What It's Actually Like Living With OCD

It's #MentalHealthAwarenessMonth and Rachel ( / rachelgaewski ) opens up about her experience living with OCD.
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[@BrownGeorge-pw2xo]

I suffered OCD 18 years ago as a teenage. Spent my whole life fighting OCD. Also suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.

[@Qing__001]

Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.

[@Malikrooney-hq5jj]

Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Australia. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them

[@SusanaGomez-mp8sk]

YES very sure of Dr.benfungi. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.

[@DonnHowes]

100% agree I used to have Psychosis and paranoid thoughts like "people thinking about me talking about me etc. Very odd behavior after getting off Adderall from 7-16. Antidepressants at 18-29. 31 now. I took way to much, but took about 20g of Gold caps (Psilocybin containing mushroom) I analyzed my entire life. The emotions that came out helped me understand behavior etc more. Wont ever need to do it again because I'm happy and contempt forever, but I wish more people did this to alter their perception of reality. Would help with healing much trauma

[@EthanEdward-wx7ut]

How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta

[@heart_goes_doki_doki]

it's painful to hear people saying that ocd is just being organised. it's not. so many people have life threatening moments in their life due to their ocd.

[@ashley-sv4lo]

i didn’t know Rachael had OCD

[@Hello-fj2tz]

@@ashley-sv4lo same!

[@pruncle9421]

They should just stop then

[@anlu3365]

Life threatening?Like what?

[@jakewood6369]

Exactly. It's strange to think that after many years. You don't notice things until someone else explains it

[@melzordtv]

People who talk openly about their mental health are so brave. Sending lots of love 🤍

[@nitzanalmog]

Its actually not a mental illness, its a type of anxiety disorder - which is a mood disorder

[@melzordtv]

@@nitzanalmog oh thank you for saying that! english is not my native language and in my native language we don’t have separate words for “disorder” and “illness”. i always get confused, my apologies haha

[@hellokitgurl4life]

I agree! OCD is in fact a mental disorder as it impacts the quality of life of a person. :)

[@Backenhandle]

Brave? Like the movie? If you want to talk about bravery, why don't you go serve in your country's war.

[@hyungwonsunusedmicrophone6490]

@@Backenhandle what are you a troll? A bot? Like stop you don’t gotta be so rude mental and emotional health isn’t less important as physical, also btw my country don’t got war rn

[@MerleONeal]

Rachel, you are quite simply the best. I learned a lot from this, so proud of you for helping others feel less alone. I LOVE YOU, DEAR FRIEND

[@tessayasmine3673]

Awhh such a cute friendship, and I agree!!🥰

[@rmg468]

I LOVE YOU!!!

[@carolnahigian9518]

I work with an OCD CRITIC( she is exhausting) and She corrects OUR SUOERVISOR 8 hr acday - TEDIOUS

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[@shayladaw7791]

There are so many misconceptions about OCD I constantly hear "You're so lucky to be so organized! I bet your house is immaculate!" So content like this is very helpful in educating our loved ones! Thank you for sharing

[@turnipswillneverhurtyou3934]

Its strange because things like hoarding have also been linked to OCD so while some people do clean and organize, theres a whole other side to what OCD can cause. This is why mental health education is so important, it's straight up harmful to associate this disorder with not only positivity but only one of many different types.

[@shayladaw7791]

I really enjoyed how she spoke to how exhausting it was and how most of the ticks were to prevent whatever the intrusive thought was from coming to fruition. I honestly thought for years (before receiving the diagnosis) that everyone would think things like "If I don't line up the towels someone will die" "If I wear this dress there will be an accident" "Someone will break into my house if the pillows aren't set up correctly" Information is power! Keep spreading the word on mental health.

[@Amy_the_Lizard]

Right? I mention having OCD when I think it's relevant (usually in the process of explaining why I'm doing something weird, or why they might see me do something weird in the future,) so I've had people that live on the same floor of my dorm react with surprise when they see the pile of anarchy that is my desk because they assumed I must be SUPER organized because I have OCD. Then I have to explain that no, I just obsess over contamination, count things, and occasionally get an unpleasant intrusive thought stuck in my head on a loop. None of which makes anything more organized - it just means I have separate areas for dirty or clean piles of notes and assorted random things.

