WHAT I EAT IN A DAY - CHALLENGING ANOREXIA - THAT'S MORE LIKE IT!

YOU HAVE TO DO WHAT SCARES YOU BECAUSE WHAT DOESN'T CHALLENGE YOU WON'T CHANGE YOU!
I made an amazing breakfast - much better than the day before, what I actually wanted! Poached eggs on an english muffin (and w o w my life has been changed now I have tried Clarence Court eggs!!), a glass of smoothie which wasn't that amazing tbh but still need to try things so I know! Then I had a biscoff crumpet because I WANTED ONE!
And....
We got a new grill!!! Which makes the most INCREDIBLY DIVINE paninis, toasties, omg just woooooooow! I want to challenge my fear of cheese because I know I want it so I made a cheese panini and it was all melty and beautiful. I then made a huge recovery win and challenged anorexia so much by making a biscoff and nutella toastie straight after because I told myself I'd do it that evening but NO PUTTING OF ANYTHING HERE THANK YOU VERY MUCH!
We had a BBQ for dinner and yaaaaas it was just amazing I love BBQ's now I can actually join in and eat everything and whatever I want to!
I had a panic about dessert but in the end it was so worth it and I am so glad I didn't give in to the eating disorder.
And I continued to absolutely demolish anorexia by having a Biscoff bagel for a snack, despite pouring a bowl of cereal and having a debate about what I truly wanted... I knew what I wanted! DON'T STOP CHALLENGING YOUR EATING DISORDER AND DO THE EXACT OPPOSITE. DO WHAT YOU KNOW YOU WANT!
FOLLOW ME ON INSTAGRAM: / elzani__

[@_emmaa_xo6514]

YEESSS ELZANI!! I'M LIVING FOR THESE REGULAR UPLOADS!! :D

[@babycakes.]

Take it or leave it, but I think a good challenge when you are ready, is to have a meal that you know you don't really like, or maybe just is not your favourite. I think it would help with the thoughts of everything needing to be perfect or taste amazing in order to eat it. Realizing that eating is not always gourmet, but a nessecity to living and thriving and happiness! You are doing wonderful, and I truly wish you all the best. You deserve everything❤️

[@babycakes.]

@Mimi i dont mean eat something you hate just for the sake of it, only to learn that food doesnt have to be perfect in order to eat it. we misunderstood eachother, maybe having a new food item you are not sure about would be better:)

[@rogat9775]

it probably doesn't sound like much but i just put two sweet potato burgers in the oven! i've never eaten anything like it before and i'm scared but excited! Your channel is helping me a lot x

[@amh8478]

RoGat Well done

[@matitabu]

You go! I just ate a handful of hummus chips, which also doesn't sound like a lot but I'm making aubergine puree and roasted meat. Made chocolate mousse too, we can do this!

[@rogat9775]

The burgers were actually... bad. I’d normally get upset because it was a “waste” BUT as elzani would say.. doesn’t have to be perfect. It’s just food and I’m still alive. ☺️

[@amh8478]

@@rogat9775 the fact you went and did it is what matters most, atleast you know you don't like them now :) I'm sorry you didn't like them but you've just took a huge step forwards and that in itself is priceless. Well done for acknowledging the disappointment but seeing it in the positive

[@rogat9775]

Namjoon Kim thank you so much xx there is so much positivity on this part of KZbin! 💕

[@SeekerKC]

If you watch a baby try to learn a new skill (picking things up, rolling over, walking, etc.), you'll see more failures than successes; especially in the early stages. There are times when they easily get frustrated, & there are times when they can fail at the task a dozen times in a row before they get angry. What you *won't* see them do during that learning process is *judging themselves* for failing. They just keep trucking along until that new skill is mastered, then move on to the next. Btw, hearing your mom's soft "You're going to do it, Darling... Yeah" damn near broke my heart. You are very, very loved, Elzani!

