we read a little life....again

[@annandaandrade3017]

I mean... What's better than seeing two sisters sobbing on the floor reading a book?

[@starshocker]

There's nothing that can beat that for sure. Now I wanna sob over this book too .

[@natasha4046]

Being the two sisters sobbing on the floor reading a book

[@cpt.hatemonger1950]

A GOOD book?

[@yasminepanda]

Being those sisters..

[@katymartin3924]

“HOW ARE YOU NOT LOSING YOUR MIND?!” “I am just… more quietly.” Me and my little sister in a nutshell. 😂

[@juliamarin3848]

Friends break up, friends get married Strangers get born, strangers get buried IT'S BEEN 2 YEARS BUT I'M RIGHT WHERE YOU LEFT ME pleeeeease come back kat

[@bookishlandings4445]

Not to be overly philosophocal, but I love how words can have so much power over us. It's some squiggles on a page that we've attached meaning to, and through that we get attached to people who aren't even real and we laugh and cry and get angry with them. The words aren't real, the people aren't real, but the meaning is, and I love that for us.

[@reynidaze]

you should try reading The Starless Sea, if you haven't already, i think you'll like it

[@bookishlandings4445]

@@reynidaze I read it about a year and a half ago! I didn't mind most of it, but the end confused me a lot

[@kiungaskiung5836]

Who says it itsnt real? ^^ just because it isn’t in physical matter it is everything but not real. But that’s just my take a dude who things we are further reaching then just Three Dimensions ^^

[@lipi3954]

I wish. I wish. I wish it wasn't real but the truth is it's VERY real. Judes exist in this world. Too many of them too many.

[@brittanyhoward1741]

Kat and Lauren having A little life Vietnam flashbacks for 17 minutes is the best way to start my Thursday

[@Katie-vg2ff]

@@leoBrofoski23 same question 😕

[@zukihoney135]

@@Katie-vg2ff it’s a phrase people say referencing US soldiers having PTSD from the Vietnam War

[@Katie-vg2ff]

@@zukihoney135 oh thanks

[@booksbynichelle]

I recently did a re-read where I just stopped after part 2. I left Jude hanging out with Harold. Pretended the last 5 parts just didn't happen. Highly recommend!

[@sdafghnjmklkjhgfds6224]

i left it off in the middle of the Happy Years when Jude and Willem were singing together, I also highly recommend!! :)

[@paperbackdreams]

honestly that is the smartest move you could possibly make imo

[@CamVan299]

Oh this is nice i’ll do it

[@izzyshyperfixations]

this is the most chaotic reading vlog i’ ve ever watched and it reminds me of why i love my sister... also you made me read a little life and i have REGRETS

[@jamieruwen4204]

does anyone else miss this channel 😢

[@maryamalatawi]

Meeee💔💔 thinking of her all the times

[@Pragya-xh6sh]

Why did she stop posting????

[@love_kurdt]

@Pragya-xh6shprobably bc creators have lives outside of online platforms!

[@catherinesmith9675]

You’re so brave for this because I could NOT BE PAID to reread this book.

[@paperbackdreams]

the fact that the music copyright flagged this vid so I literally cannot be paid for my pain......youtube is not on my side

[@taralucent1219]

@@paperbackdreams I appreciate it anyway Kat. Now I have more classical music to listen too. Thank you, love.

[@user-ly2ll5od1r]

Honestly it's the only book that I would ever re-read, reading other books after this felt like a betrayal to those characters.

[@aden.e]

the goodreads girlies who have seen the updates have been READY for this video

[@evelynchiroque3507]

All our comments were like: why are you doing this to yourself??? 🤣

[@chelseabee023]

meeeee

[@arorasaakshi]

exactly!!! 😂😭

[@commar6088]

Help, I am still at the restaurant

[@emeelyflores9158]

I saw an update from you on goodreads and it reminded me how much I miss you🥲

[@laceyh]

I obviously hope one day you'll be back, but there's something hysterical about the idea that the apex of this channel was a video about re-eading this particular book with Lauren and now it's just over. I hope you're well!

[@imanexperiment1]

currently i'm manifesting kat back into our lives 🤞

[@taylorkelly3372]

Where did she go??

