People criticizing Ding and calling him weakest world champion doesn't even realize how gifted a chess player he is. Even with all his health issues and mental problems he managed to clench the title against Nepo who himself is one of the best in the world. I really wish he gets rid of his issues and once again gives the world a glimpse of prime Ding whom even Magnus used to consider one of the best.
@cIappo896Ай бұрын
He beat the same person who went toe to toe with Magnus. Saying Ding is the weakest world champion is... dumb.
@MultiTopgearfan6 ай бұрын
I think him being the classical chess world champion, with Magnus’ shadow looming large over him and all the media attention and community opinions, he’s struggling to deal with all of that. Not everyone is able to deal with all that pressure and negativity, I just hope that he finds a way and gets back to playing chess at the highest level.
@usetheuser6 ай бұрын
even magnus gets criticised by haters when he loses a single game, it must have been so much worse for ding.
@feelcollins43586 ай бұрын
Magnus is the greatest chess player but he has a nasty manipulative personality, he definitely expected people would still crown him as the WC despite all that and this would put a lot of pressure on the winner of the WCC, these things are just mind games to him.
@legionrip74846 ай бұрын
Honestly the current Ding is unlikely to be able to defend the world championship title.... As Magnus has said... The championship match takes a lot more out of people than you realize... That ding hasn't recovered from it is proof of that. Hopefully he can fully recover and return to form though
@lukebbuff6 ай бұрын
@@feelcollins4358I don’t see what Magnus gains by trying to play mind games with Ding? I mean, he probably correctly to assumed he could have all the financial and personal benefits of his status as the GOAT without the pressure and exhaustion of defending his world title which is maybe a bit unfair. But I don’t see any reason for him to want to manipulate other players by giving up his title?
@feelcollins43586 ай бұрын
@@lukebbuff His mind games is not on ding personally but to the chess world, basically "yeah he's the champ but y'all know deep down I'm the best" Which he isn't wrong but he made it so no one else could get the chance to challenge that narrative by not participating in the WCC so the pressure is directed at the winner in the end, he will be known as one of the weaker WC in history because he didn't "face the best"
@raantas9465 ай бұрын
Nepo got frustration and Ding got depression. The show goes on.
@EdanSolViamar2 ай бұрын
😂😂😂😂
@PeacefulNomadz12 күн бұрын
Real😢
@yellowphoenix98036 ай бұрын
Dude, this guy's documentaries are incredible
@jaylenlenear39446 ай бұрын
You don't watch many documentaries do you
@yellowphoenix98036 ай бұрын
@@jaylenlenear3944 not on chess, can u show me some? I mean his chess documentaries specifically
@yellowphoenix98036 ай бұрын
@@jaylenlenear3944 not about chess. Can u suggest me some other ones?
@hindenburg15962 ай бұрын
@@jaylenlenear3944 Yes he does
@SushiAddiction6 ай бұрын
“Heavy is the head that wears the crown”
@bhkti8215 ай бұрын
Woah
@swarnabhamitra72332 ай бұрын
King of the legion dialogue
@thej23442 ай бұрын
Yoga me is.
@sunnyshines905113 күн бұрын
Im here after he blundered a move in chess world championship..
@shivam_iiTM12 күн бұрын
yeah really sad for ding :(
@Billy-sm3uu2 ай бұрын
I think the problem is he could not convince himself that he is the best player in the world. The way he won the title, and that Magnus' legacy was still there. Because of that, all the obligations of the WC don't make sense to him. In interviews we often see Ding say, he believes in positions, etcetc... This means he really trusts his judgements of the objective situation and let that decide his feeling about said situation. If Nepo won, he would happily believe that he won as the best player in the world, truth is obviously much more complicated and people will believe otherwise, but it is what he needs to hold this crown
@alekhinesgun99976 ай бұрын
Definitely the the most wholesome and human world champion of all time that's for sure
@feisty86 ай бұрын
i hope Ding bounces back from whatever he is going through ... Wishing him all the Luck :)
@krishnenduashwin407Ай бұрын
Wishing dung liren bad luck. I hate china as I am 🇮🇳
@mikhailgil61746 ай бұрын
Nepo really wanted the crown
@Rapidchess9506 ай бұрын
he cursed him😂
@danielbattle76206 ай бұрын
Ding is too OP for nepo
@mikhailgil61746 ай бұрын
@@danielbattle7620 well Nepo won the candidates twice, ding only won because of magnus stepping away. Honestly i hope Ding defends his title.
