why i moved out at 15... + cooking and grocery shopping in my new NYC penthouse | vlogmas day 6

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⇢ Q: how old are you? 20
⇢ Q: where do you live? NYC (originally from Canada)
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⇢ Q: what is your ethnicity? A: Vietnamese
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❤️ current sub count: 2.78❤️🧙🏻‍♂️

[@maiphammy]

I really am out here exposing myself.

[@sophianoel3979]

❤️

[@RicardoTrendz]

Ahhhh!

[@varshitavemuri2709]

Ty for being so rAw

[@madissonwhispers4]

I love you so much Mai you have empowered me to empower my life

[@TreisiGomez]

Love this also love you capturing moments with your family ❤

[@yourbigsis]

I was so brainwashed by the whole "life of an influencer" from social media, that i never realized that they're just like normal people. seeing her journal, lay in bed without the chaos of having a million things to say, all for the sake to keep us entertained. that really made me cry a bit. i love how raw her content is now. feel so at peace.

[@mishamochi7491]

Here b4 this blows, cuz it’s so good and sweat!!! ☺️🫶🏻

[@siarha70]

maybe you should make a dog room that crate seems a little small for two

[@khalilahd.]

This!! So well said 👏🏽

[@ninanegedu]

So beautifully said❤

[@eatmyoctopus]

lol what did you think they were- Aliens? 😂😂

[@ktdb9496]

real ones will never think you're crying over the "little things". Childhood trauma really follows us til forever and will trigger us however way it can. Thanks for showing us this side, Mai. Hope you feel much better

[@phuongtnguyen77]

Generational trauma? Vietnamese parents are also traumatized by the war. Would you create a video on this someday?

[@rachh.visuals2410]

ngl this episode triggered me a lil but in a way that made me feel so seen. Almost no one in my life understands these emotions. I literally recognized every stage in her body language and tone as the video progressed and it may seem subtle but it’s so so easy for someone who’s felt that to see. We love you mai. Being vulnerable like this and breaking the facade is so good for peoples brains and lives. Thank you for putting yourself out there ❤

[@user-kz7pe8di7e]

Props to mai for talking about her parents. Kids get how frustrating parents can be and since we don't wanna be disrespectful we keep all of it to ourselves. It's good to talk about this and we would never judge you on your relationship w your parents❤️

[@okay........]

is she talking about her mom? :(

[@etherealchchan2752]

@@okay........ i think her dad

Okay but here's the thing… there comes a time when you have to decide if you rather come off as disrespectful but draw boundaries or just let things happen. I don't believe in outright respecting your parents. Respect is earned and if you don't respect me or my things, you haven't earned it for yourself. Something I heard a long time ago from my therapist: "How adult children treat their parents is usually a direct correlation to how the parents treated the child." My parents were trash and the moment I moved out, they didn't hear from me for months. That was in 2014 and I still keep them at arm's length.

[@nizia7z]

@ you're strong 💪 ❤ I envy your courage 🥺

[@ohdamnsonya4807]

@ my thoughts and perspective on the matter exactly

[@evaberning1772]

I relate to this so much. I moved out when I was 17. I also moved to a different country. And when I first went home after 2 months of living alone I realised how bad living with my parents was for my mental health. But its also hard because my moms health is kinda bad so I also did a huge part of the household work. And when I visited the house was so dirty and all i did that week was clean the house and when I left I felt so bad for my siblings but yeah. I don't think anyone read this but if you did thanks and have a great day, greetings from Belgium!

[@Eve....0903]

As a girl who has a toxic relationship with my parents, this video is very relatable. I'm 18 and living with my parents now but I'm gonna move out next year. Every time my parents yell at each other and slap me, I felt like I wanna die and there's nothing I can do to change this toxic environment but Mai and her videos gave me hope. I love you Mai❤

[@kimberlye4627]

I hope things get better for you❤️

[@hsabrae]

Same my love, i have a toxic relationship with my mother and she always mentally abuses me and makes it about her and blames me for everything. Im working so hard to move out with my boyfriend. I just wanted u to know youre not alone❤🥺

[@ThatOneGirlsAccount_]

I feel you , Mai had helped me so much as well . Remember that things will get better and you will have an amazing life outside of your toxicity. Your not alone 🩷

[@shanamorrison7932]

It’s the disrespect and the way they are treating your home and things you own that you did all for yourself. Your feelings are so valid

[@thisthatpinkvenom1616]

I really appreciate how transparent mai is with us.... she doesn't always put on the "perfect life" act but rather shares her ups and downs with us....stay blessed mai

[@codycow2637]

Doesn't have the perfect life she lives in a pent house and she has no real job no real responsibilities she films herself by makeup like what are you stupid she has a easy her life is super easy

[@suahdarkoma8032]

Stay blessed!

