When All Hope Is Lost-Jonathan

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Soft White Underbelly

Soft White Underbelly

Күн бұрын

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@Chris-rv5mm
@Chris-rv5mm Күн бұрын
Forgive yourself, Jonathan. Little Jonathan didn't have anyone who protected him. You don't need to blame yourself. You are ok. You were too young to know better. You are ok.
@Up_Yours_73
@Up_Yours_73 Күн бұрын
THSI RIGHT HERE!!! 💜😭💜😭💜🙌🏻
@marykaymacshane1001
@marykaymacshane1001 Күн бұрын
I hope he is able to see the comments! Hugs to you Jonathan and hope you can find the strength to get off Fentanyl.
@1FairyGothMother
@1FairyGothMother Күн бұрын
But he’s not okay. Those of us who have extreme trauma and then the addiction that often follows just are not okay.
@Chris-rv5mm
@Chris-rv5mm Күн бұрын
@@1FairyGothMother I understand. What helps me is understanding that Source is good and pure. And we are from the source. We might think there is something to be ashamed of, damage we need to heal from. I don't think there is shame in not knowing what was right or wrong when we were children. I don't even think there is right or wrong, just that things that hurt us happened. There's no shame for children experiencing life. Experiences happen. As we age and become adults, we learn to not hurt others because we don't want them to feel pain that we've experienced. If we didn't experience the pain, how would be able to feel empathy? Know what hurts others? How others in pain are going through? God bless you @1FairyGothMother. You are completely loved.
@MichaelNicolini
@MichaelNicolini Күн бұрын
I really wish this man well🙏🏼
@jameshobbs
@jameshobbs Күн бұрын
He is well spoken and obviously intelligent. I wish I could help him. He's valuable.
@katiebrown7774
@katiebrown7774 Күн бұрын
That’s a beautiful thing to say - that he’s valuable. I agree.
@carpathianken
@carpathianken Күн бұрын
For someone that has smoked weed & spice since the age of 10 & went on to booze, meth & now fentanyl & the psychological harm caused from molestation & emotional neglect his verbal fluency, intelligence level & his ability to be rationally self reflective doesn't really make sense. I would have thought that he'd be far more intellectually dysfunctional, but he seems more in touch with reality than many of the supposed well adjusted people I know from mainstream society.
@MrEMacable
@MrEMacable Күн бұрын
He’s strong. And his honesty and integrity, for no other reason than telling the story truthfully this interview, is commendable
@marykaymacshane1001
@marykaymacshane1001 Күн бұрын
@@carpathianken Well said!….my heart breaks for this guy.
@oioisweetheart3500
@oioisweetheart3500 Күн бұрын
Interesting that he takes accountability for his own actions and the consequences. Also he is conscious of what is right and wrong.
@vavito2302
@vavito2302 Күн бұрын
Out of all the drug users on this channel. This kid absolutely breaks my heart
@JoyPaul-pe7ij
@JoyPaul-pe7ij Күн бұрын
Same.... hes a good soul with demons haunting him. Prayers galore 🙏 ❤️
@thecramptons
@thecramptons 13 сағат бұрын
Agree
@coolbanana7
@coolbanana7 Күн бұрын
The most painful part is his self-awareness! But that's exactly what could save him. He carries so much shame. You're seen and loved, Jonathan. Don't give up on yourself.
@oioisweetheart3500
@oioisweetheart3500 Күн бұрын
I was thinking the same thing. Imagine the torment in his head. His high level of self awareness and accountability, have you noticed he doesn’t blame anyone for his actions and consequences. He assumes full responsibility and doesn’t pull the victim card.
@Sherryyahoo
@Sherryyahoo Күн бұрын
Turn it around and start doing the work of loving yourself 💕🦋
@y.l.2465
@y.l.2465 Күн бұрын
Jonathan when you say you haven't done anything positive, that is wrong love. You survived everything that was done to you. You are an example of survival and resilience. The drugs are a mask, YOU are the only one that can change your life. Being normal is being in some kind of pain but choosing to continue to live and be clean. I have full faith you can turn this around.
