WHEN OLD COPING MECHANISMS STOP WORKING | Let's talk [tw: ed]

My name is Tammy. I struggle with too many mental issues, lol, but don't we all? On this channel I film most of my struggles, I'm not that open in real life though. I'm not promoting any kind of (eating) disorder, I'm just documenting my life. I'm very hapy to have you Little Lemons accompany me. Thank you SO much!
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Leonell Cassio - Night Sky (Lyrics) ft. Julia Mihevc

[@homeboundmama9968]

Tammy, my name is also Tammy, I am adopted. I have been sick since 1999. I have lupus. I had bad doctors for some years. They had me on 38 different medicines at one time. A bunch of them were weight gaining and pain meds. I had to come off of all of them it was like coming off if heroin. I threw up foam out of my nose and mouth for a month. I was given maybe 6 months to live. I weighed 550 pounds at the time. So I went to a internal medicine specialists. That specialized in lupus and eating disorders also mental disorders. He helped me get off of those meds, and go off of all the breads, and sugars. I lost 400 pounds. I've got a lot of loose skin but have had a lot of plastic surgery. Insurance companies will pay for it when you loose that much weight because it causes health issues. I can't have anymore due to my health now but just keep your head up honey you can do this. God bless you. I was 36 when my journey began. And I have a bunch of things that has happened to me like my husband left me for another woman while I was at I my sickest. Because I was heavy. I've been unable to walk for years at a time because my back blew out twice and I couldn't feel anything from my waist down and had two have two back surgeries and learn to walk again. Life is hard we can either fall into it or climb out of it! So keep climbing. I'm on your side. 💗💗💗

[@linvi_chemutai]

I proclaim healing in your life in Jesus name. Find Jesus find peace ❤

[@bubblebrainbow]

I love this level of introspection, I feel many parallels within myself. I hope one day we can surpass our grief and move on to a mindset of resilience and strength. Like a flower blooming from a crack in concrete, life and beauty flourishing despite the circumstance.

[@mf-fb4bt]

People with addictions often drop one addiction, only to find another substitute. From food to the gym, for example.

[@raquellambropoulos279]

That happens because they refuse to do the work on healing from the childhood trauma that started the addiction behavior to begin with. When you truly heal and make the neccesary changes to live a new life and learn to cope without food or drugs whatever vice you experience and learn to cope in a healthy way. That is TRUE RECOVERY. HEALING MIND BODY SPIRIT. True recovery doesn't include relapse. Relapse is a part of active addiction. There is a huge difference between recovery and temporarily stopping a substance or eating behavior.

[@Da-Creams]

Definitely noticed that in myself, went from weed and nicotine to diet and exercise. Then got too lean and now it’s binge eating.

[@belindaray721]

This was an amazing video. I am 63 years old but it felt exactly like you were describing me perfectly. Greiving the lost childhood, Never going to prom not being able to roller skate or go on hikes like other people my age were doing when I was younger. Eating was my coping mechanism. Sexual abuse, physical abuse, emotional neglect.Eating to help with my feelings absolutely became ingrained in me. I am so sad for how much of my life is over and what I will never do. If I'm able to lose this weight I will definitely have to wear compression because of excessive loose skin. Thank you Tammy I really really appreciated this video and I hope you put out more that are this honest.

[@moni9840]

I'm 68 and I agree completely.

[@belindaray721]

@@moni9840 Are you on a weight loss journey? I know how very difficult it is. I have managed to lose 95 pounds but I still have of another 125 to go. I have a knee that needs to be replaced and sciatica. Exercise is so difficult. I was hospitalized a few weeks ago with a blood clot in my lung. Life feels so scary but I can't give up because the alternative is just letting go and dying. I hope you're in a better emotional space and that you're able to conquer these demons.

[@ByeByeBelly]

I relate a lot 💛

[@ByeByeBelly]

@@belindaray721 I'm sorry that happened

[@belindaray721]

@@ByeByeBelly Thank you. I really appreciate your kind words.

