WEEKLY VLOG | lip filler top up | social anxiety sucks 🥲 days in my life | meals | Conagh Kathleen

[@kayleemichael4371]

I understand the anxiety part. All through high school and until now, I get so anxious I make myself sick and I can go the whole day without eating. I still push myself to go to concerts because I love them but I'll basically starve myself the whole day because I get more anxious if I feel sick 😅. It's definitely a vicious cycle.

[@alexscantlebury7997]

I found your channel 2 days ago and have fallen in love with it. You’re literally all I’ve been watching. You’re so real and genuine - it’s very inspiring.

[@AlmondMami]

I’m probably gonna get a lot of heat for this, but when I was 27 I was recommended by a boyfriend to try medication for my anxiety/depression. I felt exactly how you’re describing through my teens and early 20’s and I figured that I didn’t “need” medication and therapy was sufficient. I’m also inherently an introvert, however anxiety about social events is normal but shouldn’t be THIS distressing. I’ve been on Lexapro for about 3 years (started at 5mg, now 10mg) which is a low dose. One of the best decisions of my life. I truly wish I started taking it earlier in my life.

[@shanleighroberts9919]

Lexapro girly here too! And yes, changed my life for the better also :)

[@brmcmm1]

I’ve been on fluroxetine from the age of 22 and I’m now 37 and still on it. I’m a lot better on it than off it. Nothing wrong with antidepressants, if it helps, do it.

[@jenniferschmidt1097]

I appreciate you showing and talking about your social anxiety. I literally go through the exact same thing almost every single time I get invited to something with friends or coworkers. I always want to go but I also don’t want to go. It’s so confusing! I appreciate you! ❤

[@LekNicoleContent]

I feel the same way, even with family events. I just learned it’s better to be honest with everyone about how you’re feeling, rather than making up an excuse. Most people can relate, so they usually understand if you aren’t up to going. ❤️

[@taylaslater5785]

Your feelings around socialising are so valid, and you are not alone in feeling that way! I use to experience this so so frequently, and I would force myself to go to things and drink and try to fit in, even though it didn’t feel authentic to me. Almost like I was trying to be someone I’m not. It’s taken me many years of learning to come to a place where I no longer drink alcohol because I hate the way it makes me feel. I surround myself with friends that accept my choice, even though they drink. I will go and socialise with them, and then when I feel like I am getting uncomfortable because they are drunk, I recognise that and that’s when I leave. That way I am still socialising and having fun, and then I still wake up feeling good the next day. It feels much more aligned with me. Hope this helps xx

[@236ash]

Hey Conagh. It’s so refreshing hearing you speak about social anxiety. I’m exactly the same and have found it really difficult to get out of my head lately. You are not alone. Xx

[@ambreaull7218]

The quote that I’m currently focusing on in order to push myself: you start growing outside of your comfort zone. Proud of you for challenging yourself and telling your anxiety to sit down!

[@sarahvic458]

When Charlie jumped onto the couch from the back when there was no cushions made me laugh so much and you just stayed so in the zone 🤣

[@jazcross]

I always order directly from the Paula’s choice website! It ships from Sydney x

[@piamacfarlan9686]

I absolutely love your vlogs!!! Where are your chilli earrings from? I love them so much!! 🥰❤

[@odettg9106]

14:53 I'm the same lol I get anxious too for events or if I'm going to visit someone but I think because I don't go out much..I don't get anxious if I go with my husband or my mom and brothers to eat because I see them everyday but everyone else I see them only on holiday I get stressed for day and on the day I'm going. I swead my stomach hurts i feel nauseas 🤢and I feel my room it's to hot when im gettin gready but once i get to the party slowly goes away..but for me is because the time I go to visit family they always tell me bad stuff about my body like first because I'm to skinny then because I gained weight then they do rumors that they fly from Texas to California lk that's the kind of family I hv they got me like that that's why I don't go out and get stressed I cry sometimes I don't go..I'm like you I'm a calm person I never tell people if they look bad I dont even pay atension to their body. So I don't know why is people like that 😏🤷🏻‍♀️