[@haileyjaymes]

Yess!!

[@crujoannaeh]

That feeling is too relatable. Nothing triggers me more than family drama. I moved out when I was 18 to get away and be at peace. Im 31 now and I’m still trying to keep a decent relationship with my family. But there are certain things that they do that makes me break down and feel like I did when I was a kid. It took me a long time to figure out how to keep my family at a comfortable distance and set boundaries especially in my home. So proud to see that you have a new fantastic space and you living your life to the fullest ❤ sending love from Toronto!

[@l3Ilanle]

I’m trying to move out I turn 18 in 3 days, it’s so stressful and depressing living in a toxic house ..

[@gviiqy]

i was so fucking brainwashed on influencers and celebrities that i never saw the real side EVER .. seeing mai like this made my heart literally sink and i felt so sad , the reason i love mai is because shes not covered in plastic , she shows us the REAL life . the struggles , society and how it actually is , past life and life in its true raw form . mai , you helped me become such a bigger and better person and you dont deserve to cry , i have parent issues and it just made my heart sink that youre literally trying so hard to develop a bigger and stronger relationship , as someone who loves , cares , supports mai i will do anything 2 make you happy

[@eliseyounger8160]

Honestly she is the one person i truly look up to she is so real and doesn’t try and make it seem like her life is perfect like so many other people do on here.

[@dilalala6137]

When Mai started crying, I found myself crying too. I dont remember seeing anyone in the social media being this sincere and raw about their feelings. It made me feel extremely proud of her and myself too as someone who struggled with her family a lot. I moved out this October to go to college and my hometown and the city that I've arrived are far far away from each other and I've been enjoying my freedom for nearly 2 months and HONESTLY I am so grateful. I dont ever remember feeling this peaceful in my life. I studied my ass off and got into the best college in my country and this video seriously made me think about my past experiences. Bless Mai's heart, I love her sooo much, she deserves the whole world.

[@desikoya4152]

Being a Nigerian I'm growing up in a very toxic household and you can't say anything about it like you cant even think to disrespect anyone no matter what they say or who they are and watching mai really brings me peace and hearing her story is really touching

[@blessing303]

I relate I’m Nigerian too I wanna move out but that wouldn’t be financially smart for me :/

[@Nick-dx2pt]

@@blessing303 why can't you go find a job?

[@blessing303]

@@Nick-dx2pt I’m still in uni and I do have one. I moved away for uni but obviously London rent is too much for me when I graduate

[@uci1111]

same 😢❤ keep going guys❤

[@kiv_daniels]

@@blessing303 Do you live in Nigeria? If you live in Nigeria it’s not easy to get a job unlike the UK where students in High School have jobs.

[@anna.banana18]

girl, please don't feel bad about talking to us about your family problems. im 17, i live at home, and have family problems. you have no idea how encouraging it is to know that you understand what that's like, and that you were actually able to move out. thank you sm for sharing, you have no idea.

[@leylakaya1842]

mai is one of the good ones. she’s so strong and even though she’s been through so much she stays positive and pushes through. you truly are an inspiration ❤

[@katiemoore6537]

I love that you opened up and said what’s wrong, it’s like the one friend who doesn’t say what’s wrong for the longest time and they finally do❤️

[@sandraculas]

It's so refreshing to see that not every youtuber has a great relationship with their parents/family because growing up Viet as well, I was trying to live my own life in a toxic household, and it is so exhausting. I really appreciate Mai for being so transparent and sharing such a intimate part of her life with us. It's encouraging to see where Mai has come (esp being the same age as her) from and how much she has achieved TT so proud you yew

[@nathvlya]

ive always felt like i see a lot of myself in you and you talking abt ur relationship with your parents just made me relate even more to you and gives me hope also that one day i’ll have my own house and wont have to deal with all the traumatic shit and be able to try and have a realtionship w them but with boundaries they have to respect. Im literally crying thank u for being so u, u rly make me feel seen

[@Hirayaaah]

This was emotional to watch not just because of everything mai opened up about, but also it hits different when u relate. I literally struggle with family issues everyday and im so fkn depressed because of it. When i saw her crying i felt like crying too, cause its like people who are on the internet show so much of the positive in their life that you really don't find people who you can relate to on stuff like this. The fact she was reapplying her makeup and crying gave me major deja vu from a few days ago and just alot of times in my life. Once you start breaking down from family issues its like an ongoing breakdown that will complete itself in the long run of a week or so cuz of how messed up everything is and its that one thing that triggers u into thinking of a 100000 things concerning your family. I really hope everyone who is struggling with family issues can be free of it eventually, im just waiting to be financially stable and after that i have no will to keep on living with my family. I love Mai for how far she has come and its so inspiring to those going through similar situations❤

[@chrissy4957]

