What It's Like Growing Up Mormon (Part 1) - Why Mormons Believe

[@BethanyKay]

Did you have a similar experience in leaving a high demand religion? I'd love to hear your story too. Want to binge-watch the whole story of my Mormon Awakening? You can watch the rest of the series here: kzbin.info/www/bejne/nZ2adJ16m7iAb6s

[@GarrettEderer]

Thanks for sharing! Very informative.

[@Nepthu]

Is there an e-mail to contact you privately?

[@BethanyKay]

you can message me on Facebook: Bethany Kay

[@kenolson3064]

I left Mormonism when I was 39, that was 23 years ago. It took a long time to untangle all of the damage and stunted growth that growing up Mormon caused in my life. This past year my relationship with God has completely changed. I have learned on a deep and personal level that Jesus is my God, not my brother or fellow created being. It's all the difference in the world.

[@BethanyKay]

I'm so glad you've found personal growth and healing since leaving the church. It's such a traumatic process. ♥

[@bustedpillsburybiscuitcan8295]

God doesn’t exist.

[@daveyjones9930]

I was a BIC Mormon....seminary, Priesthood, Elder, Missionary, 2nd C in a bishopric, Gospel Doctrine teacher and many other "callings". Leaving Mormonism is really tough. Anyone able to weather the storm after leaving is a hero in my view. Great story, Bethany! Thanks!!

[@BethanyKay]

Thanks so much for taking the time to appreciate what I'm doing and help me not feel alone. ♥

[@marilynmantis5409]

Hi Davey, what is a BIC Mormon? That's new terminology for me. I'm not a troll. I gagged up Mormonism when I was 14 years old or so. Wait, I must confess that I do some trolling on ProMo channels, so yes, I am a troll, but I'm not trolling you. I'm familiar with card carrying Mo's, but I can't figure out BIC.

[@daveyjones9930]

@@marilynmantis5409 Born ln the Covenant...whlch means Born into the LDS church. lOW, not a convert. l wish l had "gagged up" Mormonism when l was 14!! l'm also a troll.😃

[@marilynmantis5409]

@@daveyjones9930 Oh, yes, that makes sense, born in the "coven" uh, er, the covenant. Don't you just love their occulted language? So that makes me a BIC or a born in the cult member as well. I really believe that Mormonism is a trauma-based mind control organization led by black-magic occultists at the top. Call me crazy, but. . .

[@emilygambill1759]

I just figured all this out last February. My husband, 4 kids and I have all left the church. Your videos have been very helpful in helping me understand how I could have believed so long. I first told my family members but shared Part 3 to "come out" on Facebook. Thank you for making these, they have been so helpful to me!

[@BethanyKay]

Thanks Emily! I will forever be thankful to the people who helped me during my transition out of the church too. I'm happy to see so many people taking their power back from this damaging institution, and finally having the freedom to write their own life story.

[@AlexanderNovak0]

@@BethanyKay I guess that's for you being raised as Mormons. I converted and appreciate what they offer me. I don't feel brainwashed or anything. I just take what's good for me.

[@mmusi8599]

Recognizing and overcoming that you're in a Mormon matrix is the most difficult part of it, and cheers to those who got out of it. Thanks for the video. You simplified it all.

[@BethanyKay]

Thank you! It's crazy and beautiful on the other side.

[@susantyner4525]

I came across your channel last night and listened to all 3 parts of growing up Mormon. It really hit home for me. THANK YOU!

[@BethanyKay]

Thank you so much!! It means a lot to me when someone reaches out to let me know I'm making a difference ♥

[@dan9948]

This video describes exactly the point I am at: realizing that I've been equating every good feeling or experience with the LDS church. I love how simple and nonconfrontational this is. Thanks for being brave and sharing!

[@BethanyKay]

Thanks Dan!

[@maingun07]

The one thing that they would never do is teach critical thinking and how to rationally evaluate a claim. Good for you for being one of the few to be able to take a step back and ask, "Does this make any sense?"

[@AlizzaSpeaks]

maingun07 exactly! That’s why Mormons fall for MLMs

[@BethanyKay]

If everyone could have the courage to ask questions and investigate their own beliefs, so much growth and expansion could happen in the world.

