wake me up from this nightmare.

[@nyens030]

Listening to this while reading “It ends with us” gave me a different kind of pain and anger. Everything just made me realize how messed up we are as a society, everything feels like a blur which will end soon cause we have never spent our whole lives on the earth it Always seems like that one day

[@bethcampbell155]

I finished reading that book a couple of days ago, it was so good. Colleen's writing is so beautiful :)

[@summer_bolete2712]

This feels like i did something wrong and my parents will say we are dissapointed in you and thinking about it and listening to this is breaking my heart 💔

[@jessecardenas6971]

"The only solitude of this nightmare we call reality is the nightmare in my dreams, because at least i know i wont have to face permanent changes, or dangers"

[@Maya-OxO]

This music makes me feel something else, it's feels so unreal. ❤

[@fr3j4-4n]

This is just a playlist of my comfort songs. And I really needed this playlist right now ♡

[@lostlittlemoon5411]

Sometimes I wonder if we are all meant to be here. Because we are selfish, cruel, cold. Maybe the earth should be just full of nature and kind creatures like animals. I hope one day we have a world full of peace. Even if I’m not there anymore, I would love to watch that from above that moment. But who am I to say something, I’m just a “rebel kid” trying to get the younger version of her back. Love the title, should be my alarm title.

[@julia06207]

(tw: vent) You know that feeling when you're so distraught that you can't even cry or say or think anything, you either just want to disappear or have hope to find one person who really loves you, one in a billion who you might not ever meet. I wish that person was next to me right now and we can disconnect from our painful lives and just be together, you know. I don't feel like I deserve that person, but if I ever find someone like that, I hope I could comfort them as much as I could. It really doesn't help that my mother is losing her sanity because of me, and she thinks I'm insane for wanting to kill myself because of some things she said to me. I love her so much, but recently I can't even feel anything towards her at all. We just argue and say things that hurt eachother so much, and she constantly invalidates my emotions and I feel bad that I do the same. I regret so many things I did, and things I said to my mother. In her eyes I'm a sick, mentally broken and compulsively-obsessed pathetic disappointment. I wish I could restart my life with her, but I hate myself and I don't feel I deserve a second chance. I feel so, so bad for her, and she's done everything in her power to be a good mother. I'm so sorry for being a bad child. I love you very much, mom. My father has been through so much too, always looking out for the both of us, no matter how rude I am towards him. He's the kindest person I've ever met in my life and I wish I could just hug him and tell him I'm so grateful I have him as my father. He's the one who's always validated everything I went through, he listens to every word I tell him and he cares so much about me. I regret being so hateful towards him, being ungrateful and complaining about him when he was the only person that truly understood me in my life. Many people aren't blessed with a kindhearted father, many people don't even have fathers, and I can't forgive myself for not appreciating him all of my life. love you very much, dad. To all of my friends who know me from high school, middle school, elementary school, I love you all so much. I know I'm a confusing person and I'm edgy and annoying sometimes, I can be sensitive about literally everything. I'm sorry you all had to keep up with my bullshit. I'm sorry I wasn't there to comfort you guys when you really needed it. I wish I was a better friend to you, maria. You went through so much more than me, and yet I never took your problems seriously. You've been suffering because of swimming, your family, your self-image, and eating disorders without anyone to talk to except for your friends. You deserve so much love and happiness in life, and you are a beautiful, wonderful person. I hope all of your suffering ends and you can finally find peace, and I care about you very much. I love being around you, you are one of a kind. Thanks for being in my life bestie :) I want everyone who's reading this to know that: you can die anytime. I know this may sound bad, I know, but I want to reassure you that YOU deserve to make a choice. I don't know what any of you may be going through, and some may be worse than others. I love you and I'm proud of you for making it this far. Thanks for reading and remember, you're not the only one who feels this pain you are feeling. You're not in this alone!!!!

