End Girls' to kick in, but it never does...

[@BushyHairedStranger]

Westttt endddd gurrrlsss!

[@DanHarrisonKing]

​@@BushyHairedStranger*bom bom bom-bom*

[@bernardokubrick]

honey for the soul

[@johnconnelly2003]

I love that there are people who love this as much as I do, it is brilliant. I love watching the city lights dim as the piece proceeds to a period of stillness. May 2023 magical trip to Mexico, flew in and out of Guadalajara , driving to the city I saw a vista and was like “holy shit that looks like the video” , got to my hotel and looked out my window to see this view. A moment that confirmed I was on a journey, and was in the right path. Peace and blessings to all, thank you to whoever married the music to the video❤

[@DanielRodriguez-lp6gr]

so it is Gudalajara! This is where I live, cool experience you had, blessings.

[@AudioPervert1]

heard him live in Barcelona last year, two hours later people were in another universe, standing or sitting or laying down in the venue.. was epic minimalism...

[@ColinFowler]

Ambient shows should come with a pillow to relax with.

[@gardenboydon]

Seeing Ambient live must be an incredible experience..

[@silverspaceflyer]

That's just fucking beautiful !

[@reverseretreatrecall]

im so happy to be alive

[@kewlec7855]

if you check how the disintegration loops were done, it's almost as if they were made by themselves through basinski. If it weren't for chance these loops would probably never been published, left archived in storage forever.

[@vertsk8er419]

I have the feeling whoever uploaded this was staring at this mountain while listening to this by themselves and had such a response to it that they had to grab the hd camera and share it with the world...

[@lsd322]

This is a "loop" from heaven

[@drew9312]

lsd322 So true...

[@spoonssoup6739]

Cameron Yamaguchi why is there always someone

[@banjogyro]

If a "loop" from heaven existed, this would be it.

[@Anjuna921]

I have no words to describe what I feel to hear these magical sounds !! I am flying my eternal dreams !! thanks for sharing with us dreamers!

[@brandonluco]

A couple months ago I was just staring at Niagara Falls from my hotel room while this song was playing on my laptop, I just sat back and watched the falls till the song was over, so calming.

[@yossarian1633]

i could easily envision this going quite well with watching waterfall/s

[@NeverRubARhubarb]

No way. I was listening to a recording of Niagara Falls while watching someone in their hotel room staring at Niagara Falls who was listening to this track. Coincidence? I don't think so!

[@misius164]

A 40 minute piece that might absolve you of you fear of death

[@dareboiman1020]

I listen to this everyday, sure it's simple and is just an endless loop. But there's something about it that I cannot explain, something profoundly beautiful. To me it sounds like an ambient noise that can occur in nature....perhaps the harmony of the entire universe

[@polycass]

I am so happy that I found this masterpiece

[@raingirlcat2245]

William found a GOOD tape loop/sample, then repeated it with reverb/tape echo until disintegration.

[@dareboiman1020]

@@raingirlcat2245 Yeah, your point?

[@viviondioline]

I wish I could be where this is.

[@simonestramigioli3538]

I wish i could wear this !

[@marcosraul9541]

It's Guadalajara, México.

[@demianortega1398]

trust me u dont lol

[@davidcopson5800]

@@demianortega1398 He might mean where the music takes him, not the city featured in the video.

[@drew9312]

This music is another spiritual level- gets to my soul every time. Amazing.

[@mikewatson2055]

Makes the hairs stand up on my arms. A brilliant piece of music.

[@dougjohnson3299]

The experience of listening to this and the other disintegrating loops brings the trials of life and death into a sublime focus. Thank you, Mr. Basinski. My friend has Parkinson's. It's difficult witnessing the process of his mental deterioration. This music makes it less unbearable.

[@alanwood4717]

XO.

[@unknown-np3ii]

Macquarie Ridge by BoC vibes

[@poish]

you're right, very similar actually, but beautiful in it's own way

[@drew9312]

Yes, very much so

[@banjogyro]

Heard From Telegraph Lines by BoC vibes.

