"The Beer" Kimya Dawson

[@ROASTEDCXNT]

"I cried for him, and then I cried for me, haunted by the girl I used to be." That shit is really deep for me, and others

[@IsaLinaLuna]

literally just came to this song for that line tonight

[@Maya-h5f]

From tiktok of course

[@ROASTEDCXNT]

​@@IsaLinaLuna Damn

[@xXxSailorNekoxXx]

"...a box of clementines. I ate every single one without noticing the mold..." Moldy Peaches. *brain explodes*

[@xDXell]

lmao

[@WrestlingGames101]

Big brain moment

[@BlamingBuddha]

They say "you're gross my darling," I say "No, I'm rock n' roll..."

[@megancooper8676]

Clementines are oranges though

[@karlzfloyd]

Same

[@Rachael-qq1yu]

I used to listen to Kimya a LOT back in 2005- 2013. Didn't know it at the time but I'm an alcoholic and suddenly it all makes so much sense. I didn't know alcoholism would lead to psychosis and seizures, mine did. Sober since Jan 7th 2023

[@cookedasparagus]

i’m so proud of you ❤

[@UnstableMelanieFan]

Congratulations 🫶

[@m3lody978]

Im so proud of you!! My friend's father is an alcoholic, and a lot has happened in the past few weeks for them. i really hope he gets help before it gets worse

[@lolgacha3217]

I don’t know you, but a sense of complete appreciation blossomed in my chest. I’m so proud of you

[@tylerharvey2337]

Hell yeah dude congrats, I hope you're doing well 🩷

[@QueenOfAmber]

This will always be the darkest song I know.

[@blackbanner689]

QueenOfAmber You want some darker ones? Listen to Johnny hobo....

[@shannasneed2145]

I know

[@efrin4945]

+QueenOfAmber I feel th e same way

[@efrin4945]

+QueenOfAmber let's make love

[@redcap7547]

+QueenOfAmber i will never forget also by kimya dawson is pretty dark too

[@hoopinessandjoy]

Alcoholism/addiction affects millions of people across the world. I know many alcoholics who are now in recovery and their stories are very similar to what This song portrays. Kimya is amazing,

[@cinnamonspectre9149]

This whole song just sounds like some fever dream I would end up having. Love this song so much.

[@marti-bruinsma8939]

OMG WJW YES THAT IS SO TRUE

[@sMyMe9540]

this song sounds like my childhood

[@mias.not-here]

@@sMyMe9540well that’s not good :/

[@ZapZipity]

whenever i hear dawsons songs they all sound like theyre filled with pain

[@xTammyDLx]

I've had this song on repeat for almost a week now.

[@Sweet_Dee]

Same!!

[@hamerugumiandthevocaloidfa8654]

@@erikdeeNOSPELLSNO yep

[@joshclingermayer6091]

4 years and still can't get it out of my head.

[@shiftybaker1283]

Six years. I discovered kimya from that movie Juno. All of her music is fantastic if you ask me, but this one really has shaken me. Its really eerie how off-putting this masterpiece is. Def my fave song from her now, taking the place of 'I will never forget'

[@bedoflettuce]

this song is the best portrayal of alcoholism ive ever heard. i feel every line in my soul. i find even the parts about specific situations are relatable , like the parts about the old man or the crazy neighbor's pills. i listened to this song for the first time when i was around 11, and now 6 years later i can fully understand it. i listened to this song when i was drinking everyday and ending up in traumatic/dangerous situations, i listened to this song when i was abusing meth, and now im listening to this song while struggling with alcohol again, as well as crack cocaine. the ending makes me so sad but also gives me hope, it makes me want to put my all into recovery. thank you kimya for this masterpiece, words cannot describe how much this song means to me. ❤

[@salad9453]

i really hope your able to get sober, you deserve it. don't give up, i know that you can do it. (off topic but i like your daniel johnston pfp :) )

[@lunarlunna3452]

im an alcoholic. I dont know how I got to this point, but I got to it. this song had driven me too wanting too get sober. I dont know if getting sober is something I am capable of, but thanks to kimya, I want to try.

[@dani-nc6px]

i am so proud of you for trying , i know you can do it . you are strong and loved and cared about

[@chucklebutt4470]

Please be careful and seek a doctor. I hope you make it, friend!