5:44 honestly, thank you mai for including this part into the video, I never related to anything that was said on KZbin as much as what you have said and experienced. It kinda gave me the chills. It sounds awful what you had to go through and not being respected when you were forced to live with you family, and it’s too bad that you felt like having to downplay it. I don’t think it is first world problems, they are real problems! I’m glad you were able to get out of the situation when you were 15 and are thriving now!! It is also super mature to try to reconcile the relationship with your family and not cut them out completely. I might not know you personally but you seem very strong to me, so stay even stronger while your family is visiting you and hopefully everything will be fine! And again, thank you so much for including this part into the vlog, sometimes social media gives the impression of nobody having to deal with mental/family problems and you are all by yourself, when in fact other people have problems as well but it’s not that easy for them to show the bad stuff too.

[@cel3256]

As someone who is seventeen years old with daddy issues, seeing you break down and talk about your struggles so openly to the camera, made me feel seen and understood. im happy you decided to keep that in bc ik im not the only one who felt this way. u are such a huge inspiration and deserve everything u have rn, super proud of u mai

[@yasmined16]

I'm 24 and I have daddy issue like you and I'm feeling way better then my teenager years and I hope you too you will ❤️❤️❤️

[@imancastillo7369]

I'm 21 it will get better ! Hope for you too, really take care of you first❤ with time improvement will come

[@abi_cat28]

I'm 23 and I also have daddy issues too

[@danielalexanderphan]

I'm so happy to see you being vulnerable with your family struggles as I struggled with these issues, too as a Vietnamese American and hope that you see the love that your community has for you.

[@Natalya-Alise]

Thank you so much for being brave enough to be vulnerable with us in this video. I’ve never related so much bc I currently like at home, as a teenager, and sometimes I feel like I won’t get to be happy and live better. So seeing you escape what used to be and live this beautiful life you do now is so inspiring. ❤

[@irisfenix]

the weight of having traditional asian parents is no joke... having those generational curses passed down to you and having to move through them, live with them as they manifest through your parents, its so heartbreakingly painful. thank you for being so transparent and sharing your story so fearlessly mai

[@R.loves.Clairo]

REAL

[@giaambika99]

FR

[@primrosed2338]

Mai going to break the generational trauma.

[@jelliejelliefish]

Mai, that asian parent inter-generational trauma is so real!! And you’re amazing for trying to heal yourself and others from that. Cry, get frustrated, feel your feelings. You’re doing the work and thats such a feat to do ❤

[@anovi1031]

Why is it important that it's "asian" trauma?

[@BriarMaeriSibyle]

@@anovi1031 why would it not be important?

[@jillsarah7356]

@@anovi1031 They might be referring to the specific amount of pressure involved with immigrant parents and/or how in some Asian cultures you are not permitted to speak to your parents/elders in certain ways/difficult to be honest/upfront. But yes feeling frustrated with parents is a cross-cultural thing too. It's both!

[@camibabii13]

@@anovi1031 because Mai is Asian and that is the family dynamic that she is going thru

[@humphreymumphrey3485]

@@anovi1031 bc it’s definitely a cultural thing for her

[@cherrymilk6899]

Omg maii were all here for you don't be embarrassed we all love you so much and it makes me really happy to know that you can share your sorrows with us. Everything's gonna be fine. Your amazing and you truly didn't deserve to be treated that way, we love you so much and we all here for you. U can do thisss!

[@ciaramckenna4384]

There's something soo nice about watching Mai being productive and it encourages me to be productive. I love how she puts so much effort into her videos and I love the entertainment with literally just listening to her talk. Also, I love how open she is about her life. Thanks Mai for your videos 🥰🥰

[@NO-um6hc]

I'm a 31 yr old asian female and Sagittarius and girl I totally understand why you felt so upset that your family was so careless in your space. Asian parents always treat you like a little girl no matter how much older you get and how successful you become. I'm so proud though that you have a space that is completely yours and you don't have to deal with BS on a daily basis. Keep doing you girl❤

[@_random1319]

Me too I am a Sagittarius and a girl and what you said is so true

[@happidai]

I’ve been experiencing 21 years of mental abuse with my parents and I still haven’t moved out. It’s a massive dream of mine and trust me I know how it feels to want to be close to ur family, yet they always prove u right with how they act. I don’t think anyone who has a good family life will ever understand how we feel so they don’t have a leg to stand on to tell us how to act. All I know is that you have helped me so much and you should be so proud of yourself for even trying. You’re not alone Mai ❤❤❤❤

[@happidai]

Note * we’ve also all been trained to “respect our parents” no matter what, yet if the roles reversed we are expected to deal with it because they have given us “ a life” it’s so stupid. I’m proud of u for openly taking about family issues because I feel like not many people have the balls to talk about it these days ❤