[@vertsk8er419]

music, video, comments; all beautiful... my favorite part of youtube.

[@one_man_community]

Sounds like acceptance.

[@Plastic_Clouds]

I love this one! I'm torn between this and 1 being my fave. This is so good and anyone the 66 people who gave it a thumbs down are clearly possessed by Satan.

[@davidcopson5800]

6 and 1 are the best two in my opinion also. I actually like this best because it doesn't disintegrate.

[@stevebeck3863]

I don't know what city lights those are, but I am reminded of flying into LA. Those lights and this music are mesmerizing.

[@ChristopherPesqueira]

It is Guadalajara Mexico.

[@NeverRubARhubarb]

And all the while a great wind carries you across the sky.

[@dixienormous6969]

The Sopranos?

[@antonimalachowski5262]

I think he meant the airplane at 14:30

[@esprocsllib]

@@antonimalachowski5262 no, it's a Sopranos quote

[@drew9312]

Beautiful- gives me the feeling of another life I've lived but I can't quite put my finger on it. Never have I been able to listen to a music loop for so long with it still sounding so fresh...

[@giovanna8187]

I get that "another life lived" feeling as well. Remembrances of another dimension.

[@RonHutchCraft2]

this is the best video of it's kind on KZbin, especially since the video is not Ststic, it actually changes over time. this is definitely one of the best!

[@louisrichards3160]

I’m not intelligent enough to say why, but this is my favorite Loop. It takes my mind that I can’t get to on my own or with other music. As the kids say It Speaks To Me Thank God for KZbin! Not only to listen and see things but to communicate with others across the planet. I’m in Hull Massachusetts. Wherever you are, and you’ve listened to this, Im beyond grateful we have this in common. Love & Light 💜🙏

[@ChristopherPesqueira]

🤍🙏

[@doncorson5485]

I listen to this once or twice a week. One of my favorite pieces....

[@jannis01]

have you tried listening to tim hecker? Also very nice imo

[@doncorson5485]

I will check him out. Thanks...

[@acsola3909]

Most powerful loop.

[@trevorbarre5616]

This music is transcendent. I don't use the term lightly. I've been listening to experimental electronic music for over 50 years, and Basinski's Loops have touched areas that I have previously been unaware of. I can't think of equivalents - early Popul Vuh maybe, but that's inadequate. This is new territory, mainly because it taps into emotions, rather than ideas.

[@louisrichards3160]

It's Christmas night 7 PM EDT 2017 and I wish the whole planet could hear this at the same time. Perhaps many would pay attention to this ... instead of constantly going somewhere- but nowhere. Listen within ... and give the other 4 senses a rest🙏♥️💐

[@richardiritano1197]

Now, that is so very well said, Rick Krasco, that it embraces perfection personified!

[@aedan1225]

It’s 7/20/18, 9:57 PM, I feel like crying tears of joy because I feel like this song is the answer to everything

[@louisrichards3160]

ENCRYPTED I will again and post here. Somehow I feel a connection with all on here🙏

[@louisrichards3160]

Richard Iritano thank you sir and Merry Christmas 🙏

[@richjones7313]

@ENCRYPTED ill try and join you british time

[@johnbarnas879]

The sun will rise tomorrow

[@doctorhilarious7782]

Simply beautiful.

[@btkbells]

This is the best thing I have ever found on the internet. I don't know how many times I have put this on. I've downloaded it for safe keeping.

[@d.novzee]

how did you download both the vid and track?

[@simonboland]

@@d.novzee youtube-dl allows you to download content

[@aiodiacho]

Why not buy the album?

[@btkbells]

@@aiodiacho I own it already. But we're talking about a video here.

[@trothgard6309]

This is really getting me through the PhD thesis, inspiring yet soothing, providing the means to get the job done! A lovely piece to think with, as well as listen to.

[@unknownpleasures100]

it soundtracked my phd too as well as the prep for my upcoming defence

[@thepoopoos3046]

Fucking incredible

[@Noe2trentemoult]

¿Does this music is used in GTA or a game like that? I feel like I've already listened to it a thousand times

[@PutredHedlund]

C E R R O D E L C U A T R O

[@louisrichards3160]

I want to climb inside my earbuds.

