Thanks for watching, please read this comment for some additional information & context! First, a couple notes: 21:19 Meant to say ‘stuck in bed for 3 days,’ my brain was just fried. Hospital stay was 12 days. 54:24 By 6 weeks post op the leaking had completely stopped Now some important info for new & returning viewers! * Keep an eye on my channel for Feb 11th-12th, I will be releasing a second surgery video in which I give advice about being prepared to undergo surgery, as well as an in-depth look at dilation. Please like and share this video, as the more people this video(and more particularly) my second video reach, the more people we can help here. * I am still not at a stage in my healing process where I can make any judgement or recommendations for surgeon, location etc. etc. I just don’t have enough information to make an educated judgement at the moment. Please don’t take this video as a confirmation that you should or shouldn’t get surgery in Thailand. * To any new viewers, I just want to note that this video is an extreme departure from my normal content - I’m just doing this because I think I can help people with this series. Normally I focus on character centric comedy content, I really hope you stick around and check out my other videos because I think you might like them! * Lastly, this video is just intended to show you what getting gender reassignment surgery might be like. Please note that every surgeon has different processes, techniques, and gives different advice. Your recovery might be different from mine. My Surgery Timeline: September 18th - Admission 19th - Main Surgery 22nd - Packing Change Operation 25th - Graft Operation 28th - Disconnected October 1st - Discharged from Hospital 7th - Follow up appointment 10th - Flight home
@BunnyNiyori11 ай бұрын
Seen a lot of KZbinrs who get GRS do similar, yours has been sterling dear. Thanks for helping by providing your experiences.
@pjotor511 ай бұрын
Interesting how different things were for me, I had my vag installed exactly a month after you in Belgrade, Serbia. First day was anxiety, fear, checks, talks with doctors and a lot of laxatives :-) the worst part was anal cleansing 2x a day and I was crying while the nurse was doing it. Then on a day of surgery more waiting, more anxiety and fear. Then a nurse came in and told me it's time, so I walked to pre-op room got on that terrible hard plastic bed that looks like a cross and the real anxiety started, my BP was fine until then but it shoot up, breathing got heavy, doctors were very concerned and added some more anesthesia, but I didn't reacted to that, then I remembered I had my ukulele in my room, asked a nurse to bring her, because she always calms me down, a nurse brought my ukulele and immediately I was calm and holding my ukulele after that it all went dark and I woke up hearing: Can you please scoot to the left it would be great, that was me moving from operating table to my bed after surgery, I had asked a nurse to take a pic of me, then then recovery was hard, I was there alone, in the sound proofed room, the loneliness was super hard, I have no friends or family to support me, only pain I had were my feet as they were clamped in to some steel boots for 10 hours then my back from being in bed, but after one day I was able to get up walk around, after 4 days I was ready to go home but they let me stay for 2 more days because they don't want to discharge people during weekends. On Monday I had my packing removed, had a good look how pretty my vag is and at 15:00 I was on a taxi back to my Airbnb, then I walked to supermarket bought some food and had a proper shower and felt like human and amazing. 10 days after surgery my catheter was removed and I that's it done. Hardest part is isolation in hospital and recovery alone, but you can do it alone, it's hard but it toughens you up, you can do anything, there is no limit
@DanielleWhite11 ай бұрын
I really appreciate that you are doing this. I had vaginoplasty over a decade ago and was woefully unprepared for the experience because the prevailing attitude was "we can't say that it's ever anything less than an absolute joy." As a result I went into it expecting it to be far easier than it was and with a poor understanding of risks about less than ideal outcomes, factors that made dealing with both a lot harder - I struggled with the short term recovery because I was unprepared for it to be that difficult and with a poor result (loss of sensitivity) because I had been directly told (including by my therapist) that it was impossible. All of it led to me regretting having surgery, an outcome that definitely would have been avoided with access to better information before surgery.
@rebeccasam343411 ай бұрын
@@pjotor5 I am so glad how well that went for you! It’s so scary about hearing about it anyway. All of this brings up so many emotions for me. Would be quite convenient to just have one’s neurological sex match everything to begin with 😬😕. It’s all so “fun” to deal with. my main fear obviously if I could is what if they’re terrible, what if they screw up, what if I’m worse off? I know there’s absolutely terrible surgeons that shouldn’t be practicing, though obviously there seem to be good ones also.
@rebeccasam343411 ай бұрын
@@DanielleWhite I don’t know how it was 10 years ago but it definitely seems like there’s some surgeons that shouldn’t be practicing. I hate that people have to do so much research to try to figure out if someone’s any good, and what the risks are with any given procedure in any given surgeon. I hope you’re OK in some capacity. All of it just brings up so many emotions for me because I probably can’t access anything, there’s so much fear for me if I could, and then others getting to do things I can’t even though I don’t want to have a bad reaction it just makes my brain freak out and feel faint and what not. It’s hard to process.
@Jackie_Sins11 ай бұрын
From one trans girl to another thank you for sharing your experience. I hope to have this surgery relatively soon.
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Thank you so much!! Good luck!!
@Bloody_Corpses11 ай бұрын
Good luck 🤗
@p1nk_em11 ай бұрын
good luck!!!