@susanseiler2071
@susanseiler2071 Күн бұрын
I have a 28 year old son. This man and his story break my heart. None of this is his fault, so may adults did him wrong.
@erikjohnson8031
@erikjohnson8031 Күн бұрын
A fully grown man should stop making petty excuses. 😂
@FunkyMacky
@FunkyMacky Күн бұрын
@@erikjohnson8031 did you get molested as a child? Do you think that goes away if you never tried to confront it? When the addict in you has taken over, there is no hope anymore. You have to reach a point where you either die or find that hope again. The road to either of them is straight up hell, my turning point was when i found out i was gonna be a dad. Without that turning point, I bet i would still be stuck.
@MbaraTurtle
@MbaraTurtle Күн бұрын
"Petty excuses" ??? And what is funny ? Are you some kind of sadist ??​@@erikjohnson8031
@TimelessDesignZ
@TimelessDesignZ Күн бұрын
@@erikjohnson8031 Yeah so easy to judge when you are high up on your pedestal eh?
@nikstar1313
@nikstar1313 Күн бұрын
@@erikjohnson8031it’s a choice to try and heal as an adult.
@SucioSeanito
@SucioSeanito Күн бұрын
Jonathan is intelligent, empathetic, self-aware, and broken, but not beyond fixing. Your story touched me as I’m sure it will for many, please don’t give up and please seek help.
@tomi-jon8798
@tomi-jon8798 Күн бұрын
Jonathan man my uncle also scarred me when i was young. he would try to convince me, as a kid, that I was gay. There is hope Jon. I was also an opiate addict for 25yrs. God bless you.
@CBaller2020
@CBaller2020 Күн бұрын
Former opiate addict here! I've been sober for 17 years. Congrats on your sobriety! I'm sorry you've gone through so much.
@saramurphy4636
@saramurphy4636 Күн бұрын
Did you grow up and become a pedo too ? 3:40
@tayeclinton775
@tayeclinton775 Күн бұрын
I SEND YOU HUGZ AND WISH YOU WELL. NEVER GIVE UP
@BrandiMartin-m9q
@BrandiMartin-m9q 19 сағат бұрын
God bless you sir. I've just hit the one yr sober mark on October 31st, 2024 and am still healing in some way everyday in this sober life and accept that I have a long way ta go but I will get there. With hope and my beliefs ,I will get there.
@gingeracebelle
@gingeracebelle Күн бұрын
I've never wanted to come through the screen and hug someone so bad as I do this gentleman. He has no idea how much he just helped me with several of the things he said. And helped others I'm sure. Thank you and I wish him and everyone the best.
@SCcowgirl
@SCcowgirl Күн бұрын
You could sense the sadness & compassion in your voice at the end of this interview Mark. Hope you can help!!!
@Lucydiemond
@Lucydiemond Күн бұрын
Sounds like this is his first time being able to "let it all out" - without getting judged or interrupted etcetera. People often say harsh things about this channel but Mark genuinely cares and does attempt to help those who want help.
@lynniehex1483
@lynniehex1483 Күн бұрын
Your uncle was a pedophile and you were abused by not only him but also your mother. Neglect and abandonment. Your demons were too much for a child to deal with without help. Please, please dont give up on yourself Jonathon. You're a young man with his whole life ahead of you and it can be a wonderful life. Choose you and get help, please.
@life_withl
@life_withl Күн бұрын
Agreed…
@saramurphy4636
@saramurphy4636 Күн бұрын
he's a pedo and he knows it 3:40 why do people only hear what they want? Cognitive dissonance!
@saramurphy4636
@saramurphy4636 Күн бұрын
Admitted at 3:40 then realize he let it slip out when Mark questions him
@caseymama
@caseymama Күн бұрын
I would like an update on Jonathan, if possible, in a few months
@laafawnduh
@laafawnduh Күн бұрын
Its so sad how self aware but helpless he is. Out of all the interviews ive seen on this channel, this was one of the roughest to watch. I hope he gets help.