[@lunarlunna3452]

im 13 days sober today! it's not much but its progress, baby steps yanno

[@jackfox6793]

@@lunarlunna3452 I hope it is going well still

[@jackfirmin5814]

you can do it my friend

[@abbymccraw697]

You said "your gross my darling" I said" no I'm rock&roll"

[@rexmundi5180]

My extraordinary friend who took her own life shook our town to the core. We had a memorial for her and someone sang this song, it really hit hard then, like I finally realized she was gone and it was for nothing just being young and impulsive. I really miss her everyday.

[@ll9578]

I’m sorry that happened dude, wish you the best

[@boxedterrapin3550]

He said "don't shoot"... I said "I won't, I love you're my friend". I handed him my wig and then I shot myself in the head.

[@willowtree3854]

Boxed Terrapin is that about her taking off the wig so she wasn’t that person anymore, making that promise not to shoot irrelevant?

[@constantinvaldor3742]

@@willowtree3854 i think she took it off to show who she was and to convince him she wasn't going to shoot. He was really scared and her seeing his fear mad her feel sad.

[@willowtree3854]

Constantin Valdor but then she proceeded to shoot? And she made the promise prior to taking off the wig so my thoughts is that she as Tina Turner made the promise not to shoot but she herself didn’t, so when she took off the wig the promise was irrelevant and she shot herself. Just a thought but who knows honestly.

[@constantinvaldor3742]

@@willowtree3854 yes but we hurt ourselves every day with thoughts and self hate. But we never want to hurt anyone else but ourselves.

[@SaucePussy]

That's what he said....

[@sadshortangstytoxicloser6870]

Fave Lyric = And the christians gave me comic books as if I would be scared Of burning in hell well I was already there.

[@DjFluttershyPony]

Omfg why did i read this as " fake lyrics: and the christmas gave me sonic books as if i would be scared"

[@peachxoreo1955]

And the christians gave me comic books as if I would be scared of burning in the hell when I was already there

[@Rat-mk6fk]

It's been 5 years. I'll tell you right now that no amount of suffering on earth is even close to the torture of "hell", Jesus Christ called it outer darkness where there will be weeping, gnashing of teeth and unquenchable fire.

[@samaraaacz]

@@Rat-mk6fk😂😂😂

[@SnoopSqueak]

​@@Rat-mk6fk fuck your hateful, harmful religion. if god is love, why are you all such assholes? why is HE such an asshole?

[@TheBestCheesecake530]

"First I cried for him, then I cried for me, haunted by the ghost of the girl used to be. But the rock with wholes are warm in my hands and I buried my toes in the hot hot sand, and the silver pink pony kisses me and says 'you've come a long long way and you deserve to be really happy..."

[@thomasoconnor]

that line kind of resonated with e because today I realized that I really am a different person that I used to be. glad drugs and alcohol weren't involved in that change, though. I fear those cause my mind is bad enough without them already and anything else and I feel I would become a pitiable husk

[@earllarrabee7026]

This song is incredibly sad, reminds me of 2008....But more importantly it reminds me of my mindset in 2008. A part of me wonders if some of these lyrics are unapologetic descriptions of actual events. For you see, whenever you are going through hell, it is really easy to be brazenly candid about lived events. You recount them exactly as they happened. The more outlandish these events seem, the better. Your reality is so crazy that is unbelievable to most. You speak the truth and everyone hears an allegory. A perfect disguise put in plain view. There are just too many specifics in this song for me to pass them off as clever lyrics...I know...I know what this is. And for those out there who can relate to this song....you know exactly what I am talking about.

[@prophetOFnot]

you, my friend, have a profoundly accurate view of this and what it is, and your comment resonated with me almost as much as the underlying and overlaying nuances and raw blunt truth wielded with a sledgehammer hand that is the song itself props

[@boredanarchist7531]

This was never just a song

[@ozzza0073]

this seems like the elephant in the room, but only some of us see it

[@Reevesy791]

Absolutely the same

[@TheNebiahlia]

Thank you Kimya Dawson for helping me get through these dark moments.

[@heyguysimsleepy3955]

I have had this song on replay every single day ever since I found this song which was about a week ago.

[@heyguysimsleepy3955]

It's been a year now and I still listen to this song constantly.

