2018 about my anxiety and depression

[@katrinalobue5870]

I’m a mental health professional and seeing an influencer being so open surrounding their personal experience with mental health is extremely refreshing and gives me hope for the future of mental health

[@madelynn-delarosa]

I just want to give you the biggest hug, Jenny!! I know exactly how you feel about being anxious and not feeling creative and feeling REALLY guilty about it. It's scary, I know - especially when creating becomes your source of income. Take all the time you need for yourself and try not to be so hard on yourself, everything will be okay and will work out ♥️♥️♥️ We're all rooting for you!!!!

[@ashamahajan499]

A queen supporting a queen 😫😫😫 love you both!!!!

[@lauravillalobos6436]

I love you both so much

[@KILLEMALLTWICE]

@@lauravillalobos6436 like in a sexual way??

[@HitomiMochizuki222]

I connected with soo much throughout this video

[@wearilive]

Love you ❤️

[@emcabl333]

My two fave youtubers!! Love that you have love for each other. Please do a video together! 🥰

[@ElenaTaber]

Just finished watching all of this and wanted to say thank you for being so open. I relate to this so incredibly much- finally turning a hobby I worked at for 4 years into a job, fully supporting myself and feeling the scarcity mindset, the backlash of comments in found sponsored content, the loss of creativity, the comparison, the anxiety, the burn out. To be honest, I literally had an emotional breakdown/anxiety attack last night (can’t believe I’m even sharing this ok the internet) from being so stressed, overwhelmed and worked thin & felt totally alone until watching this. It’s so strange navigating this space as an influencer where I feel so incredibly thankful to be have been lucky enough to turn my dreams into a reality to the point where I feel guilty for feeling tired or anxious or even just upset. It’s so difficulty to find balance when your life is your brand and your brand is your job. I guess I just wanted to say thank you for being so candid because I’m fully right there with you. You’re killing it Jenny and I’m so glad to know you. Rooting for you in all you do!!!

[@HitomiMochizuki222]

I love you

[@sandyl.5213]

Omg a KZbinr i watch commenting on another KZbinr that i watch!

[@KILLEMALLTWICE]

@@sandyl.5213 Right! Lol. Also masturbating helps with anxiety.

[@frogirlginny]

A few seconds in but sending you so much love and light. You are one of my favorite people on the internet and I hope you continue to grow and be guided throughout your journey.

[@lindseyrem]

can relate so so much. youtube and college is ROUGH. sending u all the love❤️

[@bug-bh9gx]

lindseyrem send love my way pls thx

[@kellgg]

I did the NYC grind when I was your age too. It can be so rewarding but it is NOT easy and forces you to take an honest look at yourself. I want to let you know that it gets better and there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Keep digging up all the shit and facing it; observe your behaviors and reactions to the world around you, adjust accordingly, be gentle with yourself, and keep living. Things fall into place. There is no one else like you on youtube, the content you create is so genuine and inspiring; often when I watch your videos I think "wow, these are so considered and thoughtful, she really took her time to edit these and make quality content"... that cannot be said for many. Anyone who has negative things to comment to you haven't lived half the life you have and are just jealous (I sound like a mom but it's true!). Anyways, be gentle with yourself, your brain is your most powerful force, so fill it with good thoughts about yourself and your life and the rest will follow xo

[@meghendy]

Kelley Garrard this is the nicest most true comment ❤️

[@megan3628]

i hit rock bottom this past semester too. just loading my schedule up too much and making a lot of life changes at once was really triggering for my anxiety and depression. hearing that you've been through something similar, given that i really take a lot of inspiration from you, makes me feel not so alone. take your time and be kind to yourself.! i'm sure we'll all be here when you hit your stride again. sending you light, luvbird

[@caricakes]

ugh at the nine minute mark i just wanted to jump through the screen and give you a hug! your hard work has really shown and we're so thankful for you. i hope your 2019 is bright and lighter and really, thank you.

