Who's Lila? | Part 1

[@nyxmoonveil]

Jesse's inability to make faces is both incredibly frustrating and hilarious lol.

[@lokuzt]

the face control in this game is awful, its really hard to make the character use the face you want

[@Bobogdan258]

@@lokuzt If only they stopped fighting back

[@Eventide215]

@@lokuzt Yeah but Jesse flat out didn't even understand how to make some emotions which is frustrating and hilarious and relatable to the character I suppose.

[@Godvvinslaw]

​@@lokuzt You can turn on easy mode, it gives you more time and the Face stops to change on its own. I turned that on as soon as I saw it and never turned it off again.

[@elemist315]

Wherein Jesse needs to be reminded how to show emotion, cannot take me to Funky Town, gets lost in the lost woods, feeds the Empress, becomes concerned while diving into tulpamancy, and takes a long trip off of a roof.

[@tinybee7780]

1:07:45 Jesse's descent into madness starts here. I'm glad that Jesse explored the boiler room first and managed to get the Empress ending. Usually the game is a bit slow in it's introduction since it wants you to explore the school and the students first before exploring other areas. Here's hoping that Jesse still has that USB he carries around after playing Pony Island. Then again, I don't think that it'll be enough this time.

[@TMPGames]

Jesse's dive into Tulpas had me dying of laughter. I didn't think he read so much of it nor did I expect how off the rails it would be!

[@fattucus1361]

Was excited to see this since he talked about it on GeekEnders

[@misscurls101]

literally JUST watched the Jacob Geller essay about this game and this appeared in my feed. AMAZING timing, lets get crazy

[@rcbob9258]

13:35 'Manful Soul' is a reference to another youtuber named ManlyBadassHero. He has a recurring joke: whenever he inspects a trash can, he says "it's empty, just like my soul."

[@CaroGo]

Gotta love Jesse "If somebody CATCHES YOU OFF GUARD with an UNEXPECTED phone call..." Jesse: I am scared? Angry? Sad? Happy? Disgusted?! Surely disgusted, right..? Incredible! He managed to name all but the correct one

[@Eventide215]

My immediate though was scared and when that didn't work I thought angry.. so.. it really depends on who you ask. I know some people that are actually happy to get a random unexpected call but for me, with my social anxiety, it makes my heart race like Death himself is calling me.

[@wolfgang6398]

Oooo i remember watching playthroughs of this awhile back! I can't wait to see your reaction to it, I think it's really up your alley :D!!

[@karolineleos]

seriously I watched a guy play it and I just thought ... "he's alright and all but I need Jesse on this"

[@RazielIgor]

I love the faces Jesse makes when he tries to make faces.

[@crosscutsart]

1:20:00 Man that just reminded me about when he did that during Terraria and TB asked "What is wrong with you?" or something like that.

[@JoaquinScholten]

Same here. Bittersweet moment

[@MitoDrium]

When a game start with the first button reading "Wake Up", you know you're in for a ride!

[@scaredscorpion]

*Outer Wilds flashbacks*

[@Burred11]

Similar to Pony Island you say? #FreeSatan

[@rachaelversaw]

These are the faces of a killer Bella

[@mokajones74]

OhhhhhHHHHH Lila's gotta be this dude's Tulpa who took over his body/spirit. Makes the phone call make so much sense

[@urgoslav5107]

I definitely said "this is a Jesse / Dodger game" when this came out a while back.

[@AsterothRayet]

Starting up a brand new day is a such a deep cut. Even after all this time... i still miss TB

[@antiichristie]

I was kinda hoping for a SGS playthrough but a Jesse Cox playthrough works too :)

[@leroyjenkins2030]

A tulpa is like a combination of a hallucination, an alternate personality, and an imaginary friend.

[@Avohaj]

Just to be clear, they took their hallucinations, alternate personalities and/or imaginary friends and labeled them tulpa probably because they saw it on X-Files.

[@Eventide215]

@@Avohaj Tulpas were in Supernatural which is where it really started to get a new following. In Supernatural they were basically just if enough people in a concentrated place believed in something it'd eventually become true. So like if there was a myth about an axe wielding murderer in the creepy shack in the woods and enough people believed that then there would actually be one there. The internet took it and.. as usual.. made it extremely weird. Also, a Tulpa in actual myth isn't just an imaginary friend, alternate personality, etc. It is when those things actually manifest into something real.