[@renatus20058]

I don't have OCD but I do feel like I have symptoms of it. And honestly, I do agree with you. OCD is not always about organizing your stuff, and I used to think of OCD like that before, but I started learning more of it and I realized it's actually more than that. For me personally, I don't have that as my symptoms. I'm okay with having my bedroom messy for example, or seeing things not in perfect order (Sometimes I do, but it's not the most problematic part for me). Instead, I'm more of a superstitious person, and I do the same thing she does, such as having to touch objects multiple times and doing things repeatedly or something bad will happen. This is not the only thing about my symptoms though. There's actually more symptoms I didn't mention. But I'm just gonna stick to this for now. Either way, I know I shouldn't self-diagnose, and that's why I'm looking for a psychologist soon. Nonetheless, I hope I don't have OCD, or even if I do, I hope I can get over it soon. I might be optimistic now, but I can start having negative thoughts later on. That's also another problematic thing for me. But I will get over it, or at least cope with it, I guess. Edit: Also, thanks for writing this comment. I've always been scared of sharing this thing about my mental health to other people. Have a nice day!

[@kittycat4746]

@@renatus20058 Same with me. Maybe for us, our symptoms are not enough to be diagnosed with OCD but we'll be lying if we say we don't have any mental inhibitions. My whole life I have struggled with washing my hands constantly until it's dry and I have rules about things. Dirty books can't touch clean books. Dirty clothes can't touch clean clothes. My friends can't jump on my bed because that is dirty. As a child I couldn't touch my stuffed animals too much in case they get dirty and I couldn't squeeze them like other kids because that would change its shape and I can't stand that. I remember in preschool I watched a girl put plastic food toys from the toy kitchen in her mouth and I was really grossed out by it!!! Dressing modestly is also kind of my obsession since I need to make sure the clothes have the right colors, are long enough, and don't show cleavage but are still in fashion. I always take a long time to get dressed. Those are just a few rules; I have more. My whole life people have called me a prude and because of my "rules", I have been distanced from other people and I couldn't make friends. People always get annoyed with me and tell me to "get over it" but I have actually been like this my whole life.

[@ocdandanxiety]

OCD is so so difficult to handle. Thank you for bringing light into something that can fee so dark. 💜

[@mousinha428]

I hope you find your light in the darkness. Wishing you the best....🩷🩷

[@johannapenry4512]

I've never seen such an authentic description of this experience. So proud to call you my friend Rachel

[@rmg468]

Love you jojo ❤️

[@cocofatso4933]

Thank you for sharing , your so brave

[@glowblank17]

@@rmg468, *Damn, you sure are a lil’ CUTIE 😍! May I PLEASE make direct payments towards your college tuition/student loans (Soon-To-Be Dr.) 😩?*

[@carolnahigian9518]

ezhausting

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[@LibbyRoseITM]

I told a friend today that I have OCD and they said "I wish I had that, I'd love to have a clean house.". It's incredibly frustrating to hear that from someone. They wouldn't call it a mental health disorder if it didn't negatively impact your life in some way.

[@he11o_life]

Omg.

[@abhilasha5428]

You can't blame people who don't know the issue as well as the people who go through it. Awareness is important. Maybe you should try to not judge their reaction, just the way you wouldn't want them to judge you for your issues.

[@LibbyRoseITM]

@@abhilasha5428 yep, I don't blame them. You can't know about every mental health disorder in existence. But it was still really hard to hear.

[@abhilasha5428]

@@LibbyRoseITM Yea, life is just unfair, big time! Hard fact.

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[@kings98124]

When she said OCD is exhausting, I totally felt that. And true, OCD is not limited to people wanting things clean and organized all the time; they can come in different form. My OCD developed when I was at work. I just suddenly found myself double checking things like crazy. I will count the money left in my cash box multiple times (and I mean, MULTIPLE TIMES). I would double check the items I segregated multiple times. Double check everything before I leave the branch multiple times. If I wont I will have extreme anxiety. It can be very time consuming that would finish late at work and go home very exhausted physically and mentally because of it. Living in a country were mental heath disorders are not something being taken seriously and being shrugged off makes it hard for me to explain myself to people or made it hard for people to understand me as well and makes it even harder for I cannot get help.

[@tanubts1328]

I had ocd from the age of four and i know how it feel so cheer up

[@terabaap1775]

Same dear. I am a student and feel the urge to check if my mic is off in online classes at least 3 times and if I don't, I feel really anxious about it. Forget it, I even feel the urge to do things in the multiples of 3 or in odd numbers. It's really exhausting, you see.

[@anne-laure6341]

@viena-lara sorry to hear you are struggling, hope you can find resources to help you online - in case it can help Kimberley Quinlan's online "ERP School", Nathan Petersen's online courses, Mark Freeman's KZbin and Twitch videos or Ali Greymond's KZbin videos might help :) there is also the NOCD app where you can find support :)

[@kings98124]

@@anne-laure6341 thank you very much.