[@ByeByeBelly]

I can relate. Severe bullying in school, left school at just 12 because of it, neglect, sexual abuse, then lost my 20s to an ex marriage where I experienced a lot of psychological abuse and domestic violence. Been binge eating since I was about 8, didn't have enough enough to eat and was poor at the time but still binged on bread with margarine, or whatever. I now have a chronic illness so can't try and "make up for" the loss of most of my life. The times I was abused and made to suffer psychologically were the only times I was going to be healthy and have energy. Then I had a baby which was traumatic, and being sick long term is traumatic as well. I could go on and on haha. I know people go through worse than me but I find life pretty tough, also with having autism, forgot about that for a second 😂 you're doing the right thing by addressing the things you want to work on in a holistic way

[@dianalynn8781]

Hi Sweetie! My name is Diana Lynn. I am 74 years 'young'. I've been in your shoes all my life, going up and down, but hit my bottom at 400 pounds just this past April 6th, 2021, when with my partner's help I almost didn't make it to the bathroom. I had a crippling fall in 2003, and have to use 2 canes to walk. I have crippling arthritis in both knees they cannot operate on. I also have developed Lymphodema in both legs as a result of my fall. The good news is I lost all wanting to overeat after that fateful day in April. Since then I have lost 70 pounds eating what I want but counting every calorie. I put myself on 1,200 calories per day. I don't exercise except for upper body while sitting down. I gave my whole life up to God and didn't make any bargains with Him this time. Also I didn't promise myself I'd do it for anyone else but myself. I do not plan on ever cheating no matter what. On a day I have to eat foods I can't count the calories for, I just eat the tiniest portion and skip the rest of the day. Nothing in this world tastes as good as losing weight. You can do it if I have finally done it. I have faith in you. Just keep your mind busy all the time. I do diamond painting , sewing, and coloring in adult coloring books. I joined channels on KZbin, and get involved. Sometimes I'm not tired when it's bedtime I have so many things I do. God bless you, dear littlre lemon...hugs...Diana Lynn...Wisconsin, USA...I'm a new sub as of today. I'm always here for you..

[@Libyinth]

Having experienced what your going through. Some of the biggest breakthroughs is knowing your addiction and finding the triggers. For me, it was stopping at this store on the way home almost daily. Before long I had the habit and realized it. So I changed my route home so I wouldn't be triggered to stop and get the bad snacks. Instead I found a new route that had me pass by my gym. Before long I replaced the bad habit of stopping for snacks to stopping for a walk on the treadmill. What was even better is by my gym was a smoothie shop and once a week I'd treat myself and get a low calorie smoothie. Changed my life. You'll be there! Any progress towards your goals the an accomplishment!

[@Jennifer_Lewis_Beach_Living]

Tammy, I’m sending a virtual hug your way. 🤗 Addiction is hard, and it’s horrible when the addiction is food because we need food to live. You got this, Tammy. 💙

[@dk237]

Tammy, you help so many people with your videos. You are a wonderful person.

[@88pynogrl]

I want one of your kitties, they are so CUTE! Binging is just like a drug- it is a dopamine rush. The anxiety created by you trying to control the impulses is a vicious circle. You will ABSOLUTELY be able to run for the bus when you lose weight. I am 60 Tammy- you are still young. Your body is capable of so much more than you are imagining. You can’t change the past, but you sure as hell can mold your future. You are gonna have failures, so try something else until you find what works. Inventors fail constantly- but each failure eliminates an option until the right option appears. You are just re-inventing yourself, and your life. Don’t give up.

[@shayeasten3590]

You are so insightful and wise. My high school years were also very traumatic for me, and I never thought about the need to grieve that. Never had a boyfriend and the prom was something I knew I would never experience. You are so right about the addiction points, even after you think you are past that, you can never know that for sure. It's an every day battle. "The world does not owe you anything", so wise. So many people have an "entitlement" attitude, and that is such an illusion. Love your little kittens playing in the background too and the random humor you add to all your videos!

[@killmytime]

I really love this kind of talking video💗 hearing your thoughts really helps me stay in reality? like being realistic on how the world keeps moving and it’s good to make the best of it as you can even when there’s struggles. I feel a lot of my motivation comes from my childhood, I wished to go back and I’ve accepted I can’t, we still have our innerchild and I’ll keep that close with me because it’s the most precious part of us. Let’s be happy and keep on💗 thanks Tammy💗

[@shellime9378]

I enjoy your honesty, openness and perspective on things. Hang in there!

[@nai5148]

Thank you for this video. I saw a lot of myself in you today... IYou're right, most of people have childhood trauma. Now, we need to work on not letting it define us.♥

[@TammyLemon.]

Exactly that! We can do this! ❤️

[@gracieray3081]

I’ve been watching you for over a year. I can relate so much

[@Rebeccajp25]

I love how honest and reflective you're being in this video. I can identify with a lot of what you're saying here. Thank you for this video Tammy x

[@moon_shoes]

I feel like I've also had to go through that grieving process having realized at 31 that I have pretty severe ADHD that was never diagnosed. It's hard to come to terms with the fact that there were things that my parents could have done to significantly help me and change the course of my life. I would have been a completely different person with different opportunities and I may not have gained the weight I did because of my ADHD and binge eating disorder(they are very commonly connected). I feel like this year has been my year of realizing the missed opportunities of my life, coming to terms with them, and having grace with myself to know that I can't change those things or do those experiences over again so who I am and where I am right now is the person I have to love and take care of. It is not an easy thing but it's the most important part of overcoming any kind of addiction. You have to heal the part of yourself that you are trying to hide from with your addiction. I believe in you girly, I'm a new subscriber but I already love your personality and I can see the potential in you that I'm trying to see in myself too. We got this!