[@FightingFoodonsFan]

@@Eventide215 There's a couple games with imaginary friends that became tulpas. I think it was called "The Friends We Left Behind" and its Prequel.

[@Eventide215]

@@FightingFoodonsFan Yes there are other things, but those are not what made tulpas popular.

[@NarfiRef]

@@Eventide215That’s an egregore.

[@iluvsakuraandsyaoran]

the lore in this game is EXCELLENT even if it takes digging to get to it. i hope you enjoy jesse!

[@LynneRouge]

So excited to see your playthrough! I was so curious about it after you mentioning it in the podcasts

[@Whitetiger1932]

Why do I always start watching these videos at midnight?

[@transatlanticdylan8229]

Jesse, love you to death. 43033 is the street address for the apartment building. That’s why the empress said she had found his “abode”

[@mattymerr701]

Is "love you to death" like "bless your heart" where it secretly means "fuck you"?

[@Karak971]

@@mattymerr701 yes

[@The.Raxing]

I probably need to wait until i've played this game myself before watching you play it, the game sounds awesome! So BRB

[@pedrostormrage]

1:03:23, 1:04:10 In philosophy of mind, that idea is known as qualia, which is "the subjective quality of a conscious experience". Qualia is the reason why we can't know "how it's like to be a bat" without "being a bat". 1:10:00 Also, that tulpa rabbit hole is wild (it basically seems to be a "real imaginary friend"). Just when I thought it was over, you dropped "tulpa sex" on the table 😂

[@Rayweo]

Ah I missed the first hour on stream thanks for the upload. Pure madness.

[@ski364]

So the whole tulpa thing seems to be a method of giving the non-verbal hemisphere of the brain greater control. The consciousness is a interesting thing, lobotomized patients often manifest rogue limbs, that can write their own thoughts. IF I had to come to a rational explanation of this it would be a similar phenomenon, that or some form of dissociation.

[@user-cx5jj2yv3p]

Jesse realizing this is an ARG 😂

[@avidwriter2882]

Theory : You are Lila, William is your Tulpa.

[@jansasawi1466]

Jacob Geller has a great video on this game. I know that you have seen some of his work before and enjoyed it; I think that the both of you could Voltron together and make some really cool stuff

[@Magmafrost13]

Ah yes, "if I discover that my sworn enemy died", that regular day-to-day occurrence

[@chrislawrence6701]

Watched this on stream, but it's crazy enough for a 2nd watch for sure.

[@Burred11]

31:40 Crendor playing a fishing game is a very Crendor move

[@dennisl9176]

this is such an incredible weird game I love it

[@Zajice]

1:10:15 I cannot believe you inflicted psychic damage on me with the pony tulpa phenomenon in fucking 2024. When I heard "Twi, Dash, and Scoots," the world froze around me for a second. I was AROUND for the birth of that shit. It was weird as hell then, and it's still weird as hell now. That wacky tulpamancy stuff has DEEP roots stemming from the MLP fandom. The /mlp/ 4chan threads were basically ground zero for this whole thing. So many wild tulpa stories end up originating from there. (Look up the Jackie Chan tulpa story for a good laugh.) It obviously expanded far outside the pony fandom, but that's just another thing you can pin on us for starting. And the scariest part is that it's not all bullshit. I know it sounds stupid and silly, but that's because you're somebody of sound mental health. it can genuinely get kind of dangerous when mentally unstable people start taking it seriously. It's some WEIRD mental fuckery. You're basically purposefully inducing schizophrenia. I know a guy who's old friend frequented those threads and eventually ended up committing egocide. Now he just IS his tulpa. Like, his entire self was overwritten with the imaginary personality he created. I do not recommend fucking with it.

[@NarfiRef]

Sounds more like DID than schizophrenia.

[@Pixelynx]

Im here trying to prep my press on nails but i cant because i am IN TEARS at Jesse failing at these expressions. 😭😭😭😭

[@GmodPlusWoW]

Who's Lila, you say? Well, you should probably ask Jacob Geller. He knows who Lila is. I'm not sure that that's an angry face at 34:25. I'm pretty sure that's just Gut's neutral expression. ...okay, I was not expecting to hear about pony tulpas on this channel, even with the whole Chilluminati thing. I don't know if Brendaniel knows about this, but the concept would probably terrify him. Partly due to his witch experiences alongside his fellow PST alumni, and partly because he's an ex-brony.

