when it rains, it pours

[@RawBeautyKristi]

I want to say thank you so much to all of you for sharing your kind compassionate messages. I also am so proud of you all for your vulnerability. Thank you for being the most incredible community I can imagine. 💕💕💕

[@bbrianaistree]

❤

[@rachelrae860]

It was definitely hard to put my story out there but I feel like your channel is a safe place where we won't be judged. Kristi you are the best❤️❤️❤️

[@tarajones3689]

So when I was living in Tacoma, I had several occasions to administer Narcan, and I am so glad that I had the medication and knew how to use it. For anybody who doesn’t know Narcan is free at any pharmacy in Washington state and many other states, you can go to any pharmacy and ask for two doses of Narcan, and they will either give you vials in a syringe, which, if you administer that kind of needs to be administered into a large muscle, like the upper thigh or the butt, or they will give you an inhaler which is to be put in the persons nose and you just spray it and it goes automatically to be absorbed in their sinuses. If you can get the spray kind it’s much easier and much safer and you don’t have to worry about possible interference from the cops if they ever pull you over and search your car and find that they can Collett drug paraphernalia, but there are Also places that you can download a license if you will to carry Narcan in places like Indiana it’s required in places like Washington state it has not, but I’m having this medication on and save lives. I have personally administered it to more than one person, and one particular person more than one time and I’m so glad that I was able to so thankful that it even exists.

[@tarajones3689]

I should also add that during the time I administered the Narcan to these people I was also in active addiction. I was able to quit heroin, cold turkey, December 2, 2018. And I’m so glad I did. One of the people who helped me get Clean has since had his life stolen by a fentanyl overdose. Don’t take life for granted. Because you never know what day will be your last.

[@tarajones3689]

You can also go to the local needle exchange or harm reduction placed at the local health department, and they have Narcan that they will just give you and you don’t even have to go to the pharmacy

[@maintainingmegan9088]

11 years 8 months 11 days clean from all opiates! Never leave home with out my narcan! Thank you for caring and wanted to help! Addiction does not discriminate ❤❤❤

[@benwrex6280]

That's amazing, congratulations!

[@tashalinton1028]

Congrats! 🎉 That's an amazing testimony. Keep up the good work. ❤

[@LawNerdAmber]

Cheers sobriety buddy. I'm almost 16 years clean from m3th, every day is a struggle when your disease is addiction.

[@jennajune2101]

Congratulations! I know firsthand how hard it is. I’ve been off opiates since July 2017.

[@jentimcakova5664]

6 years on October 24th. Glad to be alive, ppl like you are inspiring ❤

[@Hyram]

Narcan saves lives, I always try to carry some with me for that same reason. So so grateful you were there to help save his life, you’re amazing! ❤️

[@hollihendricks8017]

I was sick and addicted every day for 16 years. Every single day. Thanksgiving will be 3 years clean for me. I'm a walking miracle and I never lose sight of it. Lots of love n prayers for you and yours ❤🤞

[@churlish_hoecake]

Thank you for getting and staying clean. ❤

[@shearsparkle]

Congratulations on your sobriety 🎉that’s freaking amazing!

[@dianak.8209]

Congratulations! 👏🏻 so proud of you! ❤

[@sofiastj]

Congratulations on all your hard work! So proud of you

[@hleebeg]

Congratulations, not an easy thing to do 😊 you're doing amazing! ❤ really well done

[@janwalters2148]

In the days after my son committed suicide, I experienced a profound revelation of the importance of every person and the reality of human frailty. I found myself saying repeatedly, it doesn't matter, when anyone had a transient concern. Because most things we stress about don't. Only each other. Love one another. It is what this life is, or should be, about. ❤

[@RawBeautyKristi]

Wow that is so so impactful. I am so beyond deeply sorry for the loss of your sweet son. I cannot even imagine and I am sending you SO much love 💕

[@joelizabeth12]

Sending love to you ❤❤❤❤ xxx

[@evolingwren]

I'm deeply sorry for your loss. Thank you for this wisdom.

[@HannaBostic]

It doesn’t matter, only you do ♡ This comment hit me. I’m so sorry for your loss.

[@mau4302]

I lost my mother a couple weeks ago and I wish I had a fraction of your strength. I’m so sorry for your loss.

[@shoompy4]

I just need to thank you for living up to your name and being so raw and vulnerable with us. I appreciate you sharing your life with us. It makes me feel like it’s okay not to be okay, even if (for everyone around me) it seems like I am and have no reason not to be. Life is a struggle and right now, everyone deserves a break! I am a long time follower, and I love you even more now than I did before. We all go through phases… you were there for me through my makeup obsessed phase, and now for my grown up and “real” life phase. Don’t get me wrong, I still love makeup (but no longer obsessed)! I just feel like I’ve grown with you, and I love it! Thank you! ❤

[@loco7357]

I just want to say I really relate to this ♥️

[@shoompy4]

@@loco7357❤

[@kats3969]

My cousin, who was 30 years old, passed from a fentanyl overdose earlier this year (in Washington, too.) thank you so much for stopping to help that man. You’re a beautiful person Kristi 🖤 I’m so sorry for all of the pain that you and your family are going through right now.

[@benwrex6280]

I'm sorry for your loss

[@theresalurwick5403]

I just want to say I'm so happy you are still here and I am so proud of you! ❤ Hope you continue to have success in your sobriety!

[@BlackWidow00741]

I'm sorry for your loss. 💔

[@xxxxxxxxx1652]

your channel feels like a cup of hot coffee after a difficult rainy day. please please never change.

[@bluntfairy024]

I overdosed on heroin years ago, I am only alive because a fellow addict at the time kept me alive almost 10 minutes before medics arrived with narcan. I am almost 5 years clean now and the person who gave me CPR that day is also years sober! I carry narcan in my purse because the world we live in these days, u just never know. Thank you from a recovering addict, for speaking about this. Sending you so much love Kristi ❤️

[@tmaffeo]

So proud of you one day at a time 🌻🌻🌻

[@jellybean97458]

I'm so glad you're ok and I'm so so proud of you . 😊

[@heatherrae901]

Amazing. We do recover 🖤

[@catianaplans4794]

We are all so proud of you! You are doing so great.

