I'm 57yr old man struggling with mid life crisis. I feel My Life is meaningless!!

[@lefroy1]

'Dying' isn't the problem, it happens to us all. Having not 'lived' is the issue we should worry about.

[@nicoeeek.7181]

SPOT ON!!!!

[@codecaine]

It is about learning to live in the present. People either focus too hard on the past or the future. The real life is at the current moment.

[@ToniWilson-c4q]

Agreed sis 👍🏾💔😢

[@ToniWilson-c4q]

​@@codecaineagree

[@JustforfunbyDanilo]

Exactly.... One day I'm going to die, and I haven't even lived.

[@chippyflippy]

I remember the quote from The Shawshank Redemption film " I guess it comes down to a simple choice really. Get busy living or get busy dying."

[@angelawatson7740]

So very true .

[@catzee4720]

I know that line too. Great movie. I have been contemplating it alot lately and never thought I would actually come to a point where I'm actually not sure which one to choose. I feel too like life is meaningless lately and around same age, but even when I start out to get busy living it is still met with lonliness and etc..

[@REALHARSH]

Smashed it

[@angelawatson7740]

@@catzee4720 you have stalled . Like so many others. The contemplation of life has no ending. It's an eternal circle. Over thinking it isn't going to resolve it . There is no point in worrying about what has gone before or what is a head . Live for today.

[@MsNerdsRevenge]

The PRISION Shawshank was filmed at has at least 2 different structure types. I'm almost certain it's in Ohio.

[@donaldsebolt6890]

The fact that I am watching your video means your life has meaning. The fact that many people watched this validates my statement.

[@jdquest3343]

Dwelling in the past brings sadness/depression. Thinking about the future brings anxiety. Live in the present and be grateful you’re alive and can still do something that may make you happy.

[@juhopuhakka2351]

What if this present moment continues to be monotunous and there is no reason to think it will change?

[@ironmaiden4396]

@@juhopuhakka2351 You have to go deep inside yourself and ask, "What did I love to do as a child?" Many times you can find joy in simple things that don't cost much money. Anyway, hope this helps. It's what I did and started some side hobbies. Another thing is to get out in nature, in the woods, and by the water, it helps. Adopt a pet if you like, if you can...They provide unconditional love.

[@gingerindian1141]

@@juhopuhakka2351 that is if you dont consider and analyse what you are grateful for. To also find a connection with people or green space. This alters mood. But also when you are depressed, your autopilot default is to look on the negative, the rational brain is not automated. You have to identify what is satisfying, enjoyable, interesting, but you wont think that way when you are in a 'depressed mode' - so movement, people, greenspace to change emotions which alters perecptions, feelings and interepretation of the envionrment - and less attention on the default negative. Humans attention changes when their emotions change. So do a behaviour to change the emotions then what you see, and think alters. This has to be done consistently over time.

[@ThomasMawson-zt9lx]

@@juhopuhakka2351ikr because of either side of us smh 🤦‍♂️

[@MyScotty7]

Why worry about death when we no control over it. We are energy we live on.

[@Paul-010]

Fact….our consciousness survives bodily death. More people should watch Near Death experiences ( NDE’s)

[@nvmffs]

We do have control over it through technology for example and through esoteric means.

[@ph5056]

Indeed , you can't put energy out or stop it , it can only change form or direction

[@lw1zfog]

energy changes form, it is never destroyed

[@Mister_W.T.F]

No, that's Not the Point- he's expressing existential dread at the fear of being insignificant. But I accept your sentiment.

[@philipcook6191]

It was a pleasure to hear you. Few has the guts to be truthful, especially on youtube.

[@janebosch2461]

You are NOT a nutter! You are a sensitive, good hearted person who is going through a "rough patch". I think we all try to contemplate the meaning of life but I believe the meaning of life is living, loving, contributing,learning, health, happiness etc. I'm sure that everybody has their own opinion on what the meaning of life is. But I feel that you are taking steps in the right direction by getting these feelings that you have out in the open and I feel that you are very brave sharing them with your subscribers. I have had a lot of loss in my life I find that going for a walk on the beach is a great way for me to de-stress and gives me a new appreciation for this beautiful world. Not sure if you have a beach near you but I'm sure you have some pretty Countryside. Try taking some time out for yourself. Above all please don't feel that you're alone you have a lot of people who are concerned about you and please please reach out to a professional should you feel you need it. Change is hard but sometimes that change can be the beginning of a new outlook on your future. I know this is going to sound corny but I listen to Louis Armstrong singing What a Wonderful World when I'm feeling down and somehow I feel better. And always remember that your doggies love you and need you!! Take care

[@spaceengineer1452]

Lovely message. That Armstrong song, has the opposite effect on me. Makes me sad.

[@Saffy-yr8vo]

Started walking on beach recently agree it’s great and refreshes your mind!

[@Gilbertineable]

You are a critical thinker - I am the same. We are realists.

[@leeannmansfield5254]

Exzactly what I said.his quite normal. I can relate to this guy. It's a breakdown.

[@Chris-uk.]

the system is stopping us from living our lives

[@Frank_inSA]

Only if you let it happen

[@WScloudchaser84]

Exactly the matrix keep us on the hamster wheel

[@chrisp1232]

@@WScloudchaser84 just be a god damned man...respect is not given, its taken.

[@jimfisher1803]

Maybe , but changing your life is possible and will give you meaning regardless of the system . Blaming the system can & will lead to resentment , bitterness, anger etc

[@thijsjong]

I had that feeling since I was 8 or 9. It was not death I was afraid of. It is not "the system" thats the problem. You have been watching the Matrix too many times The problem is much more profound.

[@m.rivera234]

I’m 61 years old and don’t have any friends or family. Don’t have anyone to talk to. Everything is pointless. I feel empty inside and it’s killing me. Spend the whole f* day wishing I was never born. Loneliness is like living in a world of constant pain , suffering and torture. Wish I had someone to talk to.

[@VictorianMaid99]

You have described why I have pen-pals. People need to communicate to other people. The few subscribers I have tell me stuff I do not want to hear however they are lonely and afraid.

[@m.rivera234]

@@VictorianMaid99 Pen Pals? Is that like a mobile app..???

[@victorgrech1136]

@@m.rivera234 get a dog they're great company I had a german shepherd he was my best friend

[@TennesseeJed]

Being dead feels just like it felt before you were born is my best guess. This, of course, is under the assumption that there is some sort of eternal consciousness.

[@VictorianMaid99]

@@m.rivera234 hello M! No it is not an app. When I said "pen pal" I was referring to how in the old days actually sent letters back and forth. I have a few friends that i talk with everyday. We have common interest. They found me because of my interest in cooking, gardening and cosplaying. I post videos here on KZbin of my adventures around our town and then they comment. I also post a daily Bible verse and we talk about that. Over on Facebook they will chat with me in real time. We talk about many things! I am normally on Facebook from 1800-1900 CST. Give me a try: what do you have to lose? I am not an AI robot nor am I a famous movie star. I am just another person on this troubled earth trying to get through life with the minimum of scratchs.

[@Mr_Manhunt88]

I am much young than you but these feelings are mutual amongst all men. Loneliness is becoming more common thanks to the new digital world.

[@alfiegrove7233]

@@carolevans5285young women don’t have this feeling ever, only widows

[@mulfie4749]

Fact!! Says me isolating on my sofa!!

