Why I Haven't Posted in 10 Months

[@kerilynne128]

People have been talking about how problematic the sick lit genre is for years, it's ridiculous that they would pull an uno reverse so hard just to dogpile on you

[@DaalMakhani]

Omg yess! Even John Green has said he isn't proud of his work and that he could've done it in a better way. It's Twitter actually, people there think they can actually fight wars there over the most ridiculous bullshit.

[@lightquest2]

This^^

[@marshmallows394]

@@DaalMakhani in short, twitter is just a whole pile of performative “woke’s” thinking they’re smart shit

[@marianamauricio]

bro your tfios video was so funny and you literally just pointed out the bad things about that "genre" without being disrespectful.... all the hate was absurd......

[@DaalMakhani]

I agree. It isn't disrespectful when two people are making out in Anne Frank's House. But a video that is clearly in the right and is sarcastic and funny needs to be cancelled. F- that.

[@amritasengupta5251]

@@DaalMakhani 0

[@sabrina.lnd95]

I always find it funny how the people that are the loudest, are usually people that aren't even in the groups that might be offended; in this instance abled people screaming "this is ableism"

[@lorie7698]

we missed you omg. it is so upsetting that those that you trust would backstab you like that.

[@gianna8202]

Bruh I had no idea all of this was happening...my mom has had breast cancer twice and my stepmom died from lung cancer and I thought your video was good and was glad to see someone call out all the gross shit about the genre...

[@karissakorman]

omg growing up watching ‘booktube’ like just as a person of color, the community does suffer from being so White Woman girlboss-y. like as a space for people and content it feels dated or archaic, and i feel like the conversation within and around the ‘community’ takes place in its own world that is sheltered from a lot of contemporary reality, especially intersectionality, diversity, and like any form of groundedness or nuance. if it counts for anything i feel like your channel has met so much performative resistance because your ideas and content like don’t cling to a bygone era or a passive frame of thought to fit the tropes of whatever niche online culture reached its peak in 2014. i haven’t been plugged into booktube in years, but looking back now as i’m trying to get into reading this summer, it’s so strange to witness and to be able to articulate how and why a platform/community could become so out of touch.

[@yourlocalweeb3236]

OMG BESTIE YOU ARE ALIVE

[@marianamauricio]

im so sad that the book community became so toxic.... :(

[@FreggFaerie]

Just another chronically ill person here, with a dad who recently died of cancer- Caleb, I loved you last video. I love all your videos. You are the literally the only UNproblematic person I follow in the this community. I love and adore you AND your content, and I'm really sorry to hear people treated you like that. I hope you will keep making content, your face and voice bring me joy when little else does. (Omg, no pressure tho, if you don't want to come back at anytime, I fully support you making that choice for your mental health ❤️)

[@melcoslowresvideos3132]

randomly got the urge to check this channel again after all these months and he uploaded this 6 hours ago.. maybe psychic

[@erinmcgee1160]

I think the fact that this affected you so much kind of shows that you aren't the vile person that some of these people are painting you as. Maybe I don't get to say anything because neither I nor any of my loved ones are terminally ill like the characters in the movies you critiqued, but I wouldn't interpret your issues with this genre as malicious in any way. You're a good kid, Caleb.

[@sk8tie]

Twitter can choke tbh all anyone wants over there is something to complain about. I never use it it makes me way too overwhelmed. Happy to hear you're back 😊

[@DaalMakhani]

Honestly, people would find the smallest of things as if they're like play-pretending to be "detectives" and "holding people accountable" for the most ridiculous stuff.

[@microcult]

Yeah i figured Twitter would do this shit. Honestly it takes a lot of effort to make that video out to be something malicious. So many other people have criticized sick-lit genres and there definitely is a conversation to be had about the fetishization of disabled girls dying once they've found "true love". Sick-lit genres have been pigeonholed into that plot and it really should be diversified.

[@WinterSPF15]

Fr my first thought was of course it was fucking Twitter lol

[@maggiealelew]

Sounds like they weren’t friends at all. Just tried to save their bums for their own benefit. Used to deal with people like that too. Sorry Caleb and if it means anything we got you here

[@Ethereal_Iris]

Take your time Caleb. When people despise you they will do everything and take everything to justify why they hate you. You made videos since you were young and the criticism can get to you eventually. Wish you all the best.