[@7Lace77]

@@heyguysimsleepy3955 what teh fuck is that pic?!

[@amelia398]

Makes me cry all the time. Such a specific feeling - dreamlike, dark and horrific

[@jamesliu8101]

I shocked myself when I started bawling like 30 seconds into the video, I tried to catch as much as the lyrics and by the end of it I kinda knew what it was. I wish you all guys a good day/night.

[@weirdlingink]

3 days and then another 2 to redo all the ones I hated, not including editing and storyboards. Note: If you are going to be drawing with Expo markers all day, open a window.

[@thesyrinjun1850]

Lololol thanks buddy. I got a dry erase board and markers because your video inspired me:) thanks for the pro tip!

[@mandiraexotic]

This is so beautifully done, thank you!

[@d.c.8828]

🎶 The beer I had for breakfast had the scent of Expo marks; Spent the day trapped in my head, I'm not yet ready to embark... 🎶

[@jaimeparedes9188]

I'm an old-time traditional rock and roller listening to this for the first time--I thoroughly enjoyed it!

[@kanescrimes4848]

Ouch, This song hit me right in the feelings. What an incredible artist.

[@mioun519]

this video was made 1 day before i was born and is my favorite song

[@stacysmom9177]

my dad died like a month ago due to alcohol poisoning or alcohol withdrawl we dont knowz but something alcohol related. it's summer where I am and he told me that this summer he was going to get sober. he never got the chance to get clean. he was my best friend. I was the one that found him. please try for your loved ones to get clean, and have a few extra years with you. I would kill for one more conversation with my dad

[@jewelsdatter9029]

I have 4 years Clean and Sober and this song has always hit hard in exactly the right way

[@logan4231]

I was 9 when this video came out and I used to listen to it with my older cousin in her computer room. Listening to it 11 years later and being able to actually relate to the lyrics along with the nostalgia is such an emotional trip

[@olivekaye5695]

lol he said you're so gross my darling i said no, im rock n' roll my new favorite lyrics.

[@circesoul2218]

redemption 864 from what Eyedea song?

[@kristiemiddleton84]

Still one of my absolute favorites remember listening to this song ten years ago for the first time and fell in love with this woman!

[@Immilives54]

This song made me rethink whether drinking so much was okay, I was 13 and drinking daily. Kimya has helped me to stop

[@ZChase]

As if I would be scared of burning in hell, while I was already there.

[@alexsacalhoun3518]

Z. Chase a kid in my school said I would burn in he'll and I replied with this "as if I would be scared of burning in hell while I was already there" then he ran away and told the principle what I said and she just went into her office and cuntinued with her work XD

[@sockjammers4ever]

this video was made before i was born- and i love it. this is art- this is gorgeous

[@olivelavender5886]

this song is so fucking sad

[@AspireEditsSoloEditor]

olive lavender I don't get what it's about. Ik it's about alcoholism but I don't understand the story

[@nikoboo2422]

i think it's a bit more personal so you have to understand it the way you want to

[@mikeboyle4611]

i never thought that cute and sad could work together until i saw this. i love it!

[@ittixen]

Fantastic song, great visualizations. Helped me better understand the words, thereby better understanding the meanings behind them.

[@niteowl9491]

this animation+editing is hella cool and well done

[@annaturquoise7701]

never fails to make me cry

[@denbebb-jones5876]

This might have been the level of relatable that means I should get therapy but my insurance won't cover it

[@weirdlingink]

sweet! international recognition!!! i love it!

[@mikogale]

such an intense song, never fails to give me the chills

[@krystlfire]

padiddle is a car game (like punch buggy, when the first person to see a VW bug can punch the other) wherein the first person to see a car missing a headlight has to call padiddle and hit the roof. Some versions make you strip if you re the last to call

[@SuperSpiderme]

videos like these should let you like it more than once.

[@happymolecule8894]

This is... hypnotic.

[@happymolecule8894]

Oh fuck, this is REALLY hypnotic

[@happymolecule8894]

Very hypnotic, no doubt.

[@ayeshapreston6582]

Lol welcome back.

[@thedude13420]

This is beautiful ❤

[@moontallaluah]

as a person who grew up with a very alcoholic father , i fully hear this song differently than i did years ago

[@brendakaye34]

I think silver pink pony is onto something...YOU deserve to BE really happy!

