What It's Like Going Through Chemotherapy: Three Rounds Down!

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A lot of people ask me how I’m doing. It’s hard to answer that question, especially now that I am going through chemotherapy. There are so many ups and downs.
I’ve had three rounds of chemo now, and I have three more rounds to go. It feels weird to be halfway through, but it also feels like I’m not REALLY halfway through anything at all. We don’t know what lies next. Heck, at this point, we don’t even know if the chemo is working.
So yes, I’m halfway through the six chemotherapy sessions we have planned, but there’s still a LONG road ahead.
Every three weeks, I get a three hour infusion of Paclitaxel and 30 minutes of Carboplatin. The process takes about five to six hours altogether. Honestly, the infusion itself isn’t the part I dread. It’s the days after, as the fatigue and achiness take over my body, that I can never seem to prepare myself for.
For today’s video, I wanted to share with you the process of going through chemo. It’s usually not a super dramatic process for me… I go in, get my blood checked, meet with the doctors, get my infusion, go home… and wait for the side effects to kick in. I try to enjoy any small moments I can before I just don’t feel like doing anything at all.
It feels like a slow, but steady, weakening washing over my entire body. I usually hit a pretty low point mentally just before it starts to lift ever so slightly and the fog begins to clear.
There are many more things I could share about chemotherapy. The video is just a small glimpse, but hopefully it gives you some idea of what I’m going through. As always, let us know if you have questions, and I’ll try to answer them in a future video.
Thank you for the continued encouragement as I face this fight. I may not be able to respond to everyone or read every message, but it does help on those low days to know I’m not doing this alone. ❤️
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[@KrocksInTheKitchen]

You can follow our GoFundMe here for updates: www.gofundme.com/jessicakrock I put together a list of some of the things I used in the video (including the ice packs for my hands and some of the anti-nausea tools): amzn.to/3C5nrjk *PLEASE NOTE: If you choose to purchase anything through this link, we receive a small commission at NO extra cost to you. All proceeds go back into making more content! A lot of people ask me how I’m doing. It’s hard to answer that question, especially now that I am going through chemotherapy. There are so many ups and downs. I’ve had three rounds of chemo now, and I have three more rounds to go. It feels weird to be halfway through, but it also feels like I’m not REALLY halfway through anything at all. We don’t know what lies next. Heck, at this point, we don’t even know if the chemo is working. So yes, I’m halfway through the six chemotherapy sessions we have planned, but there’s still a LONG road ahead. Every three weeks, I get a three hour infusion of Paclitaxel and 30 minutes of Carboplatin. The process takes about five to six hours altogether. Honestly, the infusion itself isn’t the part I dread. It’s the days after, as the fatigue and achiness take over my body, that I can never seem to prepare myself for. For today’s video, I wanted to share with you the process of going through chemo. It’s usually not a super dramatic process for me… I go in, get my blood checked, meet with the doctors, get my infusion, go home… and wait for the side effects to kick in. I try to enjoy any small moments I can before I just don’t feel like doing anything at all. It feels like a slow, but steady, weakening washing over my entire body. I usually hit a pretty low point mentally just before it starts to lift ever so slightly and the fog begins to clear. There are many more things I could share about chemotherapy. The video is just a small glimpse, but hopefully it gives you some idea of what I’m going through. As always, let us know if you have questions, and I’ll try to answer them in a future video. Thank you for the continued encouragement as I face this fight. I may not be able to respond to everyone or read every message, but it does help on those low days to know I’m not doing this alone. ❤

[@lindawalker7494]

Continuing to send good thoughts for you and Brian. Healing prayers 🙏🙏🙏

[@outoftheklosset]

Thank you for sharing this! I wonder what they do with folks like myself who are allergic to the cold. Do they get just an ice pack covered in towels so they feel a slight cooling effect? Or just pump them full of benadryl the entire time?

[@karynahern970]

Continuing sending thoughts and prayers🙏🙏

[@jameswashington6899]

Are there any chemo treatments where you get to stay in the hospital? If necessary, I'll be traveling for two hours to get to where I'm going. I don't have funds for a hotel, or an Airbnb&b

[@KrocksInTheKitchen]

@jameswashington6899 There are some places like the Ronald McDonald House that puts people up, but I don't know their policies. You could also contact the patient help center at Mayo and see if they have any suggestions. If you are traveling with someone, they could drive you home after treatment is done. You will probably be tired from the treatment in the hours after, but it is safe to ride in a vehicle.