@LimuEmu420
@LimuEmu420 Күн бұрын
Please don't give up man. I promise you I've been there. Please don't give up
@Parrotgirl-tattoo
@Parrotgirl-tattoo Күн бұрын
I cant imagine not having the love & support of my family & friends. It could be me out there. Prayers to Jonathan. ❤
@mybuttitches.1244
@mybuttitches.1244 Күн бұрын
Amen
@JoyPaul-pe7ij
@JoyPaul-pe7ij Күн бұрын
Mark....its unanimous. This is a beautiful soul. I hope he finds help ❤❤❤
@MikeC77
@MikeC77 Күн бұрын
No matter what you have been through, there is great value in you being here. Right now, just in this interview, you will touch a lot of peoples lives. Your story is relatable. There is an abundance of value in sharing it to the world. I do not judge, i know exactly what it feels like to just want to go to sleep and not wake up. But its easier to see another express it, like you, and see the blessing that you bring by being here.
@MakeMoreMusicOk
@MakeMoreMusicOk Күн бұрын
Beautifully said 😊
@juliakazantseva9750
@juliakazantseva9750 Күн бұрын
poor guy. hugs to you. lots of hugs ❤
@s.s.9806
@s.s.9806 Күн бұрын
Don't give up Jonathan. The world needs you, your intelligence, humility and honesty.
@TheKeltris
@TheKeltris Күн бұрын
I hope Jonathan gets the support and intervention he needs! He never had the foundation and guidance he needed!! My heart goes out to him. Keep reaching out for help Jonathan!!
@Janneglnd
@Janneglnd Күн бұрын
I like your way of expressing yourself. You have something rare. I am crying.
@allisynlitton8373
@allisynlitton8373 Күн бұрын
Don't be ashamed, Jonathon, you did what you did to survive. Bless your heart 😢❤
@abbyweitz7011
@abbyweitz7011 Күн бұрын
PLEASE try and help this man, Mark!!!!!!!! Give him the Rebecca treatment
@krazed0451
@krazed0451 Күн бұрын
He doesn't need the Rebecca treatment, he needs actual treatment.
@LoraCorkhill-wm9pk
@LoraCorkhill-wm9pk Күн бұрын
He’s a beautiful man. Praying for him.
@talulatree5297
@talulatree5297 Күн бұрын
He really is.❤
@Snizz315
@Snizz315 Күн бұрын
Tell your invisible friend in the sky that I say hello
@jamiecrawford8133
@jamiecrawford8133 Күн бұрын
Genuine good dude. Horrible heartbreaking story.
@randygreen007
@randygreen007 Күн бұрын
@@Snizz315we do for you every day. For a lot of people that sense of faith brings them hope and that hope gets them off of drugs and out of situations like this. That’s the power of prayer. 🙏
@Snizz315
@Snizz315 Күн бұрын
@ does your invisible friend talk back to you?
@scott8919
@scott8919 Күн бұрын
I hope he sees the comments and knows he has a ton of support.
@jonhutchinson2902
@jonhutchinson2902 Күн бұрын
This is how fentanyl makes you think. It seems impossible to get away from. However if and when you do get clean your brain slowly rewires itself and you can start to think clearly amd feel hope again. But when stuck in the cycle, fixing the problem seems like way to big of a task. I'm 105 days clean today.
@jonhutchinson2902
@jonhutchinson2902 Күн бұрын
It literally convinces you that there is no reason to live. That things will never get better, that you have lost your soul, your motivation and drive to succeed in life. It's so believable at the time. I didn't care if I lived or died...I sounded like this dude saying I wanted to die because there was nothing but drugs to live for...sad existence. You can overcome it though. It takes alot of hard work.
@janetpersons7647
@janetpersons7647 Күн бұрын
Jonathan, You did something positive today. Thank you. Mental hugs and positive vibes. :)
@roralyn
@roralyn Күн бұрын
I resonate with him so much... the adults in his life failed him when he was a child... I hope he finds his way. It's so hard, but it's possible. Please don't give up Jonathan.