[@daysofcandy000]

the art is the cutest thingbever

[@otonanoC]

This is the most indie song that was ever sung by an indie band.

[@frederickbabyyeah]

I'm sure lots of people say this but i have never found a song that I can relate to more than this one. particularly "haunted by the ghost of the girl I used to be". I'm grateful to kimya Dawson for writing such honest music :)

[@jason4273]

That is a brilliant piece of animation to an amazing song, you've done Kimya proud

[@camilapilarfenandez7474]

this is punk(?) acustic punk(?)

[@millezenith]

More like anti-folk

[@dicemise]

@@cabgirl12 folk punk xx

[@mitchellrussell403]

Likts like folk punl befor it was cool

[@oddkwitti]

This song is beautiful. The words are well put together. It’s an emotional rollercoaster. It is sad that this song is being used for a trend, it means that I will always hear that one part, but I’ll never get sick of it

[@royceroller7095]

Keep them coming,I love your songs 😎

[@rustycanofbeans1009]

Me and my friend use to listen to this song all the time. Now I cry everytime I hear this song and sometimes it's the only way I can cry. We drifted apart now because life happens. The worst times of my life she was there. This song reminds me of who I use to be and drops an anchor that keeps me from drifting away from who I am...

[@devm8425]

wow i dont usually like fan-made music videos but this one....it kinda rules

[@NikothaGreat]

Most accurate demonstration of this horribly heart felt song. Your fantastic!

[@brianmaiden8333]

I got to meet her once after a set at some awful bar with some people I think I still hate to this day---she was just the most genuine person ever and. Wow. What a gal.

[@TheBestCheesecake530]

10 years and we all still come back to this, when things get awful, unreal, unbearable. Just to feel some reasonable solace..

[@-Apathy-]

This song is so relatable. I never found a song that could relate to this much. I’m not even an alcoholic lmao

[@mariaholtz1]

GENIUS!!!

[@Crodmog83]

I really enjoyed this

[@gamersquidtv5000]

You ever cry and laugh and dont know which one is covering up which

[@jessedampolo]

Reminds me of walking home from my friends house in the snow in 2003.

[@vinegar8079]

Gonna go to rehab soon

[@NouksYT]

Goodluck man

[@cookedasparagus]

good luck ❤ you are amazing for going. life is beautiful and you deserve to experience it free from the vice of substances

[@groandazey]

this is weirdly comforting to me.

[@chica476]

Deep.

[@weevilwizarddotmusic9711]

kimya dawson's songs make me feel every known emotion

[@ENDTHEWAR-n3y]

Litteraly this has been stuck in my head 4 a month

[@ZebraGirl-s4v]

lyrics- The beer I had for breakfast was a bottle of Mad Dog And my twenty-twenty vision was fifty percent off You said, "Punch buggy red, " and punched me right in my left eye I said, "Don't you mean pediddle?" and I lit his house on fire He came home on acid, I was holding his shotgun I was dressed like Tina Turner in Beyond Thunderdome He said, "Don't shoot", I said, "I won't, I love you, you're my friend" I handed him my wig and shot myself in the head Then I stuffed a box of tissues in the hole in my skull I got in my Mazda and I drove to the mall I got a Big Johnson shirt and some silicone tits When I pulled out the tissues, they were covered with shit And the beer I had for breakfast was a box of cheap white wine And the boombox on my shoulder was a box of clementines I ate every single one without noticing the mold You said, "You're gross my darling, " I said, "No, I'm rock and roll" Even though I'd never, ever been in a band I got cool as Black Ice tattooed on my hand And the Christians gave me comic books as if I would be scared Of burning in hell, well, I was already there And the beer I had for breakfast, silver bullet in the brain And the beer I had for lunch was a bottle of Night Train And the beer I had for dinner was my crazy neighbor's pills We had to sit down on skateboards just to make it down the hill Then I peed my pants and you stole the groom's cigar And some old man made me watch him masturbate, locked in his car When I got back to the apartment, you were face down on the floor You said, "Don't go to bed yet, let's go get a 64" And the beer I had for breakfast was a pint of Jim Beam And a fifth of peach Schnapps and some warm SunnyD And you said, "Bottoms up, " just as I bottomed out I tried to scream, "Fuck you, " but blood was pouring out my mouth And Evan Dando never planned on telling you the truth And your Leonardo I.D. card is your fountain of youth You can be a teenager for your whole fucking life Just find some pretty sucker and make that bitch your wife I guess by now you all know my friend Danny broke his neck He was driving home from Sirens when he got into a wreck First, I cried for him, and then I cried for me Haunted by the ghost of the girl I used to be But the rocks with holes are warm in my hands And I buried my toes in the hot, hot sand And the silver pink pony kisses me and says "You've come a long, long way and you deserve to be really happy"

