why I gave up on my dream | StarPuppy vs 20's

[@fifio8655]

Success in creative careers is hard.

[@lockhart1895]

Dead*

[@serenity6831]

@@lockhart1895 *Hard

[@shessomethingelse1639]

I think that this will be one of the reasons why I won't do arts as a job in the future. I'm currently in art school, and I already feel like "Yeah, I think I'll better keep arts as a hobby". I'm pretty young, I have time to think and go to whatever road I want. Maybe I'll one day do arts for living, you'll never know.

[@afrowiththeafro8269]

It really REALLY is! 😭

[@neegas3490]

@@TJ-uc8bb yeah but you're going to have to give it up when your bills aren't getting paid. It's good to be realistic sometimes

[@HotCocoBangbang]

I think the way education is done in traditional schools kills kids passions and desire to learn.

[@LifeFilmz]

Yup, also their failure to accommodate people who have different learning styles. Even while being aware that people have different learning styles.

[@sassasdfghjkl]

God yes

[@sarey8934]

HotCocoaBangbang especially in high school, we learned nothing of significance, and our interests were shot down with repeat history. They cut choir, art class, certain science classes.

[@justinehorton2527]

I feel like they make it hard for people who want to learn things like instruments too. I've always wanted to be part of the school band, but couldn't afford to when I was still in elementary school. And everything after that you were basically required to already have a certain set of years under your belt...

[@isisagood]

Take this from a middle age women with a child your age... you are so awesome and your purpose is interwoven with so many others. You are helping so many, I dont know if you know the vast amount of positive influence you are having on this generation ..

[@gloriaa.4858]

Isis Goodson, My sentiments exactly.

[@Darksphere101]

You're in your 20's. You went through the grind, my suggestion is to take some time to recover, and return to it. It'll heal. Happens to me with dance, too.Sometimes you just need a break. Don't beat yourself up, Danielle!

[@reallyphilli]

ME AFTER READING TITLE: BUT *PUPPY* UR A *STAR* U BELONG UP THERE.

[@mirdominance]

You have to study the great European artists or else "you're doing it wrong." I hated being forced to memorize all the those paintings that didn't do much for me or the art direction I wanted to take in my life. I got straight As just to pass classes. I'd literally just forget it once the test was over. I also hated when professors would be like "pick any artist you want and write a paper/presentation" yet dismiss any artist that wasn't on their radar. I literally had this happen to me all through getting my Fine Arts Degree in college. It really kills an artists spirit. Just because the "west" doesn't acknowledge something as art, doesn't mean it isn't art. Literally all of my illustrator friends who didn't admire "the greats" or have their art mimic that, now only do art as a hobby. They are AMAZING in skill, but don't want to do it professionally. Even for me, art became a chore and I actually got in to working in the field after college. Companies don't want creativity, they just want you to mimic trends and copy any top company they can. :(

[@RakiyasRoots]

This is literally me and I have a Bachelors in Graphic and Multimedia Design. The motivation has left my spirit sadly...

[@elvchenschwarz6217]

My motivation and muse left me before I got to college. Took me 7 years after graduating an art-highschool to even start being creative again. And people are mind blown by my talent and art but I just *dont* want to ever use my creativity for that ever again. I felt crippled all those years. 🙈

[@Jahnaes.Artistry]

That's me right now 🤦🏿‍♀️

[@victorialisa_]

I practiced ballet intensively for 17 years and it was my undeniable dream to become a professional. During those years I was sexually assaulted by two of my most trusted teachers, but I kept persevering without faltering. My parents gave up so much for me. We were living off of peanutbutter and jelly sandwiches during the recession. Despite it all, my parents managed to scrape enough money together so I could dance (with the help of scholarships I recieved too) The decision to stop ballet was literally the hardest thing I could ever do. I went through a 1/4 life crisis for a whole morbidly depressed year. I barely left my bed and I was diagnosed with anorexia. I can finally say I am someone other than a ballet dancer and it's okay to give up your dream and find other things. Ballet was extremely toxic for me in the end. I didn't love it anymore because it wasnt art. At a certain level everyone becomes a robot. I hated my school too. Although I miss it sometimes I am ultimately a stronger, better person because of it. Hang in there, you are a very inspiring young lady. God bless ❤

[@frivoulous11]

This hurts so much. Becuase I have realized that I have lost my passion for science. And you telling yourself "LEAVE!" also hits so hard. The biggest factor in loosing my love was the lab that I am attempting to do my PhD in and even though I have made steps to move forward and leave, there is still so much pain for me surrounding science. So I avoid it. As for my other passions I am slowly discovering that I do have some but none of them burn as bright as pursuing science did but maybe they can grow. I am still in a very confused place becuase I have recognized that I need to move on but I am so scared to leave without figuring out where I want to go next. But sometimes I think I just need to do it. I need to jump, but then I realize I am an adult now and my actions have consequences and I should at least think a little bit about looking at the ground before I jump. But I don't know. Thank you for sharing your struggles, they've helped me process my own. Love, your fellow conflicted 20-something viewer

[@lemonline3719]

I'm curious to know what made you lose your passion as well

[@amzee325]

The ironic thing is that a lot of the greats deviated from the rules of their time and did their own things. That's how they became great.