@srinjoy20036 ай бұрын
Well, should've played better lol.
@guanium6 ай бұрын
Then he should play better.
@yiho73686 ай бұрын
Will be rooting for Ding all the way. But I really fear that perhaps the stress of the championship gave Ding something akin to PTSD.
@alexj8353 ай бұрын
🤣 yea the evil knight chess pieces are sooooo traumatic that it triggers a disorder. I really can’t stand this new age“ everyone has a disorder.” He said he was depressed, take him at his word.
@weakness93432 ай бұрын
@@alexj835i mean I agree, everyone nowadays tries to label themselves with some mental illness to excuse their shortcomings... But Depression is just as much of a mental disorder as PTSD
@cIappo896Ай бұрын
@@alexj835 I mean... you can get PTSD from anything. He literally said he has issues with stress; and that's what PTSD is.
@alexj835Ай бұрын
@ no you simply cannot. Stop spreading nonsense.
@cIappo896Ай бұрын
@@alexj835 stress can induce traumas; that's in fact how they start as default. Post traumatic stress disorder is exactly that - trauma induced stress.
@NateEradicate6 ай бұрын
I love your videos, the one about Ding’s entire ride to the top was very good! You could make some insanely good documentaries!
@FiasaPower11 күн бұрын
Maybe his blunder at the very end of the world championship wasn't a blunder at all. The crown was too heavy for him and he must take care of his health.
@rvs26775 ай бұрын
Ding is like Australia in cricket. He'll be about alright in normal games without muxh weightage but pull out an absolute comeback performance in the title match. Imagine him not winning much the entire year but keeps on retaining the championship each year by outclassing opponents when it matters most. Would be so hilarious.
@JeguePerneta5 ай бұрын
Watching that Candidates cycle and the world championship I couldn't help but cheer for him. His bromance with Rapport, his family supporting him, his honesty when speaking, even if he loses the title, I want to see him go back to high level chess
@AlexanderTheGreat871Ай бұрын
Imagine he is still strong. He just losing games and saccing his rating because he wants to be free and live a happy and tention less life
@hyperooted17406 ай бұрын
This guy has like 5 videos and is still getting better with each one. Keep it up!
@tanmaysingh369515 күн бұрын
I am a gukesh fan through and through but ding is a GOATed player
@Lionhearted626Ай бұрын
I’m proud of Ding.
@SonOfGod-i2c6 ай бұрын
I love Ding, no one will ever change that❤
@saipoosarla27973 ай бұрын
It felt like Ding didn't really want to win the world championship and finally retire but even he wasn't expecting to win. Now he has all this pressure and eyes on him when you can tell he seems to be someone who isn't some aggressive competitor
@QuoteBlink6 ай бұрын
Ding chilling
@noniebumst6 ай бұрын
💀
@getmoneypls3 ай бұрын
🤣
@NikoRiv3 ай бұрын
He’s not bro needs to take a break
@roveenkumar861211 күн бұрын
You said this before the world chess championship 🤯
@ahyaok1002 ай бұрын
Ding and Hans are on opposite sides of the personality spectrum. Maybe they should train together 🤔
@shivalite2156Ай бұрын
I don't think so , i think they're alike , hans just can cover it good
@youtuber123-j5w29 күн бұрын
who is here after he won the 1st match ??
@arkzbh2 ай бұрын
I am an Indian, but I'll be heartbroken if I see Ding collapses like game 6 of last time .He has some serious mental problem to solve. I want the fighting Ding back. Yes it's India vs Chiana, but man, he is Ding 😢 I feel for him 😢
@gabrielalencar20706 ай бұрын
This documentary is great! I've known a bit about Ding but never the full extent of his story and you covered it really well. Congrats!
@BlckJack1235 ай бұрын
At least Ding played chess after winning the title- unlike Bobby Fischer.