[@stephanieinglett8569]

I had cancer in 2002. I had non-hormonal breast cancer. I had a bilateral mastectomy one side was a regular mastectomy the other side was the radical mastectomy. I went through six months of chemo. I'm doing fine. Chemo was no fun but I made it. 20 years cancer free. I am thankful and grateful everyday I wake up. Good luck to you.

[@valeriecarr6116]

So encouraging to hear your cancer free

[@crystalb320]

That is so awesome! Did you make any life style changes? Like exercise everyday or change your diet? I was diagnosed with breast cancer in May. I just completed chemo and am now awaiting bilateral mastectomy surgery in December.

[@wtillett243]

I’ve been through 6 months of chemo. It’s hard , but worth the fight. May the good Lord be with you. Mine was in 1991. I don’t know what your faith journey has been, but I promise you, if you give Jesus a chance, he will fill all those empty places. Much love and empathy.

[@carolinagurl22]

Well said.

[@paulagentile3801]

When I did Chemo 7 years ago, keeping busy helped alot. Reading and helping others even just listening to some of the people around me in the chemo room. All this kept me away from the stinking thinking and on a more positive track. In the end giving all my woes over to God, who I believe is in control of it all anyway, I just kept my eye on the Sparrow, knowing God brings all things, yes ALL things to good to those who love him. Even if it doesn't look like the world's idea of good, God said we are not of this world because we have this faithfilled way of trusting in Him. Love and a hug to you both!! Read the bible about how healings came about, it's facinating

[@francesjuntunen4234]

I beat stage 4 throat cancer ! I pray for strength and peace for you as you fight this battle! God bless you!!

[@suzanne296]

God bless

[@lynnoaks7884]

My surgeon asked me to describe chemo to him. I remember saying, "It is like falling down a long hole and having to claw your way back up each time. You get to the top and then its time for another round." Blessings to you. Crying gets rid of spent cancer cells. That is my view!!

[@kiddoiam]

As a survivor I can promise you... everything you are feeling is normal and it WILL get better. I did 8 cycles. My last one was in March. It felt like if the cancer didn't kill me then the chemo would. It's so hard to see it right now but you will get through this. Your mind, body, and soul is on a journey of its own to heal and protect. You will be amazed at what you can endure when this is over. Life is so fragile yet we are so incredibly strong. Be brave. Feel your emotions, don't ignore them. Let your body do what it needs to do. It's going to be awful but I, and everyone else who has survived, can promise you... you WILL be you again. There is a method to the chemo chaos. Just hold on. You're halfway there.

[@juliawls]

Really powerful words, thank you!

[@kathyandthedogs626]

Survivor here as well. You are so right! It’s a journey like no other!

[@amandalg35]

Hey Jessica!! I'm a cancer survivor as well. I had colon cancer back in 2020, and after surgery I underwent 12 rounds of chemotherapy. It's true that we "forget" how awful chemo is and how it makes us feel. Everything you've described brought me right back. We're waiting for you to join the post-chemo club! You're gonna look back at this time and think *I DID THAT!!!* Sending you hugs for the bad days

[@sayan7390]

Which stage?

[@minnesotagal507]

My final chemo today, will be ringing that bell. Stay strong and you be done !

[@justuschickens10]

🙏💪

[@Anastashya]

👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼💐

[@debbiekeltz-wolk7691]

I've recently finished my 6 chemo treatments and something you said was so important. If you feel something weird let them know. During my 1st treatment with Taxol I had a serious allergic reaction. 10 minutes in I got a pain shoot right up my spine so bad it took my breath away. They stopped the drip and gave me more allergy meds and started again. Another few minutes in I was on the phone to my husband (he wasn't allowed into the hospital due to Covid rules) and I all of the sudden couldn't breath. They stopped treatment again and put me on oxygen and upped the anti-allergy meds again and continued the treatment. Later that night the hives started. I went to the ER but nobody knew what was causing the hives. You could actually see the hives forming all over my body and then the swelling. They sent me home with more anti-allergy meds. Less than 12 hours later I was rush by ambulance to the hospital in heart failure, swollen all over and covered in hives. I was in the hospital for 5 days until I (with way too much time on my hands to research found the problem). Apparently, there is something in Taxol that some people can be allergic to that is rare. The one thing that can save my life I'm allergic to. Anyway, they changed my chemo and I finished out my treatments. I'm now on chemo pills and am in remission. Best of luck for your treatments.

[@sturkfeld]

Jessica, you are doing such a selfless service sharing your experience with others. Keep up the good fight. It will get better. You and Brian are in my prayers.