[@42apostate]

@@BethanyKay ALL human progress is made when people are willing to challenge the prevailing paradigm...and suggest there may be a better way. They are usually the misfits, the mal-contents, the troublemakers. Those who always do what they are told are the ones blocking human progress. Thank god for the misfits!!

[@ex-mormonthanos9439]

I wish I could get my wife to listen to you. She is hurting so much because I have stopped believing in the church but wont put in the effort of seeing for herself

[@BethanyKay]

I'm so sorry to hear about your wife. It's so devastating how much the church breaks up families. It's the most anti-family church I know of.

[@MatthewChidester]

I know this is a few months old but just wanted to say THANK YOU for posting these videos.. I recently resigned and I'm not trying to make anyone leave the church.. and your explanation and experiences are spot on.

[@BethanyKay]

Thank you! So happy you found the newfound journey to freedom ❤️

[@janetshew5028]

Great job. I can hear the tremor in your voice, it really reveals how hard this must’ve been for you. Brave . Your truthfulness and fair and objective observations are powerful.

[@clintoncordsmith3271]

This is great. I like how you explain it as "the matrix" . Thank you for being vulnerable. Brave indeed!

[@BethanyKay]

Thank you! It is crazy how good the Matrix analogy is for finding out your beliefs were all a big lie...

[@matthewfullmer3739]

It takes great courage to question everything....rise strong!

[@ashleyjohnston9282]

John Lee lol!!! Get a life troll! 😂

[@ashleyjohnston9282]

John Lee hate is a strong word, and frankly a waste of emotional energy. Reaching out and hearing others viewpoints with an open mind doesn’t make me a hater, calling out actual haters doesn’t make me a hater either. Haters are people who spend the majority of their time on Internet forums searching out people who disagree with them and attempt to insult and belittle those who view things differently. Sounds more like you hun. I’m not saying to “get a life” because I’m hateful, but because I’m positive that the amount of time you spend on the internet going around insulting people with different views from you cannot be good for your mental health.

[@ashleyjohnston9282]

John Lee don’t get me wrong, your predictable “copy paste” comments on nearly every single KZbin video that contradict your religious views are incredibly funny and entertaining, but after a while I cannot help but be concerned for your mental well-being. Life must be awful when you carry so much spite for those who are different from you.

[@ashleyjohnston9282]

John Lee lol! Looks like you proved my point. Thank you.

[@ashleyjohnston9282]

John Lee you can not control what others do, no amount of guilt tripping and brainwashing can change that. However you can control how you view things yourself and can learn to be a more understanding and loving person. Try being more Christ like and stepping into their shoes to understand what they go through so maybe you can understand. Christ doesn’t go around calling people idiots, so neither should you. It doesn’t help you or anybody else. Also, it might not be a bad idea to look into seeing a specialist for your possible narcissism and paranoia. Just a soft suggestion

[@eugenek1180]

That's impressive analytical content. You have a well developed "reflective consciousness" - the ability to see, evaluate and change your own thinking and perception as well as use such ability to understand the thinking of others. A lot of people can think, in a technical sense, but not a lot of people can think about the thinking itself. It requires an extra layer of intelligence.

[@BethanyKay]

Definitely! If more people would be willing to ask hard questions, and question their own thinking, what a world this would be.

[@ESCOBARGROUP]

What is up superhero woman! I am so grateful for brave souls like you for opening up and speaking your truth. My wife and I have been there. We lost a lot of followers over our going public. It just felt like the right thing to do, as you said, to reach people like us who didn’t feel right. You nailed it. If it helps one person it is worth it!

[@BethanyKay]

Thanks so much! It's good for people to know they are not alone going through this.

[@pli5985]

Thank you Bethany for having the courage to search for the truth. You articulate the truth in a calm manner.

[@BethanyKay]

Thanks so much for taking the time to show appreciation. It makes me happy to know I am making a difference. ♥

[@jacktorrance2336]

I like how your videos are simple, to the point, and stay on topic

[@BethanyKay]

Thanks Slim Shady ;)

[@TNKHART]

We have several friends that have left the Mormon church and now attend our church. What you just did took a lot of courage and I want you to know that you are in our prayers!!

[@Sejjica]

Tim Hartson love the support!

[@gracebe235]

Tim Hartson .......What is 'your church'?