[@levipendleton5985]

This song is the surface of mars, 2.5 million years ago.

[@dennis_mennis]

My fave video of all time. Who could downvote this?

[@aidentabbert1816]

Many comments on this video try to apply the profundity of this work to their personal lives. While I think that's admirable, there's an irony to the lack of their awareness, which ignores what I think the real meaning behind this piece. Nobody actually cares about what your life is like, ultimately. I suppose it means something personally, but at the same time human life is so fleeting that the opinions and values we hold don't seem to matter as much as we'd like them to. But what these people do seem to get right is the feeling of being an observer. That's all we can really be successful at in this life. Be an outsider, witness, and servant to everyone and everything else around you, even yourself.

[@joebaker2841]

This is the most beautiful thing on youtube

[@genuineperson7397]

It's like hearing the planet breathe.

[@drew9312]

Unbelievably atmospheric track. Strangely very suited to the video.

[@davidcopson5800]

Or the video is strangely suited to the music.

[@drew9312]

@@davidcopson5800 Yes indeed, that too & both great.

[@therookpiece]

I am autistic, and I approve this message.

[@Ann-sj4pt]

Me too..

[@MontyDatta]

Reminds me of Nightcralwer the movie for some reason

[@a.z6765]

Or "Drive" perhaps

[@barryanagrande1830]

I'm not exaggerating when i say this hits me in a way it can't really explain, got a bit light headed, breathless and felt almost out of body for a couple seconds. Like I'm reminiscing about something that i never experienced in the first place, when i feel im close to maybe explaining it another wave hits me and I'm starting again trying to figure out what this is doing to me. I'm 100% sober which maybe makes it scarier

[@louisrichards3160]

Me too💜🙏

[@starofcctv94]

Is it just me or does this one not really disintegrate

[@AloneDBY]

I would say it's the most hopeful among all of the disintegration loops. No wonder it's the last one, at least in numeration.

[@iamdamosuzuki_]

@@AloneDBY this one and Dlp 4 are complete opposite. Dlp 4 is the one that dies the most violently, whereas this one more less hangs suspended with minor deterioration over time.

[@davidcopson5800]

The intention of the tape and the composer is for the usual disintegration. But each time this plays and is heard by an individual it deteriorates so minimally that it prompts comments like yours. The composer hears something quite different however, and to him it disintegrates as 'normal'. The 23 comments a year like yours are in fine balance with his own sensibilities and so, without further investigation, he believes a very few people are mishearing this piece. He will never know that he alone hears the typical disintegration and no one else does.

[@Ann-sj4pt]

I’m here for the light flashing.

[@lennonacid]

It really does make it feel like you actually there! I love it!

[@micahnewman]

You all are my people. Where are such people IRL?

[@corinnejordan5863]

Micah Newman we are here. Just need to ask.

[@om3g4z3r0]

Right in my house sitting on my chair typing this.

[@JuiCeBoX19]

@@Yubey934 and now you are proud of yourself?

[@joemac7690]

psst...

[@seanrichards8774]

We’re all here. Around you in the streets, in our cars, passing by you in the aisles and sitting beside you in the warm summer sunlight, silently going about our noisy lives leaving no echoes

[@cooljinzo]

eating a packet of maltesers

[@rickc2102]

what they put in y'all maltesers lol

[@habovay3]

The mountaintop tower lights stop flashing right at about 32:45.