@Mihailo04 ай бұрын
Bobby Fischer is the greatest and most dominant player oat
@ChatGPTacc1-kh8pb4 ай бұрын
@@Mihailo0 + no one was close to him
@thebcwonder48504 ай бұрын
@@Mihailo0 Kasparov was also dominant, and he didn’t leave chess for 20 years
@Artimonsta4 ай бұрын
@@Mihailo0 Calling Fischer "dominant" is pathetic
@Mihailo04 ай бұрын
@@Artimonsta i was dominant w your mom last night tho kid 😂
@unousuck46136 ай бұрын
You know what crazy ding a super GM one of the best players in the world. He might go on to win 5 world title and lose so many tournaments in between but might (bad luck ) have a good showing when defending his title and go on a decade as world championship
@blizyon30fps866 ай бұрын
There’s a good chance he won’t even try to defend his title next candidates
@radicalstanza36146 ай бұрын
What's crazy is your punctuation.
@gusleffers92656 ай бұрын
@@blizyon30fps86says who?
@blizyon30fps866 ай бұрын
@@gusleffers9265 says his mental state
@gusleffers92656 ай бұрын
@@blizyon30fps86 that’s your prediction. He says he will defend it. I trust his word lol. I just mean you don’t have much grounds to assume it’s a ‘good chance’, you don’t know him.
@codenamerishi5 ай бұрын
I believe that prime Ding can definitely take an inexperienced Gukesh, he took down Nepo after all and I rate Nepo higher than Gukesh in classical. Skill can only do so much when it comes to World Championship pressure, but Ding not being at his best will make the World Championship definitely more competitive. Also that press clip when he talks about depression was really sad :\
@amiteshsingh41652 ай бұрын
Not more competitive, Gukesh is a clear favourite
@slivovitz16832 ай бұрын
@@amiteshsingh4165so was Nepo
@karma_kar96236 ай бұрын
The humble Goat.
@achanel134110 күн бұрын
Im here after he lost title in an intense match where he managed to take the lead,make a comeback, But blunder it away in round 14 when the scores were 6.5-6.5.
@asmf86996 ай бұрын
Bro Ding can't handle the title for one year made 10 years of Magnus dominance even more impressive
@albertjep6 ай бұрын
He’s struggling with mental issues. No need to turn his depression/mental health into another way to lick Magnus.
@bhkti8215 ай бұрын
Shut up
@ayyanmirza70954 ай бұрын
Bro it's cringe his preparation got leaked he played without preparation and still came out on top, not an easy feat
@EforBig3 ай бұрын
and ding has mental issues, it’s not fair to compare.
@whatisuser2 ай бұрын
Ding had to become a chess champion after Magnus Carlsen decided not to play. The Media didn't think of his has the champion despite him "officially" being one. Obviously dude felt depressed.
@mr.AndyDufresne11 күн бұрын
He lost to gukesh and seemed quite happy. I don't know but ding really was not prepared like a champion to defend , we can see his play too many blunders in his game , maybe he doesn't want to get into the limelight after winning Idk . He is one of the best of the modern era but mental health issues have really caught him. Hope he recovers well and gets happy and enjoys chess again
@Akshaya56 ай бұрын
Love you Ding!! ❤I hope you are keeping welll❤
@I_am_bacon._.16 күн бұрын
after game 12 i can truly say, the old ding is back.
@saturngd_ch19 күн бұрын
Ding is recovering I can see it
@cherubeast4 ай бұрын
ding needs resilience and stoicism
@ashishmantri36845 ай бұрын
I predict the world championship crown for the next decade wouod be swapping hands like hell , it will be great experience to watch the whole thing
@santomy45792 ай бұрын
He prioritized his mental health over some title. And that is mature and difficult for some people.
@yashrao52693 ай бұрын
I as an Indian will obviously support Gukesh's victory but i truly hope that Ding recovers and gives as tough fight as possible. I dont wanna feel sadder for ding's loss than feel happy for Gukesh's win. Bounce back Ding, never forget you defied the odds in 2023, thats what champs do!!!
@rahulsrivastava60492 ай бұрын
You are right.
@EforBig3 күн бұрын
Ding may have lost but it was 6.5 to 7.5, so Ding played very well. Congrats to Gukesh!
@AsithaVimukthi-l9i12 күн бұрын
Who watches this after he lost the world championship..😢
@minamo40125 ай бұрын
I think he is just tired, that's fine.
@deeperanddeeper2 ай бұрын
If it were just that, he would have slept it off by now.