[@TNKHART]

@@gracebe235 Our church is Baptist.

[@Sejjica]

John Lee haha wow! What a dick!

[@karenberhow7483]

John Lee but evidently without any manners!

[@AlizzaSpeaks]

Just removed my records ❤️ these videos are very helpful

[@BethanyKay]

So happy to help people feel like they have someone going through it with them! ❤️

[@villegas24]

Wow, they are really messed up. I feel sorry for children that grow up there and will probably never feel what it is to be free.

[@JohnB-uf7ft]

Bethany,First, good for you for sharing your past in the Mormon church. I almost became one in 1989, and something was tugging me away. I read God Makers, which really pissed them off, and the rest is history. I am a basic Christian believer who glorify God every chance I can get. I appreciate your strength, will, and intelligence. I must remark that I am surprised that your photography views get so much more traffic than your more important religious experience. Thank you for being you! You are such a beautiful woman, both inside and out. If all women could be more like you! Keep it up.

[@BethanyKay]

Hey John, thanks so much for your kind words! I really appreciate you watching my videos. ♥

[@rksnap]

Thanks so much for being brave enough to share the truth! ❤️

[@rksnap]

John Lee brave because it’s scary to tell people your experience and risk being judged and ridiculed for it.

[@rksnap]

John Lee what you so mad about?

[@rksnap]

John Lee lol she is BRAVE.. you should make a video with your face on how it’s not Brave to put yourself out there in KZbin 😂. Bet your not brave enough

[@rksnap]

John Lee I get it now this isn’t about the word brave for you, it’s that you don’t like what she is saying... I see you want her to shut up... I don’t think she is going to do that do you?

[@rksnap]

John Lee you crack me up Johnny 😂 🙈🙉🙊 eyes wide shut

[@Noealz]

thanks for sharing such a personal story

[@BethanyKay]

Thank you! It means a lot to me ❤️

[@wpiofm]

The LDS upper level hoaxers must really hate KZbin.

[@BethanyKay]

Right? It's only going to get worse for them. All of the lies through their history are impossible to keep straight when we have access to historic documents.

[@TheRealDonLayton]

@@BethanyKay Speaking of lies Bethany, kzbin.info/www/bejne/hnOoY4psa9WpZtU. Looks like the lies are all coming from your side.

[@spencermcclellan1557]

Thank you so much! I can really attest to the statements you made about the the church teaching you that the reason the saints were persecuted was because they were different (more righteous). I accepted this for a long time until recently I found out why they were actually being persecuted. The church moved from place to place to CTA (modified CYA) from the things they were actually introducing into good christian communities. Thank you for articulating what I have not been able to and I will be watching the rest of your videos. God bless you!

[@BethanyKay]

Thank you! It sure is a doozy when you find out the real reasons behind all the events that took place!

[@woodystube1000]

So very well explained. Thank you for sharing your story. It was like listening to someone narrate my childhood.

[@radiovikings2713]

Thank you for sharing your journey. We need to understand one another. We need to be understood through unconditional love!

[@BethanyKay]

I agree, love changes the world.❤️

[@Jonasoverbrain]

Congrats for your bravery to expose your experience and thanks for your sense of justice.

[@BethanyKay]

Thank you Jonas ☺️

[@mikeworley8212]

Thank you for sharing your story.

[@BethanyKay]

Thank you Mike! I just posted a new series about life after Mormonism I hope you like as well. ❤️

[@JackGowen77]

Much love and respect for you for your bravery and honesty.

[@BethanyKay]

Thank you for your kind words ♥

[@alannahmay3823]

I was shocked by all of the criminal activity with counterfeiting. Running out West was not about persecution, but about Brigham Young and some of the apostles fleeing the federal marshalls who were coming to arrest him on counterfeiting charges. That could carry the death penalty in those days.

[@longnamenocansayy]

9 of the 12 apostles had indictments for counterfeiting when they left nauvoo with brigham. counterfeiting was also resorted to for cash on the way to utah. why didn't i learn that in seminary? why didn't i learn about blood atonement, mountain meadows massacre, mormon assassins bill hickman, john d lee, orrin porter rockwell, and a lot of other things?

[@BethanyKay]

sooo many things once you head down the rabbit hole.