[@stella-vu8vh]

ive spent the last month disintegrating because my partner left me and i freaked the fuck out because i love them and theyre younger than i am, at 19, but despite being 23, we arent much different, or the same. I have been narcanned five times the last two weeks and spent all day on the brink of death and chose otherwise because i was given a chance to choose again, and thank goodness for self reinvention. I am running a dj set on KZAX FM 94.7 Bellingham that is yet to be scheduled. I just got hired today, and asked to produce an hour of music. So now i gave them 3. Here is the pilot playlist, for all of you who might miss me, when I air, if i dont die tonight in my sleep. I hope I wake up tomorrow. I wont become a christian, but I will start living better again, because i have to, theres people around me that love me and live near me. And i am lightheaded from poverty and not eating enough, but im a slow eater. I have plans and things to do and see and ive realized the ones i have been trying to for years all in a day, while feeling the worst ive ever felt because i stopped focusing on it, and started focusing. I am so thankful to have found love when i did because i was so hurt and angry and sad and abused i was going to die, and i was going to die anyways because i chose that thinking it was the cooler choice. But when i was breathing one time every 30 seconds, i snapped back to it again five minutes after i got the fifth narcan dose this week, fuck. If any of you relate, dont mix your uppers downers and benzos, because i am kicking benzos right now, and it is not fun. I have to kick methadone eventually too, but not anytime soon. Its worse than heroin but its better than heroin, i can at least do it every day, and if i get up tomorrow ill do it again tomorrow, but hopefully just better and better because the only way out is through. And i am loved and in love and they may not love me right now, but they love me, and they loved me. And i will love them for as long as im here. They are the genderless daughter to korean first gen immigrants, i am the genderless son to racist southern drug addict middle class people who arent now and some were and some arent, and i dont have any family up here anymore because my mother is too unstable and my younger brother hates me, but i made a better one that includes a band, and thats alright with me. Listening to this record is keeping me sane right now. And i better step back from oblivion before i end up like kurt cobain. smh, hope i stop wasting time, and i will never get that numb again. I am going to live in the now and play slow drones because it feels right. and today i have accepted what is and will be, as well as death, all over again, with a newfound perspective and reverence for life i have never had until today. It is now 10:39 pm and at 10:40 i will be alive and well and a okay, as spiritually and physically as i can. Thanks for loving me when you did Yuri Arakari. I am deeply sorry for hurting you how i did. I dont know what to tell you besides you chose me. And i chose you. And you chose to leave me, and Im choosing to not leave. And i only hope we find each other again. It has been the hardest month of my life and it isnt over yet but if i can get thru this i can make a million before im 25 and provide. Or at least curate a good goddamn radio show. I hope you understand that i am only doing the best i can with what i am equipped with and until i met you i didnt know love because i couldnt accept it. I accept you fully as you are and are yet to become, and i accept myself fully as well because its about time. I am never going to scare you again, because i feel bad and guilty about it. I hope i have given you what you wanted because you said you wanted everything from me even if it wasnt good. And i gave 110% every single day of my meagre existence. We dont always get the chance to be good people; but i am being my best, because you made me want better. Thank you for everything youve given me and left me with. This note is going on a keyboard given to me that i am giving back because i owe it to them to return it, and i never promised i would. I said id give it back when im done with it. But you need it now, and im giving it back now. I hope you see this. I cant ask you for anything. I can only accept you, and thank you. You wrote a note and referred to me as a guru to you, but you were one to me before and after, and i am learning my lessons, as i never really paid attention in school, and i apologize profusely, and give you a nice playlist, and an honest apology. The time i spent with you was the best time spent doing everything and nothing and i would like to connect with you again whenever you are ready or able. Please reach out. I love you more than i have loved anyone, any thing, any external something, any internal something, music, drug, sensation, and i hope you know it. Because you were not the first to give me what you gave. But you were my first partner, if for only a short time, and i am still whatever you want me to be to you, even if that is nothing at all. Because i value you and your autonomy, your privacy. Your life, your secrets, you, and because you valued me, i value myself in a way i never knew existed because nobody had ever shown me that I was enough. My mother was a single parent who chose to stay broken. I dont blame you for leaving me, i blame me for being shitty, but i hope that we find each other again soon, i just decided to get a dj slot at KZAX 94.7 FM BHAM (Bellingham WA), and this is the pilot playlist i sent in. But, this playlist, and this record; and everything i am, and have, and gave, and spent, even tho you gave me most, i give you. And i am truly sorry for not giving you my best self when i had the chance, because you deserve it. I am trying to be. But you always told me I am enough. But now I believe you. When youve been told youre nothing youre entire life, and the only love you deserve will leave you, it sticks with you. I have had a lot of bad wished on me but i am like a cockroach. You know me best. I know you, at least when you were 19. I hope to know you whenever you choose to allow me to. I hope you know that i am trying my best. I miss you. We are ephemeral people and i knew what i was every moment i was with you and i am trying to reinvent redefine and re value myself and do the most i can because i get by with a little help from my friends. My least favorite band is the beatles, but you already know everything about me. Please let me know you, as you want to be. You are enough.