@NewJack-wr4bq7 ай бұрын
I beg you not to. The Lord made your body how it should be…. Don’t listen to demons telling you to debase yourself and destroy your manhood. The painful irony is that you will only “be in the wrong body” one day when you realize your manhood was sacrificed to this sick world. Jesus touch this person
@JeffTiberend7 ай бұрын
Good luck! I hope I can get on HRT in the future.
@shadowzero367311 ай бұрын
I dont plan on getting this surgery myself, but I am so unendingly thankful that you made this video to inform our fellow gals
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
You’re welcome. Information is power!
@wingnut716 ай бұрын
He is not a gal, and never will be. He is not even a "trans" woman because you cannot transition to be female if you were born male. (This should be obvious by the fact none of these people can carry a child or give birth. The most accurate term to describe post SRS MtF is a pseudo-female.
@m0xleyybabee11 ай бұрын
As a white British straight (kind of, long story) dude that noone asked for the opinion of. Your an inspiration and thank you for doing this so that people who want to transition can use your story as a piece of strength instead of being ashamed of being in the wrong body. You all are good people.
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Thank you so much xx
@FrankensteinsMom11 ай бұрын
You are a lovely person❤
@KoryFae11 ай бұрын
I am very curious to know what the long story behind being straight is. Thank you for being a good person
@KoryFae11 ай бұрын
@@omp199 oh eff off with your woke ideals and let trans people exist
@KoryFae11 ай бұрын
@@scrumps101 As a transgender non-binary person, I would like to point out that (1) you don't know enough about this situation to decide what is and isn't ridiculous. Considering all of the health professionals disagree with you should give you pause in your opinionizing on what is and isn't ridiculous, but I know it won't. (2) If you are willing to listen to my lived experience, transitioning is the greatest form of self acceptance I have ever done for myself. And the years of denial and trying to 'accept' my body was more self repression and trying to meet societal standards than anything else. Once I accepted myself and chose to live my life how I wanted to, shit just became a lot easier and better, and of course the transphobes started frothing but I'm not going to go back into the closet and hating myself for the likes of them.
@cthulhucy11 ай бұрын
Waking up from bottom surgery is such a weird feeling, it feels like a SUPER tight tuck. And the first shower where you look down and don't see it between your legs? Wow
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Oh yeah hahaha it was pretty wild
@CybernerdShua11 ай бұрын
Don't make me MORE excited for bottom surgery, please. (This was made to be a joke. I think it's awesome that it can be so life-changing)
@rebeccasam343411 ай бұрын
I’m probably lucky that I can’t really see anything anyway Since I probably can’t do anything about things.
@EstrogenSingularity7 ай бұрын
I've had my Orchiectomy I don't know if I can handle the recovery for bottom surgery but the more I think about it the more I want it
@user-nd7rd8jo6h5 ай бұрын
I was able to capture my initial reaction on video, ugliest cry ever 🤣🤣🤣
@epic_squid11 ай бұрын
The lil bit with you mum at 31:00 made me tear up 😭From a trans girl in Canada keep kicking ass and im sending you the biggest internet hug!
@foxracoon20085 ай бұрын
Let’s go Canadian trans girls 🇨🇦🏳️⚧️
@Tainted_Julz_Radio4 ай бұрын
I don’t know if my daughter ever wants to have bottom surgery but because of your video I will not let ANYTHING stop me from being there if she does.
@aliceinwonder1and4 ай бұрын
Good
@noahibanez77712 ай бұрын
Trump has entered the chat. lol jk
@penelopermolai11 ай бұрын
as a young transfem, I still don't know if I want bottom surgery or not. Videos like this help me get a better idea of the experience. Thank you so much for sharing.
@rebeccasam343411 ай бұрын
Either way, unfortunately I think it’s extremely important to research any given surgeon and procedure that you might look into. It definitely seems like there’s some surgeons who don’t know what they’re doing and shouldn’t be practicing. I hate that it’s our responsibility to research this stuff!! Not remotely fair. For that matter, we’re already stuck researching stuff about other things like HRT since so many medical providers don’t know what the hell they’re talking about
@penelopermolai11 ай бұрын
@@ninajustiniano9055 Why do you care so much? Do you want my penis?
@rebeccasam343411 ай бұрын
@@ninajustiniano9055 I mean only if you use a terrible surgeon, which is unfortunately why you need to look in to how well an individual surgeon’s results go.
@wasitacaroracatisaw-xk6ky8 ай бұрын
Just because a woman might have a manly cock and balls doesn't mean she's not a strong woman. A penis doesn't make you a man!
@shadowcween78906 ай бұрын
Many women say that they feel indifferent to it, but then after a couple months of progesterone, they decide that they want it.
@EmpireGamingWynter11 ай бұрын
Your mom is so cool and supportive. I'm glad you had her to lean on through all of this
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
She’s fucking awesome
@Genevieve1119 ай бұрын
@@aliceinwonder1andAbsolutely... 💕
@NewJack-wr4bq7 ай бұрын
A complete failure
@EmpireGamingWynterАй бұрын
@@NewJack-wr4bq stop looking in the mirror when commenting on KZbin
@gelatinous691511 ай бұрын
Thank you for opening up about this! I've wanted to get bottom surgery forever but it's a very expensive and intimidating surgery. It's good to hear other people's experience.