[@Jose-st3fq]

You sharing this story helps so many more people then you know ❤️

[@BethanyKay]

Thank you so much. It's good to remember that when I feel like I'm not making a difference. ♥

[@eclipse-sh1qmZ3mOtcua]

Thank you Bethany, for having the courage to do the right thing!

[@daviddean6025]

I was Mormon growing up. horrible religion. took over my families life. and got involved in my parents divorce

[@tjmorrison1909]

This series is great ty ! I am getting better at understanding that's its ok not to have all the answers ... LDS broke my trust in many ways.

[@2011095829]

Thank you so much for giving me my "mormon awakening!" You are amazing!

[@BethanyKay]

Thank you Ryan! I would love to hear your story some time. How did you find my videos? Which ones did see? What things hit home the most for you?

[@2011095829]

@@BethanyKay I stopped going to church after I graduated high school, because I wasn't really a fan of the singles ward and I was working a lot to save money to buy a house. Also, I'm gay, so there's that lol. Even though I stopped going to church, I still had a good relationship with god...until I reached the age of reason and looked up on KZbin things that happen in the temple, which I had always been curious about but never looked into because of guilt. Well when I did, I came across your video describing your experience. That really opened my eyes seeing a former mormon being so disturbed and uncomfortable at the realization that everything we were taught growing up was really an effort to control the way we think and to submit to those teachings and beliefs. On top of that, seeing recently that the church has AT LEAST 100 billion dollars is really concerning to me, mostly because money=power. Anyways, so I binged all of your "Growing up Mormon" series and learned more and more about the mormon church as well as religion in general. So thank you for making the bold move of putting those videos out for me and others to become aware of the reality of the world we all lived in!

[@BethanyKay]

@@2011095829 So happy to hear this! Thank so much for taking this time to tell me. It makes me happy to know how our stories affect each others' lives ♥

[@danielcarter1389]

I was born and raised a Mormon the first 27 years of my 48 year life. My favorite video on KZbin is "The Ultimate Proof of Creation" by Jason Lisle.

[@BethanyKay]

I just watched the KZbin video you've been recommending and he's basing his entire premise on the pre-supposition that the Bible is truth. I'm not sure how anyone can embark on a quest for truth when they are starting off with such a massive pre-supposition that they won't be able to remove any beliefs in order to make room for new ones. Our brains don't allow us to learn new information when it contradicts something we're already believing.

[@jeffcarr2095]

@@BethanyKay I agree, even the Bible is best read with a humble mind and heart, willing to see evidence that the Bible is false, a fraud, etc. Also, It helps me to remember that if I am approaching any book with the presupposition of skepticism, then..why am I even reading?

[@taylor2449]

I’ve lived in a heavily mormon populated area all my life and a ton of the kids I know and grew up with and people that I work with are mormon and I’ve noticed how in a lot of their posts online about their faith and when they go on missions they always say they know this church is true and I found it odd how all their messages basically sound the same it’s interesting to see that it’s because they’re based on lines they’ve always been fed

[@BethanyKay]

It's the ONE and only true church in the world! Very exclusive. And a super strict set of rules to follow if you get in.

[@seppyq3672]

Yup, you learn what to say as young as like, 3 or even before. As soon as you can talk, they want you to repeat the church is true.

[@TheCowboy4000]

Gotta brainwash ya young 🤣

[@T-WaL]

Thank you for this video!

[@CKSKing]

I feel like it's true a lot of Mormons get messed up with "the church" vs what the point of believing in God is about. Lots of religion or other dogmas limit mindsets. Being unable to consider alternate perspectives is harmful to the psyche. Free will. Etc. for me God = love = open mindedness. That's all I can call true for now. Even then with schizophrenia running in my family, I gotta be even more careful.

[@austinmiller8400]

Great video! Thank you for sharing your story and getting vulnerable. Loved how you presented this unbiasedly and truly shared your feelings. I grew up in Utah - right in the heart of all this!