[@Hennessyvybezz]

Save your $ and get out.. heal yourself and then invite them into your home and show them different. ❤️✊🏼

[@somayaalawadi459]

I can relate , hope ur doing fine now and that ur happy ❤

[@kimadksjfhe8473]

bro the “i know how it feels to want to be close to ur family, yet they always prove u right” LIKE YES THIS

[@imancastillo7369]

Same eventhough there are happy moments at home. I know I cannot grow anymore. Its like a shark stuck in a smaller stank wanting to move to the ocean, I’m waiting until I got my college degree :((

[@luciaacaprii4410]

Never mute your emotions just because they might not seem as big of a deal in comparison to what others go through. I love all your videos and this one is so special I just wanted to say thank you for always showing the real you! I love my family yet I know exactly how you feel, it's suffocating and draining and so so hard when there's no escaping it at the end of the day because of whatever the situation may be. You truly are an inspiration and you are doing the absolute best you can and that's all that matters because we ALL appreciate it

[@trinitymorgan9398]

It's so refreshing to see Mai expose her life like this. I have lived a similar life until I moved out at 18 so I totally understand. Thank you for sharing!! We love you

[@marinatristan5345]

i literally resonated with this so freaking much. Parents not respecting the things you’ve worked so hard to attain is so immensely frustrating, especially when you’re trying so hard to keep the peace already. .You’re so REAL for sharing this side of yourself😭🤍 Forever an inspiration 🤍!!!

[@citlalliyepez5379]

She was talking about her dad huh

[@leoni9830]

as someone that struggles with my parents as well, just know you’re not alone! we love you mai

[@raefxxd1759]

I normally don’t comment on videos + this is the second video I’ve seen from you but I wanted to tell you something… As someone who moved out of their parents house at 17 because of mental health and abuse I’m so thankful that you shared that… I’m always thinking I’m the only one who’s trying to get better with their own family even though they treated me like shit. I know it’s hard to visit your family or your family visiting you. It helped me a lot to see that there are other people with the same problems ❤️

[@nikkiemarieconcertphotography]

Thank you for showing your feelings with your parents because I’m in the same shoes as you right now. I moved out and then they needed to move in with me at 24. I moved out at 18 because of how they were. I needed to see someone else in my shoes. You have no idea how nice it was to know I’m not alone. Thank you! ❤

[@deniseajanel6466]

As a native new yorker, its so comforting to see you at the local grocery stores, the dollar store, and supporting small businesses as opposed to only shopping at bigger chain stores. thank you for that

[@veronicacosta7660]

I grew up in an abusive household (alcoholic father) and we have had a rough time over the years. Last weekend we met up with him for the first time in almost 4 years and he had promised that he was better and i really tried and gave it my best and it turned out to be awful and he really disappointed me. I guess I want to thank Mai for making content that allows me to “check out” of my own sadness for a bit and also commend her for showing that life really does have its ups and downs FOR EVERYBODY. She is so sincere and relatable and we love her so much. Mai, you deserve the world 🤍

[@haileyjaymes]

Yess girl!!

[@allisoncope5854]

I relate to this so much. It’s so hard to be around your family when they are so different from you. And you’re so right about how freeing it is to finally be on your own. I’m so happy that you get to live the life you have right now. And I’m literally so happy that you feel so much more at peace and happy in your own space. That’s honestly the best feeling ever

[@dianamarquez9461]

Watching you break down when you came home reminded me of every single reason of why I left my family’s house. I felt that intense frustration right with you 😭 So proud of how far youve come Mai!!! We love u sssssm 💗💗💗

[@lin77]

As someone who also grew up in a Vietnamese household, moved out, then moved back home to help my parents with financial problems...I can 10000% relate. Since I've moved back home, I've had so many mental breakdowns and depressive episodes, which I haven't had for years. Your feelings are valid Mai...and they seem like little things, but those little things have been piling up for years. and it's now an avalanche

[@NO-um6hc]

"avalanche" I felt that so hard

[@valwowrie]

^^

[@khanyiGonWildTv]

I love how you cried and showed that your life is not always rainbows and sunshine and how you showed that you also experience family problems and it makes us viewers also relate to you more ❤️

[@bea.of.ameadow8029]

The healing the amount of love and peace and dedication THE FACT SHES SO DOWN TO EARTH AND STILL SUPER FUNNY the humbleness THE BEAUTY the rawness and just overall sweet energy she has ❤

[@ericapaley1579]

6:43 I can relate to this so much. Getting along with my whole family but especially my parents has been an ongoing struggle for as long as I can remember. Something I’ve learned that might (or might not) be helpful is that you don’t need to drop your boundaries to have a good relationship with family. You can choose which things you trust them with (living in the same space might not be one of those) and still take care of yourself while you reach out.

