why I'm sober

[@CarolineCKeller]

The hardest part is being in an area where it is completely normalized and also struggling with being into art and music and aesthetics that are associated with weed and its crazy that its become a thing where its actually “weird” if you dont smoke.

[@lucymassam]

yuppppppp

[@meganbecker2444]

I love you & am so so proud of you. Seeing how much you’ve grown and recovered this past year has been such a valuable part of my life & u have taught me so much

[@lucymassam]

love u megster

[@yazswimmer]

Ive been going through this since the start of my freshman year and now as a senior I really cant take it anymore. Glad to know I'm not the only one who is going through this, hope to make it out like you.

[@musicgroup4348]

Thank you for this. Mu brother is struggling with it and is now ruining everything in his life, cutting off friends just so nobody's is is the way between him and weed. It is addictive.

[@Katherout]

the self-awareness 🥲🥲🥲 congrats on 11 months!!!!

[@lucymassam]

thank you so much!!

[@blankspace823]

your transparency is so admirable. we’re so proud of you and are rooting for you all the way!! 🤍🤍

[@lucymassam]

I appreciate this so much

[@kelsied218]

I'll never understand why people invalidate or shame people for sobriety from anything. Who cares. You can have fun without having to consume anything. Proud of you!

[@llamasandmee]

10 months sober at 28 years old and I have never felt better about myself, my body, and my decision making. You are doing the right, most amazing choice for yourself and it's so nice to hear you talk about it in such a thoughtful perspective. Keep going my friend!

[@meghanely7768]

Thank you for talking about this! I've always had a nontraditional relationship with drugs and alcohol and even though it's very different from your journey, hearing someone young and cool talk about being sober and resisting that whole culture means so much to me. You're so strong and I really respect the hard decisions you've had to make. Wishing you the best

[@lucymassam]

thank you for being here :)

[@heidistoffer8202]

Weed dependency is so real and I've seen it affect a lot of people in my life. Thank you for sharing you experience and being so open! Sending you all the love

[@maxoftheuniverse4221]

Im a freshman at UCSB and the fact that you can remain sober in an environment like here is super impresssive! Im so proud of you and wishing you luck on your journey

[@alicesadler5441]

Me to depression and anxiety numbing myself before work etc etc etc

[@clairehimmel3370]

So proud of you for being so open, honest, & sharing your story. As someone with a parent who's been sober for a little over a year, I've seen how hard it is first hand and I want to thank you for working to destigmatize conversations around addiction! Sending lots of love

[@lucymassam]

sending you love thank you for watching! :)

[@dr.suezettealoysiaandcarla1664]

👏🏼🤩👈🏽

[@laurendalba397]

I fell into the same exact rabbit hole as you. i started smoking when I was severely depressed and got so comfortable with the feeling of being high instead of feeling ANYTHING else, no matter the consequences. it took me 2 years but I was able to get it under control without treatment once my mental health stabilized and now when I smoke I don’t even enjoy the feeling anymore. I’ve finally realized that I don’t need it to be happy and I’m better off without it in my life.

[@winter5304]

Most of my family suffers from addiction and I told myself that I wouldn't drink or anything, and that if I did I would wait until I was 21. I turned 21 a few days ago and this was the sign i needed to not let impulse take over. Thank you Lucy :))

[@alicesadler5441]

Sobriety is a gift from God .never feel ashamed for getting help . I got addicted to weed also . Wow that's my drug choice also smoking everyday many many times per day and alcohol but not every day

[@lizasmith9243]

I'm a senior in high school and addiction runs in my family so I've been trying to stay away from drugs/alcohol. It's definitely something that's not easy to do and hearing your story has really motivated me to stick with. Congrats on how far you've come!

[@megan9592]

Everything you were saying with your past of smoking and the dependence but becoming self-aware is where I am at right now. I am a freshman at ucsb and I don't want to smoke at all by sophomore year but genuinely its the only thing making me happy right now which is so bad I need to go to the beach more.

[@meganbecker2444]

& we love that sober glow

[@offbalance7]

Im so proud to see someone so young take charge of their life. Great work and inspiring video. Thank you

[@taylorcurtis6622]

Love from a gaucho alum! Being so open about this is brave and so helpful for the stigma of sobriety and young age.

