watching "a message to my 25 year old self" on my 25th birthday

[@webbysarah]

“thanks for doing all the hard stuff so I could just, live.” god I’m so thankful I pushed through❤️

[@NosManJr]

Her inner child is so loved

[@cookiemonkeyyy]

omg i was thinking exactly the same thing

[@shaylieldekel]

holy shit dude. i remember seeing this way back, i feel like we grew up together

[@gayleswislon22]

I know this isn’t a 25 tips for 25 years in the same structure as the old ones, but I have missed these. We’re only a few weeks apart in age and I’ve followed you from the beginning, so to see this and be able to reflect on my own journey and healing is very cool. At 15 I also had a rough home life and was no where close to being out, but now 10 years later I live in a happy home with my wife and our (7 year old) puppy. These last 10 years look good on us my friend. Here’s to an equally amazing next 10 years, and of course happy birthday Alexis! 🎉

[@ms.mistyeyed230]

This felt like a warm 1am conversation with a friend. Idk how to describe it but I was so focused and felt so connected from beginning to end.

[@ElleOfTheMills]

love you alexis!!!

[@harleyrae9203]

quite literally 3 days ago on of my coworkers said “zall good dude” not thinking anything of it but that sent me into a brain spiral. i sat at work thinking about how much i used to love watching your videos, a forgotten gem of MY childhood and i wondered about you, today this pops up on my feed (from 3 days ago!!) your wisdom and growth is something so beautiful and the way you’ve used your creativity and intuition as an outlet to metaphorically time travel is so admirable. if it’s not cheesy to say, i needed this video for my inner child too

[@nixiepixie47]

14:20 “i’m so grateful that I did all of that hard stuff so that you can just live” you get it, you get it!! love you forever alexis, you’ve fr come so far and i’m so glad you’ve let us grow up along with you

[@vicrankin6679]

I’ve been watching these videos since you were a teenager. This is wild, you’ve come so far 🎉

[@illutrine]

"And now I can have the rest of my life...I can just be here in my body for the rest of my life." I was doing fine watching this until you said that. I burst into tears. I have never let myself think of my life that way before and that is exactly what I need and deserve after all I have been through. Thank you so much for sharing. I'm grateful and I'm proud of you. 🙏

[@kat1hurt]

25 was the hardest year for me. I cried all the time. Life was great but I always felt on the verge of breaking down. I just turned 30 on June 3rd. It’s changed so much even in those five years. I just don’t care so much anymore and it’s quite a relief. It’s been crazy to watch you grow up as well. Hope you enjoy the rest of your twenties!

[@christinamadison6441]

It might sound too extreme but this video changed my outlook on life a bit. Seeing how emotional and happy it made you to see your younger self, who I see so much of MY younger self in. It just made me really look forward to living for older me. I’m about to turn 19 and this is the first time in a while I’ve been excited to live for who I’ll be when I look back. Thank you, I’ve been watching since you were 17 and I was just a kid. Proud of you 🤍

[@garimasetia241]

this video felt like a warm hug :') glad to see you thriving

[@killjoycam]

Dude. I never comment on videos but… we’re the same age and the way you just spoke to your future self touched me in a way i’ve never even thought about before. that just inspired so much hope I didn’t have. thank you. happy 25th birthday. ❤

[@Aria_Watson]

I'm turning 25 at the end of this year, in November, and this video has me sobbbbing. Healing and aging is such a privilege and blessing; I am so happy for you! Happy late birthday, Alexis.

[@unicornsxhippos]

So weird I was 16 when I saw that first video and I’m now 26. It feels like nostalgia and like catching up with an old friend. Thank you for sharing this with us!

[@jenncyclopedia]

I’m 10 years older than you, but watched your videos back then because you reminded me of my youngest sister. I also had an incredibly difficult home life and my sister was kept from speaking to me. Your cute little videos gave me comfort. I just wanted to protect you and pray that you grew up to feel empowered and strong!

[@melissahoward7558]

I remember watching that video when it first came out. I remember watching you as a child, a literal child, and realizing now that I was a child too. Ten years is...... so different and much longer than I thought.

[@dahharo3565]

People say time flys. I believe it’s only if you aren’t taking the time for yourself to reminisce about the good and the bad. Love you random person !

[@IrisLovee_]

This was beautiful. I remember watching you and thinking how I wish I had the courage to be like you even though you were younger than me. To see your growth, acceptance and love for yourself just through this video was honestly an honor to see and experience. I hope you’re in a much better and happier place now than the dark times during KZbin.