@satyasunshine9737
@satyasunshine9737 Күн бұрын
I also resonate,VERY sad & painful!!!😢😓😭🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
@ts2766
@ts2766 Күн бұрын
The self awareness is phenomenal
@marychambers7298
@marychambers7298 Күн бұрын
This makes me so sad 28 years old you’re handsome you’re intelligent and you have so much to offer this. May God bless you and keep you much love from Oregon.
@michellexavier4439
@michellexavier4439 Күн бұрын
Heartbreaking! 😔 So many people failed you Jonathan!!!
@simonjusticier333
@simonjusticier333 Күн бұрын
Unresolved trauma, anger and resentment can weigh you down into depression. As a cure or help, time itself is not enough. A person must find outlets, professional or self help tools to deal with childhood trauma. I don't know, but the fact that you've survived may in itself be a form of justice. So stay alive until you are made whole.
@robinredfern7589
@robinredfern7589 Күн бұрын
You are loved .you are wanted. And this world needs you .Find out what that is . Love you brother...
@jaylajechura
@jaylajechura Күн бұрын
I hope you find a way to get out of this vicious cycle . You deserve love and happiness. There is hope
@Sherryyahoo
@Sherryyahoo Күн бұрын
There is always hope 💕🦋
@reeree6682
@reeree6682 Күн бұрын
Why have we abandoned our youth? The family unit is shot to hell.😢
@Darkbluedevil
@Darkbluedevil Күн бұрын
When was the family unit solid in America?? 50s,60s70s80s there has always been social and security threats throughout American history! Your marriage has a better chance of failure than success.
@ow3wells
@ow3wells Күн бұрын
@@DarkbluedevilMany divorced parents are great at co-parenting.
@Darkbluedevil
@Darkbluedevil Күн бұрын
​@@ow3wellsnot many, more divorced parents care about their own wellbeing and happiness than the child or children!
@ow3wells
@ow3wells Күн бұрын
@@Darkbluedevil I understand what you’re saying, I’m just saying some are able to co-parent because it’s for the best interest of the child.
@carpathianken
@carpathianken Күн бұрын
@ow3wells Many parents are unable to co-parent because the seething hatred & scorn they feel to their significant other whom they blame for the relationship break down then dissolves their ability to have the best interests of the child-children at heart. It's a really sad phenomenon because then guys like this one getting interviewed go on to feel like it was their fault their parents broke up, which depletes all their self esteem
@4ndrom3da33
@4ndrom3da33 Күн бұрын
Stay strong Jonathan. It wasnt your fault you were dealt such bad cards when you were young. Dont give up man there is beauty in this world for you somewhere
@karenchandler4717
@karenchandler4717 Күн бұрын
I pray that this young man, finds his purpose in life. I will pray for you for strength and courage to overcome your addictions. Peace And blessings. 🙏🏾❤️🙏🏾❤️
@Snizz315
@Snizz315 Күн бұрын
Say a prayer to your invisible friend in the sky for me too 😂
@ericameador7706
@ericameador7706 Күн бұрын
​@@Snizz315is the hate really necessary? We all have different beliefs
@Snizz315
@Snizz315 Күн бұрын
@ yes, it is necessary. Christians just watch this and say I’ll pray for you thinking that’s enough. Not one of you will go do outreach or help in anyway. You’re all hypocrites and you believe in an invisible man in the sky that controls things.
@ZachGlaze-i7i
@ZachGlaze-i7i Күн бұрын
Mark, if you can pull a few strings & have him checked into a rehab center, save him.
@thiapowers7701
@thiapowers7701 Күн бұрын
We need to help this guy. He seems smart and like he could have a meaningful life.
@MrDaigoRiki
@MrDaigoRiki Күн бұрын
It’s not your fault, forgive yourself, bro. It’s not your fault. God loves you. Please Mark help him for getting him on therapy and stuff. He didn’t do nothing wrong, he didn’t have no choice. Please help him.
