what is it like doing herowin ?

[@judygoddard3869]

You ought to give a TED talk on addiction Paddy. You’re a very good talker.

[@antiperspirant]

Thanks for sharing mate, being sober is so much better than being high... God bless bro

[@THENORTHENMONKEY1]

Brings back so many memories from the past ....love listening to these stories .... keep it up mate 👍

[@NeilMelling-pw6ts]

A really good listen. Very informative

[@cherubs5177]

Good morning! Rave was the culture back then and sometimes you find certain individuals from dysfunctional families end up going all the way. There's alot of bad drug pushers out there. Glad you've changed your world around. Only the string survive !

[@paulineiqbal5948]

Congrats Bro. You are an inspiration. I'm your sis in recovery 3 year 9 months. My "poisons" were alcohol and weed. Also had to come off Preganlin and Diazpam. I am thankful for all the help I've had and more determined than ever. What I hated was the withdrawals and psychological dependence. AA and NA are brilliant and i shall attend for the rest of my life. All the Best. Pauline

[@James-ly3wf]

I hate those bad drug pushers! They never answer the phone before midday and they’re saying no more tick til I pay off what I owe! Bloody buggers!

[@garybates1395]

I went to hell bro for 21 years! My story is similar to yours. I was 15 when I got on heroin, crack 2 years later. Injected snowballs by 19. Same cycle for years. Crime, drugs, jail. I got clean in 2020 and I’ve got a decent job, builder. I remember I used to hate waking up in a morning, rattling! In a mess! I wake up now feeling good knowing I’m going to work to earn a wage have a laugh with my pals. Crazy thing is, weed and PlayStation saved my life, that’s all I did through Covid lockdown, and just end up recovered along the way, but it’s the best thing I did!

[@weewendy7795]

Well done. ❤

[@simonvolkmer3793]

Awesome I am nearly 5 years clean on the Buprenorphine much better than the 20 plus years on Smack ice

[@calum1741]

⁠@@simonvolkmer3793what’s Buprenorphine?

[@typicaldonnybird]

I know someone who was on it who’s now clean!! He told me the very first time he did it, he said to imagine you were freezing cold and someone wrapped you in a duvet that was so warm like it’d been in a tumble dryer… then your forever chasing that feeling… which never ever comes again…

[@TheRealViking88]

It's not worth it is it

[@davejenkins669]

Pretty similar yeah mate,a duvet of warmth and comfort and safety....tben it becomes dog shit

[@George-v5c5n]

Think of the Reddy Brek Glow and that's the way round describe it perfectly

[@George-v5c5n]

@@typicaldonnybird if you remember the Reddy Brek advert where the boy ate his reddy brek then went and dome his paper round with a glow around him....that's the feeling.

[@outdoorloser4340]

I thought it felt more like pure warm love for the first time. It's not true that you never feel it again though. Once you've been sick for a few days and finally get well.... it's magical. Overall terrible experience though I'd agree.

[@pinkelephantz286]

You did right not digging it Ian, I only shot it for a couple of year before arm veins collapsed, managed to stop , when pals were going int groin, but I still get numbness in my fingers now when it’s cold , don’t know what I was thinking int 90‘s , glad your warning people about it, take care pal.

[@calum1741]

What year were you born?

[@pinkelephantz286]

@ 74 pal

[@calum1741]

@@pinkelephantz286 cheers bro

[@RickyLee-gt5ld]

Respect to you paddy. I no exactly what u mean . We part of the lucky ones that's made it thru he'll and come out the other side and still here to tell the tale mate

[@gutz323]

Exactly the same way I started on the dark, through the rave scene, just using it once a week to come down from the long weekend. Then end up using the dark more than the other party drugs, then not going to the party's anymore because of the dark.

[@RobertDel-rio]

I think a lot of us got started like that I know I did.

[@calum1741]

How old are you guys?

[@RobertDel-rio]

@ 47 now and lucky to still be here was in the raves at 12 strung out on the dark by 16. Cleaned up at 28

[@calum1741]

@@RobertDel-rio does dark mean heroin? Glad you got clean

[@RobertDel-rio]

@ yeah that’s what dark means.thanks so am I it took a while and 7 rehabs a few hospital and more prison sentences than I remember

[@SensibleNutter]

You are a legend. You’ve smashed it mate!!!

[@314WESTERN]

The Needle And The Damage Done. Song by Neil Young.

[@jazztheglass6139]

The hole - by Townes Van Zandt, great song

[@GeteP]

Big up you, my mate. You're right in all you say. Pete 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿 Stockport

[@madness6780]

Good morning paddy,sad story but you are clean now.a new life for you

[@George-v5c5n]

Him doing videos about heroin shows its still got a grip of him in a different way.