[@hollyvipond168]

That first scene of you in a towell really shows how far you have progressed in your recovery! Not just physically, but mentally! You now come across as a happier, care free and positive person who is less stressed, anxious and fearful. You are now in control Elzani.. Not your eating disorder...YOU ❤

[@788553]

I think I’ve only ever commented on someone’s video once, but this video is worth a comment. I’ve watched every video you’ve ever done and I’m so proud of you. You’ve come a long way since the beginning and I hope this continues. I’ve never struggled with anorexia, quite the opposite actually. I think I understand how hard this is for you, but you’re so strong. Keep pushing yourself, you can do it!! I want to see you healthy and happy but I know that’s difficult. I’m 30 and I wasted my 20s. Please don’t do the same x

[@marydellomas7799]

Omg I'm so proud of her. Compare this video to the very first one clearly shows how happier she's been despite having ups n downs here n there.

[@ericaroozendaal629]

You are such a nice and lively person - so happy to see you getting more energetic, because we see more of YOU! By the way - your body is probably very happy you ate the bagel. I can really relate to the reason why you hestitated, but theres a reason your body craves certain foods. Your body needs them! Go for everything you feel like. It will make you even stronger for sure! And if it is more of one thing than the other, it probably means the nutrition in the product is something you need.

[@santjevana8279]

I can't get over how sweet your mother is! And you're doing so well Elzani. Fighting!

[@ilikeyoutube836]

Great job Elzani!! You're right, the time for recovery is NOW!! You don't have to wait, you just choose it EVERY DAY!! SO proud of you!!

[@hannakurimoto-fischer7600]

I haven’t been able to regularly keep up with your videos since I’m on holiday with limited wifi areas but the last video I watched of yours was maybe two weeks ago and now today you are glowing! I’m so proud of your progress ❤️

[@ingridshenny]

Your mom is right - you ARE doing it! Every snack and meal at a time you are going a step further towards your goal. Fitting in your new jammies!!! 💪 And bread and biscoff are so good for you now! They are pure energy!

[@neleweisener8761]

One day I will come to the uk just to eat all the amazing things you get from m&s, tesco and all the other stores we don‘t have in germany 😩 your food looks deviiiiine 🤤 Keep going, beautiful Elzani! You look better each passing day of recovery! Sending you so much strength and love ❤️

[@AngelicasRecovery]

Nele Weisener dame!! The food looks so good.

[@AngelicasRecovery]

*same

[@Ella-ps1lg]

Come on over! M&S is AMAZING :)

[@neleweisener8761]

Ella I will!! I wanna try millionaires shortbread soooo bad haha and wagamama and the biscoff icecream and sooo much more 😍

[@Coraline-jonesyy]

The uk is the best lol

[@elanordixon7849]

Well done Elzani! You're doing so well. I love watching you make such amazing progress. Top tip for toasties in the George Forman: spread a thin layer of butter on the outside of the sandwich (not the side with the filling) and then toast it. The butter will make the bread golden and delicious

[@aliasalias7141]

also works for olive oil (specially good when the inside is Mozarella and tomato and pesto)

[@erinthain7736]

I’m struggling so much with thoughts and weight restoration. And oml you’re helping me so much. idk what I’d do without you n you’re videos bc you’re my inspiration, I even HAD OREOS THE OTHER DAY BC YOU HAD DIGESTIVES. I adore you sm and you’re amazing ❤️

[@AngelicasRecovery]

Erin Thain if you ever need someone to talk to I’m here. ❤️

[@kecrn4132]

Maven - honestly....stop. You are so not funny at all. You need a life.

[@nicolajones4834]

Put some butter on your toasted muffins, tastes so much better especially with egg , your doing well keep pushing yourself and try and increase the sizes of your main meals x x 💜

[@estherjones7184]

Babe it honestly kills me to see you scape that biscoff across your bagel when I can tell that you'd rather put a lot more on because we both know you can hardly taste it when you put that little on. You can do it babe just lather that biscoff on thick !!!!!!!