[@kdooley41]

Why don't you write a book?? That way you can get back to your dream of character art.. You can start your own series..

[@HotCocoBangbang]

I agree, she could create a graphic novel, and tell her story that way.

[@kdooley41]

@@HotCocoBangbang Exactly, or even do Children books with animation.. There are many options but I hope she doesn't just totally give up!!

[@jonetgames]

@@kdooley41 children's books with animation? what the heck is that?

[@kdooley41]

@@jonetgames Ill let you figure it out!!

[@whitneyyoung614]

This is what I’m currently going through right now. When I was 19. I went off to community college got my associate degree then transfer ed to get my BA in English. I wanted to be a writer. I had a huge passion for writing poems , short stories and fictional pieces. When I would tell people what I wanted to do I would always get the awkward “oh” or “ shouldn’t you try to get a job that’s more stable. After hearing this too many times and dealing with the financial burden being at the university; I had my first emotional breakdown during my first semester at my university. Then I decide to change majors so that I could shut up all the negative people in my life. In the end what I should have done was not transfer schools in the first place. Watching this video reminded me of how much I wish I could go back in time and change everything.

[@BashfullDuckie]

That's what happened to me in art school. My focus was graphic design and they totally killed my passion for it. I changed my focus to photography. At my senior review altough all of my work was technically correct, one of the professor judges said that my work looked too commercial and that I pretty much failed the fine art program. I didn't let that get me down because I wanted to be a commercial photographer. As far as graphic design, I allowed my professors to break me down and make me feel like everything that I created was bad even though it was my passion all through middle school and high school. I completely stopped doing graphic design until my friend needed a logo. Dont let professors ruin your passions! lol

[@yourgirlliss]

Etsy has allowed me to make a few dollars off of my art (I figured out a few ways to make drawings profitable) but depression is pretty much killing my creativity anxiety keeps it alive though. Seeking approval online was the worst thing that happened to my art because when people stopped viewing I stopped enjoying it.

[@artsbybware4790]

Same

[@sonte.theFoodie]

Quite similarly to you, my passions are art and writing, but I knew that I would hate art if I pursued it as a job. I plan on being a writer, but drawing is still fun. I know it's not your dream anymore, but maybe drawing every now and then, will give you that love back? I don't know, it just feels sad to know you gave up a dream. BUT I'LL BE ROOTING FOR YOU IN YOUR PROJECTS! WE WEIRDOS GOTTA STICK TOGETHER! 😘

[@Mary-fy8qi]

I had the opposite problem: dad told me he wouldn't accept me as his kid unless I went into STEM. For 3 years I'll never get back, I sacrificed my mental health (hi depression), my own money, my sanity and so on to make him proud. But I couldn't score higher than a C. My advisers all said I couldn't get the degree with my grades despite how they were passing grades. And then you find out how competitive med school is. I just lost it. For 2 of those 3 years, I fought with my dad to get him to just let me do what I could and wanted with my life. I finally got him to listen and let me change my major. He guilt-tripped me for wasting 3 years of college when it was HIS fault. He went in to argue with my adviser after I changed my major in my freshman year behind his back. I cried in the advisers office until he got me to do what he wanted. But he's worked on himself and he's finally realized what he did was shitty. I never thought he would. Now I'm pursuing my true passion - which I can safely brag about being pretty good at, which is translating Japanese. I wish I had the courage to defy him sooner but at least I made it.

[@TheLadyBlerd]

Btw the "Welcome to the weirdness" logo I sport (and a great conversation starter for this lovingly awkward nerdy black chick)...... was my first teespring purchase. Just gonna say thank you for being out here, because it's a joy sharing with people irl about what you do connecting all of us with your stories and creativity.

[@TheStarPuppy]

✨❤️😭

[@rosesndthorns]

This is exactly what happened to me with my writing. I loved writing creatively, loved reading and then it became a chore as soon as I had to start writing essays and reading boring novels for school. Sure they were "classics" but I hated it so much...

[@keyanna2633]

Elsa W and Kariel Mcleary Barnes I am asking this question to both of you. Would you think it would be a bad thing to Major in something like Creative Writing? I want to go to school for it. I was looking online at my schools curriculum and they offer a wide range of classes in literature as well as writing such as workshops. I REALLY WANT to pursue my passion,but I don't know if I should Major in it.