[@Miclnightmoon]

Happy Birthday Alexis, this makes my heart warm. I’m 22 now and watched you a few years back so this is nostalgic and sweet for me too, thanks for sharing this experience with us

[@Nery_Nery]

I remember that little girl and I love that we got to see this video and share this growth.

[@lilabs_]

As someone who does inner child work and also out of nowhere realized she was gay etc, I cant imagine how emotional watching a video like this would be. Parasocially proud of you for all the work and healing you have done. You deserve all the good things, and you deserve to just live. Sending love!

[@tyleranneelling9960]

Cried like a baby with you for this one Alexis ❤ There has always been something so special to me about caring for the little girl inside us that we wish we could have protected back then. She is with you now and she is so so proud honey ❤️

[@teresaanya]

We rly did grow up together. I was 15 when I subscribed and now I'm 23 and life is starting to feel like I might be a adult now and it's crazy. ILY Thank you for the years. Happy Birthday Icon!!!

[@jacobaeden]

something about alexis' voice sounds different, it feels calmer and soft(?) idk how to describe it.

[@alexmaylef]

the cat made me cry - a buddy whos loved you all along the way!

[@emegvf]

I used to watch you when I was younger and now seeing you I see a gentle soul who looks at peace. I’m really happy for you 🙂

[@mostlyghostly5208]

I turned 25 this year too. It really does feel like we grew up together. You were a huge part of my youtube experience that helped shape who I am, that taught me to be me. I know this was hard, but I’m proud of you

[@thomasjnigro]

Happy Birthday! I just turned 24 a little over a month ago and even thinking about who I was 10 years ago makes me entirely too emotional. Who I was then walked so who I am now could run and I’m so appreciative. Thanks for showing us your transformation, and honestly I am NOT looking forward to talking about these feelings with my therapist lol.

[@hannahdavis4743]

I go back to these videos often when I'm feeling lost in my life. I grew up on your videos, and have now seen your short film at the BFI queer film festival. Seeing your growth makes me so excited to do the same myself. I think I'm right in the middle of that complicated not-knowing-yourself early twenties, and these videos make me feel hopeful for being more assured and proud of myself in the future. I hope they do the same for others. I'm sure they do.

[@rjturnipsauce]

This was so so lovely to watch. I LOVE seeing how much love you have for your younger self. I feel the same way about my teenage self, that kid deserved so much more than they got. Thank you for sharing this Alexis. It's been amazing watching how you've changed, how I've changed, over the past 7-10 years (don't remember exactly when I found your channel). It's been an honor getting to grow up together.

[@odethte772]

ALEXIS I AM CRYING GIRLLLL

[@gabsk333]

wow is this ever nostalgic. i’ve been watching you for about 9 years now and it really does feel like i grew up with you (I recently turned 26). we’ve been through similar life experiences and it’s been such a comforting thing to watch you heal and grow into who you are today as i have healed and grown into who i am alongside you. it might not have been easy and our childhood selves deserved better, but we are both still here and we are both okay. and that is a beautiful thing. happy birthday alexis, and thank you.

[@maiianthe3280]

Thank you for sharing this piece of your soul. Thank you for showing how tender and warm you are with yourself. Happy birthday, Alexis. Sending you the best

[@katelynmckay17]

i am crying while watching this because i remember watching that video of you when it came out! and i’ve been feeling very nostalgic myself lately and healing my inner child and i wish i had something like this. this is just very special. i cant wait to watch your reaction when you’re 35. so much love

[@samanthagingco]

Came across snippet of a video of yours on Facebook and decided to watch a recent one here on KZbin, just because it felt nostalgic. I've been watching your videos in high school when things weren't always great, and watching how you were so kind with younger self makes me cry because all I remember is always being hard to myself even up until now. If we could be as kind to ourselves as you are to yourself 💛 This inspired me and I'm grateful I came across that snippet because it led me to watch this. Belated happy birthday and thank you for reminding me to be kind and gentle with myself ❤️ love you!

[@sockelf]

Happy birthday Alexis! Weeping like a baby at this! Being your same age and watching this is pretty surreal, it does feel like we grew up together. I hope 35 brings us so much joy ❤

[@makayla6789]

you’re such a sweet soul alexis. i’ve been following and watching you since i was 12 or 13 - i just turned 20 in may. proud of you for growing, it’s been a joy to grow with you.