[@bluntfairy024]

@@catianaplans4794 thank you ❤️

[@smilanek]

I’m a nurse and just want to thank you for helping your fellow humans and responding to someone in need. I didn’t know you could just get narcan at the Walgreens!!! ❤😂

[@WookieWoman]

Here in Ohio they are also prescribing it along with any opiate prescriptions. I was surprised when I went to the pharmacy after my kidney stone surgery! But it never hurts to have it just in case.

[@claudiainnerarity1620]

It’s a recent thing the FDA just passed where you can get it without a prescription.

[@irismelissa646]

​@@WookieWomanif you ever get kidney stones you can boil the hairs of a corn and it helps with that.

[@melissacoviello2886]

I am 28 years sober and I can’t express to how grateful I am that you are a kind and compassionate human being. I truly appreciate you. I also always have narcan with me. I keep some at home because I have teenagers. I’m sorry you and your family are going through it right now, I lost my middle son at 28 weeks.

[@loco7357]

Congratulations!!! 28 years is amazing ❤❤❤. And I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. 😢

[@reencampbell4481]

Melissa, your accomplishments are amazing! On December 8th, i will have my 16th year anniversary 💚 You are so inspiring to me. Thank you for your comment. The comments have been so great to read through. I am very sorry for your loss. Your strength and resilience is beautiful. #WeDoRecover

[@emily-wb4fv]

Congratulations! That is amazing!

[@Realtor365]

Congrats!! I have 13 years and couldn’t agree more! I’m so very sorry for your loss ❤

[@ashesonmylashesheathereaglen]

As a addict 20 months clean, I thank you for your compassion and understanding. Most addicts I've met are addicts because of trauma they've experienced and do not know how to cope with it. We tend to try to hide from it. I lost my dad in February to cancer, and we didn't find out he had it until the previous November. I spent most of this year terrified of relapsing because that's what's happened with every loss in the last 10 years, but in the words of Elton John, I'm still standing, so is my sobriety

[@heatherrae901]

Love that. And I feel you. I’ve been clean 7 years from opiates as well. I lost my mom and then dad three years later. Really grateful that I stayed clean through those losses.

[@TheKindredTrucker]

I love this so much, thank you for sharing!! I'm so sorry for the loss of your dad.

[@blushingmommy]

I'm so proud of you!! ❤

[@FlailTV]

For what it's worth, this total stranger is so, so proud of you. Keep it up. You're amazing.

[@cathygiuliana9089]

Congrats on your sobriety, just keep taking life one day at a time and you got this! You are strong and courageous, this poison is a killer! You’re standing your ground and saving your life! I’m so proud of you! God bless you and prayers for continued success! 🙏🏻❤️

[@kathleenwillems1511]

Part of Raw Beauty Kristi is the raw. Hugs and loving, healing thoughts.

[@AnnLovesBeingALawNerd]

The fact that you guys helped a total stranger without a second thought gives me such hope that there are still good people willing to do selfless acts in this world that sometimes feels so lost, chaotic, and cruel. Thank you for you kindness to a stranger thank you to both of you for being a positive example for us all.

[@gabrielareyes4217]

Please community, do be careful if you give someone narcan. When you administer it, you throw them immediately into withdrawal. So they make get agitated/confused/violent. If you give it, step back and away - and CALL 911. Be safe please 🙏🏼

[@tedihollingshead5777]

I’m an ICU nurse and I’m so glad you said this!! It’s amazing Narcan is available but this also needs to be made aware!! People get violent, they don’t wake up and just say thank you.

[@shannonz3018]

Absolutely! I've only had to administer it once at work and the guy was so pissed that we killed his buzz (nevermind that he was cyanotic and in respiratory distress.) Thankfully we had a former Marine in the room with us in case things got out of hand.

[@ArwenNMyrtlesMom]

I’d have somebody calling 911 before administering, but I’ve seen some hinkey shit for a humble school secretary.

[@blkrse94]

Just reading through the comments with tears in my eyes🥺 to all the survivors, tho we may be strangers I am so proud of you for putting up a fight and overcoming your addiction 🖤 regardless if it’s been a day or a decade, you are STRONG and I’m so glad you’re here to experience life with the rest of us. I love our RawBeautyCommunity. The amount of support and love here is astounding. And thank you Kristy, for being such a kind and compassionate human being. The world needs more people like you 🖤🫶🏻

[@shemeon]

I’ve had pericarditis for 8 months. It’s been incredibly difficult. My best advice is to rest, rest, rest and then rest some more. He should keep his heart rate under 100 until he has no pain and then rest for another 3 months. I wish someone had told me this when I first got it. I feel like it wouldn’t have become chronic.

[@shemeon]

Also, avoid steroids if at all possible. They are more likely to lead to recurrence.

[@nicosma42]

Do you have any idea what triggered or caused it?

[@nancyr8431]

Probably the vaccine----you know, the one that was supposedly safe @@nicosma42

[@thehiddenvalley748]

​@@nicosma42it is a C19 vaccine side affect. Many people are experiencing this right now due to the jab

[@5thdimension625]

@@nicosma42the number one cause of endocarditis is from injecting opioids.

[@Kaity2310]

I lost my mom in the span of three months from cancer. She had died only two months after turning 50, I was 15, and the medical anxiety I’ve had since then has been debilitating. Hearing your experiences has motivated me to finally get help, so I thank you for being so open with your mental health and sharing your experiences. You’re amazing!

[@evelynandLucy]

I’m so sorry to hear about your mom, I know the pain all to well, my mom is currently in hospice from cancer she is 59 and I am devastated

[@Kaity2310]

I’m so sorry. Cancer is truly one of the most devastating things to watch a loved one go through

[@hGrugs]

I’m so SO sorry for your loss. My Mom died at 52, just 6 weeks after her cancer diagnosis. Those 6 weeks were so traumatic for me that I have had terrible health anxiety since then (7 years ago). This video (and your comment) have made me feel less alone in these crippling feelings, and has given me hope. 💕

[@Kaity2310]

Much love to you, and I hope you’ve found some healing.❤️ It’s been 9 years since my mom has passed, and it’s still hard sometimes. But hearing other people’s experiences definitely helps not to feel so alone.