[@cristincarter1]

I'm 16 months into remission from metastatic colon cancer. It was hard watching this. I went through 17 chemo cycles total and it's really really hard to forget. The crash after chemo is rough but so are the sleepless nights of thinking. The ups and downs are so hard on top of the physical challenges. Hang in there and talk to your doctor about the depression.

[@janhankins911]

Jessica, I haven't had cancer or gone through chemotherapy, but I can certainly identify with your feelings (I was severely injured). I experienced many of the same feelings you describe. Know that others have gone through similar emotions and understand where you're coming from. You're right--be kind to yourself (I wish I was kinder to myself when I was going through all that) and rely on Brian, your puppies, your parents, your friends, and this community to help support you, especially when your emotions are so low and you're so emotionally vulnerable. You are loved and we are all here for you.

[@somedude626]

I’m on the second round of chemo After round 1 they paused round2 for a week Now after round 2 they paused it again for round 3 all due to low white blood cell count Chemo makes you feel like sh#t the nausea is bad but after like 4 days it goes away Please anyone reading this hang in there There hope and good luck to everyone I notice when I don’t feel good I start thinking negative…and on days I feel good I think positive and I’m going to feel better and beat cancer…but hours awake at night my mind wonders into the negative I hate that…thank you for sharing it helps me see someone going thru the same bullsh#t Stay strong everyone there is hope

[@pawshands9706]

Dearest Jessica. There are many C survivors in my family. It is the toughest fight, but the reward is more life. Keep fighting and praying dear. You will conquer this.

[@janc6281]

Dear Jessica, Been through three years of treatments before a successful treatment three years ago. I’ve experienced everything you’re going through. My heart reaches out to you and to your heart. Thank you for sharing your journey and helping so many others. Many prayers to you! ❤ Keep up your spirit and don’t let any doubt creep in! You can see do this!

[@sweingold5686]

I want to say how much I respect and admire you for sharing your cancer and chemo experience with us. It is raw and honest. Sending rainbows of positivity.

[@gloriagross8120]

You will feel differently after chemo is all over. After listening to you, I went back to my journal (which I started keeping midway through my chemo journey. As I read I realized I hardly remember exactly how bad it was. Each chemo treatment caused me more fatigue and more aches and pains as I went along. Yes chemo is a roller coaster. It is boring while you are getting infusions, so I would sleep (thanks to the benedryl), and then I would read a book. I love to read, so that helped. But it had to be light reading--I couldn't handle anything heavy that would help one think. I am praying for you and know that you are tough and that you'll make it through. There will be an end. I've been in remission for ten years. My cancer was Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma.

[@gingertea5006]

Lets face it Jessica - it's a bunch of crap. Sometimes we just need to tell it how it is. All of your feelings are completely valid. I went through breast cancer myself and can identify with how you feel. Sending love and prayers your way - stay strong ❤

[@sacredheart414]

Ah, prayers for you, Dear One. I am one month post chemo, 2 weeks post surgery, and everything you're feeling is spot-on and understandable. I felt lots of that too. The long nights of lying in bed waiting until sleep or the day comes are hard--I wondered about the same kinds of things during those times. I also found it very difficult to describe to others. It's a solitary experience in many ways even if you're surrounded by lots of people who love you. Hang in there, Friend. You are over halfway through. God bless. 💕

[@kathleensouthern7316]

Dearest Jessica:,You are such an inspiration on so many levels. Putting all this out there in such an articulate and honest manner cannot be easy, but I trust you are and will be helping so many others who are/will be facing this journey. Thanks for all you and Brian do AND also a special Shout Out to your amazing husband Brian, a super mensch (as we say in my faith community) and videographer/producer extraordinaire.

[@cincisimons5351]

I love your ice gloves. I just got several ice gloves and ice boots to wear for my chemo that I’m going to start on Friday. I’m gonna wheel it all in an a rolling ice chest. Hoping it keeps Neuropathy away.

[@amym8479]

My son refers to my rehashing the past “what ifs” as “sunk cost” so when I start dwelling on it he says”sunk cost” to redirect on things to look forward to.. it helps me and I thought I’d share this as maybe it might help you too when you have days like that. Sending virtual hugs. You CAN do this!

[@seitanbeatsyourmeat666]

That’s so funny to me because I explained the sunk cost fallacy (I love fallacies, there are so many!) to my son… it’s great you have yours to remind you of the futility of dwelling. Great kid!

[@KW-dp5py]

I'm a nurse and I've had many surgical patients with nausea and (believe it or not) sniffing alcohol pads is very helpful for them. It's easy enough for you to try. You have a wonderful attitude and I'm certain your clean diet will help tremendously! Best wishes!!