[@underhypedandoverrated]

This should be the only way to read a little life, so wholesome yet also so sad

[@spaceacekaitlin333]

This is the perfect representation to my last two brain cells reading A Little Life.

[@paperbackdreams]

that was the goal lololol why say intelligent shit when we could just roll around and scream, our heads off?

[@soymikleo]

mother pls come back 🥹

[@KaitG99]

She was amazing, i miss her a ton, shes hilarious with a fantastic personality.

[@meadowrae1491]

I love how you and your sister can just hang out and read a book together.

[@semogecarg]

ikr i wish i could have this closeness with my siblings

[@izziedias]

I almost got this book from the library back in 2020. the week I was supposed to go get it, the library closed it was a sign from the universe, and I appreciate it

[@ritaki2758]

I did the same except the book was loaned out... I ended up borrowing it for 2-3 weeks when it was available

[@fallingpetals15]

I used to watch your videos and I loved your content so much. Understandable that you are taking a break, but I hope you will comeback in the future! I miss your book reviews!!

[@ACupofNicole]

I admire Lauren for being able to lose her mind quietly, as I AM NOT CAPABLE

[@paperbackdreams]

COULDN'T BE ME EITHER her restraint is imPRESSIVE

[@sofiajeremiah1068]

I started watching booktube in lockdown and paperbackdreams was the first booktuber I was obsessed with and started my reading journey. I miss watching you Kat. I hope one day you will return. ❤

[@itsclayo]

Man. Ludovico Einaudi playing in the background while you all hysterically sob is just 🤌

[@vaibhav6826]

12:35 I didn't cry at all when I read this book in 2019. I felt really sad and heartbroken but I didn't cry because I think I was at a point in my life where I was really burnt out and cold. It's been 2 years and I am in a much much better and happier place now and as a result I am scared of a reread. Love you both guys. ❤️❤️

[@christinadallas1085]

Im the same way!!!! I watched her vlog and expected to cry the whole time. I just felt empty the whole time, and after the end I swear I was depressed for a couple days. I also am in a really good place now so I think reading it now would break me again a whole different way.

[@Mopsiejunior]

I also didn't cry. I felt drained at the end. I hated what had happened, but I just felt so empty inside. Mind you, I was at a super low point in my life at the time.

[@brororoh]

same here! I did not cry throughout the whole book and wondered why. But I was in a bad place in my relationship and just disassociated myself a majority of the time. Im in a better place and im terrified of a reread lol

[@emmairwin581]

My English teacher gave me this book when I was 15 with no context and honestly I didn’t know what to expect and BOY was I overwhelmed. I’ve since reread it and cried my eyes out for hours, but that first time I didn’t shed a single tear 🤷‍♀️ It’s my favourite book.

[@vaibhav6826]

@@brororoh same same! I too had come out of a bad relationship recently.

[@catreadsabunch]

This started to have the drama of a renaissance painting with women crying on floors and chairs and couches and I was here for it. I am not sure I could ever read this book but I'm glad it brings you (joy? no depression? yes) ... something.

[@paperbackdreams]

this comment wins. 10/10 romanticization of reading really sad books and getting gross tears all over your sister's house

[@whateverworksmate.721]

It's been about a year since I've sobbed uncontrollably over by bathroom sink at Dear Comrade and I'm not ready to revisit this book for another 2-4 business years, but I'm sure there will come a time when the experience will have retreated far enough into my brain that I'll wanna read it again. I mean I teared up right now remembering it, so that tells you where I'm at emotionally.

[@paperbackdreams]

no I feel that...I'm gonna need four years AT LEAST before my next go

[@marizztellahdeguzman8634]

When both of them started wailing is an accurate representation of my whole life all of the time 🥸

[@TJ.WEIGHT]

Miss you Kat. Please come back. You were the best booktuber on KZbin.

[@amitozkaur4567]

Due to not many people reading or much content about this book, I NEED REPEATED VIDEOS LIKE THIS THANK YOU

[@magiqian8304]

parts told in harold's pov are the ones that always get me the most

[@zozzle_]

Why did you reading the saddest book make me so happy. Legit couldn’t stop smiling watching this. Am I ok?