@TheHackerandMackshow
@TheHackerandMackshow Күн бұрын
He’s so self aware but so tortured 😢
@horatiostreet1
@horatiostreet1 Күн бұрын
Hello Jonathan. By speaking with Mark (on camera, for all to see and hear) you have taken a positive step. I think blessings will come your way. Stay strong.
@Sherryalhasan
@Sherryalhasan Күн бұрын
Child abuse is the worst form of torture
@jeannine3750
@jeannine3750 Күн бұрын
Please bless this man and show him mercy Dear Lord
@Snizz315
@Snizz315 Күн бұрын
Hahaha what a stupid thing to say. Why hasn’t your god done anything before his life got this bad???!
@randygreen007
@randygreen007 Күн бұрын
@@Snizz315*God and the belief if God has saved countless lives from this situation over and over again. It’s called faith and maybe if you took the time it took for you to crap all over this comment and used it for prayer then just maybe Jonathon might find the courage.
@Snizz315
@Snizz315 Күн бұрын
@ well Randy, I thought I made it clear that I don’t pray. I think prayer is for people who believe in fairy tales. If you want to waste your precious time praying to nothing, then next time you do tell him I say hi, I’ll wait for the response 😅
@aaliyahmarais
@aaliyahmarais Күн бұрын
Let's all pray for him. Nobody is too far gone.
@brettbambouturton3117
@brettbambouturton3117 Күн бұрын
There is hope, Johnathan.. You're still alive and you could be an amazing testament to those who started down a simillar road .. Believe me I've been there and I'm still fighting at 53 .. God bless and protect you.
@JohnnieBravo.098
@JohnnieBravo.098 Күн бұрын
When he said he was 28 my mind was blown.. you can see the depression and everything he’s been through written all over him and it’s sad.. I hope his world turns around and he can find hope and some type of light at the end of his tunnel. God bless you man..
@janetmcbee
@janetmcbee Күн бұрын
😢 Mark, tell him I care about him. I don't do drugs. All that numbing is not good. He's so adorable, I'm sorry I'm just crying. I can feel he was born with a tender heart. That makes us a target.
@nansea9691
@nansea9691 Күн бұрын
Listen when he says "I DONT KNOW HOW^, he means it and that happens to so many of us!! He needs someone to help and show him how!! If i were physically able I would volunteer, immediately. 😮 That makes me feel so bad. I hope someone reaches him... much love to you Johnathan. Hope ❤❤❤
@stayskyehigh
@stayskyehigh 17 сағат бұрын
“Stuff that I’m not proud of” CSA survivor here to remind Jonathan and anybody seeing this that you were NEVER meant to carry the responsibility or blame for their actions. You didn’t ask for it. You couldn’t have stopped it. You shouldn’t have had to. It is not your cross to bear. It IS your right to heal - and to hold space for how unfair it is to you that you have to.
@anjazagoricnik6578
@anjazagoricnik6578 Күн бұрын
I am 27, I say same things about myself to myself sometimes… this was a reality check
@Sassy34208
@Sassy34208 Күн бұрын
Oh man.. i never comment but this story right here hit me hard… this poor man. He deserves SO much better. I so wish I could help him in some way😭 my mother passed from meth/fentanyl and I have my stories from that but it would break my heart to hear that this man has passed. He deserves to feel the joys of life and he deserves happiness.
@rainrabbit9209
@rainrabbit9209 Күн бұрын
Jonathan, you are right. There is a God, something pure. Thank you for reminding me that we are never really alone. The path may be narrow, but seeing it is the first step. You have seen it as it is. You do know what to do. I can hear such a clear voice.
@miriamluskberry
@miriamluskberry Күн бұрын
Oh Jonathan your story really touched my heart! I wish you could get into a program not only to detox, but begin life over in a better way. I hope Mark can steer you in that direction. Praying for you and praying for your healing.
@ItsStabilityTime
@ItsStabilityTime Күн бұрын
You are such a good person, it radiates from you despite all the suffering. Bless you 🙏please God bless Jonathon each day.