[@doodlnoodl5909]

Danielle you probably hear this a lot but your soooo BEAUTIFUL 🤧

[@wannabe41]

Your story was sad and inspiring at the same time. You highlighted a huge problem within secondary education. It’s ironic that studying art temporarily high jacked your dream for expressing your art. On another note, I love your new logo! Nearly everyone on my Christmas list is getting weirdness for a present starting with me!

[@thegrimadventuresofwednesd4311]

Boy did I need to hear this. I've been feeling so lost and discouraged lately.

[@kiara8586]

Yep, art classes beat the creative drive right out of me. I haven't drawn since in years because I became too critical and following these guidelines i never had set before the classes. I hate art classes, art school, it took my drive with it and honestly feel like my drawings werent even as good as they used to be. Oh well

[@yamadayukishi]

I think talking about giving up a dream is so so important, because sometimes, what we see as the only paths for that dream is not exactly what we are capable of or not exactly the path we want for that dream. Sometimes, we're so... stuck on those already made cookie cuts that we try fit but honestly, we're our own cookie, and we gotta figure out if you really want that cookie cut, or if you are gonna "give up" and try a different thing, and it can be scary, it can feel like that was the only way, but hey, we got.... so many different ovens to be baked in, just, live and find an oven, and then you could try different paths. Enough of the metaphors, I gave up on my dream of being a mangaka, but I will continue making them on my free time, I have my own reasons as to not being able to handle the pressure and work load and deadline of the systems available, and took some time to accept that it's okay, and sometimes I bounced back to the idea that I can't make manga if I don't get in these editorials, but nah, you can make your own stuff and put it out there, you are your own ruler and that's all you need to know to take back your priorities and taking care of your needs as an individual human beings with needs that can differ from the norm. So, make it as hobby or side projects, you can do it, just go your own pace, find your own ways.

[@madant22]

School n education ended my passion for art 🖼 School turned me off from the graphic design field. I feel you on this.

[@RakiyasRoots]

Same but it was actually my job that turned me off lack of motivation and the annoying focus on everything else besides my talent

[@madant22]

Everything is for commercial sale not even artistic 👩‍🎨 expression. Smh 🤦🏿‍♂️

[@madant22]

And I hate the fact Colleges institutions n College Professors 👩🏿‍🏫 👨‍🏫 have to be the gate keepers of your whole life n career. They say education is the key, 🔑 🔐 and these professors holds the key to ur success and how far you will go in not only the field but in life. Their the ones responsible for where and what level you may end up in your career and what tax bracket you may end up in for the next 10 years after you exit out of college weather you graduate 🎓 or not(dropout). I hate the fact these teachers n professors hold the keys 🔐 🔑 of success n social mobility in your life. They are literally gate keepers of our professions n fields we later on try to get into. With these for profit fraud schools. I guess this is why they make education so expensive for we. I feel these professors and institutions want to give us our keys and set us free. I’m telling you they are gate keepers and this is wrong totally wrong for a child’s future. These ppl are wrong for our future.

[@acooliemoore]

Ughhhyess

[@PunkinPancakes]

OMG this really resonated with me! I was dead set on becoming an animator since 6th grade so I went to an art school last year and hated it. It convinced me that I was wasting my time and money so I admitted defeat and planned on giving up that dream. But I switched to a way cheaper college and I've decided to stick with it!! I really hope you are able to follow this dream in some sort of way, it breaks my heart to hear other artists giving up on their dreams. And I would love to see your project!

[@FantasticBaby1224]

You comparison is PERFECT! It isn't weird at all! Give yourself more credit, Danielle.

[@naturallyjuju]

"I didn't have my big girl pants" WOW MY GOD you're an inspiration. imma go get my big girl pants now

[@munygulyamova4253]

I'm in tears, it's so close to me... I can't hold it back... I'm so sorry and both happy you've overcome it (?) I hope...

[@justpassingthruskdjb]

SURPRISINGLY EARLY AND PERFECT TIMING FOR MY LIFE RN

[@PastelPixie99]

mine too

[@myrilunalee9999]

ugggghhh the colonization of art education breaks my HEART!!!!!! Even my passion for choir/ensemble singing was like this....

[@latonyalark5862]

Girl I feel you It was like that for me too. But its just nice to know someone else can relate and remind me it's mine to have and use.

[@ThatAnxiousArtist]

I've studied literally none of those people lol I have no interest in them. Like, I know who they are but I just don't care, I basically do whatever I want when it comes to my art bc I'm doing it for myself first. That's what helps me personally stay passionate about my art. But I also had art teachers in highschool that were very open to all styles of art, and I also consciously didn't take college art courses bc I knew what it was going to do to me and my love of art. Also great advice about not staying somewhere that is not serving you. Reminds me of one of my fave quotes. "If you do not like where you are move, you are not a tree"

[@afrowiththeafro8269]

FACTS!!! I've gone through this 2 different ways. One by school and one by my parents! 1) My love of reading was destroyed by school and I can't pick up a book (that's not a graphic novel) and finish it. It is so annoying and I want to get myself to read a book again! 2) My mom destroyed my want to be a fashion designer growing up. After all the sewing classes, sketches, and even coordination of a fashion show, she told me to drop it because they don't make enough money. I believe she did it because she thought it was best for me and she didn't want to see me struggling to get out there, but that dream is long gone now. I still pick up a pencil and draw some designs here and there, but it's maybe once or twice a year now. It's so disheartening, but I think it happened for a reason because I get to put all that learning of color theory and clothing into my career and adult passion, which is photography!