[@hollybelleorchid1350]

O.C.D. and another disorder I have... {if someone says that word or quote a lot then it gets quite annoying. Example: "Multiple Times"

[@whyhihigh]

I’m not gonna self-diagnose, but most of these things she’s mentioning are habits I currently have. It’s like forced actions

[@Emily-zr8el]

Self diagnosis is okay! As long as you do your research. Professional diagnosis is a big privilege, and actually always starts with a self diagnosis! My OCD started with me diagnosing myself too. Definitely seek a professional if you have access though! 💗💗

[@brittanymena8831]

@@Emily-zr8el what??? it's not okay. and what's the obsession with getting a diagnose? why would you want so bad to get a label about something that you don't certainly know you have, why do you need that label????? just look for things that can help you, you don't need to label yourself

[@WordBondage]

@@brittanymena8831 That is a very privileged take because getting a diagnosis is not attainable for everyone and a label does help both understanding what is going on and managing it. When done properly self diagnosis helps. Do not judge situations you don't know.

[@brittanymena8831]

@@WordBondage it's not a privilege thing, all i'm saying is that you don't need a diagnosis to know that something's wrong, you can evolve by doing things that you find helpful for your situation, but you don't need a diagnosis for that!! diagnosis can only be made by professionals, if you self diagnose there are many possibilities that you're suffering from another thing and not from what you think it is. i think it's kinda immature tbh

[@daisymae5952]

@@brittanymena8831 some people don't live in a situation where they can support themselves with finding things that just feel right. sometimes that's to hard and that's okay. people who self diagnose have to be carefull because excactly, they can do that wrongly, but please don't judge other people on getting a diagnose.

[@Louisiana666]

“It’s like I’m trying to make it harder for myself” hit the nail on the head, girl 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻 I’m struggling lately and this has helped to make me feel more ‘normal’ so thank you for this

[@melonade1798]

Same bro

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[@Chiller-pc1dv]

@@IBRAHIM_990_SUBSCRIBE Please stop spamming.

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@@Chiller-pc1dv it helped me really. and excercise also helps.

[@jessicainthekitchen-veganr963]

So proud of Rachel and grateful to her for sharing about this. I was diagnosed with a type of OCD known as pure O. It's exhausting to live with, but therapy and just being able to give it a name and identify when it's happening has helped so much. ❤️ Sending so much love to anyone suffering from/with a mental illness.

[@malv4935]

I too have Pure O OCD - struggled with it for 8 years. Dr Jeffrey Schwartz's book 'Brain Lock' saved my life. Sending strength and love to you!

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[@rrrahmdni]

One of my friend has OCD. Her's is about cleanliness. Not for things, but for her body. She would takes hours just for taking a bath. When the pandemic hit, she rub her skin until it's raw. Thank God she got a bit better now.

[@riverwing7497]

I hope your friend is okay.

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[@anjaliR02]

That's called contamination OCD and I am also dealing with it. It's exhausting.

[@inimene6]

I started crying because of how much I can relate. I haven't been diagnosed with OCD, but I think I might have it. I'm a perfectionist, but I feel like it's more serious than that. I have to do everything perfectly, otherwise I just can't feel good. My mom and brother often do exactly what they know I can't stand and it causes me so much stress. I start shaking and crying and my voice starts shaking too. It could take me hours to do something so simple like putting things on the table. I have to do things over and over agin until it feels perfect enough. It takes me forever to do my homework. I've had problem with washing hands, making sure the door is closed, overthinking, bad thoughts about my mom dying and rereading. I just didn't realise it until now.

[@Ritaaw1]

I have intrusive thoughts. I’ve had them so long it feels normal but this is a reminder for me that it isn’t

[@anamont4490]

Remember intrusive thoughts can be an anxiety thing too, and maybe other mental illnesses, sadly the main way to avoid them is trying to ignore them, or acknowledge they’re just thoughts

[@Wra8h]

Everyone has intrusive thoughts. People with anxiety can have them without having OCD People tend to overlook the C and D in OCD. Disorder means that it lasts for a long time/frequent in a debilitating manner, and compulsions are urges that feel out of your control to make you feel less anxious immediately but worsen things quickly. Hope you take care of yourself and get any help you need!