[@sherryelle225]

I'm so sorry. God bless you and your family.

[@BeeKay4444]

Bless you and Zac for stopping to aid a complete stranger. I am sending you both all the love and light 🧡

[@gabbysalerno9205]

Kristi thank you for bringing so much awareness to the accessibility of Narcan! I am a pharmacist and work a lot in communities that are plagued by opioid addiction. We work hard to ensure our community is as safe as possible and Narcan is absolutely a great help to that. Thank you for using your platform for such amazing things 🖤 also EMDR has saved my life and I am so happy to see it working for you as well!! Sending you and your family so much love

[@hannw7]

You're right... the world does feel like its on fire. Definitely not alone in that feeling. Thanks for the links. I just requested Naloxone. I live in Los Angeles so this could also happen to me. I'm so sorry for all the pain and worry you and your family have been through. We all just have to lean on each other and try with all our might to get through this bizarro time in our world. Your a gem, Kristi xo

[@jenniferhudspeth9274]

I lost my 22 year old daughter a couple years ago from fentanyl overdose. One thing we loved doing together was our makeup and I miss that so much. I'll never be the same. Thank you for stopping for that man. You have a great heart and you are such an artist. That's why I have been watching your channel for so long. Bless you and your family ❤

[@annalouiselahey2532]

❤❤ sorry for your loss. X that's so sad.

[@YvesyM]

That sounds so painful😢 God bless you

[@kellyr.3889]

Sorry for your loss. Please stay strong and take good care of yourself ❤

[@tmaffeo]

I’m so sorry for the loss of your daughter I can’t imagine . I did lose 2 brothers within 4 yrs of one another to drug overdose heroine I Miss them every day a new normal without them here 🌻🌻🌻

[@sherryelle225]

I'm sorry this happened and may God bless you.

[@philipdeshanco]

Just a heads up (I took a first aid class over the weekend with a 911 operator) and ppl who are revived with narcan can be combative (they literally don’t wtf is happening - they just kinda died) so get it, administer it, and STAND BACK!!! (Also, lots of hugs and love, life is super shitty rn but we persist and keep trying to make things a little better in our corners)

[@innakats6931]

As a nurse, I came to the comments to say just that. Been hit a few times. Can be a little dicey. Give it but be vigilant guys.

[@ryath1030]

I saw Narcan administered to somebody that was overdosing on heroin. They were so pissed they gave them Narcan because it ruined their High. A lot of times it takes more than one Narcan to help somebody. I have seen somebody need a total of 4 Narcan. It was a police officer who came in contact with fentanyl. It instantly hit him like a ton of bricks, within 30 seconds. He was wearing gloves so he must have breathed it in. Thank God he was not by himself and thank God his partner had Narcan.

[@jacqjack9299]

Yes, they’re immediately withdrawing and probably aren’t happy 🤷🏻‍♀️

[@laurawestfall7271]

What if we aren’t sure if they are overdosing ? Is narcan harmful or is it good to give just in case? Sorry if the questions are stupid

[@jacqjack9299]

@@laurawestfall7271 questions are stupid! Giving Narcan to ppl won’t hurt them if they’re not overdosing from my understanding.

[@alienpilled]

I know it's incredibly unpopular to acknowledge, but long covid exists and is heavily correlated with heart complications like pericarditis regardless of vaccination status. Just mentioning it in case it helps you find effective help for your husband ❤️

[@mosicas6754]

As does the vaccination. We can’t win either way.

[@chelsers1977]

I've had tachycardia since having Covid last year

[@reencampbell4481]

I think thankfully more people have recognized the long term effects of long covid & the vax…..

[@adrianjoe]

@@reencampbell4481let’s not make this anti-vaccination. It’s very important to get vaccinated to help keep you healthy and safe!! The problem is the healthcare system in America

[@Brittanynmartin]

I don't have any major side effects, but the fact that it's been nearly two years since I had Covid and still can't taste properly (I don't know if I'll ever be able to eat peanut butter again, it's so gross now), I have no doubt that there are worse complications that can last just as long. I don't understand how there are still people out there who don't believe the virus was that bad just because many of the cases were relatively mild....

[@mikaylapride0124]

The love that I have for this channel in a whole is so strong I’m so glad that you find this a safe place to talk about things. We love you so much. I’m so sorry for your hard times

[@Laurel608]

I appreciate your concern and willingness to help a stranger! My cousin’s eldest daughter unexpectedly passed away three years ago from fentanyl. It was so heartbreaking…sending you lots of love and healing vibes❣️

[@BebeTehler]

Reading all these comments today has me in tears, both happy and sad. I’m so happy people have found happiness in life after struggles with addiction, and I’m also hurting for those still facing such incredible battles. I’m so glad Kristi has such a huge heart. I’m definitely going to get some Narcan to keep with me in case I ever come into a circumstance like this (god forbid).

[@amysachelle2779]

My pouring moment was just about two years ago. Living with a chronic undiagnosed autoimmune disorder, severe mental health crisis as a single mom, fire in our home…..then my fiancé died tragically in a work place accident. I was a nonfunctional mess. EMDR moved me out of a trauma response to be able to live. Not sure how I survived it, but I am SO proud of myself to survive that and come out a stronger, better version of myself with a life that’s more purposeful. My heart is with you through this storm ⛈️

[@benwrex6280]

You're amazing, I'm so sorry for your loss

[@shearsparkle]

I’m so sorry for your loss& so blessed to see you on the other side of this❤

[@hleebeg]

That's way too much for anyone to deal with, you are so strong. ❤ I'm sorry you had to suffer any of that let alone all of it at once!