[@useruseruseruseruser790]

@@George-v5c5nIt never lets go.

[@George-v5c5n]

@@useruseruseruseruser790 your right it never let's go and personally I think after someone has been on the class A for years it becomes a sort of comfort blanket to them (and me) just talking about it and reading about it and still using without using if you get what I mean.....just in my case and nearly every other someone who has beaten H will go on the sick for the rest of there lives by the damage caused by all the years of using and harm caused by it and there aren't many who will take the graft route and go and get a job doing 12 hour shifts and not even talk about H and start going to the pub again that's the only way to say that you've really got clean and not even on a substitute....does that sound about right ?

[@useruseruseruseruser790]

@@George-v5c5n Definitely sounds right in my experience. You don’t just stop using and resume your old life again. You and your life are changed forever even after a couple of years on it.

[@George-v5c5n]

@@useruseruseruseruser790 yip you always spend your life looking back and not forward and I've met so many people like Paddy where its "jail talk" I've never been to jail myself but thinking back if I had got caught with some of the stuff I was dealing with I was away for a long time and that scares me but one thing i did right was get out at the right time and I enjoy his stories because no matter which town or city the addicts/dealer/robbers are all basically the same.

[@cass7359]

Thank you for telling your story and explaining your experience, definitely insightful. Wishing you well.

[@addioziotom1287]

I think perceptions of danger change as you get older. With mobile phones, cctv, dash cams, etc you're probably safer on the streets now rather than in the 90s

[@Mrmallet777]

I agree with this nearly 40 moan about kids causing shit all the time but then I remember some of the shit we used to do and we were much worse 😂

[@addioziotom1287]

@Mrmallet777 and there was no chance of getting caught. Could just leg it. Now it'll be all over social media

[@calum1741]

@@Mrmallet777I’m 36 and never caused trouble. What did you get up to?

[@Ray-u5z]

Well said Paddey Britain is fd

[@jamie2251]

Paddy ur my brother so proud of ya m8 keep the stories coming pal

[@RobinBanks-tc5vn]

Yes paddy WE DO RECOVER great post bro

[@SarahDixon-tx4zx]

I enjoy making outrageous predictions. You are going to be HUGE On KZbin 👏

[@Ianlfcm3]

Sounds great I'm gona buy my 1st bag 🎒 later in from the Eggo ❤

[@reecopad]

@@Ianlfcm3 it's a slippery slope ☺

[@justonsullivan3807]

What years was this. I'm 44 now but I started doing trips over here in the States in 1994. My best years were 1993-1999, absolute wonderful years. Now days times suck, crazy ass world. Lots of luv from Florida. 👍🇺🇸🗽🇬🇧👍

[@unitedkingdomoffiveeyes9765]

If he's talking about the rave scene in the UK very early 90s....89 to 92 ish.....my days were 95 when I first tried trips or acid...im 43 but man I miss the 90s.

[@JoshJackson-lq7tj]

Same here started with hash in 86 then ten years later heroin ,wish I’d never even tried a cigarette but never mind ,take care big lad

[@djburdee]

Nice I can relate 😢❤🎉

[@storytimemagical-b2c]

Yes paddy❤ proper relateto the tripping stuff ... av got bk in to it now n then n a wish ad never stopped just had responsibility that stopped me a bit but am glad am dabbling bk in tripping drugs to be fair. Acid n that good but got nowt on 5 meo dmt vapes ... life changing Mind set wise

[@ainshazza5080]

im sober 2 years now mate (alcahol). dont miss a thing aout it. my lifes better now

[@andyleighton9586]

So true 30 years and only now can leave it alone but still need medication every day I'm so afraid to go through with redrawing it's hell

[@silverbullet2008bb]

Imagine if there is civil unrest, or a war or some other national emergency - the pharmacy won't be open mate. Get off the script while you can bro. It's too much of a liability.

[@JustDaniel6764]

I used to take them strawberries and mr men back then. I had a Dr seuss about 2 years ago and these fractal ones and white on whites. I love tripping 😂😂

[@stevekutscherawy6831]

Love your stories mate ! I can relate lol

[@weewendy7795]

Very good video ❤

[@frankjamesbonarrigo7162]

Ive done H. I did enjoy it, Im not going to lie about it. It was the best high ever. You cant even get that kind of H anymore, as far as I know. But that isn't the point of the video; It's the friends. It's the company you keep. That is what causes the addiction. You fall in to peer pressure. Someone brings it around all the time. Now, Yeah, trying something once can kill you. It's a different world.

[@George-v5c5n]

@@frankjamesbonarrigo7162 it becomes a lifestyle choice and before you k ow it the only people you know are addicts

[@George-v5c5n]

@@frankjamesbonarrigo7162 the first time most take it is by smoking and you think then what all the fuss is about 😂

[@frankjamesbonarrigo7162]

@@George-v5c5n I smoked it an loved it.