[@_clownworld]

It’s hard for me to get out of the house these days. I feel like something has been sucking energy in the world. I don’t know.

[@redrustyhill2]

No, not the "digital" world, because feminism. Relationships are dead and feminism killed it

[@thewildgoose7467]

Speak for yourself, I don't have these feelings and I'm a man?

[@tracey333]

You are absolutely not a nutter - your just expressing your thoughts & feelings. Its wonderful that your reachingbout to others on here . Please remember your not alone x

[@hollynonya6991]

@@tracey333 my husband hasn't been the same since Covid He feels this way 🥺

[@tracey333]

@hollynonya6991 covid lock lockdowns did so much damage to so many people unfortunately hunnie- I hope you can help him get bk to his former self x

[@hollynonya6991]

@@tracey333 thankyou ,.I hope so too He's a recovering alcoholic 8 years sober

[@gerofiore9695]

Thankyou Tracey

[@chrisbrady8186]

"I do not fear death. I had been dead for billions of years before I was born, and had not suffered the slightest inconvenience from it." - Mark Twain

[@TheMessengerOfTruthTVLIVE]

My Brother, we don’t actually die the way they say we do. Energy doesn’t die, it only transform. Much Love to U

[@barriewilliams4526]

Life is a journey, and at the age of 87 I've in the main enjoyed the journey so far. I appreciate that the end of my journey is not that distant. I just hope that I will continue to enjoy the rest of my journey, and not find myself in a position where I would prefer taking a shortcut. You only get one shot at life, make the most of it. Good luck.

[@vinniedurrant]

Thank you for the inspirational comment 🙂 promise me you'll find joy and adventure ahead 👍❤️

[@LilyGazou]

My friend lived to near 106 on her farm. Always had a smile for visitors. Learned to play violin later in life. She was fortunate that she had family who wanted to live on the farm.

[@gerofiore9695]

Thanks Barrie

[@yourfriendlyneighbourhoodl6206]

There is life after death & in fact, you had to die (spiritually) to get to this physical place anyways, it's the lowest and slowest vibration, but the vibration is now speeding up

[@nicklazarakis4837]

I can see where you are from, I feel the same way. I am 62 left work 2 years ago. Don't know what to do. I probably end up working part-time. Joining a men's club

[@GiftigeBalspuwer]

The fact that rich people brainwashed us that life is all about money and competition makes life worthless.

[@dannguyen2117]

So true of what you said!

[@shortty7618]

We are all puppets, playing in there arena. While they watch and eat popcorn from the sidelines, and we suffer.

[@curiouspenguin6887]

And stuff to buy.

[@ronauliT-xx2ke]

Grow more trees , throw seeds of fruits we ate on empty area, help parents is meaningfull and happiness , make God smile.

[@GiftigeBalspuwer]

@@ronauliT-xx2ke Ahhh. The science fictional not existing god excuse 🤣

[@adambarker173]

I think you making these videos, and talking frankly about your feelings has meaning in itself.

[@martinsloan9785]

Yes! And visit a hospital ❤

[@ranimouf]

My mother just died last week. She was 90, always happy and full of life. She was positive about life because she was a devout Muslim woman who never missed her daily prayers. She was never depressed or angry. She really enjoyed her life till her last breath.

[@gerofiore9695]

I am very sorry my friend for the loss of your dear Mother, she seems a lovely lady and lovely Mother RIP

[@ranimouf]

@@gerofiore9695 thank you for the kind words. Hope some day you will find some meaning for your life which will alternately affect the lives of others and make their lives meaningful. I also hope your kids will bring you joy and happiness and more importantly a purpose to your life. I live my life through my kids and l thank God for blessing me with them.

[@AzzZul64]

Alhamdulillah....May she be among the best in the hereafter, Aameen

[@ronauliT-xx2ke]

I have my mom only , be happy . God will smile if we grow more trees , throw seeds of fruits we ate on tge ground , God wants action from us , action to save nature where we luve then nature will save us either 'right?

[@herbertvanleeuwen5182]

That's great!! 😊

[@Tacamojoe2]

I’m a 59 year old divorced empty nester. I live alone with my dog. It’s rough but with God’s help I’ve survived and thrived. I say no to dating as I was really burned in a divorce. Hang in there! It’s a matter of maintaining sanity living alone.

[@dayisdawn]

Live life my exhusband dropped dead last year at 61 years old in Ireland..we had known one another since I was 14 years old but i keep going for the children x

[@Saffy-yr8vo]

Tough being alone I know. I’m now taking walks along the beach, it’s underrated. You know you are loved.

[@vinniedurrant]

I'm sure he'd want you to live a fulfilling life full of joy, could you do that if he asked you? ❤️

[@LilyGazou]

I’m so sorry for your loss. You must be a very strong woman. Many blessings on your family. ❤

[@gerofiore9695]

Sorry for your loss, Blessing my friend.

[@soioioioioioio34]

God will do that he will pull the rug out from underneath you and leave you to figure it out alone. He has nothing better to do with his time

[@nigelrichardson7574]

Hey mate you not alone I'm 50 depressed marriage in tatters marriage on the rocks got kids but I still feel lonely WOMEN WILL NEVER EVER UNDERSTAND WHAT MEN GO THROUGH

[@Saffy-yr8vo]

It’s a hard life for men too. Ridiculous expectations fed thro media. Women stressed out too. We all need to opt out get out into nature.

[@nigelrichardson7574]

I am a man women don't know what men go through men are the one who lose there homes and kids when marriage breaks down

[@fancyfeast4610]

⁠@@nigelrichardson7574I'm a woman and I've lost everything twice in my life to a man. I completely get it. Initially it was depressing but really, it was liberating. I looked at it like a new beginning. Go anywhere and do anything I pleased without having to consider anyone else but myself 😅 like an adventure and change from the monotony.

[@gerofiore9695]

It's those who control and influence society, they make it so easy for women to divorce, 83% of women initiate divorce, cause it's a massive payday for them, half the house, assets, they get the kids and then Bob moves in with yer kids and call him dad within a few years, its totally bonkers and yes, most women don't understand or care, they've been brainwashed to hate men, not all though, there are some that actually fight for men's rights, they do exist and they are brilliant but its hard to find them

[@frv6610]

​@@skelly0000 What is it that you are giving?

[@mikespike2099]

Mate, you are not a “nutter” you have taken the “red pill” and experienced “Ego Death” and woken up to the artificial constructs we create for ourselves and those imposed to us from society. I too have experienced this realization - it came after a period of unemployment because you recognize you are replaceable. What I think would comfort a lot of people would be the choice of when you want to pass in a painless way - it would be the ultimate freedom. Imagine setting yourself a date for that endless sleep … I think it would make you treasure every day until that time and then be quite happy to pass at your appointed time. It’s the last great taboo

[@zoponex3224]

Agreed! It has always been my plan to kill myself at 75. I am 61 now. It makes hard things much more bearable for me to know that it's only another 14 years and then I can call it quits. It's so freeing!

[@mikespike2099]

@@zoponex3224 it seems like 75 -80 is the range I hear most people want to go. I hope you can find a service which can assist you to go painlessly into that long night! Until then enjoy every day. 14 years is a long time still - all the best for your physical and mental health

[@whatwaynesaid3165]

Im 44 and i really resonated with the stuff you discuss in this video. Its hard, but i really hope stuff works out for you.