@damian45905 ай бұрын
I think it's really sad that Magnus never defended his title. I think ding was dealt a very horrible deal where if he lost he would have not be champion but by winning he would still be considered second. Very sad
@thebigpicture20325 ай бұрын
Being second to Magnus isn’t sad at all. I don’t blame Magnus for not defending, that’s his choice and who wanted to watch Magnus toying with Nepo again.
@damian45905 ай бұрын
I think it's great that he got the championship. I like ding a lot but I mean just the idea that some people will think he doesn't deserve it because he didn't face Magnus to get it is sad. Like he's clearly put in a lot of work but stupid people will still look down on him which can't be easy for him mentally
@thebigpicture20325 ай бұрын
@@damian4590 That’s true. Add in his health problems hindering his ability to compete and people forget how formidable he was before the Championship when he was qualifying for the Candidates. I hope he can defend his title, it will be exciting to watch.
@dynamotexan5 ай бұрын
what now? Carlson defended the number one spot four times
@piyushraj81095 ай бұрын
@@dynamotexan Not everyone is carlsen
@iamkevib97182 ай бұрын
4:03 Bruh, even his competitor in the world championship is right beside him, even in 1:50. That battle really needs recovery for both.
@atomcraft40675 ай бұрын
I really hope that Ding finds help for what ever it is he's going through.
@prcbras4 ай бұрын
Ding at 85% can beat Gukesh at 100%. The question is will Ding be at 85% form by the time of the match
@Artimonsta4 ай бұрын
I completely agree. I really hope Ding is able to bounce back and defend his title. But the priority, obviously, is that he recovers from his mental and physical problems. Even if he needs another break, as long as it has to be
@grottphd90903 ай бұрын
Well I don't know, Gukesh is rated almost 50 points over Ding right now. That's a crazy gap to make up
@Artimonsta3 ай бұрын
@@grottphd9090 Cause Ding is having real Problems, I think he is working hard and everything but is just mentally crushed by something
@Neat_profile3 ай бұрын
Every player's 100% is variable and changes at any given time.
@_Infocars3 ай бұрын
Gukesh is unstoppable right now Won gold for india & gave the all time highest Olympiad match rating ever.
@Golden-lviv6 ай бұрын
If only he knew the cow opening…
@lassnxtdoor8649Ай бұрын
Rooting for ding.
@joyguy_10 күн бұрын
Ding is a protagonist
@DanielGarcia-si5rv6 ай бұрын
The fact that nepo caruana and hikarus best chance to the crown was snuffed by a teenager is heart breaking
@AnEnderNon4 ай бұрын
y hate
@_Infocars3 ай бұрын
You got to perform when it matters the most
@dugger076 ай бұрын
its the media's / people's fault calling WC Ding Liren its out of luck that made him into depression
@SpaceExploration-i1h12 күн бұрын
So I like magnus who care about none, if you care about none u can't get so much pressurized, just be yourself and play at your best without any expectations that's the best thing of all . Yeah, I feel bad for ding not for how he plays, he is very good but how people put so much pressure on it and he is actually worried about it which is heart breaking. I hope he finds his way and recover soon from this thing that's going on in his life. Best luck ding. Hikaru is one of the happiest chess player and love for hikaru and magnus
@ToiMemes15 күн бұрын
Ding and gukesh tied with two games left, hoping for ding to win come on bro
@youtubenightcrawler95714 ай бұрын
The bro was gonna retire after the championship qualifiers, did not expect to win it.
@Zamppa865 ай бұрын
I assume Ding's problem is that Magnus willingly gave up the WC title. Everyone still knows Magnus is the best player in the world by a large margin and we remember how good of an ambassador he is for chess and was when he was the WC. Ding knows he can never reach that level and he knows he is the world champion by name only. That troubles him and is a mental problem. As a world champion he is contantly compared to Magnus in every way and expected to perform, both playing and representing chess, like Magnus does and did as a world champion. Ding knows he can never do that or reach that level and that gets into his nerves.
@MRYedits11 күн бұрын
The more videos I have seen of Ding, i feel more sad for him. May he recovers soon ❤️
@adityabidwai16952 ай бұрын
Great narration, very poetic
@EnPassantD6 ай бұрын
Nice video!
@bleakflouw9306 ай бұрын
Just found out about the checkmate corner. Great videos!