[@elenalechuga3656]

As someone whose dad is suffering from stage 4 cancer, I find disgusting what people are saying to you. They're using a terminal illness as an excuse to insult you (which is very offensive), and I'm sure they don't give a f*ck about cancer. I'm sorry you had to go through that Caleb❤️

[@Babisaur_]

I'm just struggling with how people were able to construe the obvious critique about Hollywood's romanticiation of terminal illness as ableism, because to me it was obviously the exact opposite of that lol

[@unknownguest4575]

29:25: "what about chronic illness gives you the right to decide its bad?" good question. i have chronic illness and ik there are some days where my condition wears me down so badly that it doesnt matter if a joke is just a bad joke, it will still hurt. chronic illness isnt something you can put down and walk away from, and depending where someone is with their acceptance of their illness, a mention or a joke about it can feel hurtful even if it was never intended to be. seems some people didnt read the energy of the room right, thats my opinion on it anyway. (and i definetly wouldnt consider any jokes you made in the video to be 'ableist')

[@Lena-jb3lc]

Oh my god I am so happy to see you again... I feel like I have found a long lost friend

[@darkpinkgirl6684]

this situation sucks... if this was an "apology video", then this would be the best apology video on this site. not that i think you should apologize to these vultures in the first place keep on doing what you love, king

[@thesweetpet]

I agree with everyone, we really missed you. Happy to see you‘re doing well

[@eleanorjones26407]

I can't believe so many people got that message from the video 🤦‍♀️ I literally saw nothing but the best intentions

[@disaceter1130]

I don't have any serious illnesses or chronic health issues, but as a real world idiot with a plethora of mental illnesses, I feel like I can say that in regards to the username and calling fictional, poorly written characters "idiots," it's just... a non-issue. I know some people tend to brush off criticism as "people are looking for things to be mad about" but it really does apply here 100%. I'm sick and tired of neurotypical people using people like me as a tool to feel like superheros. I know they'll say they're just trying to help, but they're doing the exact opposite and showing they're true intentions when they talk over neurodivergent people or go silent when confronted on their bs. They only good they're doing is giving me a laugh when they manage to somehow look even dumber than I am.

[@sarawiser]

your growth as a person is so evident and I absolutely understand what you mean about needing to take a break (except my break from youtube was four years long instead of 10 months lmao). so happy to see you back and happy

[@DemiRae26]

This is why I avoid twitter. It is sometime just toxic for the sake of people feeling important. I don't know if you watch Lindsay Ellis video on being cancelled but you should. Also your sarcasm is the best. I found your channel ages ago and was ready to hate watch because you were hate reviewing my favourite author but found your jokes hilarious and your criticism valid and subricibed instantly. Sad not everyone understands your humor

[@amybethwalks]

As a fanfiction reader/writer, I have very low expectations for posting consistency 😅😅😅 glad you’re in a good place ❤️

[@tablecloth364]

i literally just thought abt watching that tfios video for the 10th time this month ( it's just rlly funny to me lol ) and got so surprised when i saw it wasn't there anymore . i didn't even know it was "controversial" or whatever , genuinely it was a good video !!! god i hate these jerks . glad to see you're alright tho !!

[@gortead]

missed you caleb! sorry people have been so toxic and didnt understand your humor. ive always thought you were one of the funniest youtubers on here and you always make me laugh! cant wait for new vids

[@sprout6031]

but yeah i agree, people are extremely performative when it comes to calling out things they deem like not up to their standards, and will speak over the people who actually suffer from these illnesses and disorders for internet clout and stuff. twitter as a community is horrible and they do this so much it's honestly horrifying

[@vixalexus4395]

We need ya back, man! Hope you’re totally fine, btw

[@ElizabethTheXIX]

On Twitter a couple days ago he said he was editing so fingers crossed!

[@vixalexus4395]

@@ElizabethTheXIX Yeah, today was the day! He’s back!🤩

[@yowahana]

i'm happy you've been doing well away from all this madness. there are very few booktubers i trust nowadays, and it just so happens all my favorites were the ones who got cancelled by some self-righteous people with a lot of privileged guilt they didn't want to confront. i always liked that you said things as they are and were always genuine and honest. those snakes could never

[@basicallydeadbooks000]

I got so sad when he started choking up at the end. I didn’t want to believe that the book community was unfair and toxic. We love you Caleb and won’t stop supporting you!!!