[@hannahlund4295]

you are such a good person jenny. you are clearly so strong and so brave and for the past year have been the biggest role model for me. you inspired me to go vegan, you inspired me to shop a lot of slow fashion/second hand and you continue to inspire me with every video you make. i'm only a teenager so idk if it means anything but i can completely relate to the "rock bottom" you feel and not knowing why you are sad (which is always the most frustrating thing). i am so sorry you feel like this but i hope you know how much you mean to me and all your viewers! love you :)

[@rubyclarke8770]

I always watch every single one of your videos but never usually comment, but i just wanted to say, you genuinely seem like an extremely honest, hard working and kind person. That comes through in your videos so much and its so wonderful to see, i love you and your style, you're a constant source of inspiration for me. Thanks so much for your videos. They've helped me out in a lot of ways, probably more than intended so thankyou.xxxxx

[@hellseaa]

The past few of months haven't been easy for me. I started college, not knowing anyone and I'm someone who struggles with socializing with people my anxiety gets in the way all the time and I wasn't happy and I also hit rock bottom. I didn't do well in my classes then I started talking to a therapist which really didn't help for me either and I felt even so low and alone. All of my friends were having the time of their lives and away for college while I'm still stuck in the same place and not being able to experience new things. I'm still dealing with all of this today and a couple of other things but I'm hoping the new year is a whole lot brighter and better for me. I hope you feel better!!!!💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

[@shreklopez662]

chelsea ojeda ur not alone💓

[@LatriceSydney]

chelsea ojeda have you switched your therapist? Each therapist has a different therapy style, so maybe theirs didn’t work for you.

[@Glitter1245]

This is exactly how I have been feeling. I am glad we are not alone in this world

[@kkkk7548]

I’ve been feeling so lonely and left out and shitty in university too, especially because I am not studying in my home country so I don’t really know anyone here. like everyone is out there with their friends and partners and I’m here all alone and it just doesn’t change and I don’t know how to make it better

[@KILLEMALLTWICE]

If you're not going to hook up with a good looking Black guy, masturbating helps with anxiety. Dildo must be big though.

[@AlexaLikes]

As a smaller creater who has been on youtube for twice the time as you, I would constantly have to fight back the feeling of "everyone else is doing better than me." Even without depression or (diagnosed) anxiety, it's impossible to escape. I did a large contract (considering my following) in 2016 and a bunch of other smaller ones and got overwhelmed. I "peaked" in terms of revenue but I was never completely happy with it. Feel free to invite sponsorers to apporach you at a later date or reach back out to them when you have the time and space for them on your channel. It's a blessing to have a hobby pay your bills, you can do this!!

[@crazywelsh1483]

Juggling severe panic attacks/anxiety while supporting myself full time in college has been the biggest struggle of my adult life and your content has always been the biggest inspiration for me. Please take time to yourself n come back when you’re ready

[@mariap7865]

i've been struggling with anxiety since I was fourteen. i feel you. i know what it's like to stay up all night. feeling dizzy. always those damn thoughts. nowadays, i'm going to therapy and it's the best decision i've ever taken because it has really helped me. you're an inspiration for a lot of people. remember that. lots of love

[@Sangeyification]

This made me cry. Something very similar happened to me last September. I was so focused on studying and working at the same time, trying to make ends meet... I completely suppressed my hobbies and constantly felt like nothing brings me joy. It got to the point where I cried every other day and started thinking about how much I need some medication, too. Thank you so much for sharing your story. You're not alone. If it helps, I just want to tell you that you're one of the sweetest creators and I love your personality so, so much!

[@victoriawells767]

I've been watching your videos for about a year now. I look forward to every video you produce. Thanks for being so vulnerable and candid about what you've been going through, it really struck a chord with me. Anxiety is SO difficult to navigate. You've got a lot of support over here! This will only make you stronger as a person and a creative. Warm wishes!

[@laurenr6416]

Jenny thank you for being so honest with us! I think its incredibly important that you were so honest about not only mental health, but also making youtube your full time career. You are so caring and kind, and it shines through in your work. It's really lovely to see a creator addressing sponsorships in a way that feels completely transparent. I'm sending so much positivity your way, and hope you start to feel like you again

[@linhl4710]

Don't know why I only just came across your channel now, but I have been binge watching your videos like crazy. Your transparency, genuine demeanour, and authenticity are absolutely beautiful. Don't be afraid to share what you desire (as you so choose). Much love!

[@gabriellarenee4060]

im 19 and a sophomore in college and hundreds of miles away from home and this past semester was my first semester paying my own rent, my own car payment, working for it all and taking 17 hours. it is nice to know that im not alone on feeling worn out from all of it and sort of lost. i relate to this video more than you'll know. thank you for this.