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
You’re welcome xx
@marie-michelleanderson28514 ай бұрын
I smiled for you when you said I have a vagina! Then teary . Your mom makes me think of my mother. A beautiful rock full of pure yet selfless love. She may not feel comfortable with your or my choices but she's there loving her baby! Give your mom flowers 🌺 from me. A stranger at the other side of the Earth who admires her strength, love and commitment to her child! I pray that she has someone helping her be strong!
@___Marie___11 ай бұрын
Your relationship with your mom seems so sweet, I'm really happy for you 😊 Big hugs to both of you 🫂🫂
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
I love her a lot
@wolfsainio811511 ай бұрын
It's very brave and kind of you to share something as personal as this. ❤
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
I want to help people!
@wolfsainio811511 ай бұрын
@@aliceinwonder1and 💗
@Xandra511 ай бұрын
While I don't ever plan on getting bottom surgery (it's too scary and costly for me 😅), I am so glad you were able to, and that you were able to share your experience with everyone. I really hope you are able to help out people who are considering getting bottom surgery after seeing what your experience is like
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
I respect that, it was certainly scary!!
@Banter0711 ай бұрын
I’m delighted that it went well for you! I hope the revision surgery goes swimmingly.
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Thanks!!
@Banter0711 ай бұрын
@@aliceinwonder1and how do you have time to reply to so many people… very impressive, though I can’t imagine you sleep that much
@hubblebubbledouble11 ай бұрын
As a fellow trans girl, this was so incredibly inspiring, from start to finish. And the relationship you have with your mother is just so heart-warming and refreshing to see. Please keep spreading educational information like this. Not only does it help us trans people, but it helps educate so many cis people too! Truly wish you the best, Alice ❤and I hope you have a good revision Here, have a blåhaj 🦈 :) 🫴
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Thank you!!
@rebeccasam343411 ай бұрын
Oh my gosh, I love your ending to your message! 😅 I’ve only been able to watch this slowly over the course of days because it’s kind of emotionally rough for me. But I teared up when her mom came in, when they were being separated, and kissed her on the forehead. I’m tearing up again saying that now.
@hubblebubbledouble11 ай бұрын
@@rebeccasam3434 It was so wholesome 😭 I was hugging my Blåhaj so tightly while watching it 😢 🦈
@rebeccasam343411 ай бұрын
aaaaaaah! I really need to get Blåhaj... Do you have a big one or little one?@@hubblebubbledouble
@writer4life72411 ай бұрын
While I'm cis, I've had trans friends talk about this surgery and metoidioplasty. Thank you for sharing your journey to help others and I wish you luck on the follow-up surgery!
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Thank you so much!!
@stefkakratseva48808 ай бұрын
What is this cis??? A made up bullshit from the ugly confused psychos that wanna be women😅😅😅! How mad can you be??? So nothing like cis-mis words!!! It is called a WOMAN!!!! And the wanna be crazy ones 😂😂😂😂!
@scratchy17047 ай бұрын
No cis is made up.
@nifflofair66857 ай бұрын
You are a woman not cis!
@HumanimalChannel7 ай бұрын
Calling yourself cis... don't be such a simp. It isn't a meaningful word, it is slang that degrades fact and it is completely unnecessary. You say, "whilst I am not trans" for example. "Man" "woman" are full complete descriptions that do not require, nor never will require, embellishmnet or any type of added descriptor. They are complete, succinct, and correct.
@YayStephanie20 күн бұрын
Thanks!
@berrie-nice-to-meet-you11 ай бұрын
I was going to get surgery myself in two weeks, but the surgeon's office screwed me over and it's not happening, so I just can't bring myself to watch this yet. It all hurts too much. I really appreciate you making this video for us, I'll come back to watch when I'm ready, I'm sorry
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Aww I’m really sorry. That’s awful. Hope you get it soon
@rebeccasam343411 ай бұрын
I’m so sorry. If you get to be scheduled again somewhere please do as much research as you can about the surgeon and outcomes and stuff, because they’re definitely seem to be terrible surgeons. I’ve been watching this video slowly, I’m only 18 minutes in so far and that’s after probably a few days. It’s really hard for me, as has been processing surgeries that friends have had, because it’s like I can’t access it and it just brings up so many emotions and makes me have to confront things I guess, I had really extreme reactions to friends that I didn’t want to have and didn’t know I would have. Zero clue things were going to hit me so hard
@nana73carol4611 ай бұрын
Just don't do it!
@rebeccasam343411 ай бұрын
@@nana73carol46 Why? Unfortunately I think everyone needs to do a lot of research on specific surgeons and specific methods before selecting something, and obviously weigh the risks and everything but…
@1976mcfarlane7 ай бұрын
Might be a blessing in disguise.
@Rose-rx7ly5 ай бұрын
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I'm preparing for bottom surgery and I've been having such a hard time. I don't know anyone who has gone through it, and I've had a million questions. This video really put this in perspective. I put myself in your shoes and it made me cry .... Thank you ... I know its what i need to do, I know its going to be hard ... but having this insight into what I'm getting myself into, as scary as it is, .... is incredibly helpful I know this is a very personal part of your journey, and I truly appreciate the privilege to understand it through your eyes. I'm gonna do it, wish me luck ❤ Again, thank you so so much ❤❤❤❤
@Sophie_the_Tallest11 ай бұрын
I found your channel 3 weeks ago and in that time you doubled your follower. Congratulations Girl! It's great how well the operation has gone so far and I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it only takes one more operation and that you'll be happy. It's also so nice to see your mother supporting you.