[@Nally-jl7uk]

Your not being silly about your feelings at all Our feelings are always valid no matter what they may be And I really feel you ❤

[@taylorgrace1015]

I love you videos and your openness really helps me confront my own feelings! One thing I can say is challenge you anxiety but when challenging it be gentle on yourself. If your feeling anxious about going out tell yourself “if I push myself to go if at anytime it is too much I can leave and be honest about how I am feeling and everyone will understand.” It may help take some of the pressure off deciding to go out! Anyway I’m so proud of you

[@jennaf625]

paula’s choice is an australia website! it’s only sold online but it’s australia x

[@aimeeculliford6209]

I am currently at Uni and I totally get how you feel it’s just the feeling before you go and knowing there will be loads of people there and socialising. It seems a lot and sometimes I do get the feeling I wanna leave early but I struggle with actually leaving.

[@rubybobkowski4464]

loveee a little GRWM :)

[@dalalebelkhars9578]

I feel you girl, I'm so bad at sociolasing with people, and I prefer to stay in my comfort zone rather than to go and socialize and I always turn off invitations, I'd love to go but I'm always anxious and I get anxiety attacks if there is a lot of people.

[@eva.gerland]

I am so excited for the challenge! Been loving the workouts so far ☺️ My legs are soooo sore 😄

[@georgiamaiden175]

Can fully relate to your anxiety! Especially social! Everything you said i GET YOU!! Glad we aren’t alone XX

[@ssambishopp]

I 1000% feel the same about socialising 😅 also can agree with the period part!! It’s comes around so quickkk, literally felt like I just got off it & booooom! She’s back 😵‍💫😭

[@tnichol3636]

Loved this vlog so much! Can’t wait for all your content this year ❤

[@Nikki-oh9uq]

I feel the same about social events! It makes me feel better that other people feel the same. I got so excited when you said you ended up going! Well done Congah ❤❤

[@taylalouisearmstrong2528]

I have social anxiety as well! I get highly anxious whenever I know I have to go somewhere or do something where I know there will be a lot of people. I get butterflies in my stomach and sometimes I even get physically sick.. I've thrown up multiple times while being out (it also doesn't help that I have intolerances to certain foods) but sometimes I feel sick just because of my social anxiety. Then I feel really bad if I am out with just another person like say just my boyfriend and me because then he has to wait by himself while I am being sick or whatever.. I always feel like I ruin things for him or other people I'm with if its just me and another person. I also feel like there's a lot more pressure on me if its just me and another person because I feel like its all on me for them to have a good time because they've gone there with me and I could potentially "ruin" it for them. It's a complete mind fuck. My social anxiety comes in waves and when I have these moments of anxiety when I'm out, not only do I sometimes feel sick, but I also start getting these really negative thoughts like; no one wants you here, nobody cares, nobody would even notice if the floor just opened up right now and swallowed you. Sometimes they're even worse than that and really really loud, like someone is shouting at me. But in that moment it seems to be so true. Even the most "illogical" thoughts like "your boyfriend doesn't even love you, see he's not even talking to you, he wouldn't even care if you weren't here." Sometimes in those moments it's hard to know what's real and what's not real; what's actually going on and what's just going on inside my head. Sometimes I even take it out on the people I love (like my boyfriend). We've had arguments about it before because I can be really mean when I'm in that wave. But once I'm out of that wave or event/situation I can then see it for what it is and how it was all just inside my head. But in the moment it doesn't feel that way. It's hard to explain. But lately I've decided that I am still going to do the things I know I want to do, like going to concerts for example (where there is a lot of people). I love going to concerts and seeing music live and just being in that atmosphere. So I buy tickets to things, knowing that even if I worry about it all the way up until it's actually happening, I still want to go. And sometimes it goes badly and sometimes it doesn't. This year so far, it feels like it's getting better. I've gone to two concerts recently and I haven't experienced an episode or a panic attack of any kind. I was completely fine and enjoyed myself. It has filled me with so much hope that I can do the things that I want to do. But there is a few things I do differently now... for example, I don't eat certain things when I am out (i.e. gluten, dairy and seafood because it may not be cooked properly and cause me to feel sick), I also don't really drink when I'm out or not close to home. Also if I am going somewhere far away from home, sometimes I plan to stay somewhere closer to where it is, so I have that reassurance that I can escape if need to or I plan my travel to a tee so I know how I am going to get there and how I am going to get home beforehand. Those things really help me; just planning things and trying to give myself grace and patience as much as I can. It's going well so far this year and I hope it continues. But I know there will always be good and bad moments, but a quote I always say to myself is: "Don't let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game." Don't let your social anxiety keep you from living your life and doing the things you want to do xx