[@lemons0397]

I want to say that I am proud of YOU for sticking on this long. Even if things have gotten horrible I hope you know that I care about you and I wish you the best. :]

[@julia06207]

@@lemons0397 thank you so much

[@lemons0397]

@@julia06207 of course :]

[@luroust7297]

@@lemons0397 sometimes i lose my faith in humanity. This is why i still believe we can get better. Keep this up :)

[@lemons0397]

@@luroust7297 I will try my best :D

[@KikiLovesYou2]

Sometimes it feels like nothing changes. Like no one cares about anyones feelings anymore or about anything in general. We as a society need to change our standards and stop so much violence. And I’m ready to help anyone who needs help, I’m here most of the time. x. Your Unknown Bestie -Kiki

[@maicrappycrap985]

kIkI dO yA lOvE mE (I’m sorry I’m really sorry I’m sure you’re a wonderful person)

[@KikiLovesYou2]

@@maicrappycrap985 thank you. No really that made me smile, but yes I do love you.

[@sophieward3827]

@@KikiLovesYou2 dude you're such a nice person omg 😭

[@KikiLovesYou2]

@@sophieward3827 dude stopppppp thank you, I just want to be here for people

[@arigielikha7989]

Wanna be friends ?😅

[@Therandomnessinyourhead]

(Tw vent) Ok then let me take you on a ride though my hellish life. Let’s start with my parents they honestly hate each other my dad if very forgetful and sometimes i think maybe he’s slow or something but i can get into that another time. My oldest brother almost 30. And well this ties into it but we lived in a real messed up house and everyone’s health got messed up. He doesn’t believe that it can be fixed but in reality he is like the houses own dr. He did all the research and proved that it in face can be fixed. But he always asks “will it be fixed 100% or 1,000%?” And other things along the line of that.Now to the middle brother. People usually think “oh the middle sibling is ignored” but in reality he is a spoiled brat.He is into games and computers and everyone in the house is in massive debt because of it.He “plays” our birthdays like they are his and gets pissed and goes to sleep. Making it all awkward.He always makes promises that he never keeps and takes everything you say to the extreme.I mean that like my older brother and him were reminiscing and my older brother said “oh it would be cool to have all our old games back.” He took it seriously and got all the systems that were like 200 each. Not to mention he got not 1 not 2 but 3 crt tvs.(they are the old 2000s tvs if you do not know)and my dad and older brother when getting them in almost broke their backs because of it AND HE DOES NOT EVEN USE THE FUCKING THINGS! Now let’s move on to what he wants for Christmas he wants to build a computer WHICH IS 2,000$! AND HES FUCKING 22 YEARS OLD!!! To my grandmother she controls everyone and you can’t say anything because “oh you screamed at me hmm” q the rolling eyes. There is so much there i can’t write all of that lol. Now to me i am a Omnisexual trans man and everyone in my family is homophobic and the whole shabang .So i can’t come out and with all of this yay. It’s so overwhelming it’s insane. I don’t know what to do because i feel alone because if i vent to one person i can’t say what i want about them. My mom once told me when i just could not hold it anymore “you are a sunshine baby you came when every needed you and everyone is trying to take a piece of you.”Also my older brother said “well other people have it worse.” Like i don’t care it does not diminish what has happened to me even if other people have it worse.Also responding to what my mom said it does not feel that way unless you mean feeling like a punching-bag with 5 professional boxers going at it. And school is starting soon so i have to worry about that now being always at the top of my class. I don’t know what to do to get away from any of it. If you did read this then thanks for tagging along my hell but still i hope you have a wonderful morning/afternoon/night :)

[@yuko9104]

I love this playlist ❤

[@MrJayMarley]

I miss my grandma so bad 😢

[@Amoly3]

Ayyyy great taste

[@KHAOTICCCC]

I just lost my soulmate and it's all my fault, because I didn't have enough strength to overcome my problems on my own

[@Ryanus_]

《TW: vent》 After my attempted suicide, nothing feels real..... some days I feel like my floating on top of water, drifting in a dream like state, sometimes my family doesnt even feel real to me and it scares me.....

[@jonatantraplad337]

Maybe you did die and that attemp was reality and after death is you in another dimension after your death that lives you with that feeling

[@Tricks_99]

It's ok

[@maricantsee5716]

this not necessarily a nightmare it is reality. the reason me and you were able to right this comment came from a place of forgotten mistakes and negativity, i am not disagreeing that the world is disgusting but, what you must learn to understand is hatred and love is what fueled the modern day life. we know what is right and wrong it is but, knowing only takes us so far. humans are there floating in a void of absolute nothingness while reassuring every single fucking person who ever crosses there path that they are meanful. am i your nightmare?

[@feli_pe6360]

I am fine :')

[@keiraknight365]

sometimes i wonder how i made it