@dracandros4 ай бұрын
A fear of achievement ? Maybe had a lousy childhood and doesn't feel worthy of success
@johng33486 ай бұрын
can you make a video on this year's bullet chess championship? :D
@TheUnique20063 күн бұрын
Gukesh so humble person.watch every moment nd decide.so grt kid of India.
@siewpoh5Ай бұрын
We are human being after all has been said n done , we need time to calm things down,,,,
@shadowside84335 ай бұрын
Chess is the hardest game.
@KanishkSharma-n5q6 ай бұрын
9:00 Gukesh : Nah Id Win
@barbiefan-bf6ri11 күн бұрын
Chess or not hope God bless Ding 🙏 N he will get all the happiness in world❤hope he will get happy n healthy
@akshaygopaul30216 ай бұрын
bro feel depress for winning the world championship.
@gmereabbu6 ай бұрын
Best wishes for Ding to defend his title but if he thinks he wont be able to come close to defending his title he must consider withdrawing, it wont mean much either way rather it'll suck to serve World Champion title to Gukesh on a silver platter!
@Chess-ArataniSareta3 ай бұрын
@TheCheckmateCorner Can I know what is the misics you use?
@veenushasharma3 күн бұрын
He lost world championship 2024, blundered the last move, may be INTENTIONALLY LOST .. more power to Ding
@thegorn6 ай бұрын
69%... nice.
@mohammedhazari5063 ай бұрын
I was looking for this comment 😂😂
@ronakgupta2005 ай бұрын
he just need richard raport .
@javiersays11 күн бұрын
one needs to layoff people and respects their struggles... people need to stop digging and leave him alone..there is more to him than being a chess champion ... he doesn't need to answer to anyone or prove anything to anyone... may he find health and happiness however it is..people who haven't achieved much in life dont get to comment on those who have touched the sky .. period..
@arwanpawar32604 ай бұрын
We have little disapponted over his performance lately, he is and Indian players are represented asia in chess....come on Ding get ready.
@thomas_the_cat5 ай бұрын
relax, he's just saving strats for when he defends the title 😅
@Imortalkings11 күн бұрын
How many of you here after world championship final
@BenSollis6 ай бұрын
This is more about if Ding wants to be chess chamion again... I highly doiubt it.
@JoshuaGutierrez-yq2bi6 ай бұрын
I rooted for Ding when he went against Nepo, but i sadly believe Gukesh will beat him by a considerable margin
@eddyirategekanya3366 ай бұрын
No way
@_Infocars3 ай бұрын
@@eddyirategekanya336 Yes way Considering the fact that gukesh has become even stronger after candidates.
@SethRoganSeth19 күн бұрын
Well no@@_Infocars
@NaplesFC6 ай бұрын
I feel gukesh has a really good chance of defeating a ding not at his highest
@nehcrow6 ай бұрын
great videos, you fill a niche in chess youtube content that is missing
@TheCheckmateCorner6 ай бұрын
Thank you!
@user-dh8oi2mk4f6 ай бұрын
If you enjoy this type of content I would recommend you check out FlameIsLucky. He's made 2 chess documentaries so far and both of them are very well made.
@mikhailgil61746 ай бұрын
he probably is being force to play
@Oldladywithastick6 ай бұрын
Weird thing to say without any proof
@thegorn6 ай бұрын
His tiger-mom is all over him
@BensonOfD6 ай бұрын
@@thegorn Also makes me wonder if the CPP cares at all about their representation in chess like the Soviets used to. Not saying they'd threaten and force Ding to compete, but if the government (not just the CPP) asks you to do something.. you do it
@royk.93476 ай бұрын
@@thegorn some people will deny these claims, but I got the same impression
@thebiglebrowski36956 ай бұрын
@@BensonOfD Honestly very doubtful. The Chinese government actually really looks down on chess in favour of xiangqi and even banned it in the 70s.
@clintoruss1535 ай бұрын
00: 35 Ding looks about 12 , a stiff breeze would blow him over .
@mohammedhamid4946 ай бұрын
Wait is this a reuploade? Did I miss something?
@noniebumst6 ай бұрын
800's complaining about the world champion not dominating the top 10 like magnus is hilarious
@jakobvandroogenbroeck6 ай бұрын
Why did you delete the first time you uploaded the video?
@TheCheckmateCorner6 ай бұрын
KZbin had some problems with the first one!