[@Lotta3]

I find it very courageous that you openly told us the reasons for your early departure. I also moved out when I was 15 because I couldn't stand being with my family any longer. That may sound mean now, but it was also the best decision of my life back then. I've had a lot of part-time jobs in recent years and studied at the same time. I successfully passed my bachelor's degree a few months ago and now I'm living my dream life. Never give up and stay strong. Life can always change for the better, even if it sometimes means leaving important people (family or friends). Thank you Mai for being so honest and sharing your life with us ❤️ Sorry for my bad English, it's not my native language.

[@BC-bf9qs]

It is a relatable experience to have people in your life who do not respect your space and boundaries. It’s even harder when it’s your family. The fact that they are not being considerate to your home/pets while also accepting all of your kindness is shameful. Keep these visits short and rules outlined ahead of time 💗 wishing you the best

[@valwowrie]

❤️

[@user-mk1mo5yk4s]

The best advice in the entire comment section

[@b.eauty_asethetics1172]

Honestly watched you for years and you talking about family drama and your feelings and all really hit home , made me feel like I am not alone with those feelings.Thank you showing a more real side of you on camera.We love you ❤

[@angelvomit777]

Your parent problems really hit home to me, I had a dramatic emotional cry thanksgiving day from being back around my parents and it was so rough to realize that I used to live like that every single day. And I’d been away from home for so long that I had forgotten what it felt like to be around chaotic people that stress me out bc my life now is so completely different. It’s a great feeling to know you’re free from those experiences for the most part, but in order to spend time with your family you have to accept a little bit of emotional suffering simultaneously. It’s highly frustrating😢

[@westnelson9865]

Mai this video hit me so hard. I empathize so hard with being constantly frustrated with your family. I’ve been really struggling with my family and trying to stay positive and trying to keep my head above the waves. I’ve been crying all weekend and it’s so hard. When you said “if I could just help one person” it literally brought me to tears because you helped me today. Thank you so much for posting this and including your struggle it really helped me feel better and not so alone. I am so so so grateful for you and your content!

[@emmayuroman8348]

I hope you feel better

[@nasia5007]

i fully understand you

[@kelseyharoacnh]

Literally THIS. I wanted to comment and say the same thing.

[@mirandalaird]

mai you’re so strong and beautiful . you’re not getting upset over tiny little things, literally everyone would be very reasonably upset over things like that . this is YOUR space that YOU are paying for; you should not have to deal with disrespect in your own home, especially when you are trying so hard to make things right and enjoy your family . thank you for being so open and sharing things like this with us . i’m so so grateful to you mai i love u sweet girl 💗

[@shaunasugar]

My parents did really messed up disrespectful things when I was growing up and even as an adult to this day they will say or so messed up shit. Mai, I am so proud of you to see how far you have come in your life and to get away from the negativity that has surrounded you all these times. You deserve happiness!! And all of us who can relate deserve happiness too. 💓💓💓💓

[@marianneruiz2275]

The start of this video hit me so hard. It sucks that when we try to go back it just brings us back to that emotional and mental state that we were in at that time. It’s so hard to put yourself through it. Thank you so much for being so real because I’ve never seen anyone else talk about the reality of home and family and how difficult being home is.

[@alexlee1374]

I really loved this episode because it was so raw and relatable. Influencers' lives are so glorified that we don't see what their life is really like. I'm 14 and going through some of the worst time of my life right now, and my family only makes fun of my struggles. When I see things like this, it's so motivational and inspiring. I look up to you so much, and when I really see the things you go through, it helps me get through my day and realize that I can put in the effort to try and be happy.

[@aiaphommakasikone1950]

It’s so empowering seeing Mai authentically embrace her Asian culture online. I know so many young Asian girls, myself included are watching and feeling seen and proud of their roots. ❤

[@oliviadhaiti4321]

I’m SO glad you posted this video especially the part where you vented about why you moved from your parents house. I’m glad that I watched your video and that I’m not the only one who has dealt and is dealing with family issues like this.

[@hannahferris612]

i’m 14 and wanting to move out due to parents and family and i have taken sm comfort in all of your videos, but this video has honestly made me feel less alone and comforted. You are a very strong person and i hope that you continue living the dream ❤

[@awwilliams4914]

I pray that you and your family's situation can be healed, in JESUS' NAME!!! 🙏🙏♥♥ I've been there and am still going through that in my 20s. I didn't realize but in HS just keeping myself busy was very helpful in my peace of mind. Please pray about it, go to church, go to therapy if you can. It was so freeing when I moved out for college but it got easier in HS. I know you are going to get through this. Keep the faith in GOD!!!

[@apsharaazad9269]

I know what it feels like. Living in an Asian household isn't easy. It's so frustrating because there's no point trying to make them understand. I am so proud of how far you've come Mai. All my love.