[@faithpienaar2865]

This is my first comment on KZbin ever. Thank you for sharing so vulnerably with us here. Your content has inspired to be the best version of myself so many times in 2018- what you create has moved me to live more authentically and I want to thank you for sharing your creativity with the world. I too struggle with mental illness and talking about it on the internet always has me sinking in a shame spiral. But talking about it saves lives. We are in public health crisis around mental health here in South Africa too and its encouraging to see you using this platform to talk through this. Thank you, so so much, all the love on this journey

[@celine_marie]

Girl. You're doing so good. Your feelings are so valid, but breathe and let yourself be proud and enjoy how far you've come and how far you might go. You deserve it.

[@LP-xg9bl]

I am so incredibly happy that you shared this with us. Anxiety and depression have been so prevalent in my life as well. It gets better, I swear. You are so strong, please continue to fight, even though it seems really hard some days, your mental health is worth it.

[@jennytsak]

Thank you for having the strength to talk about your experience with depression and anxiety. I have been struggling silently with those ever since I was little and it was only a year ago that I managed to seek help, after watching a youtuber talk about their own journey. Hopefully this video will inspire someone out there to talk to a therapist or a loved one and try to get better as well. I am now a little over a year into therapy and 8 months on medication and I can already see a huge difference in my day to day life. I hope everything works out for you as well and I'm excited to see you achieve all your dreams.

[@liapania]

really appreciate you talking about this and sending so much love. The way you talked about your anxiety & depression, I relate to it so much. The past few years I feel like I’ve pushed myself so far away from who I actually am, and it makes it worse seeing everyone else appear to have it together and be happy without even trying. Working towards getting better though, and I hope you can feel better too ❤️

[@reganhill259]

It is so refreshing to see such real and raw honesty on this platform. Thank you for the ways you are leaning into hard things and paving the way for others who are going through something similar. This kind of vulnerability requires so much strength and courage and I am so inspired by you. You are doing good things and all that is exposed is loved and wanted and beautiful. Take care xx

[@___rivvy]

Girl, I've totally been there, although not with the added pressure of being on KZbin full-time. Thank your for being so raw and unfiltered on here. I know it's not easy - it's probably terrifying, but I think it's so helpful for people to see that mental illnesses discriminate against no one. It takes time, but you will work through this and find tools that'll help you combat the anxiety in the future. Sending lots of love and light your way, and hope the comment section will say the same.

[@THEnicolelizabeth]

I’m so proud of you for continuing this year with the honesty and integrity we’ve known you to hold !! Go Jenny go !! I’m so proud of you for taking care of yourself !! Being a creative and not feeling inspired can be such a low point, but if we carried ourselves so high on our creativity all the time imagine how burnt out we’d be !! Thank you for sharing, and feeling comfortable to do so. Love to you

[@daniellealbaciete5875]

Thank you so much for sharing this, Jenny. Coming away from a really exhausting semester also, it's so hard when you realize the creativity that you rely on for your confidence and your self-worth just seems to dry up because of anxiety. But you've still got it! You've been so strong girl. We love you through it all, thanks for being so candid and hope you find peace and rest during break. Praying for you

[@sabrinevirginiem.2958]

You're such a beautiful soul Jenny. As a student and not being a youtuber I can recognize myself in you as well. I think everyone overwhelms themselves in this time and it's so amazing you're so honest and genuine to your audience. Lots of love.

[@adriannaalejo6358]

You are so strong. This past semester was one of the worst times of my life. I also was diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression. Hearing your story and being able to relate is so nice. You are so strong and I look up to you so much. Thank you for shining your light and being a beautiful soul. I’m so happy to have found your channel!!

[@meaganjohnson2550]

Thank you so much for being brave enough to put this video out! My best friend and I both watch your vids and text back and forth about them and she and I have been struggling majorly with anxiety and depression this year, so this is actually so comforting to know that someone we admire so much is feeling the same things that we are. Take however much time you need for self-care, I will always watch your videos and support you no matter how much time you need!