[@denasmolins5938]

I have a friend who went through chemo and she said a puff of pot totally eased the knot in her stomach. This is an older woman who doesn’t smoke pot but she tried everything to ease the nausea. Medical marijuana is legal but not certain about your state. Sending positive vibes and just do what you are doing, feeling the feels and being easy on yourself. Much love to you both.

[@janyrose]

Jessica, i'm right there with you. Three rounds of chemo done. Stage 3 breast cancer. We will kick cancer's butt!

[@Its_me--Boo_Radley]

Oh, interesting about the ice packs. My husband had a couple of the "platin" chemos when he had cancer a dozen years ago, and they did cause permanent neuropathy. The neuropathy is especially bad in his feet--although he does have a touch in his hands too--makes him into a "butterfingers". But despite this, TODAY my 74-year old husband offered to do something that he has never done before--paint my toenails!!! How could I have been married to this man for 55 years and never know he had this hidden skill! He did a surprisingly good job too! Hope you are able to keep the nausea away--thats the worst! It seems to magnify every other problem. Really hoping the next couple weeks provides some breathing room for you both to find joy in your days. And I'm sure your two little pups wil do their parts to make you happy! ❤

[@karm6889]

I just had my second chemo a week ago today and your right the second one hit hard. I hope I do as well as your doing on my third. We are also doing the same kind of chemo taxol and carbo. I am also receiving Astivin a monoclonal. You are my inspiration (no pressure) haha. I haven’t had a problem with nausea much just a little. I do have some neuropathy in my hands n feet I tried the frozen gloves but that seem to hurt worse. Had a blood draw today numbers seem good. Stay strong sister. Love ya

[@marilenaamarelo2593]

Jessica, cancer SUCKS big time…period! I saw what my poor, wonderful husband went through when he had chemo and it was a roller coaster ride. It killed me that there was nothing I could do to ease his pain and discomfort that he was going through. But he was a fighter and made it through the chemo which such strength and grace. Sending you and Brian love and prayers for full recovery. May the good Lord bless you both. ❤️🙏

[@valeriecarr6116]

On the same regimen of drugs every 3 weeks for endometrial cancer. Had round 4 on 9/21. I think you’re right when you say to be kind to yourself. Chemo brain has been upsetting. I’m still working at my job the days I feel able. I’m feeling all the feels too. Hang in there Jessica, you have many battle buddies rooting for you.

[@fareebug8439]

Praying for you, Valerie. Sending love and support your way. 💗🫂💗 We are all in your corner. 💪

[@valeriecarr6116]

@@fareebug8439 thank you

[@jennifermarie2867]

Nothing but prayers sent your way! You are so ridiculously strong.

[@andreabgc4442]

My husband went through many rounds of chemo. He would focus on how it was fighting the cancer, giving him better days in the future. A few months after 6 rounds of chemo, we went on a hiking trip in France and Spain once he got his strength back. There are better days ahead. Drinking lots and lots of water (way more than you think) the days around chemo may help. Ice chips while the chemo is going on, the cup of ice chips is like ice packs.

[@oceanluvngal]

I have a sign on the wall of my washroom the says "Be kind and gentle to your heart." It seems so obvious but most of us need that reminder, especially during difficult times. Thanks for being so open and honest Jessica. I wish you light and laughter during your times of darkness, comfort during times of loneliness, peace during times of worry, and good health soon and for always. 🙏 (Ps- steroids, like dex, can mess with your mood; it's worse for some people than it is for others. I hope that is something your healthcare team monitors.)

[@sallyphillips9175]

I'm glad chemo isn't making you puking sick, just really fatigued. I went through six rounds of chemo for Stage 3C breast cancer in late 2009, and that's what it did to me ... reason being my blood count plummeted. I ended up having to have a transfusion. I hope it doesn't come to that for you! Your dogs are precious! My parents have had a few Spitz, which made me fall in LOVE with them, so I especially gasped when I saw Scout. 🥰

[@elluraduplex3654]

You’re brave. I went through 6 months of cancer treatments before I posted anything on FB. And then it was a picture of me with some of my family. I didn’t want to discuss it. I’m really impressed with how open you are. I’m still getting targeted treatments every 3 weeks. It’s given just like regular chemo except not so many side affects and therefore, not so many premeds. Because I had several allergic reactions, I get my treatment slower and I still receive Benadryl before. Thank goodness the regular chemo is finished. It didn’t look to me like you have a port. I’m so glad I have one. I numb it before treatment. It is all below the skin and then they just poke a needle through the skin. It’s so much easier than an IV. I’ll be receiving chemo treatments every 3 weeks for a little over a year. I’ve just reached the halfway point. Thanks for posting your journey. You get so many comments you probably won’t even read this. If you do, my thoughts and prayers are with you.