[@BethanyKay]

Thanks Austin! I love hearing the perspective of someone who watched it all happening growing up. :)

[@sliverdragon4951]

Always obeying the church can lead to a world view and free will is a gift from God to decide how to worship him and God created us with different identities

[@ex-mormonthanos9439]

Spot on with what you say about the church owning the experiences. Before I started questioning (36 years in the church) I had personal dream state visions that early mormons would eat up had their leaders spoken of these visions. I had dreams of seeing the saints come into the SLC valley, and of Brother Brigham saying "this is the place", I have had dreams of Christ and spoke with him on two separate occasions in my dreams. I got to see the afterlife in my dreams and spoke with many of the modern day prophets who have passed away. These are experiences true believing Mormons eat up. But in the end, all just dreams. As a true believing mormon, I ate them up and they were amazing experiences

[@kdb3434]

Thank you so much for sharing! Very brave ofyou.

[@ashleyjohnston9282]

John Lee ridicule from her loved ones, isolation from her family, false accusations for things she hasn’t done, she has quite a bit to risk for expressing things that discourage others from joining the group. Coming from me who had a sister who attempted suicide from the psychological damage the Mormon church can do and has done to own members, I can confidently say she has lots to risk for reaching out and sharing her story.

[@ashleyjohnston9282]

You’re looking way too much into this sir, she’s sharing her story, that’s it. You have no idea who this person is. Ad hominem attacks have no place if you want to convince people of your views on an intellectual level.

[@ashleyjohnston9282]

John Lee it’s derived from Latin but is used in even English as a common phrase used in intellectual debates. Perhaps I should use a lower tier of vocabulary to suit the needs of those who share your more minute vocabulary in the future.

[@ashleyjohnston9282]

John Lee sarcasm? No never heard of it. 😂 you’re fun...

[@coffeemachtspass]

Every time I watch one of your videos, KZbin automatically cues up a similar video from the LDS church. Any computer people out there notice the same thing? I wonder if it is an algorithmic result, or if the Church has paid to get its own videos to the head of the queue?

[@BethanyKay]

They are definitely on top of their paid advertising efforts. They have billions of dollars to their name (literally, sitting in stocks right now)

[@coffeemachtspass]

Bethany Kay Ugh. I suspected as much. It happened multiple times as I listened through your videos (thank you for your thoughtful content, by the way). One of your videos on taboo history ended, but instead of going to the next in your list, KZbin switched to an LDS video from a Church historian bearing his testimony and pretending that he was doing history. I clicked back to your playlist, then I was ported off again to more people giving their testimony. It was like a creepy paranormal movie. The LDS wants to take over my brain through the KZbin. Join us. Join us.

[@BethanyKay]

@@coffeemachtspass haha, yes. Their story is so fragile that it takes constant diligence & swamping your brain with LDS materials to keep it all from falling apart by hearing the simple truth.

[@patrickbeasley9009]

I've been getting lots of church ads under these critical videos as well

[@NonPremiumID]

"And, this me, denying the Holy Ghost, to the world and having it documented and shared". -Scary ;(

[@fayelewis5476]

Denying Jesus Christ and saying he is a created being, the brother of Lucifer will mean your sins will be unforgiven and you will be condemned. Read the Bible and learn the truth.

[@BethanyKay]

I made a video about my spiritual experiences, I hope you enjoy it :) kzbin.info/www/bejne/hoXYm6Cqi5KVd6c

[@writerchik44]

I was a catholic child who lived in Utah from the time I was 8-20, and I had friends who were “Molly-Mormons”, “Cafeteria Mormons”, & “Jack-Mormons”.... if you know Utah and Mormons, you don’t need an explanation on what those phrases mean But I will say I have amazing friends with all types of Mormons. Those who still believe all the way to those who no longer believe. I have also had friends I grew up with denounce me and my lifestyle because I am not Mormon ... sadly

[@BethanyKay]

It's nice to hear what it was like growing up in Utah from someone with a different perspective. Thanks for sharing your experience!

[@goldensprite3373]

When they gave you pre-set arguments, that comes from a place of great insecurity. It is a want power that comes out of fear.

[@BethanyKay]

YES, thank you for pointing this out. People need to question why they are being given pre-set arguments on a topic they are being told not to read about.