[@caitlinhall1903]

Honestly I loved your last video, it was a really important video for me. My nephew has cystic fibrosis and the 6 Feet Apart catastrophe is literally encouraging people to put themselves and others in danger??? SickLit is a messy genre to begin with, but when it's encouraging people to endanger themselves as some kind of grand romantic gesture it's just dangerous. Glad to see you're doing well, excited for the future videos!

[@happybear4ever]

Sorry that happened to you, it's insane that happened :( I really enjoy your content whenever you feel like posting!

[@DibIrken]

Caleb isn't problematic. Not at all. Have you seen WithCindy's content? She goes down with her critiques even harder and I also follow her because she keeps it real. I bet if she reviewed The Fault in Our Stars, she would have the same thoughts too.

[@bobbychester5830]

Bless your dear heart. People making bad faith arguments will always be a problem and it will hurt you everytime, but just know that the fans who love you will always be here when you're ready to come back. You set yourself right, and if you feel like you need to do 'safe' videos for a while, or if you need to just be off the platform for a while longer, you do you. Your mental health is more important to us than seeing you rush back before you're ready.

[@DaalMakhani]

The Book Community doesn't deserve a sassy and amazing King! Love you!!❤️🧡💛💚💙💜 Edit: Lol this feels like Taylor's Reputation Era. You needed that time off and it'll do more good than bad.

[@marieh5228]

I can’t tell you how happy I am that you posted! (Also I think you deserved better from the community)

[@rachelbrooke353]

I'm sorry that you went through that. For what it's worth I really like the video, I play it sometimes as something to have in the background while I do housework to make me laugh. You come off as a really nice person and I like your content.

[@zoeb3573]

You're alive!!! I'm so glad you're still planning on being active, I've been rewatching so many of your old videos throughout the months hoping you'd make something new again. I considered commenting stuff like "hope you're doing okay" but I always wondered if comments like these made you feel better OR the opposite, guilty for not posting, so I wasn't sure. I'm glad you're doing better and I hope to see more on your main channel soon!

[@avag4334]

We missed you so much. Every time you uploaded, it helped me with my mental health and really made my day. I’m glad you’re alive and okay! I’m excited to see you back, Caleb! Welcome back, bestie

[@giuliasideri7248]

You are truly a wonderful man, don't ever feel any different from that. Your channel is so much fun to watch and follow, and you're absolutely right to get out of this toxic community that doesn't support you and criticizes you for the sake of drama. Take care of yourself. We know exactly who you are, and we love you.

[@extinctoart]

Caleb Joseph: the Return of the King

[@chipmingo146]

I’m so glad you’ve been doing well, I never forgot about you and actually remember rewatching the ~video~ a few months ago because I thought it was funny. I didn’t really know about any of the drama that happened so lol I just missed your content- glad you’re back (:

[@WinterSPF15]

I’m so glad I found this video! I finally checked your main channel because I felt like I hadn’t seen anything from you in a while and I love your humor. That is so shitty that this happened to you! It’s undeserved. Can’t wait for you to come back, I hope you know you have a lot of support!

[@Mariana-iq9tj]

Caleb, you are my favorite youtuber! If/when you come back I’m so excited

[@DrCinemaJunkie]

I'm so glad to hear you're hear ok, I had no idea about any of this stuff (i don't have twitter 😅 and none of the channels i follow typically have that sort of drama/callout). I never saw anything malicious in that video and its frustrating to hear how far people went to try and forxe that perspective onto it. Anyway, happy to hear you're doing well!

[@shebreathesingold8043]

I just found your channel and I'm so glad you're back. You have great content and I'm excited about following your writing journey.

[@o_o-lj1ym]

You’re right. So many people on twitter don’t actually care, they just want attention. It sucks because it’s still important to call people out, but some people are fake.

[@pyroshayniac1090]

Caleb, I want to give you the biggest internet hug ever, cause I’ve missed you a lot. Keep your chin up. You are loved, if you know what I’m frickin sayin’. ❤️

[@oliviasmith9033]

ngl those criticisms of your video sound like bullshit, and I feel like you handled it very maturely by reaching out to people - it's one of my favourite videos of yours!

[@alteredstateofmind]

I hope you find better people on the internet that will support you. People that listen and understand you better. I’m glad to be here and see you grow from this and support you🌻🌸

[@haileyschopper3701]

I’ve missed you 🥺 but also I’m happy you took the time you needed for yourself! I’ve loved your videos for years and can’t wait to see what you do next

[@thatkidkickedsandincoolcat4860]

had NO IDEA that someone found you "problematic". what a bunch of nonsense. really missed you, glad you're back!