[@rachelrhodes5046]

watching this was healing. you've grown and we've all grown with you. nothing but love for your past, present, and future self:)

[@VeraLucille]

I discovered you in the SD era and haven't kept up with you since but watching this makes me wish I had. You had me crying a bit, thinking of my younger self. I just turned 30 and that's a trip, just wait. Also just got dumped by my gf of almost 9 years... thanks for sharing. It was very human. Makes me wish I had done something like this myself.

[@gabs9391]

fully sobbing, this seemed so cathartic for you

[@taryn3917]

i flew here after seeing the tiktok omg i remember loving you bc of how unique and unapologetically yourself you were so i’m glad you’re appreciating that too! it always made me proud but dang at 27 this is opening wounds i have yet to touch

[@Kenzi24]

This made me so emotional, thinking about my younger self and being 27 now. Shit's so wild. I love the idea of journaling to your younger self, im going to try that.

[@michaelvandenberg1122]

It's crazy. First of all, happy birthday. I've been watching you since I was 13, probably around 2014, and you've always been of my favorite KZbinrs. You're the sole reason I say zall good lol. I haven't watched you for a couple years and on a whim I was like, "I wonder how she's doing?" Crazy that I would check right when this video drops. Thank you so much for all of the entertainment you have brought to the world. I'm so proud to see how far you've come. Best of luck to you on your next ten years:)

[@mairijohnston9781]

happy birthday alexis, thanks for letting us grow up with you. will always be grateful for the space you created here !

[@parisgeller2724]

I’ve been watching you for a decade now and it makes me so happy to see how far you’ve come. This video healed my inner child, thank you.

[@SeussyMcSeussifruit]

I did this for myself back in the day because of you and it was so valuable for me! It was so beautiful and wholesome to see how much love you have for 15 year old you! Thank you for sharing yourself with us! You're so lovely and I'm grateful to have your playfulness, creativity, and wisdom to revisit from time to time.

[@fangirlofbands7146]

I’m 20 and I’ve watched your videos for a long time. I’ve always been inspired by you and how you reflect on your life each year. I’m so proud of all you’ve accomplished so far and can’t wait to see what’s next! Happy birthday!

[@cloroxbleach206]

thanks for growing up with me alexis. when i was a teenager, i spent most of my time watching your vids, trying to figure out my confused-self. i felt lonely, but your videos made me laugh and kept me going. many years later i became more true to myself and ppl around me. i never really realized how far i've come until i saw this video and look at how much you have too. i love you alexis, and everyone who's been here as well. zall good!

[@smelmevans]

Jeez, I didnt realize you were the same age as me. I grew up watching and thinking you were like two years younger than me. This is a crazy mental exercise. Especially while listening to elliot pages book... from a 9 year listener who just turned 25...

[@Dira091998]

Omg I remember watching this video 10 YEARS AGO 😭 happy 25th, Alexis!

[@flashoftheflood]

your healing is so beautiful to see

[@hannahdownsactress]

You have me crying happy tears with you. I’m two years younger than you and I’ve been watching you since you started making videos. As a queer person and someone who had a traumatic household this was so special to watch. Your video making provided you with an escape but watching your videos gave me an escape, I guess we helped each other out without even knowing it. I love you so much and I am so proud of you for being here ❤

[@jessicadesbordes8127]

turning 25 abt a month after you, it's so nice to see this. thank you for growing up with us. happy to see you living a life of healing, I'm finally getting to do to same, in my own apartment with my cat and a serious partner not too far off. Its always been really lovely to check back in here with you. to see where you are. I checked back when I realized Im gay - only a year or two after you told us and as somebody who's home life was also really really difficult, getting to witness you talking to your younger self is also really healing for my own inner child. Definitely considering sitting down with my younger self when I no longer am sick with COVID love that little girlie and love you now, in the way that we can from afar anyway proud of us, good to see you ❤

[@ginaoswald9583]

Being just a few years younger, I always looked forward to your "...tips for...years", excited to see what I could learn from them. So I just got really excited when I saw this notification, can't wait to watch it!