[@thedrugthatkilled]

@Maven that's so Maven 😉

[@thedrugthatkilled]

@Maven 💕 I know that you're lovely, you can't fool me with your banana & melon comments! 😜

[@thedrugthatkilled]

@Maven lol yup, totally cracked 😂😂😂

[@trish8321]

What does biscoff taste like?

[@aineweirxxx4176]

Trish- it’s kind of gingery and it goes nice with a cup of tea Eheh

[@kaciedudley1725]

Can you do a video showing how your mom makes her roast potatoes? I would love to taste those because they always look so amazing!

[@timetogetmylifeback]

@Maven omg actually fuck off commenting on everyones posts you fucking creep

[@kecrn4132]

Rising Sunshine - exactly....so sick of seeing his ridiculous comments...

[@raspberrydream7329]

Well done Elzani - you absolutely smashed it today 👍 so proud of you, you did SO SO well all day 😁 And you’re right - you can eat whatever you want whenever you want, and the more the better. You ARE doing it!!!! Your lovely mum is just so incredibly supportive - what an amazing woman 😁 Also, thank you for the frequent uploads - I’m loving them xx

[@teainortakoy]

I've only watched 20 seconds so far and I'm already thinking "I love Elzani, one day she will take over the world!!"

[@kecrn4132]

Maven - god you’re disgusting...your comments are ridiculous and no one wants to see them

[@em8842]

It's so motivating to see how much more energetic and happy you seem in recent videos compared to older ones, even if you're still struggling. It's like you're getting your life back struggling is part of that, but you're doing so great.

[@AngelicasRecovery]

Every video I am more and more proud of you! You help me so much in my recovery ♥️ you actually inspired me to make my own KZbin channel

[@danienorris2331]

Your mum deserves an award ❤️❤️

[@marilynmonhoe5164]

Just realised how amazingly vibrant your green eyes are ! Beautiful girl 🖤

[@Kay-ih7wu]

Maven, disgust because 1) you don’t have anything cause it’s non-existent, 2) because you are a pathetic excuse for a human.

[@Kay-ih7wu]

Maven, no but at this point I find humor in your comments.

[@kirstyindark4972]

Yass Elzani 😍, the results from your hard work in recovery is really showing in so many ways ❤

[@KaiiiK02]

I absolutely love you and your mums relationship, you guys are such total goals, *hugs!!*

[@sannebeekman378]

Listening to you speaking about overcoming your fears is like therapy for me, thank you so much

[@nanabarker8140]

Hi,can you post videos of other parts of life? Drs appts? Therapy? Outting with friends? I luv to see all the food vids, so nice to see you eat & so yummy.....but like to see other things too.😊

[@jemimaallison1781]

Maven stop with the disgusting comments

[@alexandra1147]

Elzani you are doing amazingly I am so happy for you!!! I can see such insane progress even from a month ago, well done gal! Also can I just say one of my favourite parts about your videos is the little captions that you leave while editing hahaha “omg so crazy x” makes me laugh so much x

[@anggie396]

When you had the breakdown and started crying and worrying about things I really felt that 😞 I’m so proud of you girl and everything you’re doing!! You’re doing great and have so many amazing supporters! Never give up!

[@anggie396]

Maven LOL what

[@anaverba4824]

You are doing so well, don't feel bad about anything. You should be so proud, you look amazing and so much happier. Amazing!