[@selaraye5567]

Thank you so much for sharing this. I find myself comparing myself to people around me and people on social media and it’s so necessary for us all to recognize that what we put out to the world is not the whole story. Hearing your experience helps put things into perspective♥️ I also hit rock bottom after transferring to a different school, where I expected to suddenly be happy. I put so much on my plate and ran myself dry. I also went to therapy for the first time and also went on antidepressants. I’m glad you got help and recognize what’s happening. Thank you again for talking about everything you’ve been through. It’s not embarrassing at all to talk about mental health issues. I think you’re amazing for making this video and sharing your vulnerable self with the world

[@mengisch]

THANK YOU SO MUCH! You are so real and that is the most precious gift you can get from a youtuber! I love your channel and that you are so strong! I love how you see the world and try to better the world! Thank you! You give me courage to be modest, honest, passionate, precious and a better person! THANK YOU

[@beemaybishop]

You are so brave - thank you for being so honest and vulnerable. It's so important that you know you are seen and heard and met with love - which you are - and I'm sending so much love and caring vibes to you. I have had experience of anxiety and depression for years and I know how hard it is to see through the fog. And it's so empowering to hear someone you admire talk about their experiences. You are so strong and amazing. Thank YOU for being here and making content for us all, we are blessed to have you. I love all of your videos, you're my favourite youtuber/people on the internet and I am happy whenever you post, whatever it is. Take care of yourself, please. We'll always be here for you.

[@myrteya]

I just want to give you the biggest hug! Please be strong Jenny, I know how intense panic attacks are and the whole work and study dynamic is rough but we all believe in you! I love everything you put out and honestly you are one of the people on this platform that help me feel better. The world around us always sets up so much pressure and being stuck myself with my dreams I really understand how you feel. But I really believe in you, and seeing a therapist and taking your meds is a big step. Always take care of yourself first and be okay, cause when you are at peace and in a good headspace we all are too. We are with you and we love you! Please take care ❤

[@miyuuigari3746]

Jenny, Thank you so much for your transparency online. That is something that has always been admirable about you. I relate so much to when you said you had panic attacks but never knew why. I feel this way too and it makes me feel crazy. But listening to you here validated my feelings and made me tell myself that it's okay.

[@gillianp6842]

I’m just finding this as someone who is also in a tough place right now (college is extremely hard, especially with mental illnesses-thank you for discussing this): thank you so much for this video. i’m dealing with similar problems. you’re such a wonderful person and i’m so glad that i found your channel. thank you for sharing this with us.

[@mollysparks9975]

jenny, i also moved in 2018 and at times have experienced waves of anxiety and depression that have affected every aspect of my life. i wanted to let you know that in those times, your videos have been largely grounding for me. you've been a source of creative inspiration for me and i think that the way you use your platform is beautiful. thank you for your genuine presence. i hope that the new year brings peace for you.

[@littlemissmuffet97]

I love your videos and outlook and honesty so dearly. You have been an inspiration for me and many times in the past year when I have been struggling with anxiety and motivation to do the simplest things I will rewatch your videos and they bring me so much more light. Thank for sharing and making me feel okay that having more bad days then good doesnt make me nor you a failure. 💛

[@HitomiMochizuki222]

I cried

[@veronicajurek1368]

Mental health comes first. A lot of us are in a similar boat and the only person you owe anything to is yourself. Do what you need to do to make you feel good, better, healthy, happy. Sending you love.

[@jasmineosborne6857]

You are a beautiful soul and deserve so much happiness. Never apologise for being upset, it’s was makes you you. Love you princess and sending so much positivity ❤️✨

[@annimago]

Strong women like you were essential for me to get better when I hit rock bottom. I’m thankful for your honesty and want you to know that I’m sending all the love that I can. Always put your mental health first. You are amazing, thank you thank you thank you!

[@lionesskathyok4557]

Thank you for talking about this, I love you and your videos really bring light and inspiration in my life. I have also worked too hard to accomplish things in life, for me it was about getting grades high enough to get into my dream school and get out of the town where I’m born. I lost some part of myself along the way. All I can say is that it gets better - you will find that you slowly change your thought patterns, and things will get better. Just realising what you have been doing to yourself is great. Take care xx

[@monikarools]

you are the brightest soul on youtube and my absolute favorite to watch because I see so much of myself in you. your candidness is admirable even if you don't always see it that way. sending love