[@kelleygj]

Hi Tammy! You explained the use of food as a coping mechanism extremely well!! We need to find new coping mechanisms that help us to rewire our brains. I know what to do but doing it is incredibly difficult. All we can do is keep trying and finding a way to conquer our unhealthy coping mechanisms. You are 100% right…it is killing us! I admire you so much for sharing your struggles!! I to suffer with depression and anxiety.❤️

[@user-hj8xe1yb9n]

Tammy, thank you for the video. I am 35and I suffer from an ed as well, but from a restrictive one and also l have an alcohol addiction. I can understand you very well. My habits effect my health and my family to the point that my relatives are afraid of my well being. As for me, I kind of don't care anymore, and that is scary. Sending you hugs from Russia.

[@mackenziemcdonald2962]

Thank you for making this really vulnerable video🖤🖤🖤🖤 you are doing amazing work. It is so difficult to talk about our trauma and EDs, sometimes only because it seems it makes other uncomfortable and they act unaccepting when we try to share our story. I am so glad you have a wonderful community here that DOES want to hear you being vulnerable and support you. I experience PTSD as well and have been in recovery for anorex*a for 10 years. It is such a continuous battle🖤🖤🖤

[@Piqued5]

Thank you for this video, you're so insightful. When you said that we spend a lot of our willpower resolving to live and therefore struggle with other issues bc we're drained, that made a lot of sense.

[@TurnThePagePls]

I enjoy you being vulnerable and putting this out to the world! I also have BED and it’s been a struggle my WHOLE LIFE. I can’t imagine a day in my life I haven’t worried about calories or food or my weight. Literally can’t imagine it.

[@bbjudyfit]

I can't imagine it either.. I'm in recovery. I still count calories.. but after i reverse dieted and i allowed myself to eat more calories and eat junk food and keep it in the house and focused on improving my health and well being. I no longer have urges to binge or even over eat really. Now i just now to figure out how to figure out the calorie part.

[@gracieray3081]

I got sober off of hard drugs in spring earlier this year and now I am the largest I’ve ever been. It’s uncomfortable but I never feel satisfied. So I’m searching for the satisfaction I’d get from drugs in food and it’s not working. Just making me suffer.

[@chirara1071]

Congrats on getting sober.. can u smoke weed w out relapsing? That’s how I am able to survive . Also, I try to gross my self out so much that I lose my appetite; when I feel like over indulging. Watching nasty vids or having a nasty smell… everyone is diff, but try to think of it jus like ur drug addiction. Approach this jus as you did when you wanted to get sober, you got this queen! So proud of you❤️

[@BisquickTheBaboon]

I know exactly what you mean. I have been clean 6 years myself and have been struggling with my weight ever since. The best thing I have found for me personally is to keep myself busy whether it be with work or a hobby I enjoy, that seems to be the only thing that helps me curb the impulse to eat. It helps. Good job, keep it up!!

[@deefitzpatrick5810]

@Gracie Ray....I am 70 and have years of experience with what you are describing. It’s a miracle I even made it to this age. Are you saying that before you became a drug user you had been a normal size with no food issues...but then when you got clean, you turned to food as a substitute? Or....are you saying that you had some degree of weight issues but then, the drugs totally controlled your appetite and weight...and once you got clean, the appetite and weight problems came roaring back? I have dealt with both and each scenario has had it’s unique challenges.

[@TammyLemon.]

I am SO proud of you for getting sober! Well done! That must've been so hard... I'm sorry to hear about your struggles with food. It sounds as if there is a bigger underlaying issue that causes you to try to find a way to cope. To fill that void of missing something. Remember that you're not alone and that you are super strong. You've conquered your addiction and you will be able to overcome this struggle too. I'm sending you lots of positive vibes from over here. ❤️ 😘

[@jenniferbueller6761]

If you have an addictive personality sometimes you can use that to get addicted to something productive like exercising.