[@g1000-]

I dunno about anyone else but i literally live to sleep , life is that hard i cant wait to sleep

[@susanpeters5392]

Since lockdown I'm the same x

[@sonyavincent7450]

Life can be extremely tough and sad but it's like we're not supposed to notice.

[@redtrux..000..FIRE.]

Eating and sleeping is what I look forward to, the most.

[@deannelson1388]

I'm the same, I work ten hours a day driving for a living ... I'm 50 in October and just lately I seem to have lost all energy and enthusiasm for the things I used to love. I come home and just want to sleep.

[@nps2512]

I’m m 62 have arthritis fibromyalgia diabetes Gone from being a outdoor pursuits person , dj business man to used to love life now it’s waiting to get to bed and cannot get enough I have one hobby I love that keeps me going a over 60 guitar group this is the only thing that gets me out but it’s getting harder every week The drugs don’t work as they say

[@tomhall3175]

Life is just life. YOU have to give it meaning. If nothing changes , nothing changes. Create a happy life, and focus on the good things.

[@yourfriendlyneighbourhoodl6206]

True! Life has no meaning, so you have to give it meaning

[@soioioioioioio34]

​@@yourfriendlyneighbourhoodl6206you don't "have to" do anything!

[@frv6610]

A good life is meaningful, death which is destruction makes it seem meaningless.

[@imrunninazoo1115]

@@soioioioioioio34oh yes you can is living in the moment

[@johnadona3014]

you got it, people cant find purpose because they are doing whateveryone else is doing.

[@russellwhiteoak772]

No life is meaningless. Hang On on in there. I'm 47 and going through a similar situation. Be there for your kids when they need you. They will try to get by on their own but they will always need a parents steadying hand to guide them through it. When you're 12 and 8 everything is boring. Especially school. When you look back though it's a chance to spend 7 hours a day with your best mates. I miss those days. You can always talk on here. Stay strong and be there for them when they need you.

[@Heinz57ish]

I think when you become a parent you lose your identity to an extent. When they grow up and leave home you don't know what your purpose is anymore. There's a lot of time to fill. Yes they still need you, it's just not on an every day basis. I'm stuck at that point now. Trying to find things to fill the void . . I did this for 9 months then the youngest came home from Uni! Now I'm Mum again for the Summer. I really struggle with MH; anxiety and depression and don't know the answer. I wish I did. I just get up everyday and try again.

[@frv6610]

​@@Heinz57ish you are emotionally evolving thats all, you will find new peaceful things to do and still be a mum but from a better perspective

[@Heinz57ish]

@@frv6610 I hope so. Thank you ❤️

[@DrunkTranquility]

We're all walking ghosts ...... We're already dead ....... I love that concept, it really hit the spot. 💀😎

[@colinmusgrave9351]

Life long depression is a terrible burden to carry,but it can give you things others will never have and that's a deep understanding of yourself and your place in this world.I hope doing these videos are helping you I think they will be helping others,please don't stop and try to ignore any negative feedback.Before you know it your beautiful children will be adults who will love and understand their father's struggle.Stay strong my friend,you are not alone.

[@gerofiore9695]

Thats a great point Colin, it is very True

[@andyakarudolfhessiansack7936]

Depression is looking at your situation, and not accepting it. The story of your life is then created in imagination, I.e - I am lonely now or I am such a loser. Once belived in.... it sticks and becomes your reality. Depression is situation- thoughts- imagination and then belief. It locks you in.

[@Chris-uk.]

I dont feel right, not felt right for a long time, just existing, somethings not right, and you feel stuck

[@unitedstatesdale]

Ditto

[@lorra222]

Sorry Chris, I know how u feel. I can’t say cheer up, cause I know that doesn’t work, but just keep expressing how u feel on here or wherever u can, and hopefully day by day letting things out, might make u feel a bit better.

[@DoneTalking.EnoughSaid]

@@Chris-uk. Same 😔😒🙍🏻‍♀️

[@CarnivoreSpectrum]

❤ facts

[@isaaclebrock4633]

I'm 38 years old lintening to you from Portugal and feeling your words and learning from them ... I think that's one of you're life's meanings , teaching, transmission of thaugh ... Etc, and thank you for sharing your mind.

[@Kat-kc7uy]

Pretty much the feeling I've had most of my life and I'll be 71 next week, as Peggy Lee sang 'If that's all there is my friend just keep dancing'. Life is a struggle for many, and others just seems to breeze through, very brave of you to talk about it.

[@andyakarudolfhessiansack7936]

No one breezes through. That's a myth, and remeber....People always like to display their good life, behind the scenes it is strife and struggle and moments of emptiness. Don't be fooled.

[@thomaskrousey4443]

It’s what’s after this life that is important. We are here to choose where we will spend eternity. Heaven or hell. I chose Heaven

[@NewLeafDaily]

Hello mate, I totally feel you. I’m 53 and had the very same experiences you are describing and showing. Even down to the phenomenon you describe. My parents never see it either. I have seen more things since then and still do to this day. I also used to be obsessed by Dracula and hammer films. As for the meaning of life, unfortunately in this time and state of being, there doesn’t seem to be any meaning of anything at all. I’ve found that my best medicine and freedom from confusion and pain, was to fully accept myself. To be fully true to myself was my way forward from where you appear to be in yourself right now. As for my relationship with my daughter who is now 24. As she grew and became more aware of herself, I had to learn not to attach emotions to my daughter decisions. I found when I did it pushed her further away when I was trying to be more close to her. It hurt so much, but it was my problem to solve and adapt to. Just let them go a bit distant for a while. They need to develop and grow on their own with out nurture sometimes. So she can find her own true nature. You must remain in the background as her father to be there for when she comes back to wanting to be with you again. It will happen I promise you. She will come back 100%. Don’t take things personally until she does return. I don’t have many friends out of choice, or a girlfriend. I’m quite happy like that. I had to go through a lot of pain to find that out. Please keep talking, nothing on this planet has more healing powers than talking. Keep recording and keep talking. Record every day. Keep talking. I will be listening.

[@gerofiore9695]

Thanks mate. Do you mean you say that thing that I saw too? What phenom do you mean? Yh, I loved Christopher Lee and Peter Cushing and those Hammer Films, keep in touch.

[@NewLeafDaily]

@@gerofiore9695 yes mate. I’ve seen the exact phenomenon you described. Many times indoors where I live, also phenomenon outdoors at ground level, also in the sky. A lot more people are having more and experiences with whatever these entities are. I know for a fact that some of the Ariel phenomenon are man made. Take care mate.

[@pahanin2480]

I know several people who passed away before 57. My mans has made it to end game and its a crisis

[@quanty30]

Thanks for the honesty man!

[@gerofiore9695]

Thanks

[@stephensmith1402]

i feel every word you said and totally understand you 100% i am struggling with severe anxiety and depression, lost my mam suddenly in october, terrified of death, your a deep thinker like me thats how depression gets you because you have a clear understanding of the bigger picture of how life plays out in the long run its all too much to deal with and everyday things seem meaningless just know i am there with you

[@Saffy-yr8vo]

Hope it helps you to know I experienced an NDA (yrs ago before ppl talked about them) and I then returned obvs! It had no negativity or pain to it and I don’t fear death any more.