[@imrunningawaywithu]

you are incredibly brave. you're my favourite youtuber and I share anxiety and depression with you. just today I took a "self care day" because my depression hit pretty hard. I'm also self employed but today, I would have startet a new part time, limited job which I am actually looking forward to. but I just couldn't get out of bed this morning and I had to acknowledge that I need to take the day off and be soft with me. and now I see your video which comes at just the absolute perfect time. I am proud of you, thank you for your words. things will get better, we get to know ourselfes better and by knowing your "weakness" you can turn it into your strength. I wish you all the best and send MUCH love

[@brittanybennett1795]

happened to me too. panic attack, stress, depression, being suicidal even but something came over me and I realized that my life was just passing me away and watching my boyfriend of 2 years feel so depressed because I was this way it made me see, when I finally told my mom I was suicidal she cried so hard and so did i, I just decided to take hemp to help me relax and not stress so much over college and really focused on me. many months later and I'm so happy with life. things get better in time. love u girl. be strong. ( I'm sensitive too haha its not a bad thing).

[@pinkcherry9301]

I'm also crying now. You're s strong and brave being able to share this. Thank you for showing that even the "perfect" people struggle a lot too. YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE, YOU ARE HUMAN.

[@disturbthepianist]

Thank you so much for sharing and being open with all of us. Your videos always soothe me and I appreciate all the hard work you put in! I’m super super proud of you! You’re wonderful and inspiring and real. Much love, support, and a big hug from Texas.

[@annieq.4115]

you are so so courageous and strong and wonderful for being able to get this all out in the open, and it's so amazing to see someone being open and raw about something that a lot of us don't get to see.

[@tori4080]

You bring so much light to so many people and you deserve to have that light in your life. I hope you never feel pressured by us viewers! I wish you the best

[@HannahHeading]

So brave Jenny, thank-you for sharing with us. It's so important to talk about our mental health. Hoping this year is full of deep joy and peace for you.

[@runningfrmkatie]

this is so relatable! I've been consistently full time in college as well, along with trying to work and balance it all at the same time is super overwhelming, and at times I really found (and still find myself) in a dump, physically and mentally. you have an amazing spirit and energy to you, mental health is important and never forget to put yourself first! i just discovered your channel recently but like I said, you have an amazing vibe that you give off, i feel like i can really resonate with what you're saying

[@galhelga3755]

Thank you for making this video. Im in the same situation, moving, university, language exams....and im an oversensitive person too and Its not easy. sometimes wir losing ourself for a while.. once up, and once down. Always have your priority and dont feel yourself wrong, because of these feelings. You’re such a good person, thank you for being in this perfect (with all the bad things) world!❤️

[@irisxu]

I'm so happy that you are open about your mental and personal state. I've also had anxiety and depression since college in NY. Just want to let you know that we are here for you!!❤️

[@TheNaprika]

I wanted to give you a massive hug! I had no idea things were at rock bottom, your content on KZbin never reflected that. You are a strong individual and inspire so many of us. I am sorry you are going through this.

[@ZephirahMirp]

I recently discovered your channel and I feel like I know you through binge watching your videos. I just wanted to say I hope everything gets better for you soon and I love you so much. You also dont need to apologize for crying, it's normal to cry and to feel sad. I grew up I'm a Mexican household and I always felt like I needed to keep everything in and be resilient, I realized in the end that it crumbled me from inside. Once i started feeling and letting my emotions out, I felt better. I know it sounds simple but I wanted to share this with you to let you know things get better. Have a great day.

[@jimee024]

stay strong, you've taken things into your own hands and that is the most important thing, literally things only change when we take control, which is hard and draining, so enjoy therapy it's bliss, and i've always said this, it feels the WORST just when you start moving and changing bad subconscious habits, because we rely on this habits or feelings because they easy our existence, so it will get harder trying to get rid of bad coping mechanisms, but you will SHINE and you are shining, i learned how to not let myself get depressed and cut a panic attack at the root in therapy, so cherish it, let your loved ones cuddle you, and never, ever think that a sad person putting bad comments on your videos is someone that is contempt with their life. All the love into the journey of getting better in mental health, it's a ride, it goes up and down, but at the end theres life and love, and loving life.