[@sawyer0815]

Please get help from a licensed therapist. This can be very dangerous for you and others

[@antoniav4133]

Intrusive thoughts are pretty normal I believe. Everyone gets these. But it can be a part of a disorder or become very concerning depending on how frequent and intense you experience them. And of course whether you suffer from them/ they impact your everyday life and functioning in a substantial way. If so, I would recommend seeking guidance from a professional like your GP or a psychologist! :)

[@Kaylee2012]

90% of people have intrusive thoughts but not everyone has Pure O.

[@oregonquadskater5157]

"I'm spending hours upon hours of my life touching and counting, so that bad things don't happen.... but really the worst thing is that I'm just wasting my life". It's 1:26 am, my wife and daughter are in the house asleep, I'm sitting in the garage with tears streaming down my face, reflecting on the mass amount of life I have wasted with OCD..... I can't waste anymore of this life. Truly thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

[@QueenCake]

Before covid, I went to the children's mental hospital and they basically told me I couldn't wash my hands so much and helped me somewhat resist the urge and then like 2 weeks after, covid hit and people said I need to constantly wash my hands. 🙂

[@ashtamarie7561]

I saw a van advertising for a cleaning company called “Outstanding Cleaning Delivery, Let our OCD do the cleaning for you!” And it made me so mad!! There’s such a stigma about OCD, it’s 2021 stop it.

[@y4rwnnnnnnnn]

I have OCD and my room is an absolute garbage so their company might not be that good after all...😬😬

[@benskywalker7]

@@y4rwnnnnnnnn same! I hate the stigma

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[@thesouthishot5234]

It makes me sound organized so idc 😏

[@valeriapacheco4983]

thank you for sharing this, i’ve been having ocd symptoms since i was 12, i’m 19 now and i haven’t had the guts to talk about it with my parents, but i know i need therapy, this video encourages me to talk about it.

[@miss.random2235]

Ik I started to have ocd since I was 9 I am 13 now and I only realised that it was a disorder I used to think it was only me doing illogical things you should try telling them and get medication asap

[@PRDreams]

Ask them "Can we sit down and watch a video together?" Then put this video. Your name indicates to me Hispanic origins. Hopefully, they can understand the video - but if they do not - a way to pull in the conversation is to watch the video near them so that they ask you "what are you watching, mija?" and then you can begin the conversation by showing them the video and explaining to them the similarities between her experiences and yours. I too struggled in silence as a child with OCD. Mine started around the age of six. I still struggle to this day - almost 40 years later - but I have gone to therapy and even got on medication in the past. I no longer rely on either because I've become more comfortable with resisting the urge to do specific things, but if I ever feel that I'm not sleeping again because I MUST do X, Y and Z over and over again before going to sleep, I will get on therapy and medication once more. I didn't mention my specific compulsion on purpose because at times I get triggered and I'm trying not to do that to you. Estoy aquí in case you need me, hermanita.

[@valeriapacheco4983]

@@PRDreams this is such a beautiful and comforting comment, thank you very much for these beautiful word of encouragement and information, i’m here too hermana

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[@PRDreams]

Last night I had a silent win. I was able to stay in bed even when I wanted with all my might and open the windows* in my room "just right". I was even able to fall asleep eventually. It feels great. ...Even if when I woke up I open my windows "just right", I take that small silent win. Thanks for opening up.

[@sawyer0815]

???

[@andreiz112dn5]

Resist the Compulsion.

[@Wra8h]

OCD representation!! I teared up hearing about all of the struggles. OCD is so misunderstood and minimalized. Not only are compulsions so debilitating and take away from you, taboo obsessions especially can destroy your self-image and fill with so much shame that you slowly forget who you are and sink in self-loath. Thank you for sharing your experience.

[@DarthFurie]

Yes. I've had taboo obsessions and violent intrusive thoughts about hurting vulnerable populations of people (don't wanna get too specific because of how taboo my obsession really was/is), but I was helped a lot by exposure therapy from a qualified OCD therapist who understood that I was suffering from an anxiety disorder and was NOT the type of person my obsession was telling me I was. At a certain point I couldn't go outside and planned my life to be homebound, now I can go out in the real world and have a job and stuff, when the thoughts pop up (a lot less now) I can manage it better. It's a crippling illness for sure. I hope you're doing okay ❤

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[@Tvshownerd3]

Finally someone said it right. I’m tired of people fancying OCD like it’s a cool thing... Thanks

[@lailakamaldien3237]

You just described how I have been feeling my entire life..