[@gerofiore9695]

Sorry you lost your Mum, the pain gets less over time, when my Mum passed in Sicily, my heart broke into pieces, I was a mummy's boy I think and loved my mum so much, keep in touch, don't be alone mate, why do I have so many Irish viewers, is it the Catholic vibe? hehe

[@SKINNY_HUMAN]

Take life like being a traveller. Your here on your trip. So you understand that one day you will check out.

[@WeAreTheUnhappyMajority]

I'm exactly the same as you mate, I'm 57, went through crap throughout my life. Being abused by my father, joined the Army, failed two marriages, being a single parent, being homeless, suffered with depression and migraines pretty much all my life. To top it off 14 year's of drinking heavily every day and survived cancer. So sometimes I think maybe it's a good thing I haven't got long left and the same time theres not that long left too. I've been alone since I was 35 and lived alone when my child was old enough to leave home. I've accepted my situation and come to the conclusion I'm going to be alone anyway. You have to consider what does people think about death when they're in their 80s, each day must be a blessing and at night before sleeping that could be their last living though.

[@gerofiore9695]

Wow you are a survivor, you wont be going anywhere soon

[@myname7227]

Get a dog or cat unconditional love, sometimes we can't run into good people but they are outthere. Best wishes - Houston Texas

[@Mark-c9h3l]

When my loved one died, it felt so wrong that the sun just came up the next morning, exactly as it always has.

[@madboydaz]

yeah have felt this, and everyone didn't even seem to notice and just got on with their day

[@frv6610]

As if a fly died?

[@MiniTrump]

​@@frv6610we all are flies in that sense.

[@ControleTrends]

I m the same age as all here. Life is struggle everyday every hour minutes second counts. There is no meaning in livin but since I gave up and surrender my life to the Lord Jesus , life become more clear and bright. I am not here to tell yourselves to believe in Jesus but he is the way the truth and life for ever. Blessin all here

[@deadlyqueens]

You think of everything when you’re feeling down.

[@gerofiore9695]

True

[@WaryofExtremes]

It's like the 'life flashes before your eyes' when something terrifying happens. Apparently, it's a response that might help you find a solution to what's going on. When you're mildly panicked, anxious, on edge...a bunch of old memories come up from even vague prompts. I've been recalling a lot of old, random things these days.

[@ShinobiShaman]

​@gerofiore9695 I don't know where you live, but if you're in an area where psychedelics are legal, I would try that. Start off with a low dose. Read up on it 1st. Also depending where you are, you might have academic studies of psychedelics in your area that you can participate in for free. & even if you tried them as a kid, try them now. You could also, if you have the money, take a trip to Costa Rica or Peru, for a ayahuasca ceremony.

[@deadlyqueens]

@@WaryofExtremes yes ! Although I’ve never reached a solution in that state lol

[@deadlyqueens]

@@ShinobiShaman yes they can really help I have a friend is attending therapy that uses psychedelics and it has changed his life.

[@tinseltits9855]

That's never a good train of thought to go down. Meaningless? Well, you have a daughter. Start there. The world needs soldiers, my friend. Soldiers in the spiritual sense. Be strong and don't wallow in negativity. Hugs from a random person leaving this message. Hope you receive it well.

[@gerofiore9695]

Thankyou

[@roberthiggins6401]

Where are you Betty? As in what county? I'm Kent.

[@gerofiore9695]

@@roberthiggins6401 Oh I have to change the channel name, that's my doggy name, my name is Gerald, I'm in Norfolk just up the road, hehe.

[@moontides7220]

Read a little science. You are no different than a mosquito. Man up!

[@danielsolis3148]

I feel like this as well. More so as I get older I’m starting to realize. What I do now is I try to recognize the little pieces of joy in my life every day and I cherish them and make sure I repeat them whenever possible

[@tracypearson6639]

Your honesty is refreshing. I found Ekheart Tolle extremely helpful when I was going through a breakdown a few years ago. I still listen to him and find a lot of peace.

[@gerofiore9695]

Thanks

[@krueppelkind]

egghead? egghard? eggheart?

[@adm58]

Just sharing your thoughts with all of us is meaningful in itself. It's communication, influence, relationship, community, etc. It clearly matters otherwise we wouldn't listen or respond.

[@gerofiore9695]

Thankyou never thought about that

[@aprilm2664]

Life is so hard now. What keeps me going is adopting kittens because they need me to care for them.i need to feel needed. If you can get a pet it might help

[@johnddwyer]

Yep. We saved some kittens that are grown up and life is better. We foster dogs too. I think it's all a choice of what we can do to make things better.

[@JoanOhare-ty9mm]

U miss your Parents ie Grief Which is normal

[@Zphora]

Go do things for others! U will feel better straight away when u are grateful for what u have and realise there are people worse off

[@rycraft7893]

I used to take so many things for granted. Now I'm 49 and realise every day that human needs another human , this is the problem of today's reality people are so closed with mobile phones stucked to their hands

[@markymar4w]

I will pray for your struggles 🙏

[@deppo_zweifler9029]

Life IS meaningless But to cheer you up: "You come from nothing you go back to nothing . What have you lost ? Nothing!!!! (Life of Brian)

[@frv6610]

Lost everything, because life is everything

[@Yggdrasill8]

a potential lifetime prison sentence, become financially ruined, become incredibly ill, ruined relationships, their is much to lose while you live

[@1Dukecronic]

"Life is but a dream"

[@ackerjawaka1966]

​@@1DukecronicShaboom ⚡

[@street282]

Yeah that didn't help at all

[@Thetruthisoutthere12]

Life is not easy it wasant ment to be. There were babies and children that have passed away today. even this second that did not get the chance. to experience the ups and downs of life.a mid life crisis would have being a blessing to them if they had only had the chance. Life is a gift. Enjoy today because tomorrow is not promised to any of us.

[@panda216]

Wise words

[@NonConformist-ys4wr]

You mean "Grift"...

[@bhamacuk]

That's a beautiful way of putting it into a perspective. Some people are denied the opportunity to experience life for whatever reason.

[@pickywolf2728]

Those passed kids are lucky to never experience such an awful and evil existence. Stop the lies…

[@Thetruthisoutthere12]

@@pickywolf2728 so u come on here saying it was good that babies and children die because of evil. I’m glad and happy babies are borne and children do get to live. and that is not a lie. so go and stay miserable and let the darkness overcome your eyes and heart. yes this world is a bad place with good people in it. That’s like saying forget the good just let evil exist I don’t think so.

[@BluefaceTrice-jo8vr]

I can completely understand, sometimes I don’t wanna be here anymore. I’m tired of people and this unfair world we live in. Sometimes I wanna just check out . Better to sleep in peace than live in destruction and misery.

[@CarnivoreSpectrum]

Me too

[@BluefaceTrice-jo8vr]

@@CarnivoreSpectrum You feel like that sometimes?

[@bornholm1588]

The world is unfair but only the Part people Control death and Lifetime is distributed amazingly fair.Go to a cemetary and See Fairness.

[@jamielyons4961]

I'm only 34 (35 in two months) but I have been thinking a lot of the same things you have recently. I have a good career and I'm doing well financially but sometimes I think what is the point in working so hard. Maybe I should travel a bit more, maybe I should have kids, I ask myself lots of questions like this, wondering what I should do to get the most out of this life, not sure what the answer is either. I see my friends having kids and not wanting to meet up anymore so starting to feel like my social life isn't what it was, lots of changes which I have to accept and there will be bigger changes to come. All we can do is keep moving forward and trying to enjoy the process. Cherish times spent with your loved ones. A few of my relatives have passed away and I'd give almost anything to see them again. Just go out for another meal with them and have a conversation. Life is rubbish sometimes, but it can also be beautiful at other times.