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Thanks!! Me too
@Aubstob11 ай бұрын
I am so envious, Florida is being funny right now and I still have to go through high school until I can transition, thanks for keeping my spirits high.
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Aww stay strong xx
@lyricalsmilez11 ай бұрын
The transition is safer the older you are so you can be fully developed for better results. It is not on you it is just on science of your body and puberty... at least for actual surgery for transitioning. Also, I am not coming at you just giving facts, went to school for a BS in science.
@solsystem134211 ай бұрын
@@lyricalsmilez Oh, you have a BS in science? That doesn't qualify you to give to medical advice to a stranger you've only read a single message from pal. Otherwise I'd be able to open a doctors office with my degree in astronomy 😂
@rebeccasam343411 ай бұрын
@@lyricalsmilez surgeries are pretty much only accessible to legal adults. Other stuff we’re better off avoiding the wrong puberty. Ditto for cis people too, it’s just cis people get the right one by default.
@rose78968 ай бұрын
Just because you chop off certain body parts doesn't change who you are. I wish you could experience love for your body the way you were born
@SeanVeira11 ай бұрын
As someone who has multiple surgeries in my life, complete understanding being nervous about having surgery. As had the same experience with high blood pressure when I was dealing with doctors when I had my second bout of cancer. They failed to understand why someone might freak out after given them terrible news. Sigh…
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Aww. I’m sorry that sucks a lot. Hope you’re doing better now
@SeanVeira11 ай бұрын
@@aliceinwonder1and Yes, thank you. Recently made it to my five year cancer free mark. Hopefully your recovers will also go well.
@rebeccasam343411 ай бұрын
Yes, it’s clearly so complicated why someone might freak out 🙄🙄🙄 My blood pressure goes up anytime I’m around doctors and whatnot, much less before surgery I should think! I’ve only had surgery once, and it was like laparoscopic so comparatively no big deal at all and yet I was terrified, and even then I wasn’t really back to normal for months. I had really low energy for months, I could barely read for two weeks afterwards Thankfully I feel totally fine here years later!
@goatfan960511 ай бұрын
aw heck yeah, i was waiting for this!! quite helpful, thanks for making this video, a lot of people, myself included, are really gonna benefit from knowing what to expect from bottom surgery!!
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
You’re so welcome!!
@BlennzFire11 ай бұрын
I don't need bottom surgery cuz I'm already a bottom. Now all jokes aside I'm happy for you and I wish you to live the best life you ever can.
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Hehe silly bottom. Thanks xx
@BlennzFire11 ай бұрын
This video made me very much cry. You are a strong lady. @@aliceinwonder1and
@aylen706211 ай бұрын
Does that mean now Alice became a bottom?
@Aubstob11 ай бұрын
@@aylen7062 she did it for pegging ofc
@jordankids80505 ай бұрын
@aylen7062 yes, yes it does
@crybabyassassin173311 ай бұрын
I am currently in Bangkok. I just woke up from anesthesia at Kamol. I just have to say your room is huge!
@NaniNani-nl4xc11 ай бұрын
Fast recovery!
@MemeAnt11 ай бұрын
Congrats ma’am! Also the line at 18:31 had me laughing hysterically, props to you
@ghostdog042411 ай бұрын
Thank you so much for sharing your journey. Your courage to share these vulnerable days is much appreciated, and a valuable resource for those who come after.
@IAmNevermore11 ай бұрын
Dear Alice, I just wanted to say you are incredibly strong for going through all this and it's such a great thing for you to do to share all of this, thank you so much!
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Thank you so much!
@val3traАй бұрын
Oh hi there, here i am 3 weeks post op coming across this video again. It sure hits different than back in january, now that i've been through it all. A lot of similar experiences, even if details differ. Do wish i had someone like a mum with me, doing it all alone was hard. Yours is a treasure, keep reminding her of that. Anyway, thank you for making these, it was helpful back then when i was just setting everything up and anxious about taking the plunge. Hope the revision went well and you are happy a year in! ❤
@Genevieve1119 ай бұрын
34:55 Not everyone has that luxury... I will have nobody for my surgery... 😕 You were very lucky to have such a wonderful Mother to be at your side... ❤️💕❤️
@foreversingle19753 ай бұрын
Have you had your surgery
@Genevieve1113 ай бұрын
No... 10 months in on HRT... another 2 months before I can get on 'The List'...
@foreversingle19753 ай бұрын
@@Genevieve111 if you want a friend and support im available!
@maowtm11 ай бұрын
Excellent video, thank you so much for documenting your experience!
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
You’re welcome! Thank you xx
@madkow154011 ай бұрын
The hell we go thru just to feel 'normal', cis people will never appreciate it. Much love to you, your strength is an inspiration. My own story is similar. You did it. YOU DID IT! 💜
@teresawilson389311 ай бұрын
Cis people? You mean normal? Why would I want to know what they go through most of these transitions don’t end well you know why because it’s not normal !