[@ksy1111]

This is probably the best video on OCD I've seen. Straight to the point and incredibly relatable

[@Nepomniachtchi_Austin]

The having to do something "or else" is a very real and very intrusive thought to have. I almost certainly have a form of untreated ocd after relating to what she said about her childhood. I always have to have the TV volume at 7, 9, 11 or 13, or it feels like something bad will happen. Whenever going somewhere in the house, I always feel the need to take 2 or 4 steps in certain places in certain parts of the house. I also feel the need to pick up and put down certain things 3 times before using an item. It is incredibly annoying having menial thoughts like that, and you can't help but have to oblige them. It really sucks.

[@this_mundane_life]

Oh God the rereading thing is so real! I'm an avid reader and whenever I'm anxious I keep on rereading the same thing over and over and over that I get exhausted

[@Wra8h]

I wanted to add that having intrusive thoughts is normal, being slightly anxious about them is normal. What is not normal is an existing pattern of urges to do something about them (compulsions) and them not leaving (being a disorder)

[@sheamagnus6826]

I recently got diagnosed with OCD, but upon further inspection I have shown symptoms of it throughout most of my childhood. I found your perspective really relatable. Thank you.

[@DarthFurie]

Same here. Wasn't diagnosed until I started having debilitating intrusive thoughts around an obsessive theme last year, but have had symptoms since age 3/4 at least. Hope you're doing okay

[@benskywalker7]

Same except I had to self diagnose it after going to therapy for anxiety and depression for almost 10 years! A few months before I found out I had OCD I stopped going to therapy and taking the medicine because I realized it wasn’t helping me anymore. My OCD is very similar to Rachel’s

[@cherry21_]

it's crazy how I relate to every single word she says. I hate ocd makes me wanna die and not get up

[@rachelbaltimore5259]

While I do not have OCD, I work on a neurology unit at a hospital. I've had patients with OCD, and this helps me understand what they deal with on a daily basis more. Thank you for sharing this!

[@blueXRPdynamite.]

Think yourself blessed. Torture of the mind you can't escape from...

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[@Princy_K]

I have OCD, and I honestly hate it when ppl refer it as being organized. It's not. It's not only that there's other things to it. And I'm very afraid of germs like if someone's sitting to close to me or talking way to close at my face or maybe I touch a stain and I start to have anxiety. Some times I feel mad because some ppl on TikTok fakes OCD and plus they don't know what it means. When I was younger I was scared to tell some kids that I had OCD bc I felt that they was going to judge me on why I don't like eating around people in public rather alone

[@littleearthquakes3183]

I have OCD. Most of my compulsions are mental. I have utilized ERP and Acceptance commitment therapy and I am mostly well these days but there were definitely some very difficult times when I would ruminate for months looking for certainty. Thank you for sharing your story. I get so frustrated when people say they are so OCD just because they are clean. It's nice when people are willing to share their struggles.

[@paulagabriela3261]

It’s scary cause that’s literally me, but I never thought that was considered OCD.

[@avataylor6790]

I think everyone has ocd tendencies to a certain degree but if u find them interfering with your everyday life maybe try combating them before it gets worse, lots of people have OCD and don't even realize, its normal just not talked about. so many people have these tendencies and don’t even know it’s OCD ur not alone

[@Peachkiks]

@@avataylor6790 are you aware of how incredibly ignorant you’re sounding saying “everyone has ocd to a certain degree”? No not everyone has ocd, but yes we’re many who are suffering from it.

[@meow6199]

@@avataylor6790 OCD is an actual psychiatric diagnosis. People take the term lightly because they think it's "just a behavioral quirk that everyone has" but no, not everyone "has OCD to a certain degree."

[@avataylor6790]

@@Peachkiks @wildgrass I actually had severe OCD so I know what I'm talking about, I meant to say lots of people have OCD tendencies. I worded that wrong. I was just trying to help the person who commented. There’s no need to be rude..

[@meow6199]

@@avataylor6790 Rude? You're welcome.

[@alicestewert8552]

I’m not exactly sure when my OCD started, I want to say around 7 or 8 years old. When I grew up, I was so nervous about telling someone I was dating that I have OCD since it can look a little strange to someone who isn’t familiar 😕

[@Ho-mb2wb]

How old were you?

[@dr_himshikha]

It is extremely exhausting. The vicious cycle of procrastination perfectionism that comes with it - feels like it'll bury me someday.