[@megantravis5448]

Your inner healing, however preformative or real, the perception is really lovely and healing for me. I love the love you have for your inner child ❤

[@Sinsearach]

It's heart-warming to witness someone relating to their teen self so lovingly 😊 Right there with ya with the ol inner child healing..🙌 Tough stuff but so wholly rewarding. Happy birthday, Alexis! Thanks for sharing some vulnerability with us. Here's to the next 10 years ♥

[@AmyOrdman]

I love you!!!!! So special wow

[@verylemonygreen]

This may sound crazy, but this video just gave me motivation juice to stay for the next ten years and see what youre up to

[@hadarovadia3869]

Happy birthday Alexis❤ I know this video is not about me, but it came just at the right time for me. Been really struggling with my depression lately and with being stuck in this body for the rest of my life, so seeing someone so excited and hopeful about their future, while accepting who they are and who they were and will be shows me that healing is possible. Sending love❤

[@just.salma1583]

I cry-smiled the whole time

[@shehroz6220]

Glad to see you doing well Alexis. Best wishes for the future. Hopefully we'll get to see more of you.

[@bbqonthemoon]

happy birthday alexis, i’ve been growing up with you and it feels so surreal to me 😭 you’re truly a bright light and blessing to this world. im so proud of you

[@sophiemanville8313]

Beautiful video. Resonated tremendously. Proud of you Alexis

[@tatialves8346]

we miss you, but this is a very healing video. thank you for sharing this little moment with us ❤ 35 yo alexis is going to be so proud for sure

[@sharonlove224]

Well, THAT was a lovely, tender interaction to watch. Thank you! You look absolutely beautiful - and while, aesthetically, your looks are pleasing, that's not what I'm referring to. It's that you *are* present, living in your body, just as you said. That presence is visible through a lens and across a country, so it's pretty radiant, that living-in-the-body thing. ...I was taken aback by hearing that you have been with your girlfriend for 6 years: from the ages of 19 to 25 - that's a period of so many changes; being together through all of those is quite unusual, I think! Obviously you're both 'doing something right', and I would guess you are probably both in therapy, which helps with literally everything, doesn't it? Happy Birthday (Week 😉).

[@Nyxthebat04]

I started watching your videos in like 2015. Seeing you grown up now is insane!! Good for u.

[@pritplease]

this was so healing to watch. the most beautiful reminder to adore my younger self, look forward to meeting my future, and lovingly hold myself as i am now. thank you

[@torri4295]

it's gonna be 8 years since i started watching you, didn't not that much english back then but still had so muhc fun, i felt like you were a person to look up to, and now i feel like you would be a really good friend to have. Thank you so much for everything you've than in all this years, specially giving me courage to live my queerness as freely ad possible. Happy Birthday Alexis

[@gilliansmith9458]

this is so beautiful and made me want to hug all 3 versions of you i grew up watching your videos and they shaped my idea of creativity, humor, and confidence. I'm so proud of you - all of the yous - and can't wait to keep growing up together

[@marianaisms]

alexis you don’t understand i’ve literally waited for you to react to this video since i found out about you in like 2016 no joke i checked back every six months or so 😭😭😭

[@tiannahmakia]

I turned 25 a couple months ago, and this video was honestly so healing. I loved this video so much ❤

[@caracrosby7148]

I remember watching the original when it came out. I’m bawling my eyes out for the growth. So proud of you! Can’t wait to see the next one

[@xjenro]

I love this so much. So proud of you!!! I wish I would’ve done this - especially when I was in my darkest days - and then reflect now that I’m out of that time. It shows how much you grow and how much to be greatful for

[@galishalev6880]

i’m just a year younger and have been watching your videos since i was 15 and watching this video just felt like a hug to my younger self (who was also so gay and just didn’t know). thank you❤

[@kylarduncan00]

I was going through my subscriptions for the first time in like forever and saw you, remembered how I used to watch you when i was around 15 as well. She would be so proud of you now. This was one of the most emotionally vulnerable videos i’ve seen in a long time and i’m genuinely going to do this too for funsies. Also I look back on old videos of me and I was so totally 💅🏻 but thought I was so not LMAO

[@EloTheCurious]

Aawee!! Watching this with you feels like knocking on the door my inner child has been hiding behind. I really appreciate you sharing this with us. ❤ I also love therapy and find it to be priceless and absolutely necessary for my ability to heal from the shit I went through in my life. One of the therapists I saw recently walked me through a few forms of meditation, and there was one about putting my hand on my chest over my heart and visualizing breathing into my heart while thinking of something “that makes you smile” and I felt panic, and broke into tears and struggled to breath until we moved onto the next method. In reflect I was in a very vulnerable state, and I have a lot of emotional scar tissue around my heart, so it felt scary to ask my deep heart space to let air fill the hallways. This video touched that place in my heart too, and I can tell it’s from the need to continue airing out that heart space. Thank you for being you. I’m so happy to hear you’re healing and reaching deeper acceptance within yourself. May we all find our way through along the way. ✨🖤

[@BethRose]

My little one just turned 1 on may 4. I actually showed him some of your old videos the other day and he cackled! He loved them! So proud of you for staying strong and how far you've come!