[@tumamaochoa6265]

As some one who struggles with “mommy issues” this just reminded me that even if your out their living your life you are still a human being and that you’ve had so many struggles to get we’re you are and seeing you cry just made me start bawling because you just have been such an inspiration, but seeing you cry made me see you as an even bigger one because you have to be very brave to be front forward online, And you are. THANK YOU FOR JUST BEING GREAT I LOVEEE U(btw mmm SO GOOD!!!)

[@allanalitvak]

mai... its okay to cry. you dont need to be positive wvery single vlog just for us. we watch you for YOU.

[@paisley_june3085]

We are here for you Mai ❤ we understand that we can’t always stay happy and just need a good cry sometimes. Your dad really needs to respect you more and I’m so grateful you’re living a better life now. Thank you for at least trying to give him another chance. Love you ❤

[@opalescenttides5647]

Mai I’m so freaking proud of you for trying to repair things with your parents, even though you were under zero obligation to. That’s GROWTH, miss girl! You’re such a real person and I’ve loved watching how far you’ve come in the few years I’ve been subscribed to you and seeing how strong of a person you’ve become! I’m like 9 years older than you but you inspire me to better my life every time I watch your content. Love you!

[@DivinelyRo]

When you cried my heart broke. People really don't talk about the stress of home life. You're so incredibly strong and I'm sure that so many people could relate to the vlog today

[@miahcontreraz9970]

I'm so proud of you for acknowledging how far that you have come since you were 15. You have gotten so far in live and I'm so proud of you love

[@kalynbelvin]

i’ve never related to someone more. i was beyond miserable living with my parents. i was so depressed & genuinely hated life. i moved out & it was like a weight lifted off my chest & i became so happy. unfortunately i had to move back home & im back in that same spot. i’m so happy that you were able to get out of that situation bc ik how hard it is. sending love to you bby 🫶🏼🫶🏼

[@pallas2966]

You’re so strong Mai. I also really respect you for trying to repair your relationship with your parents, especially bringing them into your home/safe place. It’s hard to put yourself back into that position, but this video honestly encourages me to be more patient with my own parent. Thank you for always being so open and good to us

[@joleenrodriguez5247]

I love that you brought this out. I am currently in that trying to forgive them for what they did phase at the moment, so I really appreciated that

[@leah2817]

I actually really appreciate you sharing the issues with your family. My family isn’t perfect and sometimes it’s hard seeing people be so “perfectly” close with theirs. It made me feel so sad because my family wasn’t close but they were so incredibly toxic.

[@marinabadovinac]

girl i’m in the same situation right now, you’re not exposing yourself you’re being vulnerable and trust me i know it’s hard. you worked too hard to feel like that again. so proud of you❤️

[@moonchild__ot7]

i love how you're so transparent with us and dont show how an influencer has like a "perfect life" and everything and i love you so much 🥹 youre slay 💅🏻💅🏻💅🏻 also mm so good🩷

[@kylievranka]

I never realized how bad your home life was and what truly made you move out. I can’t wait until the day I can move out as well since I feel worse being at home than anywhere else. I can’t wait to live the happy life you are and do what I want in life. You truly are my inspiration for my life and what I want to do with it.

[@isabellavuong7901]

When you said with a tear, “I’m trying, but it’s so hard,” I’ve never related more. It’s really hard to heal and grow, but there’s a light at the end of it! In my mid-20s, my relationship with my parents finally became more amicable, but still made me shed tears. Now, almost never. You’ll get there!!!

[@lucy.goosyy]

i am so glad you posted this video. i relate to your at home feelings so much and i can’t wait to get the hell out of here. it’s what keeps me going, i’m so excited to grow and explore and see what more there is to life

[@dohae.9863]

thank you for being so raw and real with this video it def hit home for me, I was watching your content when u were younger and trying to move out and I was around the same age struggling w the same thing, I keep telling myself if she can do it so can I . that feeling you felt is way too relatable, I felt your pain. thank you for what you do

[@anneschielder89]

I think you helped hundreds of people by talking about this. We love listening to you especially when it comes to thing like this. We love you and are sooooo happy for you that you came this far. You deserve it Mai! And thank you again for literally everything

[@gigisnippets6525]

Wow relatable af. Your family situation hits so close to home. For a second I literally felt like I was watching me and my family. I cried when you cried because I know exactly how you felt. Being surrounded by misery and chaos my whole life, gambling addictions, money issues, feeling like the parent to your parents, feeling like you don't belong because your mindset is just so different to theirs, hating them for just immaturely birthing you without actually raising you, feeling like a wild mushroom that had to raise herself... But it's just so inspiring to see where you are now. It gives me hope, that one day I can achieve this too. I will leave this suffocating chapter behind me. I will be happy and the darkness i'm surrounded by will one day only be a memory. Really, thank you. Love you.