[@NomaswaziMadi]

Did you see “Evelyn from the internet” mentioned you on her video?

[@tabithathewholistic]

Right??

[@Nicollenandi]

What video?

[@senoritaaurora5123]

Teachers are really underrated. A good teacher can transform a subject and bring passion to it.

[@Anna-lu5jw]

5:30 thank you my mom is a teacher and she doesn't get enough recognition

[@SteppaPi9]

That's exactly how I felt when it came to dancing. I love dancing, I wanted to pursue my life into dancing but, my mom made me realize that I cant get anything out of dancing. I knew I could I wanted to. Now I'm going to college to become a nurse practitioner (which I don't have a problem with) I just wish that I can invest in my passion but all the negative and the lack of support pushes it away from me.

[@KarunMusic]

Dude, you can still live your dream! Your life isn't over, don't close that door just yet. I'm sure that when you've healed enough, and regained enough energy, you'll be able to give it another shot. Age is just a construct, people learn entire instruments when they're in their 40's or whenever. So you never know! Go at your own pace. 💛

[@abbieamavi]

*your videos like this always hit so hard, and make me want to cry...so girl idk how you’re doing now, and I know you said you been giving up on your dreams, but youtube is definitely the place for you! You’re making a difference in this space!*

[@ashleyk3745]

I swear it's like you always post the right video for the right moments in my life. I can't wait to see that holiday merch

[@phyllisingram4370]

Just ordered my hoodie! I'm by no means a young adult, but I totally understood your message. One day I "woke up" and realized all these rules of what and how things should be were created based on one person's ideal image of their truth. We all just bought into it. Once I realized that, I became a much happier person. Keep being "weird" because it looks good on you.

[@gloriaa.4858]

Okay, so maybe the cat was found by an old dried up teacher, but the kitten that shows up on your doorstep brought all her little brothers and sisters. Your one most important dream turned into several dreams. I pray they all become reality for you. Oh, and wow, your hair looks so much thicker and I love your wash-n-go.

[@TheKoyn]

As a fellow artist I totally get it. When you become an adult something dies in you. Maybe your dreams, aspirations, motivation. We're forced to grow up and get real and lose that childish view on the world (I don't mean childish in a bad way). It's a part of adulthood and also might have something to do with oppression amongst black people and other POC. 🤷🏾 But honestly that also kind of makes us shine even brighter, so keep trying, and don't give up (entirely at least).

[@beautifulrose1127]

13:40 that is the cutest thing to think would happen. I love that comparison so much its so poetic 💞😮😯😭

[@shannonjaye6004]

“Hold fast to dreams for if dreams die life is a broken-winged bird that can not fly.” -Langston Hughes Your video reminded me of his poem... I’ve been struggling with pursuing my own writing and illustration career because I’ve faced so much rejection in the past. Your words are very encouraging. Thank-you for sharing your story.

[@ruthannrichards8517]

Of course we would like to see your character designs :) Share your passions

[@DuskHwy]

Hey Danielle & Viewers, I was pumped to watch this video because I'm a stage manager by education and work history, but not by current job title, and I believe that discouraged artists can buoy each other. The comments section is like that song "Message in a Bottle." Goals and dreams change over time. It's healthy, and it's probably good for your creativity even if it feels crappy for the time-being. Formal, standardized education can try to sink its teeth into your time and it can try to force your attention and beliefs in directions that suit its own agendas, but remember: school isn't forever, and just because the curriculum points you in a direction doesn't mean that's where you have to go. Like you said, Danielle, there are some wonderful teachers and professors out there. There are excellent artists, too (whether they're in your school's spotlights or not!) Take the information, ideas, and techniques that suit you, and treasure them. When your college education hands you stuff that doesn't suit you, keep it handy until graduation, and then set it aside. Some good can come from formal education if you're willing to sort the gems from the debris. You already know that school isn't where you're going to find _all_ (or even most) of your biggest, most valuable influences. The world is so much wider and deeper, and you know your _true_ inspirations better than anyone. I like your analogy about the runaway cat and her kittens. I hope that the kittens arrive for you, and I hope someday you're visited by an older, wiser, tougher, more sophisticated version of the same cat you used to know. Change can be a pain in the ass, and it can be heartbreaking, and it can be soul-sucking, but change leads to real growth. I hope your dreams come back to you more beautiful than ever.