[@lauriefleehart6608]

Watching you try to explain chemo and then giving up on a description, put years in my eyes. 2005 I did 8 rounds of chemo. You summed up chemo perfectly! You hit the mail on the head with your Sigh. You’ll probably also sigh 20 years from now when trying to explain chemo. Im praying for you and Brian as you move through this phase towards wellness!!!

[@barbarameehan113]

Little did I know that watching your journey and feeling g sad for you that I would be ex with st.3c aggressive endometrial cancer. I had 4 rounds 2 to go plus 3 radiation then immunotherapy. I am almost 83, never expected this but God is with me He is with you too. I know this is an older video and so much has changed in your life for the good. Bless you both.❤

[@davidthescottishvegan]

Thanks on behalf of everyone else who is or has went through a similar situation. Jessica is such a beautiful encouragement & inspiration to all your subscribers, family & friends and we all love 💕 you for that.

[@michelepastele5347]

During 6 rounds of chemo, things I found helped me were: chicken broth, pretzels, saltines, puddings (mouth sores). What I wasn't reminded about was mouth hygiene. You are more prone to cavities (dry mouth) and I had to have a lot of dental work after. I wish I would have known that ahead of time. Also, it is possible you can get dizzy. Hang on tight to stair railings, steps etc. to watch your balance. You're a CHAMP ... hang in there sweetie!!

[@trudyramgren8817]

Dear Jessica ,thank you for sharing your cancer treatments with us. It is sad for me to watch you. My daughter will be going on this journey soon. She has stage 3 Anal cancer. Her treatment plan is intensive chemo and radiation. It helps a little to know she isn't alone in this. You are an inspiration and seem like a strong person. I wish you total recovery of this insidious disease. God bless you! ❤

[@Anastashya]

Many prayers for your daughter. 🙏🙏🙏❤️

[@trudyramgren8817]

@@Anastashya Thank you dear. ❤

[@marsneedsbunnies]

Lavender makes me feel sick, but all of the mints helped They nurses had me sniffing them after surgery and it helped so much. Peppermint was my favourite, but they all helped immensely. Praying for you both. 💙💙

[@katmother]

I feel you. I had open heart surgery 3 years ago . Nearly the whole year was about Dr. Appointments, surgery ,recovery , pain , nausea Complications etc . In the moment I thought I’d always be like that. I’m not . I’m working and I’m doing exercise videos and I’m living a normal life . Can it happen again . Yes and from what I see with other people it often does. I’m just trying to stay in the moment . I’m saying prayers for you and Brian . God has a plan . ❤

[@beckycucchi3366]

In 2012 I was diagnosed with stage 3/4 Ovarian Cancer and was on chemo until Sept. 2018. I was diagnosed with Breast cancer in 2016 the chemo for the 2 cancers was about the same. Then in Sept 2018 I was diagnosed with anal cancer which was actually a life saver after 33 rounds of radiation it also killed the test of the Ovarian Cancer so today I am cancer free at the age of 69. I had DNA testing and I carry the defective Braca 1 gene and I am the last living female on my Mother's side of the family who has lived thru the Breast Cancer. The chemo can be a real witch but we women can take what it gives out. We just have to know. That it is worth the fight. I worked full time thru all of this til I was 65 and finally retired. We just have to keep fighting.

[@KM-vf4oi]

I wonder if on the days you are having the sadness if watching or listening to things that make you laugh would help. Thank you for sharing your journey. I continue to pray that you will be in remission soon and you can get back to life as you knew it.

[@PatriseHenkel]

💕🙏🌟 you’re doing a great service sharing your ups & downs. It’s dispelling fear to know the real details instead of vague imaginings. As a depression sufferer I can assure you that “what’s the point?” Feeling is depression at its core. And I’ve learned that I don’t have to believe or listen to that voice. It’s just the depression talking, and it’s a liar. Saul on you brave and brilliant woman.