[@cloclo.6669]

i LOVE watching you and your journey elzani . you got this girl👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

[@francescafoster854]

You have been helping me to stop being so obsessive over what I eat (recently diagnosed with bulimia and starting to recover) although my ED is different to yours there's a lot of similarities. Thank you for putting yourself out there you're really helping me have a healthier relationship with food (I just had a smoked salmon sandwich for lunch, my fav thing. But bread is a fear food and i kept it down). Thank you, lots of love and luck to you on your recovery journey, you're doing boss 👍 Edit: I really hope this didn't trigger anyone, I just wanted to show that she's helping me :)

[@laurennorman1814]

I don't normally leave comments, but I just wanted to say you're doing absolutely amazing - so so proud of you

[@heather9513]

I hope you’re feeling as better as you’re seeming, you’ve done so well and seem so much happier! Yay you!! Make sure you take time to recognise just how far you’ve come and be proud of yourself!!✨❤️

[@amandacoby5202]

if eating a lot of bread products makes you happy and you like it then as a past anorexic girl myself i say keep eating all the bread you want. i used to eat a lot of brea too, it tastes good and is easy to stomach. i think bread is a great source of fast energy too. you rock girl i love your videos, i know im late commenting but im proud of you. recovery is hard and youve done amazing

[@jennyrachwal7698]

Watching from Australia. It’s been encouraging to see your progress and how you tackle challenges with a positive and bright spirit. It has encouraged my own journey with food. I like that you keep it real as recovery is one day at a time and everyday is a new beginning and a new start. All the best x

[@LenaChandika]

Your mum for president! I want to have a mum like yours. She is warm, cheerful, funny, supports you, is positiv, loves food, eats with you!

[@v.b.x101]

You're a freaking warrior Elzani! Remember, opposite actions always! Xoxo

[@demi3872]

You should buy or make some hollondaise sauce to put on top of your eggs, it’s a game changer!

[@annabelreeves6329]

you saying how you shouldn't put off recovery and how you should start now instead of tomorrow really spoke to me. I feel like thats what I've been telling myself and Im going to start challenging fear foods now! your channel has really helped me so much! sending lots of love ❤️

[@MadisonTiahn]

Your pups have such a beautiful life. Blaze always looks so happy. I love it. Puppies are everything. ❤️

[@jessicamcallister3242]

I've never commented on KZbin before, but I just wanted to tell you how much I appreciate your videos. They've helped me so much through my recovery. Your personality is wonderful and you lift my spirits every time I watch a vlog. We love you, and you're doing an amazing job ❤️

[@Hazeydaze92]

You remind me so much of myself during my recovery. I'm now 4 years recovered, you're doing amazing and you'll only get stronger. It's such a fantastic feeling when you start enjoying food again without the anxiety.

[@tofutofutofu444]

i don’t know how you can go on a long walk without breakfast!! haha id be falling over

[@anastasiyakorovska5779]

ME TOO

[@candicejoy1111]

I'm so proud of you Elzani 🌹

[@chiaradean5185]

You are doing so well angel and I can see how proud your mum is of you. You are getting your life back and you don’t even realise ❤️ keep going xxx

[@willday1510]

This is what we want to see.... You responding to every bit of hunger ( mental and physical ) that you have. And as every anorexic who watches these videos knows, there is a LOT of hunger that goes with recovery. Sometimes you don't even know you're that hungry until you start to eat, then BAM! it's like the beast is unleashed and you could eat everything in the kitchen. Please tell me I'm not the only one.....!

[@annatomalova6734]

You're definitely not the only one😅 It's actually called extreme hunger and it is just your body screaming for more calories... Currently experiencing that so so much 🙄

[@elenaelvira]

Yup and u MUST listen to it. Don’t worry about always eating so much and gaining to much weight. I’m weight restored and my hunger is so much less now. If you eat intuitively your body knows what it wants to be healthy 😊

[@annatomalova6734]

Yup... Currently finally feeling like I am comfortable with my body and I'm still stuffing my mouth with hoards of food... I've already gained a lot of weight in short amount of time and I kind of don't want it to continue... But still "listening to my body" and eating. It lasts for like 3-4 weeks now and I'm like just hoping it will stop sometime soon 😶 I know I'm foolish but I feel like I don't really deserve the food anymore (like I've eaten for weeks or months ahead-but I can't stop eating)

[@zofiar4753]

It makes me so happy to see how much progress you have made in your recovery and how full of life you are now! Your videos help me a lot.