[@g.watkins9091]

🤗 None of your talents or passions will be wasted. Just keep living. I can’t wait to get my pink sweatshirt with your logo on it.

[@Sifirela]

KZbin recommended this and I'm frickin happy YT did! you're such a fun and fresh youtuber! Your personality is fun! And I love the way you speak!

[@sasori8555]

Im a pisces too and Im the same way Danielle except I'm still in the process of trying to learn many different languages. I still only know English. i think I find it funny how I have not met one single pisces who isnt involved in any art form whatsoever.

[@Penelope416]

Wow... now that you say that, I never thought about that! My brother and I are Pisces as well and we are both are artists in our own way. My brother is a music artist and he's really good at comedy so I've encouraged him to get into stand-up comdedy. I write, sing play piano, draw and act. Even the Pisces I knew in high school and college were also artists!

[@acooliemoore]

Wow... I'm a piscess passionate about art soo

[@linahabeenzu4772]

I'm a Pisces and I sing and draw

[@brittneylamar9864]

I'm a scientist Pisces.....but art was my first love. A part of me dies when I stopped. Plan on taking it back up

[@YolandaWatson]

"It was like a death..." I felt that. I had an overall cool experience in college, but coming from where I'm from and being a 1st gen student... it was a lot... "it was like a death," but I will say, I came out stronger and better for it. I had all types of scholarships and funding so I couldn't just up and leave... it didn't rrly cross my mind to do so... I just kind of knew I had to finish for myself, my family, etc. College intensified my desire to be creative though because I felt like that part of myself was being threatened ALL the time... even when I was singing, acting, writing... it just didn't feel right. It was strange. Ultimately it was that feeling that helped me figure out that I did NOT want to pursue an MFA.

[@pikalee3492]

The new logo is so cute!

[@thejunglebook601]

She looks like a female Ricky Thompson

[@kanu683]

Jungle Book lmao really And not in a bad way

[@munygulyamova4253]

Here before million subs

[@FrizzEllen]

currently studying music at uni - on my way to the end of my degree but wow i am leaving with such a different outlook to when i started, mainly because of changes in where i feel confident because of constant comparison to people around me and similar conflicts to this video bc i didnt always feel that my passions were validated. this video resonated so so so much. thank you xx

[@Nikya2t]

I'm studying painting at the moment in the Netherlands. Yes in this world there are People beat you with their words, to break you down. To stop you. That being judged and misunderstood is exactly what they want. It is a fight. A huge fight. You haven't just quit yet. And take it easy. Earn money, travel. Find your passion back. What still isn't gone is still not gone. It is YOUR call. No one ever destroyed your life's long passion. They wanted to guide you to the autonomous way of creating art within art school. Where you didn't have the interest. It was the challenge you never asked for. You wanted to create beautiful things. But I still want to tell you a thing from my experience. Because I've heard something about expressing yourself. Which is indeed connected somehow to the autonomous creative progress: It all comes down to you taking the pause and feel love towards yourself, your ambition and your fuel to show the world. Art is a enormous transformation during lifetime. It transforms your inner and outer world. And yes it has to do with the exact EGO death, interest death, routine work. Bye favorite cat, hello little kitty. But that is because art is the beautiful addiction of creation which is within us. The will to create. It will become alive again. That is what I believe. And yes this is exposed. Yes this has many forms. Yes I've been in a moment where I painted skeletons when I was severely depressed on an exchange in France. And sometimes it's ok to not paint for a while. Ive been working my ass off until my body just stopped and said: no, hell no, we're not going to move today, you're not even able to do so, you need to take rest or I will take your sight, and even your hearing. That was some huge burn-out moment. So now I'm taking things easy. But still, I haven't lost my passion. Because how you described it, I have had the same experience. Some times it's ok to chill. Sometimes the dark work transforms. We can always paint and hope. Because the progress is a thing within itself. Art doesn't need you, you create it. And it's standing there like hey: I'm your mirror. And than it's your own challenge to not judge it, in any circumstance. It is your challenge to see it as it is. And to nourish it by watching it. To create for others is to find this love of others which you give. It could be more easy ( I don't know, it's just a suggestion) but it's a beautiful act of kindness and love, because when it's made out of love it is pure within itself already. The ego death only represents the thing of something which dies within you, and gives you a form of unconditional love back in some situations. But you never know how that may turn out, because sometimes a painter has the evolution of a dying and a rebirth. And that stuff, is very much common. But a pretty harsh way of living I could tell. When I was burned out, I got a huge amount of help just by seeing you on the screen to tell yourself stories about this hardship and disappointments. Thank you. I took it easy seeing you talk about these things recently. Now I'm almost back in my energy levels like I was before. I want to give you something back in a very "Dutch respect honesty, hope you wil find this unconditional art love back" kind of way.