[@AkiraInuProductions]

I am 55 years old and I have no meaning. I am constantly in my bedroom sleeping because I hate being awake. I am constantly being sad and I honestly think I am an empath. My feelings are so overwhelmed with the sadness of the world..

[@akanesoratobu8889]

im the same, i think most people who come to this realization are empath

[@thecultofjohnnydelr.soulsw7010]

Think about your interactions with women .

[@Mrp-y2q]

God loves you. Get to know the love of God and the purpose of life. We don’t belong to ourselves.

[@mrsocotraisland1939]

Could you please get Quran-English traslation just read it many people in same condition you in changed big time.Thanks

[@Mrp-y2q]

@@mrsocotraisland1939 Quaran has no promise of eternal life. Jesus said take my peace for my York is light. Come to me and I will give you everlasting life.

[@flygetcapeflygetcape6932]

I'm a 47 year old man. The same as you. I just feel like I am existing. Not living. Just existing. Stress if kids not interested. High cost of living. Hard to get out socally, paying a mortgage which has spirled with this gov. I don't see any point in working hard at the moment, but we must for our children.

[@brandonlee7382]

I feel the only way I get through life is if I find something really interesting and I want to learn about it or do that thing. I'm 22 years old now and feels like years get faster and faster. 5 years ago feels like 1 years ago.

[@LilyGazou]

@@brandonlee7382curiosity is wonderful to nourish. I’ve never lost it.

[@johnd8538]

It hardly seems worth working these days does it, yeah the wages have got higher over the last couple of years but not in line with inflation. I think FIAT currency ( just money to most people) is in it's final days. The BRICS countries will eventually bring back the gold standard, with silver used for everyday purchases etc. Till then money will become less and less valuable, with inflation just going higher and higher.

[@edwardclark9057]

62yr old and i feel you my friend,i am crying as you speak, everything seams so pointless

[@Knowledge-b6o]

You are going to be fine!! Stay strong and know that there is a better life beyond this one!!

[@davidg5629]

Sir, I'm 75 and I've done nothing but work construction. At least I got free of ever needing a job. No kissing ass, no going to meetings, no getting sent to H R for complimenting a woman. My work can be scary. I could bid too low, my subs could not show up. No time to be sad. My social anxiety has melted away over time. I learned to stand up for myself. I stopped worrying about what people think. We have a limited amount of time to perfect ourselves. Not for God or Jesus or Buddha. For ourselves.

[@gerofiore9695]

Thankyou

[@tim59ism]

@@gerofiore9695 What you are expressing there is perfectly rational and understandable, most people have the same thoughts and it's not weird or strange, in fact it's a sign of intelligence. There's no satisfactory answer to the human condition (here anyway), life's a bitch and then you die (as they say) but I know for myself (I'm not asking you to accept it) that what we call death is simply the beginning of something else. In other words, this existence seems very real but it's not what it seems. I won't go into how I know that, but I know. In fifty years, maybe everyone will know it, it's just that science hasn't caught up yet. Just a tip, try to stop focussing on negatives as it only makes them bigger. All the best, mate !

[@gerofiore9695]

@@tim59ism I wish you could tell me more as I want to know, but of course I respect your position, I have an email but cant attach it here, its o my about section on the channel tabs, feel free to tell me if you want some time in the future, I you feel like it I mean ;)

[@tim59ism]

@@gerofiore9695 Okay. I will tell you more, but then I'll leave it, as I don't want to go further into this. I'm sure you've heard of near death experiences. My mate, who BTW didn't believe in anything he couldn't see, who previously thought anyone who talked about stuff like this was either a liar or a nutter, was a very heavy smoker (that was the cause) and dropped dead in his living room from a cardiac arrest. His wife called the ambulance. He told me that from his perspective, everything just went grey (when he collapsed) and then pitch black. He then said he floated out of his body, right up to the ceiling and actually went through the ceiling (and the upstairs) and up above his house through the roof. He could then see the ambulance arriving and the two paramedics getting out. He watched them run in and start attending to him, cutting his shirt off, sticking needles in him, thumping his chest hard, attaching the pads of the defibrillator (he didn't know what that was until later) then shocking him/pushing on his chest etc. He saw it all from above, his wife crying her eyes out for instance but he said he felt completely at peace, wasn't worried about what he was seeing at all. He also saw his next door neighbour running in to help. He then said that a tunnel (of some kind) opened up in front of him and he entered into it travelling down it towards a light that was getting brighter and brighter until it was so bright, he was emersed in it and it then spoke to him. This "light" (whatever it was) told him he had to go back as his work wasn't finished. My friend said what work ? The light said your "life work" and you have to go back to finish it. He said he didn't want to because what he was experiencing there was the best feeling he had ever had in his life, unbelievable happiness, no worries about anything, everything was right (he said). He was revived and taken to hospital where he very unexpectedly made a recovery (his heart was damaged). The experience completely changed him, until he died a few years ago. No way was that some kind of hallucination and if it happened to him, it will happen to all us, because there was nothing special about him, down to earth as they come. So, that's one reason why I know there's something else for sure, but I've had experiences of my own, too. I'm not sure that this will even help you, if it does, then great! If it doesn't there's no harm done. I'll delete this after you've read it, just to let you know but all the best with your journey and hang in there, try to focus on the positive more if you can, although it's not easy.

[@tim59ism]

@@gerofiore9695 Okay. I will tell you more, but then I'll leave it, as I don't want to go further into this. Everything I'm telling you is absolutely true, though, it really happened, although I don't expect you to believe me, take it or leave as you please, of course. I'm sure you've heard of near death experiences. My mate, who BTW didn't believe in anything he couldn't see, who previously thought anyone who talked about stuff like this was either a liar or a nutter, was a very heavy smoker (that was the cause) and dropped dead in his living room from a cardiac arrest. His wife called the ambulance. He told me that from his perspective, everything just went grey (when he collapsed) and then pitch black. He then said he floated out of his body, right up to the ceiling and actually went through the ceiling (and the upstairs) and up above his house through the roof. He could then see the ambulance arriving and the two paramedics getting out. He watched them run in and start attending to him, cutting his shirt off, sticking needles in him, thumping his chest hard, attaching the pads of the defibrillator (he didn't know what that was until later) then shocking him/pushing on his chest etc. He saw his wife crying her eyes out but he said he felt completely at peace, wasn't worried about what he was seeing at all. He also saw his next door neighbour running in to help. He then said that a tunnel (of some kind) opened up in front of him and he entered into it travelling down it towards a light that was getting brighter and brighter until t was so bright he was emersed in it and it then spoke to him. This "light" (whatever it was) told him he had to go back as his work wasn't finished. My friend said what work ? The light said your "life work" and you have to go back to finish it. He said he didn't want to because what he was experiencing there was the best feeling he had ever had in his life, unbelievable happiness, no worries about anything, everything was right (he said). He was revived and taken to hospital where he very unexpectedly made a recovery (his heart was damaged). The experience completely changed him, until he died a few years ago. No way was that some kind of hallucination and if it happened to him, it will happen to all us, because there was nothing special about him, down to earth as they come. So, that's one reason why I know there's something else for sure, but I've had experiences of my own, too. I'm not sure that this will even help you, if it does, then great! If it doesn't there's no harm done. I'll delete this after you've read it, just to let you know but all the best with your journey and hang in there, try to focus on the positive more if you can, although it's not easy.