[@chelseydixon3917]

Your personality is shining through so much lately, its amazing to see what changes can happen when you fuel yourself more adequately! So pleased for you! Keep pushing those boundaries lovely. It isnt always easy but it IS always worth it ❤

[@_emmaa_xo6514]

omggg that breakfast looked A-MAZ-IIIINGGG!! yumm!!

[@indyelings3785]

You’re really helping me with your videos so thank you! And I also wanted to say that you look beautiful!

[@jodyyoung7047]

Not sure how this popped up on my feed, I pretty much only watch rescued animals. As someone who beat (ish!) anorexia in the 90’s, this is difficult to watch. Hope this girl is as “well” as she portrays. Her version of recovery is scary! Such a beautiful young lady, lovely family, she deserves all the best!!! Darling girl, please heal and realize what a great life you have ahead of you!!! Also, I absolutely LOVE the red in your hair!!! Just gorgeous!!!!!

[@haravar6848]

I have been subscribed to your channel for a long time and im so happy to see how well you are doing! Stay strong 😃

[@derickdoc1228]

Maybe consider using margerine spreads, oils, sauces and mayonaises to increase your calorific values.

[@xaprilrose]

you should toast the crumpet until the top goes golden brown, hard on the outside and soft and fluffy on the inside!💕

[@august-jf3dr]

Woohoo regular uploads!! Love you Elzani!!

[@williene2]

I would love to send you some Dutch goodies, more (and even yummier) cheeeeese hahaha

[@leahmulliner6422]

Back at it again with the long VLOGGGGGGGGG! YAS. You dancing in your towel on your head reminded me so much of myself 😂😂😂. Watching this vlog with chips and turkey dinosaurs 😂😂 I’m 21 lol

[@joshealthycupboard9336]

I need to get some biscoff . I bought it in Belgium a few years ago and loved it. I would like to try it again with chopped banana on toast or a bagel. Well done!! You’re doing awesome

[@mariadifrancesco1]

I'm first!!!! Yey. I love your updates. You're awesome.

[@tinkbyers1541]

Just popping by to say hi, you’re glowing you look so healthy and beautiful. Proud of you! Keep going strong bae 💪🏾❤️

[@tinkbyers1541]

Maven hey Maven, I was just tryna make her smile :(

[@ninaeverett-scott8445]

Just found your channel and love it!! You are amazing - also your mum is so lovely! 💜❤️

[@justagirly9258]

Your videos are literally the only thing that make me want to try hard at recovery, thank you so much

[@horseaddiction2969]

You are so incredibly inspiring! Your outlook on life is amazing and I can’t wait to see you continue to recover. You’re doing so well!

[@samphillips7192]

Hey lovely! Today, I had smoked mackerel, rice peppers and onions, inspired by you and your mummy, and it was delicious! xx

[@samphillips7192]

You are doing sooo well Elzani, you are challenging yourself everyday and you ARE going to do this!!!! XXXX

[@anikahkrumholectski8578]

Maven you’re disgusting. Get off the internet you must be 12 years old.

[@maneaapa1760]

Every time you post it makes me so happy🌸💗💖👍🏻

[@ForeverLostInBook]

i'm proud of the progress you've made. your videos (especially this one) has motivated me to not give up, I have been in a relapse for the last few weeks and I don't want to go back to my bad habits, it's just really hard. keep going

[@ailsaseex6423]

You poached eggs look incredible and you looked so gorgeous in the vlog today your skin is glowing

[@jadejeffree7258]

Your skin is glowing! you look stronger and happier Elzani.Do you still have your fuel spoon?.Baggy pajamas are the best!.

[@chaoticaj2267]

ELZANI... WOW just WOW you look SOOOOOOO GOOD keep going with recovery!! I don’t know if you agree with me here but I think you are DEFINITELY past the worst and are really close to being you again. AHHHH I’m just so proud of you!!!