[@carrieann8089]

Thank you for sharing because just like you, we all Asian community and everyone else feels some kind of way about the family drama. I struggle with it everyday and I’m still trying to get a relationship with my parents but it’s so hard. You have touched me and everyone else and I appreciate you.

[@allengutierrez]

Bro when Mai started crying I started tearing up because of what she want through and I’m so grateful that she’s happy and that she shares with us. I love you mai ❤ you make me happy every time 😭💕❤️ your the best ❤

[@robbie-the-bee]

I get it. I really do. I'm 16, and I have my go-bag packed for when the day comes that I really do have to leave. My father abused me for 12 years before he finally stopped, and I STILL cry like that almost every day. While he no long physically abuses me, he still does my little brother, and older brother occasionally. I cannot wait until I'm 18 and I can finally leave. I love you Mai, and I'm really proud of you.

[@shinytears_]

Stay stronggg there!! You're doing amazing

[@brendamtz44]

Keep you in my prayers 🙏🏼💗

[@florisnail3528]

Okay this is crazy I don't normally comment but seeing someone mention a go-bag was just a reminder of my just prior reality. I'm so sorry that this is happening. You're going to get through this situation, and I really truly do hope you know that you deserve to be happy and feel safe. I hope you're doing okay, and it's okay to cry. I believe in you.

[@robbie-the-bee]

@@florisnail3528 Thank you so much. It means a lot.

[@adriana3282]

mai, i’m so proud of you for being able to share this with us and being so honest. i know how hard it is to do so, and you are such an inspiring person. you’re so so strong and as someone who also has a rough relationship with my parents, it’s honestly so refreshing to see that i’m not the only one who struggles. love you so much

[@etherealkiller1153]

watching this video made my heart melt. i never knew the reasons why you moved out i assumed it was trouble at home but it’s personal and your own business but being able to see a tiny glimpse of the things you went through living at home made me feel SO VALID. thank you for actually being one of the people that shared their experiences even if they aren’t good. you are doing so amazing though mai look how far you’ve come ◡̈

[@marvelousmia]

girl she been spoke about it, there’s an entire video from years ago going into detail on it.. you’re late

[@martinacardenas7512]

I love how Mai has no filter!!! This is LIFE not everything is perfect we all have rough days and bad memories that still affect us. Mai you are such a role model we all look up to you for being just so straight up and real!!!

[@Aidan_05_]

Mai this video really hit my core. When you said "I can't believe i used to live like that" - I felt this ricochet throughout my whole body. We lived the same life. I have never felt more closer to you than in that moment. I was crying with you! I am not one to show emotion, so i appreciate how raw and open you were. I love that I have you Mai.

[@dreamglow31]

When she started crying I felt that, family problems are on another level of stress but we all love you Mai 💜❤️

[@madisonraine]

Mai you have always been my comfort KZbinr. I am also from Alberta, and I also have similar family problems. I look up to your life you’ve created for yourself despite having such family problems to the point they effect you mentally. Rough family relationships can be so awkward to explain, especially when you’re older, moved out, and trying to be the better person. Thank you for feeling comfortable enough to share this with your subscribers. We love and support you to the moon ❤️

[@Amelia-ut3fu]

i'm really grateful you kept the part in talking about family problems as a teenager because i really feel like i'm being dramatic for the amount of frustration i feel everyday, i feel so understood and seeing you slaying out here in your vids makes me feel relieved cause i know it'll be okay as soon as i can move out:) love ya

[@jeonjungkook7]

My heart goes out to mai for making our lives better and making content for us. ❤️

[@khalilahd.]

Same ❤

[@olivialayla6916]

Why are all her comments the same on every single video? Also Mai- the fish eye lens is not it

[@jeonjungkook7]

@@olivialayla6916 cause the space we've created here remains constant. We leave our appreciation here for her to see and get more motivation from us. Hope that helps.

[@rupalisharma2982]

As someone who’s actually in the position as 15 yr old Mai I just wanna say I’m proud of you for setting boundaries and standing up for yourself ❤ your feelings are valid and you’re doing your best 😘🥰

[@rylesmonti5212]

I don't comment very often but I've been following you for years and I am so proud of how far you've come. Deep breaths honey, 15 year old you would be so so so proud of yourself. Also you are such an inspiration hun, I've had a really hard day after my mom came back in town from vacation and it's nice having that reminder that things won't always be this way and eventually I will be able to move away and possibly even cut her off. I love you so so so much Mai. Try to keep your head up dear but it's also okay to let yourself feel your feelings.