[@c_a_h_1_1]

Really applaud your honesty and bravery Jenny. It’s so hard to open up about these topics and you’re so amazing for being so honest about your journey. Keep the faith - It will get better ❤️

[@paula-hy3ny]

I relate on everything they you said. Anxiety and depression are two things so present in my life right now and I hit my rock bottom on November and it was something so painful and stressful but also someway meaningful, and beautiful in a certain way. I have carried so many things with me all over the years and never have faced them until I hit the bottom and realized I had so many issues that needed my attention. I'm seeing a therapist too and it's been so beautiful and fulfilling getting to take the time to prioritize me and take care of me physically and mentally, and getting to actually love me like I have never done before. For me, it was also about lack of creativity, no time for me, university, deciding to break up with my partner (who I spent almost 4 years with)... But I'm in the right way for the first time in years and making the decisions that I was procrastinating to make. I will hopefully be by June in EEUU and taking an exchange program for 1 semester by September somewhere in the EU (I'm from Spain) I can relate so much on what you said, Jenny. This is just a little part of my story so you don't feel alone in here. There are so many people dealing with what you are dealing, including me. I've been seeing you and your channel for more than a year and a half now and I find you so inspiring. I send you all my love, you have all the tools to be stable and happy. Be proud of yourself for being capable to take the time and strength it needs to face what you are facing. I virtually love you so much and if I met you I know I would too. Loads of love ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[@yellowskyyy]

Jenny. You are a light. Whatever you need to do, do it. We love you as well as your creative energy. YOU ARE A BAD ASS. Focus on you love.

[@lang863]

thank you so much for sharing all this! You are amazing for being honest on the internet, and for helping others who are also struggling with similar issues.

[@saadauh8503]

I just found your channel a week ago and it has already changed my life. Your content is amazing and I’m in love with it. I also don’t usually comment on yt but I appreciate your honesty and root for your progress. Your channel has been helping me get through my own slump and I wish you nothing but the best and success, from a new subscriber 💖.

[@priscilla9032]

You are a real life angel sending you all the positive yellow light you need As someone dear to me once said, “You have to go through it to get through it” You’re an inspiration You’re an artist You have anxiety & depression It doesn’t have YOU. sending you love Xoxoxo

[@sarahhol]

Thank you so much for sharing, Jenny. This video really spoke to me. The past three years in college have been really difficult for me and hearing your experiences and shared struggles brought me comfort and make me want to seek healing for myself. Sending you lots of love and strength. You are capable and you are worthy ❤️

[@ivory3908]

Jenny, i find you real and genuine, also super creative and a great inspiration for women. Take the time you need to come back stronger than ever. This will grow you. Also, i have struggled with anxiety and depression and when you use a lot of mental energy worrying it does take away from the ability to create and produce. Mental energy is a thing. Maybe a meditation or Buddhist dharma group in New York? All the best. you are a beautiful, smart and charming young lady.

[@lilydawson2939]

thank you so much for being honest with us. I think it's really important that you put yourself first. We all love you and want you to be happy more than anything. All my love

[@darbydanielle13]

You & your videos helped me get out of bed during one of my worst episodes. you truly inspire me so much, and continue to motivate me to embrace myself & style & morals. Thanks to you I own a pair of vintage white cowboy boots (which are my favorite shoes) and haven’t participated in fast fashion in 3 months. In a non creepy way I love you so much and can’t thank you enough. Always sending you divine love & blessings. ✨🕊✨

[@elena-mo9fn]

oof. i feel this. a really hard thing for me is when creating used to be the thing that calmed me down and it has become so hard and even stressful and that makes me even more anxious and stressed. sending all my love xx

[@hippiejellyfish]

Even when I know it's hard to deal with hateful/negative people, and also with life in general, what always helps me is to think that everything is just temporary... the way I feel, the hurtful comments, my state of mind. I know is easier that it sounds, but that really has helped me. You also have the blessing of this beautiful community you build in here. As I scroll down I only can see beautiful comments, and thats because your effort on your videos and the passion you put on them is tangible. Stay strong. Big hugs and good vibes from Costa Rica (: (sorry for my bad grammar, I am not english native)

[@vanessasheena]

Can relate to everything you said here, having to also support myself since I was nineteen too. I hope your feeling better now. Thanks for being vulnerable and speaking the words I cannot say.

[@hopewithkarla]

I still have this bone in my body that wants to create. Beautiful, this sat right next to my soul & made it feel better. I hope you know this. Love all the words & tears you shared with us.