[@gloriajansma5453]

Hello, I just found your channel the other day when I was looking for a way to cook my butternut squash that I grew. And then I saw that you got the cancer diagnosis. I watched today again & my heart aches for you. I’m so sorry; you are so strong & such an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your journey. I send hugs & prayers your way.💕🙏🏼

[@Cjewell0422]

My aunt had around 22 rounds of chemo. She was diagnosed with breast cancer at 42 even tho she was getting yearly mammograms the mammogram did not pick it up they told her that her breast tissue was to dense & she's should of been having a type of digital scan. So she did not find it until it was large enough for her to feel and see. I just watched your other video where you discussed how Pap smears & ovarian cancer. So I wanted to say to every woman reading this - get to know your body & how it feels, be an advocate for your own health. Took me 6months of crying to the doc that something wasn't right before I was diagnosed with cancer. Never put it off because you think it's nothing! If one doc won't listen find one that will. We know our bodies & we know when something isn't right . If you don't know your body get to know it because that could save your own life.

[@donnaw1835]

I wore seabands when I was pregnant. They definitely helped me with morning sickness.

[@patriciarae2133]

So sorry to hear what a rough week it has been, Jessica. Just allow yourself to feel all the feels. You are incredibly gifted at communicating what you are going through: one day you will be able to look back and marvel at all you went through and know that it was all worth it. Sending love and strength to you and your wonderful husband

[@combustication07]

thank you so much for sharing this with us! it is sometimes just good to cry! our thoughts are with you both! ❤️❤️

[@madcitywendy]

I’m so sorry you have to go through this - and I’m so grateful that you have access to great care.

[@janetdriscoll9277]

Jessica you are amazing. Prayers to you and Brian. You got this. Your so brave.

[@sonomanatural6290]

Sending you warm hugs and strength fir getting through the fatigue. Good for you for taking time to sight see!

[@lindabloomfield4879]

I have so much admiration for what you're sharing as it will help so many other people who'll be going through similar. Much love to you for a happy outcome. Stay positive.

[@heathergonzales38]

You’re such a warrior!! Wishing all the best to you both.

[@suecollins5174]

Sending prayers for you, Jessica! 🙏

[@reneeharkness1337]

We are all rooting for you! Sending positive thoughts and vibes your way!💕💕

[@LucyBlue0823]

Sending love to both of you. ❤️ Thank you for sharing your experience with all of us.

[@belindaknowles7440]

Chemo is definitely a roller coaster ride. I continue to pray for you and Brian and all of your family. Jessica, you are beautiful and strong. Thank you for sharing your journey. If you think of it, say a prayer for my daughter, Erin. She has a PET scan on Tuesday. Love you both

[@carolinagurl22]

🙏 for Erin.

[@marilenaamarelo2593]

@Belinda Knowles, I’ll be saying a prayer for your daughter Erin, God bless her. 🙏

[@belindaknowles7440]

@@marilenaamarelo2593 thank you so much❤️

[@belindaknowles7440]

@@carolinagurl22 thank you so much❤️

[@LindaCasey]

I love your updates .. and you are NOT ugly .. geez! 💜💜💜💜💜

[@veganmommydeeslife]

Sending you big hugs Jessica! You truly are such an inspiration! These videos will help anyone going through these tough days during treatments tremendously. Thank you for being brave enough to share your experience! 💕💕💕

[@judithbutler9695]

You are eloquent in expressing yourself. So grateful ❤️

[@smallfootprint2961]

Nice video. So good of you to keep us informed. Hope you're feeling ok as you go through these next few days. It's a lot to go through, but hopefully for a good outcome. Be well. Much love. Lynn

[@leece_6702]

Have been waiting for this to see how you're doing, thanks for the update!

[@bethstratton3391]

Wishing you better mental health Jessica. I think it is great that you are sharing your raw emotions and showing that you can move forward even when things get tough. Sometimes our own mental conversations with ourselves are not the easiest ones to have, but when we do have them, we realise that we can grow and learn through them even if we do not feel like that at the time. Take care Jessica and you too Brian.

[@hunterpowell5963]

I stumbled upon your vlog a few months ago and I’m so glad I did. I haven’t commented yet, but just wanted to say that friends and relatives have told me that with each round of chemo, you get better at managing it. You learn what works and what doesn’t, and after a bit of trial and error you can head off most of the side effects before they begin. It might feel like the chemo’s not working, but it’s more likely that you’re simply learning how to manage it better. You’re doing so well! Hang in there.

[@myroselle6987]

I love Oliver and I see dear Peef & friend in the distance. Just so you know, you have the most beautiful blue eyes and I’m so proud that you’re brave enough to share this journey with all of us. You’re changing the lives of people that you’ll probably never meet in person. You’re making a difference! Sweet girl, you are SO LOVED!!!