[@keepitsimple4629]

A couple of years before I found out the real true history of the "church", it's interesting how my spirit knew before I knew. My spirit was trying to tell me in various ways. I was in a library looking for a good biography, and there was a book (out of 1000's) that was displayed prominently. The title was "No man knows my history". I thought "that sounds interesting" and reached for it. It was the expose by Fawn McKay Brodie, who was excommunicated decades ago for exposing Joseph. It listed all his plural wives. I had never questioned Mormonism, being a good little Mormon, faithful and loyal. Then I started getting urges to throw away my temple garments; then all my church books and manuals, I had about 25. Then I asked my home teacher for some tithing envelopes, and when he showed up with a Mormon from pioneer stock, as soon as they handed me the envelopes, something in me said I would never give the church another penny as long as I lived. All these things happened BEFORE I found out the truth. I might add that the things that made me begin to question the church were that the two most important topics that should've been discussed, abortion and homosexuality, were never discussed in the thousands of church meetings I attended. I felt these were important to God, and wondered why nobody ever broached the subjects.

[@susanbernier4836]

KeepItSimple thank you for sharing..... God works in mysterious ways! 💕🇨🇦

[@josephdanieljirehdimacali4418]

It fortunate that Mormon and JW are unpopular here in Philippines thats the reason why they can't do apostate abandonment to family members. I literally have an LGBT person who is no longer practicing Mormonism for obvious reason but the family still loves that person and the partner. They would attend to family meetings without judgement.

[@josephdanieljirehdimacali4418]

@Jim Anderson yes. Not just Mormon but in Religion in general. We have a lot of Christian and Muslim sect here. Although Hinduism and Buddhism are starting to rise.

[@robynhyattoracle]

great job!!!!

[@ernestmarcucella6918]

I was learning the Book of Mormon. I started to ask questions later on in the 3rd lesson I had with 2 Sister Missionaries. I was told that I would be answered by any questions I had. Well I asked them questions about Garments that I would have to wear. I was never answered why the garments were needed to be worn. Even how am I to know Joseph Smith because of the difference in years.?

[@BethanyKay]

Yeah, they tell you all of your questions will be answered when you're dead. So you just have to live your entire life trusting they know what they're talking about, until you start finding out one lie after the other and the whole thing comes crashing down. Glad you were wise enough to trust your intuition and QUESTION early on! Much love to you in your spiritual journey.

[@thecolorneil]

Better to have your life consumed by Mormonism or Fortnite?

[@erodoehtiksbyzcak6869]

Very, very, very well said. Amen.

[@eugenek1180]

Also, what you're describing sounds a lot like Scientology, in its general tactics, even though it has nothing to do with the Biblical story or beliefs. But of course it is common knowledge that cults in general share similarities in their tactics to keep people in a "psychological dungeon."

[@BethanyKay]

I didn't find out about scientology until after I'd left, and yes! It's crazy when you find other people who've left strict religious groups and realize you all were subjected to similar cult techniques.

[@mrlds3202]

That's interesting, I am a convert to the church and joined after researching all the anti-Mormon literature, but to me the church is just a beautiful religion and church and I don't feel it's a cult, but I can see how being born inside the church could be seen as a cult. But are the Amish a cult, the Mennonites? It's just a very separated community and belief system that it's true if you are just 'born into it' and don't choose it, you are kind of having your consent taken away from you to choose for yourself in a sense.

[@Lainawit]

Being Mormon memes putting Christ, at best,secondary because the Mormon gospel is about good and bad and obeying the modern day priesthood.

[@krissee6961]

Thankyou 💗 beautiful truth

[@BethanyKay]

Thanks so much for watching my channel. I'm happy to see my videos are helping people :)

[@rachaelelliott3598]

Nail on the head my dear.

[@BethanyKay]

Thanks for watching Rachael! Have you seen my most recent videos about the growth and transformation that has happened after leaving? Would love to hear your thoughts on those! :)

[@terrycarleson6371]

Great

[@thekolobsociety]

Hi Bethany! Have you since joined another religion?

[@thekolobsociety]

@Jim Anderson Still no response from her!