[@sagirahakaevilbunny227]

My teacher destroyed my dreams of making my drawings into a job. However when they sent out a notice to our parents to let us know that my art teacher the same one who tried to crush my dreams was not certified to be (a teacher!!! ) I was like what does he know he's not even certified to teach!!!!!!! But yeah a nice big dose of reality makes it hard to want to do something you were so passionate about for so long. I got to my 11th grade year of high school and didn't know what I wanted to do everyone had led me to believe that this art career I was so determined to create didn't exist. But it just means that if the passion is still there don't give up on it start small. If your career in acting is getting you somewhere stick with that and then that extra money you get from that job buy a canvas one day and paint something random or sketch out a cosplay of your own design. So that's how I've been keeping my dream alive. By making it into a hobby it can be the only way to keep it alive until you do find a way to make your your passion a job. I started selling bird houses with my art designs on it don't give up.

[@Shaycey78]

I needed to hear this. I've always wanted to work in the creative field. I almost gave up a few years ago but now i'm ready to go after my dream. You're inspiring more people than you could ever imagine Danielle.💖 Love your weirdness !! 👩🏾‍🎨

[@lesiab8840]

Sometimes your dreams are like a seed that need to go underground to sprout and grow. It may look like it died, but it is transforming to what it was meant to be. I believe it is still there. When you rediscover it, you will be surprised to find it much stronger than ever. Can't wait to see the fruition. In the meantime, I am really enjoying the videos!

[@annathestar2651]

Awww, please don't give up. Art was your passion the way how you express yourself. I hope you love for art comes back really soon and if you have to take a break from it, it's okay. Just do what's best for you. Sometimes people's opinions and actions can affect your love for something and I'm sorry that was your case.

[@abeerabkar8211]

Writing is the best way to Express my feelings and it has become a passion for me. one of my dreams is to write a novel and I was about to give up this dream but when I watched your video I got motivated to keep on chasing my dreams Thanks Daniel I needed to hear these words 💕😭

[@senoritaaurora5123]

This is my dream also. I recently finished writing my first book but feel intimidated to get it out there in case people are not interested or it is bad!

[@MsSong2U]

11:25 - “It was like a death.” I completely identify. This brought back memories that made me teary.

[@0chibijulie0]

I understand 100% what you mean. I went to middle and then a school of the arts for visual arts drawing and painting. The structures are drilled into you, and then you go to college and it continues on the next level of structure. Dont get me wrong, structure is important, but not as important as developing your style, which is what made you want to do art in the first place. I learned that in the short term for my level of artistic skill I would not be able to be financially sound with just the arts portion of a degree, so i split it into a 2 year as in office management so that i could get a job that would support me financially for general life needs, but would also support the art that I wanted to do. It has been years.....yeeeeears.....and I am just now at a point where I can love art again for the sheer fact that I do for me and not for profit. I even learned that after years of doing oil and acrylic painting in school, watercolor/ mixed media is the medium I work best with. It saddened me to rhing where my skill level would be if I knew this earlier on, but you cant go back.... The small bit of art that I do is one of the only things that brings me joy in this adult world that seems determined to take it away. The words of the wise shia be with you: "dont let your dreams be dreams!"

[@greenbyrd3665]

You are an artist! It is your gift, and no one can take it from you.

[@byoutekinakoneko1574]

"....don't let any PERSON..." *slap in my face* I feel this so much. This entire video. I, like you, was passionate about art. And not JUST art, but art, dancing, makeup, fashion, staying in shape, going out, and MY DUMBASSSSSSSS. LET. A PERSOOOONNNNN. KILLL ME. i used to draw ALL THE TIME I use to post dance videos, iI use to dress up with cool clothes, all this. but this person got me SO DEPRESSED and kept me SO MISERABLE coupled with my home life, literally everything in me just died back in 2011-2012.I gained weight and EVERYTHING, I'm currently in a battle with myself to try to get every little piece of what made me, ME, back. I'm forcing myself to draw to complete my stories, forced myself to join a group here in Chicago, keep trying at making my own girl group (which was a huge goal of mine back in 2011/2012) YES i want to sing in Japan. I'm currently fighting to get all this back. Let me just tell ya'll.... its hard. It SUCKS. Everything feels like a chore and its crazy because I use to do all of these things and it use to be FUN.... and it took me 5 EVER to realize that i needed to let that person go out of my life. I don't regret doing so, but MAN its hard to get ME back.

[@kacedrawalker2333]

Sis, your skin is glowing! You should start to giving us some skincare products and tips again! Just gorg!

[@wildorchid1028]

Steven Jobs experienced the same feeling you are identifying when in College. You are not alone and thank you for sharing your experience .