[@weronikakaczmarek2116]

Now i want everybody i know watch this video. Depression explenation helped me grasp this illness better than anyother i've heard before. I'm sooo waiting for interviews with Stefan/ur sister❤️❤️ Thank you for doing this channel🙏

[@JustAnotherKim]

Wow. I went thru a lot of trauma in my childhood and just started therapy, probably 20 years late. I have extreme anxiety from the trauma. But your words are my words. It’s not fair. Having to work and work hard just to be normal is not fair. And trying to express the thought processes to my spouse is hard. Trying to make him understand that my reactions have nothing to do with him and are my problem. But the important thing is getting help because seeking help means you WANT to get better!!! ❤️❤️❤️ thanks for the realness!!

[@MyDreamIsToFly89]

Tammy, every time you upload a video, I’m very interested and I find a lot of helping thoughts in them, so thank you very much!

[@CarolineVictoriaable]

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR DOING THIS VIDEO!!! I RELATE TO PRETTY MUCH EVERYTHING. SCHOOL ALSO WAS REALLY TRAUMATIC FOR ME AND "RUINED ME" IN A CERTAIN WAY. I ALSO JUST WROTE IN MY JOURNAL LAST NIGHT HOW MUCH GRIEFING I STILL HAVE TO DO. TOTALLY ON YOUR VIBE GIRL!!!

[@rishaa682]

To be honest I am 38 and im doing a lot of the things i missed out on in childhood 🙂

[@AliM-yh3mu]

Wow it never clicked with me that the change from one thing (one extreme) to another would lead me to be overly obsessed with the latter. I thought it was just me and my issues with committing to something! Great explanation 🤩

[@hanahledikova3305]

I am so impressed with how much insight you have. I also love how real you are, you say it how it is and that's what I like about your content. You are such a real, down-to-eart, intelligent person. I have learned a lot about ED from your channel, but I also like your videos just for you and your personality. I really hope you overcome your struggles to a point where you are able to have long-term peace (although not perfect peace, because nobody really has that, realistically), and I honestly believe you will when I see how strong you are! ☀️

[@lisatakeitorleaveit]

100% spot on - you got this💕 I had a therapist tell me a long time ago. “ you had a toolbox full of tools you needed to survive. They served you well, and now you can close the toolbox. I have been in food recover for years but it is something needs to be maintained .

[@clare1971]

I am middle aged and see now the despicable relationship with food I’ve had all of my life. I grew up in a home with a father who adored me but was a raging alcoholic and sat at the top of the stairs listening to my parents shouting and screaming at each other more than I can say. I’ve ranged in weight hugely throughout my life. I’m only 5 foot 1 and now am a healthy 8 stone 4 but all I see when I look at myself in the mirror are layers of fat I hate eating in the company of others and eat alone by choice. I don’t think I will ever get over things

[@TammyLemon.]

This struggle is a very hard and serious one. You can be of any size and feel horrible, ashamed, insecure, grossed out etc. I'm sorry you have to deal with this. Therapy is really helping me with the negative thoughts I had (and still have a lot of the times) towards myself as a person that isn't able to take care of her body the way I would like. Maybe it can help you too! Stay strong in there. You are good enough, always! ❤️

[@emjones7698]

I'm so glad you uploaded this. It's very helpful for me to hear. You are on the right track. Do your best, Tammy, always love yourself. You are a special soul.

[@susanmurrieta5802]

Love yourself yes but eat yourself to the point you can't even clean your own bottom you better take a second look at your diet

[@Liu484]

One thing that helped me with depression and caring was understanding that I didn't want to feel pain and I didn't want to go through with finishing things myself. So, if I was to age and then eventually die, I wanted to die like my great grandma: 94, heart attack one morning while making herself some tea. And to do that I needed to get less stressed, eat well and exercise, or so doctors say. That's it. I just want to lower the burden of dying that my older self will have to go through, try my best to set it the least painful way I can. Really helped me through depression, thinking that.

[@leejganderson7827]

At my age and my fifties I am doing something very similar to that thinking of the days wait before I die what I would don't want to go back leaving on even though I have corrupt CPS children Protective Services taken away two of my daughters out of six of my kids I have to go after these people and say you can't ruin families just because you think the parents something they were not so this is a fight that I have been born I guess to do but to understand this please look up for my Senate and Nancy Schaefer and the corrupt business of CPS and also her on a KZbin video with Alex Jones talking about what they do to lower income families especially if you ask for any type of job assistance in the usa! You want a data list to be picked on!. Especially if you lower income out of another race or mixed race! Sad but I know it's true. Cuz I've been victimized with my family we all have been all eight of us! Peace ✌️🕊️☮️

[@MrTbnetherwood]

Thank you for you're videos they help me feel calm and make me feel like I'm not so alone

[@sparky7079]