@Dee-xi9tw8 ай бұрын
Not cis simply a woman, and no I think people that have their genitals removed are bat shit crazy!
@justcreepyinside364611 ай бұрын
Alice, you are an inspiration! I am currently completely at the beginning of everything (mtf), not even in social transitioning, but following your journey is eye-opening. Let's see where the years will take me. You have a new follower. Thank your for sharing this personal experience, i sent it to a friend of mine who is planning on getting GRS, i bet it helps her figuring stuff out and preparing herself. Love from germany.
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Thank you welcome aboard
@gidgetgetscrafty11 ай бұрын
I love that your momma is so supportive! 💕
@backhdlp11 ай бұрын
I just wanted to say that you're like my favourite woman of all time, your videos never fail to put a smile on my face.
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Aw thank you so much
@The_Trans_Raider11 ай бұрын
I am a 46 yr old Trans Woman and watching this video has helped me with my decision in regards to GRS. I have enjoyed watching your video’s and this one doesn’t disappoint at all! Thank you so very much for taking the time to make this video girl! I am so happy for you and am looking forward to the day that I can be in your shoes.
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
I’m rooting for you!
@456zounds17 күн бұрын
Would those shoes be high-heels?!! ; )
@4lex_r4yne5 күн бұрын
just wanted to say that you’re so pretty! very happy for you:) can’t wait to go forward with my transition in the future
@rm28284 ай бұрын
I love how articulate and real you are in describing your journey! It’s also such a pleasure to see how much you love and your mother love and support one another, a real blessing! And you are very attractive. I am a new subscriber and wish you Every happiness, you deserve it!!❤from Montreal
@jonsprivatelife11 ай бұрын
I get nervous just posting a comment on Reddit. I couldn't imagine uploading a blog that's so open and honest like this. It's legit inspirational! Thanks so much for sharing, the vibe of this video is so good, and I'm super glad you're doing well!! :)
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Thank you so much!!
@rebeccasam343411 ай бұрын
Yeah, the number of monsters out there, it literally is… I probably said too much in this comment section already and I worry about saying stuff on Reddit because of the monsters/sociopaths
@Not_Mickey_Official11 ай бұрын
As somebody who has had to go through 15 surgeries now by age 15 and (Not gender related due to age obvy.) But also a trans woman. I totally understand the stuff you went through to a certain point. Thank you for making this video for those who need it. Yeah, anesthia does suck and yeah, the clear sh$t is amazing. Glad you made it! You got a new sub girl!
@rebeccasam343411 ай бұрын
I’ve only had surgery once, and it took me basically three months to get back to normal more or less. The first two weeks I couldn’t even really concentrate to read. I couldn’t play video games either either. The only thing I was up for was watching TV.
@mewination11 ай бұрын
woo! you go girl!
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
hell yeah!!
@BunnyNiyori11 ай бұрын
Special cheer for your Mom, you are a great parent.
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Thank you, I love her very much
@HotDogTimeMachine38511 ай бұрын
Yeah, big cheer for a supportive mom!
@clairevagonis18737 ай бұрын
You are such a beautiful storyteller. I love the way you speak and you just tell everything just like it is I love learning about this kind of stuff. This is a part of life for a long time now people need to understand what other people go through, and if there’s nothing wrong with them, it’s just they were made in the wrong body.😊
@padatricks15615 ай бұрын
Thank you for making this really informative video and I’m so glad everything went well for you, my girlfriend is going to be getting bottom surgery when we can afford it, she can’t wait! Even though it will be a while until she’ll be able to get the surgery. I’m just out here researching to do my best to help and support her!
@IzzyBoop11 ай бұрын
I just wanna hug you. This video is amazing and helpful to so many people, myself included. Oh and your mom is an absolute MVP.
@morgandellamore502411 ай бұрын
Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us. My surgery is scheduled for Dec 17th of this year. So all the information I get ahead of time is greatly appreciated.
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Good luck!!
@morgandellamore502411 ай бұрын
@@aliceinwonder1and Thank you, so much!
@blackholeguy1529Ай бұрын
good luck for your rapidly approaching surgery!! i hope things go well
@morgandellamore5024Ай бұрын
@@blackholeguy1529 thank you!
@allyberg279211 ай бұрын
I’m ftm but I always find it interesting to hear about the “opposite experience” hah. You’re so brave and inspiring! Thank you for sharing this
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
You’re welcome!!
@Bloody_Corpses11 ай бұрын
Wow i also commented about how educational it is to watch different experiences as a trans man too
@Skaevs11 ай бұрын
@@Bloody_Corpses if you could get a penis would you? I've read that they're working on something.
@rebeccasam343411 ай бұрын
@@Bloody_Corpses yeah, I found it really helpful to hear from guys. It’s absolutely amazing to hear experiences that are so similar but inverted. One of my best friends is male and going through… sigh.
@JKing66611 ай бұрын
Congrats! 🍾🎈🎊 NOW PUT ON THE MAID OUTFIT!