[@iamnehalibhagat]

This made me cry... But in a good way!! I've struggled with anxiety and I have a obsessive nature too. It becomes really difficult at times to convey my feelings or I might even be sure what I feel or how I feel... The constant need to have everything organized so I feel some sort of control over my thoughts and emotions. Learning slowly to accept who I am, because now matter anxiety or obsessive compulsion to manage everything, I cannot do everything perfect. And that's okay... Learning to talk about it with people I trust. And learning to let go a little one day at a time!!! Thanks for sharing the story!! 😊😊😊

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[@G89178]

Thank you for sharing this. More people need to understand the daily battle of living with OCD, no matter how "functional" you may seem on the outside. I applaud you for being so open, and hope that this reaches all those who scoff off OCD as just the laughable "disorder" they saw on the tv show Monk.

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[@bagguetteb]

only about one and a half minutes in and soooooooo relatable. I haven’t been diagnosed, but also every example of OCD I have seen, I can relate to. to anyone struggling with OCD, or anything, you can do anything, I believe in you! ☺️🌸✨✨😂😊

[@oliviagorhamsiegler9848]

This is so relatable. You’re so brave, thanks for sharing this 💙

[@avataylor6790]

Thank you for making this video❤️ helping others educate themselves and those who have it feel less alone

[@Hello-fj2tz]

Thank you thank you! Everybody always says “I have OCD because I have to be so organized” it gets really annoying. People just thinks it’s all about the same thing BUT ITS NOT! Thank you for clarifying this!

[@rabiapirani6965]

you're amazing rachel! thank you so much for all the content you produce

[@sarvaepc]

This is the video that cleared my doubts about what this weird thing I was doing, and now I found my answer.

[@kaylamedina3783]

As someone with OCD, thank you so much for spreading awareness. I know this couldn't have been easy 💕

[@IBRAHIM_990_SUBSCRIBE]

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[@aaliyahhayes8702]

Thank you for reassuring us with OCD who aren’t super clean feel valid. 💜 I have body focused OCD. I obsessively pick at my skin and it’s followed by intrusive thoughts. After, it’s followed but guilt. Thank you for sharing your story, it has encouraged me to seek help ☺️

[@jessicainthekitchen-veganr963]

❤️❤️❤️

[@roboticrachel3331]

Hey Jesus loves you, and hes there for you, he understands everything your going through, please reach out for him to help ans save you. God continues to help me through this life and i know he can help you too 🥺. Also no im not writing this as sone silly ad. Im being honest

[@barbaragarcia5754]

You are so brave and generous to share this about yourself. I’m a huge fan of your videos and have tried several of the recipes. Thank you for educating so many of us who know so little about OCD.

[@ANNtique]

This video (along with other similar ones openly talking about mental health challenges) will help so many people.

[@Twinkles817]

This was absolutely amazing. Thank you for sharing and reminding us that we are ok and not alone

[@khushitekwani6155]

I really appreciate your efforts in recording it all and coming out about it to such a large audience. YOU DID GREAT YOU HAVE GROWN SO MUCH. you had an incredible journey. not being able to tell best friend to put it out on youtube that's some really really good progress. Thank you so much, It helped me to know so much about the disorder. SUPER PROUD OF YOU GIRL

[@rebeccarr846]

I’m so glad you’re opening yourself up about this mental illness. I’ve suffered from it since a very very young age, as long as I can remember. I’m now 17 and only started seeing a psychiatrist last week. Thank you again, I can relate with all that you’ve said. It *is* so tiring.

[@luisinaviera781]

Thank you so much, Rachel. Sharing this experience not only helps to put the word out there that as well as OCD, many other mental contidions are not what they're made of in society, but also brings awareness about the importance in engaging in mental health treatments in order to live a more satisfactory life. Sending you a big hug from Argentina.

[@meghan369]

Thank you so much for sharing this, accurate representations of OCD makes me feel less alone, and more understood!

[@fevernight123]

I'll always remember not wearing a favorite shirt I liked because I once had a very bad panic attack and I thought the shirt was bad luck and didn't wear it for months because I feared that if i wore it again I would have another panic attack... So I understand the bad luck shirt thing

[@Nicolinax]

Thank you for sharing your story with us Rachel ❤️

[@raphaelsylla876]

I'm glad I see this from Rachael. And I'm glad that you shared this to everyone on the internet. I wannna give you TONS of hugs! My best friend also has clinically diagnosed OCD and he had this since we were kids and I met him way back in kindergarten. He also reaches out to me for reassurance and I will never get tired of it! He's a grown married man and has 3 kids and a lovely, very caring wife whom she also accepted his condition. He sought therapy a long long time ago and it had been manageable.

