What Next? | Spoken Word Poetry

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Growing up I was what most people would call a geek
You know the straight A students, who’d stress out over their grades and dedicate most of their time to study.
Yep, that was me.
From a young age it was instilled into our brains that if we want to make something of ourselves then we need to go to university!
I mean it was practically a necessity.
Why? Because it would increase your job prospects and ensure financial stability
And when you’re sixteen that’s the ultimate goal really.
I remember applying for college and the question that was often asked was -
Taz, what do you want to be?
I had no idea.
I wasn’t thinking about my future, I barely remembered the day of the week?
and I definitely did not deal well with responsibility
The truth is I never knew the answer to that question,
I based my choices down to my GCSE’s
I did well at Law so I figured, hey, a lawyer it shall be.
Studied hard, 2 years passed and I finally started university.
Uni was anything but easy.
Reading lists were ever - growing, stress was at an all time peak
read, eat, sleep, repeat.
cram for the exam you have next week.
It was crazy.
I’d love to tell you stories about how I was having the time of my life and going to crazy parties
but I can’t really
The truth is I spent most nights exhausted, reading case law at a 24 hour library.
I was living the dream.
3 years later and I finally got myself a bachelor’s degree.
and that’s when it hit me.
I came to the realisation, that this isn’t who I want to be.
After graduation came the stress.
Filling in one job application after the other, dreading the impending student loan debts
I was a mess.
Struggling to get by with only one question on my mind,
What’s Next?
The next few months were hard
fill out an application form, get rejected, and then inevitably fall apart
Build myself back up and restart
Felt like I had an empty future ahead of me and I wasn’t getting very far.
Stop. Reassess.
The anxiety hits me all over again.
back to the drawing board I guess.
Overwhelmed by the stress - I confess.
I don’t know what’s next.
and we’re back to the first step.
Looking back now, hitting rock bottom was the best thing that could’ve happened to me.
It took feeling like an absolute failure to finally set me free.
I had a fresh start, a chance to rebuild myself
Be whoever I wanted to be.
Because what’s there to lose when you have nothing?
but what’s there to gain? - everything.
I started writing, creating films, performed spoken poetry,
discussed important topics and talked about things that mattered to me,
I made people stop, think, feel,
For the first time in my life I was doing something that felt real.
No more pressure to compete,
I simply worked hard doing what I love and told myself, whatever will be will be
I grew an online audience, connected with people worldwide, and for the first time in my life I saw things so clearly.
No longer adhering to social constructs, I’m choosing my own path, and I’ve never felt more free.
I want to feel, like really feel.
Travel the world and connect with people.
I want to help, make an impact, tell incredible stories,
conquer all my darkest fears and live limitlessly.
No more running away anymore,
I want to delve into the unknown, take risks and chances,
because as cliche as it sounds we really do only live once,
and I don’t plan on taking that for granted.
So ask me again what’s next? and I’ll say the answer is easy.
What’s next is continuing to work hard doing what I love
and an infinite amount of opportunity.

[@ameliakhbais5658]

"What's to gain? Everything" chillsss

[@thisdudesam4332]

Amelia Khbais - my thoughts exactly

[@nazzaniens]

it's almost weird how everytime you speak my mind. I'm 16 now and the only question I hear every day is: what do you want to be later? what are you gonna do? and most of the time I try to change the subject cause I really don't know and the future scares me. You're such a big inspiration for me. thank you

[@Nil-ns9oz]

Nazzanien I feel the same

[@nazzaniens]

***** I always try but it's hard.

[@shababyyy4494]

Nazzanien the same she speak my mind

[@ikhlassmoonlight9629]

I m 16 ND I had to shose what I will be now in the age of 16 I decided my future while I couldn't even decide what to wear tomorrow 😞

[@seialofia]

Nazzanien i feel the same way too! even though i have an idea of what i wanna do, my question is "how do i get there?"

[@nihed8049]

God, I never wanted you to stop talking.. and you literally just spoke my mind. You literally just made me feel. I wanna tell you I'm proud of you, like really really proud of you. Darling you're going places in life, trust me. and I wanna be there all the way. to tell u I'm proud of you over and over again. I might not know u in person, true. you have no flying idea about who I am, also true. but I love you. I love your mind, and I love how every single word u say hits deep. Just where I want it to hit. Again, I love you.

[@thisdudesam4332]

"hittin rock bottom was the best thing thay couldve happened to me" - ❤💪 Love this one Taz. You did great.

[@dalia5028]

People like you are the ones who make difference in this world. You're a great inspiration and i really can't stop watching your videos and listening to your poetry. You have a great future ahead of you girl. Keep doing what you love. By the way, you're really beautiful in a different way.. like idk but it's a good different of course. much love

[@soniamendes9948]

I come back here everytime I feel alone..tq taz

[@melq-vp2if]

I'm a musician, and at first it was well, but then nothing felt like worth for me, nothing was interesting...now I'm trying to enter in a nurse's school, I have a feeling that I will only be happy helping others...but I'm also still lost... so thanks for this words, you are amazing!