[@richc8536]

I hope this message is taken in a positive light rather than something as negative. The wording used in this video can be a bit misleading. For instance, you said that the church determined the friends you had and so on. It makes it seem like church leaders forced you to only associate with certain people. In reality, if you follow the teachings of the gospel, you will refrain from certain actions like drinking, smoking, swearing, etc... because it makes you more like our Heavenly Father. Most members I know have a lot of friends outside of the church and “the church” asks that we invite them to come and share in the knowledge of the gospel. I have not seen “the church” do otherwise. In regards to your state of questioning everything, we are encouraged to pray to Heavenly Father to validate if something is true or not. I have never been told to use the testimony of another person just because they stood up on fast Sunday; but rather, find out for myself because a testimony is your own. You won’t go far with anything in life if you rely on others to fuel you through whatever it is you are doing. In regards to your comment of preset arguments, I have never been taught this, have heard anyone talk of this, or teach my children this. I encourage everyone to study their scriptures in order to find the answers. Have you tried sincerely praying to Heavenly Father to know if the gospel and church is true? The words you spoke seem more like you felt you had to rely on others for this and then read anti-lds literature and believed it to be true. I am happy today because of the gospel of Jesus Christ. I have realized that being disciplined leads to happiness. I joined the church because of my own spiritual experiences involving the whisperings of the Holy Spirit. I have never felt forced to be a certain way or do certain things. A lot of members are upfront with the struggle and how it is a journey to be more like Christ. I wish you well and God bless.

[@sliverdragon4951]

A spiritual beliefs does not just revolve around what a church has done for you. God give us everyday challenges to fight r sins and he challenges r faith people r blind by all churches if u don’t pick up your Bible and read it and always blindly follow a church your salvation at risk

[@wt460]

The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is the original source and the genesis of all polygamy in the USA. As much work as the church has done to distance themselves from that fact, it simply won't go away. Why, you ask? Because it is the truth, period.

[@georgeprice8387]

Timmy, Timmy, Timmy. Really? One word for you: Muhammad. A sidebar question: are you suggesting that serial marriage is somehow intrinsically better for a society because it is rooted in serial monogamy?

[@canderssonswedican7486]

You young lady, are very brave.

[@BethanyKay]

Thank you so much Caandersson!! That means a lot to me. ♥

[@mangpulso9751]

poor joseph smith.. so whats your testimony about the book of mormon? is there any thruthfullness about that book? :) well any decision u made- as long as you are happy

[@DJD1411]

No, it's quite obvious at this point that JS was nothing but a liar and fraud. The whole premise that he has provided the "true" word of God without the "errors" in the Bible has been thoroughly debunked by the Dead Sea Scrolls that show that the current bibles are very similar to the bibles of antiquity.

[@sliverdragon4951]

That not the right life for anybody because it wears and tear on your emotional health and the real truth is God gave us free will to decide what wrong not the church not people because God would not create us with out a Conscious

[@Desert10075]

What an honest person. I like Mormons. There aren't many where I live. People have always sought perfection, in living and in religion. God wants us to follow Jesus and His teachings, stick close to God, not a building, not a choir group, not even a religion, for none of these are God, God is truth, God is life. Do not go forth into the world and pervert the words of God. Jesus is real, I had a near death experience, I was in a horrible motorcycle crash in the desert, I felt my spirit being pulled up toward a filter, my spirit was pulled through the filter, I saw all of my earthly darkness fall back to earth in big black moving blobs. I was entering the kingdom of heaven. The things of earth, bad thoughts, anger, fear, just not allowed into Gods realm. My grandparents looked concerned because I was a wild young man and they had probably witnessed others being sent elsewhere!!!!!! I asked where's all the colors, because it was like looking through wax paper. My thoughts were vocalized. There is nothing hidden. Then I saw a former friend who was killed at a young age running to me from about four miles away, but like in a slide show, click, 3 miles, click, two, one then standing right in front of me, in his hand were colors that were vibrant and moving! His hand went up and I knew if he completed the throwing of the colors to the place below him, I'd see the most vivid colors. Just then to my left was a three foot high hand, everything stopped, my grandparents still looking worried watched as I was being sent back to my body, I pleaded and begged to stay, but God is all powerful, once back in my body I saw my friend who t boned me and caused the crash, we were riding next to a highway in the desert trying to keep up with cars, I laid there next to the road over an hour, nobody stopped. My friend said, Vic I thought you died. The euphoria when I was there made me really not want to return to earth. Scientists will tell you that our body makes us feel that way when we are dying . This wasn't that. Please be very careful to put God first and praise Him daily, it is written, the Lord inhabits praise. My father would tell me, be at peace, now I say that to you.