[@michaelroberts7374]

Funny acid tales. The trick with outside missions was to go out really late/early so it felt like you had the world to yourselves 😂❤ Great channel Paddy

[@feelinsupersonic1606]

Remember those days 🍓🍓🍓🍓🍓🍓🍓🍓🍓🍓🍓🍓🍓

[@SlickMick1987]

I volunteer in a Homeless centre. We need people like you to come down and have a chat with some of our users.

[@peaeater1]

When I did my final cluck I forced myself to think about the poor sods in the trenches during WW1. A week of withdrawal didn't seem so bad in comparison. It worked for me (12 years on it, 20 years off it).

[@davidguardado4739]

I found it takes 3 days in a row to wake up on the 4th day with the restless legs and sweat. I remember the 1st time i actually woke up clucking it took a few minutes to realise it was the gear. At the moment im at the overweight pills and drink and methadone stage. I need to kick it your a total boss coming off cold like that i can't say it enough.

[@reecopad]

@@davidguardado4739 I always say the 1st step is convincing yourself you can 👍 then intermittent fasting for the weight

[@WayneChapman-o6y]

It's mad how one decision can mess ya life up big time I'm still paying for it today I think if I'd carried on I'd be dead now have a good day marra 👍

[@CliffordWhite-em2kd]

Brilliant vid 👍

[@grahamw6503]

Most prob started on the weed, and moved through, acid/speed/cocacola . . . .then onto the other 2, the bobby and the lemo. 5 my mates dead aswell, 3 through a mivture of ale and sleepers- probably blag ones bought online

[@smittywerbenjagermanjensen8124]

They call this demographic of people (who used after raves in the 90s) "The Trainspotting Generation". A lot of people who used in the 90s have since died, have HIV and/or Hep or never managed to get off heroin/methadone. I'm sure you know this, but people didn't realise how addictive it was. There wasn't the stigma of "smackhead", so there wasn't anything to compare it to in terms of how bad it could (and would get) for those using. I am in active addiction, but I'm only 29 and have been using for 4 years. A lot of H is cut with nitazines. "Brown" heroin as we know it will soon become a thing of the past, with synthetic opioids becoming so cheap. Good luck with your channel, my love. xxx

[@Yournotwokem]

i been struggling with it for about a year. tried it last november when i was homeless after being let out of the nick and had no where to go and just wanted to forget about my situation. after my inhale i was instantly throwing up. nodding in and out of conciousness and really itchy. somehow that was enjoyable though. then 6 months later i started smoking a 3.5 a day of it for a oner. really bad drug. impossible to perform in bed on it too

[@useruseruseruseruser790]

Don’t want to devalue this guys experience, but I suppose I will. Needle use is another level when it comes to addiction and heroin use. And being overweight was certainly never an issue that I had over a twenty year stretch. There’s no money left for food.

[@brettcrf]

Ian did you ever Watch Grange Hill ? They showed what heroin like. Used to do the acid tabs at school 😂the last year.used to go to the raves in stoke 🎉 the good old days 🤩

[@JohnnyPeacock1959]

In my younger days i used to party with E, speed and coke but i always stayed away from acid because when i was young in the early 70s people were throwing themselves of buildings thinking they could fly under the influence of the drug. Nowadays drugs are cut so much you never know what you're smoking, swallowing or snorting.

[@oscardell9490]

Can you do a video of the hole underneath the hospital if its still there

[@George-v5c5n]

Theres a video on YT called "The How and Why of Heroin Addiction" explains everything perfectly

[@Dan23_7]

I’m guessing you’re around my age with what you’re saying. I’m 45. I left school in 1995, speed was my first drug, then me and my mates got acid, “white lightnings” they were brilliant, we stayed out all night “trip trekking” everything looked purple and pixelated, no dangers at all back then walking around through the night chatting shit and laughing at fuck all 😂then I went to pills, went to raves, various house parties, times were great. But I knew lads that had started to do H to come down after being up all night wired, I never did. A few of them are dead now !! I started smoking weed quite late, I was around 20. That was my crippling crutch until last year. I’m so glad to be free from it. Plus it’s gone shit like everything did.

[@KarlJon-z2q]

Donny warehouse BYO that's a blast from the past

[@paulbrinsley]

Funny with camera's that track our every movement and the "dumbing down" of the Police .. how unsafe our streets are any time of day .....