@JohnnygSawyer
@JohnnygSawyer Күн бұрын
"Lord Jesus, i want to lift up Jonathan to you. He's in a bad way and needs your attention. Please break the chains of addiction in his life. Give him purpose and hope again. Please put the right people in his path to help him make good choices. I know you love Jonathan and want him to live a blessed life, in Jesus name" AMEN! Jonathan, i was molested by an uncle when i was 4 years old. Even though i didn't remember any of the circumstances, i was raging inside. I hurt a lot of innocent people when i was 15-28 years old. It's something i regret. i also became addicted to various substances at a young age. I became a Christian when i was thirty years old. It wasn't something i grew up with but, when i surrendered to the Lord, i felt his presence in my life. I live between Skid Row and Bakersfield (Santa Clarita). If you want to go back to Bako and get into a assisted living situation there, id be willing to pick you up and drive you there. Let me know.
@jeremyrogers9959
@jeremyrogers9959 5 сағат бұрын
Bless u bro. Jesus can make a way. I hope He uses in this situation. My heart breaks for him, cus I've been there.
@VikCalo
@VikCalo Күн бұрын
I went thru a war when I was young. I was later molested. All this by age 11. I too fell into drugs and women. Thankfully I found my inner strength to walk away from it. This was circa 1997. Today I have kids and live a quiet life. I hope this bro finds the strength too
@noramay4954
@noramay4954 Күн бұрын
I got off years and years of opiate use which at the end was fent. I hope you're able to find a way to find happiness. It's hard to hear your story and not feel horrible. I really hope you can find a way to get clean and be happy. Sending u love and healing vibes. You're 10 years younger than me bro. You have a life ahead if you put in the hard work.
@Sherryyahoo
@Sherryyahoo Күн бұрын
Kudos
@BrandonCiCi
@BrandonCiCi Күн бұрын
He’s so special ❤ I hope he’s able to keep staying strong enough to get himself to a better place in his life. So much potential!
@barackobama3719
@barackobama3719 Күн бұрын
I just wanna give this guy a big hug
@ZenGrl42
@ZenGrl42 Күн бұрын
Wow I was so drawn to his eyes. I had to comment. He definitely has something special about him. 🙏 Don't give up Jonathan you have many people rallying for your healing. I am sorry for your suffering beginning.
@Itsintheshoulders
@Itsintheshoulders 17 сағат бұрын
Being 28 years old myself, hearing a 28 year old say they "hopefully die" by next year is heartbreaking.
@bye_felicia136
@bye_felicia136 16 сағат бұрын
"I really would like to die this year.." brother please don't give up..there is light on the other side..talk to anyone, someone, anyone..prayers and love to everyone
@917hazel
@917hazel 17 сағат бұрын
Genuine compassion for this man. We all want better for him. May he get the strength to prevail his history and current situation🙏
@YvonneMcLean-t4m
@YvonneMcLean-t4m Күн бұрын
To have come through and continue to go through so much and still have faith astounds me. I send this man love and hope that he finds his way out of this cycle.
@randygreen007
@randygreen007 Күн бұрын
12:12 this is your saving grace Jonathon. Don’t give up on your faith. As long as there is a flicker of a flame there is still hope! Praying for you brother! ❤️🙏❤️
@MeeganSullivanArt
@MeeganSullivanArt Күн бұрын
He is clearly an amazing human who is so intelligent, articulate and who will have a great future. His art will be stunning if it can see the light of day, you're life's journey poured onto a canvas, sculpture or whatever form it takes will be true works of art❤ PLEASE stay off that zombie shit!
@SharonBrown-r6b
@SharonBrown-r6b Күн бұрын
Praying for you, Jonathan. You are a beautiful person and deserve to find happiness in this life. You will find your way out of this living hell, you are smart enough to make it happen. You deserve happiness and self-love.
@wandak1889
@wandak1889 Күн бұрын
Heartbreaking!!! I’ve been Sober for 6 years now. I felt this rock bottom before. I tell people about my Sobriety journey to give people humility. It’s a lot of work that comes with self love. Hopefully he can hang in there and he shall overcome
@Sherryyahoo
@Sherryyahoo Күн бұрын
Congratulations!