[@sapphicalix]

OCD is so hard, thank you for raising awareness for all of us living with it Rachel 💛

[@marianovaes5391]

Hey, i have ocd too! Im really proud of you, i know that can be so hard for us. Thank you for your courage to spread information about that!

[@megan55121]

This is an excellent video, thank you for making it and taking the time to educate people!

[@dorisbanana3467]

Thank you for opening up to us! It's so important that people see what OCD can look like and not, how people usually use it, as a synonyme for someone who likes straight lines.

[@ruriotgirl]

Since starting to tell more people I have OCD I've been looking for a video that can just summarise a similar experience of it to mine and this was really relatable. Thank you for being brave enough to share this ❤️

[@celiasaiz3786]

I'm soooo thankful for this video. Seriously. When you talked about the rereading I started sobbing because that happens to me too and it's so frustrating. So when you said you read 6 books in 2020 I was cheering you!!! That's awesome!!! I really understand how debilitating it can be when you want to read and it gets so tiring that you just want to stop forever so, congrats on that 6 books!!! That's a lot!! I've been thinking I migh have OCD and I started to think about it because of how much time of my life rereading conssumes (and how much energy). It feels a little scary but I also feel a lot less alone knowing that I'm not the only one rereading and that it has kind of a reason... And videos like this are really helpful!! I hope you know that, I want to thank you for sharing your experience :)

[@MaxenceLasserreEngberts]

Thank you so much and congratulations for making such an informative and eye-opening video!

[@erinm6684]

This is me. My compulsions are different and have ebbed and flowed in their intensity over the years. I feel so seen with this video... Thank you 💜

[@delaniepreston3249]

I think it’s so amazing that you made a video like this. I was diagnosed with OCD in November of 2020, and it completely turned my world upside down. Now in June and thanks to the support of my family and friends, NOCD and people like you I feel like I have a much better grasp on my OCD, my triggers and just how important taking a step back from the business of life for the benefit of your mental health. Thanks again for sharing, and keep fighting! ❤️❤️

[@justinetanada4929]

This is so informative, thank you for this video. I really appreciate you opening up about thisss. Im sure this will help so so many people ❤❤❤

[@juansebastiansanchezlopez9312]

I am so incredibly surprised of how good you described it! You are incredibly accurate in the explanation

[@casidytims3844]

This is the best video I've ever seen describing OCD. The entire world needs to see this. Thank you so much for sharing. Nobody has ever put it so well.

[@oliviafuertes5255]

As a person that is struggling with OCD, this is very true. Thank you Rachel

[@jamie6639]

I'm so sorry you have suffered & are suffering from OCD. I have a very different set of OCD subtypes from you. And like you said, it takes away so much time, energy, and happiness from your life. This video was a very good explanation of what it's like to have OCD. Thank you for this video!

[@innercitypirates]

I do everything you do, it's totally exhausting. Thank you for making me feel not so alone. You're so brave. I suffer every day and self medicating has been my only release. Thank you for your honesty. I write music for TV and adverts, I totally have the same problem when editing. You're amazing, thank you

[@keniaherrera6008]

Thank you for sharing your experience with OCD. I have a sensory disorder and I felt like I related to a lot of your feelings that you had while growing up where you tried to hide it from others. Thank you 💕

[@louisa7034]

made me cry hearing this because ive never had anyone understand it and she said everything ive ever felt and i just felt so understood

[@rossmartenak5517]

Rachel ...you are not alone. Thank you for sharing your insight & be well!

[@linalinazzz644]

Thank u for being brave and showing this to us! We love and support u 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

[@elkebradshaw2274]

Thank you for doing this video its very brave and inspirational. I got a little bit teary eyed watching it just knowing that other people are like me who have it. It has encouraged me to ask for help so i can live my life alot easier.

[@timijosephariyo]

Watching this video has been so healing, its great to see someone else talking about their issues so openly and bravely. I have alot of the things you mentioned - such as not being able to read, re-typing/re-reading (especially when stressed or nervous), have to re-arrange things a certain way, touching things and others. At times i've felt weird and alone, but its nice to be reminded that others are going through what I am, and that I am not alone. Sending love to everyone dealing with OCD!

[@silverhiker4549]

I have pretty bad ocd as well and the pandemic f'd me up too. I'm so sorry you have to fight this too. I'm really grateful that you made this video and I appreciate your vulnerability. As a fellow ocd-er, I love you and hope you have a million easier days.💚

[@smilingeva]

This is so relatable! Thank you so much for sharing, people often think OCD is just washing your hands a lot but this video explains a lot more what it feels like for me:)

[@kiwifeijoa]

Clearly is helpful to hear about OCD from someone like yourself, who deals with it daily. Great to have everyone realize the really diverse ways we all exist, rather than cookie cutter lives. Nice one.