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
ALREADY DONE
@SamantherPanther9 күн бұрын
Though I haven’t taken any of the steps with my insurance yet, I just decided today for sure that this is what I want to do. Your documentation is everything and so so necessary
@DaeTheGaeFae7 ай бұрын
Me watching you fly over 5000 miles for a three week stay while I'm stressing about whether my mom will be okay with taking me to a hospital 50 miles away for like a week... I'm so happy that your mom is completely supportive of your journey. I'm finally getting around to watching this because I've got a Zoom call tomorrow with the surgeon and some others because it's one of the requirements for the surgery. Lol.
@113016ify7 ай бұрын
Wow I have so many questions as I was born a woman I do find this amazing! It’s incredible to see how far things have come for the community. Congratulations 🍾
@allieholmes21926 ай бұрын
huge congrats i had my surgery back in 2019 with chett who was a very interesting person :D but its really nice to see someone else travel to get the surgery that saves lives :P but my god the weather was insane and being there alone kinda sucked but im so so happy for you :)
@naunga94509 ай бұрын
Your story is wonderful, and your video is amazingly thorough. Your mom is so great. You’re a lucky girl.
@gabbieblue11 ай бұрын
SLAY I CANT WAIT UNTIL I EARN ENOUGH MONEY TO DO THIS MYSELF- GLAD IT WENT WELL
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Good luck!!
@lousgameswin11 ай бұрын
Thanks so much for posting this - it's really helping me appreciate the entire process and realized how much I've wanted it. I'm very happy for you and looking forward to your follow up videos!
@clairevagonis18737 ай бұрын
I want to tell you, I’ve watched many many videos about this subject. I’ve also as a teacher had many many students that went through this you by far seem to be the most educated on the subject, the most well spoken and eloquent you should probably think about being a speaker for this. I hope that life brings you everything that you want you deserve it and you’re beautiful.❤
@IgneusOrion11 ай бұрын
OMG the wet dream thing! NEVER happened EVER before my surgery, now it's... every couple weeks? Only annoying because it can interrupt my sleep, but otherwise? HELL YEAH!
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
IM NOT ALONE !!
@rebeccasam343411 ай бұрын
Oh wow, I haven’t gotten that far in the video yet because it’s really emotionally difficult for me to watch so I’m doing it in small chunks. Sigh. It turns out I found out that I don’t actually work like how one would assume I would work in a lot of ways. I had no idea until I started researching stuff a few years ago. I wish I had gotten to that point in the video so I could know exactly what the two of you were talking about but I’ve only had one dream that was… once, in high school, and my body was right in it. That’s the only dream related to THAT I can remember, though sometimes I’m right in dreams, which is wonderful. The rest of the time typically just can’t remember my body. But sometimes it’s right.
@Storemotor737 ай бұрын
I am envious as a cis person
@captainnakou11 ай бұрын
yes, i've finally found the time to watch your video entirely and you can't imagine how, despite the "bad" parts of your experience, i felt inspired. you are a big inspiration for me since a long time but this video really take the cake. i didn't really want surgery since i came out to myself 3 years ago, but the idea has begun to take more and more root in my mind since i've started hrt last summer. and now i feel like i really need it. but since i am, however, like you said a faint of heart, i may need to prepare myself mentally for months. but after watching you (and reading about other people experiences for the past few month) i feel like "yeah, i can do this", because i really, really want it. i mean, like you said, the lingerie. not even that, just feeling good in a standard issue pantie without for it to be a tucking one would be quite the amazing feeling i can't wait to have. (also sex. i mean. come on.) so thank you alice, again, for sharing this with all of us. ps : about the dream, of course i don't have the experience, but i guess just the brain processing what's happening. also there is this thing called "phantom vagina" which is really present in transfem people, and maybe it's part of the reconciliation of who we were wired to be from the start (women) and what your body finally is? i'll turn back in 2 years (the waiting time it's usually for this kind of surgery in france) when you're big and famous to tell you if i got the same thing x).
@bigcol32111 ай бұрын
Such an amazing and truly informative video. Everyone who is considering surgery should watch this. Plus your mom is amazing. Big hugs to both of you
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Thank you!! Glad you liked it
@helenae52528 ай бұрын
My sister is going to have this surgery in the near future, and as an older sib I can’t help but feel stressed about the intensity of the surgery and recovery. Thank you for sharing your experience. You’ve answered a lot of my questions that I didn’t want to bother my sister with. I’m so happy for you!
@kaldaninja7 ай бұрын
If that what makes you truly happy glad your chasing it ! Good luck on your journey
@HalfWayTaken11 ай бұрын
You are so brave. This is one of the hardest things a person could go through, I am very happy for you. This is the second video I have watched and love the channel. Keep up the good work. I found this channel through AvaThroughFire
@theme_greatest3836 ай бұрын
The nurses did such a good job. Love you Alice.
@1Woofer14 ай бұрын
"T posing, to assert my dominance one final time before they took my penis away from me" was by far my favorite moment in this video lmaoo Anyhow congrats on getting the surgery! You don't know me so it probably means nothing but i'm proud of you for being able to do this
@Sasharisu9511 ай бұрын
Gosh, I did not expect to cry as much as I did watching this. So happy for you Alice! I hope maybe one day this will be me.
@angel-es9cs9 ай бұрын
i had srs 3 weeks ago ♡ its such an amazing feeling, i'm finally free! congratulations 💕
@reginanjus8 ай бұрын
Awesome and hopefully your very happy? Fantastic!