[@stella-vu8vh]

ps. This could be the last thing i ever tell you, and if it is thats okay. If its not, thats the best thing i could ever recieve from anyone. You dont have to be anything more or less than what you are because you were raised well despite also raising yourself, and i wasnt raised well but i learned good values, and i need you to know i love you. I value you. I cherish you, i would someday like to provide for and with you, and repay you, your empathy and kindness given to me that filled me when i was empty, and keeps me going every day. Its been really hard since you left and even though i got narcanned 5 times and the fifth time i was out cold for five minutes taking my last breath, i came out of it though. This morning i woke up in benzodiazepine withdrawal and tonight i went to sleep out of it, i hope, i still feel weird, but i also got myself on a taper off the methadone because im trying to be sober eventually. Maybe ill be enough for you then. I am enough either way. I am sending you this because i had to tell you this and not let it sit inside and eat me up. I want you to tell me what is eating you up inside. We are both traumatized people. And we found happiness and love in a place there isnt supposed to be any. I hope we find each other again soon. Because this was mutual until the end, and even when it wasnt i tried my hardest to be okay with things so as to always accept you. Needless to say i understand why this mentality isnt good anymore, and i am hoping for better times and to make myself what i need to be. We both have a lot of talent. We still need to jam sometime. I am playing slow guitar drones and trying my best to never forget you or your lessons as i am grateful until the very end. but this isnt over until you say its over because im only done loving you when im done living, it seems. Thats the only thing keeping me going, and thats not healthy, but thanks for showing me what is. I never knew anybody could be what I consider sober, but, youve always seen things for what they are and i like to look at what could be, a little too much, but you need to look at what you are, and want to be, and find that out, and get busy living, or get busy dying. I know you made your choice and now you know i made mine, because you have seen what dying looks like and you didnt like it. I dont either, and im writing this now as i feel better, in a youtube comment section, to screenshot, copy, and send you when im ready, because i told you id give you your keyboard back when i was good and ready, but i owe it to you to give it to you back sooner, and i owe you everything good i know. We are both shiny and ephemeral and made of equal duality. We are both a lot of things. We are no longer a we. But i am hoping we might be someday, even if i shouldnt or you dont want me to, because we all need something to keep going for, and nobody had ever given me love like you. You meant every word you said to me and i know you were done with junkie me when you decided to block me. I am going to try to seek you out when i am doing better if you dont write me back and say fuck off, because you havent officially ended things despite separating, and it is only over when its over, and i am trying to learn independence and its through codependence in mal and shawn i find that, but you already know it and have taught me everything, i am listening as much as i always have been, and i need you to know i heard every word you said, even what was to yourself. I hope you see me for what i am and not just what scared you, and traumatized you, and hurt you, because im a lot more than the junkie guy you banged and loved at 19. I have been in the same place since i was 19 and it took finding you and you showing me what a better place looked like for me to find it. Here is the pilot playlist for my KZAX show that hasnt been named until i called it An Ephemeral Minute. You always inspired me to do the most for myself and you, and now that youre gone, because i came into this world 4 months early and with less sense, im telling you how i feel because even though you hate junkies; and i do too, we all deserve respect. I respected you every minute i was around you presently, and i am deeply pained by every minute i didnt respect you the way you deserved. Love is self love too, and im just repeating back what you showed me at this point, thanks for fixing the deep broken well within me; and i am sorry i added to yours. I hope i also helped you and sustained you the way you sustained me. And now we are on our own for now. But all you have to do is unblock me or write me back because i will always, always, be there for you; even now at the brink of death i am loyal for it is through many things we do we show ourselves. I love you still. You are enough.