[@melq-vp2if]

***** thanks for that words! I needed to hear that 😊

[@eugenegabriel9447]

I'm so fascinated by your cinematography as much as I love your poetries. -love from Philippines

[@benjamintrillfigger7433]

My Favourite one for ages Bro 👊

[@ClickForTaz]

BiPolar Panda aw thanks bro! 🤘🏻

[@Freegreenwanderer]

Hey if you enjoy spoken word..you may like my channel! Let me know what you think :)

[@pettyeddie2000]

Taz I'm glad to hear things turned out better for you. I hope they stay that way forever and you remain happy. I'm 50, in a couple of days I'll be 51, and I don't have a "what's next". I'm divorced. Went through bankruptcy. Lost my house to foreclosure and had my car repossessed. Eventually I got evicted from a different house and was almost homeless if it wasn't for my sister finding me this apartment. I haven't worked for a few years now because I get anxiety/panic attacks and miss a lot of work. I filed for disability, due to my anxiety and depression and because I have a bad lower back where I can't lift much, and after 3 years of it being in court I just received a letter stating that my appeal has been denied. A few years back I cashed in my 401K to live on so now I have no retirement money to look forward to. So when I saw the title of this video you made it made me ask myself the question and I'm having a hard time seeing any "next". But that's mine and not yours to worry about. I am truly happy to see things working out for you and wish you continued success. Thank you !

[@sarahjanechandler]

You inspired me to try spoken word. I've never done it before KZbin. I love your poetry and I think your editing is awesome!

[@seandonsparta3180]

this is amazing ,she did too inspired me now am doing poerty too i love it,, just the day be4 yesterday i wrote CRY ME A RIVER ...... GOOD JOB XOXOXO

[@leedekoski6563]

Posted on my birthday💕this is the best thing I could ask for, thank you Taz!! Thanks for being your amazing self

[@jennamutter8880]

This is exactly what i needed. You are amazing Taz, thank you for putting yourself out there.

[@unicornforever606]

I can relate to this in so many levels! from the anxiety after graduation to rebuilding yourself again after rejection. Everything! I spent the entire day watching your videos and i didn't regret anything! For the longest time I thought I was the only one feeling this way. Thank you! You're such an inspiration.

[@zzz-js3lx]

It's just motivation to me when taz speaks of everything I'm going through

[@emileerose2680]

This spoken word is beautiful! I love it taz!

[@jihanr6562]

I love this, I think we all feel this way sometimes so it's helpful to see how others are dealing.. Also love all the different shots

[@apaintedescape9727]

I'm glad I found your channel, you're so talented and inspiring!❤

[@natalielucie]

I can't even express how much this video means to me right now. I found your channel at literally the absolute perfect day. Thank you so much.

[@AishaKaree]

Beautiful, I feel like I'm in this exact scenario right now; I just started university.

[@-hat-1510]

Somehow you give me inspiration and I want to thank you for that. Lots of love

[@reccalee5010]

Thank you for being such an inspiration !!! You've hit me real hard Taz !!! Continue to inspire more youths !!

[@huntermeek7450]

As a kid who's afraid of growing up partly because of the fakeness of most adults, I needed this.

[@charlieromeo7488]

You are so beautiful, both inside and out. You are an inspiration and give me hope. I could listen to your voice literally all day and never tire of hearing your words. Please, never stop doing spoken word poetry.

[@spd7978]

you did it again taz, you did it again 💜😭👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽

[@kamenielakhan]

A few months ago I came across your poetry videos and it was the sign for me to start performing my own poetry. Thank you for the inspiration. You're a brilliant writer & speaker

[@djouann]

Your situation resonates so much with me Taz! Keep doing you, you are so talented in what you do 😊

[@taniabrandstaetter1070]

oh my this was so beautiful it's definitely one of my favorites❤️

[@MegDion]

This was so beautiful. Completely agree with you...

[@wardazoubir922]

Thank you for the inspiration! You're an amazing, sincere human being ❤

[@atothejjj]

Wow. Just wow. You're amazing at putting into words what you truly feel. What I feel. I find comfort knowing that I'm not the only one undergoing such crisis. You inspire me. Thank you so much.

[@ar.aarthip8532]

I know I am late to watch this. But I suppose I have watched this in the time when I needed to hear this the most. I am quite certain that you may be younger than me, but Taz, I wish I were as confident and clear minded as you are when I was depressed because of my not so perfect transition from a straight a student to a sudden failure . Thanks for this. This means a lot

[@daniboaventura4320]

I completely love your spoken words, they help me so much! I am just about to go to university and I am feeling pretty lost! Keep on living your dream! Much love from Brazil 💙

[@SmillyDonut]

I can relate to so much of this. I'm slowly getting out of the rock bottom step, but I'm still trying to figure out what I want to and can do. This was just so real to me in so many ways. It's like you were telling my story. Wow. You are an amazing poet.