[@paperbackdreams]

none of us are ok and that's ok

[@sohinib42]

YES your little life reading vlog was my first ever watch’ and i’m so glad i found your channel you’re one of the persons i look up to

[@SofiZaragoza]

that was mine too

[@paperbackdreams]

oooo that’s bananas!! thx for sticking around lololol 😅💜

[@humyrahfatima]

Mine as well

[@astoldbyfrancia]

the way i couldn't remember your name and wanted to find you and the one thing I remember was you raving about Radio silence AND I FOUND YOU!!

[@charnida]

love how you both just feed off of each other's energy. i've owned a little life for monthssss and i've been waiting to buddy read it with my friend. i think this video was the sign to get to it

[@anjalidedha1777]

come back, it's not a joke anymore

[@melonpan8892]

Damn still no new vids. She's still updating her goodreads tho. I hope she's doing well.

[@mariana-vw6jl]

same :(

[@sienna8947]

The iconic duo is back with the self destructive behaviour that I absolutely expect

[@thepretentiouspoet]

11:33 onwards, that lil section where you are gabbling and sobbing and the phone is talking to you is what the whole of 2020-2022 thus far has felt like lmao

[@frankundercoverdragon6288]

Kat really said "what better way to start the year than with pain"

[@mariana-vw6jl]

I just scrolled through my packed subscribed channels to find you!!! omg you were my favorite booktuber aaaaaa I MISS YOU

[@KarlaGarcia-of7rh]

Your psychotic cry-laugh is everything. I can't believe you did this again but also, thank you. LOL P.S. Is Larry still not allowed to read it?

[@lilhedonistcannibal123]

he's just too sweet for this, he doesn't deserve this pain

[@KarlaGarcia-of7rh]

@@lilhedonistcannibal123 True. His soul doesn't deserve to be corrupted like this :)

[@paperbackdreams]

larry will NEVER be allowed to read it

[@Prissy.6]

@@paperbackdreams LARRY SHOULD ABSOLUTELY NEVER BE ALLOWED

[@string808beats]

I actually miss her omg so much has happened in my life since we last saw her..

[@dev-msk]

Same here lol. Not any good things tho.

[@the_ash_tree]

I lost it when Lauren tried to call your dad 😂😂😂 my dad never picks up his phone, so I can relate!

[@paperbackdreams]

he was asleep, but he got the message and called us in the morning VERy concerned lololol

[@the_ash_tree]

@@paperbackdreams I can't imagine why he'd be concerned 🤣

[@seemasingh-bw8sx]

I'VE BEEN READY FOR THIS SINCE GOODREADS BUT I WAS *NOT* READY TO FEEL THE OVERWHELMING URGE TO DESTROY MYSELF AGAIN

[@giulia.amy.19]

Omg yes! You’re the reason why I read a little life and stalking you on Goodreads made me realise you were rereading it so I was and I’m screaming

[@YolandaChenYT]

This is so wholesome and cozy, reading the most devastating story

[@baileypenwell5822]

come back, you were the best book tuber out there.

[@seemasingh-bw8sx]

ah yes the woman whose reading vlog i saw last year and started to read this book which wrenched out my entrails reading the same book again, which is gonna convince ME to reread it life's good, peace out

[@iLOVEyou161616]

My new goal in life is to find a friend I can read an emotional book with in the same room so we can cry together

[@simsamsammie]

What I've learned from your experiences is if I'm forced to read a harrowing book, it's best to do it with a friend

[@kathynguyen1003]

Why are we here, just to suffer. My favorite part of this video was when you broke Lauren’s glasses it was hilarious and chaotic I love you two together!

[@salmaelhadouchi]

I felt overwhelming rage and disgust while reading this book instead of sadness, it still makes me angry when i think about this book...shall i read it again 😀

[@bahananahana3381]

OMG THIS EMOTION.

[@fallenangelz291]

No

[@miggs7173]

Same!!!! Most people cried and I was expecting to bawl, but I was just so furious! I might reread it though to appreciate the subtle parts of the book

[@nathanruckle4942]

Yeah it’s a pile of garbage for sure

[@Lokster71]

Nice to see you again. Our reading group are doing A Little Life (although I haven't started it yet.) PS Can I just applaud you for the care you put into your subtitles including actual bonus jokes.