[@ValerieFulmer]

I’m sorry for all of the negative experiences you’ve had growing up as a member of the church of Jesus Christ of latter-day Saints. I have had some difficult experiences as well. :( I believe one of the reason we sometimes suffer in the hands of other members of the church, including sometimes leaders, as part of our test to see if we have faith in God, and not faith in people. But of course you have your moral agency, as we all do, to share your experiences and your beliefs. I do believe in Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ and the Holy Ghost. I have been blessed beyond measure by striving to live the doctrines of the church. It’s not easy, and requires personal sacrifice. But the rewards in this life are incredible. I have too many blessings to count. The rewards in the next life are beyond description.

[@kenziek6707]

Scary stuff, so, as we find in criminal history, since so many LDS bishops molest children its not the fault of the church refusing to conduct background checks....its god? Really? This is the same church that actually fought in court to publish the name and addresses of child victims who suffered horrid abuse at the hands of their LDS father. The church also ordered 2 bishops and a relief society worker that were not allowed to report the abuse the LDS church was well aware of, to police. What kind of church does that? Its interesting the church then lied and claimed the Bishops in the case were lying about it....until their phones were subpoenaed . The church then tried the Scientology angle that its a "religion" and should be allowed to violate basic law. In the PBS story on it, the LDS attorney actually cracks a smile talking about it. Again what kind of "church" does stuff like that? When sam young started his campaign to end Worthiness interviews of young children at the hands of bishops, (where it is well known serious abuse was occurring) the church excommunicated him. What kind of church does that? Mind you there are hundreds of cases at protectldskids of the abuse children have suffered in such. Go to counseling groups for women off campus at BYU and listen how common abuse is for women to endure and how they are devalued and told to not report it...again, what kind of church does that?

[@ambert5790]

What do you believe now?

[@jwebb1975]

gag...so glad to be out!

[@BethanyKay]

Thanks for watching! It makes me happy to see people getting out and finding the freedom on the other side. ♥

[@michaelparks5669]

sadly this woman is so unintelligent she has LDS Doctrine all messed up.

[@kadeknu9673]

I believe in unicorns

[@johnpeterson6163]

I have been free to choose how I want to live. I find it further proof of my faith and beliefs as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ when there are those that fight against, and preach against my faith. I have had challenges, and questions, but I have felt pure peace when living the teachings found in the Bible and the Book of Mormon.

[@BethanyKay]

Did you even watch this video?

[@illmsg77]

Yeah, I’ll bet he just commented to sound like you’re just trying to bring down his poor persecuted profits. I misspelled that on purpose.

[@s3ntin3l60]

Dude.....Joseph Smith lied to a lot of people. Get out of his trap.

[@InFltSvc]

God Bless you ! While the Mormons appear to be so good, clean and talk about Jesus, they don’t tell the world what they really believe in. Like most of what Satan controls, the simple fact that they have their own book they say goes with the bible, This is strictly forbidden by the Lord - look at the last page of any king James Bible ( anyone who adds or subtracts from this book will not see the kingdom of God! Smith was filled with Satan. I mean they teach you that Jesus was Satans brother and that he won a contest between them both by God and that is why Jesus became the savior…. This is a LIE! You made the right choice to leave . Stick to the Bible and no other book and you’ll be fine.

[@cameron9643]

So is the Islamic church true? They don’t accept Christ so you should point your beliefs towards them and tell them how Mohammad was a false prophet.

[@BethanyKay]

I'm not sure you understand the direction of my channel. Beliefs are fallible things that are based on faulty childhood conclusions and formulate quickly as adults from the slightest amount of sketchy information. After finding out how fallible our minds are (Watch a few Brain Games episodes) and having found out first-hand that I had formed beliefs around false information, ALL beliefs are now under question in my world. As soon as we stop questioning and think we have the answers, we stop learning & expanding.

[@crwilkinson248]

What is the unsettling information did you find out about Joseph Smith I would like to know and did you get the information from anti Mormon literature it's interesting that you think they have all the facts about the truth about Joseph Smith I don't think they do either they just say what they want to support their beliefs against the church not actual facts.

[@BethanyKay]

Here's the rest of the information. I hope you will watch and then you can decide for yourself if they should be telling members about this :) kzbin.info/www/bejne/jJvHZX6MiM-lfpY