@davefisher184011 ай бұрын
This was excellent, and so helpful and informative. Thanks so much for posting!😊
@BunnyNiyori11 ай бұрын
Interesting to here of your procedure differences. I went from standing in a hospital gown, flashing Dr Brassard, and his remarking "lots of skin" I think that was a positive. Then surgery, not sure how long it was to be honest. Number of hours. And from there it was finished aside from recovery. I gained B cup breasts (I could have gone to C but decided nah). I can say that no man can tell if I was born with a vagina or not. My family doctor remarked during my first girl style exam "nice work" funny comment while my doctor is staring at my hoohaw considering I have been male with him for decades. I have had no issues.
@autumn_breeze61611 ай бұрын
I'm hoping to go with Brassard for my surgery... I'm really excited but also thinking about it for too long triggers my goofy ass anxiety ughh. I need this so so so badly but it also seems like the scariest thing I'll ever do. Hearing other people's stories helps normalize it though, so that's good. Thank you for that :)
@sammansfield214 ай бұрын
Well done for pushing on making yourself who you want to be. Keep rocking it and never let anybody try and make you doubt your choices ❤
@KathyMort11 ай бұрын
Only plan on getting the jambags removed but its so good to have all of this neat information, happy for you!❤
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Thanks!
@jenniferusher55645 ай бұрын
Hugs to you Alice and thank you for this informative video of your SRS in Thailand. I had mine in NYC back in June 2019, and it also involved a scrotal graft - although I had undergone electrolysis of the scrotum during the year prior. It seems yours was a more difficult surgery than mine. Mine was a single op, there was very little pain - I was mostly on Tylenol, and was discharged 5 days after the surgery. Perhaps the weirdest part of the post-op experience was when they drew out the packing. I did have to stay in NYC for another two weeks, then it was home. It took more than a month before I was comfortable sitting. Your Mom was wonderful. I was accompanied by my dear wife. It so helps to have a loved one with you during this operation. Like most of us who have undergone that surgery, there are absolutely no regrets.
@voidrain11 ай бұрын
I am transmasc and purely watched this so I can support my best friend once she goes through this. I'm glad this went well for you and I hope I can be as supportive and helpful as your amazing mom was!
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Ooh I’m glad, I hope everything goes well!!
@AlexandraKnopf18 сағат бұрын
Been working on getting hair removal for a while now, hoping to have surgery sometime this year.... Thank you ! Definitely scared me a little, but great video. I appreciate all the information and objective look at everything
@fallenyar11 ай бұрын
Thank you for posting this! My surgery is in two weeks so the timing on watching this was amazing.
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Good luck!!
@masterofwit3398 ай бұрын
Your deeply positive attitude & outlook, along with your beautiful relationship with mom, was tantamount to walking you through this procedure. That, alone, is so incredibly vital. Hoping all remains well for you on your continued transition journey 💖
@ava170011 ай бұрын
Thank you for sharing such an articulate summary of your experience Alice, it helps so much to hear another persons experience. Im going into a consult this week to get the process started and im excited for when it finally comes to the surgery date! Best of luck with the remainder of your recovery ❤
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Thank you! I hope my video helped
@Not_mera11 ай бұрын
I've never had any desire driven motivation to seek this sort of info out. But I am so glad you've offered us a glimpse into this. And I'm so glad you've made such a great resource for everyone ranging from those interested in going through with this procedure to those who just want to demystify the experience as its something not even adjacent to an experience I've ever had.
@Averycriptid40206 ай бұрын
This has me fricken crying before even 10 mins thinking about my own journey and future
@selfification11 ай бұрын
We made it through there but may I say, you look absolutely fabulous in a for the entire expirence. Love you Alice!
@bravehearticus7 ай бұрын
Thank you for being brave and sharing your journey. ❤
@Alucia08 ай бұрын
You have so much more strength then me Alice. I don't think this is something that I will ever be able to do, I don't have the nerve. You are extremely brave, this is such a massive thing and you are absolutely amazing for doing it. I'm also really glad you have such a supportive Mother, she is a gem. I don't have that support, my parents are extremely unsupportive to the point that I have recently had to make the extremely difficult decision to go no contact. I am seriously so pleased for you Alice.
@loulou112611 ай бұрын
First time out of country, and you go get SRS !! Omg I can't imagine courage and the stressss, plus Thailand seems so exotic ( I would have been 180 bpm, sitting in a corner lol). Honestly thank you so much for the video ! Maybe I'll get it too one day, who knows (if i ever manage to break the egg shell). I'll looking forward to the 12 feb update then ! Wish you the best :)
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Thank you!
@Julie037411 ай бұрын
Thank you for being so open.
@clairevagonis18737 ай бұрын
You’re so lucky you have a beautiful mom and you’re so close with her like that.
@hpkitch73564 ай бұрын
The excitement at 3157 gave me tears too! This is amazing to witness and hopeful for the future Sending love to you and your mom!
@Mushroomelixir11 ай бұрын
I'm so happy for you!
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Thank you :)
@AVioletAppears11 ай бұрын
I've waited for this video a while. Thank you for making it. I don't have time to watch it as of writing this comment but I will as soon as I can. Once again, thanks.