[@wawathunder]

Dear Jenny, I listened to your candid and courageous vlog. You have demonstrated authenticity and leadership in this vlog. Many of us have anxiety and depression but it is not openly discussed. You sharing your story will help because when we say things out loud it is easier, like taking a deep breathe. You will find your place where you feel able to be more steady on your feet, so to speak. I noticed that KZbin influencers and business women in this sector have expressed similar experiences of exhaustion, pressure, and anxieties related to their channel. I am thinking of Lilly Singh, and Sorelle Amore, in particular. You have been juggling so many things! When I was a younger woman I had to learn how to let go of certain goals and demands. It is a process. A lifetime of processing and learning. I am sorry to hear the pain in your voice. You will make it through❤️ thank you for being true to you 😘 you are thoughtful, intelligent and brave, sending you a big hug!

[@YurrahAlHadi]

Aww this was uploaded on my bday. I wished I had watched it then. Seeing you cry made me cry and I've only been subbed for like a week! I can relate to this 100%, living the same grind life trying to balance school and work. I finally just broke in 2017 and it cost me so bad. I'm still trying to recover. I am happy that you are getting help. My best advice is to just have at least one rest day.

[@StylishlyInsane]

aw girl im sorry that it's been so rough for you, I only discovered your channel recently but I watched a lot of your older videos and I have noticed that you seemed a lot lower energy in your recent videos, but I'm glad that you're working on yourself. Take your time, we all care about you! 2018 was a really tough year for me too in terms of mental health, I'm in my last year of law school and dealing with some major burnout and it's rough! So be kind to yourself, it'll get better :)

[@oliviaarnold3532]

Oh Jenny this breaks my heart, I feel like we have had parallel shitty times the past few months and I truly truly believe that this year will be better because you deserve to relish in the success that you have honed for so long. You’re a breath of fresh air on KZbin and just know that even when you are down and aren’t happy with your productivity, your crappiest video will still be better and more interesting than the torrid of shit that is floating around at the moment. Your genuine and kind heart is so apparent and I hope you treasure that quality in yourself 💫

[@victoria-li1es]

* virtual hug * we love you so much ❤

[@RosieeP0siee]

So much respect for you Jenny. You are my favourite KZbinr and such a huge inspiration. Sending you so much love, strength and support to you. Thank you for all you do ❣️🦋

[@darjamjau]

we support and love you jenny! thank you for being so open with us 💖💖💖💖💖 also, dont ever think that we think you dont care. that thought has never even been close to occuring in my head! every video you make is a reflection of your hard work and creativity and we see it. it is one of the main reasons we stick by you :)

[@louds0ft593]

I admire you and your content so much, and for this even more. I can't even tell you how important it is to me to see people I look up to dealing with the same problems as me. I know we can get through it. all my love xx

[@louds0ft593]

fuck it pains me so much to see other people cry I'm two seconds away from joining in

[@tracietaylor2138]

Jenny! You are so inspiring to me! You have inspired me so much to be sustainable and creative! I’m so so sorry that you’ve been so run down. I hope you feel better soon and get back on your feet. You will get yourself back!!! You have a big part on this Earth, you’ve already done so much for it! Stay strong! It’s okay to cry!! Much love xoxo

[@esmeraldatoledo2273]

Sending so much love! You are truly talented and strong and we know that you'll do great things! It's just important to take a little breather to get your creative perspective back. You are truly inspiring and beautiful and we cant wait to see more of you from you. We LOVE you Jenny!

[@sugarbomb187]

You're such a pure, honest, loving human. I'm so glad I discovered your channel because you inspire me every day to see the beauty in everything and take care of myself and the world that surrounds me. We live in a society where we have to give our 110% constantly but your community here on youtube isn't like that! We love you and respect you so much and if you need to slow down or take a lil break, we're not going anywhere

[@melindaa5589]

You deserve the best. Don’t feel the need to please others. Take time to meditate and love yourself. This life is short, there is no need for sadness and pain. Thank yourself for reaching this point of independence in your life. We love you! Don’t stop being you, the true you, the kind you.

[@thisispeacefull]

You are not alone. Just remember that there is strength in being emotional and open. James Dean puts it best and it is a quote that really resonates with me: “Only the gentle are ever really strong.” Sending you l💛ve.