[@kaleidoscopicmind5]

My god this was heavy to just read. I’m glad you’re here. You’re an inspiration🩷🩷🩷

[@pennymichaels7449]

I’m so sorry to hear that, I’m sending you so much love ❤️

[@JessicaKent]

I am SO SORRY for everything you’re going through! Thank you for speaking about Narcan!! It’s incredible. You’re so so strong! Seeing that is unbelievably traumatic. On top of everything else you’re going through I can’t even imagine🥺❤

[@ashleyw6160]

Love uuuuu!!!!!💚💚💚

[@naughtynurse8216]

Agreed, Jess. I wish people would talk about it and see why these people need compassion and help! Kristi thanks for speaking up and offering help to help. CPR is just as important!

[@kaylamoore1551]

the way society judges addicts is a big reason why a lot of people can’t get clean. It’s the shame of it all that keeps addicts stuck in the cycle. Like you said, leading with compassion and empathy absolutely makes for a better world. Thank you for being such a kind and empathetic soul!

[@bkk1996]

It's also the reason we incarcerate rather than rehabilitate addicts. Further condemning them to a life of crime and recidivism. We need affordable, accessible treatment services so that people can get the help they need when they need it. No one chooses addiction, but addiction can choose anyone.

[@bkk1996]

It's also the reason we incarcerate rather than rehabilitate addicts. Further condemning them to a life of crime and recidivism. We need affordable, accessible treatment services so that people can get the help they need when they need it. No one chooses addiction, but addiction can choose anyone.

[@bkk1996]

It's also the reason we incarcerate rather than rehabilitate addicts. Further condemning them to a life of crime and recidivism. We need affordable, accessible treatment services so that people can get the help they need when they need it. No one chooses addiction, but addiction can choose anyone.

[@codyboop4617]

This was oddly cathartic for me. When I experienced a miscarriage 2 years ago, I felt very isolated and alone and felt strongly that nobody cared about me during that time, and that nobody was experiencing the depth of sadness about it as I was. Seeing you so emotional over your sister’s terrible loss was like a salve on my heart ❤️‍🩹 thank you for being vulnerable. ~Amber

[@BlackWidow00741]

I understand. My son lived 44 hours and I felt like no one cared that he had a life. My heart goes out to you sincerely. ~Lexy

[@alisonlovins2433]

I work for a local health department and we have a syringe exchange program and give a ton of Narcan out. Just FYI…it’s supposed to be kept room temperature (59-77 degrees). Kristi, you are amazing. Praying for you and your family. ❤

[@lizmartin4555]

I work for a local health department, do you have any info on funding for needle exchange programs?

[@alisonlovins2433]

@@lizmartin4555I’ll see what I can come up with for you. What state are you in?

[@rowanmayfair9249]

Our local health department does it via donation. Personally, I was on a medication that needed to be administered via needle. I was taken off this medication and had a LOT of needles in unopened packaging that I donated. You can also get rid of your unused medication at your local hospital for safety.

[@hopeeveringham5395]

​@@rowanmayfair9249look at Australian we started it when Aids started in 80s

[@LaurenRebaM]

I thought the rules were different for nasal? There was high demand for it for that reason I thought.

[@user-fj4zc2sr5z]

I’ve been watching you for years and I had no idea about your mom. My mom died when I was 16 from cirrhosis of the liver. It was awful and I can completely relate to your experience of not processing correctly and how it affects you later on. My mom was the same age as yours when she passed. It’s been the elephant in my brain for years and I’ve actually just gone through a traumatic breakup that is bringing it all up again and making me realize I’ve never really dealt with it (I’m 32 now, I believe we are similar ages.) I can’t thank you enough for continuing to talk about all of these things and I wish we could go get coffee together and chat because I think we would have so many things in common. Thank you for being raw (haha) and vulnerable and yourself and I know it’s helping so many people. The comment section proves it. Thank you to everyone in the comments as well for sharing and being kind and just being a great community here. I always know I can come here and find some words of wisdom and support even if it’s not directed at me. Wishing love and happiness to everyone 💜

[@sheenamarie8739]

I was a paramedic for 13 years in Canada and overdoses are a large part of the calls I went to. It's an epidemic everywhere. I have also had therapy for PTSD symptoms and EMDR is life changing! I highly recommend anyone who is struggling to reach out to services in their community. There are people there to help.

[@broganm6112]

I have a person in my life who just started EMDR for PTSD. They are saying it’s already been so helpful.

[@emazey5044]

Your joy when you talked to your chickens brought happy tears to my eyes. They are clearly your happy place. Good to talk about the raw stuff Kristi, you're right many of us seem to be going through it right now. ❤

[@issatruther1031]

For anybody wondering- keep more than one packet of narcan in case 1 person needs more!!

[@Lokeen]

Yes! Great point. Sometimes the narcan wears off before the other drug can.. sometimes hours later and they need another dose immediately. In the hospital I think if they get narcan they have to be observed for 4 hours.

[@tinashort9098]

Where I live if EMS is called to narcan someone over dosing and they've been to that same person twice before, they can only do it one more time. So 3 times and that's it. If they're called a 4th time they can transport to the hospital and the ER can narcan them

[@luvlost03]

I'm not carrying something around so save a junkie that intentionally does this to themselves

[@sofiastj]

@@luvlost03 Then why did you even comment this

[@recordtapesbackward]

in the context of addiction, I dont't think you should use the term "intention" the way that you do... it's so disrespectful@@luvlost03

[@make_up_by_jenn]

Thank you so much for bringing awareness of the Fentanyl/Opioid crisis. Much appreciated. My doctor had me on a lethal dose of Fentanyl for 15 years. I almost died. I do everything in my power to share my story and help anyone who needs it. I've been clean for over 4 years now. Trying to get my life together. It's getting better. I'm going back to school to become an addictions councilor. Thank you again!😊

[@thecatlimitdoesnotexist]

The fact that you can now buy Narcan over the counter in the US will hopefully help save more people. I’ve lost way too many friends/acquaintances to overdoses it’s so sad.

[@thebjm1967]

Same here. I’m so sorry for your loss, this stuff is insane.

[@thecatlimitdoesnotexist]

@@thebjm1967 thanks ❤️‍🩹 I’m sorry for yours too.

[@creativelydiverse272]

Its free. You ask a pharmacist for it

[@earthstar7534]

Its wild, I'm 40 and I've lost 12 close peers to overdose. I'm from a good socioeconomic background. It doesn't discriminate.