[@kristinajgharkava6163]

i am so grateful that you show us the real life vlogs and the moment you started talking about like family it is just so relatable i am 15 now so i wish to grow and live in the apartment of my dreams and be free. i just love the way things turned out for you and i am so happy for you

[@taylorgwilt49]

I 100% understand. I moved to Texas with my long-term boyfriend to get away and every time I visit home I get taken 10 steps back and I don’t miss being in that environment. It’s okay to cry and it’s okay to be upset. Parent-child relationships are a whole different beast. We are thankful for you too❤️

[@LancyMelody]

MESSAGE FOR MAI AND THIS VERY SUPPORTIVE COMMUNITY - HOPE YOU READ IT😊 First of all wanna say thank you to Mai for being this honest with us and for showing her true self and not hiding like most influencers. Look ngl some people would def assume if they saw you like this that you're crying over stupid things but we know that's not the only problem. Most of the time, in life, there are "small" things that just a bit open the wounds, which starts to irritate you and leads you to crying. The feeling is awful - u are nervous wanna throw, hit something, hate everything and everyone - just in a second so much bothers you. You are asking yourself many questions such as why did I deserve to be pissed like this, why is no-one relating to me, why do I feel so lonely... But there's always that but in everything. I won't say turn the next page, ignore, and stuff like that cus that's what annoys me the most, however, I would like you to look at something that is near you and focus on that one thing while breathing slowly cus this will hopefully relax you from all the stress that someone is giving you. Mai and others try to live without thinking about the past that much, keep it in your memory but don't let others use it. HUGS FROM YOUR TRUE FAN❤️❤️❤️ and P.S stay cool as you always are😎😎

[@shanz9644]

girl i literally cried with you, over the same things, literally the same feelings, so thank you for sharing and now i know theres more daughters going through the same stuff

[@sunshinesbrightt]

Mai talks about how she couldn't do us, but really I couldn't do it without you. Ever since I was little, I've been on the bigger scale. My parents would always talk about it as well as aunties and uncles. No one really ever could, have a conversation with me without bringing it up, especially my father. He would always make it look like he was doing it because he "loved me", but I knew that wasn't the cause. You, Mai, really made me feel comfortable with myself, and the things that I do as well. I'm so, so, so glad I came upon you channel a few years ago, or else I don't know what I would have done with my life. ❤ ❤ Love you Mai! ❤ ❤

[@kamillecarbon8697]

mai talking about family dysfunction is so hard and it’s easy for us to put it away or minimize it but I’m glad you’re able to share it with us ❤ makes me feel like u really do consider us as family. you’ve come so far mai! Everyone’s proud of u girlie

[@Avila.GarciaF]

I’m on verge of tears cause I feel like you know what I am going threw and the fact that I’m 15 and cry every day for similar reasons is crazy to me how similar we are. I wanna say I look up to you and how you were able to get out of your toxic house hold and now I can believe in my self that one day I can be like you

[@4lyse_]

My whole life and still today I deal with the pressure of how my parents live. The way they live effects my daily life and growth as a human, as a teenager. Seeing someone I look up to so much know how it feels makes me see the hope of the future. Thank you for all you have done

[@ysabella7442]

so proud of you for deciding to have a better relationship with your parents 💗 that’s a very big and emotional step to take.

[@svdonym]

I appreciate you showing the ugly parts of your day - sometimes parents don't respect your boundaries or rules and it can get SO frustrating bc they're so set in their ways, but this just shows we all share similar experiences and it's so nice to see how raw and real you can be cause it's not always sunshine and rainbows

[@OhanaAnna]

parents not respecting their children's boundaries, or even listening to what they say, just bc they're "parents" it's fucking real and i'm glad u opened up about it. I'm lucky enough to say that, personally, me and my parents have gotten better over the years but it's been a very slow and frustrating process, for both them and me. I just hope it gets better for you too Mai, hang in there 💗

[@mwqooora]

Did the dad smoke???? Or the mom

[@OhanaAnna]

@@mwqooora i dont think she's mentioned it

[@mwqooora]

@@OhanaAnna dad??

[@imeunhae7933]

I've discovered your channel today and watched a bunch of your videos. I already liked the vibe in those, but this video makes it even more relatable in a way. In the end, it's not 'just a little thing', it's the accumulation of things. So thank you for showing this as well.

[@hannah-eg5tc]

i related to this so much. i’m actually still living with my parents because i can’t move out yet. about 3 years ago was when i decided i wanted to move out. ever since that day, i have never changed my mind. there were times when i though it was getting better, but it never lasted long. mai, you give me inspiration and motivation. you make me believe that i can move out one day. no matter how many people tell me that i shouldn’t, i will still be able to move out because of you. when i finally move out one day, the first person i think of will be you, the first person i thank will be you. you keep me going, you keep me from giving up. mai, you are so special to me, you’ve done so much for me, i really want you to know that. thank you so so much