[@paperbackdreams]

aw thank you! good luck with your group read! it'll definitely stimulate some big conversation... :)

[@alliestinnett2135]

Your interactions with one another during different emotions throughout the book is so cute

[@hawaiianpunch1813]

yk paperbackdreams i love your content your inspirational the way you are yourself and carry yourself i love all your videos i dont think theres a single bad video so whatever you release i just know its you

[@liat7966]

I love how literally everyone in you family is so chill and laid back. Love yalls personality!

[@megancummings7922]

THIS BOOK. CANT. EVEN. Literally SOBBED uncontrollably for an hour after I finished reading it. 5 stars for sure, no doubt about it. Just picked up To Paradise last night, can’t wait to start reading it!

[@sofiajeremiah1068]

10:35 Kat : HOW ARE YOU NOT LOSING YOUR MIND?!!! Laur : I am. Just more quietly. 😆😭😆😭😆😭😆😭😆😭

[@jazzremetio455]

Still waiting mother... still waiting 😢

[@nadyamalkina7682]

Kat laughing hysterically, while sobbing her head off, is a whole new vibe ✨😭

[@saumya9173]

oh how the human species likes to self destruct

[@paperbackdreams]

just out here trying to feel something lol

[@ananeu]

its taken me half a year to read this book. and i still have a quarter to go. each page at this point in the book just cues me to cry. i love this book, but its breaking me. this video is, also breaking me. you guys are so strong re-reading holy hec.

[@withlovegj]

this is so chaotic yet so wholesome at all the same time.... and i'm questioning whether i should actually try picking up this book also can you possible do a Radio Silence reading vlog with Lauren some day???

[@moonchild1420]

ok so... I have tried reading A Little Life but couldn't go through with it knowing what's going to happen (regarding the trigger warnings) but seeing you both so invested and it being a whole experience, I want to give it another try! omg also the 5 out 5 rating is just too tempting

[@drangel1345]

Now this is how you do a reading vlog!! i was laughing so much but also having flashbacks because X=X 😭😭

[@lilmre5]

Miss your videos so much 🖤 hope you are doing well!! I contemplated re-reading this again soon...now I have a feeling I'm definitely going to after this video😅

[@astrophilehere..343]

Yeah, why is she not posting?😭

[@_emma_2005]

After I have just tested positive for Corona and am going to be stuck in my room for the next week, this literally couldn't have come at a better time. And it was so perfectly chaotic and wholesome. I love it!

[@kyndramiller-greene3489]

I think that whatever sweater thing Laur is wearing at the end would be great to absorb my tears on my eventual re-read

[@oliviadanielle]

Kat: how are you not losing your mind??😭 Lauren: I am just… more quietly Listen if that isn’t the perfect portrayal of every big/ little sister duo🥲💕

[@r1stsl1tr]

I miss you so much, your videos were really relaxing and I thought ur fashion sense was really cool and ur why I still want to get a turtleneck sweater and some big glasses. You work really helped me get back into reading and keep me interested in it over the years - I hope you and ur friends and family are doing great, and that you come back to the channel one day💜

[@aden.e]

i also read this in january and it really did put me in a horrible mental state that i’m still not out of 😀 my favorite book of all time tho..

[@readbyamity5440]

not me just crying while watching, because the pain that book causes is REAL

[@stephanieschuller8467]

pleeease come back, I miss your vids a lot 😢 they were always so funny

[@margohansonhighkingsupreme7279]

i have now read radio silence. i get it kat. i get it

[@lyanne2765]

Now i need someone who i can cry with if i decided to reread this again because ill probably lose my mind if it is just me

[@bunbun6161]

Hi I just want to say I really liked watching you talking about books no matter if I was interested in reading them or not. Your videos helped me relax and unwind after a long day. I wish you all the best and I hope you are having a great day.