[@ivbwatchwithme8501]

Alexis, regardless of if you read this or not, I am astonished at how much you've grown. I'll be 28 in a few months and I feel like I can learn so much from you! I've been watching you intermittently since 2014 (wow). I hope the next 10 years bring you joy because you are such a light in this world. I'd like to think I am, too. Keep thriving!

[@emilycounts1333]

I love this so much. I’ve followed your birthday series and they’ve always been so, so good. But this one really got me. Proud of you and all you’ve accomplished and I can’t wait to be here in 10 more years and see what other amazing things you’ve done. You’re incredible, thank you for existing and sharing yourself with us ❤

[@meganannabel6245]

you radiate the same energy and speak in the same cadence as Victoria Pedretti and i love it so much

[@natashaeverose]

This was so beautiful Alexis! I’m so proud to see how far you’ve come, little Alexis would be so so proud of you :) I started watching your videos when I was probably about 14, you felt like the relatable sister I never had and I found so much comfort in that as a kid who also grew up in a tough family environment. Thank you for that. Best of luck with your stand up show and I’m so excited to see your future creative work in film and television etc! You’re doing so so amazing! Forever inspired by your courage

[@user-vg8dp4xs2n]

I cried. XD I hope your birthday went wonderfully. It's crazy to think you have 1mil subscribers now. I'm glad I got to see this. Very heartwarming.

[@ihatemickiegee]

THIS VIDEO made me feel so many things. i’m turning 27 and my 17 year old self was a different, but ofc same person about to go thru many major life transitions and personal declines and transformations so i get it. and ive been reminding my inner child, my past self, of why she deserved to be loved and creative, and respect and value herself, instead of what she did believe. and this really helped with that 🥲 i’m so glad you can look back on what “alexis” said to you with happiness and comfort and love for her. she and you deserve it. thank you for sharing a vulnerable piece 😇

[@PB_and_Jenny]

I love being so proud of strangers on the internet. This is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing this moment with us. ❤

[@themedicdroidx10]

This made me cry. Thank you for sharing.

[@abbie_shack]

i love when you post! thank u for your vulnerability, you’re doing incredible things! proud of you

[@katehelen]

this is so wholesome eek

[@oiskypoisky2674]

Omg a video from Alexis! Been watching this channel since you were 16 or 17. What a treat to see you again on KZbin. Happy birthday cutie! Keep up your comedy! It's great.

[@missy7713]

woah, my heart feels so full after watching this. thank you for being vulnerable with us, much love

[@kaymal5501]

Crying because I watched this video remembering what I was like at 13 when I watched the first one. Happy Birthday Alexis, congrats on living your wildest dreams ❤. May you dream wilder and bigger for your 33 year old self and beyond.

[@annnna]

this was so emotional, i loved it. you're amazing g zall :,)

[@allysmith53]

happy birthday alexis

[@heyitskaitlynhere]

i've been watching your channel and you since you started. I remember when you posted this video and how I shared that my birthday was only 2 days after you. I just turned 25 on June 8th. I know exactly how you feel and i just wanted to say thank you for sharing your vulnerability! always sending love

[@Darkfae98]

This was beautiful. I used to watch you because of he who shall not be named and I’m so impressed with the person you’ve become. I’m 25 this year :) we really did grow up huh

[@AngryBecauseMornings]

This was beautiful. Thanks so much for sharing your growth with us!

[@mindsetblocks]

This video felt like a hug to my heart. Sending you and little Alexis tons of love❤

[@princesspooh4137]

being the same age as you has always made me feel so connected as a viewer. and I did just cry too you you aren't the only one :')

[@serendipityxo]

Been watching you forever. What a milestone. Love you and proud of the person you have become 💕

[@sarahdiane6428]

hi, i love you and i am so proud of you. thank you for sharing and being open, vulnerable with us ❤