@shireenis4937
@shireenis4937 Күн бұрын
This breaks my heart - hugs to you Jonathan! 🙏🏽❤
@TaShaBeNz85
@TaShaBeNz85 Күн бұрын
It was never ur fault Jonathan… shame is the thing that drains us. Therapy will help u work thru all that shame. I hope u read all these comments to see that we all agree, it wasn’t ever ur fault. A child doesn’t know better until they’re taught to know better.❤
@robertmm1379
@robertmm1379 Күн бұрын
Your still young and have plenty of time to turn your life around.
@alexiseason8526
@alexiseason8526 13 сағат бұрын
Jonathan - You are a REALLY GOOD person. You have SO MUCH to live for. Your kindness and compassion can help so many people. Please don't give up! "I REALLY WANT TO DIE, MAYBE NEXT YEAR".... I started crying............. that feeling of no hope, none, nothing, no one, no where to go...... I will pray for him.......... The only hope he has is dying soon????? Incredibly sad!
@Rusty-i9q
@Rusty-i9q 16 сағат бұрын
I cry for you Jonathan. You are such a kind and wonderful soul. Your pain is heartbreaking. I had to pause the video because I lost my emotions when you said you don't want to be alive a year from now. I hope with every ounce in my body that you don't choose that path. You are a special soul and we need you on this planet.
@eveas.200
@eveas.200 Күн бұрын
Don't give up. You're a beautiful soul, and you deserve a good life!!
@witchywoman4139
@witchywoman4139 Күн бұрын
Sending you love, Jonathan. ❤
@travislindsey8645
@travislindsey8645 Күн бұрын
He is a little kid with a drug addiction. He is a good dude. I hope He finds help
@WhateverLibra
@WhateverLibra 18 сағат бұрын
I like him 😕 hope to see more of him on the channel. You can tell he’s a kind soul
@Nik.No.K
@Nik.No.K 17 сағат бұрын
Definitely an accurate description of using opioids. You finally get your stuff and get to sit down and feel good for a while. Then in the blink of an eye it’s the next day and you’re sick.
@danellemarieee
@danellemarieee Күн бұрын
Poor baby 😢 hurts my heart to hear him say he doesn’t wanna be here anymore. So much pain.
@dannycarrillo6751
@dannycarrillo6751 Күн бұрын
🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
@saramurphy4636
@saramurphy4636 Күн бұрын
How do you feel about the poor baby at 3:40 ?
@charlottescully8130
@charlottescully8130 Күн бұрын
He didn’t mean sex with children, he clarified meaning he wouldn’t want a child to know his story.
@saramurphy4636
@saramurphy4636 Күн бұрын
@@charlottescully8130 it was a Freudian Slip followed by dupping delight but you believe what you need to
@saramurphy4636
@saramurphy4636 Күн бұрын
When someone tells you who they are believe them. psychology 101 . I feel bad for the babies he's giggling about touching 🤪 fook him !
@McKenzie_Belton_
@McKenzie_Belton_ Күн бұрын
This really hurt my heart to hear. To the little boy inside you, you’re loved and you deserve a beautiful life. Allow yourself to heal there’s more to life than what you’re living I promise ❤️
@catmom1738
@catmom1738 16 сағат бұрын
Praying for you Jonathan and find purpose I’m going through something similar this life is horrible.
@SourceAwryT
@SourceAwryT Күн бұрын
Johnathon has grown up as an unwanted child, and that's why he doesn't want to live. I hope he reads all of the comments so he can feel loved even if just for a minute. So many people posted wonderful, sincere, heartfelt messages of love, support, acceptance, and forgiveness. Take them to heart, Johnathon, you are worth so much more than you think, even with the things you are ashamed of. You are not a bad person, and you might really benefit from therapy. It should be free for you, so look into it. Cheers!
@miriamalvidrez1409
@miriamalvidrez1409 Күн бұрын
You're alive for a reason.