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
You’re welcome! Hope you enjoy it
@KassieDavid7 ай бұрын
Kudos to Mom for being so supportive! ❤
@dimitrimichaux4615 ай бұрын
Thank you for sharing your story.
@talkingonthespectrum11 ай бұрын
So I'm a cis male, I've dated a few ftm guys, and not a lot about that transition process but I've recently started dating a mtf lady and she's very nice and wonderful! So I wanted to learn more about the process the other way around. Thank you so much to you(and other trans women KZbinrs) for helping to educate me so I can be informed and ready to support! Massive respect to you, honestly I'm so very lucky to be cis and happy with my gender. I'm pansexual and that comes with enough social issues in a conservative area. Honestly you are a legend! A true, amazing shining star in the sky of dull black. Always be true to yourself! - Spec.
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Aw thank you so much
@Bloody_Corpses11 ай бұрын
It's fantastic seeing a supportive cis person especially with how many horrible bills are being approved its heart warming 😊
@talkingonthespectrum11 ай бұрын
@@Bloody_Corpses I mean, I'm British and we are *usually* a little more accepting, or at least the younger generation are. But theres still so much hate towards trans people here unfortunately... Recently the ruling party has been taking a soft anti-trans stance but haven't gone so far as to pass anti-trans laws... Yet... I think the world would be far nicer if more people could just let others do what they do and concentrate more on themselves. But that's just me anyway. Like realistically what does it matter to someone else what gender or sexuality you are? How does it affect them? The answer is, it doesn't affect them and they should concentrate more on being a good person than trying to tell others what is and isn't their identity
@KrazzyKelsie11 ай бұрын
Hey Alice I hope to watch this a later date. I'm sorry. I started to watch and well the gremlin hopped on my back. I gotta go beat it up. I'll be back I promise. Godspeed Alice and thank you for for this video. Apparently it hits close to home. So much so it has made me stagger there for a second.
@aliceinwonder1and11 ай бұрын
Awww hahaha. No worries and you’re welcome xx
@Charles.Foster.OffdensenАй бұрын
Really appreciated this. It meant a lot to be invited in to your entire experience. Thank you I do wanna say, if anyone here is given opioid pain medication, and you are having to be on it for several days in a row, then please please make sure to have a plan in place with your doctors for afterwards so that you don't have to go through withdrawals. Withdrawals are dangerous, and not only can they create a ton of physical stress on your body that might make surgery recovery more difficult, but it makes people more inclined to find them elsewhere after. Making sure to have a plan in place for weening off of these medications is an important part of care, and often extremely overlooked by those in the medical field. Pain management is important through surgery, don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise either!
@LoveU1st11 ай бұрын
As a cisgender woman and a mother I want to just hug you so tightly🤗 you’re just such an angel! Thank You for your courage, strength, and transparency! I’m not lgbtqia, but the stats for trans causing “permanent self harm” is beyond alarming and heartbreaking! 💔 I feel that courageous women like you are setting the foundations for change that will see all assignment surgeries covered not just by insurance companies but government agencies as life affirming and necessary. 💗💗💗 And also what eyeshadow color and name are you wearing in every part of this vlog 😱 they are gorge and the outfit you got in Thailand was made for you😍 it fit and looked like perfection, just beautiful 😍
@rebeccasam343411 ай бұрын
I can’t believe that outfit she got there! She looks so beautiful in it and totally pulls it off. I mean I think she looks beautiful in what she came in also.
@LoveU1st11 ай бұрын
@@rebeccasam3434 her eyes are just 💗, and the eyeshadows to match the outfits 💜 💜💜
@Leninslife3 ай бұрын
Thank you so much for this video! I’m just starting to plan my operation, and all the information helped clear up many questions I had. I wanted to go alone before watching, but thanks to you, I now know that this would have been a really bad idea. Thank you so much, sending hugs from Germany!
@Mossi-mations4 ай бұрын
I got so much euphoria from watching your amazing journey that I almost cried. As a fellow trans gal, I'm so excited to get my bottom surgery. thank you so much for making this video it's so incredible!
@memasam14 ай бұрын
Thank you for sharing your story. You are an amazing person.
@radioactivewolfaj33984 ай бұрын
I think this video was so educational and helpful and I'm so glad you posted this. There is just not enough transparency and information out there about what comes from bottom surgery. I just want to say that for some people this is the right answer, but for others its not, it's a choice not to be taken lightly just as Alice stated in her video. No matter what you decide to do, it's your body and your choice, and just know that with or without bottom surgery you are completely valid as women or men for our trans men out here too. No matter what happens just try to do what is right for you, get educated and love yourself. 🖤
@theromulanwarhawkАй бұрын
I think you're a rather brave person. If it were me, I don't know if I'd have the courage to go through with that kind of surgery, so bravo and well done you!🥰
@ReunaIsMe4 ай бұрын
I just got approved for a consultation for my surgery and by far the hardest part is gonna be quitting smoking. You literally can't get the surgery within like 3 months of nicotine and I honestly don't know how I'm gonna do it. But I'm so excited and any price is worth it.
@teewithmarie69411 ай бұрын
Thank you so so much for sharing your journey i have my first consultation in about 12weeks and i am super nervous about the whole thing. I'm glad i could gain a glance on how the whole thing is