[@zeroknives]

Preach gurl preach, school killed my dream too! I wish every day I just listened to my hear and sacrificed more rather than listen to others and have my dream chipped away until there was nothing left. But it’s not too late. You’re still young. Try to fall back in love with your content. You are wonderful, your designs are wonderful and you are doing great things! ✨#nevergiveup✨

[@leehannuel]

honestly i feel like you right now, i used to draw but not anymore due to school (i'm still in hs, i was mediocre) and i took up a hobby of editing and making kpop videos because it's what i enjoy. i learn dances, i sing songs (for myself and for the channel) even though my channel is more so of a hobby, i don't aim to become an idol but recently, i just feel like everyone judges me for liking it and it demotivates me so bad.. sometimes i feel like giving up. i don't want to drop something that i've loved for like 4/5 years.. i love anything that has to do with dance, art, or creativity and just, when that happens, i feel so off.. but this video helped to cheer me up 💓😤 thanks starpuppy, i wish you luck in your journey (also please don't take this as me wanting to be an idol because i don't even though the idea is intriguing and amazing but i aspire to work in family law when i am older. but i also hope to travel to korea and participate in activities there)

[@dogdonut3]

Have you read the book called the Artist Way? The author talks about enemies of creative self worth and how they create negative self belief. Also about champions of creative self worth (like the teachers you'd like to give money too). It's a really good read for creative people.

[@afrowiththeafro8269]

Passions are a muscle, Danielle! Take time for yourself to each day and draw what comes to mind! You got this! ❤

[@aliciaraquel9260]

Your content is always on point and relatable. Found this page as a gem. You articulate your feelings well and you’re special.

[@rebbit8767]

1. I need dat sweataaaaa 2. I survive on wash n' go 3. I legit was about to skip your vid for the first time, I still have a painful relationship with my passions and just being a realist, but its comforting at least to here these thoughts out loud

[@farmerjones5479]

Without being too cliche..."those who can do, and those who can't teach" SP you were def at the wrog institution. Don't discount that some of those professors saw your potential and decided to stomp it out of you as someone had done to them CONFORM! I am OLE G... like you 60 years from now.. know thyself and be true to thyself. You have a lot more life ahead of you than behind. Live so that you have as few regrets as possible

[@cudjoekimberly]

SAME. I can't help but be creative. But I'm also very smart. So I became a doctor, but the only outlet I can have for creativity that aligns with that busy career is KZbin. So right now, that's what I focus on. Unfortunately, I don't have enough time to sing and dance and write, but I need to make more time. It's too much a part of me to let go of. And I feel the same about you

[@bindu996]

Creativity is not mutually exclusive with being smart 😂 but I hope you find a way to balance your two paths

[@cudjoekimberly]

@@bindu996 I ... Didn't ... Mean ... That. But thanks!!!

[@Joselle_b26]

I didn't know I needed this but I really needed this.

[@alisonhilaire4170]

NO NO NO!!! The dream is not dead, I rebuke that statement lol. The education system often prepares you to live a conventional life where you have to fit into "the mold". Don't let the system beats you, the Greats became great because they chose a different path.

[@earlenecarson395]

You are so talented and keep your dream flowing no matter the form. Love the new logo!❤️❤️❤️👍🏽

[@violinlove59]

Yes, girl. We wanna see your stuff!!!

[@Minaaaaa]

I love you energy, you're amazing

[@verareyhan]

OMG i can relate so much to you, i studied fine arts at the art academy, and it was such a fight with every exam with me and the whole system, and i basically realized if i want to get my diploma i have to pretend to do as they say and save my passions for later. I also feel like a part of me is numbed and i need to fire it up in a new form. don't let this situation ruin your passion, i really really really feel like you want to express your creativity in something that is totally yours and yours only and to really follow only your own feeling in it without people telling you to be this or that. I've realized what art teachers do, theyre usually quite insecure about their own source of inspiration and they are not just teaching you techniques and art, theyre unconsciously teaching you to be insecure about your own inspiration, intuition and passions and it is indeed a terrible death. I feel like you have lost your trust in your passion because of this stupid school, and the teachers are wrong. Art is not what other people made, but what people did following their OWN drive and their purely own autonomous ME SELF EXPRESSION and their own thoughts and look how many people theyve inspired. It just pisses me off how this system switches amazing inspiring peoples mindset and cuts them off from what they know what they wanna do. You are doing a disservice to humanity by thinking it's selfish to express yourself. Your self is a process and by expressing "you" people can relate to something that language cant which can go straight into the heart and the magic wonder of this world. Do not give up what you believe is true and fuck those stupid teachers, theres a reason they got stuck up being there playing dictator, you know what to do. Every great work began small and innocent, I bet Picasso wouldve laughed his ass off if he saw what ridiculousness teachers were telling you while you were working on your AWESOMEDRAWINGS.