[@alyvelasquez8514]

Hey, I totally understand where you are coming from about losing creativity and motivation when you’re so burned out and struggling with depression. I really love your perspective I feel this video 100%. You are killing it. Remember to rest and do what makes you feel good. You deserve it and you will get so much shit done in your career. You are already so ahead. You got this! We love you.

[@cynthiaabril5688]

Thank you for creating beautiful content and being so open. I like many people who have commented can relate to the creative burn out. I'm sorry you're not feeling well. We love your content because it reflects who you are as a person and you're great

[@lbarrett9537]

you are so magical and wonderful, this video was so healing for me. thank you for being so vulnerable and open to us all.

[@emma.l2941]

First of all I'm glad you talked about it here, not only because there are so many people who can relate, but also because through the comments and the messages you will get strength. Anxiety is a very common thing especially for people who live in big cities and struggle with the life itself in that city. Depression on the other hand, as I know is also something not rare, but only few people realise it. And since you realised that something was wrong, is the best you could do. Right now ,as you said, you have to do things for yourself, everything that makes you happy, keep the people you love by your side, and not consume yourself with things that bring you down. Every time you are panicing or you really feel blue , think of the stuff that make you or used to make you happy. I hope you feel better soon. Much Love

[@alittlepinkfish]

Thanks for being so brave and vulnerable in sharing about depression and anxiety. If you ever feel comfortable making an update version with some insight into the therapy process, I'd love to hear more. I recently went through a major experience that caused me to start therapy for depression and anxiety, as well as meds, and just am unsure how to make the most out of therapy and how to get my SELF back.

[@MrsHoran974]

things will get better, and I tell you this from my heart because I've been through the same for a lot of time and now I'm feeling amazing, just be patient and focus on the things that make you happy, everything shall pass and you'll feel great again, meanwhile I'm sending you lots and lots of love and good energies from Europe directly to your heart 💛

[@zezzab49]

thank you for sharing this message!! it’s truly not talked about enough and your words are so impacting! sending all my love + support!

[@paliescassandre5988]

Hey Jenny ! I live in France in paris's suburbs and i wanted to tell you (with my very bad french english) that i love what u do and i find it very unic. There is a lot of creativity in your videos. I don't follow many girls on youtube because most of the time i find their videos superficial but not yours. You have beautiful values. I love the fact that you talk about sustanable fashion, and that you are filming that in a very creative way. And i also love the fact that you talk about anxiety and depression because as you say, those things shoulnd't be a stigma as it often is. I'm not able to share all that i think because english is not my native tongue (tonge ?) but just remember that you are beautiful and strong and for me what you're doing is creativity. You are really expressing yourself on youtube in a way that no other girl is doing it on youtube. So i'm kissing you and France is supporting you

[@christineesparza5417]

you can be the most selfless human being, you can have the biggest heart, you can do everything you can to help better this earth and someone is always going to have something to say about it. You are a beautiful human and anyone who watches can see that you are so pure and genuine. Don't ever let anyone take your sunshine away. Life is beautiful and sad and thats whats so beautiful about life. You are going to look back on your life in 5 or 10 or 20 years and say to yourself it was hard as hell but i fucking did it. And you did it with no help. You are more amazing than you know. Know that. And anxiety/depression don't define you. We are sensitive beings and feel things deeply and thats amazing

[@emidain5963]

Jenny!!! You're so brave for making this video. As someone that deals with anxiety and depression too, it's all about understanding what tools you need to fight against them and learning how to live with them. It's an eternal ebb and flow but over time it gets easier and I hope this community + your friends and fam can help you feel less alone. Hope things start to brighten for you soon xxxx lots of love

[@salsalt5156]

Take care of yourself and no matter, you’ll always have a community that supports you and your works! sending you so much love! 💕 don’t feel embarrassed about anything you feel because you’re human and you’ll overcome everything that comes you way! Sending you much love angel ♥️

[@michaelradan4161]

You have been my biggest inspiration throughout 2018, and I thank you for always being there for ALL OF US!! Love you with all my heart and am so proud of you sis!

[@KimberlyMargaux]

I wanna hug you. You're an angel, sent from up above. You are so wonderful. Thank you for being here. ♥️

[@jamiejars]

I started crying with you. I’m a very similar kind of person and constantly pushing myself too hard & taking on too many things because I never feel like I’m doing enough. Sending you so much love - you deserve the world. Please please please do what you need and be kind to yourself ❤️