I think that this is your most powerful video that I have watched, thank you so much for sharing it. I am very similar in that I started my weight loss journey in 2016 at 405 pounds, I went down to 270 and then started to gain it back. In March of 2022 I weighed 443 and I am working on losing it again. I am currently at 395 as of Sept 1, 2022. I feel like you are describing "me". I am thankful that I have found your channel

[@Amanda-vl5ud]

You are on the right path. I am super proud of you for your inward journey! It's the only way to freedom. I understand you had to grieve. But you are still young and you have so much life ahead of you. You are really making a change and a difference in your life now 💪

[@whocares7093]

There are so many tragic storys in these comments. I am sending you all best wishes and hope. And be kind to yourself, you deserve it! Personally I think a big step in overcoming my ED is to really understand my triggers and habits in a non judgemental way. For example I tend to binge in the evening/night, so instead of hating myself for it, I offer myself healthy alternatives, make appointments for that time or "simply" go to bed earlier. I also realised that I tend to binge more when I skip breakfast (which I do when I feel bad about binging last night), so I always try to eat at least something for breakfast. But that may of course be different for everyone. Good Luck on your journey!

[@thatraccoonqueen]

Thanks, for your honesty and bravery to put your innermost self on the internet. I resonate a lot with what you are saying, and when you talked about grieving for the life experiences lost out on, that hit me different. I spend so much time trying to get myself to a place I can never go because that time is done and gone. I feel like that makes it harder to move beyond my eating disorders and towards a healthy mind and weight. That is very insightful.

[@cindersue2635]

Never stop trying. Your such a beautiful girl. Just do your best and be happy.

[@taovalentine1655]

I really like the way you explain things from your truth, while also talking about the scientific explanation of what’s happening in the brain. Addictions are really hard to deal with. To do it, you have to be strong and vulnerable at the same time, because you have to incorporate your version of a larger reasoning. It’s a struggle, but the reward comes in time and effort along the way. It’s not at all instant gratification, which is what part of addiction is.

[@Youre-Welcome]

I'm impressed at your break-down of trauma and mental illness. It never ceases to amaze me how many people think depression/PTSD/addiction etc are just something you can "snap out" of. Like seriously, if it were as simple as choosing to control things, no one would struggle with this stuff. Also, would LOVE an interview video

[@anniej1004]

I feel exactly the same Tammy, I have had many past traumas that have affected my life where at times it’s hard to cope. Thank you for sharing with us x

[@mariapriest4106]

I feel like thinking about the past traumas can make you more depressed... Like wasting energy talking about it , thinking about it and then on top of that regret things you didn't do... Just accept it , move on and try to be better.

[@honeyfungus4774]

Easier said then done.

[@mariapriest4106]

@@honeyfungus4774 Obviously... I am just suggesting what i do because you either move on or let your life go down for many more years.

[@honeyfungus4774]

@@mariapriest4106 How do you manage to let go? How do you stop the thoughts in your head?

[@mariapriest4106]

@@honeyfungus4774 i try to not let bad thoughts take over by keeping my mind busy like watch youtube , listen to music etc. I sometimes still go down the road but i try to watch motivating videos or "reality check" stuff and then try to eat healthier and exercise even if i don't want. Some years ago from my severe depression and anxiety i felt paralysed for like 2 hours as if i was gonna get a heartattack it was when i let myself keep crying and be depressed which made me realise i let myself go lower even though i am only 140 pounds now (i was 190pounds at the time and 21 years old) i still dealt with that and i don't want to let it go bad again...

[@honeyfungus4774]

@@mariapriest4106 Thanks for your reply. Good luck to you, I hope your life continues well. Also, congrats on your great weight loss.

[@aioki_uchiha]

I just want to share that I struggle with depression myself and its the most crippling thing a human can experience... the amount of guilt, sadness, loneliness and hopelessness u have to deal with every day is so exhausting that u don't have the energy to do basic things. But I need to tell you one thing, that I try not to forget to tell myself daily and that is that you are a warrior, because you are still here fighting every second of your life and still believe that it will get better, many has lost this battle.. So be proud Tammy, im proud of you and I believe in you.