[@thecatlimitdoesnotexist]

@@earthstar7534 I’m 32 and I’ve honestly lost count at this point. It’s pushing close to 20 people I think? They were gradual at first but now it feels like I’m always seeing a post about how yet another person has passed away. 😕

[@Claudia.100]

Thank you for providing life saving measures to that man. Your ability to step up, and not let the bystander effect take place, is truly HEROIC. And after all of the terrible events you had in the brief time leading up to this, you are so strong. Sending so much love to you and your family.

[@halimarie3310]

I have a family member addicted to opioids and it has absolutely wrecked them and our family. Thanks for sharing this info with everyone Kristi ❤️ I am so sorry for your families loss. The people that know you (and even us online) are so lucky to have you.

[@rachelrae860]

Hi Kristi I normally don't comment but I just want to say thank you for caring about addicts. I'll be 53 and June 27tb was 3 years for me off of roxicet which basically they are 30mgs of Percocet. Thank you for making this video. What you did was a wonderful thing.😊 Not to many people would have done that. One of the reasons I adore you is because you're so real and raw. I'm sorry your going through a rough patch and I'm sending you so much love ❤ light 🕯️ and prayers 🙏. I know this is going to sound cliche but my life couldn't be better and I have a 17 year old daughter who knows everything and we have such a special bond. When I found out I was pregnant I was 6 weeks and I stopped cold turkey and it wasn't easy but I knew I didn't want my baby being born addicted. I ended up having her at 24 weeks due to an incompetent cervix and she was in the in the nicu for 5 months and weighed 1lb and 2oz and 9inches. She wasn't supposed to make it but she did and she's a senior this year and such an awesome kid. I always carry narcan on me and hopefully I'll never have to use it. Kristi you're truly awesome 😍💋🥰🥳😘🤗🌹❤️

[@Deanna417]

Kristi I am SO proud of you guys for not ignoring that serious situation happening on the side of the road as I’m sure so many saw and kept driving. Good on you for taking action and saving someone’s life.

[@RawBeautyKristi]

🥹💕

[@jackimiller2494]

Never do mouth to mouth, good call! It's mostly ineffective at getting any type of oxygen and the compressions are much more important until paramedics can reach them. You're incredible. Sorry you've had such a rough few weeks. Thinking of everyone in your family.❤

[@daphnieconnell9593]

11 years clean here godbless u so much for stopping to save him!!!! I was threw out like trash one day when I overdosed thank God a nurse passed by and stopped gave me cpr. I was dead when she got to me and was on life support for 2 weeks thanks to a stranger passing by praying for u all

[@mlledarcel]

my family genetics are plagued with addiction, this is so important to talk about, so many people like to pretend they are "better" as if people WANT to be addicted to something, education and awareness of the disease of addiction is so important, thank you so much for talking about this and sharing your experience ❤

[@jokebs21]

Thank you for sharing the Narcan info. If anyone feels a lack of compassion for drugs users, think of the friends and family they’re leaving behind 💔

[@anavega2675]

Kristi, I have been following you for a few years now and I just want to say thank you for being so real and so raw. Watching your videos feels like I’m talking to my best friend. I know you’re going through a lot right now, but I just wanted to say thank you for being one of the few people on the internet who are so real.

[@RAS_KAS]

Thank you for talking about this Kristi! My sister who was 26 y.o at the time died of a fentanyl o.d back in 2019 leaving her 3.5 y.o son an orphan. It's such a terrible drug, I hate it so much. It's taken so much from me, and still is to this day! I miss my sister terribly every single day. Thank you for shedding light on such a terrible topic but it needs to be spoken about!!

[@emily-wb4fv]

I am so sorry for the loss of your sister and that she left behind her son. Sending your family love and healing.

[@stephanie9573]

Omg I’m so sorry for your loss! Breaks my heart I can’t even imagine. Thoughts and prayers 🙏🏼 with you and your family

[@RAS_KAS]

@@stephanie9573 thank you 🙏

[@stephanie9573]

@@RAS_KAS 🥺🥺🩷🩷🩷

[@hannamae9630]

Kristi, thank you SO MUCH for spreading awareness of Naloxone use!! I’m in my last year of pharmacy school in West Virginia and one of the first things we do for students is educate them on its use and ensure they have some on hand. There’s such an unnecessary stigma behind something that literally will save someone’s life. I will be sharing this video with the students I’m teaching this year and thank you for being a carrier. In many states, pharmacists can write prescriptions for you at NO COST so carry it around like you would some extra advil ❤

[@emily-maynorman5471]

I adore your channel, you're one of the few creators I feel I can relate to. Life seems to be famine or flood, a phrase my therapist told me that helps is "this is awful, but it's not my tragedy". I find it helps me to be present, empathetic and helpful without falling to emotional pieces 💗💗💗

[@samanthajudd63]

We don’t know how strong we are until we have to be. I have experienced this kind of grief and it’s something I wish no one else had to. You’re a hero not only did you save someone’s life (you kept him from passing before they got there, that counts) but to shoulder all of the other stuff.

[@heatherjane910]

EMDR has helped me a lot with PTSD from deaths in my life and severe trauma my stepsons’ bio mom inflicted on our family. My therapist believes in CBT, as well, but she describes it as a band aid. EMDR definitely goes deep. We use the alternating vibrating hand devices, so I don’t have to think about tapping. Sending love and strength to your family ❤

[@trishlehecka1199]

I would love to see you and Sam get together and having honest conversation about the struggles in life. You seem like you are both intelligent high empathy people who have a lot to contribute to the KZbin community.

[@Shatterspeed]

My sister and her boyfriend just had a baby. Yay! The baby choked in breastmilk, had CPR done on him by my sister, and was taken to the ER. Luckily, he's perfect. Then they had to put their 16 year old cat down. But then when their son turned 3 weeks old, baby's dad went into the hospital and was diagnosed with cancer...the same type that killed his mom a year ago. My sister's milk seems to have dried up a bit while they were in the hospital an hour away and my mom was bottle feeding the baby. My mom and I were both diagnosed with Sjögrens, so we're reeling from all sorts of stuff going on. I think this is the first place I've actually listed everything that's been happening. All this to say, I feel for you guys. And I'm sorry you're going through it.