[@Ru_717]

Oh yes, I’m loving the weirdness man. *sniffs* I feel accepted 😂

[@ArcticFirepixy]

It's been so long

[@ShiroMwangi]

13:54 that makes so much sense danielle

[@monae9008]

Wash and go looks BOMBBBBBBB

[@adrenalineliberation]

I was absolutely in love with Psychology. I was so excited that I got to take ap psyc in hs but the teacher seemed to absolutely hate me and generally the people who sat with me. During class discussions everything I said or any anecdotes I shared were undermined and belittled and I was getting in trouble in class which I couldn't understand. I was a good student with good grades and I tried my best to remain respectful to my teachers even when they did less than respectable things but I felt like I was being attacked every time I stepped foot in her class. I tried to get involved in the food drive at the school which she ran and I was iced out. I started really hating psyc and everything related to it cause I associated it with my teacher. I got some of my lowest grades of senior year in her class. I felt beaten down and lost cause I planned my life to be involved in psychology and it wasn't treating me right. I haven't started college yet but one thing holding me back was finding a new path. I've gone back to psychology cause I do still love it and want to learn and nothing else hit like psyc did

[@ShiroMwangi]

i agree, i re-kindled my love for singing by making my own youtube intro recently, i wanted to be a singer but 2019 kinda did something to that passion. i don't expect to be a great singer, shockingly, i don't even want to be a singer anymore. but i still continue to sing everyday because it makes up a part of me that i can't ever erase. And who knows what will happen but it's less painful to think of what might have been now.

[@lavie8161]

I really love your channel. You are so honest and pure ❤️👌🏾

[@orbitm935]

Omg I can't believe how much I missed these chit chats💖

[@amber_clarvit]

You’re advice videos are the flapping best!!!!

[@coleowl31]

This video is sooooo relatable, I’ve always done “too” much and it’s so hard to feel like you have to pursue one thing to make it all make sense.I took an art class in college as a way to get into graphic and publication design and it ended changing my whole perspective and not for the good. I’m always going to creative (PERIODTTT) and I’m finally getting back into those practices and sharing my eye for it with others.

[@artualpseu3691]

Fluff nugget is lookin spicy gurl. You are doing greattt and I love you and I love listening to your experiences with passion. I am currently figuring out those things and this is a refresher

[@izzielazickas]

Girl. you just made me cry with this video. Thank you for the advice. I really needed to hear it!

[@Blueocean881]

You are so beautiful and interesting and your hair is an extension of that. For some reason it's therapeutic that you film these videos while doing your hair, has a calming effect. Thanks for the advice!! I'm actually in the process of transferring to a different university after 2 years out after previously feeling uninspired, lost and alone. Funny how the universe works through you to remind me to trooper on and believe in becoming as a journey, not a punishment.

[@djaziko457]

What a sincere and relatable story and i'm happy you fell back in love with your passions. For me, as of now fandoms are keeping me invested in art and i'm happy i draw for fun and didn't make it thru in an art career. My dreams aren't really over and yours aren't either, we have to be relentless because if it doesn't work the first time, it can definitely work in a different way.

[@lumad1755]

THANK YOU. I honestly never bought your merch because I didn't like the design, but the new one is so adorable. I will definitely, be getting myself a pink hoodie! :D

[@_Lunanella_]

I've been struggling with getting back into my art as well. Like you I love anime and video games. What drove me away was the lack of support from my mother. She kept telling me to be practical and that art is too dicey. While she is right, it's hit or miss, but she didn't realize how discouraging she was being. I have so many people who want me to continue to create and share my talent, but my energy for it is gone. I've been focusing so much on pursuing someone else's expectations. I was so creative as a young child/teenager, but now as a 26 year old, I feel drained. Anytime I look at my sketchbook I just don't know what to do. I still draw every now and then, and even have a manga style comic I want to put out. So I'm hoping while I am working on that, I will spontaneously regain my love for creating.

[@dontgettocomfortable]

i love your hair in its natural curl pattern 😍 keep doing more wash and go’s 😘

[@VenusVanessa06]

I truly appreciate your honesty. Yes my dream has been side lined FOR NOW so I completely connect with this video.

[@madamepaka]

i had to give up on a dream, back in high school, because i didn't have enough money or time to improve. that made me bitter FOR YEARS, but now i have new dreams to fill the void. it may suck at first, but time really does heal wounds.

[@Michelle-kj2fw]

Great advice. Also StarPuppy looks full and healthy. I like the wash and go on you.

[@pikalee3492]

You're so sweet. Thank you for sharing such a personal story with us. ❤️ Your experience really hit home for me. I loved writing every since I was a kid but I never wanted to make it a career because I didn't want it to become a chore. But then I grew up, got a job, life problems and I find that I don't write nearly enough like I used to, so it's not so much a passion of mine like it was when I was a kid. On the plus side, working forced me to become more social so I guess that helped me get out of the house and open up. Anywho, have a lovely weekend ❤️