@jakobvandroogenbroeck6 ай бұрын
@@TheCheckmateCorner ok btw I absolutely loved your video about nepo vs ding i think i watched it like 4 or 5 times now. Can you make a video about hikaru or another world championship?
@hyp3raimz6 ай бұрын
Reupload? 😂
@gamercat82 ай бұрын
Hey tbf he didn't plan on winning the title anyway he said he was gonna quick chess after the game if it werent fore ding actually won
@Ishbikes4 ай бұрын
2678 performance level is 9th place out of 14 players? *Wow* So they’re like playing *stockfish*
@riyonsgamingchannel566311 күн бұрын
Is there anyone here after gukesh won the world championship
@leonarderasmus61196 ай бұрын
Ding is walking very slowly and when he shakes hands you can see it is with a very weak grip. Could it be that Ding is suffering from Parkinson's disease?
@jpzulu46106 ай бұрын
No bro wtf
@marshaltito73696 ай бұрын
It's probably nervousness.
@coldunquietgrave6 ай бұрын
His demeanors is like that even during his prime. The crown is just too heavy for him.
@Oldladywithastick6 ай бұрын
Have you seen chess players shake hands before? There are even compilations of the weirdest handshakes. Looks pretty normal for a chess player
@thegorn6 ай бұрын
AIDS
@TheMagnusCarlson3 ай бұрын
He should team up with Anish Giri for preparation, then ue won't be depressed anymore 😅😅
@matthiasknutzen60612 ай бұрын
Imagine he's playing bad on purpose
@TheUnique20063 күн бұрын
Gukesh is small boy plz bless him
@tanken42494 ай бұрын
He plan to take a sabbath and retire for good after world chess champion , but subconciously, he too focus on the game, he forgot his goals ,as if like once he reached Everest n come down alive, he is liable to hike the K2, signing the death cert, cos only best hiker is obliged to fullfill this goal or be mocked and rejected if it choose not to😂
@Bullimicporkupine6 ай бұрын
Ding about to defend his title with a sub 2500 rating.
@BadselS2 ай бұрын
Cash moves everything around me Ding get the money Dala dala bill yooo
@JonHop16 ай бұрын
Ding is the greatest chess player of all time, and is the best chess player in the world... That is why he is WORLD Champion!. Magnus stands no chance against Ding. Ding was even so nice as to help Magnus regain his confidence by allowing him to win in Norway so that Ding could have better competition in the future because Chess has been so boring for him!.. Ding was even going to let Hikaru win too, but got annoyed that Hikaru talks so much, so he had to put him in his place... Ding's 7D Chess is incredible! Clearly the greatest of all time!
@frosty98-t9h6 ай бұрын
Was that a joke ?
@wemustgo6 ай бұрын
Best joke
@lionizedjunkie6 ай бұрын
+1000 social credit score!
@_Infocars3 ай бұрын
+69 sarcastic points
@JonHop13 ай бұрын
@@_Infocars bless you kind sir!
@danielbattle76206 ай бұрын
Ding is still OP. I’m taking him over alireza any day
@NaplesFC6 ай бұрын
Gukesh is the next challenger not alireza
@danielbattle76203 ай бұрын
@@NaplesFC pragg is stronger
@_Infocars3 ай бұрын
@@danielbattle7620 Nope Gukesh, arjun & nodirbek are all stronger than pragg.
@danielbattle76203 ай бұрын
@@_Infocars bruh you just watched the olympiad. I get it so you think you're smart. Pragg is the future
@_Infocars3 ай бұрын
@@danielbattle7620 I am way smarter than you
@kaybest96076 ай бұрын
The only person objectively better than ding is Magnus. Everyone claims they are better but lost championship spot to Gukesh. If Ding plays world championship with Gukesh, he’ll win easily!
@crbgaming66836 ай бұрын
😂😂ok
@kaybest96076 ай бұрын
@@crbgaming6683 lol they had the chance to prove me wrong in the last candidate and he beat every single one of them and won the championship
@crbgaming66836 ай бұрын
@@kaybest9607 whom are you talking about?
@blizyon30fps866 ай бұрын
World championship will never determine skill. There’s a reason he was so shit during Norway chess
@crbgaming66836 ай бұрын
@@blizyon30fps86 no bro it's not right wcc does matter but ding is out of form so he blunderd his games so badly