[@iangriffiths9943]

Tried smoking crack about 16 years ago, before that in the 90s I was a wizz head, trip head raver ,had an amphetamine addiction trying to chase that 111st buzz smoked gold seal for come downs, 00s become a coke head maxed out my 4 credit cards to the tune of £8000 in a year while trying to keep my job down, in my st flat a guy I used to work with years ago i bumped in to said he can get some really good coke so gave him about £300 and he came back a few hours later with a load of crack, he said his dealer was out of coke but done him a good deal on crack, smoked that shit in a bong with him,after a couple of hours of gently if possible smoking it it was a really horrible dirty buzz ,the guy i used to work with left me ,it was like i was bipolar within an hour of it wearing off paranoia getting cranky, shivers it was as I said as you know a really dirty chemical buzz

[@Manos-de-Piedra]

WTF

[@emilymccartney1593]

So glad you’re off it mate, as it’s not even Heroin now, it’s fentanyl which is far more dangerous.

[@jonzygon391]

I did it once made me feel sick and never did it again horrible stuff

[@user-ky4nt6mi8w]

Whaaat is up guys??

[@Matt-x3n]

M8 U seem less "energetic" no1 on here does DAILY tings for FREE! If U need a break take it m8..hope some1 on here offers U a job etc..understand anxiety but hour/wk? Sumtimes a little push in positive direction helps..U CAN talk well and will succeed!..think U underestimate ursen! Stay strong m8 🙏💯

[@stevieR-lw4iy]

Acid opens up a part of your mind that u never new existed 3 quid a tab is really good mate in 2015 i was paying a five quid per tab basically for anyone whos never done acid my advice for u is it depends where u take it on how your experience is take it with your family friends in a cozy living room with pillows a duvets and your have a beautiful first time experience but if u take it in the middle of the street say in the high street or somewhere public u might freak out a little bit and it could lead to a bad trip so yeh it all depends where u take it and with who u take it with its a drug u take with your closeys ❤ ✌

[@JoshJackson-lq7tj]

If you’ve had just enough it can send you hyper like in jail

[@thewrathofbibby3381]

Man.. Pregabalin is really hard to get off.

[@scottsaul]

It's not that it's any good as such it's the feeling of like being haunted if you don't have it . That feeling of waking up skint knowing you need money to score it's fucking awful.

[@Jamie-ll9oz]

It's not proper like when i was 16

[@smith2781]

You’re right. There is one guy I know that does the proper stuff. But the rest is 💩. I haven’t done it in years but I have mates that dabble they’ll do for a few weeks then have a few weeks off. One of my mates was worried about clucking as he been doing it for a few months and he asked me to get him some diazepam to help him. He didn’t even need them he didn’t even cluck, he said he struggled with sleep for a few nights and got a bit goose bumpy but that was it.

[@Jamie-ll9oz]

@@smith2781 try 16 year pre gab habit on top . Yeah nothing only these days . Last time I had real deal stuff was in Cambodia plus i could get bit liquid ket .

[@wired2780]

Snowballs were mint back in the day

[@reecopad]

@@wired2780 that was my 1st pill ..strong as hell

[@Joes-not-greg]

The problem with smack is that no smackhead ever lives off their own back, it always involves people robbing their old mum or nan or someone elderly.

[@Leebhoy1984]

That’s so incorrect. Have you heard of a white collar heroin user?

[@Jamie-ll9oz]

What music you be listening to paddy

[@reecopad]

@@Jamie-ll9oz I like watching old battle raps 👍 that's where I get a lot of my jokes from 😂

[@Jamie-ll9oz]

@@reecopad come on mate chester p is real G

[@Jamie-ll9oz]

@@reecopad Louis slipperz 10 bag

[@reecopad]

@@Jamie-ll9oz my favourite is pat stay go check him out he's really good

[@brunitch]

Paddy Your analogies are top tier pal 😂😂 100% my best memories are from having knockers in hexy park & clumber park

[@reecopad]

@@brunitch I remember driving through clumber park tripping with piano choons blasting ..its was amazing 😂

[@Ianlfcm3]

Why would you do it again if it wasn't good or made ya feel nice?

[@davidguardado4739]

Addiction overrides your brain it makes you a slave to it your powerless to say no. Its not easy but think about that for a minute, its a mental illness thing

[@reecopad]

@@Ianlfcm3 still trying to figure that out its like smoking ciggies they taste disgusting but people still do it ..weird

[@Leebhoy1984]

@@reecopadnobody starts taking any drug including cigarettes and alcohol - thinking they will be addicted and won’t be able to stop. Then the little voice keeps coming back suggesting it to you more and more. Method one and suboxone have their issues too. Like not feeling the good vibes off of music, and sex being disrupted - it’s just sh*t

[@trocotr0]

Have no shame in asking help to friends and family. Ive lost friends to heroin and free base and Ill tell you I'd rather have an addicted friend than a dead friend. Its just as it is.