[@candylishx3527]

I'm glad that music has been healing for you! It is the same for me too. Now, I'm just trying to find a way to still enjoy events while working around social anxiety and my health condition that worsens when standing for long periods of time, heat and not enough salt/water... which is very easy to lose when you're dancing your heart away for hours or outside at a fest. I had to miss 2 festivals this past year because I had a bad flare up and was worried I wouldn't have anywhere to sit in case of my legs swelling or feeling faint. On top of that, my Mom had to go to the hospital instead of riding with me to 1 of the fests that was a 10hr drive (I didn't feel safe going that far alone for several reasons). I struggle with food sensitivities as well and still trying to find the right balance of supplementation that works for me. Keep going to shows or whatever events you can girl & don't let the anxiety control you! I let it control my life for years, years that I'll never get back. 💜

[@anam814]

I do get very bad social anxiety too, lately I am trying to drink a cup of beer before leaving home to somewhere where I have to socialise with new people, it just makes me calm down and not stress, this is probably a wrong thing to do but I try not to do it always as I don’t want to get used to it and end up being alcoholic just because of my social anxiety.

[@candylishx3527]

@@anam814 I'd highly suggest maybe finding some music you enjoy, making a playlist and listening to that before you go out instead of the beer. Maybe even try taking a supplement that could help calm your nerves (ashwagandha, cup of herbal tea, etc). Alcohol being a depressant, it REALLYYY can make your anxiety 10x worse. (I experience it most the following day) Just try to 'romanticize' getting ready & hype yourself up. I usually have to drive an hour to go to most events, so I jam tf out the entire way there to distract myself. Hope this helps babes 💜

[@saras7481]

Hi Conagh! Just a few things, I 100% understand how you feel regarding your anxiety around the party. Personally, medication and therapy has helped me A LOT. However, that may not be right for you. It is worth looking into and discussing with your doctor, if you are comfortable doing so. If you aren’t ready for that, that’s okay too. You aren’t alone though❤ (also I’ve been doing the girl crush challenge all week and I love it so far!!)

[@candylishx3527]

I most deff have found myself struggling more and more as I get older with social anxiety. It probably started when I found myself in an unhealthy friend group and decided to start pulling away, then COVID worsened things (also lost several family members during quarantine, which left me feeling more lost/confused as ever). I barely get out but I try to go to edm shows when I can because there's no better feeling than dancing all my stress and worries away, however that comes with its own potential problems too. It's hard for me to go be around all these people I've known for years, watching them interacting with others and then avoiding me all night long. Typically, I go to events alone as well and now that I've lost some weight, I tend to be a target of a lot of unwanted male attention... so that can turn even the greatest of nights into a bad 1 very quickly. I've also experienced hives all over my body while trying to get ready (& lemme tell you how hard it is to finish your skincare/makeup with hives 😔). Now, getting ready can be even harder for me since being FINALLY diagnosed with POTS (Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome) as things like a shower (the heat), moving up and down (specifically head going lower than heart) can trigger an onslaught of symptoms. TLDR: My best advice is to just keep trying to get out there and enjoy yourself as much as possible, because life is really too short to let others ruin it. Maybe allow yourself more time to get ready than usual so you don't feel too rushed, which I know personally adds to my anxiety even more... so much so that I will debate not going at all up until the moment I walk out the door. We got this babes, just keep at it! 💜

[@georgieroylance-smith3976]

Love this !!!! Your vlogs give me so much happiness ❤️❤️

[@girlygirl402]

Remember that you can remove yourself from a situation if it becomes too overwhelming. I have anticipation anxiety it’s not the act of what I’m doing that I get anxious it’s the overthinking that’s leading up to it that is scary for me.