[@Shatterspeed]

I had no idea regular civilians could have Narcan! I've got an alert set up so I can get mine from Walgreens when it's released!

[@Christine__D]

Even good days are a LOT for us Sjogreners. Take care of yourself as best you can ❤

[@PetalandPosy]

Christmas 2020 I lost my little cousin to drugs that were laced with Fentanyl. It completely shocked our family and made the crisis here in Vancouver very, very real to us. Thanks for using your platform to spread this.

[@kaylamoore1551]

I’ve had to administer narcan several times to family and friends and it’s such a scary thing to experience. So glad you decided to start carrying narcan with you! It definitely saves lives. Thanks for spreading the word. I’m so sorry that you had so many tragic things happen back to back though. You’re right about when it rains it pours. hugs 💗

[@caitlinkiss]

To all the commenters sharing info about their sobriety journey - sending love and peace to you. You’re so strong. And to Kristi - I’m so sorry for everything you’re going through. You’re such a good, kind, beautiful person and it makes me happy knowing that people like you exist. ❤

[@blaah9999]

I’m also so thankful that WA has OTC narcan. And you can get it free from mail order services. I carry it in my purse and another in my backpack.

[@aeroscorpian]

Good to know, thanks! I’ll be looking into that.

[@pluckyfox]

I got online mine through END OVERDOSE. There’s a quick how-to course and then the Narcan is free, I just paid $8 for shipping

[@TJ-bn2cn]

Gosh America is so very different to UK. I can’t comment on wether that’s good or bad as the problems are different here. Not any better or worse except we aren’t let down by healthcare due to not having enough money.

[@danielle7729]

Me and my husband have both been saved with narcan and have 6 years in recovery. It’s amazing and we’re very thankful

[@Mariah-vt6uz]

Hi Kristi!! I was diagnosed with pericarditis my junior year of high school, it was so painful and scary I spent my first month in the hospital and months after getting better but I fully recovered, I’m sending love, light and healing to your husband & yourself 💖

[@amarisviv]

I lost 3 brothers to drugs and alcohol abuse - My mom lost 3 sons…..how she survived that is beyond me. She’s strong as hell. It’s been a rough time for sure. Thank you for the narcan reminder, I have some and will carry in my car for sure!!! This difficult season will indeed pass. Things will be good again, but painful times are a reality, but also an opportunity for growth. Thanks for your honest video and I wish you healing and to your husband, I hope he gets better soon. ❤

[@thecatlimitdoesnotexist]

I’m so sorry you’re having to deal with all of this going on. Wishing all the best to you, Zack, little guy, your sister and her family ❤

[@sherithiede9333]

I’m a recovering addict and alcoholic and unfortunately but fortunately I have had to administer narcan 6 times. Thank you for taking the time to help one of us. Addiction sucks and has no boundaries and doesn’t discriminate

[@courtneyjw9828]

I so feel you in everything you’re saying! We lost my mother about a year ago, and even though it was a gut punch, can’t breath kind of pain, when I got the call that my beautiful niece lost her life unexpectedly, at the young age of 23, it’s a pain my family never new imaginable!! It has definitely shook us all to the core, but it’s also brought my family so much healing because everyone quickly realized that tomorrow is never a given! I’m still in an immense amount of pain every day, but I just try to find the joys in all the things that are still beautiful and we all try to live in her honor, being better people because that’s exactly what I know she’s wants for all of us! I don’t know the extent of what tragedy your family and sister went through but just know you are not alone and I’ll be saying an extra blessing to you and your entire family tonight! ❤❤

[@gaymartyr]

I have over 9 months clean right now. I'm doing everything I can to get a year, then 18 months, and then 2 years etc. Thanks for talking about this today, it's a very important discussion. I have been saved by Narcan a handful of times now. Much love to you and your family Kristi ❤❤

[@hannahscott5779]

Day by day. Congrats on your sobriety. I don't know you but I'm proud for you and your hard work ❤

[@gaymartyr]

@@hannahscott5779 thank you!

[@lalalauren68]

Sending love and prayers to you and your family 💙 you are a special soul to have helped that man in need

[@beautiful_whispersASMR]

I lost my mother to fentanyl 6 years ago. I am so proud of you for saving that man and now having Narcan with you. I wish someone like you had found her when I had no idea she was in the throes of peak addiction. Love you Kristi. ❤

[@beautiful_whispersASMR]

@@productivityyogini thank you 💔♥️

[@elizabeththibodeaux9174]

I’m so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your story with us. ❤

[@beautiful_whispersASMR]

@@elizabeththibodeaux9174 thank you for saying that. ❤️

[@kristijones4236]

So much is going on it does feel like the end of the world.. just today I received yet another devastating health diagnosis. I can't deal and I'm alone. I love how caring you are. Also sending love and prayers for you and your family

[@inventedcool1076]

It's cheesy as hell, but you're not alone. We're here, and you're with us ❤

[@digitalispurpea9156]

The bittersweet little half smile on your face at the very end …. Thank you for being so authentic and for being brave enough to offer help to someone that was in desperate need . It’s a terrifying situation to be in… so thank you for not letting fear overcome your desire to help save someone . Also I just wanted to say …. “Raw beauty Kristi” - I genuinely don’t know if you have ever lived up to that name as much as you are in this season of your life - THIS ! raw beauty is exactly what this channel has become! Don’t get me wrong I live for funny happy Kristi too but please don’t ever forget how much you help others with theses more vulnerable videos - you are a beautiful soul Kristi and I am so happy to have been here for so long to witness your metamorphosis 🦋🕉️

[@kimbasciano_]

I’m 11 years clean from opiates and I’m grateful every single day to still be alive. Thank you for sharing with us Kristi❤

[@kimbasciano_]

@@gabyslookbookthank you ❤

[@YvesyM]

WOW🎉bravo, you're INCREDiBLE

[@kimbasciano_]

@@YvesyM that’s so kind of you thank you 🥹

[@unknownpersonal7591]