[@Me4Evidence]

Hello my friend. Thank you for your transparency. I have had a near-death experience where I actually died and saw the other side. It is beautiful and it is real. That is another story though. As far as your purpose you have one. When I died I was told I could stay or I could come back and fulfill my purpose. For some reason I chose to come back but I honestly have never figured out what my purpose is either. I do find though that one we love others and we help others there's something that happens within us that changes. Pray for the Holy Spirit to help you through this part of your life. Every moment counts but in the end of this life we don't die but we transition. We will look back and hopefully there will be no regrets. Sometimes I don't know what to do either but some opportunity pops up for me to give words of encouragement or just listen. Your video is a wonderful step to reaching others. Great video

[@medidrissi6961]

What did you see? :o

[@gloria2340]

I understand. When we have family, health, home, car the Maslow pyramid. We are blessed. Some of us have no one, have nothing, are totally isolated, and we have to be happy for the simple things we do for ourselves. I paint the flat, change the room around, cook myself a nice meal, go for long walks, its hard when you never hear your language spoken on the street's anymore i believe this is what the government's want. People to feel that they don't belong to a community. Loneliness is a killer so I ask you to be kind to yourself you have come along way you have achieved so much. Be proud that is something else that has be taken over the years cant be proud of where you come from. If you can make it to London join on the 27th you won't feel alone. 😊

[@LilyGazou]

Sounds like my town. They brag about having 70 languages spoken.

[@redbullvodka5696]

Bro there are some people that always wanted to start a family, it never happened, and they are all alone in life till death.

[@gerofiore9695]

Yh I know what you mean

[@Kerry-ft2zf]

Yeah thanks

[@rianawati105]

I want to share what I've been going through. I had a terrible childhood which cause me severe anxiety. I fell into depression at one point in my life, but they say God works in mysterious ways. I am now 56 y o. I found my peaceful mind and happiness through tens of cats and dogs which I rescued from the streets. Before, I had suicide thought that I even once bought a bottle full of sleeping pills and plan to take it at once, and now things really different for me. I instead pray that I will be given a long life like Betty White who reached 99 years old and I hope that I will be given a chance like her who had done a lot for animals. I am very grateful with my life. I am healthy physically and mentally because of my furry kids❤.

[@British_Dragon-4K-Simulations]

I know the feeling. I'm in my early forties and feel like my life is over already. I don't have kids and my family is fractured, nobody talks to each other. I won't go into the details but you are doing much better than me.

[@ronaldtrunk7944]

My family is fractured and I cannot fix it

[@British_Dragon-4K-Simulations]

@@ronaldtrunk7944 Do they want to fix it? A lot of people prefer to avoid problems than to confront them. I’m guilty of this myself.

[@lebovskievgeniew4748]

I realy dont know how you people live without God in your life... Yeah, without God live is meaningless, but with God, live is full ofmeaning

[@British_Dragon-4K-Simulations]

@@lebovskievgeniew4748 Some people have really bad childhoods and find it extremely difficult to believe that a loving God exists. I think their is an intelligence in our Universe though. Simulation theory etc.

[@lebovskievgeniew4748]

@@British_Dragon-4K-Simulations Yes there is an Huge Intelligence in our Universe, agree ! But evil is a choice..Personal choice. Evil is our choice, we are free creations I believe. So I and you can love, God also can. Why some people have difficult childhood and live.. I think this is connect with parents, with siblings, with family history, and other evil things happening in the world. The world is bad...

[@claudefox2882]

The meaning of Life is Life itself.

[@michaelmalech5742]

Life is a lesson carried over into eternity

[@johnsjourney4978]

And how do you know that?

[@Tiefenliebe-aka-DJMOK]

John 14:6 KJVJesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.John 17:3 KJV And this is life eternal, that they might know thee the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom thou hast sent.

[@garylovell6017]

@@Tiefenliebe-aka-DJMOK No , keep the god nonsense out of it for fuck's sake. There is no god of any denomination, never has been and never will be. In fact, religion is for perverts who support and justify raping children. Religion is what all the paedophiles hide behind.

[@garylovell6017]

@@michaelmalech5742 No it's not.

[@honeydate]

I am 55 years old…born in to abject poverty and under privilege. have been depressed since age 8 when my older sister and I were abandoned in a cruel boarding school. Upon leaving we were faced with drunken violence from the “father” for the next 16 years until my broken mother left after he tried to murder her. More poverty followed and my mother remarried a sociopath. He only showed his true mental illness after she paid for their wedding. He hated my 3 sisters and me and told my mother to evict us. He killed my dog while I was away trying to earn a living. He attempted to molest me when no one was at home - I fought him off but was too ashamed to tell my mother. Years later he committed suicide after my mum left the home due to him refusing to work and becoming an alcoholic who tormented her. Now I’m in a job I no longer enjoy due to bullying. On top of that my lying husband has betrayed me and it’s difficult to get past it. This has overwhelmed me into sick leave from work due to anxiety and severe depression. My life has no meaning at all…I wish I could sleep and not wake up.

[@charlesthompson9889]

Boo hoo don't cry

[@sarthakdasthapa]

How do you do now? Are you doing well? I hope you're getting the help you deserve. I would have been honoured to have a women like you as a nurturing mother.

[@sarthakdasthapa]

​@@charlesthompson9889 Why do you say that, Charles? Are you doing well, Sir?

[@markc1234golf]

Life is not about aquiring things it's about knowing how to enjoy what you've got

[@cujimmi]

Listen mate..i work with people with dementia id choose death over their predicament any day of the week...their things worse than death like not knowing your own name , who your family are etc etc..youre obviously going through a rough time but look how many people are here to support you ... keep strong

[@ananda_miaoyin]

You would only choose death from the outside looking in. To them; it can be scary at times but mostly it is the Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. To come in with tabula rasa and to leave the same way isn't that bad. I am an end of life spiritual counsellor for a hospice. In what capacity do you work with dementia patients?

[@cujimmi]

​@@ananda_miaoyinwell let's put it this way ...I sat with an elderly lady today for about half an hour, I've known her for a couple of years and watched her steady decline... She has absolutely no idea who I am ... she'll never get out of bed again... she'll never be able to feed herself...she caught in a mantra of saying the same sentence over and over for literally 12+ per day...and gets very distressed when personal cares are being done.... Now you call that what you like..I call it a fait worse than death And I'll be relieved for her when she does pass

[@maggiemoo0328]

@@cujimmiit sounds just like my late mum. Thank you for all you do ❤

[@anthonydempsey7693]

I work with dementia patients, they are not unhappy because they no longer know what anything feels like, they are not worrying about anything, they may look in despair and can shout and act up, but they don't even know they are even alive.

[@ananda_miaoyin]

@@cujimmi Distress is likely better than the pain of some conditions that I have seen people die under. I recently lost a family member who lived with dementia for 12 years. It sucked but it wasn't painful. We all have our own experiences.

[@zeethree7395]

Brother, this is the time to enjoy life, if someone in your life causes you stress, let them. If you're not happy where you are find your happy place, the clock is ticking. If not now when ? You owe it to yourself.