[@cynthiavincitorenebolini2007]

My thoughts and prayers are with you Jessica. 🙏You have a lot of courage and you will get through this💕

[@suzanneking7433]

Hi! Please know you are in my prayers everyday. I'm so sorry you have to go through this. Thank you for being here and sharing your journey, for being so transparent in all the aspects of your journey. It is helping me understand so much. There are 9 family members with myself included. 7 of those 9 have cancer diagnosis of various kind. Myself and my little brother do not. An older brother was diagnosed at the end of August with esophageal cancer and is gearing up for his next round of chemo in a few days. The things you have shared have really enlightened me as to things that my family members may be going through or have gone through. I'm gaining insights as to what I may be able to do to help them thanks to you. I pray for strength and endurance as you meet each challenges along the way. I look forward to seeing you reach the end of your treatment phase and seeing you healthy again. You rock and I'm so thankful to have found you. Much love to you. 🌷

[@janettripp2222]

I'm starting the same meds on Tuesday. Thanks for sharing your journey. 💜

[@tesharodney9793]

What was the outcome come on finishing.please

[@amym8479]

Thank you for being you! Your transparency, strength and honesty is so beautiful. You are STRONG, you are PERSEVERING, you are going to GET THROUGH this!

[@melodyspoor3127]

You don't look like an alien, you look absolutely beautiful, with hair or without. Besides the chemo, I hope you are feeling strong. Praying constantly.

[@galewelden]

I’m so glad you can share so authentically. I think about you so often. Many blessings ❤️❤️❤️

[@RoseMaryBowen]

Praying for you and Brian. God bless you both. ❤️🙏

[@Islandgirl5270]

Sending love to you, Jessica! You and Brian are amazing. Thanks for sharing and just being you.

[@maggiemacha5552]

Sending love and uplifting energy to you Jessica and Brian 🙏💟 I appreciate your authenticity and vulnerability 💞

[@mbkile6762]

Reading all the comments below and they have said everything already. Sending you and Brian my prayers and thanks for what you both do for others by sharing your experiences during the rocky journey of chemo and recovery. Love you guys.

[@mattandchelseasmom]

You are so strong, Jessica. This video will surely help others going through something similar. Sending much prayer and love your way! 🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻

[@shirleydowning9383]

I'm so glad that you have Scout and Oliver. Fur babies can be a fantastic tonic. Take Care. ❤️

[@cindydavison5278]

You’re always in my heart as I think of you often. Thank you for sharing. Our emotions definitely take over during trying times. Take it a day at a time. The light will be there to greet you. Hugs to you and Brian ❤️

[@lzal9204]

Sending you love. ❤ Don’t give up!!! You got this.

[@kellyweber627]

Jessica, keep up the great job!! You are half way thru this. You got this! I’ve been there 7 years ago and it is very hard to explain chemo to people. Like you said, everyone is different. Keep going ❤🙏🏻

[@trishk9322]

You are always in our thoughts and we are so impressed with how you are dealing with all of the ups and downs. Love you and Brian so much. You two are amazing in so many ways and this challenge is just the latest proof of that. 💖💖💖

[@lhammon]

Just wanted to chime in to say I am one more person who is thinking of you and cares about you and wishes you the best, and is so so sad that you have to go through this. It's not fair. I am sending you tons of good vibes and positive energy and all that stuff and thank you for sharing your story, the "stay strong" parts and the sad parts as well 💜💜💜

[@pitterpatti1958]

Thanks for sharing this very personal journey you are on. It will be so helpful for others going through something similar. Everything you are feeling is real and valid and a part of your healing process. Praying for you and Brian both! ❤

[@lorain4023]

Jessica, Prayers, Peaceful Thoughts and much Love go out to you and also to Brian! Thank you for sharing your cancer journey with us. ❤

[@candicemirisha912]

I hope you make a full recovery 🙏 Thank you for sharing your journey. You are an inspiration

[@rosemarrypolack5708]

I have been praying for you. Thank you for sharing this. My heart goes out to you.

[@loriebailey8260]