[@raquellambropoulos279]

As a victim of childhood SA, date rape, ED , drug addiction and the loss of my only brother at 22 suddenly I had many obstacles to overcome in my life . It was a journey that i still am on . I can only speak for myself my experience. I can't say it will help you, but I can only hope it can encourage others to find what does lead them to recovery. Addiction in any form will kill you. In every addiction DENIAL is a huge obstacle. I 1st went on a spiritual journey and began writing out affirmations. Meditation. Studying Hindi. I learned all suffering is TEMPORARY. That even how bad i felt life is , it would not remain bad. I started changing thoughts from negative to positive. I now just think positive its no longer a process . I limited my calories and the 1st week was difficult but i now had the strength to push on. After a month , i changed. I really no longer craved crap. I used to look at bad food and desserts and feel deprived. Like if I didn't eat it I was being cheated and i was jealous of others eating it . That turned into disgust and pity for the individual who consumed it. I began enjoying the endorphins achieved from working out and consuming whole natural foods . I took a cooking class and learned how to make delicious food that was natural and healthy and delicious and satisfied me. Its been 18 years in total since the start of my journey. I have experienced many traumatic experiences the death of my dad, a drive by shooting were the person was 5ft away and I witnessed their murder , the death of my bff and once again I was there to witness it and my cancer diagnosis. This was an 18 yr period. I was also in a house fire and lost everything i ever owned . Literally only had the clothes on my back. What changed? Why did i not return to my addictions ??? I believe it was the combination of growth spiritual, body and mentally. Being positive and accountable. It has been a trip and I am still in shock by it all. I often wish I discovered the answer to my happiness in the prime of my life and that I didn't waste away years in active addiction. But at 52 , im still young enough to enjoy life and the peace that true longterm recovery brings. Its the true joy that the positive thoughts bring that have me in recovery. I dont relapse because i don't want the negative energy back. I dont want the sadness and everything else it brings. I am happy with who I am. What i look like and how I live my life.

[@lmkays]

Have you ever considered going into a school as a volunteer? Confronting the trauma school caused you might help. Go there as a volunteer and make positive memories to replace the traumatic ones. Give it a shot! ❤️

[@raquellambropoulos279]

She has to heal herself first. You can not help anyone when you are broken. Sure she can get a degree and get hired but how can you tell anyone how to heal when they can look at you and see that you are still broken?? If you can't be honest and heal from your own demons . Understand what im saying

[@kikib2741]

I enjoyed hearing about your insights. I relate. And I never thought about grieving what could have been from the past. I have a good relationship with food for the most part, but I do binge (somewhat, it’s more of over eating these days) and for me I figured out a couple of years ago that when I do that I am filling my emotions, an internal void. I think for me, to some degree, those coping mechanisms will always be there. I’m just better recognizing it and I choose to prepare most of my meals which helps me to have better option when I’m hungry. Thanks for sharing. It’s a journey

[@greenever3086]

I really liked your video becouse it's genuine and self analitical (like an introspection) in spite of the huge emotional /senzitive topic . Take care !🤗

[@wendykama1155]

I found myself nodding all the way through. Very good video!

[@clairemercier3969]

I get you 100%, Tammy. Love your videos.

[@tubebluber]

This video is amazing! I never realised that I was also experiencing grief and subsequent resentment due to my ED and depression. Keep up the amazing videos. You made me feel less alone in my struggles and heard. Lots of love to you and your gorgeous cats ❤️

[@pinnjazvlog9222]

Amazing video! Thank you for being so brave to share this 🙌 made me really think about my own childhood and the demons from there what I really need to face to become better version of myself

[@Michelemybelle1986]

Best video i have tuned into yet. I nodded my head the whole time.

[@seaprincess700]

You are very self-aware Tammy, that's a good thing! A big step in the right direction. I have watched you from the beginning, and I have seen your ups and downs. I wish I knew how to support you better, and if I lived nearby I would invite you for coffee or a walk :). You seem like such a genuine nice person. It makes me so happy whenever I see a new video from you. Take care, Tammy!

[@CutiePie232]

Thia video spoke to me on a personal level.

[@ByeByeBelly]

Me too, I wish I could keep my comments this brief 😂

[@candiceyoung8244]

Tammy you really explained that so well. I hope anyone who's younger, or just having a similar issue, and maybe struggling with b e d,will come across our video,and reach out for help. Thank you for the great 💛🍋💛🍋💛🍋🌼

[@B-Real-Pshh]

It's very admirable to share your life's difficulties as you work through them to better yourself! You deserve all the success in your journey! Keep up the hard and find enjoyment in the process! You're doing great

[@michaelajoseph6856]

Thank you Tammy! 🙏❤️🌷

[@ginakraushaar7858]

Tammy, you did an excellent job explaining what you wanted to get across! Succinct! See you at next video! 🥰❤️

[@shelbysue701]

Love the video and it is crazy how people who have never experienced this type of stuff just don’t understand. I am about to be 32 still mourning the body I never had or the opportunity to when I was young. Always being overweight. Now that I’m older it’s better but I am pregnant and gaining weight and struggle with depression too and damn. It’s so sad though cause we expel so much energy onto this. And I hope you continue to heal too 💕💕💕💕

[@robertkline5739]

Interesting and reflective thoughts. We’re on the same journeys thank you for sharing and helping others

[@talita.1389]

I'm trying to lose weight as well, I also have an eating disorder, and use food to cope with my depression and life, some days are easier than others, but it's definitely not an easy journey. I'm 33 and I still mourn over the life I've lost and will never get back, never thought about that before, this is something really hard to let go of, the life you built in your head and knowing you've destroyed that because of your weight.