[@changedbybooks]

This is so weird, I was literally crying because I'm reading A Little Life and to "relax and clear my mind" I go to youtube and the first video that appears is this!! The universe doesn't want me to feel better 😂 😭 (I've been meaning to read the book since you posted your first reading vlog)

[@kristenbell5214]

I can't imagine putting myself through that book for a second time, but thank you for doing it for our entertainment

[@Hunt3rsDr3am]

Why are all my favorite booktubers leaving! :(

[@Lyra-fh2kj]

Sobbing uncontrollably while classical music plays in the background is low key a mood

[@martinasophiaisaksen3034]

Okay kat and Lauren crying and laughing for 17 minutes straight is my perfect brand of content

[@aseaoftomes]

Literally here for this content and the Ludovico Einaudi pieces.

[@parishadizady8915]

I'v never posted a comment ever. But today i'm gonna tell you how much i miss your videos. I want you to know what a special little comfort place your videos are. If you are not gonna start posting again, it's obviously your choice, but i just wanted to let you to know that i miss these videos so fucking much and that i hope you'r doing ok.

[@cpt.hatemonger1950]

I just finished this one a few days ago and legit can't begin to imagine why anyone would wanna sit through this bloated, joyless, tortuous mess a second time. After the 500th page or so, it devolves into such a tiring cycle of crying, apologizing, self-harm, apologizing for the self-harm, crying for the apologizing, etc. etc - Like, about midway through The Happy Years I started reading it as a weird black comedy and a sliver of life jumped back into it, ironically.

[@cpt.hatemonger1950]

It straight up peaks at the beating- That literally none of the other characters react normally to, by the way, especially Harold, but that's it's own tangent completely -to be entirely honest; like, I really think Jude's first suicide attempt should've been successful and the book should have ended there - It would've been a reasonable length then, it would've stopped before it became a ghoulish parody of itself and it would've kept Willem's character unruined by hiss dull-ass easy street walk to the least-complicated stardom you can imagine and that abortive relationship (where she completely shatters his goofy nice-guy image she'd been building up to that point with his absurd reaction to finding out about Jude's burn) that's made completely pointless by the silly tragedy Hanya pulls out of her ass. Anyway, 5/5 is laughable at best, but it's your channel.

[@ChloeWike-eq8qu]

Kat I miss you so much and i really wish you'd re-upload your vlog of reading the Grishaverse. I think it's the same vlog your family made Christmas cookies. I loved that vlog!

[@claudiacuilbheir1182]

This v-log made me really sad that I don't have a sister! I'd love to read something so scarring with a supportive sibling, but my brother doesn't like to read as much as me (also, we have different taste). You two have a really lovely bond, I hope to see more v-logs like this one

[@destinywilksalvarado7121]

I’m still to scared to read this 😭 I bought it and everything I just can’t bring myself to pick it up.

[@paperbackdreams]

tbh it’s self care to not read it!! you’re doing yourself a service

[@oof8421]

If you don’t think you should, don’t. Trust

[@sunset1055]

I honestly don't think i have enough mental strength to reread this book ever again

[@mirekkkwtf]

This is the best day of this miserable year

[@paularodriguez726]

I feel like the full experience of this video is with the captions on. Chef's kiss Kat, that was delightful

[@emilygannon3122]

Got halfway through A Little Life and had to take a ~mental health break~ from reading but this video might be a sign that I need to finish. Ty Kat and OG Kat for the iNsPiRaTiOn

[@paperbackdreams]

DNFing is also a WONDERFUL choice :)

[@oliviabradley8638]

The dramatic classical music interspersed with your chaos makes this

[@mskleftwich]

I have never wanted a sister more than I do watching this.

[@whyamievenalive1124]

No fr ..lets be bookish stranger sisters

[@ElectraHeart05]

I've been buddy reading this book since 2021 and we have officially decided to finish. It's such a chaotic yet beautifully written novel.

[@anaya2464]

BEEN THERE DONE THAT! so glad to see i am not alone in my stupidity TwT

[@Isabel.Perez.]

The video and the vibes were just pure chaos and I love it. I think pure chaos is the only appropriate way to approach a Little Life

[@GDNA05]

I miss her and her dad making videos 😢

[@donnybuoy]

Still my favorite book of all time, and your first video reading it is what introduced me to it! It obliterated my emotions BUT the characters are just so beautiful, I think about them to this day. Now I feel the need to re-read it!

[@sufear9106]

A little life broke them so much that they stopped posting and now I'm going to ugly cry because of that fact. I didn't realize this was their last video, man I'm sad