[@yazswimmer]

Im in the before stages where you were at when you were addicted and its crazy, hearing your story i feel like someone is just retelling what im going through at the moment it feels like a mirror, how crazy

[@annikaagresti6782]

I am in recovery from Anorexia and can relate so much! Recovery is the hardest thing I’ve ever done but the best thing as well. It’s becoming who I was always meant to be. Thanks for sharing so openly. Big congrats to you Lucy ❤️

[@lucymassam]

im so proud of you

[@avillage4790]

i think something that isn’t talked about enough is how people with add are way more likely to struggle with substance abuse disorder because the executive function part of the add/adhd brain is different. it’s kinda scary how much i relate to your relationship with substance abuse and having add. im rooting for you lucy

[@lucymassam]

here for you

[@margaretdelong5063]

this is fr my new comfort vid. second time watching this week. so important & inpspiring

[@reedingbook]

As a long time watcher and someone who went through basically the same thing back in 2020 (also ADD/depression/anxiety) its really nice to have this video. Im sure it was really hard to talk about, but I admire your candidness and the hard work you put into yourself. I feel like I have been growing/recovering along with you. The transparency/awareness means so much to me. Thank You and wishing you the best

[@emilyemerson9565]

I've been following you for so long and I am so happy that you posted this. I recently quit smoking this summer because like you, my anxiety was through the roof. Almost all of my friends smoke so it was really hard to just admit that I wanted to be sober. This video is so helpful thank you for being so open

[@oliviabresnicky1805]

So proud of u!!!!!Crazy I've watched u since I was 14 and today is my 18th bday! The journey has been fun and I love u 4ever.

[@elsaj2000]

I also could not stop smiling when you were talking about how much better you are doing. Your positivity and encouragement are super contagious.

[@boop443]

i remember watching you freshman year at ucsb and i have loved watching your growth. im so glad you've found what works for you. i've always been someone who can't say im proud of myself so when i heard you say it so confidently it inspired me. it's a process. anyways, proud of u lucy, thanks for being so honest.

[@laurahussey9842]

So friggin proud of u I'm a youth worker and in my view weed is the most addicitve and scary drug for young people, not an easy feat but you've done it well-done girlu

[@lucymassam]

thank you :) appreciate all you do!

[@loupelizzo2399]

Congratulations on reaching 11 months and very proud of you and if a drug controls your life and decisions are poor and self love disappears and your appetite disappears. It become such a circle or cycle and I enjoyed and loved this video. Thank you for sharing your story I appreciate it a lot that you trust us a lot. I relate to you so much and just let you know I’ve done rehab and go to AA regularly and my friends support me very well my family um sort of in denial of the problem. I’ve learnt I have 2 sets of friends my life friends and the my AA friends and it’s helped a lot. I am so glad and happy of your honesty and you are just inspirational to me thank you so much

[@prstnrtbga]

im SO proud of you lucy! ive been watching your channel for abt 4 years now and seeing how much you've grown is so amazing to me. you are seriously so inspiring and SO INCREDIBLY STRONG. im so happy for you and i am so glad you are doing well. you're the best!

[@lucymassam]

AWW THANK YOU!

[@alicesadler5441]

I'm drug free and alcohol free also so proud of you ❤️

[@amandabradley1181]

thank you so much for sharing this!! my brother is recently sober and I am trying my hardest to support him in any way I can and learn more about the steps of sobriety. I so so so so so appreciate this.

[@annah8828]

wow. lucy we have had such similar experiences. my favorite show in the world is called feel good and it’s on netflix. it touches addiction and the personality of an addict in the realest way i’ve ever seen. i’d recommend it to anyone reading this

[@saraposey1007]

Not sure how to describe this but this video was very comforting. So proud of you Lucy and you are glowing and this video brought me so much peace.

[@nikkip5551]

lucy i don’t even know you but i feel like i’m about to cry 🥺 you are so immensely brave - like not just being able to get sober but also to open up about it publicly to help others. you’re so incredible and you seem so much happier and brighter now!! proud of you for taking care of yourself and facing hard stuff & if anyone is mean or comments negative stuff i will gladly throw hands for you xxx

[@liz8215]

This video has inspired me to start my sober journey

[@stephanieu5817]

You’ve got this!!!

[@ColorMyCamera]

watched this on my break at work and that was not a good idea because i was tearing up through this whole video. u will forever inspire me. so happy you are here, the world is a better place with u in it

[@LeaKraf]

I’ve been watching your channel since your freshman year and I’m so proud of you!!! It takes so much courage sharing your story, but also going through it while life’s happening around you. You got this, queen!!!

[@lucymassam]

so glad you're here!! :) thank you!

[@hannafromatlanta]

Love this video! Today, December 1st 2021 marks 60 days on my sober journey since I committed October 1st. Like you Lucy, I have a really addictive habit with Weed. The first month was hard with the detox, but November I never felt so many waves of emotions (good, bad, and the in between) I'm loving sober life and super thankful for my supportive friends, therapist, and my music and movie podcast since it's allowed me to have a space and place to voice my thoughts. Thank you for sharing your story and maybe we can be virtual sober buddies 💖💖

[@marisag222]

So proud of you for being open and sharing your journey. I know it’s not easy being sober in SB because of the culture around the campus, I too struggled at times. But 11 months, that’s amazing and your journey has shown and I’m so happy to see how far u have come.