[@TonicBlade]

I agree with the "all or nothing" mindset needs to change. It will be hard. Which means not keeping in the house or buying a lot of items you might binge on. If you mess up on one or two items the thought of "F it I'll eat all this other stuff " isn't good. You mention about grieving certain things. Going on a hike or run to not miss a train are still possible with weight loss (just not school things). You can still work on future memories that will be way better than past memories. Look positively towards the future

[@tkc8810]

Try adding more protein to your plate, like garbanzos beans, eggs, oatmeal, lentils, or meats and strength training, like deadlifts with a dufflebag filled with rice bags.

[@taovalentine1655]

You have a good baseline portion of the KZbin market. Excellent idea and time to get established by gaining supporters. For a long time, there has only been Amber and Chantal in this particular corner of the Internet. You’re like an antithesis of ALR. You talk openly and researched about your journey, while ALR embodies everything you’re talking about and lies constantly. There are parts of this corner of the Internet that are brutal and intolerant, but also real people who want to understand, or are their own version of

[@PoppySeed47]

Hi Tammy, your doing all the right things and you will eventually get to a place where you get the control back with food. Food addiction is hard and it's said that sugar is way more addictive than drugs like heroin and with food you can't just give it up. Something I found help full when I used to struggle with binging was when I get the urge, to stop myself and ask why do I want to binge? What's happened to put me in this frame of mind? Then addressing whatever it is and by the time you've done that the urge to binge has passed. Rooting for you! 😘

[@BellaVlogsLife]

This was all so very well said. I feel like you’ve summed my own experience up perfectly. So relatable!! And so honest. Thank you ❤

[@indy1972]

Ik kwam vandaag een video tegen van een reactie kanaal. Kam even langs om je sterkte te wensen! Ik ben door een soort gelijk proces gegaan in m'n leven en ik ben nu (bijna) 50 en het is allemaal gelukkig goed gekomen... Geef nooit op dus! Succes met alles! #Subbed

[@neenee_marie77]

Very relatable and so true!

[@fidgetykoala]

I posted a similar comment under another Tammy's vid. I went through BED myself after breaking up with an abusive person. I was living abroad and many things occurred in a short span of time. I decided to remove myself from that situation, giving up on a career goal I had worked towards for years. I moved back home and I went to a nutritionist. To break the cycle I needed external support and my mum was basically helping me out a lot. I don't want to sound negative but if you guys reckon you are currently not able to follow a healthy diet please ask for support. Believe me once you are on the new path, I would say about 4/5 months along the line you won't experience the same cravings you were used to. O.c it's super important to get to know the root cause of why you are experiencing BED, mine as said, was the break-up, the trauma and other things thrown in the mix. Cheers everyone xoxo

[@TammyLemon.]

That must have taken a lot of courage to pick up your things, leave everything behind and choose YOU. I really admire that courage! I agree, external support is super important. I feel bad for people who don't have a social support network like relatives with whom they are close or people that have no money to get into therapy and such. I also think there are a lot of people that don't realize they really do have a problem with food. It took me a lot of years before I was able to admit that my behavior around food isn't normal, that I can not do it alone and that I really do have a problem with food.

[@fidgetykoala]

@@TammyLemon.

[@leejganderson7827]

I feel this at my age 59s Like how what up could have shut up but I have to leave it alone and start the new year better! And start to see my children better! Otherwise why am I around!?! I do things for myself but I also was a mother and I thought I was good at it but obviously somebody thought differently and screwed up my family almost 10 years ago and now I'm trying to figure it all out and I kind of did and now I got to go figure out how to get my family back to some degree anyways peace out.. *Have a Safe Happy New Year*. . 💐❣️💐 Ok 12 31.2022

[@1jjlewis]

Thank you for sharing, it realy helps me. I also have those same struggles.

[@lindabeeston7408]

I totally get it. All of it. We struggle for sure.

[@oldhertdergwater6729]

Your videos are so honest. Thanks for that. This would be hard to say, let alone say in front of your audience. Thanks 🙏

[@susanmurrieta5802]

Honest yes except for the fact that she thinks that she eats healthy

[@woshamboo]

Thanks for sharing your vulnerabilities. We love you!