@EffyStonem01234
@EffyStonem01234 Күн бұрын
Besides my family I live my life pretty isolated over the last decade and it kills me to do everything in life on my own, but listening to this man you always realize it can get worse. Hopefully he finds some peace or joy somewhere in life
@thatpart
@thatpart Күн бұрын
Felt this. I know exactly what you mean.
@BeeKay4444
@BeeKay4444 Күн бұрын
Hi Jonathan….please don’t give up on yourself. The adults in your life should have protected and THEY FAILED not you. You ARE WORTH so much more than this life. Reach out for treatment. ❤
@halstonspohn3690
@halstonspohn3690 16 сағат бұрын
As an alcoholic who relapses consistently, this man speaks to everything i feel. I want to stop, i wanted to end it all but i know GOD will not accept it. Hes opened my eyes once again. I have to change for my family. I hope he sees that hes helped me and can help himself.. 😢😢
@kellyfogarty
@kellyfogarty Күн бұрын
This world is so cruel. A beautiful soul that has been treated so so badly. I hope you find your peace. This has made me feel so sad 😞
@jen-ov2bi
@jen-ov2bi 7 сағат бұрын
Jonathan... find a church in your area; don't worry about whether anyone is judging you; go early enough for the praise & worship part (singing). Let God heal you by the renewing of your mind.... all you need is faith as small as a mustard seed literally this ➡ . ⬅ big.... Good Luck. Your life is not over. Your life has the meaning that you find the courage to give it! ❤
@offxcialmariah
@offxcialmariah Күн бұрын
only if he could see how much potential he truly has 🥺
@ennelya
@ennelya Күн бұрын
I'm at the middle of the video and just started cryling - this is how those so called humans destroy beautiful beings, their own beautiful and talented children! What do they teach them?! How to destroy yourself? So much trauma and hurt in the world, how can all this be healed??? He is a kind soul, robbed away from himself.
@carahurley1
@carahurley1 Күн бұрын
You have accomplished speaking two languages. Your artistic skills and friendships. You can get out of that hole. So much life left... try to get help.... you can do it! You have a lot to offer
@jeanwixted2058
@jeanwixted2058 22 сағат бұрын
15 yr Olds still need their Mother, this breaks my Heart 😢He looks older than 28 .I'm praying for him 🙏 ❤️
@laurarijo6282
@laurarijo6282 Күн бұрын
This is heart-breaking.
@TribotBeatbox
@TribotBeatbox Күн бұрын
A very high level of awareness, I look up to you for that bro, you have a good story, you are worthy, you don't need to accomplish "normal" goals to feel valuable, every human is valuable just by being here, on earth
@edaissara
@edaissara Күн бұрын
He is obviously intelligent and self aware. I hope he realizes all the trauma he encountered was not his fault! He has so much value.
@BrandiMartin-m9q
@BrandiMartin-m9q 19 сағат бұрын
Oh my FKN heart.. Plz help this man. He deserves it. He deserves to see that .
@samanthaswales4345
@samanthaswales4345 Күн бұрын
My heart breaks for you Jonathan. I'm 27 years old and hearing you say you don't want to live until 30 is so sad. This isn't your fault, you had no guidance.
@EmmaValenzuela-uw9qx
@EmmaValenzuela-uw9qx Күн бұрын
If there is anyone that deserves a hand from Mark to get treatment, it’s this guy. I really hope we hear from him again with good news. His genuine kindness is so apparent, and I pray he gets the help he deserves. 😢
Күн бұрын
He's a beautiful man outside and in. He doesn't deserve the pain he's been carrying all this time. Please, someone help him to overcome this sadness and self-loathe.
@starshamoon9210
@starshamoon9210 Күн бұрын
PLEEEEAAASSEE CAN WE START A GO FUND ME FOR THIS GUY TO GET HIM INTO A GOOD REHAB!! I know of one personally- that only has 6 patients at a time and it would such a good fit for him!! I can see this guy changing his life if given the right opportunity.
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