[@taylorlogan2111]

So happy for you! I can’t drink or do drugs due to my Epilepsy. I’ve also dated someone who was sober before. It’s true that you can have fun without alcohol & drugs. Glad to see you bringing light to sobriety, especially sobriety in young adults!

[@claireskinner6939]

LUCY I am so proud of you. I cannot even begin to imagine your journey the past year and I know we don't know each other but I am always always rooting for you and you have always been such an inspiration to me. I know this is very much a different experience but I have been out of school, in inpatient/IOP/therapy several times this year In recovery from OCD/depression/SI. So I absolutely know that's a whole different ball game but you being transparent makes me feel not so alone for trying to take my life back even if it is in a different way. You are so loved and I would love to talk to you so much some day

[@lucymassam]

i'm so happy you are here and if no one has told you today im so proud of all your hard work!!! its not easy at all :)

[@paigetimmreck2713]

I’ve been sober for 28 days, thank you for sharing your story!❤️

[@allisonsaiko5260]

I was curious if you knew any creators who got sober from weed and used to be a dealer? That’s what I’m going through right now, but haven’t found anyone online who also was a dealer and I’m curious to hear that perspective. Your video is the first I’ve seen specifically about marijuana addiction and I’m very very very thankful to have listened to it today

[@anniebear523]

I'm about to start an intensive outpatient program for weed myself. I had a year sober from it at one point, but as you mentioned, it slowly crept back in. Thanks for sharing your experience I really relate to it

[@jenna3549]

the self-awareness & courage to speak about this so openly is amazing, congrats on 11 months!!

[@mf.eventing6206]

I come back to this video every few weeks. It’s so hard to stop, but this really helps. Thanks so much❤️❤️ Any advice for someone who is looking to build up their sober support system?

[@ElizabethAnnHurt]

related to SO much of this! I’m almost 9 months and I remember just watching hours of sober pods and videos!! thank you for being so transparent!! so proud of you, I’ve been watching you since your hs days!!!

[@kait_lauridsen]

I’ve been watching you for a couple of years now and I can’t put words to how proud I am of you. Watching you grow into the person you want to be and sharing your journey with everyone, has helped me a tremendous amount. Thank you for everything.❤️

[@annapaula506]

so inspirational! you are an amazing human being. so much love and respect for you❤️

[@graciepoo18]

not me crying when you were talking about megan🥺😭 this is so awesome lucy and i’m so proud of you. thank you for trusting us and wanting to share this all with us! we love and support you always!❤️

[@gothmingki]

ive been watching your channel for a long time, and i just wanted to say im really proud of you

[@lucymassam]

I appreciate this so much thank you

[@hautwater]

Started college at the same time you did and I started watching your channel, glad to see that you are doing so much better now! Hope that this journey brings you true fulfillment and peace. Congrats on the year, wish you many more.

[@janessaacosta50]

i am SO proud of you lucy. your strength to talk about this online and being honest is so admirable. sending you so so much love❤️

[@lucymassam]

thank you for supporting :) ily

[@elsaj2000]

So brave of you to open up about this topic. You are normalizing talking about tough topics! I'm taking a psychology class this semester and we are currently studying substance use disorders. It's super important to use person-first language when talking about individuals with substance use disorders to avoid stigmatization. So for example, a person with alcohol use disorder. It helps the person realize their addiction is not the only part of them that matters.

[@ClaudiaMartinez-fj5vb]

this is the youtube video that broke me. im crying omg LUCY I LOVE YOU

[@maiah0523]

so proud of you using your platform to open up about a personal struggle! thank you for being such an inspiration to me and other people and their sobriety journey, proud is an understatement, you are so strong and im so happy you are living and loving your life 🤍 love u

[@meganm726]

I’m so happy for you Lucy!! Sending you so much love!! Hearing you say “I know my life. I know my story,” is something I needed so badly. Thank you for sharing your story!! 🤍

[@alannahmcentee9188]

lucy i have watched you from the beginning and i am so incredibly proud of you!!

[@viviannice8859]

so proud of you, thank you for being vulnerable and sharing 💓💕

[@loinanutshell]

so incredibly proud of you and congratulations on 11 months!!!! ive been watching you for five years and watching you grow and evolve has truly been so so so rewarding. i’m newly 21 as well and it’s hard trying to find your own relationship with things in a place like college and i truly thank you for being so open and honest with yourself and us. ive always looked up to you and ran to you for peace and comfort so i just wanted to let you know i am here and cheering you on every step of the way 🤍

[@PagingGiggles]

loved this video (especially the length, like thank you for making my night), but so so so proud of you for gaining your life back- so excited for you to continue the conversation!!!

[@LeaNezz]

this video was so interesting to hear from the POV of someone going sober while still in college. congrats on 11 months!