We all go through highs and lows in life but the biggest thing I took from this video is you trying to be helpful now and in the future. More love and caring that should be spread around will make this world a less scary place to live in. Stay strong, take care of yourself Kristi, you are a good person,.sending love from Israel ❤

[@lisaSN]

My year like this was ‘96. It was one outrageous, tragic life event after another & I felt like anything bad was not only possible but probable. Bubonic plague? Sure. Hit by an asteroid? Yes, absolutely. The thing that helped me more than anything was visualizing myself on the other side of it, like a year down the road. I saw myself turning to my husband & saying holy sh!t, how did we get through all that?! It reminded me that things aren’t awful forever & there is a tomorrow. Much love to you & your family. ❤

[@thara21]

For anyone who needs to hear this, everything will be okay. Just breathe and just be.❤

[@RedneckBeautywithDebra]

Hello gorgeous from Texas 👋 You are absolutely right about so many things. I worry so much for our youth. I'm a 53 year old first time Grandma ❤ and I am do scared for his future (he's 16 months). We have to speak about ALL these issues out loud. Adore you honey and much love, health and happiness to you and your loved ones ❤️

[@dingalingbabysling]

Thank you for making this video! I’m a Nurse and have been thinking for awhile I should get Narcan just in case! Well after listening to You I have to get it now! I think your self awareness is amazing!!! I am 50 but in my 30’s I experienced the realization that our health care system is flawed! You & Your husband so lucky to have each other. The fact that you stopped and helped is next level amazing!

[@blaah9999]

Love you mama. The wait for cardiologists is no joke. Its even worse for gastrointestinal and neurological specialists. Almost a year out for me. And I WORK in/am in school to go even further in healthcare. Its quite frustrating. I’m so proud of you for doing CPR. I sent you a message on insta but you can buy barriers with one way valves to do mouth to mouth safely for your own protection.

[@youfoundheidi]

The guidelines for CPR have changed, it's now just chest compressions. It keeps the blood pumping, getting oxygen to the brain, until paramedics arrive. It's especially important for drug overdoses, because if they injested it orally, you can become a secondary victim of it with a very small amount.

[@willowashe]

@@youfoundheidiyou’re 100% right. Forms of fentanyl can be fatal from skin contact, you’re better off having gloves for cpr than worrying about mouth shields etc. when that isn’t a recommended step in CPR anymore.

[@user-fd5jm6pp3k]

This video is actually so comforting to me, I know you say you want to be more 'jokey' or put out more of the lighthearted content, but honestly, this is what I deeply needed. Not a makeup video (even though I love everything you put out)! But to know that someone else is navigating heavy times, to be reminded of what's important & to feel a genuine connect about real issues. Your demeanour has always been incredibly comforting to me (despite how much you struggle - which I am deeply sorry for) but it is nice to know you're not alone. Hearing all of this from you specifically, just meant the world. Please don't think this is 'negative' content that might push people away - I really needed this more than ever. And really enjoy your thoughts and perspectives on navigating difficult times. I just like hearing you talk about real stuff. Love you Kristi

[@AlexandriaKV]

I went through EMDR and it was the most intense, brutal, liberating, and life changing therapy. I wouldn’t recommend it to anyone and I cannot recommend it more highly. Sending you so much love as you go through your therapy.

[@AnneOnymaus]

"I wouldn't recommend it...": I think you wrote an "n't" you didn't mean 😉

[@alisonlambert4620]

@@AnneOnymausI read it as intentional. As in, it was SO tough that it is difficult to recommend it, yet it was such a an amazing life-changing experience. Wonder which one she actually meant? 🤔

[@clairehawkes1112]

I’ve had it and I get what she’s saying. It’s very tough so you can’t recommend it but it’s so life changing you want to recommend it…

[@maggie5173]

Thank you for sharing! Especially with the overdose story! This was literally me 7 years ago and thank God someone had Narcan on them and I survived thanks to them. I am now 7 years sober and graduated college and am an Occupational Therapy Assistant.

[@mandyratliff6285]

As my aunt Martha used to say when I was going through hard time, "This too shall pass." Hang in there, Kristi.

[@journeylvr]

That’s my Mother’s saying as well!! I find myself saying it, too❤️

[@HannaBostic]

My go-to as well. I will one day have this tattooed

[@danasalinger5247]

My dad has always said this to me. I got it tattooed on me to keep it in mind always.

[@heidiheidibobide]

I just wanted to offer condolances & encouragment during this season of grief. I'm so sorry. Thank you for posting your real and authentic feelings. Your vulnerability makes it easier for others to understand that life has it's hills and valleys, and it's ok to have these feelings. Normalizing vulnerability is right where we all need to be. *edit - I just watched to the end 😊 Your ladies are gorgeous and your coop is amazing! I'm a chicken girl too and cannot stress enough how much they have brought joy to my life. I wish everyone could have chickens!

[@Char-weee]

Did someone in her immediate family pass? 😢🥺

[@summermcclain2175]

I love your videos. My husband developed health related anxiety after the birth of my daughter. Watching your raw honest videos about your struggles help me to be more sympathetic and understanding of his worries and struggles. Also just relating to the shittiness of our healthcare system. It’s been a long journey figuring out what’s going on with my husbands health. I think we’re close to getting answers, and I really hope so. Keep these videos up. Even when you’re talking about struggles you’re helping me and I’m sure many others!

[@earthstar7534]

I understand my year from hell was 2013/2014. I got married and found out i was pregnant in November 2013. Highest high of my life. My parents were killed by a drunk driver in February, my brother died in April, i went into premature labor in May and my daughter had scores of health issues, the city fined us $2,000 for weeds in our yard in July because we were basically living at the hospital, my husband was laid off in August and our house went into foreclosure in October because the medical bills. That 12 months nearly killed me and I praise the Lord daily that he carried me through and gave me a support system that saw me going into a critical brain failure and did everything to get me help. I'm so sorry you are having this experience. I wouldn't wish it on anyone. I pray for peace and healing over your family.