[@gerofiore9695]

Thanks for those lovely words, happy Sunday brother

[@enigma7791]

Life is meaningless until you walk through a children's cancer ward. Life is meaningless until you see a young father asking for more time. Life is meaningless until you see a mother rocking an empty crib. You are rich my friend, your meaning will find you if you give it time and get out there and give yourself to life. You are a soul that struggles with an ugly earth, keep going and it will get better.

[@redrustyhill2]

Everything you listed is just proof that life is meaningless. NPC automaton

[@peterahanor5689]

Even the wisest king that ever existed testified in the bible that life is meaningless and full of vanity. There is no meaning in suffering when we will still die at the end, neither is there a meaning in pleasures when we wont have it forever. Therefore my friend life makes no meaning at all.

[@BarryBethal-yv2oz]

I feel the same I’m 62 divorced I have a good job plenty of money but I can’t see any point in life. Growing up I always looked to the future with plans what I want to do but now I can’t wait to get under the turf.

[@LilyGazou]

What did you like when you were a kid? Think back to those interests. I remember being excited to get up in the morning when I was a kid- just going out in nature all day, swimming in the ocean, picking berries, getting a stack of new books from the library, collecting and identifying shells and rocks. These things still make me happy. Hiking the Pacific Crest Trail for months has worked for some people to figure things out. I spent a few months in the mountains with no electricity, 2 weeks on a ranch in northern Montana, many months traveling around the US with a van I’d like to try backpacking around Europe again but a bit concerned about the “immigration “ situation.

[@thesaint5619]

Book a holiday spend some money enjoy what you got a little can not take it with you ..go for it bro

[@musafir123]

After divorce you can marry to another woman it is helpful

[@petermackillop4599]

You and anyone else feeling this way, I would encourage to seek out Christ.

[@mikespike2099]

Hi Ger, can you share more about your Chinese adventure!! Really intrigued

[@gerofiore9695]

OH they are coming soon, what would you like to know about? Girls? Girls? Or Girls?

[@mikespike2099]

@@gerofiore9695 more like what made you decide to go there? Did you learn Chinese? Did you teach English? What years were you there?

[@joannmarie1971]

i am sorry you are going through this. i am 53 and do not experience much joy because i feel so alien or foreign to the society around me. I often feel like i can see things and notice things others do not. I believe we live in dark spiritual times and we have been lied to about our history. I hope in God and His mercy and to someday live in another reality because this reality is very depressing. Hang in there. I do believe things will get better once all the lies have been uncovered.

[@Apricot101]

I could have written this myself. You sound so, so much like me x

[@joannmarie1971]

@@Apricot101 nice to meet you! glad i am not alone in the way i feel and see things!!

[@toddperilloux6143]

I think you're right

[@uj1264]

Same here, we are living in the spiritually unbalanced world. Hope for a better one after this life. I like listening to coming home channel. It is great NDE experiences, try that. I gives Hope and diferrent perspective on life. Hello from Poland🙏🙌☀️

[@joannmarie1971]

@@uj1264 thanks for the channel tip!

[@goatsintrees7468]

Thanks for sharing your thoughts. I quite enjoyed following your train of thought and can see the truths in it too. Please continue to be your unique self. It makes you interesting!

[@alrinaleroux9229]

May God protect your soul, give you wisdom and insight, and strengthen you, dear Gerald!

[@justmadeit2]

Life can be damn hard when a person gets in to a dark place in their life and a lot of years build up behind them. I’m 49 and things are really difficult right now with depression

[@Saffy-yr8vo]

You look cool in those sunglasses tho. I think reading all the replies on here might help a little.

[@iloxix4483]

Can’t help you because I feel exactly the same damn way this place is hell

[@gerofiore9695]

Hehe ... the blind leading the blind kind of thing, you probably know more than you think

[@hildamanlangit]

Cheer up bro ❤be positive...God is be with us have faith in him and be strong in every situation..watching from macau

[@BibTheBoulderTheOriginalOne]

I don't expect this to work for everyone but I find solace riding my motorbike. Just me, the fresh air, and my bike.

[@vinniedurrant]

Those beautiful open roads 👍

[@LilyGazou]

It’s like surfing👍

[@jonathanturnerrhyolite133]

I sometimes more often than not,feel the same.Diagnosed with lymphoma 2 years ago,in remission now.But,when you face death,you find a fighting spirit.Despite any shit life throws at you,fight on,live on,rage against it.I have no friends,divorced, my 20 year old son lives with me,and yes i sometimes wonder if i should have had treatment.But being ex military,i fight on and take no shit.Please dont fear death,you cant avoid it,none of us can.I will probably end up in a hospice,but as long as there is a caring nurse to gently ease my way off this world,then thats ok.I really hope there is an afterlife.Keep going my friend.

[@Saffy-yr8vo]

I’m telling all who will listen I had an NDA yrs ago before ppl were interested. It wasn’t painful I immediately knew what was happening and I chose to return. I’m not any wiser to what that was all about but maybe one reason is that I would tell you folks on here about it???

[@vinniedurrant]

There's some good information on here about healing foods and lifestyle adjustments that can revolutionise your health & longevity. Your not past it, live your life, there's always a way❤️

[@gerofiore9695]

Thankyou Jonathan

[@PeterMitchell-s5t]

Yes Johnathan, I was as a child scared of death like this guy, had a terrible childhood, violence etc. But then as a frightened scared child i found judo. I went on to train for 40 yes in martial arts, karate, boxing to name a few. This has taught me to fight and never give in, a mental strength I never thought I could have. So scared of death doesn't even come into it! I can understand this guy, but know that, there are far more bad things in life ,then in death.

[@martinmg8947]

Hello Gerald. You are not wrong and not alone. Many times, I have the same feelings and contemplations about life. I find consolation in helping my children and family with their lives. I also find meaning in reconnecting with old friends and in the excitement in reading and learning about the wonders of the universe. It also helps me to have a hobby that gives me hope to continue doing it. Best regards from Los Angeles CA, United States

[@Mark-c9h3l]

You've just discovered, in this video, exactly what you need to do. You need to find a compelling purpose. Something that makes you excited to get up in the morning that doesn't depend on someone else. This will give you some joy and energy and which can then ignite a better life.

[@wazzad1311]

I have had the same thoughts after selling everything and going around Australia. Now settled on the east coast. I finally worked out, that I needed a connection with nature to exist, and also a connection at times with people, as crazy as some are. I also think that the meaning of life is not trying to find the meaning of life. Exist in the moment.

[@xdgs567z]

Thanks for sharing, I’m going through the same thing as you at this point in my life….I feel much better knowing I’m not alone

[@tomm856]

I think there is a time in most peoples lives where the become aware of their existence and wonder what life all about. I'm 75 now but my life changed for ever when I was 19 and trying to grasp what life is about because It put me in a deep depression that took 2 years to recover from and left me with a mental illness which I’ve just recently resolved. With me, I knew at an early age I was different from other people, but it wasn't until I was 50 that I was diagnosed with Autism, that explained everything. I'm still a deep thinker but now I've learned to live with it and not let it effect me emotionally. I used to fear death, but after 20 years of studding NDE’s and reincarnation, I now believe the mind is separate from the brain (the mind is in another dimension and survives death). I could go into the physics of it, but maybe another time.

[@gerofiore9695]

Very interesting

[@freespirit-111]

I concur.