[@gernetrug2019]

Hey glad you're back! I did not even know any of that drama went down. I just figured you got busy with school. Anyways, I like your content, so glad to have you back! Cheers!

[@evevi4686]

Omg my homeboy Caleb promised me new videos 3 months ago and I'm suffering without them

[@tsuki3752]

this is a bit late but your videos really helped me through the pandemic. i was really lonely and sad and i was always happy to watch your videos even if i’ve watched them like the times lol. maybe it’s a para social relationship but it felt like i was hanging out with a friend and we were chatting about books. i’m happy to see that you’re well, and i hope you can continue being welln

[@elsawilbur6240]

I'm so happy you're back and excited about making content again! Your videos have been helping through quarantine and I'm sorry that you got caught in such a bizarre situation.

[@warmflash]

Thank God you’re alive!!! I wish you would post more again. I’m your biggest fan!

[@paulinamartinez4442]

omg so glad you're okay! I agree that the critiques were pretty outrageous. I'm so excited about your new videos

[@kellyfoss1685]

I remember your video being good for how you were pointing out the bizarre trend of fetishizing fatal illnesses in teens. 💙 I've mssed your dry sense of humor & witty observations.

[@lukyanoppedisano1130]

lol I remember seeing threads from someone who literally didn’t even watch the video but still somehow has a ten+ tweet thread based on hearsay

[@MarshmallowSketches]

I’m so glad your okay, I’ve been real concerned since I saw all the ridiculous hate you were getting.

[@fallingpetals15]

Your the only youtuber/ person that keeps it real and always stays true to himself. You don’t have to post all the time or you don’t even need to post at all. Just do what makes you happy.

[@stevejones4937]

We love you. So glad to have you back. So sorry you went through all that.

[@notanotherusername4]

Also preach🙌. Hope you can make content in the future without having to worry so much. Love your humor.

[@Skylinersontape]

AAAH CALEB looking forward to your official return!!!

[@adotburr6494]

I'm so glad you're back, your videos never fail to make me smile

[@TheFloatingDryad]

I'm glad you're okay! Those people seemed really awful, I'm sorry that happened to you :(((

[@intergalactic-oboist]

I'm just glad you're not dead lol. Anything can happen and I was unaware of the negative feedback thing so it seemed like you could just be dead.

[@daytodaynonsense]

it's so nice to hear from you again! i had no idea all of that had happened but i'm glad you took some time off and you're doing well (:

[@Apeirogon_09]

I may have stumbled across this channel literally yesterday, but I am glad you are returning because I think your videos are amazing, and I sincerely think you are a very cool person. The internet (and especially Twitter) is a pretty horrible place, and I'm glad that you were able to overcome it!

[@nikkishakeraneh2296]

Omg I can't imagine anyone forgetting you. You're honestly my favorite youtuber!!

[@springinpages6325]

Missed you Caleb, your videos always made my day since you have such a light hearted and funny approach to book reviews, you don't shy away from saying it as it is! Hope you carry on with more videos to come 🥰

[@Ian_Jules]

Hey Caleb, so glad I (belatedly) found the vlog channel--I have definitely missed your voice and your humor! I don't do Twitter, so I was completely unaware of all this junk. Sincerely enjoyed the last video and would never have thought there was anything amiss with it. I hope to see more content soon, but come back when you want, how you want : )

[@tokiohotel0795]

Happy youre back 💓 sorry to hear about those 'friends' and them being hypocritical. Also BTW you're such a good speaker. Literally me watching 30mins of content straight is so rare but youre real good at it :)

[@mmoon8159]

Damn, I don't use twitter so I totally missed the whole thing. I was wondering why you stopped posting though so it's good to see you're doing well. Unfortunately we're in an era of people saying that american psycho should have disclaimers after each chapter so that people don't think the MC's behaviour is good. some people just won't ever understand the joke/intentions or will purposefully ignore it just to start drama :/

[@FreggFaerie]

You just said something about worrying you might only get like 80 views- as of right now, the comments are at 35, the views are 820, and the likes are over 100!! We all missed you sorely 🥺🙌

[@unknownguest4575]

oh its so good to hear from you!! glad to hear your alright :)