[@hopeg6896]

I went through EMDR therapy for PTSD, and man, that was HARD, but my life is so much better because of it. It's a lot of work, but it is life changing! Also, I've never thought of getting narcan, but I'm going to look into it now. Thank you so much for talking about it!

[@amandamurphy1216]

I lost my husband in 2012 and it was such a weird feeling when i saw everyone else going about their lives normally while my world had just imploded. My grandma had passed a couple years before and she was my best friend and that caused my family to fall apart. So i had huge loss after loss and i ended up messing with drugs and im still battling addiction. You never know what someone is or has gone through so the fact that you helped and didnt judge that man you is awesome of you because people are way to quick to throw stones. Much love ❤

[@mama_niteowl]

Sigh. Thank you for sharing Kristi. The world needs more humans like you in it. My dad passed away on January 12th, and my best furry friend of almost 10 years right before that on the 4th, so this entire year has felt as if nothing is really real and there is this giant fracture in my placement of time and space. I know that sounds crazy, but its the only way i can put words to my grief. And with everything else in the world going on, yeah, it really does feel like we are on the precipice of the end. But we arent alone, and that is atleast something to hold onto. 💜

[@VilmaryLopez]

Hi Kristi! I am an EMDR therapist and I got trained after doing EMDR in my own therapy. I’m still doing it and it’s been life changing for me as well. For those who tried it and it didn’t work, I wonder how that therapist was and how they did it with you. I encourage you to give it a try again, but only if you’re ready. It won’t work if you’re not ready or if the tools you’ve been using to cope isn’t decreasing symptoms of PTSD/anxiety\depression or if you’re struggling to use those skills consistently. It’s awesome to hear how life changing it was you Kristi and you described it perfectly. I also like to say ‘it’s interesting’ to other people because I don’t always know how to explain my experience. Have a great day!

[@JulieNick28]

Life is shit sometimes. Thank you for talking about compassion and community - we do need to get back to that. I’ve been craving it lately myself. Sending good vibes that things get better!

[@hildyvanhefeweizen2762]

I’m so proud of you for helping him. People think drug users are expendable but NO ONE IS.

[@barbr100]

As someone with health anxiety, among other anxiety, I empathize with you. Please share the video you made prior to these recent events.

[@Benji_1982]

10yrs sober here and am so thankful I got out of the opioid game pre fentanyl , I've lost countless people to the drug and work hard on my recovery. We keep Narcan in my house just in case. Its sad but this has been the case for awhile now. The last decade, actually over a decade opioids have been out of control.

[@nickistarling4056]

I 100% love the realness on all your videos lately! Sure, upload that other more fun video. But don’t stop doing these types either. It really helps to come online and not see toxic positivity or just everyone seeming fine when things are crazy.

[@elissacousland44]

EMDR helped my sister after her son unalived himself. She and I both learned about it during our psychology college classes. It is definitely not woo-woo. EMDR helps with PTSD, CPTSD, depression due to trauma, etc, by helping to resequence memories. Sometimes, traumatic memories get stuck in our short term memory where they can affect us a lot, and do a lot of damage to our mental health. EMDR helps by putting those memories into the long term memory, where we can still access them, still look at them, but we don't experience the full brunt of the emotions that go along with those memories. I'm so proud of you, Kristi. Healing isn't linear. You are doing what you can, and sometimes, that's all we can do.

[@kmarine8852]

Just want to add for those who may administer narcan out there - be very careful to check your area is safe (no weapons), try not to be alone, have 911 on the phone, and be ready to jump away/run. As an RN I know many healthcare workers who have been assaulted/attacked after giving narcan

[@TheMosesFile]

I too feel like the world is literally falling. I’m there too. I’m here with ya. It makes me wish I never had my child sometimes. But the truth is, I never lived before he was born. I need him to have a reason to live. I lost my first. When I saw your post on Twitter for the gofundme, it was like I was staring at my own photo from that day in the hospital. It was actually 3 days. And the way you described it was literally what it is. The worst literal gut wrenching experience you can imagine. The worst pain someone can feel inside their own heart. It makes me feel better when you retell your own stories. Helps me feel less alone. I enjoy being alone. But when we FEEL alone, it’s another level. Thank you kristi for sharing your stories with us. Especially when you don’t have to. It’s a privilege.

[@amandaadams1816]

I celebrate 9 yrs sober December 21st. I cant tell you how thankful i am to still be here. I should not be alive but by the grace of god i am. Its not been easy but i have such an amazing life that i never thought id have. Narcan saved my life more than 5 times easy so thanks for sharing this, more ppl need to carry it on them. It is possible to get clean I'm proof. Sorry to hear of all the trauma going on in your life. You and your family our in my prayers. Xoxo

[@shearsparkle]

Congratulations on almost a decade of sobriety! That’s amazing🎉

[@nickwomer823]

Making this video is literally saving lives. I just ordered narcan just in case. Thank you!

[@elladavis3224]

me too, i also just decided to go to CVS later to pick up narcan

[@jacquelinefranklin9556]

I only recently learned fully about dissociation, and that I did this consistently as a child. It’s why I turned to drugs and alcohol as a teenager, so I could separate from reality. (I’ve been sober 6.5 years) right now with the opioid crisis, we need to relearn the cause. Trauma is the cause, help the kids and the adults won’t be broken.

[@shearsparkle]

Congratulations on your sobriety 🎉

[@stephanierobertson4971]

I really enjoy listening to you have these kind of conversations. I will sometimes come to KZbin to escape but sometimes it feels like no one else thinks the same way or is going through the same thing, so then to watch a video that’s literally so relatable and full of important conversations, it’s reassuring that your not alone and that these things are happening and though devastating it does bring a certain amount of comfort

[@suzy9301]

My son is clean and sober 5 years (on July 30th - yes I count) after 10 years of opiate/heroin addiction. I still cry almost every day when I think about it. There are no words to describe how hard it is on everyone. You are not alone.

[@ADiCam-jq1ob]

It's not negativity, it's real life. I'm envious of people who can leave behind the weight of the world. I know our parents went through some tough times, but they are the first to say it's a little extra crazy right now. Knowing every little thing going on I the world is not good for us. You're right, it's too much information, we are too connected. Sending peace and love