[@evametlenga2273]

Thank you for this video ❤️ You are so intelligent! And in touch with yourself! You will make a great parent one day !

[@Bridgette1111]

The brain is the most underdeveloped organ in a baby’s body at birth. Nuff said.

[@lyndalogan4910]

I'm new watching you. I love you ... thanks for your honesty... Hang tough.....

[@josephinenapoleana738]

Bravo, Tammy!

[@queenmarynovelwriter5397]

You express yourself very well .I wish you good luck.

[@Swiss_Girl]

I love your videos and get the eating disorder. I also used to overeat. I am 167cm (5‘4) and was 93kg (205lbs). But you CAN be whatever you want!💪 like you can fit in a nice prom dress and be skinny. Its the right mindset. I‘ve gained and lost weight all my life and now I am 32 years old and lost 30kg (66lbs) two years ago. I just clicked. you can do it♥️

[@terryb.9719]

I understand.

[@leylag.5602]

I am like your twin. Food, binges, calories, diets, all around… took 90% of my mental compactly. The rest is only 10% funktional life quality. Childhood trauma… yeah. But what if you had a Byatric surgery and suddenly 100 % of your focus can go to the course instead of the symptoms?

[@susanbeckham7236]

Love you Tammy!

[@thewrongshoes]

Have you considered medications that would help you lose weight like Wegovy or Mounjaro? They both could help you

[@bbjudyfit]

I was so focused on being healthy/perfect that i completely ruined my health. I got the smallest ive ever been. But That was my rock bottom and i still wasnt satisfied. Now My goal is to be balanced. I feel that is the way to a true happy and satisfying life.

[@lukeh465]

Stay strong ❤️

[@jmarietv]

omg! i am old now and it took me til now to be finally ok with my body but now at this age I have loose skin and crepey sking...you are so young and have so much time...food is not worth it i finally dont crave any more ..i dont know how to pass it along to you but food is no longer such a craving when older...dont wast your young life..not worth it...

[@sofianduta2498]

Hi Tammy, how did you make that jar with fairy lights on the background? Also. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.

[@TammyLemon.]

It's this huge glass jar wich had a rubber band around it. I took off the rubber band. That left a little open space, wide enough for the power cord to go through.

[@sofianduta2498]

It's sooo pretty😍 I'm inspired to make something like that.

[@kickr8408]

Replace dont restrict.

[@Kikiscrackerjackbox]

Wow, this is my situation and thought process as well👏👏👏

[@Sandra_HereToSeeTheDuctTape]

I only discovered your channel today and you know what my first thought was when I saw you? That you resemble Claudia Schiffer! I'm serious! Yes, there's a weight difference, but if it wasn't I think you would really look like her. You have such a pretty face and hair! ☺

[@leejganderson7827]

I said the same thing Peace 🕊️☮️🕊️ ! 1-7 2023

[@28sk8masturbate2]

Oh I thought it was 🎵"stained alive"🎵 as a kid...🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

[@Catherine-Terra]

Thank you Tammy.

[@TheEmeliexx]

Yes my ed came from trauma. But can you not check into a ed clinic? It helped me ALOT!

[@chloeslater7231]

I have lived with anorexia and bulimia for 20 years, I too have complex trauma. I'm wondering if you can relate to anorexia during your weightloss periods, I know that was what I could see when I've seen your videos during those periods. I realise that you see the binge eating and I can painfully relate to binging, I have had to accept that for me what keeps my binging going is restriction. Not completely but for me it is a factor and I'm wondering if there is any of that you can relate to? x

[@leejganderson7827]

*Hello*👋🤗👋 To All . I hope I can do videos like the ones I put out five years ago but upgrade them better learn how to edit and have people watch mine you did so well with yours from 7000 to 23000+.. plus now WOW 😲😳😲 Be how that you're getting some message across about eating disorder. And how it affects you in different ways and how you're trying to get away from that and a positive way without lying to yourself! We all are trying to do that in one way or another either with food drugs alcohol or buying too much stuff Etc keeping up the Joneses Etc be happy people just be yourself.. Peace ✌️🕊️☮️ Peace ✌️🕊️☮️😅✌️🍀

[@Random_Blip]

80/20 ... Pareto Principle!

[@rishaa682]

I want reparations for no one taking me away from my abusive parents. The system failed me

[@clared5812]

The system fails everyone. Even if you had been taken away from your parents, foster “care” only would have made things worse.

[@ByeByeBelly]

I feel the same way about a lot of things but I try to focus on what I'm grateful for, it's hard though