[@LOLmusicvids]

thank you for sharing your story lucy! you seem super happy :) congrats on almost 1 year thats HUGE!

[@Faithelizabeth25]

You’re such a badass!! I’m so happy that you feel more connected to yourself and the world around you. You are radiating warmth and happiness and I love that for you :) thank you for being vulnerable ❤️

[@marydilger8181]

Love you Lucy! So proud of you and wishing you the best. ❤️ You’re such a role model.

[@karab2786]

Hey! Watching this for the first time on your 1 year! Congrats Lucy!!! That is really something to be so proud of. We met in the airport and you were so sweet! Sending love and positivity!

[@abbywalsh4627]

Thank you for this video, I’ve been feeling like I need to get sober but it’s so hard. It’s nice to see someone go through something that you’ve yet to experience and make it less scary, so thank you and congratulations 🥳

[@lenakrone4754]

Lucy you are so inspiring to me. I’ve been watching your videos for years now and you should be so so proud of how far you have come. I have dealt with mental health stuff for as long as I can remember and your transparency is just such a gift to so many of us 🧡 you are such a light, keep being you

[@abbinorth55]

I love u so much. I’ve watched u grow a lot in the past few years and this past year has been remarkable. I am so proud of u Luce. Thank u for sharing your story. Almost one year sober!

[@cassondrasicard]

So happy (& proud of you)!! I'm excited to see how you continue to grow and be yourself wholeheartedly! Lots of love and well wishes!

[@maddiehowe204]

Yay Lucy!! So proud of you🤍also you and Megan’s relationship is so beautiful to see

[@alicesadler5441]

I can relate so much I go to therapy and aa program IOP

[@alexakershaw8585]

lucy you're amazing thank you so much for sharing this. youre literally an inspiration and I relate to so much you said so thank you

[@julianakeys4315]

So so proud of you Lucy you are so strong for owning everything you've done and getting help and overcoming the obstacles and sharing your story. Nothing but love and support for you on your journey.

[@kwhi3447]

I am so proud of you, Lucy. You are so powerful and strong. ❤️

[@annadoherty7356]

This just makes me love you even more!!! you are so brave and such an inspiration. so proud of you... congrats

[@alexawilson7853]

this made me emotional you’re so inspiring and i am so proud of u lucy 💕

[@justeeny5423]

loved this intimate video

[@delaneybiancofiori]

You’re glowing and your confidence is beaming. I’m so happy for you Lucy 🤍

[@addysonreliford7772]

i truly love you. i hope you upload more vlogs / longer content. thank you for being you miss lucy

[@islandhopper1476]

im so happy for you! it's been amazing watching you all these years and how you're always growing. I really appreciate that you share your experiences

[@hannahward1340]

so proud of u queen🥺 ur glowing and i’m so happy for u! i related to more parts of this than i expected, i rly admire ur strength and courage :)

[@sophiasmith8420]

so proud of you lucy!!! thank you for sharing this part of your life with us, so much love

[@lucymassam]

so much love to you!!

[@marinlarkin7668]

So happy and proud for you Lucy! Watching you from when you were in high school through now, it’s been so cool to watch you grow as I’m going through the same time period in my life. You really do inspire me so much and it’s just so amazing to see you genuinely happy!! You’re doing such a great job thank u for being so open 💞💞

[@Hollymodz]

love you lucy!!! im so proud of you and how far you’ve come!!!

[@lucymassam]

thank you so much Holly!

[@victoriaackerman7001]

queen!!!! congrats you're so amazing

[@ih8551]

giving you the biggest virtual hug. We all love you so much!!!

[@lucymassam]

love you!!!

[@livwilliamson5515]

I love everything about this and am so proud of you Lucy !!

[@heywilla]

I totally relate to your story, I'm in college and recovering from anorexia. Recovering from any kind of addictive harmful behavior is so hard- sending love

[@lucymassam]

im so proud of you

[@brodyh98]

congrats on 11 months lucy!!

[@kathleengiffels673]

This is amazing. So proud of you ❤️

[@nataliepatino19]

Hey Lucy! What are your favorite alc-free beverages or mocktails? Especially for the upcoming holiday season? :)

[@lucymassam]

kin is great for social settings! mocktails with Seedlip or Lemon Grade syrup!! or non alc beer :)

[@katelyndiggs5966]

Very proud of you. Struggling with this recently and this really spoke to me. Wish I had been able to meet you before dropping out from UCSB. Sending you so much appreciation and love

[@lucymassam]

always here for you

[@hes228]

i’m so proud of you lucy!!

[@marisag222]

Love you Lucy thank you for sharing your story. Grateful to have met u in SB :)

[@itssangiex]

i wish i could give you a big hug so here's a virtual big hug from a long time viewer from across the ocean 💛

[@lucymassam]

sending u a virtual hug right back!