[@jaynoyes8526]

You had me at David Lynch

[@MeiKLier]

after 22:50 Jesse's face creeped me out, I actually thought it would have a jumpscare or something

[@sinswhisper9588]

well Jesse ... you wanted to go down that rabbit hole lol what did you expect to find

[@Pixelynx]

Ok. Have to watch this over so i can make some things make sense. But that first fail with trying to get Martha's room from Ellie had me literally rotfl because i was preparing to stretch. 😭😭

[@FIREGOD333]

bruh tulpamancy is a 1 way ticket to the asylum

[@sparkyspartan5112]

Awesome playthrough 👍

[@argentoAFK47]

I'm gonna need the deets: what's the Chilluminati episode where you guys discussed tulpas?

[@Benjy5997]

It came up on the most recent listeners story episode I think?

[@Luna-zp2yp]

Dosen't help that I was sick watching this. Days later I'm not completely sure the whole tulpa deep dive was a fever dream or not

[@WenderPottery]

Im starting to think Jesse has an inability to make faces that express proper emotions as well 🤣🤣

[@Barbyng]

i love this game so much dude

[@KaszaWspraju]

Perfect unbox.

[@JoriDiculous]

Opening this video, the first i thought of was Obra Din (graphic style of course). No idea what this game is but if it's "similar" to Pony Island, and got datid Lynch quotes in deception, im ready for a Jesse Playthrough! (not a bot so sorry no boobs)

[@shaihulud2977]

So excited for this lol

[@jackflynn1360]

Fuck yea! This is the sting reference I’ve been waiting my whole life to hear

[@ChaZcaTriX]

These faces remind me of Garry's Mod!

[@potatoestars]

Ooh, what's this. I like the pixies.

[@Steve-YT383]

Cookoo 🍌 s doesn't begin, doesn't even begin

[@SpikeTiger]

hey there jess-lila~

[@ormoffat]

By 1h 20 min you'll understand why Pony Island was reccomended next to this game /j

[@lillyfly]

Under rated joke

[@Gbusjones]

More please

[@shelbylee7819]

Can you and dodger play isle tide hotel? ❤😊

[@amy_grace]

If you really want to understand tulpas, you need to find a Tibetan monk who is also a brony.

[@CB-dg4gg]

Who's Lila? Well from the thumbnail, it's Laura Fraser from A Knight's Tale, Kevin and Perry Go Large, and Breaking Bad. K thx bai.

[@MrSHADOWANGEL999]

Jesse's newest future ex-wife?

[@augustvalek]

Alright, let's get weird

[@beard665]

YEEEEEESSSS

[@FIREGOD333]

cant believe we get to witness such stellar groundbreaking graphics in this the year of our Lord 2024!!🎉👏AMAZING!

[@FlexxibleFree]

Of course lonely and chronically online people would create entities to fuck. This is not a fun topic, it just grinds my gears to think i was making tulpa once - somehow i never seen this talk about tulpa sex and never thought about it.

[@argentoAFK47]

Reminds me of /r/waifuism in a way.

[@zombie0ate0my0brains]

Where is Skyrim?

[@buttponcho101]

what the heck

[@andromidius]

No views. Must be early.

[@MaisieSqueak]

Half an hour in I don't think I'm going to like this. I'm getting strong anti Trans vibes. Edit - A Russian developer... why am i not surprised?

[@naomisoltesz9890]

Is this bait?

[@bigoistin9125]

Would you elaborate?

[@8bitbee148]

I’m trans myself and I don’t know what you mean

[@WD_Gaster66]

Huh?

[@MaisieSqueak]

I guess I had the plot wrong. with all the talk of "Other selves" and the plot being about somebody, assumed male, and entirely unable to express themselves I started to suspect that Lila was them. Understand that, with the rise in Trans hate in most of Europe (particularly eastern but also UK), I am hyper vigilant on encountering hatred and I tend to run away from the encounter rather than try to tackle it. I get very flustered and upset and inevitably "lose the argument" because i cant keep calm. I wont be checking back here. But I thought it best to apologise for the incorrect assumptions and the racism towards Russians as general Transphobes.