[@Makeup_byMils]

i need to know where you get you’re jewellery from!😍

[@carlydonais1738]

I also feel like it for social events. My boyfriend is very social and always wants to go to event and I get very bad social anxiety before going. Thank you for being so honest about it

[@AshleyJade18]

I have horrible social anxiety... Always have, since i started pre-school... 30 years later, now If i really need to push myself to go to an event/birthday, i will say "it will be over in 3 hours, it's only 3 hours" OR "i'll go for an hour and then i can leave WHENEVER i want... 9 times out of 10, i realize that i've ended up staying for the entire thing.

[@nedtechgirl]

sometimes when it comes to deciding whether to do something overly dwelling on it doesnt help, makes it worse. i find that the times that i just jump in at the last minute things turn out amazing, so try it..maybe itll be awesome!

[@maxenaaguto3]

Amazing video!! much love ❤ God bless you all🙏🏽God is so good🙌🏽God loves us all so much🙏🏽❤Turn to God he will guide you and give you strength🙏🏽Trust in Him

[@samantha9164]

I’ve struggled with social anxiety my whole life and yes it is not fun at all and really difficult to deal with still deal with everyday and it is such a struggle makes me feel hopeless like it won’t get better for me 😭

[@RebeccaABeaudoin]

Gotta feel the feels

[@kookaiiz]

LOVE YOUR NAILS!!! 😍

[@camdenhoover]

I can’t remember if I’ve commented this before but the hair care brand Surface has a line called Awaken that is specifically for receding hair areas! They have a shampoo, conditioner, and 2 elixirs. Only a couple months after using it I had new baby hairs popping up all over my head!! It’s worked wonders for me

[@_Jojomarie]

what time is it over there..? you early bird you(: i love your vlogss

[@debrawittlamb8834]

I missed these videos

[@jesso9246]

Where are your croissant earrings from? 😍

[@rowenatrimboli6613]

Paula's Choice is Australian you can order from their website and also 15%off at the moment 👍

[@ottipellegrini]

I started today! Day 1 of your girl crush challenged and I loved it❣❣❣

[@jackharrington697]

Your not being silly about your feelings Conagh girl I am bad at socializing with people as well don't worry your vlogs make it better your so relatable!!💙💙💜💜

[@KayleighdeBruin]

I just did the second day of the girl crush challenge and my butt and legs hurt so much and I already feel my back starting to ache, such a good program! Love doing the handstands as well 🥰

[@hannahexum4982]

God Bless!! 🙏🏼🙏🏼🤍🤍

[@jen___b089]

I get social anxiety too but it's got alot better in my 30s. You do grow a sense of "fuck it" as u get older. Sometimes thinking too much about it is the worst thing to do. I would turn on some loud music and try to convince yourself that you are confident and pumped to go

[@Alorajones19]

100% am the same way, as u were describing your pros n cons list I said out loud “its like we hv the same mind” cuz I literally miss out on sm n do pros n cons lists n i worry sm Currently working on not thinking abt it n just doing it. Ex if u start debating if u shld go or not stop thinking about it n just go

[@lethabopatane3752]

I have social anxiety also even when I am walking in malls 🫣and I get that rash too more like goosebumps. And the other problem I cannot hold a conversation for too long because sometimes I am just like am I oversharing 🫢🫠. I suffer so much and sometimes I want to be with people but my anxiety will just pick 😢 You are not alone 💛 and I am really trying to overcome this but I just enjoy being alone and in my comfort zone 🥰

[@nads2211]

Hey. I also get anxiety when needing to go out. My anxiety is more around the logistics of things. Where is the event. Is there parking near by (I suffer from back pain and always worry about having to walk too far). What shoes do I wear because who knows how far I have to walk. Am I going to be in pain. And then sometimes I just don’t go because it all feels too hard. I have to just push myself that little bit more.