[@ufomofo]

You are intelligent, honest, wise and compassionate. Whats crazy is how you have undermined your own thought processes for so long that you self sabotage. Accept the truth of what you say then rid your life of all the people that gaslight you, and the media and the family that undervalue and deride you.

[@Pika0294]

I feel with you man. Im only 30 but my past 15 years have been full of depression and anxiety, fear of death of future, the reason why I exist. It got to a point when I attempted what I always avoided by the end of last year. I try to see everything a bit more lightly since that day but man it ain't easy. Some worries come and go, I also don't have any friends outside of my family, the only friend I've had moved away yrs ago and ever since contact is rare and only online, majority of my life is online and somehow it's this modern life. Constantly I have the fear of missing out on living life due to worries and my personality "schizoid characteristics" that have been diagnosed in rehab last year. One part of me is enjoying to be alone and the other is seeking for a purpose, meaning, company of some sort. I hope I make some sense with anything I say, I thought of creating a similar channel to you, to talk about my experience with mental health issues throughout all these years but I also don't want people to be bored of my shit in life. Anyways thanks for being so open about your feelings and sharing it with the world here, stay strong, you are one hell of a man inside. ❤

[@gerofiore9695]

Yes, pls do start up a channel, it's cheaper than therapy. if I had the money I'd pay for some therapy, here in the UK on the NHS the therapy I was offered was rubbish, I spoke to a 'counselor' who wasn't very qualified, and the vibe I got was that he was going through the motions and detached, I started talking about being on Seroxat and didn't even know what I was on about, other things he also didn't know and I had to explain what they were such as Hedonic adaptation .. again silence, and many things that didn't click. I can't talk to anybody about this stuff, they'll think Im nuts. So, I started talking here and it seems KZbin has pushed these videos and thankfully you've seen it and I get to talk to you, sorry you had to go through, I assume 'deletion' issues, man that's bad ... when my dad passed within the first 4 days that hit me and was so frightening I felt overwhelmed with this bad feeling of, but too much of chicken to go through with it, thank God, but the pull was horrible and frightening at the same time. You seem like a cool guy, made your vids, I'll subscribe.

[@imonlifesjourney]

​@@gerofiore9695If their is no God, life is ultimately meaningless. We all rot in the ground. But, if Jesus spoke the truth when he said i am the way, the truth and the life, no one comes to the Father except by me, then their is meaning and a purpose in life. Jesus said, to love God with all your heart soul mind and strength obeying him, and love your neighbour as yourself. Their is then meaning, purpose, and ultimately hope beyonnd this life on earth, as their is eternal life to come to all who put their faith amd trust in him.

[@claudiasmith039]

Omg, ive seen this cloud as well when i was young. Wow, i cant believe someone experienced this as well. Thanks for sharing this content.

[@gerofiore9695]

No way, can you pls tell me what you saw, if there where any colors and did other ppl see it, tell me anything as I've never met a person who has seen this before, thanks Claudia

[@thegeezerrr2042]

Hi Gerald.. James here.. Nice to meet you.. I caught your channel by chance, you look like a really nice guy, so I'm bindge watching you videos, gone right back to the start..you have great spirit my friend.. Regards. JAMES.. Bristol

[@Saltwater.Angling.Ireland]

I hear you bud, hold on. Life will get better. Ive gone through similar struggles. I tried going to church and started reading a bible and it has actually helped me alot. If you dont already it may be a good shout to try seeking him (Jesus). Also the community of people are really friendly at churches. I also find making more time for my hobbies like fishing helped me clear my head, now I am not sure what will help you specifically but you could also try joining a fishing club? I am not great with advice, but I wanted to comment to show you I and others hear you and support you.

[@FourthDimensionalHillBilly]

Much love buddy. You’re not alone I promise.

[@Lua658]

Thank you for uploading... I have a similar experience, since early childhood when I got conscious of death I was kind of "traumatized"... I couldn't believe people were living regular lives knowing that they would die one day... I used to think that science would advance in time to avoid my death, but never tried to make an elixir 😅... Time goes on, I'm 45 years old now and I don't believe it will happen... I lost my mom and granny... I miss them every day of my life... I'm single and childfree... I enjoy my life, but it's kind of crazy to think in our situation as human beings, knowing that we will die one day... And we don't know if there's something after death...

[@krsport]

Mate. Your simply starting to listen to yourself. Your being honest and your depression is your motivation to make a change. I'd you don't act on it, you will go crazy. Because you will hate yourself. You need to love yourself and that comes with ownership. Forgive yourself. Move on. Take a risk and start again.

[@SBridge11100]

i am 35 and i actually said this to my parents when i was about 12 and its never left me really. I still went to uni got married ect and do enjoy life but ultimately i know its pointless. I think its quite comforting in a way.

[@pamelafrancis4476]

Life is so ironic. We think we are alone or lonely yet we all share the same thoughts and feelings (in different ways). But we find ways to communicate with each other because we are not meant to be on our own. Echart Tolle went through a very unhappy time then said to himself "I can't live with myself any more", which struck him as strange and meaning there must be two of "us" to think like that. This led to him finding a better life in the present. The past and future do not exist, only what is in the moment.

[@aladinfox4098]

I constantly go around in circles with these kind of thoughts ,its the backdrop to everything, thanks for sharing, I love this kind of musing even though its painful most of the time.

[@私の犬の名前はキムです]

You will find your purpose in the Most High God!!! Your soul is seeking direction in what is your calling. You are awakening!!! Be encouraged!!!❤❤❤❤❤

[@rcg007natbuild3]

KJV read it!

[@yeshuapleaseprotectthechil2150]

I am grateful for everything. The secret is God, The Holy Spirit, Jesus Christ. I am old, but I have been truly blessed my entire life. Life for me is not meaningless. It is wonderful.

[@F15CEAGLE1]

Today is the day of salvation. Romans 10:9-13.🎚️❤️

[@DrunkTranquility]

Heavy metal is also my elixir bro, being a metalhead gives me a youthful energy and that makes me look at least 15 years younger. 🤘🤘🤘

[@ERNIE555]

Here is one more crazy 56year old…and I feel the same and that this world is completely bonkers

[@gerofiore9695]

Whats your nuttiness?

[@AllSeasons-nf6cl]

I'm a 49 year old housemaid and just started discovering amazing ways to live life which I've known on my own since childhood in that what matters is how you 'think' and not afraid of death.

[@francislee7770]

I just discovered your channel. I was glued to this video because your serious demeanor, crazy topics were captivating. Just subscribed. Keep making contents mate!

[@gerofiore9695]

Thanks and welcome francis

[@vinniedurrant]

We as a culture tend to be too fixated on our exterior circumstances, enjoying life is a fine art, forget the past and the future and find that feeling within yourself that you had when you was young. It's still there as it is not subject to change through time, we have just forgotten what the music of life sounds like.

[@brandonlee7382]

True we forgotten what keeps us entertained and what led us to this point. When you look back at life it feels like you only remember a handful of things and all the days feel like a blur and gaps in memory.

[@UnitedWeStandFreedom]

It's the system brother. I feel the same way , can't afford anything no matter how much we work can't get ahead we want kids but can't afford to ! We can't buy a house live in peace everything is just a sad story these days and it's so disappointing. It feels like everything around you just wants to take away your happiness. Much love to you my brother i hope things get better for us all there's just to much disappointment these days . 😢