[@stella-vu8vh]

It was the most present 12 minuted ive lived in a long time writing this, but i tried my hardest to always be myself with you because thats what you wanted from me: I have been. I have given you the good bad and ugly, and i ask that you give me the same if you want to. If you have nothing you want, i ask that you find it. surround yourself with love even if its hard and you will be okay, and i just never knew love until i met you. I only knew creation and self destruction, and the endless seeking of oblivion. Dont doom out super hard unless youre going to start a two piece doom band with me. Its time you got in a band young punk. Come along and share in splendor and self acceptance and sharing and caring and whatever the fuck waiting is. I stopped waiting when you enteref my life and it made me impatient. I will be patient and kind, and i will forgive as i have been given. Thank you for your love. And today is my birthday. I found a banana candy from hmart i swear you must have given me because i dont remember getting it myself. Did i black out? I am sure I did, and i am sorry for how i have hurt you because i know i have hurt you and i regret it forever. That is my only regret. That and not being happier longer. And with that, it is 11:27, May 27, 2021, and i may only make it to 27 if luck is on my side, but i already know it is and i am slowing down because my body has told me enough is enough. I hope you are okay. I am trying to be, i always have been, you just made me realize how to be better at everything and do things easier, you smart fucker you. You beautiful bastard. You are many things. Thanks for being my soulmate and letting me be yours, because if you dont accept me, someone else just might, and thats okay with you; as its okay with me that you see whoever you want. Just dont leave me for good until youre good and ready, and since i assume you were when you left, if you miss me, tell me. If you dont, tell me. Please. I need it. And i dont expect a thing from you, i never have. I know i asked for a lot. I am really my best when i am around you because you bring out the best in me. And i am good when i am good, when i am a dick, i am a cruel fucking bastard because life has been hard to me. I hope life isnt hard for you today, and i am now going to quote you the note you left me on the cassette you made me, full of bands that are significant to me and not significant, ending with pinback, the one band i could never remember was a band i liked, and i am not comparing you to anything, not even yourself at 19, because you are you. And that is enough. And you are as you are and will be, as am i.

[@stella-vu8vh]

I was going to delete this and im leaving this up for accountability purposes so i never forget how shitty i used to be, and how good i am. And i am going to be better. But i am going to smoke weed at the least and that is okay enough right? im taking a break. as are you, unless youre done, which is okay too. Dont answer me until you know, because i need to have hope.!

[@intern4232]

damn … have been in your place. hope ur into whatever you’re doing or wherever you are

[@stella-vu8vh]

oh ok i am not, but im trying. I have been a bit better then i was, unfortunately i havent done the drug kick thing but it's a few years away anyways. Walking around on a broken spine is hard. I still really miss my ex. They actually got in touch the other day, a few weeks ago, but i was having a really hard time with it and things didn't go well

[@jamescoomber4097]

I searched ' I DIG RADIO TOWERS' and here I am

[@KNIGH7]

Oh yeah.

[@davidcopson5800]

I searched 'I DIG GARDENS' and it took me to something completely useless.

[@meowmeow-cr5sn]

@@davidcopson5800 try 'I dig graves'

[@davidcopson5800]

@@meowmeow-cr5sn I did and I was buried with answers.

[@Исмаил-и2х]

музыка необъятного простора...

[@bigorenesmusic7311]

This is fucking great!!

[@meangene408]

I could swear this is a loop of Boards of Canada's "Macquarie Ridge" but It's 2, 3 years too early.............Well maybe 2 decades.

[@ryboul]

yeah it sounds very similiar, maybe it really is a loop of their song

[@meangene408]

I think it might be the other way around.

[@ryboul]

oh, okay. not sure what was first but these songs are definetely connected and both amazing.

[@leeprescott1476]

The disintegration loops were originally recorded around 1983. Basinski's were the original.