[@nikitadonley5990]

Thank you for putting yourself out there for the sake of others. I do not have OCD but PTSD and severe Anxiety and as an adult I stopped trying to hide that. Yes, some people think I'm being dramatic but just living 100% honestly with myself has been incredible. Just like you. 💜

[@katherinekrueger1908]

Ive been struggling with my ocd recently. I needed this video. Thank you.

[@ingeevers3216]

Thank you so much for making this video, its so relatable ❤ I struggle with OCD for way to long and it encourage me to take action.

[@Court1021]

My OCD also began when I was young - around 10, though I didn’t get diagnosed until college, as the difficulty reading and rereading made it apparent that something was truly wrong. I related to so many things in this video. It’s also such a hard thing for people not familiar with it to understand. But if you know OCD, your video is such a great example of a real case and how to treat it and move through your day with as much normalcy as possible. Thanks for sharing!

[@Lindamorena]

Proud of you for this 💜

[@oilygrossboy9313]

Rachel you are a FORCE to be reckoned with! Thank you for sharing your story and gifting the world with this video. And that HAIR!!!! 🤩

[@aimeebrown-borges]

Im so glad you're talking about this, i have some of the same compulsive behaviors and it's good to hear I'm not alone.

[@chantelcaprice4119]

It’s great to see people talk about mental illness. I also am diagnosed with OCD. When I was younger and started having OCD symptoms, I thought that I was just crazy and not normal. I would hide it and pretend it didn’t exist because I put a stigma on myself. Now that I’m older, I don’t hide my OCD diagnosis and I talk about it openly.

[@lavenderbee423]

Thank you for this. I had stopped telling people to not describe themselves as OCD at work because it felt like no one would listen, but this video gave me strength and words to try to continue and spread awareness ❤️

[@brendaross9333]

What a great video. TY for being so vulnerable to share this. I found it very educational.

[@DarthFurie]

OCD is worse than anything else I've dealt with, including treatment-resistant depression, bipolar mania, and panic attacks. I have intrusive thoughts with my OCD that are often very violent or morally despicable. I also get intrusive thoughts about the idea of getting germs from other people and it makes my intimate relationship with my husband really hard to navigate sometimes. I did exposure therapy to learn to accept my thoughts and understand that even violent thoughts aren't "proof" that I want to or am going to hurt people. There is a lot of stigma so I don't talk about it much, intrusive thoughts in OCD are very misunderstood. She's very brave to speak out

[@niktour352]

I have intrusive thoughts too.

[@abbyjoanne1279]

You sharing your story will help SO MANY PEOPLE!!! thank you!!!

[@thecraftycreme]

as someone with OCD, thank you. 🤍 this is so important

[@benahlrichs7879]

it's so amazing to see this video pop up on my home page because for almost two years i struggled alone with ocd simply because i thought i was communicating with ghosts or had something whispering signs into my thoughts. now i know i have ocd and have been diagnosed but i still feel so alone and terrified to talk about it because it seems like a joke and no one believes me. it is so painful to wake up everyday in fear that i will struggle with ocd forever, but videos like this make me feel seen, i hope it gets bette.r

[@vitorialima4115]

GOD DAMNNNNNNN i wont take long reading this bc im crying but i have severe ocd and because of family negligence i was only diagnosed at 16 y.o even though in therapy i had shown symptoms since about 7. this video was SO PRECISE. thank you SO MUCH im not even kidding how helpful this is. despite the fact that the medication you're on almost killed me and it doesnt work for me (which is also alright because people have different bodies and some medication dont work for all of us!!) there was nothing else i couldnt fully understand. my heart goes out to everyone living with this. we're not alone

[@lucymziri1130]

This is such a good video. It is so real. Thank you Rachel.

[@jenniferwong4530]

Thank you so much for sharing and be so open to discuss OCD. It's so helpful.

[@emmaalbrow9697]

Thank you for your honest account. It’s brave to be vulnerable

[@alekmikate]

Thank you for the explanation. I've been diagnosted w OCD just two years ago, however when I think about it, I had it long before that, maybe since 6 years old. I've sent this video to my friends to help them understand me. Thank you so much! It means a lot to know I am not.... "crazy".

[@kathleenbefittwell8179]

Thank you so much for sharing! I identify with this immensely.

[@Roxanna.wez5671]

Thank you for sharing your experiences. I hope it helps other people 💕