My heart goes out to you Jessica. I can only imagine the amount of energy it takes to try to maintain some sense of a positive mindset and yet find yourself succumbing to the emotional and physical struggles having a disease like cancer presents. I've not had cancer but have had close family members and friends who have and ALL have come through their chemo or radiation or surgery...whatever it was, to find healing. So hold on tightly to hope and do not let go of the most Holy ONE who lovingly holds tightly to you (besides Brian of course🥰). You are worth every discomfort, pain, wave of nausea, and IV drip that gets pumped into your body. You are worth the healing that you'll find on the other side of this hard and painful journey. I commend you too for working hard to stay as healthy as you possibly can through the way you eat, and also to pushing through to find joy on the in-between good days!!! On the more difficult list lonely questioning fearful days...take every one...every question, every thought, every hurt, every fear, every question, every tear, every bit of loneliness to the Lord. He can...and wants to...handle them all! The second thing I wanted to mention -- and I realize I'm late to chime in, and you likely have been inundated with suggestions and ideas -- but I believe it's worth a mention and some encouragement to research. So I hope you'll give me grace in offering the suggestion where O feel like I really have no right but just a heart who cares because I've followed you and Beian for quite some time now and you've become like family. I connected with a couple of reputable Naturopathic doctors. One of them, Dr Wallach, is internationally reknowned (healed himself at 9 years old when drs could not determine what was wrong with him/how to help him). That sent him on a path toward becoming a veterinarian. He worked on Animal Planet for some time and then did research in South Africa for many years after realizing the crossover and benefits of veterinarian practices/treatments to human medicine. I learned about him/his story through Dr Peter Glidden, (whose website is: Riseupintohealth.com). Dr Wallach created the 90 Essential Nutrients, put out by Youngevity, which he says every single person needs because we are all so deficient in minerals and vitamins, etc, because our soils have been depleted since early 1900's and also pesticides being used, which have been a cause for a whole host of minor to serious diseases that we suffer from including cancer. You can access info about these products on both of their websites. Dr Wallach's personal story is so very amazing and fascinating. His video can be found on his website. At the same time, one of the reasons I like Dr Peter Glidden's website, riseupintohealth.com is because he has a whole list of videos on various diseases and ailments that are very educational and helpful and which include his RX at the end of the videos for that particular ailment to begin overcoming/preventing the diseases/ailments. The Youngevity products can be purchased through Dr Peter Glidden also. I mention this because it would be worth researching this information to determine if taking the Youngevity supplements in conjunction with, or after you finish chemo, to rebuild your body's good health and defenses. Honestly, I feel like I cannot stress this point enough. Please let me know if I can answer any additional questions. I am not a representative for either of these Dr's or the Youngevity products. I do not sell the products or make any money off of them. I just believe in them that much. And I personally care about what you are going through. Please let me know if I can help in anyway with links our other information regarding these two Dr's. In the meantime, know that you have been in my thoughts and prayers and I couldn't hold onto this info any longer without passing it along to you. Instead I felt compelled to share it with you after watching your update. May God so bless you; give you every bit of wisdom; fill your heart and mind with peace; and cause your heart to overflow with confidence and love.❤🙏🏻❤

[@phylliswarder9779]

You are so strong. You will beat this!! Love and prayers💜💜

[@rachelt2482]

Thanks for sharing Jessica! Sending positive vibes to you.❤️

[@evalita9]

I have been sporadically watching your videos for years and check in on you every now and then. I wish you all the best on this journey and may you be better soon!

[@michelleblock7752]

Continued prayers. Big hugs and hoping you are feeling better mentally and emotionally.

[@spookyfish24]

The fact that you put this together to share with us while going through a very personal and traumatic experience is a testament to how awesome you are. ABSOLUTELY - be kind. Give yourself grace.. It applies here, during your cancer experience, but it's applicable for every other facet of life. I hope that you have smoother sailing to come. I apologize for asking if you've already shared, but how often do you have chemotherapy? Do you take any other chemo pills? Love to you guys.

[@valeriequest]

Prayers and hugs for both of you ❤️

[@susanfleming496]

Thank you for sharing your journey, Jessica. I'm sorry you're having such a hard week, it sounds rough. I really hope next week is better. Sending big hugs! 💗💗

[@jllhsm]

I am so sorry for your struggles, physically and emotionally. Thank you for sharing your honest feeling, as that has to be difficult. I am praying for you and Bryan everyday.

[@drlorrie1019]

I went through 6 months of aggressive chemo therapy including “the reed devil. I lost my eye lashes and eyebrows along with all my body hair. I did great and worked every day. The “red devil” was rough. I also had radiation and was burned like BBQ meat but survived it all. Stay strong Jessica.

[@outoftheklosset]

Sending you so much love and support.✨ I'm sorry you're feeling so down right now. Situational depression, as normal as it is, sucks! It's really challenging. I hope you're feeling better today and I hope your chemo is working well and going to get you in remission as soon as possible. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️*hugs if wanted*

[@natali6232]

Prayers and hugs 🤗

[@susieeggenberger7622]

Thank you for sharing your journey. We are all rooting for you!

[@mianone7486]

You are such a lioness. You are aceing it. These moodswings will come and go. Fully expected! You are loved and we have you back!