[@b1nary_f1nary]

Well that's not true because the whole series was first started in the wake of the 9/11 attacks. So circa 2001

[@sewd8438]

A pile of gold in the middle of the desert

[@JamesFriedman3148]

The most beautiful piece of sound art I've yet to experience. This piece is soooo lovely...Touches the heart...

[@davidcopson5800]

Or, using syntax correctly. 'The most beautiful piece of sound art I have yet experienced.'

[@MaryShelleysNib]

@@davidcopson5800 Too funny syntax facist. His comment was almost 6 years ago, perhaps he hadn’t yet heard it in its entirety when commenting.

[@allietarasova3560]

@@davidcopson5800 shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[@ladyblackstardust390]

I'm so happy I found William Basinski. Incredible. Fires up all the chakras, energy centers. "Basinski is best known for his four-volume album The Disintegration Loops (2002-2003), constructed from rapidly decaying twenty-year-old tapes of his earlier music." Wikipedia

[@markwilliams7054]

I love this video - Thank you. I've loved William Basinski's work for years and I put this on my TV when I can't sleep and it works every time.

[@SPACED-w6i]

What city is that? It's beautiful!

[@leosurbanek4685]

Looks like Guadalajara, Mexico.

[@rheivax5511]

Guadalajara jalisco, cerro del 4 💚

[@davidcopson5800]

Por supuesto.

[@AloneDBY]

Perhaps,this is what happens after you die. You're greeted by the universe,cradled by its arms,as a loop of ethereal music pervades your soul and cleanses it. Then,maybe,you can choose where to rest. On another planet. In another galaxy. In another universe. Or perhaps. On a hillside,watching the dwindling lights of a lazy city. (This comment is a repost of a comment that was deleted,which symbolized perfectly what I felt hearing this loop)

[@alexandreheddebautgolenko]

Thank you for that

[@h.w.8160]

@Sassy The Sasquatch He probably screenshot it or copy/pasted

[@philipthefish9289]

Finally, I'm awake

[@henryhull4456]

Tivoli, NY 2020 April, I sat shirtless upright in bed with all the windows open. The spring afternoon fading slowly into dusk. Dlp 6 playing in the background of my computer while I wrote my last final. When I finished writing, my bedroom was dark, no longer illuminated by the afternoon sun, but instead by the glow of my computer. I can still remember the feeling of cool summer air floating in through the open window kissing my chest.

[@rodrigozambrano7463]

If anyone in or from Guadalajara finds this: this is an open invitation to be friends. :^) (En inglés porque sí.)

[@RafikCezanneTV]

Perfect in every way. Thank you for posting.

[@josephdegregorio1370]

These deeper and sadder questions inside that we were never able to answer, are contained in this music and video. It is like a sigh, just before eternal rest.

[@ph9674]

when I listen to this while studying my focus is 100%

[@ginopacini4999]

One day, if I'll ever go to Mexico, I will go to Guadalajara, sit somewhere in the distance and watch Cerro del Cuatro the whole night till dawn, thinking about life and what will be as this Loop plays. You have given me the inspiration for a truly Spiritual experience. Thank You.

[@polycass]

Yeah. That's my goal, too. The dream.

[@johnconnelly2003]

Wow! I was just in Guadalajara yesterday and looked over and thought, “ damn , that looks like the setup in the Disintegration Loops video🙃

[@DanielRodriguez-lp6gr]

I'm from Guadalajara and I can see el Cerro del cuatro from my rooftop, I will do this thanks for the recommendation.

[@NeedForSpeedRTX]

Video: NFSU2 Ambient Sounds

[@willow-filubik2303]

I would love to know what the instruments are, that is, the raw material of those loops. If anyone knows, please tell me. I can't find any information on this, that is, where the melody comes from, a piano, right, what were they at the beginning?

[@chrishiggins7715]

Watching this on acid was honest a life changing experience. So beautiful

[@NeverRubARhubarb]

Tbf watching a blank TV screen on acid is probably life-changing.

[@tyroneepps3018]

Hi ! G.s. I have your new ! Channel I like this album I will put this in my Library so keep the albums Coming your new ! No.1 fan !