[@SimplyKinz]

Damn this really hit home for me. Feeling lost & unsure has become quite a norm for me lately, and I want to change that so badly. The filming & editing in this was so powerful, definitely one of my new favourite of yours! Thank you once again Taz for another piece of brilliant work! Xx :)

[@floralspectre]

Brilliant!! I loved it, as always!! You can really see the amount of work which went into making this 😁

[@jacksonkelly6695]

Its funny that you posted this video because a week ago I decided this myself and only just seen this! Keep inspiring, you're going to make an impact on so many peoples lives!! :)

[@theamp1986]

You're amazing!!! Thank you for these inspiring videos to be true to ourselves.

[@healthydiabetic6695]

You are AMAZING! Love all your videos. So inspiring. thank you! :)

[@LethalTobinator]

I just stumbled upon your videos and I'm hooked on every word you say!!! You inspire and relate to me and it feels amazing, thank you so much!

[@pokegirlk9]

Absolutely amazing.

[@fallontje]

I admire you. You're so real. You're amazing! You're brave. Don't forget that!

[@TheElimmist]

This is really inspiring.. thank you for your words

[@indianna017]

I'm obsessed with your poetry!! Amazing!!

[@allyalix8292]

I literally love you so so much and your poetry has made me feel as though I'm not alone. Thank you

[@sabinnasrallah1372]

So motivational!!! You're flawless ❤️

[@sunitarani6854]

It's so relatable , so much.

[@A4PMedia]

Beautifully Written. Thanks for sharing

[@sefforasolomon2457]

The best 4 minutes and 2 seconds of my life👏👏

[@90foxmustangguy49]

Taz your amazing and inspirational I follow you on Snapchat and been waiting for your next video. I'm going through my depression stages right now but Thank God for you, you inspire me. Please continue

[@itiswhatitis_842]

So refreshingly eye opening and inspirational. Thank you

[@juliawinkler3670]

Honestly this is what I think everyday Because I'm only 14, but I stress about what I want and I want to be free and do things and live my life but I wonder HOW DO I DO THAT? I would live to write poetry, write books, write stories, but how do I do that? I'm already writing my things, I'm working on books but I fear I can never finish One and although I have my dream it'll never come true and my life will just repeat always. How unfair is that actually? Where from do I get the money? My books will never achieve any success, I can say that for sure, because they're bad. How do I live?

[@potatoyoutube9225]

Hello! I’m 14 right now and honestly I feel the same, and I’m scared of my future. Hows it been? After 3 years, what do you think now? Hope you see this but you probably won’t.

[@alyannebakker3062]

I love you Taz :) This one is really beautiful! You motivate me, thanks xx

[@beccax8863]

Moving... Truly inspiring.

[@daniameza4828]

Just what I needed to hear, you're talented!

[@ErinAnastasia]

I'm at a similar crossroads now in my life, and can totally relate. I really appreciate your poetry and the time you put into your videos!

[@hamdifeisal7777]

All through its like you have been talking about me. I love your work

[@terongomaitipene-matua102]

This is pretty much me now. Im about to graduate my degree and i have no idea what to do next. And the people around me just put more pressure on me to find a job.

[@mayyaamd]

i feel you :(

[@terongomaitipene-matua102]

Mayya Amd It sucks right? Hopefully we both get out of this time of our life haha, and hopefully it's going to happen soon!

[@mayyaamd]

Tonoz it sucks big time.. i just started college, now after watching this clip i cant decide whether i should go for the degree or not....cuz lets face it..we all know we will be jobless after graduation... yeah i hope so too, i hope we really get out of it soon..maybe we should start seeing life the way Taz does

[@terongomaitipene-matua102]

Mayya Amd You're so right. Ugh, stressful times! Yeah we should try seeing things differently. Good luck!

[@mayyaamd]

Tonoz you too!! u got this!

[@-itsnoora-5533]

I don't know how would I survive my senior year if I didn't know you thank you for your inspiration

[@talyachamp4557]

I love her sooo much ugh if i could meet her

[@thisdudesam4332]

Talya Champ -lal, right.

[@lowrijames2108]

Im so in love with your channel and you definitely have a talent for poetry xx

[@ceciliaratibor8554]

This is great! I love your videos and I truly enjoy watching them and listening to you! So, thank you:)

[@ceciliaratibor8554]

Also your voice is really calming

[@kimberlymozo929]

Proud of you Taz! You've come so far! :)

[@dude9551]

Thank you for writing this-- I think it's my favourite poem of yours just because I relate to it so much. Knowing I'm not the only one going through this mIDLIFE crisis helps.