[@utoobcandy]

You should try peanut butter and marshmallow creme/fluff. So melty and gooey 😍

[@rimaal-naqeeb6385]

Hiiii elzanii!!! you are my biggest inspiration to overcome my anorexia! without you I wouldnt have the right mindset to change my life. I hope one day to get a clear and good mindset as you as well. ❤️❤️❤️ keep on going elzani!

[@no1Animallover101JAB]

I wish I had you to help me when I was recovering your gonna help so many girls and guys Hun! Your doing so amazing and I honestly wish I could just hug you I know times will still get hard but be so proud of how much you’ve achieved and how amazing you look

[@trashboat8204]

Shout out to the Cetaphil nation

[@demi3872]

An orange yolk means they have more nutrients than a more yellow/dull egg so theyre super good for you!!

[@demi3872]

Maven pardon

[@aslove6684]

You are the best and I really love your mom she is so cute and you really doing your best and changing all the things that scared you before all these fears are going to despair 💗 you really motivated me to do my best and food it's not scary I have an eating disorder and i am challenging myself to do my best and change how i feel about food . You are the best keep going I love you 💗

[@michelles.3545]

I’m really so proud of you Elzani ❤️

[@ImGreat5414]

Whatever you eat, you need to double!!!!!!!!! That’s the only way you will recover Elzani. It’s going to be hard but it will be worth it 💗

[@rawwrryy]

you are doing soo well! I am so proud of you! I love watching your videos, you are just so lovely!! 😊❤

[@user-in4cs5iz7p]

The George Foreman grill just reminds me of the office 😂

[@i_h2081]

This week I have not waited you are amazing and inspiring xx

[@charlottec491]

Your videos really help me with my recovery with anorexia thank you so much!!

[@emilywilliams3385]

I reckon you should do a video and have food when you fancy not when ‘it’s time’ that will be a very f’kin awesome video hun! love from Emily

[@saragill87]

Proud of you! So glad you are eating more and listening to you xxxc

[@mickya7457]

Just going to reiterate that you can look into monetizing! You spend a lot of time to make this videos so lovely to watch, save for a celebration vaycay, take your sis's and mum and gram on a girls tropical trip to show your gratitude for their unconditional love!

[@mickya7457]

Well of course you can invite your dad too lol it feels mean to leave only him out.

[@eafj90]

She has ads... does that not mean she’s monetised?

[@moonroom7577]

I‘m so proud of her omg

[@KathySong1]

Would you update on how you feel physically now? Can you see a difference in your abilities now to do more things? Have more energy? X

[@samphillips7192]

Goats cheese and bacon panini is LUSH! Try it! xx

[@whatsthestorymorningglory61]

You are looking soooo much better, healthier, more lively!

[@freya4595]

Well done Elzani, so proud of you. Keep fighting beautiful 🌟

[@matitabu]

You inspire me so much to keep motivated, ILY!

[@Leannaire]

Still going so strong!! 💪

[@guesswhatitsme2886]

I'm always struggeling with bread and in general flour products, so your an inspiration 😊

[@Sarah-nj2uc]

Ughhh, I'm so jealous of those M&S millionaire shortbreads that you and your mom keep trying! They look absolutely delicious. Wish we had Marks & Spencer in Canada!

[@gtadaily771]

your an inspiration 💕

[@Urmom-co2ro]

I ate an entire 845calories mozzarella pizza and I feel really guilty but you know what!? it was scrumptious !!!

[@Artandcolorsx]

Don't count the calories.

[@sofiaalkubra7282]

Hey! It's best to leave the calorie counting behind but I'm proud that you did!! ❤️ Prove ED that you're unstoppable! 💪💯

[@theeps2000]

This video makes me so happy!! You’re doing so well

[@rusnyte5203]

OMG you are so pretty I love your videos ❤️☺️