[@lukyanoppedisano1130]

I gasped when I saw this in my subscription box

[@Amanda17.10]

not me using the tfios video as a comfort watch and just now finding out it hurt you so much :( I'm sorry you went through this

[@so1iel]

Just found ur main and this channel, you do you! Live ur life to the fullest (without the pressures of the internet and being seen). Ill still enjoy going through ur old book/movie reviews even if you feel like youve moved on :D

[@AKhan-xi2gq]

A) I'm sooooo happy you're backkkkkkkkk B) Why do you look sad?????????? C) I've missed you sooooooooo much man... and now it's been 2 months and we're waiting 😔

[@plastic_phish]

I've missed you so much! You're so funny and your videos always brighten up my day.

[@cedartonk3382]

Glad that you are back!!! Literally thought that you left because COVID made things crazy!!! Because it did!!! So hearing that there was any drama around it is so strange lol. Happy that you took a break for yourself tho and are coming back better than ever!

[@BunniesXO]

I'm so glad you're OK. We love & support you! Missed your sass lmao

[@mossish2609]

Caleb, I’m not sure if you’ll see this, but I just want you to know that I’m so happy you were able to get out of that dark place and reach a happy point in your life. At this point, I have a lot of issues with this “guilty until proven innocent” mentality of Twitter and is the main thing that led me to delete the app entirely. I’m not disabled, so I can’t speak to what may not may not be offensive, but I can say that just by watching your vids over these last few years I do know you are a kind and considerate person who would never intentionally harm another. Whatever comments you may have made were taken way out of proportion. Honestly, I think people on Twitter sometimes want to cancel every good person for every mistake they may or may not have made, yet casually avoid people who really deserve to be deplatformed. Everyone is allowed to make mistakes, and your mistakes do not define who you are as a person. Your vids have helped me get through dark moments and periods in my life over the last few years, and I’m sure the same can be said for many others. I’m happy to see you again!

[@marianamauricio]

You look so happy at the end of the video!! Im so glad youre alright! Cant wait for the new video!

[@notanotherusername4]

Super happy you're back love your videos 💜 Good for you for taking time for yourself to enjoy college, find yourself etc. Looking forward to new videos :)

[@wangkong905]

I audibly gasped. AH i missed your videos! 💜 Your last video was so good what?.. (I always thought the genre was kinda offensive, glad you covered it tbh) :( Honestly, i think it's telling about who was bothered with the video and who wasn't. It makes me so upset that people were straight up bullying you and twisting your words. We do care! I was worried that you were run off or something bad happened but I'm glad you took that time needed and you're better now :) Excited for more videos! 😊

[@paigehoronzy2998]

i'm so happy to see that you're excited to be posting again!! you're content is what brought me back into reading, and no matter what type of content you go forward with, i'll always be waiting for new videos from you caleb :)

[@darkpinkgirl6684]

bruh... i missed you wtf. i'm glad you're okay now. take your time people are just awful

[@devonlizama4026]

I just searched your name to see if you had come back and YOU ACTUALLY DID THIS TIME OMG

[@jikookmints]

I had noooo idea that happened i'm so sorry you went through it. The video was pretty fun and i completely agreed with your points but with twitter the sheep mentality is so annoying 😭 but i'm glad you're doing better now and i'll wait for your next video !

[@Rkhfb]

I just started watching you and figured out you didn't post in 1 year. Was soo worried that I found my new favorite KZbinr and they aren't one anymore. Happy to see you back 😊 I hope you're doing well. And we'll be here whenever you're ready bestie

[@alex81209]

i’m so sorry that happened to you :,( but i’m so glad that you’re doing well and that you’re back!! we missed you and are here for your humor bc it is gold haha

[@_aritouchesthesun]

Aww man! It's so good to see your face again and to have you back! It sounds like you're just growing into yourself and I hope you can take everything that you've become and mold your channel into something fun that suits you to perfection👍🏾👍🏾 It sucks that things went down that way but everything us a two way street. If people don't want to come your way, what can you do, really? Welcome back, home slice

[@bdoug]

I have seriously been checking ur channel for an update for ages. Im so surprised that happened I didnt realize you were going through that backlash 😕

[@Hayaminitta]

Has it really been 10 months 0.0 glad to see you again

[@lordehenrywotton]

Bestie I miss you so much. Booktube/KZbin isn't the same without you