[@Maddiezmm2]

This was so useful 😊

[@HaywoodJablomii]

2:08 love that crazy noise in the background

[@TheBrianortiz123]

best fan video ive seen yet :)

[@melbabiee]

this is awesom!

[@cassiopeia6828]

THIS IS CO COOL?! ON A WHITE BOARD

[@cassiopeia6828]

i just realized this was 15 years ago wow i'm late

[@UnstableMelanieFan]

@@cassiopeia6828we know man☹️

[@MrThend]

This is my favorite song

[@taegan.]

my mom was an alcoholic since before my older brother was born, and was all the way until she passed. i started drinking when i was 11 and quickly became an alcoholic for 5 years. i learned some pretty bad coping skills when i was young and they just stuck. my dad always told me i would “end up like my mom” when he wanted to hurt me, and i held onto that. if everyone else sees it, might as well make it happen. self fulfilling prophecy. i’m sober now, have been for a while, but last time i drank, i really thought i could be okay, but instantly fell back into the hole within that hour. i feel horrible when i drink, it’s a good feeling on the surface but inside it’s fucking awful. i first listened to this song last summer, and i immediately got that awful feeling i get when i’m drunk. i feel gross, almost dirty, and a type of sadness that isn’t recognizable, a sadness i haven’t felt outside of drinking. but the ending of this song, it makes me hopeful. my mom was so close to being sober, but it was taken away from her so quickly when she died. i still have time to change my “fate”. throughout all my trauma and shitty childhood memories and years of loneliness and being lost, i know i still have a light. the good memories of my mom, and her hopes of soberness, they guide me to a new happiness. we can all make our own decisions, even if they are extremely difficult and impossible seeming, we push through all of the shittiness and trouble, so we can find a light at the end.

[@shelbywillis7420]

When you get every fucking word

[@bupdragon4694]

So beautiful.....

[@Michael-ne2gt]

You're just wrong.

[@berenicehahn6517]

in love with the lyrics

[@wavedrone9]

I've seen a lot of cool things in my life. This may be the coolest thing I've ever seen!

[@liptastic]

that was so amzziingngnggggg

[@yolo22]

excellent work, ashley!

[@xMarceMarcex]

Awesome video. And this song makes me cry and cry and cry and cry.

[@ogbeanie]

this is wonderful, one of your friends showed me this, btw i like the doodles :P

[@AaliyahSaahir]

You've come a long, long way and you deserve to be really happy!!! ❤❤❤

[@h4zrd273]

It's a wonder how something so bad can be something so good :I

[@ghost-youth1037]

Thank you so much for this work of art, Kimya

[@kittxgor]

1:58 - 2:33 my favourite part

[@macminator3000]

one of the few songs that make me feel something, also as well as the other comment somewhere below i don't usually like fan-made music videos but this one rules.

[@SISSYBNNY]

This song changed me a lil bit

[@christopherbrooks1402]

2020 anyone?

[@altisna]

I love this song and I can listen to it a million times in a row. But whenever I try to show one of my friends they tell me they can't even get all the way through the song... Idk why the song doesn't get to them the way it gets to me O.o -.-

[@woweag6445]

I hear you

[@D4EDLY.CL4WS]

This is history but a legent

[@romerlys4264]

thank you!!

[@tristanhall7398]

That was metal asf

[@theexpert758]

The Christians gave me comic books as if i would be scared, of burning in hell, but i was already there Very special song.

[@theexpert758]

It got better buddy. But you are back again...

[@xxflyleafparamorexx]

This song is... wow. Shivers.

[@DabiDownBad]

This song is such a wild ride start to finish

[@TheHostClan]

this is brilliant holy jesus.

[@1rudrakshsharma]

So good

[@TheDerBommel]

Great Song, great Video!