[@roderigosan]

YOU'RE SO INSPIRING!!

[@starringjem8864]

amazing video!! i love all your spoken words ❤❤❤

[@loesklaassen8457]

Loved this ! Really inspiring, just what I needed.. Much love .x

[@mariagil8419]

so good!! love your work

[@AarushiSrivastava]

this is so inspiring Taz. I'm so happy for you!

[@JohanaFlores13]

Ugh love this. You are one of a kind Taz! You have a new sub.💓💓💓much love

[@ajlabastida3553]

Amazing!!! I love all of it❤️❤️

[@DarlinMarleneVeVo]

I loved it, you're amazing ♡ regards from the Dominican Republic love ♡

[@maureencamilleri5770]

Omg i'm speechless :O this is exactly how i'm feeling right now. I wish I could meet with you and speak to you all day because I feel you would understand everything that I am feeling right now. I just finished uni (after 4 yrs) and I ve been studying Marketing. Now that I graduated I feel lost. I ve been sending CVs but everyone rejected me and I don't know what's gonna happen. I wake up every morning without any scope and I have to say I am starting to feel really depressed. I dont want to bore you with my boring life but I would like to thank you for sharing your story because it honestly made me feel better knowing that I am not alone and I am not different from the rest.

[@melisapasipanodya8392]

wow you are such an inspiration thank you

[@scrs0898]

dude this is so relatable for me now

[@eleanorbronwen1437]

This spoken word poem was very needed for me and really struck a chord, so thank you :) I have been watching you for a while but have only just made a KZbin account today. I started at uni in September studying a History degree but left last week because I realised that it just wasn't for me. I have spent the past year since I first applied to uni feeling very lost, knowing that I wasn't making the choices that were right for me but without really knowing any alternative path to take. I've come home to find myself being seen differently by a lot of people who know me because of my decision but this video has made me realise that at the end of the day all that truly matters is that I'm happy. I hope to go back to uni next year to study English Language instead as I think that that's where my real passion lies. I thought it would be a fun project for me to create a KZbin account to upload content to and to invest my time into whilst I'm trying to figure out the whole uni thing as it's something I've been wanting to try for a while but have never had the confidence/right mentality to do. I've only recently become aware of the existence of spoken word poetry and have KZbinrs such as yourself to thank for my discovery of it. It's something that I've been starting to try myself and within the next couple of weeks/months hope to have gotten myself to a stage where I feel like I can share my own poetry on KZbin. Thank you for posting such a lovely video and I wish you luck with everything in the future

[@thisdudesam4332]

ordinellie - ❤ felt this. Excited for you!! Your contribution will be great.

[@reesedyck6814]

This is amazing! Much love Taz💓

[@wesleyy1691]

I love watching your videos! 💜

[@TheMadmoo7]

You are honestly incredible this left me speechless, well done 👏

[@thisdudesam4332]

Added to my favs.

[@aishamoolla8051]

Amazing and inspirational as usual taz 😁

[@nursenwilson2058]

in just 4 minutes and 2 seconds you have inspired me to do what I was always afraid of doing. Thank you✌

[@missidec]

Simply awesome theme...when one walks away from the norm towards the calling of the heart's desires, liberty is experienced.

[@annepfeffer6995]

Awesome video! I absolutelly love it.

[@natashamizibrocky1321]

You're such an inspiration. i love this video.

[@GDBOYFilms]

love the smoke alarm beeping. it adds to the message haha

[@jxssx_]

I love your videos and vlogs.You have inspired me to be positive and enjoy every little things in life and be happy.I really love you❤️.You gave me hope😘.You are literally goals.😀

[@elizabeth4286]

I love this channel so much.

[@JustMeJewel]

Wow. I am currently going through the same thing. I really needed to see this...thank you

[@chanteljnai6728]

I miss your spoken word poetry. Please do more.

[@antoniaweight3245]

I'm 19 and I still get the question "What are you going to do?" "Where do you see yourself in 5 years, 10 years?" but after watching this, I've realised now...thank you so much for this!

[@zaraishtiaq805]

I Love Your Videos And I Think Your Beautiful From The Inside And Outside. Keep Up The Good Work And By The Way Your Voice Is Amazing, It Gets To Me Every Time!

[@Emma-sr8ri]

I really love your videos! They're great! :)

[@vorname4950]

beautiful, really

[@akgo2684]

happy that u have turned it around... I hope I will

[@LifeLikeI]

You are absolutely brilliant!!!

[@shifalijuls2209]

You spoke my mind....

[@MariahMonique]

Your handwriting is perfect!

[@kater5754]

love this, happy that everything worked out for you :)

[@shereenhellas]

I always look forward for your videos. 💓 keep doing you.