[@danielleryner758]

I love your conch piercing! Is it real? Where is it from? 😍

[@luzrobert3281]

I have the same feeling conagh , even i have issues leaving my house sometimes 😭😭

[@anam814]

I do get very bad social anxiety too, lately I am trying to drink a cup of beer before leaving home to an event where I will have to socialise with new people it just makes me calm down and not stress, this is probably a wrong thing to do but I try not to do it always as I don’t want to get used to it and end up being alcoholic just because of my social anxiety.

[@NicoleDufty94]

What are your sunnies called 😊😊

[@itsbrianna9025]

I am doing the Girl Crush Challenge. I am new to the gym and this is my first program so I’m taking it slow doing as many as I can don’t want to over work my body to the point where I’m to achy to do anything else but my goal by the end is to complete a full weeks worth of workouts and be more confident in the gym itself 🤍 You are doing amazing I have social anxiety also and my boyfriend is an introvert too so it’s hard for us to get out together but we try x

[@georgiaellison8499]

I struggle soooo much with anxiety especially socially, now I’m a mum with a 6 month old baby and I thought that would make things easier but it’s added so much stress. I honestly never leave the house and it’s exhausting feeling like that

[@clarehaswell5763]

Not hating on your choice to have youfoodz for lunches but I would highly recommend meal prepping instead! It does take organisation and more time obv but I feel it’s healthier as I’ve heard microwave meals aren’t the best for you! I get ideas for my meal preps from an Insta page and you’ll save some $$ too xx

[@elleellelle]

I've gotten ready for events and not even gone cause of my anxiety or I've ended up leaving pre drinks before even making it to the event 😢 it's so annoying. I defo know that when I'm onit with the gym and have positive endorphins I'm better to socialise but I'm also a introvert and do not get fomo so I'm never to sad if I can't make it 🤣 xxx

[@nedtechgirl]

OMG you are do damn right about the period thing. I have the WORST period, i mean the week before SUCKS and the week of is horrible. I get bad migraines and lots of other shit symptoms. Being a girly is just hard, man.

[@emileeparker8298]

I look forward to your videos every week. I have anxiety too, especially social anxiety and over thinking. I have tried 3 different medications, I found they made my anxiety worse. I have found over the years talking about it and pushing myself out of my comfort zone helps a lot (and talking to a professional) Love that you open up to us about this stuff and keep it real ❤ Also have just started the girl crush challenge, loving it 🏃🏼‍♀️✨

[@ilybecc]

Okay, so are we just not going to address the way Charli jumped onto the couch at 25:12 😅

[@nedtechgirl]

you should really see a good therapist maybe about the anxiety cause they can give you tips on how to cope, maybe not even medication but just how to rationalize it within yourself

[@viennawalden]

110% the same!

[@heathertatum1130]

So glad you don't overfill your lips!! That is no longer the norm!!!

[@lorrainemccormick2655]

Have you thought about protecting your energy like wearing crystal or using a protective spray . That’s what I have to do when I’m meeting uporgoing to parties

[@emiliarebaza8246]

First 💗

[@leloowhite]

Are you no longer working with gymshark?

[@bolivia.j]

I always feel like I’m a worse driver on my period. I think it’s all the hormones being crazy or something

[@B_27]

I wouldn't be eating too much of that seaweed... it's high in heavy metals, arsenic, and iodine.

[@rjilg7973]

Girl Crush Challange 🩷 , first day workout was a killer my legs were shaking badly, so keen to see some changes. I started a new gym as well so a bit of aniextiy there but just stayed forced and in my zone and I'm proud I still went 👍

[@maggielynndeboard8611]

Forever jealous your McDonald’s has dairy free/sugar free options in AUS 🥲